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(night of) 7-01-21

Presleep and meditation

Focusing on the dream group, I get a flash form @stranger - the number 61... but, no, that can't be right, this is my house number lol. Then something else, deeper, about how he designed his room, something about masks... I focus on going to the hotel, to finding @stranger @hilary and @becky ...

Dreams


Early dream, waking at around 1:20 - feeling something, I tried to tell myself something that I did in the dream... something important, I think I met with others but I can't recall when waking - what was it? maybe a dream share? urgh... I KNOW I did something


1) (early morning) I'm in a school, feeling kinda ill, something is in my ears... I take out an ear plug and four more come pouring gout of my ears one after another. I'm still feeling ill though - and I have a test! But it's in a few days so I can revise at the last minute? I'm walking along the school grounds, feeling sick - urgh... I think I have a bit of sick on myself? how did that happen? And people are filing into the hall to take the test - it's today!?! shit! I try to call @becky - I think somehow she can help but I wake before I hear her answer

2) Moving into a new house, a big open plan house with a first floor that overlooks the ground floor, all modern looking wooden floors and surfaces. There is also another floor above, I guess we should be unpacking or something but for some reason I feel this is the perfect time to play hide and seek with the kids!

3) I'm in a restaurant with my wife, eating at a table with her. It's a lovely large conservatory. I become lucid... I start to think about my dream goal - what was it? ah yes, go to the hotel, I walk out and then look behind me : I AM in a hotel! nice. I head back inside and see (what I think are) lots of hotel staff dressed in the hotel colors uniform. I stop a couple, I want to try to find which rooms @becky @hilary and @stranger are staying at, so the maid stops and they both look at me in an odd way - they are just regular people. Urgh, stupid dream being difficult. I head to what looks like an office, I see a lady sitting down at a desk 'you' I point toward her 'Please can you tell me what rooms @stranger @hilary and @becky are staying at?' 'one moment' the lady tells me, she's clearly in the middle of something and is busy typing away... I wait.... I wait... what's taking so long? 'How long is this gonna take?' I ask her, she seems quite stressed now, and and beefy guy comes into the room, I suspect he must be security. damn, this is silly, and I've wasted too much time... the dream fades.

... I'm not quitting yet, I wait patiently to re-enter the dream...

I'm standing around getting some ice cream for my wife across the road to the restaurant. I realise I need to get back to the hotel and rush accross the road and head back, man this is taking forever... (my dream control is so crap still lol) I walk some more , and things get a little washy so I focus on my feet crunching into the gravel as I finally get into the hotel. I walk through the restaurant part and drop off the ice cream for my wife (which I seemed to still be carrying) and as I walk off she shouts where I was going.. nope.. not getting pulled into this.. I go int othe main part of the hotel where the rooms were located. Now things changed, both the style of the hotel and the colors - they became more murky, like I was squinting. Rooms left and right down this narrow long hallway - which are the right rooms? I see '61' ... no, I keep looking - I don't know the numbers of the hotel rooms - what am I looking for? so I start to FEEL my way around, sensing which direction to take. I'm looking for @stranger @hilary and @becky - I get drawn to a particular room. I open the door and again... the interior is totally different to the hallway or to the main hotel, I can see that someone designed this, this is how they wanted their hotel room to look like. It's still kind of blurry, I can mostly make out a large central window, it's kind of arched and low but - angular rather than curved, low pretty much level with the floor - does this ring any bells to anyone??

Then I wake, I can't hold the connection anymore

4) I'm staying in an apartment, feels like it is connected to the earlier hide and seek dream. I need to go and pack my stuff, my wife has already gone so I need to clean up (I said I would) I feel like I have loads of time but I see the time and actually we need to go - now! I hurry up collecting all of my clothes and such that are spread on the floor, I come out of the bedroom and see the kitchen area (again, the apartment is modern looking and very large, the kitchen area is in the middle, feels very open.) I see piles of washing up , dirty dishes and over flowing dirty water. Damn, I can't leave it in this mess, I start to wash up quickly. Then the dream changes a little, I hear a constant cry, a baby or child? they won't stop crying, I think I am waking up, that it is coming from the 'real' world, but then I realize it's inside the dream, a little girl makes herself known, she's very small and very cute, must be about 2-3 years only. (feels like she was in a previous dream) She is not crying anymore, she just wants to play. Then I go with her into the main room, it feels like evening now - I see her dad (reminds me of @stranger) he is working on something for her - a kind of experiment, he takes an old cassette Walkman and somehow makes an interaction to the computer and then something is made - a device of some kind - maybe it makes the little girl into a toy sized version of herself? I can't quite recall, the experiment is quite funny and radical though

(night of) 04-01-21

Presleep/meditation

I'm sitting in my hotel room, focusing on the room and contents of it, I'm with 7 here, we hold hands trying to focus on the room. I'm also trying to transmit this to @stranger using different ideas. After a while I decide to try and find @stranger's room again. I walk into the hall. Oh, nearly forgot - I add the number on the door and some other 'decorations' so that @stranger can find the room. I then follow 7 outside into the hal, she leads me all the way to the bottom of the hallway and I try to deepen my trance/presleep by walking down some steps before arriving at the room. I try a few different things to 'see' @stranger's room. In the end 7 puts her hands over my eyes and then pulls them off. I still can't quite see what is here. I feel around with my feet first of all, I feel a lush comfy carpet underneath my feet, and a metal safe is nearby, I don't know what could be in the safe. I wonder if I am getting confused with @stranger's real place as well or memories. I think the bed is pushed up against the wall and a poster or painting is on the wall also. I see a flash of a guy with shoulder length long hair (similar to the guy that @stranger showed a picture of, but in my mind his hair was shorter and he didn't have a beard) Then I get an octopus, and a flash, I wonder if I am under water? I don't know. I head back to my room and try to pull @stranger in, I focus in on him and I think I get him for the shortest of moments, pulling him inside a kind of cone shape and into my room

1) I'm standing in a large hall, looks like a school theater -but there are actors walking around. It's something to do with a tv show that is being filmed. Michelle Pfeiffer comes in ready to film, I get a bit start struck but get the courage to talk to her. She's very friendly and open. She's talking to me about her career and this tv show - which she asks me what I thought about it (she knows at this point that it isn't being very well received) I try to be honest, the fact that it has her playing as the central character, in a sitcom, with her kids - would probably worked well enough, but all of the other stuff is just too much. Set in a Church? With other main characters like the priest and extended family all living in the church together? That just isn't very funny. I talk about classic shows like Fraiser - she needs to get in contact with those people! I then bring up how Catwoman from the film Batman Returns was one of my fav characters in film of all time, and I go and search for the catwoman figure I made ot show her. But I can't find it. There are shelves everywhere, and it seems I am using this theatre hall as a kind of workshop. I literally just saw this figure though, but my brain and memory isn't working. damn it! I am looking for a while and then my wife joins me, she helps me look around (she's much better at searching for stuff than I am) but ... no, I can't see it anywhere. Now Michelle needs to leave and I tell her that it was nice meeting her, I notice she's wearing this jeans that have this flower pattern going all up the legs.

(night of) 3-01-21

Presleep and meditation

Focusing on my hotel room for @stranger , I'm sitting in the room with 7, looking at her, then focusing on all of the things in the room in detail, walking carefully around the room. Then I dim the lights and see how it looks in the different light. After a while I try to pull @stranger in , but I think it's just a shell. So me and 7 leave the room to look around the hotel, we walk across the hall and into another room, it's strange, it kind of stretches out into infinity, like everything just stretches and stretches into a single point/where you can't see anymore. so when we go inside it we are kind of warped and , well, it feels odd. And then we come out of the other side. I see balloons in the hall or a room, but I dismiss because I know @stranger said he put them there. It's difficult now to stay focused as different imagery comes into play from start of the dream/going into deep sleep. Lots of random stuff I can't quite recall I wonder if it is from @stranger or just me. we make ourselves back to our room, retracing our steps back (well, Im really just following 7) and go back through the strange stretched out wobbly room, across the hallway and into our own room. I sit hear, I tell 7 to smack me every time I start to go under too much - which she does lol. I see maybe an outside, what looks like a large surface, a well? I don't think so, maybe something else (gotta write these down) So I'm able to stay for a bit longer but after a while it's too much and I black out

(night of) 2-01-21

1) I'm walking down the street with a bunch of friends. We seem to be walking back from town. My friend (and famous actor) Brendon Frasier starts getting into an argument with one of the guys/friends. They start shouting at one another and finally Brendon challenges the guy to a fight. I try to talk Brendon down, he's not as young as he used ot be , he's out of shape - he's still cool, but he needs to be careful - this other guy is a professional MMA fighter! Brendon shakes it off and they decide to take advantage of an upcoming event to fight each other 'in the ring' that just so happened to be starting in the next few minutes. We all start walking to this place when Sam stops and sits on the pavement. His guitar is broken and he is trying to re-string it. I WANT to go with the guys, it's way more interesting - but Sam needs me here. I decide to stay and help Sam (though I have no idea about guitars) because I don't want to leave him on his own. I hold down one of the strings while he attaches it. We sit like this for a while and a couple of the guys come back to see what we are doing. They tell us the 'show' has already started, but it's not like it was advertised, Brendon and the MMA fighter have to sit down on these long metal chairs like in a game show and wait until they are called up. Sounds kinda boring.

I see the time - shit - I need to get the train! (recurring dream) I check my belongings and realize I have a large plastic bag with stuff I have been carrying (recurring theme) , it's red and has lots of useless stuff in, some pens, an old christmas present for 'Tom' (which is a mini christmas tree inside the wrapping) . I leave the bag leaning against the post and look for the train station. This is usually the point where I am lost and can't find where it is - but this time I can spot it straight away. It's a huge thing with giant pillars on the sides of it, looks more like a hotel.

After a short while I find myself wandering around the rooms of this building, it feels like a shopping center inside, lots of rooms around and a large area in the middle. Lots of things are going on, people walking, activities, like a convention in a way. I still need to find the train though. I hit a dead end, it's crowded in this alleyway, something is going on. I spot 7 - she is crowded by 'fans' - but she's dressed as a regular lady. She smiles at me, I want to spend time with her but I need to get the train. 'Hi Sean - how are you?' 'I'm fine thanks! do you know where the train is by any chance?' she smiles again and just simply points me in the exact direction of where it is. 'Thank you!' this has an interesting effect on me, as I walk away I become lucid. But as I become lucid everything becomes loose and dissolves. I realize 7 came into my dream and made me lucid for the first time! I carry on walking, it's a long hallway like in a hotel again, I'm trying to keep in the dream but can't hold on and I wake

(NIGHT OF) 29-12-20

Dream Gods

1) 3 dream gods have broken free and are about to tear up the town by manifesting anything and everything! I'm part of a group of people looking out into a kind of large open square, where these 'gods' are looming above us, they are HUGE - 50X the size of a person. The group I am with - we are kind of super heroes (or something) and have been sent to sort this mess out. It's very busy, a reporter is nearby capturing all of this on camera with her crew. I am told to help create a trap, there are 3 bears nearby and it is my job (with two other people) to get the bears to chase us and use the bears to attack the dream gods. The bears are someplace nearby in this suburban area. We walk a couple of blocks, I wonder if the two dreamers with me know that this is a dream or if they think it is real (I don't think of finding @stranger at this point as I am too involved in the narrative of the dream) , I'm not sure who the other two dreamers are/can't recall. At some point I find myself with a small child on my shoulder, she is a tiny little girl - very cute, but very young. At first we can't find the bears. but then we hear them from around the corner and I can already tell that they are giving chase.
We start to run - fast, I forget that the little girl is on my shoulders and wonder if she may have fallen off (which scares me) but no.. I can feel her legs and I grab them tight as we run and lead the bears to the dream gods. We then stand off to one side and let the other dreamers fight the dream gods (urghh... we seem to have been given minor roles) and then I discuss with my wife about adopting this little girl as I don't know where her parents are.

Street party (part 1)
2) I'm in a large shopping center/mall, it's late at night, just one empty space where a shop used to be is open. A kind of party is taking place here - I've been invited by a mate. When I arrive a band is just wrapping up, it's old school rock or grunge playing, I see punks and goths around, it's kind of dirty, people are smoking and drinking. It's nice. I see my mate Lee and go to join him, sitting with his back against the wall. I tell him that it's good to see him. I see a couple of guys race some RV cars around the empty shop floor, they take a tight turn around a row of empty shelves and nearly topple over. I laugh. Lee offers me a last drag on his cigarette, I thank him and take it - but it's all wet at the butt - I pretend to take a drag and then stub it out on the floor.

Street party (part 2)

3) Back with the same guys, this dream happened after some other dreams (that I can't recall) It's still dark, but we are outside, in a suburban area hanging around a disused lot - just a bit of grass between houses tucked away and dimly lit by the street lamps. We are crouched and standing around chatting, one of the guys is goofing around in front of us, where it's a little darker and we can't see as much. I see some movement around him and we call out that he should be careful. First a couple of dogs move around, and then I see an Iguana - then some other animals, and rats. He finally see these creatures and agrees that he should follow our advice and come into the light. We move into the street area, music is playing, I'm chatting to Lee - and I see another guy, he has a shaved head. He gives me this knowing nod, I KNOW him - but from where? I can't quite place his face... not sure what he is doing in this dream. I put my hands through my long hair, I feel good, I'm older now - we are all older, but it doesn't matter, I wonder if my receding hairline shows as much with long hair. Then I wonder about that, no, I have short hair now, this is a dream (but again, I just follow the narrative of the dream) I hear a new track start playing, I think it's the start of a Nirvana song.. but no, I'm wrong, this is just another very generic modern rock type of song. The guy with the shaved head seems to enjoy it though and start miming the drumming to the song as it plays.

(night of) 17-12-20


Future problems

1) **time missing** I'm shooting down a small interior pipe , it's sort of suctioning me in and then blows me out into a small apartment. It seems to be the door to the apartment. A lady, who has been helping me comes behind me and show me around the place. The front room, which is linked to a bathroom, kitchen and bedroom. The lady tells me I'll be safe here, she tells me she needs to get back to work before anybody notices and shoots back up the fireplace door pipe. now I am on my own, I wander from room to room wondering what I am gonna do. It feels like a 1950's idea of what a house in the future may look like. The rooms are kind of vacuum formed, so that where the floor meets the ceiling it has a gentle curve. I go over to the 'door' area and look at it for a bit, I look inside and prod the surrounding then I head back to the bathroom and go to the toilet, after I'm finished I flush the toilet and an alarm sounds off - I have no idea what is happening but where the 'door' is suddenly water start spurting out everywhere, it falls down and floods the whole apartment. The lady comes back at that moment landing in water up to her ankles - I try to tell her I don't have any idea what had happened - I just 'looked' at the exit. She tells me I need to go (clearly thinking I broke this) I thank her for the time I spent here, and for the time before - recalling now that she 'saved' me and a woman I was with from inside an old tavern, this is twice I owed her now. I ask her how much would cover all damages and help and she tells me '50' It doesn't sound much - but then I don't know what the currency is (even though I have it) I give it to her and wake.

(night of) 16-12-20


Future Earth
1) Early night (3:04 - 3:21) I'm part of a team of people, sent to fix things, the Earth is dying. I am standing on the Earth, the perspective is strange - even though I am just regular sized and so is the Earth, I cover continents just standing here, both of my feet stand on the northern Hemisphere, I'm pulling something, it's like a rope attached to the land. I'm pulling to make it all ok.

We are now being told that we will be put to sleep until they need us. 100 years go by and we are awoken, it feels just a few seconds, I wonder what I have dreamed in the time I was asleep . I wonder about reality and how it works, what is real and what is false

Recurring mess (recurring themes in dream: theme park, not getting food, being late for the train)
2) I'm in a theme park, though it's all based inside a giant interior. It's a series of rooms and corridors until you exit. Me and my wife are waiting for the kids to finish on a ride - so we decide to get a dessert before the park closes. the lady that serves us is super nice and tells us she will come right over with our desserts shortly. We wait and wait, and I wonder what's taking the lady so long. I go to ask but there must have been a change in the shift as there are all new people now. Doesn't look like we will get our yummy desserts after all, AND we are gonna be late for the train.. damn

(night of) 14-12-20

1) (from 3:24-3:46) Dream Fragment - setting up Christmas tree lights, but using for something else

3) (from 5:49 to 6:06) Dream fragment - looking after a friend's niece for the day

School in a temple?

2) (from 7:31 - 7:42) I'm sitting in a classroom, looks like a classroom I attended when I went to school. The teacher, a young looking lady, is way up the front while I am sitting near the back. There is talk and chatter in the classroom that she has a student's white sweater. I'm not even sure if the teacher knows she has it - but I can see it draped over the back of her chair. I lean over to the student in front (it Gemma, a girl I went to school with) and joke with her about maybe everyone can make a big fuss about the teacher stealing the sweater? Gemma does not reply, instead she is staring forward. I sit back down and realize everyone is quiet and listening to the teacher. The teacher is writing some things down in English on the blackboard, I copy it down into my book. THis is not that difficult, I can do this... What am I writing? I don't understand it, not in any kind of context. But it doesn't matter, I just need to copy. I think?

We stop to take a break, I walk out of the classroom and into what looks like the interior or a church or a temple. The huge tall walls are made of blocks of sand stone, with giant windows that reach the high ceiling. I see kids running close to the edge, and I get scared that that they will fall - but forget there are windows. Outside the waves of the sea crash against the large windows. Across I see an even higher tower/temple, perched on a mountain top, I wonder who is living there? and how do they get to the temple? I notice there is a kind of pattern on each window, like stain glass, moons on one, stars on another - but then realize these are actually forms that are moving over the window rather than painted on.
I see a bar area and go to the far side of the temple, where it is a little darker, and find a table. I see my teacher, a pretty lady with dark hair, she is chatting to some colleagues. I sit down at the table and feel this would be a good time to ask her about the sweater...

(night of) 13-12-20

Trying new techniques for dream recall - I'm putting my recall in a kind of 'memory palace' made especially for dreams (though only what I recall while waking between dreams so I don't have to write them)

The machine
1) **time missing** (from between 2am to 3:13) I am taking a walk outside of the hotel we are staying at. Me and Matt find an empty sort of abandoned road - though also reminds me of a railway track (though I can see no actual tracks) I spot two two woman standing on the path, they look like twins from behind, both dressed the same way in a kind of white apron over a blue dress, blonde hair in plaits. They are working on maintaining this machine (that seems to reside mostly underground) twiddling knobs and turning screws. We watch them from behind, wondering what they are doing. I see another part of machinery a little closer to us, it is two large discs that are partially underground, they were not spinning, but you could tell that this is what they were designed for (like cogs) they were sticky, lubricated, but full of dust and dirt - so I give it a little clean with my hands until it shines again. An old guy standing nearby - happy that I am cleaning his machine free of charge - tells me I can carry on cleaning the rest of it if I like. I kind of do a laugh that says 'nice joke!' and get back to Matt. We can see the woman's faces now, they are pretty. I decide to go up to one and ask her out, one is a little prettier than the other so I ask her. She tells me, no, she is not interested. Crest fallen I go back to Matt - but I see he is already talking to the other lady, his approach is a lot less direct, and the result is the lady is a lot more eager, I see actually that this second woman IS the prettier one now. Matt asks me how it went and I tell him how I was shot down. I wonder about how I look, compared to him, we seem quite similar in features, was it his personality or looks? I wonder

Whoop!
2) Dream Fragment (between 5:06 - 5:30 approx): putting together musical version of an advent calendar, each day you would get a different soundtrack. At the moment I am putting old school hip hop, and 'whoop - the Adams family' somehow makes it into the mix (and I have it in my head when waking up

Dog poo
3) (between 5:30 and 5:55) Back in the UK, my neighbor is building something fancy and fantastic in their garden, our fence between us no longer exists so he (and his wife) are walking down the garden placing down decking and structures for whatever they are working on. In my (side) of the garden there are huge piles of dog poo that I have not cleaned up, so big that they are like small hills. I feel awkward and rush to get the poo out of their way as they continue planning and putting down foundations (for a small wooden castle I think) and with the wheel barrow I drop the piles of dog poo off at the top of the garden

(night of) 12-12-20

Focusing on Moonage daydream (shared dream attempt)

(early night)

1) (from around 1:24 - 1:44) This is a deep deep dream. Feels like a memory wrapped inside a memory. I am with another dreamer, somebody from my the dreaming group - either @Becky#4927 or @Hilary#0856 - we are messing around, having fun - possibly dancing? I'm unsure


Small realities
2) (from around 2:58 - 3:29) I'm in a top secret laboratory - underground. The halls and rooms are made of thick steel. A scientist and his team are working hard at creating new realities. They are making them into existence, along with space, time, planets, beings and life - everything - but then having to collapse them because they are not stable enough to hold. Just before the collapse of the latest reality a couple of beings (kind of space aliens with strange forms and equipment) manage to escape and jump into the larger reality of the scientist. They are tiny compared to the scientist. They are now trapped in the secure room - nowhere to escape, they look around desperately before they are caught and wiped out.

Strange eyes
3) ( from 5:17 to 5:46) I'm in the city (feels like New York) walking through a sandwich bar that is on the side of a busy road, I bump into a lady - she has this red shawl draped around her head and shoulders, and past another man. This other man - his face does not look 'finished' , it's roughly painted, feels like his features, and eyes in particular were painted by a child. This creeps the lady out. We offer to give her a lift in our red convertible car. She agrees.
**time missing**
The lady in red has moved into a new apartment block, in the hallway on her way to her room she bumps into the man with the strange features again

forgetting my dream goal! (lucid)
4) (from 7:09 - 7:30) I'm at Stevie's house, I'm talking to him about course work which is now due in. I look through my notes and it's all a total mess, nothing makes sense. I think this was the course fault though - everything was not very organised. I ask Stevie if I can look through his notes, and he hands me this impressive binder. Inside the binder all course work it carefully and completely ordered. It looks like I am actually in the minority,. This feels awful - I m gonna fail this thing for sure. I realize the time and run out of the door - into the busy streets of London. I can't find a bus to catch and run down a bridge (crossing the Thames) I see a bus in the distance, which has stopped at the traffic lights and force the doors open and - for no reason I can think of - push the driver out of the seat and take control of the bus. I rev the engine and start turning , but I don't realize that I tried to drive through a red light into on coming traffic, the whole bus is screaming and shouting at me. I realize what I am doing and I leave the bus. Now I am on the streets, this all feels crazy, what the hell am I doing? I don't usually go around stealing buses! Everything feels very real, but also I am aware of everything around me. I look at my hands to do an RC, I count my fingers, it keeps failing - but no, I KNOW this is a dream so I do another check and now I see the RC succeeds. I'm LUCID! I follow a dream character...
**time missing**
I'm in Sunnydale high school, (from Buffy the vampire Slayer) I see Willow, this is cool, I am part of the gang- I like the fact I am here experiencing this, lucid - feels like I am really here. I give Willow a wave and kiss her on the lips (just a quick peck) then I back up - sorry - I don't know why I did that, then she kind of giggles and says it's ok because she's not a Lesbian yet (lol) and I turn to see Buffy, and she's about to tell the 'gang' some new adventure that's been going on...
**time missing**
...and I recall my dream goal of looking for Moonage daydream
and finding out the business of the dog. I fly up high, I'm flying up some kind of very tall red brick wall, but then I can't help it... the dream is fading all of a sudden. I try to stay still when I wake to go back into the dream but it's too late, nothing is happening.

.... so I lay still and try meditating, going deep into the hypnagogia and visualization, I ask 7 is she can lead me to Moonage daydream
- I see 7 as a kind of form of dancing purple dust. I follow the dust, then I am holding her hand and now the dust again. I get a flash - I'm in a school field, looks like soccer is played here by a girl's team? Now I am in the main building - there is a sign, a flash of a sign. It's one leg bent at the knee. I wonder what it means... no squatting? (lol) no I am inside Moonage daydream
home, I see a nice spacious kitchen, pans hanging over head, clean work top...

(night of) 09-12-20

Focusing on the dog and Becky, only get some flashes during meditation : the dog's 'home' which is a kind of rescue center for dogs (though more of a hostel) and the color green or blue

1) At a pub that seems to double up as a night club - though it is daytime now. It's quite dark in the pub and while I am drinking, with some friends, a guy approaches me - he asks me if I could give something to Fabienne (my wife) and hands me a plastic bag with some stuff in. He's pretty tall, has a nice suit and some kind of hair style that looks overly too styled. Simon, my mate, asks me what's in the bag - so I take a look. It has various papers and cut outs in it, I don't understand any of this - what does he want? what does it mean? As we are walking back home (which seems to be just down the street to the night club) I look through the contents again. There are some notes, hand written on old bits of paper, from what I can gather he tried to talk to her (via written notes) 15 years ago, and now wants to marry her. On one sheet of glossy paper there is a collage of images expertly put together, it's difficult to work out what any of it means, but I can see that this guy is a big deal. He runs a production studio and is a big tv star. An old photo of him in the early 2000's is also attached, the guy has tall spiky multi colored hair and looks like a total douche. When I get back home, which is now in my old home town I grew up in, I walk past my mum and wife who are in the living room, I'll give Fabi the bag in a bit. I go to see my step dad, he's painting this small intricate model of a creature. It's beautifully painted, a kind of sea monster, octopus with movable parts, a mouth that can be opened sideways to reveal red gums and razor sharp teeth. I tell him how impressed I am by it, though he was really good at art.

(night of) 7-12-20

Maths Test

1) In a large hall with loads of other people from my class. It's the end of the year and I need to take this exam. The room is light and sunny, feels like it must be warm outside. I'm sitting next to my friend, I'm asking him for some help - but he is getting really annoyed with me. I look at the paper, I don't think I listened at all in class this year because none of this is making any kind of sense, graphs and tables and questions about using another symbol for subtraction. So I just fill it out guessing randomly and then go to hand my paper in. Everyone seems to be finished at the same time and the hall quickly empties of all the students. Another friend - a girl this time, asks me how it went - I tell her how I hadn't had a clue and just randomly filled it out. She tells me how important it is and that I NEED to finish the test properly, and offers to go through with it with me. I ask the 'teacher' who was monitoring the exam - though he's really a soldier or sergeant in uniform, and he tells me I have exactly 2 hours if I want to amend anything. I think about leaving - 2 hours is a long time, is it really that important? I could be outside having fun, though when I REALLY think about it I realize I d probably just goof off for 2 hours. No, I should stay and finish this test. I go to the sergeant and ask him if he has another blank piece of paper so I can write the new answers on, but he shakes his head, tells me no. I may as well give up - this is a sign, everything is against me from completing this....

Then a friendly female solider (who was standing at the back observing) comes to me and hands me a paper. So I sit down with my friend who starts talking me through it all. She puts her pen to the paper but kind of stumbles and the pencil sort scribbles randomly. I focus on the paper, on this doodle, and it's actually this beautiful drawing of a tree. I ask her if she just drew this? confused. She tells me - no, the tree was always on the paper

Older dream from April that I forgot to post:

Guigo Velvo

I had a lot of dreams this night, I was with someone, but we were kids, and we were either running away from or fighting a monster, but throughout the night this woman kept on appearing to me, shifting in the dream - she didn't belong there, just hovering in the background, always watching, she was not my DC, I know what my DC's feel like

Then she appeared again in the next few dreams, even though all of the dreams were completely different - she was always watching


And then my final dream I was in bed, and my wife had just left the house with the kids and I thought the house was empty, and then suddenly this older woman, with this oversized stylised black albino unreal baby walked out of my bathroom into the room with me. And I realised straight away that I was dreaming, or having a WILD, she mad me lucid. I asked why she kept appearing in my dreams, who was she? She simply stated who I was, she said it was my last (re)carnation of this place, this planet, and that my true name was Guigo (first name is guessed in spelling) Velvo . I don't know why, but I insisted that she told me how that last name was spelt, so I wouldn'd forget it, she seemed a little annoyed but at my disposal. This totally shook me up, I had to sit for a while then wake myself up so I wouldn't forget (although I am sure I wouldn't have). The whole thing felt momentous

9/05/18
waiting for dream to solidify
I drift to sleep, try to remain focused and start to play ball in my bedroom (in my head) and slowly it becomes the rest of my family there with me, and we are throwing the ball to one another, however I dont feel like the dream has solidified enough for me to walk away from this and before I do I wake up
Children sacrifices
Children are being hauled onto this Pirate ship, and thrown to this great beast in the see, a terrifying scary thing that needs to eat these kids , and it grows bigger and more powerful. I sneak onto the ship with a friend (for some reason it is the actress Melanie Lynskey) and we take out some of the pirates with kung foo, but just as we think we have defeated them my female companion is taken from behind and stabbed quick and fast in the neck, she grabs her neck and is thrown into a large net that is on the ship, laying there bleeding out. As I watch this on tv I shout out, I LIKED that character! why are they killing her off? The character I was is now played by Dean Winchester , and while he is reeling by the attack of his companion he is taken by surprise and is held down, trying to fight off his attacker. Suddenly the stabbed neck lady jumps out of that net, which she was previously dead from (this is terrible writing I think) and Dean and her run to a missile solo which happens to be on the pirate ship and launch some missiles at this beast, and just to be sure they also hack into a nuke and fire at at the beast as well.

6/05/18
I am at a boxing club, with my family; I am looking at some photos they have around the place and see a signed photo of Rocky Balboa - which underneath says 'you're the best - around' (apparently he trained at the boxing club) and then that same song comes on the radio (from the karate kid) as everyone trains and it is super cheesy. I then hang out with Mike Tyson for a while because apparantly we are friends
2 Watching a tv show about a sci themed thing, a virus has escaped or something. Some guy is supposed to be a donor, and everyone is super impressed, but then he runs away in a dark tunnel because he is scared.
7/05/18
1 Titus
dream fragment of hanging out with titus andronicus, from that tv show, and he is dressed in a black sheet, and looks like a character from Howls moving castle, like a ghost or something so I tell him perhaps he should change
2 Step dad
I'm with my step dad, driving around , and he is causing issues, he's drunk, and flays around making me swerve and crash the car. I get out, and I need to fix these gifts I got for everyone, but they are broken, and I dont have a ride home and my step dad is just sitting there in his own drool totally drunk
3 Lucy - again
I'm walking around a shopping centre, and my hair is long again, but its also twice as large in volume and seems a bit silly, but I try to straighten it by flattening it with my hands. I see Lucy, but I want to act cool, I dont hate her this time, but I feel I need to talk to her, but dont know how to approach her. So I kind of, drag behind her, the plan was to pretend that I was just walking right past her and bump into her, forcing us to speak, but she sees me following her and tells me to get lost, stop being a creep