A World In My Head!!

January, 2014

review: multiple car dreams, a new reality check, lucid

From the Theatre
I'm at the theatre and the show just finished. I walk out with my friend and she heads for the subway, wait, there's a metro in SA? I was so excited about the metro! But I didn't know which was my stop.

The train is approaching and my friend says "That's my ride. Are you getting on?"

I wanted to, but then I realized I'm holding keys.

"No thanks, I have my ride!" I jingle my keys and say goodbye. I walk outside, but I'm downtown and no where near a parking lot. Where the hell did I leave my car? I walk around for awhile but this is just making me really anxious. Where's my car?

I decide to skip all this silly walking and just close my eyes and WILL my car to appear. I tell myself "when I open my eyes again I'll be at my car!". I knew I could do that but I wasn't quite lucid.

Like magic I'm at my car. It looks weird and different. But whatever, I get in and start driving home.

Car Smashed
Because of some adventure dream I can't remember, my car has been smashed by the bad guy. Something to do with my car flying out a building window.

But that was then and this is now! I walk out the grocery store with my bags and its started to rain. The rain feels real. The puddles pooling by my feet feel real. I really thought I was awake. But when I get to my car I'm horrified.

My car is squished. Exactly the way it was from that dream. I'm flipping out! "My dream became real!" My mind was racing! "This means if anything bad happens in a dream, it happens for real?". I didn't want to believe it! I kept walking around my poor squished car.

Well, at least she drives.

Reality Check
I made a left turn. Even though I was in the right lane. Even though a car from the left lane was going straight. Even though the light was red?? What? That makes no sense.

I'm needing to drive forward but now my car has a mind of its own and turns. What is going on? I park at some random strip mall and it finally dawns on me. This driving makes no sense because I'm dreaming!!!

Happy to be lucid, I take off my shoes and start to fly! I begin my dream goal, but moment later I black out. My dream goes fuzzy, weird, non-lucid and abstract.

January, 2014

review: me and sis create an intense pool

Creating a Pool
Me and sis were digging up a giant ditch and gossiping about how awesome this pool is going to be. Creating a pool by scratch in a dream is easy, things just happen as you talk about it.

In moments the muddy ditch was filled with stone and mortar. I start working on the floor, it has a giant crack! The water is just going to seep through and under it. But moments later the pool is filled with water anyways.

I swim in my pool, enjoying the fruit of my hard work. I double check the the filters, are they running okay? Sis on the other hand was double checking the whirlpool mechanism.

At first the waves were subtle. But then the waves became so intense I was hanging onto the ledge for my life! "TURN OFF THE WHIRLPOOL!". Sis turns it off and the pool slowly calms down. Men interrupt us and I woke up shortly after.

January, 2014

review: abstract dream, plague, bathroom rc, missed lucid opportunity

Reality Check-Bathroom
There's vomit in the hallway! That's disgusting! The employees start murmuring about a disease outbreak, a horrible stomach flu. Ew! I don't want to catch it!

I skip work and run outside. Instead of "outside" its a restaurant. Look at all these people eating, and they're all just going to catch this horrible stomach flu. I don't want to be around when that happens!

So I fly above them instead. Perfect, not only is this fun but now for sure this disease won't get me.

Next thing I know I'm taking a shower. Wait, there's something weird about this shower, it has a window beneath the shower head. The window looks directly out into a hallway. That's weird! What kind of shower has a window looking out into a hallway? I'm exposed! Everyone can see me!

But I guessed this is the way my shower has always been...

January, 2014

review: short, abstract adventure dream

Weird Link Adventure
As Link, I was drawn to adventure outside and disregard the castle. It wasn't long before I encountered the bad guy. The bad guy was formless, a shadow, a voice that would mock me.

It was night and I decided to follow the voice of the bad guy, why? I don't know. But the bad guy promised it had something important to show me. Am I trusting the voice of the bad guy now?

The voice led me to perils, cliffs and ledges I had to jump. To help me, the voice transforms into a wolf. And then a wolf with wings. The voice explains "This is your true power Link!"

It was awesome being a flying wolf! There was one last thing I needed to do, I needed to meet this voice. Which introduced herself as "Impa".

Impa is living in a forbidden tree, floating above the clouds, insight of the castle. I fly to that tree and meet Impa. I woke up shortly after.

January, 2014

review: two dreams merged into one, non lucid, symbolic nightmare

First Dream
I don't remember this dream anymore. I only remembered the last scene, which was me and mom standing on a rooftop waiting to be saved from an evil woman. That theme will play a part in the next dream.

Polar Bears
I was in the backyard when suddenly a polar bear walks by one of the bushes. He didn't notice me. I don't know what came over me but I instantly tried to scare him away. I shouted real loud and flailed my arms "GO AWAY! GO AWAY!"

At first the bear was startled and jumps back. But then his fear vanishes and he looks at me with cold, hungry eyes.

I race back inside and slam the glass porch door. The bear paces back and forth in the backyard. I thought I was safe! I call out to my sister who was on the couch "A real polar bear! A real polar bear is outside! You have to see this!"

But to my horror I realize there are more polar bears, and they're inside. A whole family was nesting underneath the couch. I shout "They're inside! Underneath you!"

Sis is terrified and too scared to make a move. She quickly reminds me not to yell. If I wake them up, were dead. "One bite" she reminds me.

There's more! Now there's a large one sleeping in the hallway between me and mom. I seriously considered we would die today. I tip-toed into the kitchen and grabbed the largest knife.

The polar bears are slowly waking up. They gaze at me and my family with those icy cold eyes.We grab each others hands and quickly run out the front door.

It seems the whole neighborhood was outside running away from polar bears! Everyone was outside of their homes. But I realize it can't be polar bears, they must be scared of something else. A disease outbreak?

I see a woman approaching me, she greets me as though she's my mom. But that makes no sense, because my real mother is right here. Suddenly someone shouts "GET BACK! DON'T TOUCH HER!"

She's not my mom! She's the evil one, a plague, from the previous dream! She lounges towards me, and I wake up.

January 20, 2014

Review: Adventure, nightmare, an apocalyptic future where formless creatures threaten mankind at every turn. We jump from pillar to pillar to stay safe. Hindu demi-gods and demons.

Double-Jump or Die
I don't know anything about this apocalyptic future, it's like I just woke up and I'm trying to understand whats going on. My dad (a random DC and not my real dad) is going out to collect supplies. I insist on going with him and learning about surviving in this future.

The buildings are empty and very quiet. As I learn more about this dangerous place, there doesn't seem to be anywhere safe. Outside is dangerous because a monstrous titan roams the streets. So we only go outside to run from building to building.

Naturally, the shadows are dangerous. But the biggest and most surprising rule is, stay away from windows.

There's something really weird about that rule, because a window is a long time dream sign for me.

We find a staircase leading to a cellar. It must have food and supplies! But its completely dark down there. We take one step in, when the device I'm holding in my hand goes off. This device has a screen and its measuring the monsters. The screen has hundreds of dots approaching us fast!

We run back up into the light but we aren't safe yet. From the corner of my eye I see that the monster is a fuzzy formless orb. That was my only brief glimpse of one of these monsters. For the most part, they remain unseen in the shadows.

We climb up on a pillar. I can sense the monsters are below us. As long as we stay up here were fine. Luckily the pillar as a narrow ledge that leads straight back to our hideout.

Mom *not my real mom* opens the door and lets us in. Our hideout is our home and its a real hole in the wall. There are no windows. And the only light source was a single candle. It was dark and kinda eerie in here, but the monsters can't reach us and that's what matters.

I curl up and take a short nap and mom begs me to stay inside, safe and away from the monsters. But I can't stay in this box. I have to go back outside.

I leave the hideout with the my sisters and they want to show me something special. How to jump.

We climb up a pillar. It's a bit like a zelda video game in that there's lots of pillars for me to jump on. But there pillars are all different heights and very far apart. There's a pattern you have to follow or you'll fall down and you'll have to start over again.

My sisters explain to me "out there, if you fall down, that's it!"

Sis hands me a pen and makes me draw an imaginary line in the air, connecting my pillar to the next. She tells me when I reach the half-way point of my imaginary line, to jump again.

The instructions leave me confused, and although I'm jumping, I keep falling short of that next pillar! Finally I understand, they're trying to teach me a double-jump. Just like in video games, double-jump for a longer distance!

I climb back up the pillar and perform a flawless double-jump! This is a lot of fun! By jumping again in mid-air I can jump longer and higher. I jump all the pillars, climbing higher and higher.

My dream gets fuzzy at this point.

At some point, I went on a venture with my sister, mom, and grandma, but we got too close to a window. Hordes of formless monsters pour through the window!

We quickly run away and make it back to an area with pillars. But something is wrong with mom and grandma. They're non-responsive, like zombies. The formless monsters must have attacked them, consuming their minds in an instant.

Sis helps them across the pillars anyways and leads us to a door. This door isn't our hideout! What is this door?

Sis says "I'm in charge now! This is the door I've chosen! I'll go inside first and check it out."

We open the door and there is nothing on the other side but a chute (or a hole), going down and down and down into blackness. Were both hesitant to even poke our heads inside. What's down there? Sis thinks this door leads to the source of our problems and answers.

I consider turning back, but my monster device starts to blip again! There are swarms of formless monsters coming at us from all directions!

"We have no choice! Its jump or die!"

I jump through the door and down the hole, but sis doesn't follow. I slide past through formless monsters and land in a pit below.

I'm face to face with a giant head buried in the earth.

My dream is playing music, an indian chanting I've heard before, its about Ayurveda. Beautiful music but it made this scene seriously creepy.

The head is slowly emerging from the earth. I'm trying to move my character but nothing is happening. Like a zelda game, this is a boss fight cut-scene and I have to wait for the cut-scene to be over to move.

The giant emerges from the earth, dressed in indian garb. I prepare to fight the giant but he disappears in the shadows.

Instead, he summons hundreds of hindu demi-gods and demons from the earth. Oh shit. The chanting is getting louder and louder. Their demi-god and demon eyes turn to me. Is this what the formless monsters really look like?

I try as fast as I can to run through that demi-god and demon crowd! Their hands reach out for me! This is impossible! Its like trying to run in rock fest!

I see a pillar up ahead. If I can just reach it and start jumping - I'm kicked down by a giant. The demons run at me like ravenous wolves. There's too many of them! I'm not fast enough! The chanting won't stop.

I somehow manage to climb that pillar, I just need to jump. I try to jump but the demons grabbed my ankle, they bite down and pull me down. Thats it, its over. I can't bear this madness any longer. I close my eyes and wish myself awake.

It's a FA. A friend hands me a video game, the apocalyptic future I was just in! I look at the games ratings. There are different boss levels. Some are labeled easy, difficult or advanced. But mine was simply labeled "MAD".

I woke up shortly after and I could still hear that chanting.

January, 2014

review: beach, friends, volcanic eruptions, dinosaurs, monsters, forest

Volcanic Irruption by the Beach
Me and my friends were swimming in the ocean, while talking about swimming in the ocean. As if talking about it made it happen in my dream.

My friends were experimenting with different dream skills and seemed concerned "Do you think there is a way we could harm the ocean?"

I look at the giant waves and say "No way! The ocean is constant energy flowing in and out, it breathes. Nothing can hurt it"

The giant wave carries us to shore. And then I joke "Nothing could hurt it but say - A Giant Volcanic Explosion! So big, it boils up the sea and the sea rains back on us!" Why did I say that?

Suddenly a volcano is birthed right on the beach. It hurls giant volcanic rocks that explode into a horrible greenish lava, burning with acidic gas. The whole beach and city panics. Herds of people try to flee the growing volcano and its acidic lava. The ground is shaking and the sky turns dark from all the ash!

In the madness I was separated from most of my friends but one. We ran into a warehouse, even though we know we can't stay here because the lava is coming. Still, were so scared we take cover and duck.

Things only got worse. Now there are dinosaurs attacking people. Suddenly a necromancer pops out of nowhere, summoning demons and goblins. He enters our warehouse and attacks us with his legion of demons. What the hell is going on!

I grab my friends hand and we run, we just run. We ran until we reached the forest and the sky was blue again. Inside the forest we continued to run, afraid we were being followed. We hide behind a boulder and hope we've lost our assailants. I woke up shortly after.

January, 2014

review: run across an ugly river, run through a desert. FA and brief lucid, where I try to dream share with LM. astronaut dream

Desert Run
I don't remember my dream to this point. But there are 100's of people outside, enjoying the weather and the green grass. The boundary of this place is an ugly river/storm drainage. I play in the storm drainage for a bit.

But then I decide I want to go to the other side. I climb up that hill, by contrast to the green landscape I just came from, the other side is a dry sandy desert. I got the impression its a foreign country too.

I see some people in the desert and a few scattered buildings. But mostly I got the impression I wasn't allowed to be here because its a foreign country. Oh well! I run around in the sand on all fours as some weird desert creature and just had lots of fun.

Green Window-Lucid
I wake up and get ready for work. But when I walk past my bedroom window something catches my eye. Its green! The greenest greenest green!

A wild green landscape is growing outside my window, underneath starlight. I jump out my window exhilarated that I'm dreaming. At first I try to dream share with LM but I figured by now he's already awake.

I'm flying over the green landscape fast but I have no control over it. Its more like I'm a magnet being pulled. I try to slow down but I can't. Instead I give in and shout "okay dream, take me to where you want to take me. Fast! Faster!"

The dream pulls me and I'm flying faster and higher until all is a white haze.

I wake up back in my bed but I'm rudely interrupted by astronauts. Our probe has landed on the alien planet and it has something to show us! I quickly jump out of my bed, assuming I'm an astronaut too, and join the others in the console, still in my pjs. I wake up for real shortly after.

December 3, 2013

review: Glen from the walking dead is trying to lead us away from the lava

Glen and lava
For whatever reason Glen is my boyfriend, maybe a zombie ate maggie. Its dark and were trapped in this area. Im not sure whats keeping us trapped here, if its zombies surrounding us or something else. All I know is this area used to be a safe zone. Now its just a cage with nothing for us but to wait for death.

Glen leads the group "we have to go back". We get to the boundary of this area, its completely surrounded by a deep fissure in the ground. Down below the fissure you can see lava freely flowing. I take the lead instead, carefully guide the group past the lava-fissure. Its something like from a zelda game. Glen gleefully asks me "how did you do that? I wasn't even sure how to get out" I said "Im a gamer, its what Im good at"

Just ahead of us in this dark landscape is an abandoned building. Its hard to say what this building was. But inside were different rooms. We run inside of one filled with precious items. I find a tea kettle set made of china that I think is adorable. Its the end of the world so we can take whatever we want, the problem is carrying everything by hand.

I don't want to be burdened by more items so I tell them "I'll come back once we reach the next safe zone"

Glen checks out the walls. By placing his hands on them he can tell whats on the otherside - lava. Lava starts to spew out from one end of the building. We can't go that way. After running around this maze we realize this building is surrounded by lava, and it will soon breach all of its walls. We can't go forward.

We can only go back the way we came, which isnt really an option.

We were in the library when we realized this devastating news that were stuck. Frustrated, Glen knocks down the library shelf. It creates a domino effect and all the other shelves fall down. The last one fell with a loud thud and lots of dust. When the dust cleared I could see a bright tiny light. "Look at that!" It literally looked like the end of a tunnel.

"Is that a way out?"

We race towards it but its only a light bulb attached to something electronic. But the falling library shelves did open up a new room. In the back of this room was a robot behind a glass wall. It seemed like it was built to do manufacturing labor. But considering all the workers are dead, I couldn't help but be suspicious of this robot.

But my friends thought maybe this robot could be our way out. Before I could protest they boot him up. The robot seems friendly enough. I ask him if he's aware of the current situation of the world, about the zombies and the lava.

I woke up before he could answer

October 31, 2013

review: its halloween

Ghost Runs from Zombie Witch
The zombies have nearly decimated the human population. A hero, who looked like Bruce Willis, was at his breaking point. He was trapped with other random survivors. Like Walking Dead except the prison was much darker, dank, run-down and just all around creepier.

Random innocent people were being eaten by the zombie masses. Bruce gave up. Before, he would have run over there to save them. But now he's lost hope, and scarcely cares for his own survival. Until I came onto the scene. I was roleplaying as a character in this zombie story.

When Bruce saw me, he recognized me. With his energy back, he quickly comes to my side and rescues me from that terrible zombie prison. We tried to run away, but we were captured, by all things, other humans.

The hostile humans were being led by a witch. Not only did she have us captured, but she also had my mother captured (not in rl). The witch queen gathered us with her minions and like any bad guy, told us her evil plan.

Apparently, the girl I'm roleplaying as, is as powerful as that witch. The witch explains she plans to use my powers to transform everyone into a zombie, the whole process only takes minutes. My red headed dream mother cries out "Bruce, she's our daughter!" Apparently, Bruce never knew!

I'm not gonna let the Witch destroy the world! While she was blabbing on I quickly brake away from the group! I run for the front door, damn its locked. Unlocking it took forever. I run out into the dark night, filled with zombies.

My dream has a cut scene. I've died. Or rather I choose to die. I'd rather let the zombies have me then have the whole world destroyed. As I effortlessly fly and bounce around the dark night, I psychically communicate to my mother. "I'm fine, I choose this!"

She tells me that Bruce came running after me. I communicate to Bruce and he tells me, he can fly too. "I'm here Bruce, you can fly? Does this mean?" Bruce was also killed by the zombies.

But it wasn't so bad being a ghost, not when I had Bruce to keep me company. He joins up with me and we continue to run away. I don't know why ghosts have to continue running away, but I was convinced, I had to get as far away from the queen as possible.

As we were flying through a supermarket (with no lights on ofcourse) Bruce suddenly falls down. He's weighted. He's heavy! What's wrong? I realize the reason why Bruce can't fly anymore is because he isnt completely dead yet. His body, wherever it is out there, is waking up. I say goodbye to Bruce, and his spirit returns to his body.

I guess I'll have to suffer being a lonely ghost a little longer. I fly inside a house. But the witch enters the building. She had a white fluffy dog in her hands. "I know you're in here! I'll sniff you out!"

My flying was weakening. She would hold up the dog high into the air. I got the impression if I was too close, game over. That witch had instincts, she kept predicting where I was.

"So you thought death would be an escape? But did you know, postmortem is hard to determine, especially for one like you? Did you really think you were - dead? We've retrieved and revived your body. We just need your SOUL! WHERE ARE YOU!"

She was so close now, my powers were weakening. At this point I stop roleplaying the girl, and watch as her spirit grows mad. She haunted the fields, wailing in suffering, can never die, can never live. I felt bad for her, but her sacrifice saved the world.

October 30, 2013

review: non lucid, adventure dream, low memory. I join new friends, meet a cute guy and time travel

Time Travel with Friends
I'm the newest member of a group of young time travelers. Most of them are in high school, but the group is really a mix of all ages. Either way, we meet at the high school. The members would just skip class and we would meet in a secluded room.

Mostly we just chilled and hanged out, I felt like I joined a group of hippies. Most of the hangouts included stories of most recent adventures. My dream gets a bit fuzzy, but one of my first adventures was to a waterfall, hidden away in some forgotten temple like place.

My new friends wanna skinny dip, but one of our older members, a woman of about 45, feels too embarrassed to undress. My friend, Richmond, ensures her that she's beautiful and that no one in the group cares about her age.

My and Richmond were growing real close. His girlfriend is still time traveling in the past, but Richmond still insists on being closer to me, more and more through our adventures. I was falling for him.

I wasn't the only one in the group developing a complex relationship. There was also a pair of inseparable best friends. By the looks of it, you'd think they were both guys, just two best pals. But in reality, one of them was actually a tom boy. She was madly in love with her best friend. But her best friend? He was idiot who had no idea that his best friend, is actually a she. She was so embarrassed, "how do I tell him I'm actually a girl?" Oh well

Richmond is driving me to the new location of our adventure, just before waking up he steals a kiss.

I immediately fall back asleep into the same dream. Richmond and the group is planning their next trip, this time through time. I'm not missing my first trip through time!!

We were split into three time traveling teams. The first one was sent out on a pirate ship. But their transition into space-time went all wrong, and they were gone forever. The remaining teams understood the risks, but were crazy and don't car.

My team with Richmond is waiting for our magical bus to arrive. Suddenly I need to pee. I quickly use the toilet, I can't miss my ride! When I get back the bus is fully loaded (in my dream it looked like a shoe box filled with items). There were no seats left for me! NO WAY! I'm not missing this ride!

I double check the seats again, some of them didn't have people, just random items. Why does the bible need its own seat?? I scoot aside the bible and take the front seat, which was next to Richmond. Someone hollers from the back "if you're going to take the bible seat then you have to tell us biblical stories when we get there!" "fine!" Whatever!

I squeeze down into the seat, which was hard at first because it was a shoe box. But slowly my dream goes back to sanity, and I'm safely boarded inside of a roller coaster. The clerk double checks our belts.

"All ready for space-time travel!"

I'm scared! I look over at Richmond and he seems annoyed that I'm sitting next to him. It's his fault he flirted with me when he has a girlfriend! The ride starts! Its just like a roller coaster!

"Hold my hand!!" Richmond smiles and obliges

And were off, flying through space-time, galaxies, stars, planets. Were entering our destination. Team 2 screws up and is lost somewhere in space time.

Just before landing Richmond turns to me and asks sternly "What is it that you want from our relationship? What do you hope to gain?" And I answer "Your friendship!" With that he smiled and stopped acting weird

We land safely. It's earth, pre-war era. Not exactly fun. This time period is stiff and has all sorts of social norms and rules that would hold our group back. Already members are complaining that the bar is closing early.

The city was dreary, as if in black and white. A security guard walks out from a building. "Quick act natural!" We quickly scurry and try to blend in. For us female members this past really sucks because we weren't exactly equal citizens. Still it was an adventure.

September ?, 2013

notes: its been a couple of days, its hard to recall this dream

Black Void Box
The evil bad guy has everyone trapped in a room. But because of my special powers he considers me a threat.

To display his mighty power, he gathers everyone to witness my demise. In front of all my loved ones, family, friends, mom, he traps me inside a black box. Its a void. No time no space. I was in that darkness for an indefinite time. I wondered if years were passing by and I have no way to know. I wondered if I would stay inside this empty lonely darkness forever.

My eyes adjust to the light. My friends had gotten me out of the box as soon as the evil bad guy retired to his bedroom. Its in these simple moments that we enjoy our lives and freedom. And also when we plan how to defeat this bastard.

A new girl in town tries to socialize with us. My dream transforms into a high school cafeteria. But her behavior is odd. It wasn't long before its revealed that she's actually our enemy - in legion with her evil overlord.

Actually at some point her overlord was defeated, how I dont remember. So now its just us against her. Some are worried that she's actually possessed by his evil spirit. I didn't care. I decided to kill her before she kills us.

I'm about to fight her, unequipped, when my friends jump in the middle. "We'll hold her back and buy you some time!" "Hurry!" They're referring to a needed special weapon. It's back at the overlords base.

"Teleport!"

I search the place up and down for the right weapon. This gun doesn't feel right for the job. The knife is too flimsy. Time is running out and I'm not sure what I'm looking for. I woke up shortly after

September ?, 2013

Zombies Along the Wall
(attack on titan inspired dream?)

We load our guns and enter the next room. Except it wasn't really a room but a large indoor space, big enough to contain a football field. There was grass, stone walls and in the center a gazebo. And zombies everywhere.

The plan was to push through the center, hold back the zombies, meet at the center gazebo, and then push through to the next room. My team was along the wall, support for those pushing through the center.

Standing on the low stone wall I look around me. So many team members are straggling to get to the center gazebo. I keep firing those zombies but its not making much of a difference.

A swarm of zombies heads for the center. I try to shout out at them but they're too far away. The mission is a disaster! The center is falling fast, the zombies are eating them. I look behind at the team waiting by the columns. They aren't moving. Why aren't they moving?

"Forget the mission! Just run to the next room already!" But they're so scared they just stay hiding behind the columns. Meanwhile, the swarm of zombies heads for them.

My friend was comforting a young girl who just lost her parents. She knitted her a blanket in the midst of this chaos. "Thank you, its so warm". I notice that her face looks sickly and pale. I grip my gun tighter, why is she sick?

She moans, standing below my wall "My face, it itches. It itches!!" her voice dips monstrously deep "IT MAKES ME WANT TO EAT YOUR FACE!" Her eyes bulge out red and - BAM!

I shot her right between the eyes.

Zombie! "What a waste......." I dont know if I was commenting on her life, my friends time, the blanket or my bullet. I felt indifferent.

Were falling apart, frustrated I yell "What are you all doing! Why are you just standing around! Hurry up to the next room!"

"Where's the commander?"

I look back at the center gazebo, its completely taken over by zombies. With nothing left to eat the swarm heads towards us. I look behind me at those by the column. Too late, they stood around scared for too long. The zombies are eating them and they aren't fighting back.

So fast! The zombies are swarming up my low wall. I'm not afraid. IM PISSED! I steady my gun and shoot them all between the eyes. So many! But I dont stop firing! My friend standing behind me also helps me kill the zombies.

Im out of bullets. A female zombie grabs my ankle and tries to drag me towards her mouth. Shit!

"Backup! I need more ammo!"

I look below at the backup crew, they are just doubfounded, just staring off into space scared as shit. "What are you doing! I need ammo!" What a lost cause.

The female zombie is still trying to drag me down. That's when I remembered my gun has a knife. I flip the switch and knife her right between the eyes.

My hand is still steady. I look at the field and calculate how long it will take me to run to the next room and how many zombies I'll have to run by. I can do it! I'm going to survive! I can't say the same is true for anyone else.

Then I woke up

9-20-13

Leaving in the Pick-Up
Me and Al finish packing the back of the pick-up. Its going to be a long trip, but I figured if we also pack some cushions or even an entire mattress, then the ride will be easier. I almost forgot my toothbrush! I'm finally ready and go wait by the pick-up with others. Al has been waiting the longest and eats his lunch in the meantime.

Were only waiting on mom. I thought she was almost ready. It seems to take her hours to wash her face. Finally were ready to go. We pile up in the back of the pick-up. I gripe at some girls to take off their sneakers while they are sitting on my mattress. After that, I woke, disappointed that I didn't know where we were going or why

Thanksgiving and Roaches
Mom has cooked a huge meal for everyone. She serves me turkey wing, even though I told her I didnt want any. Sis asks "how much is it going to cost?" and mom looks offended "Im not charging, I cooked this for you". At the time in my dream that seemed illogical. 'who keeps for family for free?'

After enjoying the meal R's boyfriend shows up. His hair is orange. That's when someone mentions "what the hell dude! what were you doing!" That's when I notice that the orange hair isn't orange hair, but roaches! His head is covered in roaches!

"Its on you now!"

I flip out and wake up

Free Willy
from the airplane view I can see an orca in the ocean heading towards the beach. I wasn't expecting to see them so close to the city, along the pacific ocean.

On the ground, I run inside seaworld, only briefly questioning how the hell did I get in for free? I run into the penguin room. The penguins are running around free, unrestrained, around people. And they're smiling like people too. But, there was a sign not to interact with them or feed them. Ignoring the penguins I run up a flight of stairs and stop on a deck over looking the ocean.

"Look!"

From up here you can clearly see an orca. First two, then three, then four. The crowd was stunned as we counted them. The wild orcas were gathering just below the enclosure of the seaworld orcas. The captive orcas were in a pool on the 4rth floor deck. One by one, the captive orcas heaved over the ledge of the pool and gravity plummeted them into the ocean. The crowd cheers for the newly freed orcas.

September 15, 2013

notes: a rather long dream, hard to remember all the details, lucid towards the end, attempted a dream share

Deeper than Underground
There are bad guys beneath this office building, the corporate kind you know about but you can't do anything about it. We just go about our office life pretending the bad guys aren't down there.

But a couple of my friends want to find out the truth of what's happening down there. In the basement of the office building is a giant door leading to the underground. We can hear noises, footsteps, voices. My friend, whose gone down there, tells me about what he's seen. Its a huge labyrinth down there, possibly for the military industrial complex. The scientists down there are conducting experiments. Either way, its too dangerous to go down there unless you have a death wish.

The dangerous scientists are climbing up the stairs. They see us and we run before they can catch us. We run outside but were afraid to be seen outside as well. There guards are everywhere. There's even people who look like ordinary civilians on the other side of the street who work for this "underground".

We climb the chain link fence into this tiny square of a patch of grass. There's a cross and roses, someone died here. But still, it felt like the safest place to be. Me and my friends stay in this little grassy square for a while before deciding we have no choice but to face the underground agents head on.

Walking back we joke about how were gonna beat the shit out of those agents. "we'll go wild on them!". My friend howls like a wolf. "You're doing it all wrong!" I said, so I out howl him. But my other friend shakes his head "This is how you howl" and he out howls all of us.

Were back to that room that leads to the underground, but the agents surround us and in moments my friends were taken away. Dragged underground to who knows what. At that point I meet the leader of this underground - its my uncle???

Traitor! How could he! (attack on titan ref?)

His army has surrounded the office building. The employees pretend they don't see the war happening outside and continue to stay glued to their computer screens.

I scarcely recognize my uncle with that sinister smug. He tells me that his current mission is to capture me. He tells me there's no point in running because his agents are literally everywhere. So his mission is to capture me? For what? What does he plan to do to me?

His thugs chase me but I evade them each time. So my uncle throws a curve ball, he tells me "You can go back inside the office building, if you do so you'll be safe. We won't chase or use you anymore. But know if you make this decision I'll use children in your place"

What's he going on about? I go back inside the office building and for a few moments I consider that I should stay here because its safe. The employees are mindlessly away ticking at work. I look outside and I can see the thugs dragging away two young black children that they picked up from the street. The little girl was crying as they were pulling her by the hair.

I look behind me and think, did everyone in this "safe" building make this blind sacrifice? I can't stand the sight anymore! I jump outside and try to attack my uncle, but all of my attacks are useless.

I don't see the kids anywhere "Where are the kids! Where did you take them!"

My uncle blabs on making sarcastic remarks, but I'm too pissed at this point to pay attention. The thugs surround me again, they really do mean to capture me. I can see behind them that the two children were released. My uncle goes up to them and hugs them as if he actually cares for their safety. It disgusts me!

I clench my fist waiting for the thugs to make their move - when - I see an Asian girl on the other side of the street motion for me to come towards her. She's hiding in the buildings shadow. A rebel?

I rush through the mob of thugs and join my new friend on the other side. "Hurry its not safe here!" She guides me safely out of these dangerous streets filled with agents of the underground.

"Who are you?"

"We - are Deeper than Underground. The only way to survive is to know your friends."

I understand what she means. The underground has infiltrated even the common work place, then they are everywhere and can be anyone.

As I ran next to her I felt I could trust her with my life. I also felt she was extremely alert, aware, alive and someone I've always known. "Wait, what's your name? I don't want to forget it!"

"Nyu"

"New?"

"No, Nyu"

I'm not sure I'm pronouncing or spelling it right.

"Over there is a safe house, keep your head low!" I ran all over the city, but the "safe house" was overlooking the office building I just left. Now I get it, the bad guys aren't expecting this safe house to be right in plain sight. We couldn't exactly run to the house. We had to crouch and keep low and make sure the thugs still standing in the office parking lot don't see us.

"A kitty cat!" There was a fat lazy cat outside. The grass was super green. And this house, in the middle of a desolate city, was so damn cute. "In here" We go inside the house and its pure magic for me. I'm just in awe of every little detail. The dishes. The chair. The cabinetry. Who ever lived here must have been a happy person.

"There is your house right?"

Nyu doesn't answer. She just warns me "Don't stand by the window or they'll see you"

But the dining room window caught me off guard. It was directly facing where my uncle is. Why, why is he doing this? Suddenly my dream goes through a weird shift, like slow motion.

I can see a blonde girl lived here with her little brother. They were happy. "I" was standing in the dining room watching them play outside in their yard. My "friends". Suddenly the agents of the underground slaughter them. The window glass shatters! They're coming for me! And ----

I wake up startled and disoriented in the back seat of a car. Nyu looks just as taken back. "What was that, it was like a memory. Nyu it was your memory wasn't it!"

Nyu was the one who was standing in the dining room watching the agents slaughter he friends. "---gasp---You saw my memory! I saw your memories too!" But Nyu doesn't tell me what memory of mine she saw.

The woman driving us also looks asian, she must be Nyu's mother. "That house isn't safe anymore. You two are lucky"

I don't remember what happened, but something went wrong. Me and Nyu are once again on our feet on the run. Its night time now and nearly pitch black. The thugs are right behind us and in front of us, tall ass chain link fences. I go right through the fences as though I'm water, again and again and again. I look behind me, Nyu is having a harder time. The thugs are right behind her. "Hurry!"

I realized we have to run in a zig-zag pattern to lose them. I quickly change direction and run up the emergency fire-escape. Its so dark in front of me. But I can still sense a shadow in front of me. The thug didn't think I'd see him coming, so when I guarded myself I threw him off guard and falls off the fire-escape. Me and Nyu make it through the night.

"This way!" We run down a city street. "This entire street is deeper than underground. Were safe here." She kicks open a door to a basement apartment - headquarters. "You're okay!"

For the first time I got to meet the rest of the Deep. Just a random mish-mashed group of civilians, whose eyes have seen war. The HQ was fast away tracking down the movements of the undeground's activities. They hid nothing from me, showing me their plans and everything.

"But one thing I don't understand is how did you escape. Nyu told me you evaded an agent who attacked from the shadows?"

"You see, they were chasing us from behind. He didn't expect us to see him attacking from the shadows in front of us. It was easy to throw him off guard."

The Deeper than Underground seemed impressed with my first victory. They talk to Nyu, assigning her a new mission. "Were going to meet up with a new team. But be on your guard, we don't know whose side these guys are really on"

Its daytime now and me and Nyu head to our mission's destination. As always, we keep our heads low and out of sight of strangers. Hiding behind some bushes we meet up with our team leader "You see those guys down there? They're a notorious gang. But we need to know if they are agents, or if they'll help us" Nyu jumps to the task without fear. I had my hesitations to jump in the mix of a gang of boys.

But around this time I had something else to worry about. I'm dreaming. And I have a lucid goal that I need to perform. I wont be able to help Nyu fight the Underground anymore. I fly down to her side "I have to go. But before I do, please tell me your whole name so I don't forget"

Nyu smiles, she tells me her whole name. But, I've forgotten her last name. All I remember is Nyu.

I close my eyes and start my lucid task - dream sharing. It didn't work and a few minutes later I woke up.