side notes

Stayed up late watching "The Purge" movies

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-05

02:00 bedtime

no wbtb, no middle of the night recording, but I did wake during the night for recall, the dreams came in across 2-3 wakings and I managed to remember at least some of them, there were more but they degenerated into fragments or I forgot them entirely

10:30

+ playing space video game, frag ship following close with phasers. The screen fills my vision, there are lots of ship on screen I'm firing torpedoes and trying to detonate enemy torpedoes, I'm changing course drastically and setting full speed to dodge. I'm not sure what team I'm on (orion or klingon?) but figure later I'm klingon, I see a romulan ship at one point and maybe a federation. At one point I have a fed ship close on my tail I'm moving from left to right, he's right on my tail not quite at 9 o-clock but close enough, I fire several phaser bursts straight to the left and he disappears, I guess I got him.

+ in a prison/hospital, one guy wants to move to the special room. I'm walking/talking with one patient (young male short blonde hair) he wants to go to the room. It's behind bars, the room is large-ish but I'm warning him if he goes in there he'll be spending his entire sentence in there.

+(f) wife is at checkout counter

+(f) downtown B, lots of gourmet restaurants, but they're empty and advertising for chefs

+ in old house, we only have room for the A family or someone else, walking around over sleeping guests. The A's could stay in a hotel, but could also stay with us, there's someone else who wants to stay with us.

+ picking flowers at the childhood playground. I start at the middle level where the clubhouse was, I want to pick flowers for a girl I like, I'm holding a large-ish tall crystal vase in my left hand, I pick a few flowers but they're too short and they fall down inside. I'm looking at one flower that looks like a black tulip with a green stem sticking up out of the flower. Starting to walk down to the lower/basketball level, someone with me stops to lean over the clubhouse railing to take a drink from the drinking fountain. I put down the crystal vase and it almost falls over, I catch it before it does and steady it. Down on the lower level I decide I want some white daisy flowers, I see them growing on the hillside between the levels, I walk over to the hill and jump up on two concrete benches near the hillside and jump onto the hill. I'm picking one daisy flower, I'm trying to reach down all the way to its base so that I get a long enough stem so that the flower will come out of the top of the vase and not just fall down inside. I'm a bit concerned about bugs as I reach down into the clump of green plant stuff where the stem emerges from. I pick several flowers. Some flowers come wrapped in brown paper wrapping with clear plastic windows like rolls from the bakery, one flower is a double-headed flower. I see that my wife has brought the procession of people down to this level so I don't have to climb back up.

A lot of stuff happened, and I had more than one dream, but I think this is all from the same one.


PART 1: I was living in a home similar to my apartment. My 9yo brother and mom were there, as well as another adult and another kid. I can't remember the whole story, but there was some kind of conflict within the family. The final part involved me putting my brother to bed and saying something comforting. I heard my mom go, "STOP," from her room.


PART 2: I was in my grandma's backyard at night with some other guy. He pointed out a big and bright red star cluster thing and said it was Israel (which is a star cluster according to dream logic, I guess) and that it was normally not visible were we were (a city). I thought to myself, I wonder if I can see the Pleiades from here? Sure enough, there was a smaller blue cluster nearby.

Suddenly, and I shit you not, the "Pleiades" start shifting around until they formed a large rectangular pattern in the sky, which proceeded to zoom away. "Holy shit, holy fuck, HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!" I said. I'm not saying it was aliens, but it was aliens.

But wait, I thought, I might be dreaming. I pinched my nose and sure enough, I could breathe. I was disappointed, but my attention quickly shifted to the fact that I was now lucid, and I remembered that I needed to keep the dream stable. My vision became narrow. There were two black bars above and below where my vision was, and I could see my glasses in front of my face. I felt like I couldn't fully open my eyes. I figured I may as well summon a girl while I was "there". It took a few attempts, but I finally summoned one.

My vision returned and the dream felt stabilized. I ended up in a house where two people were going at it on the floor. The one on top (not sure if it was a guy) moved out of my way, giving me full access to the girl. However, I had quite a bit of trouble entering her. No matter how much I tried to manually "open" her, my dream logic porn dick would not go in. I did manage to get inside of her once, but it was uncomfortable.

After that, I woke up, but I took me several seconds to fully realize it.

TL;DR Domestic conflict, aliens, and I finally got lucid for more than fifteen fucking seconds.


I just got an idea. If I were to see a UFO or some other paranormal thing in waking life like I did here, I would do a reality check just to make sure I wasn't dreaming (again, like I did here). What happens to you in waking life can affect dream events. So, if I watch a lot of YouTube videos about UFOs and whatnot, I might dream about them more, thus increasing the likelihood of me doing a reality check and becoming lucid.

It seems like it might work. I'll try this tonight. What do you think?

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.

Dream 1
I'm walking towards home and pass through the settlement bottle-o area when I see a car drive passed me slowly. It's a female driving and she's having a good look at me and says "hey good lookin". She parks her car not to far away and walks towards the entrance of the settlement. I'm tempted to go talk to her or at least give her my phone number. I miss my opportunity and even think about leaving my number on a piece of paper and put it on her car, but decide to just not worry about it.

Im at my house now and I'm watching a pornographic film, staring the girl I saw at the settlement. She looks pretty thin and is getting rag dolled a little in the film. The couple are now standing while she is riding him. The area around her pussy looks as if it's caved in, looks pretty strange. It's as if she is anorexic.

Dream 2
I'm in a school room which feels like my old primary school. The teacher has made my seating arrangement at the front of the class, next to some girl. The girls seat is vacant for now. As I sit down I notice that a mixed martial arts fight is on the TV. One man is dominating the other in the fight and the ref calls it off due to the other man not being able to intelligently defend himself. Shortly after the ref walks over to the officials who are outside the cage. He talks to them through the cage with his back towards the fighters. The man who won the fight runs over to the still downed opponent and starts to beat him up again, even though the fight is over. It's pretty disgraceful to watch and not a good look for the sport. The man who won pleads his case with the ref on why he attacked the downed fighter. He spoke in broken English and sounded as if he probably spoke Portuguese.

I start to think about how I've changed since being sick and that I needed to mention to a friend on why my personality has changed slightly. It was Chris from work.

Dream 3
I'm playing battlefield 4 on a map called Siege of Shanghai. I'm in the middle of the map underneath where the roof campers usually shoot from. I have a spray bottle in the hand which has a mixture of vinegar and water. I spray the enemies which temporary blinds them. As they run away shielding their eyes I sneak closed to them hoping to get a knife take down on them.

Dream Fragment 1
Rex goes missing and comes home a little wet. Then lose him again.

Dream Fragment 2
In a paddock and my dog is with a couple animals. They have been transported to another area where we're moving to. The house that uses to be built has vanished. It's as if it had been folded up and transported away.

Side Notes:
Not sure if I heard alarm each time it went off. Woke up a few times and recalled dream but fell asleep in the process. Need to repeat mantras more often due to waking up and not reality checking.

Dream
8:30am

I'm with Daryl and we're playing cricket near my primary schools crossing is. I hit the ball which rolls down the road. Daryl chases the ball but the ball is too quick. I tell him not to worry about it and that I would chase it. He stops midway to allow me to fetch the ball. I run after the ball.
Auntie Riter is now with us at the crossing. Auntie and I leave and walk over to the doctors which is 10-15 metres away. I sit down in one room and Auntie in the other. There's around 10 people waiting to be seen. I see that the TV is turned on and has something interesting on while people wait. The chairs are really comfortable (most aren't where I live). Even the lady behind me is talking about them being comfortable. The lady starts rocking back and forth, making my chair do the same thing. I find it a pleasant feeling and think about pretending to put a coin in the side of my chair as a joke to keep going if she stopped. I see some darker skinned people around me and we're all being extremely friendly to one another. There's an announcement in the doctors saying that if you don't have anything overly serious that you won't be seen today [i think it was getting late and closing soon]. It now feels like I've been sitting down for a few mins since the announcement but I lost track of time, it's as if I was day dreaming for that period. As i come to, I see there's some nurses that have come out to ask what's wrong with the remaining people sitting. The nurses seem really friendly and they're saying bye to some people. One of the nurses says bye. We both kiss one another on the cheek.

Auntie and I leave the doctors. She doesn't seem too happy about how they treated the not as sick people, by sending them home. I see that Daryl is sitting on the grass near the crossing. He's looking miserable and bored.

Im now walking through a town then into a shopping complex. I walk passed a shopping centre which has TV's that people can watch at the entry. Myself and some other people walking passed get drawn into watching the singer that's on the TV.

I walk into a store and look around. I realise I have something in my hand and think it may be best if I ask for one of their store bags so they don't have to check my items as I leave. I line up and asks for a bag. The checkout lady jokingly says no you can't have a bag. I joke back and pretend to be upset that I can't have a bag. I help myself to a bag. The darker skinned people from earlier are behind me and I smile and act friendly towards one another. They're quite full on in their personalities. Even know I was comfortable and friendly towards the people, I still felt a little uneasy about them.

As I leave the shop I see my Uncle Bryce. He asks me a question about where a store is. I point him in the direction of where I just came from, which was 10 metres from where I am sitting. He is kinda confused while looking in the direction which I gave him. He repeats again where he's wanting to go which is Aldi. I get up and open a door which is near us and point into the distance at the Aldi store, which is 1 or so km's away.

I can now see the deploy screen of a game I play regularly (battlefield 4) which has commentary of someone explaining how to know if you're dreaming while playing the game. I'm quite intrigued by what he's about to say as I tend to have a few dreams about this video game. It starts to feel as if I've been engulfed inside the game and inside a helicopter which is not under my control, but that of the man commenting. It's now in 3rd person and I see the helicopter shooting down attack boats. I can even see the crosshairs on the screen also. We seem to be getting chased by enemy's. The air crafts don't look normal and have a kind of a stealth bomber look to them. Our helicopter drops bombs that can kill pursuing enemies in their paths. The first attempt fails, so we speed up and try again in case we were too close the previous time. We fly into what looks like a underground car park and can see one of those stealth bombers parked up. It looks a strange colour as we approach it. We either fly or roll over it as we pass.

Side Notes:

Training myself to stay still and remember my dreams as my alarm goes off. Had trouble first few nights as the alarm needed to be closer to me. I put it on my opposite pillow and if worked a charm. I was awakening without moving a muscle and thinking about my dreams. Too bad a fell asleep a lot during the process, need to be a bit more aware. May need to tweak alarm volume to find that perfect volume to not wake me up too much or too little.

Hello! Wow, it has been a long time. I will continue to update this journal because I type a lot faster than I write, and I have lost many of my dreams due to laziness of not wanting to write them out.
Well, in the past year, I have had a few crazy dream and psychic experiences! I mean, absolutely uncanny stuff!!! I will update with a few posts updating them and explaining them.

In the past year, a lot has happened to me. My worldview has completely changed due to my insistence on trying to develop my psychic abilities, and dreaming recall and abilities. I am a completely different person now. I have actually met someone from my dreams that I had been dreaming about for about two years beforehand, involving a spiritual connection I would assume. I know it sounds hard to believe, but I didn't believe it til it happened! More on this later. It is amazing how our world truly is when you peel away your biases and just let things happen to you- and believe them when they do. ^_^

I'm at university attending a lecture about the basics of OpenGL.
The teacher doesn't really seem into it, and none of my classmates seem interested.
To be honest, neither am I, but for a different reason.
The other students are not interested in graphics programming,
whereas I'm already quite comfortable with both Direct3D and OpenGL.
Why am I attending this class again? Perhaps for some easy credit points?
That doesn't sound like me though.

Once class is over, I hear some people discussing that they wouldn't come back
and choose another course instead. If that many people leave, this course is
going to be cancelled, and I'll have to find another one as well.
I'm mildly annoyed.

Eventually, as the lecture comes to an end, I suddenly realize that I am dreaming.
I'm not sure what gave it away.
I touch everything in close vicinity to assert that the dream is stable.
There is some initial numbness, but eventually my senses appear to be working properly.
I leave the classroom, trying to remember my dream goals...
It's not working, I can't remember anything.

I'll go visit Yuya. It has been a long time since I've seen her because Faye is messing with my dreams.
But then, just as I want to teleport to Riven, I spot a familiar face.

It's Kate! What is going on? Why is she here?
(Not a real image of Kate. Kate is an ex-gf from waking life)

She smiles. And that is all it takes to stir up old emotions, which I left behind long ago.
I'm in love again. Great... I had enough trouble getting over her as it is.
Why does it all have to come back to me now?
I reluctantly decide to ignore her and visit Yuya, as I had planned,
but something goes wrong during my attempt of teleportation...



... I'm in an apartment with Kate. I think that she is my classmate now, and that we're living together.
This is our apartment. Everything is perfect.
I am living with the woman of my dreams, we're both about to graduate,
and we have our future planned out.
It is late in the evening and I go to the bathroom to take a shower.
The water temperature knob isn't cooperating.
I seem to be dealing with something like this:


Kate joins me in the shower and she has no trouble adjusting the temperature properly.
The water is now refreshingly cold, just the way I like it.
Kate moves closer and kisses me passionately. I love her so much.
And she is so beautiful. I stare into her green eyes as we kiss...
Wait... this is not right. Those are clearly Kate's eyes, but... they feel... empty?
Oh no...
Why?
I am emotionally devastated...

This isn't Kate. This is Faye.
It feels as though I've lost Kate again. I am so sad.


Faye is now holding a rose and handing it to me.
I get the feeling that she is trying to apologize?
That does make feel a little better. Will I finally be able to reason with Faye?
I take the rose. I cut one of my fingers on a thorn. Ouch!
A single drop of blood emerges and falls to the ground.

Something is wrong...
I sense something moving through the small cut, into my hand, and then up my arm.
I get vivid flashbacks of the bee birthing blisters. Not again!
I drop the rose. But I'm too late.
Stems covered in thorns grow through my veins and sprout out of my body in various places, causing me to bleed.
More and more blood flows down into the shower. The water slowly turns red.

"Faye. Please make it stop!"
"No."
"..."
"Please! I'm sure whatever the problem is, I can fix it."
"There is no need for this!"
"I don't want the problem to be fixed."

What? Why? I don't understand.
I just barely manage not to freak out. The parasitic plant hardens in my veins making me unable to move.
The pain increases as the plant grows bigger.
Fuck fuck fuck.

"Faye! Talk to me! What is the problem?"

She doesn't reply. She just smiles, satisfied with the current situation.
I can't take it any more. I need to wake up!
I close my eyes, trying to think of my waking body lying in bed.
But I don't wake up...
Instead I begin to see, even though my eyes are closed.

She laughs at me and my inability to do anything.
Then she moves in and kisses me on the lips.
No. I don't want this.
My fear turns into anger.
I scream at the top of my lungs, wanting to push Faye away from me.
The hardened plant finally gives in under the force and breaks in many places within my body.
I push against Faye hard with both of my hands.
She is pushed through the glass shower door, which shatters into pieces.

She is cut in many places by the broken glass. She is bleeding and her blood mixes with mine on the floor.
This is so fucked up. She still looks like Kate. This is not right. I don't want to hurt her.
She again laughs at the current situation. She clearly feels like she has accomplished something.
She is satisfied. Finally, she gets up and leaves the room and I manage to wake myself up.

Well fuck. -_-
This is enough. This needs to change. Now.
I'm going to WBTB, probably do some meditation to focus my thoughts, WILD and tackle the problem with a hopefully clear head.

To mention something a little more positive, I have updated my Dream Journal Description.
I've also found this really cool painting by Sakimichan, which made me think of Yuya:

She obviously doesn't have the long pointy ears, but I thought that this painting just radiates so much energy, just as Yuya does.
There's also been a strong blue/orange theme in my dreams lately. I thought this was a pretty cool find.

TOTAL DREAMS: 81

TOTAL LUCID: 4

Average dreams per night: 2,6

Dreamsigns: Prison, school, begin/ending of school (year), danger, stress, friends, night sky, war, alone

Best technique(s): DEILD, SSILD

Personal evaluation: Interrupting sleep with early alarms lowers overall DR and should be replaced with naturall awakening using auto-suggesting.

Goals for next month: 8 lucid dreams and an average DR of 3 dream per night.

Special notes: /

11:12 pm

I got 3mg melatonin tablets. I'll test them to see if they produce lucid dreams. So far, people have told me that they experienced realistic and/or wild vivid dreams. Also, I was told that 3mg is supposedly too much, as we only need to take 1mg. There is an option to cut the tablet in half, but I will start with the tablet's dose (for convenience; no other reason).

Time and techniques.

I had varied results from using various techniques. None were ever consistent. Results fade away with time, and the techniques simply become repetitions. So far, I've had the most vivid and memorable dreams when I sleep after 6 a.m. and wake up a little before noon.

Alarm.

Dreams also scatter quickly when I use an alarm clock, depending on the tone. When I use music, I quickly forget and just sing or listen to the music. Music also brings various images that could have changed the dream images. LD-related sounds, e.g. "Are you dreaming?", helps me focus on what I was dreaming before.

Light.

I sleep lighter with the lights on, and the dreams also seem more memorable. When the lights are off, I can barely get myself to move to turn on the lights or at least grab a pen and a notebook and "blind write" some keywords. It seems ideal to keep the lights on, but I'm concerned how this will affect the dream process.

Practice.

I won't be working on this daily. I have a limited supply of tablets, and at the same time, I'm concerned how long the effects of the tablet last in the body. I don't want it to accumulate as it could ruin the data for this experiment. I also have other activities IRL. However, I plan to stick to a consistent time for the week for sleeping, e.g. 11 pm the entire week, 3 am the next, and 8 am after.

Techniques.

Test 1: Melatonin alone, no other practices, e.g. meditation or WILD techniques. Sleep before 12 mn.
Test 2: Melatonin with meditation before sleeping.
Test 3: Melatonin with WILD technique.
Test 4: Melatonin with LD-related alarm.

Time part 1.

Test 1-4: Same as above except sleep after 2 am.

Time part 2.

Test 1-4: Same as above except sleep after 6 am.

Start date: Next week, August 6, 2014 (Wednesday).

I've been inactive for quite a while now. But, I am planing on making an effort to get back into the routine of things. Honestly, it's the off the wall (and extremely memorable) dreams I've been having lately, I think, that's pushed me to try LD'ing again. I had made some vague kind of progress prior, but not much. So, hopefully shooting for farther this time. Also, I kind of rebooted everything (deleted the old DJ posts, for various reasons) and am likely going to limit my posts on here to only the particularly interesting dreams.
Now, without further ado, the dream:

I was taking a nap. When I later woke up, I felt slightly confused for some reason. Something seemed off, but I couldn't quite figure out what exactly it was. I looked at my hands, thinking that I was in a dream. My room was very dark so I could only faintly see it, but it was definitely there. On my hands I noticed some slightly glowing writings (the kind of glow you see if you stare into a light-bulb for a while and then look away and it's kind of burned into your vision) I couldn't tell what they were but didn't care. I tried to change something in the dream and it didn't work, so although I was extremely confused as to what was going on, I went back to sleep. When I woke up again, (still in the dream, of course) I was somewhat scared now. I couldn't tell what time it was, and apparently I didn't notice that my room was slightly rearranged and I had a somewhat different desk. As usual, my computer was still on but asleep. I checked the digital clock next to my bed, it was 9 something AM. What the? I don't usually wake up this early! Hey, school is coming around the corner soon and I need to get back into schedule anyways. I'll stay up for the rest of the day and try to go to bed a little earlier than usual. Also, I was confused as it seemed to be the middle of the night. After seeing that time on the clock, it seemed to be early morning-ish from what I could tell. I could slightly recall some sort of flashing in the dream I was having during my sleep. (Dream inside a dream? INCEPTION MUCH?) As I got up, my phone notification light was blinking on the little plastic table by my bed. It was a message from a friend. (not a waking life friend, just some random part of the dream, I guess) I got the vague feeling this friend was a bit of a cocky jerk. You know, the kind who gets all the girls? Anywho, the message said something along the lines of "There's some kind of temple near you. Don't leave where you are right now." Again, no temple near where I am. What is he talking about? And besides, I wasn't going to leave the house anyways. I went onto my computer and recall looking something up about aliens. Something I can't recall must've happened because I got even more scared than I was before. The tension in the dream was on high as I got up to go turn on the light. I assumed that flash I saw in my dream must've been some kind of lightning strike finding its way into my dream, and that the power was out. I suppose it kind of made sense. I went to check with someone else in the house and see if they knew what was going on, as I was still pretty dazed. (and again, slightly frightened) However, as I walked through the dark hall, something happened (I can't recall exactly what) and I ran back into my room terrified. As I came in, I saw a black CMD box on my computer. Was I programming? I have bene learning Python lately and I got a little into C++, but I don't recall doing any of that. It was blurry from where I was though so I ran over and read it. It said "RUN RUN RUN" Each of the "RUN"s were separated by about a paragraph, and when I tried to collect my thoughts and look at the bottom line again, it said "Um" or something like that. At this point, I was just plain horrified, I screamed as loudly as I could for help and ran out of my room for the nearest person I could find. But as I got to the door, I suddenly felt the kind of crippled, dazed sensation of a violent head rush and fell partially to my knees. I scrambled to my feet, pretty much on the edge in terms of consciousness and still screaming, and ran for the other person's room. This person was naked from the bottom down, which I noticed and quickly assumed was because they slept naked or something. I (pathetic, I know) jumped up next to them in the bed and curled up in fear, crying and squeaking like some kind of scared little child. A few seconds later, I woke up. (Oh, and said person did NOT seem to care about how terrified I was acting. Which is strange because in my waking life they would likely be at full attention and asking me what's going on. Not to mention, I think most people would act at least slightly more caring if their loved one came screaming and scrambling into their room and then curled up next to them and shriveled up in fear.)

Also, I'd like to note that upon waking, I felt a bit of pain in my sides that I felt was relevant to the dream.

Dream 1
Recorded at 7:15am

I'm at the main shopping centre in my home town. I'm with my brother and I notice there's some kind of party going on. We see Nathan Carrot and he's looking a bit lost. I go over to him and get him a blanket, as if the blanket is some kind of in thing and cool.

I'm standing outside the swimming pool entrance on the grass near the road. I'm with a few people including a security guard which ran the party I think, and a boxer. He is waving people back who're trying to come through the entrance. I see proctor and he's a bit upset at the guard who's telling people to turn back. He pleads his case about it only being 11pm.

I'm in a clothes shop with only myself and the person that works there. I seem to be standing in front of an area of clothes for a while, and not doing a hell of a lot. I look back and see that the worker is dosing off at the counter. I think to myself that anyone who steals would go to town on this store if he fell asleep like that. He awakens as I start to walk out of the store. I say something along the lines of "bye sleepy head" lol.

I approach a elevator and walk into it. I see a famous AFL football played by the name of Bryce Gibbs. It's just him and I in the elevator. I start a convocation regarding when he's next game is. He smiles and says something. I feel a little uneasy due to being In the presents of a celebrity.

As I leave the elevator I see a group of people, which includes my brother and cousin Trav. I catch up to them and notice my brother is holding his eye. He tells me he got punched in the face by a women at the party. He seems pretty up beat about it though. He tells me he got punched due to lying about who was on the phone. He said that someone famous was on the line as a joke and for a fist to the face for it lol.

I see either my cousin Rach or Sarah Wadsworth. They're waiting for the commonwealth games flame to be passed on to her. She offers for me to run with her and holding it at the same time. I think I will do it with her. She walks over towards the entrance of the place that sells dirt end stones and tells the girl with the flame that she's ready to take the flame off of her. I think to myself that she's in the wrong area and needs to be on the other side to get it off the person coming in the opposite way. The flame bearer mentions the same thing to her.

She heads off somewhere and I wait for her at the bottom of a water slide. There's 3 or 4 possible water slides to choose from. I see a scene of people coming down the water slides and they look as if the speed they come down is slow. Some even come to a stop as they reach the bottom and have to push themselves off the edge into the water. I see personal belongings to my cousin or Sarah and expect the worst. I seem to think its Kaykey who's coming down the slide and that she pregnant.

As I continue to wait I see 2 dogs which come up to me. They look similar to Trigger and Rex. As I pat them they growl, but I think in the sense of jealousy.

I leave through a backyard and wait for my cousin/Rach/Kayley to hopefully meet me at McDonald's.

Dream 2

I'm at my house, inside my bedroom. I see my brother and Germain.

I'm on the computer playing the game 'need for speed world'. I'm using a dark silver car, and try to impress the guys with my driving. I seem to be hitting walls a bit but driving ok. I can see the lucid dreaming affirmations flicking on my screen while playing. I hear a noise in the background and it's Germain doing something with his saliva In his mouth, as if he was swishing it in and out of his mouth quickly.

I am now on the side of the road. It looks as if I'm near the train boom gates down monohans rd. As I'm standing there, I see the main character of the cartoon/book. He walks passed on the opposite side of the road. He looks as If he is in stilts. He's at least 10ft tall. I think to myself "WTF" as he continues to walk but at a unrealistic speed. I'm pretty sure something is not right and do a hand RC. I notice that I have a finger missing.

I see a car drive passed and I wave it down so I can talk to someone [I've never actually had a proper convocation with someone in a dream, and would like to start experimenting with it]. The car continues to drive as I stand onto the road. I see a man in the distance walking my way. I start to walk toward him feeling pretty great, knowing exactly what I was intending to do (talk to the DC about anything). I reach him and try to talk but my speech is slurred again (my previous lucid dream was the same). The man kind of looks at me. The dream fades out quickly and I decide to do a DEILD but as I await my legs become extremely itchy which disturbs my focus, and the alarm goes off anyways.

Dream 3
Recorded at 9:05am

I'm at the park near my old house and I see a sniped marksman in the distance, laying down on a hill. I think about scoping in and heading from a distance but I realize he has his back to me and decide to sneak up on him. As I get closed to him I hope that he doesn't hear me sneaking towards him. As I reach him he is kinda facing towards me and I panic and try and shoot him. All my shots miss, even a point blank range shot.

We start talking after that awkward moment and he asks If I'm a noob and I kinda feel a little shitty at my performance as he says it, cause I rate myself a lot higher then a noob. I can see Rhianna the famous singer in the distance. I notice She's wearing fashionable clothes and just wandering around the park with a bit of a crowd with her. I think my brother and another person I know is at the skate half pipe across from the park. No one is there, so they can enjoy it for themselves.

Dad comes over to where myself and the sniper kid is. Dad notices that the sniper has been fishing and steals his fish. The first fish has beautiful colors of triangles on it's back and front. Dad puts it in his own tub of water to keep it fresh. Dad grabs another fish from the kid, this time the fish is already in batter. He takes it out of the batter and places the fish down in the dirt. I think about the filthy ground with the fish on it and tell dad not to leave it there. He then places it in his water tub but the tub now has little water left. I start to fantasize about seeing Rhianna kissing me or someone else in public and see if it would end up in the headlines. I assume that with all the smart phones that the possibility would be high.

Side Notes:
I forget to stabilize my dream which doesn't help the length of the dream. I need to start reminding myself to really observe the surrounds and use the effective techniques. I seem to have a lot of lucid dreams around the time of my alarms go off. It's as if my body is beginning to awake itself which makes me more aware in my dreams which brings on the lucidity? I guess I can DEILD as my alarm goes off (I have preset alarms throughout the night which turn themselves off after a couple seconds)

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-30

ugh "recall recoil" night, poor recall tonight, only 4 short dreams, no recording during night, so mucho detail lost, must have been tired, feel actually fairly well rested today.

01:00 pre-bedtime

01:15 (?) bedtime

Wife IWL keeps coming to me (3 times!), turning on the light, and insists I look at the toothbrushes and identity which toothbrush is mine, and after pointing mine out, each time I say "I'm trying to sleep I don't care about the toothbrushes, I'll go buy a new one tomorrow, let me sleep!"

No recording at night so I have no idea about dream times, but in rough order:

+ I have an old white car, it's like a Dodge Dart, some old crap car. It's parked on a moderately steep hill pointing front downwards. I open the hood and there's some sort of metal cover over the engine with the vague impression of engine parts underneath. I start it up. I return to my car and there's another car parked near it. I start driving and turn around and head uphill pressing the accelerator but it doesn't go very fast.

+ I'm walking down CB it's a very steep hill I see entranceways on both this and the other side of the street to underground pathways. My wife tells me about the hidden blueberry fields, I decide to find them, I imagine picking the blueberries off of the bushes.

+ pizza parties everywhere. I'm in a pizza restaurant, I see college housemate MH (for some reason this guy keeps popping up in my dreams even though we were not really close friends...I do see his posts on FB occasionally though) approaching our table, I see his face clearly, I'm really happy to see him, I offer a double high-5, then I turn around and stick my butt in the air for him to spank (!!?), he does and his pizza slides off his plate onto my plate, it's all gooey and mixed up, I don't want to use my hands to separate the pieces, I think mine is the pepperoni one. I then see college housemate NI, and I talk for a while about how NI managed the relationship with the pizza companies and how our house won the competition for most pizza ordered in a year and got a free pizza party as a result.

Heading out to an elevator going down, 2 girls are trying to get position to get next to a guy. Riding up an elevator getting off, the apartment we're going to is open. All the people we know are supposed to be here but there are just two families of people we barely know, they're looking at us as we enter, I see a few cute daughters/wives with beautiful brown eyes, I take the pizza we've brought to the refrigerator and try to put it inside but the shelves are all overflowing with ground meat.

+ selling a small box of my old junk to an aggressive lesbian for over $100. I'm holding a small box of my old junk, old tapes, random crap, I can't believe she will pay me $100 for this junk, she tries to hit me but I avoid it, I start looking at the stuff and decide hey there's some good stuff in here after all, there's the tape to the famous football play, I think I'll just take out and keep the stuff and give the rest of the junk to the lesbian, I'm keeping my eye on her to see if she's noticing me, she tries to hit me again this time she does.

I leave now I'm driving a horse and cart, I have the reins in each hand, I start by "whoa"ing / stopping the horse, then I pull the reins to the left and the horse goes left, then I pull to the right and it goes right, then we approach an narrow metallic stairway/escalator, I wonder if we can get down it, I just keep going and we somehow get down.

While riding I "play" the tape and hear a portion of the famous football play.

I set myself an alarm to wake me up after ~6 hours of sleep.
The idea was to attempt a WILD, which is something I haven't done in a long time.
I figured with a WILD I would remember my goals more easily, and I might be able to tackle the issues I have with Faye.

I wake up from the alarm. I immediately close my eyes again and try to remember any dreams.
All I can remember is a few weak fragments. I do not bother writing them down.
Instead I get up and walk around in my room a little, thinking about my dream goals.
The most important thing would be to deal with Faye. I feel like this is crucial in order to fix my dreams.
I've also been dared to tell her how she makes me feel.
I go back to bed after roughly 5 minutes and attempt to WILD.

I quickly get some HI, followed by the appearance of random faces.
Some scenes begin to form, but they seem to fall apart before I can transition.
I open my eyes a few times by accident. I'm really not used to do this anymore.

After some time I notice that I can see my room even though my eyes are still closed.
Oh. I am actually already dreaming. For some reason I decide to just stand up, even though I know that I've lost many lucids by doing this.
Fortunately this time it works. My body is really heavy though.
I have a lot of trouble moving, but I eventually manage to stand up.

I shake myself, a bit like a dog shaking away water from its wet pelt. Except I shake away the weight. It works. Neat!
I rub my hands together and look around.
I'm not in my room anymore. It's really dark.
Upon closer inspection, I appear to be standing on some dark marble floor, in an empty room that is clouded in dark fog.
Another person appears in front of me. First it's just an outline, but as he comes closer he looks more and more like a normal human being.

Wait what? He looks exactly like me!
I take a step back as I'm really creeped out. I am super uncomfortable encountering myself.
He looks a bit older than myself though... maybe by a few years.

"Who are you?"
"I am Hyu"

Great...

"You're not being helpful."
"Haha, I'm a future version of yourself, of course!"

Right...
So now what? Am I supposed to ask him something?
I probably should. Even though he's still creeping me out...

"So... any future advice for me?"
"Hmm... well... not really."
"Dude!"
"Alright, alright. I can tell you that it is going to work out. Is that helpful?"
"What is going to work out?"
"You'll know."
"Oh for fucks sake, you're pulling the same shit as all of the other DC's"
"Well. What did you expect? I am a DC."
"... you do have a point..."

He starts to walk away from me, but just before he disappears in the fog he addresses me one last time:

"On second thought... maybe you should get that Unreal 4 license. Mess around with it a little you know?"

(I have thought so much about starting my own company over the past few days. Was this what he was referring to when he said that everything would work out?
The comment about getting a UE4 license seems related to this.)

The black fog suddenly starts to move in. Oh shit, the dream is falling apart.
I panic and slam my palms against the ground yelling "PORTAL!".
For some reason this works. I fall through the ground, spin around a little and then crash land somewhere in the city.
I rub my hands against each other very hard. The dream is still unstable, I need to engage my senses.
A young girl eating some ice cream catches my attention. I steal her ice cream cone and take a large bite.

"Hey! That's MY ice cream!"
"Sorry, I need to stabilize."
"Oh, okay."

After the inevitable brain freeze I feel like messing around with dream powers a little.
I don't do this very often. I try to grasp onto the clouds and squeeze them to make it rain.
It doesn't work whatsoever. Well, this is disappointing, but I'm not sure what I was expecting.


Then I notice the presence of a huge stargate. That wasn't here before!
I want to visit Yuya! I point at it and yell:

"Teraluna, Riven!"

The gate dials in and opens a portal. Well, that was easy. Sweet!
I charge at the portal, wanting to jump through.
But at the last moment someone grabs on to me, trying to hold me back.
What the hell? Go away!
...
I can't unsummon him??? WTF? This never fails!
More people run at me, all trying to prevent me from going through the portal.
Oh my god there is an endless stream of them. Hundreds of people all holding me down.

I use my dream powers to release a shockwave to get them off me.
Those who were close to me are thrown a few meters back and they pile up on top of each other.
Then I spot Faye in the middle of it all, controlling the DC's like puppets.
Her smile is pure evil.
She makes a gesture, and the stargate unsummons.

"You're not going anywhere tonight."

I am afraid of her, and angry at myself. I want my dreams back. I am sick of this Faye nonsense.
My katana materializes in my hand, even though I have no desire to summon it.

"Cute."

Faye summons an exact copy of my katana... how...?
This is not right. She can't do that. She doesn't have that power.
Are these her dreams now? Have I lost all control over them?
My desire to visit Yuya fades. I want this dream to end. I feel completely powerless.

"Aww, I thought you would put up a fight. That would have been so cute."
"And oh so idiotic. You don't understand anything."

I have no reply. I close my eyes. This will end the dream...


... I'm in some sort of japanese garden. Probably sight seeing or something? I'm with a few other people. (3 I think)
Everyone is talking about dreams, so I conclude that they must all be DV members.
But I don't understand what they're talking about. Some induction techniques involving butterflies? What?
I feel bad because I can't contribute anything to the discussion.

Then I notice that one of them has purple hair, so obviously she must be ~ Dreamer ~.
I'm somewhat proud of having figured that out all on my own!
I want to do something to impress her. I want to show her something really cool.
And then I have the most glorious of ideas! I am going to use my dream powers to piss a rainbow!
(Oh god why . By the way I'm totally blaming KristaNicole for this. XD)

"Hey Dreamer, check this out!"

I unzip my pants, point my dick upwards at a 45° angle for maximum efficiency and commence some high pressure pissing.
The stream of piss is nothing short of impressive, but it doesn't create a rainbow.
Everyone is giving me this what the hell are you doing look. I don't understand why.
It makes me sad that no rainbow is appearing.

The WILD has helped to some extend. My dreams did contain elements from my dream goals, but I failed to act on them.
It's cool that I saw ~ Dreamer ~, even though I wasn't lucid and I behaved like a complete idiot.
I'm quite disappointed at how I dealt with Faye.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-07-29 Competition #18 night #2

00:20 pre-bedtime setting intention

00:37 bedtime

04:25

1) prayer meeting in (my?) living room, multi-level, some people leave the front door is on the upper level, they are offended, some new people arrive, they are very enthusiastic. I listen to the priest speaking, it sounds like gibberish. Then we're giving a presentation of my database coding project, the code is up on a projector. There are some people there from my job, I wonder what they'll think of me working on this side project on my own.

WBTB

07:15

2) epic long multi-scene dream

ski hill:

ski resort terror attack. I am flying DO high above the ground I see a bomb go off and little people fly far in every direction: up, down, left, right, in the air. I watch this replay several times trying to get a good view.

High DO view of people skiing fast down steep rocky slopes. I see little skiers skilfully navigating the slopes among the rocks. I then see some skiers not so skilfully navigating, they fall and their bodies scrape along the rocks. There is a hill shining in the sun the skiers try to get to the top of the hill at a precise time so that they get the special reflection from the sun as they ski down.

There is another path down the mountain to see the reflection, it is a narrow path along a steep crevice. I am there with a group, including Spock and Bones from Star Trek. The track is only one ski wide and I'm saying "oh there's no WAY I'm going to go on that." I can't imagine how when wearing long skis one can even pick up the back ski to place it in front of the front ski to make progress. There is a sharp turn coming up ahead.

lightsaber lab:

I'm observing some light-saber fight between two Darth-Vader like beings, I imagine their lightsabers clashing and the handles getting fused and stuck together. I imagine jumping in to the battle then with my own lightsaber, slicing the bottom of the two stuck lightsabers in half to destroy it, while then taking the top one and using it.

We're approaching a big door, we have to open it somehow, we're then inside but we're still trying to figure out how to open something, I go further into the huge low-lit room and find a workbench with some aspect of the code/security system. I activate it and feel my cell phone ringing/vibrating in my pocket. Of course! I set up this system to call me to ask for the code phrase! I open my phone (it's a flip phone) and try to read the code phrase which is written on a piece of paper tacked to a wall of this work area. Some sort of small cage has been dragged across the code sentence leaving a word in the middle unreadable. The letters in the other words are kind of washed out too but recognizable as words.

I walk by another tall lab bench and see several early models of lightsabers that we were working on, I "recognize" them. One of them is like a toy with a plastic blade, I turn it on and swing it around and it makes some faintly recognizable lightsaber "bzzing" sounds.

A young woman appears and is telling me that she remembers me as the guy who was always falling over slowly to the ground. I'm really embarrassed/angry about this, I tell her angrily that that was only before I was 12 years old and had yet to develop a sense of balance!

My college roomate CL appears and starts packing up some large rectangular plates. I think these were the things he was working on in the lab. Will he bring them back?

A group of people are gathered together sitting closely. One guy is sitting on a horse who is sitting on the ground. The horse has no skin and I see the fibrous muscles, dark and tough, though, like horse jerky, not bloody. "Them's are good eats!" I say, hoping the horse guy will share, I think he will.

star trek:

We're on the bridge of a Star Trek ship, there are various captains chairs. Some communication is received there is a dangerous situation. I see two people sitting on chairs, one has super long dreadlocks/tentacles for hair and is encased in a clear protective bubble. The crew must abandon ship.

I'm in an escape pod, I see a view of the ship as the escape pod detaches: it looks sort of like concentric round rings of various rocket boosters. I see this several times, I feel a jerk as the escape pod finally gets moving.

Down on the surface of an alien planet, with the group from our ship, I have a high DO view as a more experienced crew member tells about this planet, it's (something like) the "Ice Ceiling" planet. Instead of a sky there is a high ceiling and large chunks of ice can fall from it. As he says this I see a large chunk of ice fall down and cover the group.

The group is standing on top of a hill and the experienced crew member brings out the instruction manual for this planet. He reads how one should target (the aliens?"). You draw a line along each of the (triangular?) feet, then draw a line between these two and you have the sensitive spot.

In a city (on the planet?) there are large buildings. Instead of numbers for addresses they use large books of famous literature nailed to the buildings.

Back in the Star Trek ship:

Someone is speaking with Scotty, he will be leading the new Star Trek shows. I (or somebody?) asks "is that the New New shows or the Old New shows?"

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long back to sleep...yet another back to sleep success. It's hot, bed is uncomfortable, but I persevere and fall asleep.

almost WILD/start-of-dream DILD? A dream starts and I realize it's a dream and I wake up. Perhaps vivid HI. I was in some sort of building/prison, building/inspecting a fence.

09:45

3) I'm interacting with two girls from the yearbook club. Then I'm in with the entire yearbook club and there's a big song-and-dance number.

I'm observing a spy who's in disguise talking to a spy target of his. The spy has a terrible disguise: an entire set of false teeth that start falling out as he's speaking, so the row of false teeth is clearly visible in between the two rows of his real teeth.
Then there's a view of an all-white cart/truck that falls down from the sky to appear, the "fence" of the truck are like large false teeth, rectangles rounded on top.

I'm trying to stop/work a tape recorder, there is important information on the tape, I see the tape playing past the end and the tape entirely unravelling from one reel. I eventually find the stop button but it's too late. I wonder how I'm going to get the tape put back together.

I'm entering a small room and closing the door. I have my ipad with me and I'm planning a session of "personal entertainment." Then in a semi-lucid flash of inspiration I realize, "Hey, I could go get a real girl!" I leave the room start walking out ready to start the search but I wake up.

It felt like waking up from a lucid dream, but I don't think I thought I was dreaming fully so I won't count it as lucid.

29.07.2014

A Non-Intentional Lucid Dream (Note)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Hey, everyone. I used to have a journal a few years ago, where I kept record of my lucid dreams. I only had two that I had written about and posted to Dreamviews.

Since then I haven't thought that much about Lucid Dreaming. Well, I had but I knew I was too lazy to actually be able to induce one. I tried to WILD a few times, nearly making it before backing out due to the fear of sleep paralysis. The lucid dream I had last night occurred randomly. It started off as an ordinary dream.

It started with me walking around one of my old apartments I used to live in. My mom came up to me and told me that a girl was on her way to see me. (This girl is an aquaintance to me in real life.)

I asked why, and she looked at me perplexed and told me that we were in a relationship. For some reason I didn't believe it, and went outside to try and clear up my confusion. (Usually, I would've just gone with it. So I must've been somewhat aware for some reason.)

The outside consisted of my hometown. All the buildings were there, all the convenience stores and whatnot, so everything was very convincing. But I decided to step out onto the street. My plan was to get hit by a car. I stood there and waited for minutes, but a car never showed up. That's when I understood that this was a dream. That was also the point I became aware of my surroundings and turned this ordinary dream into a lucid dream.

As I became aware the world around me looked so much more real in my eyes. It's amazing how real dreams can look when you're lucid. You could almost spend your entire time observing the enviroment. However, seeing as I don't have lucid dreams that often I decided to see what I could pull off.

I tried to keep my cool, because I knew how fragile dreams could be once the person in it becomes aware. I walked around the sidewalk beside the road and observed the dream characters. I saw a few of them walk around in an everyday fashion, and I approached one of them. It was a man. I pointed at him and said "Take him away." and he simply vanished. I meant him no harm, seeing as I was just trying out my abilities as I had read them on DV. I was trying to find out what I could and couldn't do.

Afterwards my vision started to blur. I knew what this was, I was about to wake up. I thought of ways to stabilize the dream so I could continue my lucid dream. I tried spinning in one of my other lucid dreams a long time ago, but it didn't help. So instead, I grabbed hold of a sign nearby and just held on to it for a while. I could feel it like it was actually there, and my dream started to stabilize itself again. (This was another trick I learned on DV, touching things in your surroundings during the time you're aware can help stabilize the dream you're in and prolong your state of ludicity.)

I returned to trying to test my abilities. I thought about my options for the time being, and I came up with the idea of creating dream characters instead of getting rid of them. I decided to start with characters based on people I actually know in real life. I started with the girl who was supposed to be my girlfriend in the dream to begin with, and I also made a former crush of mine appear as well. I started off by asking the girl with the plot line related to my dream if she liked me. She told me she didn't, and that she had another person she liked.

I then had a moral dilemma with myself. Could I really trust the words of my own creations? Aren't the dream characters just projections of myself and my subconcious. Truthfully, I didn't know. (I'm not too educated on the inner workings of Lucid Dreaming at all.)

Afterwards, I briefly stared at my former crush and decided it would be best not to ask her anything. So I moved on and started creating more dream characters just for fun. I created one based on a rapper I enjoy listening to. I didn't ask him anything, but I was pleased with the results. I toyed around with the idea of creating my own subconscious and asking him questions, but came to the conclusion that I probably wasn't ready for that yet. I also contemplated trying to fly, as I knew a lot of lucid dreamers end up trying to master the art of flying around their dreamscapes. But I didn't want to fail and wake myself up.

That's when I came up with an interesting idea. I couldn't trust the responses of characters based on people I actually know in real life, but what if I created someone that could give me advice that's just an normal dream character?

I then asked to make someone appear that could give me advice. I turned around to see an Asian man standing adjacent to me. I asked him if he had any advice for me. He nodded and spoke to me. (I don't remember his actual quote, it was very wordy. I couldn't remember it at all when I woke up. But this is what I believe he said, in my own interpretation.)

He said "Don't try to find something because it will not work that way. Just let it happen."

(To be honest, it's a little too vague for me to interpret on my own as it could apply to many things in life. So it's a little difficult to narrow it down to anything specific.)


Afterwards, I got so excited that I woke myself up. I enjoyed this dream a lot. It's been a long time since I've had a actual lucid dream to this calibur. I hope I can document many more of them in the future.