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2x obe Mr tech lost lucidity.
Location :dark underground living quarters
Dream Zelda game, moving out, friend has kids, kids moving out, selling the Zelda game for cash, touching family moments of friend and his son. Cried and awoke.

Beast attacking me. It was a bear/lion in the forest or forest trail. Perhaps a hybrid beast. (might be from watching yt videos about bears)

VR game themed. Related to day time.

Today -
Location : class but not school, bright room white desks. People are learning stuff.
Learning something. Eating cup ramen with kimchi added for lunch at the end of the dream.

Location :class in school, looks like Japanese elementary school.
Having a raffle and eating some sweets, was ice-cream or cake. A Japanese classmate from back then in elementary was there. May have went to the mall after.

What was her name? I... Starts with I. I remember her face. She had a pony tail and had massive cute eyes.

I was sick all the time in elementary. Kind of this lingering cold. The past few days I have been getting a kind of the same thing. Maybe it's detox or releasing of some stuck energy back then since I was trying to do that before. Maybe this dream is related to that. Nostalgia of being sick. Or not sure if it's something else but just feeling very nostalgic or having feelings of.

I haven't been djing the most earnestly lately. I had probably around 5 dreams today but only recalled 2. Should I begin to write them all down again in full detail? Do I want to do that? Do I want to be lucid? Could I train dream recall without DJ?

I was practicing mindfulness the last 2 days and I was noticing I'm getting lucid in waking. Not while asleep though. Just. Feeling like I'm waking up. But I also feel like I'm dying. What will happen when I'm fully awake? Would I finally be lucid? I'm just very lost atm. But somehow feels like I'm finding my way and getting closer to my goal. But what is my goal? Whatever it is, I pray it be good. Id love to be omni lucid though. That would be fun. Maybe perfect dream recall to go along with that.

Been also doing wim hof method. Got me pretty energetic.

Its cold outside. I'd like to meditate in a nice warm beach in my dream. Maybe that's the dream goal for now.

Managed to fulfill my dream goal from this or last week.

My goal was to eat omnilucid pill once again then lay down to sleep within my dream in the same position as my physical body.

I read that sleeping within the dream in the same position as the physical body have some interesting effects and I wanted to try it.

--b4bed

I went to sleep pretty late and was awoken by noise outside and just laid in bed. That resulted in an inadvertent wbtb. Although I usually wake up naturally, being awoken by something else does appear to be more effective.

I expected little in all honesty, of getting a ld. Since I did not manage to be fully aware kind of thing I've been doing to its fullest in my opinion as I was immersed in reading for quite a bit before sleep. Not sure if awareness is the best word, maybe attentiveness is a better word.

-- pill laying down ld

I slowly fell asleep after being awoken, while I could still hear the sounds outside. I also focused on my body against the bed.

I WILDed. I awoke in the bed in the next room to where I slept. I realized I was dreaming and I saw the TV from the bed, it was in its regular position and there was some game being played on it. It looked like super smash brothers sort of thing. Similar but perhaps not 100% the same thing. I'm groggy within the dream and take a few moments to compose myself as I watch the TV.

I deild/FA a couple of times. I remember my dream goal and put my hands in front of me. I clasp my hands together, left atop the right, and will the manifestation of the omnilucid pill. I move away my left hand and this time it was crimson red/white colored capsule on my palm. I swallow it and FA.

Back on the bed. Losing lucidity momentarily but I remember I forgot something. Trying to recall it made me lucid once again. I summon it once again and FA again before I could lay down.

Third times the charm though and i managed to take the pill then lay down in the same position, I think.

I FA again and I felt like I laid down in the wrong position so I do the previous routine again in another position.

FA again. May have had a microawake that made me lose lucidity. I went to the front door to greet some guests. One guy comes and asks me questions. Felt more like interrogations. Perhaps some subtle life advices.

--plant invasion

I'm back. Still at home. But this time I'm a sort of a plant. A plant but a super plant that could move and all. My mission was world domination so I go head and follow the dream plot. The authorities figured out my plan and was out to exterminate me.

Initially I was just getting rid of investigators and the forces, just killing them off but eventually i figured that I needed to take a more subtle approach.

It began in the noon and now it was night time. One girl who was the daughter of the mayor was the key member after me. I (the plant) dying... My dark green plant vines just crawls to the ground before I release a part of the body that appears to die. Just kidding. I fake my death; as the plant and release some pollen when I seemingly die off that goes into her brain and sprouts - I take over her mind. I am just pretending to be her for a while after faking my death. Slowly but surely taking the townsъъэ via mind control... Then the world!

Was fun, really.


Notes:

I think that it might be key to increase attentiveness in key moments.

Perhaps especially upon awakenings or scene/activity change. To do rcs more attentively during those moments. May be much easier than all day and perhaps this is what is automatic in natural LDers.

Rather than trying to be super aware all day, perhaps **be attentive to changes, subtle or obvious**

I suspect this is why raduga technique is pretty effective. It creates a internal thought process like this :

Awake(event /change) - >oh I'm awake (noticing subtle change) -> I better do a technique (doing rc)

But instead of just doing it only upon awakening,

Event - > notice change-> do rc (increase attentiveness)

May be better. Sounds like kind of regular rc. But instead increase attentiveness.

"Attentiveness" rather than "awareness" because it feels more active than passive.


Current plan - ada/adrc use *any* change as trigger to increase attentiveness

The dream was in the highschool. Apparently the middle eastern empires took over and we were in a pretty bad place like the 1984 movie just everything was under heavy surveillance. I recall being in a computer lab and I had some sensitive information that was against the establishment. As we are leaving the school there are guards that are checking our belongings. Me and the gang were gonna be in trouble at this rate. My friend Steven distracts them while I try to throw our cells under some cars to destroy them. However we were caught by the guards. We were imprisoned. Under surveillance until we could leave for some kind of holiday.

I leave the building which now looked like a city hall or gov building. I head inside a large van or rv and it was a hideout of a certain pro gamer, K's hangout. He had a colorful personality. I leave after a bit. The roads were somewhat similar to a place near my friend ys house but different. I am heading back towards the building and find people dining on long dinner table. It was being segregated by race or country. Some vips and royalties were seated. The food looked OK, I remember seeing a chicken drumstick. The interior of the building was familiar, I'm pretty sure I visited it in my dram previously.

Wake

I dreamt something about stretching. It was a stretching dream, just myself and others stretching. Like yoga but not yoga, just stretching for couple of hours.(stretched outdoors earlier)

Notes: I lost consciousness before sleep unlike yesterday. May have had a cold so had trouble sleeping.perhaps will take it easy but will do my best nonetheless.

First dream was something about my friend Lucy. Did not write down much although the dream was pretty long.

FA
I then dreamt that I was writing down dj hence I didn't get much down from last dream. Could not erase, could have become lucid from that.

Just wrote jibberish and Lucy upon wake

Heresy elf lucid
I had thought about a story I read and it transformed into a dream as I fell back to sleep. It wasn't the same story but I thought I was just immersed in reading or seeing a story in the beginning as if I was reading a book and became more real.

Plot: Me and my elf companion were in a townhall or church or court like building of a small town being persecuted from trying to explain scientific ideas to a very religious bunch. Chased by townsfolk.

Interior was mostly wood, dark brown wood. Mahagony? Old Timey feeling. Huckleberry Finn like dress attires of ppl.

We escape to a small place, felt like the backroom of a church. Dark brown wooden pew or seat/benches, beautiful wood really. I look around. My elf companion suddenly begins to pleasure me with their mouth. This makes me lucid. It's stable and quite the pleasure but I wanted to wake up so I do.

Maybe am prude. What breathtaking beauty though, out of bounds of physical reality.

FA into my bed, pretty realistic FA.

Wake


Notes:

forgot dream goal. Will do it next time.

Well, felt better in dream.

At beginning of night I was having sniplets of Wilding into dream but awaking up upon realizing I was falling asleep each time. Just tried to keep my eyes open before falling asleep. Awoke once then had following dreams.

Knights :

I was in a game like setting where ppl had a kingdom and were fighting over territory. I was a queen for my kingdom like mini place. You had a set of resources and could hire Knights or upgrade weaponry or armory.

I opted to upgrade to the extreme, believing that I was very clever. But I was immediately ambushed before I could do anything. A single very powerful warrior ambushed through the front gates and I wasn't sure if my forces could handle it. So I rushed to the front to help them. I realized he was too powerful so I ran behind a knight right beside me. Since their objective was to kill me I decided to run around while my forces would attack him. My knight got one hit before he was obliterated by the enemy strike. I kept running towards the castle then in circle. One and another kept going down until I was the last one. I braced myself for the end but a hero struck the mighty enemy before me, his sword piercing through his back and I lived for another day.

I then saw the pov enemy territory that attacked me. He was pretty impressed that I survived.


Supermarket

It was a very ordinary like dream setting. A drive to the supermarket with my parents and childhood friends in 2 cars. Inside there was a sale on candy (maybe it was chocolate). We were heading back to the car and ready to leave but I thought about my cellphone. I looked around for my cellphone until I belived it was in a crevice by the front seat and it was there. Drove あわy。

I had snippets of lucid moments. Very short. 7 or 8 maybe lasting few seconds before waking each with the final one lasting perhaps 10 seconds. I was moving my eyes while closed forcefully to force an artificial rem to get back into it. Familiar scenes, some nature with trees and buildings. I tried to keep going back to sleep so didn't jot down.

Had a long dream after that. I was in a clinic/reception with a lady who was dealing with me. She tried to single me out and we had an audition for a famous comedians show. I recall having a similar theme before.

A personal worry. I think it's related to a negative experience at a clinic being singled out. I'll cleanse that energy or remove it.

So ppl went up on a huge tall thing. Kind of like a trojan horse but not a horse. Just wobbly structure and we had to stay on it to show our dedication to follow through challenges some people fell off. Part of me was nonchalant through all this, feeling like it was fake. Close to lucidity I think. Did another challenge I think.

Woke eventually.


Notes:
Before bed I was writing down all the people I met during my stay in the present living space or home. I had read a book talking about the need to clear past energy blockages to have more stable dreams without past influences. Should be able to go through previous places in couple of days.

LDs or attempts during august, before polyphasic experiment

Aug 2

Failed AP, was on bed, felt vibrations.


Aug 06 WILD
I was in a brightly lit house. Theme was white. It was open concept, more modern. Very clear. I explored the house a bit and found myself in an office. I explored a bit more and ended up in a terrace or balcony. It connected it to another part of the house. Where the '==' was the terrace.

(house) == (house)

I remember it was sunny probably, brightly lit. I think I've visited this house before in LDs. I recalled a dream goal about trying to be omnilucid but I think I had some murky feelings or fear about the dream ending soon so it did end before I could go across it.


Aug 10 DILD/DEILD
I had a FA earlier before the LD. . It was an LD chain, 3 times I think. I was at home but it was very dark. I was on the bed in bdrm and was afraid of something. Afraid of the darkness or robbers or animals. I have an FA again, and this time I recognize that I'm still in the dream and become lucid.

I leave the bedroom and find myself in a pool. Where I am just doing some acrobatic stuff on the pole atop of the pool. I FA into this scene 2-3 times. I eventually leave the pool and find myself in a small old wooden store. Something about eyes... Do not recall atm.

July

Tuesday LD DILD
I was in a bedroom of a university campus. Was in sort of an orgy on the bed.

Thurs
Failed AP. I heard the sound outside the window, recognized that I was in the perfect mix or awake/sleep and tried to do something. a bit anxcious and failed.

Sunday FLYING

I was on bed, heard sounds from outside the window. I thought about moving and turning around while drowsy feeling and trying to go back to sleep. I did this about 2 times. But on the second time while I was listening to the sound coming form the window I recognized that the source of the sound and where it I had moved to wasn't consistent. As in the noise came from the same direction even though I had moved. So I recognized something was amiss and just got out of the bed. I Wanted to fly outside so I went out the window and flew. I buzzed the wings on my back or something kind of a fairy or bee or something. Just enjoyed the blue skies and ended back on bed.

Repeat above and decided to fly again. I was flying like before but eventually the winds became very strong and I decided to switch my flying style. More like a bird thsi time so I just rode along the winds with my wings. It was cold winter outside now, ground was pale white painted by the snow. The wind was getting stronger. I recall seeing a kind of a medieval castle like place with a moat around it. It was grey and very tall and robust. I flew by and landed on one of the towers. Then I kept flying

Ended up in a very dry landscape, unlike a desert but more like a plain that's been struck by drought recently. I found a couple of knights just standing around. I dive-kick from above to one of them. They were allies though. So we just group up on ground and enter a cave or a dungeon. 3-4 of are beginning to prepare for 3 some or something for some reason and wake.

I believe that I couldn't recall a dream goal. It's almost as if the basal part of human nature drives you towards procreation as a default activity and this is pretty deeply ingrained within; well we're physically alive thanks to this however. But it stops you from experiencing more profound and interesting stuff.


CITY, Teleport LD

I was in an underground gymnasium or podium. There was a someone who was a friend long time ago, X, he signed me up for the Singing audition without telling me. I was then pressured to sing in front of the judges or ppl. I did not do too well. I scored myself 6/10. I was trying to get away from the place from the shame of singing so horribly. I tried to walk away from it all but I felt like I was followed. I went outside and tried to get away.

The walls of the gymnasium were brown bricks. The getaway scenery was outdoors, just regular asphalt but maybe more grey rather than black.The reason I was so embarrassed was because it was televised or something, just was rusty with singing.

On 24min nap

I sad in a sort of an old dormitory like place. I was with my friend Mike moving about in the building while I had a false awakening. I was being grabbed by hands out of nowhere while on bed and had another FA. Kind of scary. The feeling was familiar and i was lucid. Expected more hands but told myself it was OK. Dream scene changed. I was Pa. I found a baby me that looked so cute and hugged it. In a pool like area. I could teleport via intent to where I looked while grabbing bby me. Had to get baby me away from bad ppl. Baby me was just there chilling happy, derping. Dream goes back to the dorm area, some friends present.

Likely degrading lucidity towards the end.

Forgot about dream goals.

Also dreamt of going back into my body earlier nap.

Will log lds weeks ago when time comes.

Just 3-4 dild

Realized I was dreaming so sat down to meditate instead of stabilizing. Woke after a bit. Did that 3-4 times. Would love longer lds.

I recall exploring the old tall building that is related to previous dreams. The building was kind of a boarding school l, showed up many times in dream but haven't seen in a while.


Notes:
Been meditating alot. Does not feel long but hours pass. I still am able to keep track of time from numbness of legs. Is it crucial to ld? Maybe not.

Recall can be improved. Did not jot down dreams this week.

Nld spaceship vr, playing with a friend . Failed controlling while flying up and died. Did not want to be driver. Two more joined , 4 played, why am I the driver?

WILD trees woke,

Tried again, burn in vision of trees, vision, epiphany cycle of life burial, to plant, to feeding of future generations.

The wheel of life, stand sit in z axis like Buddha, stillness.

DILD

Bad crowd, house near university. Bad lady tricking others forcing others to crime. Rowdy bunch fighting over spotlight. Heading to darkness. Fending off bad guy with scissor to the death. Escaping parkour. Escape for year or so. Police on look out, one saw me, pretended to be cat. Policemen chase me. Park away. Parkour towards cliff. Betrayed by another who was tricked. Pushed into ocean. Replay cliff scene once.

Going through a residence girls dorm. Wanted to leave from window, window multi layered. Lucid.

Window = earlier in day.

Had 2 ld

First one was during nap. I tried to stabilize thought about meditating but did not see body so back to rubbing hands. Fear of it b stopping ended dream.

Second one was long during night. Perhaps several micro awakenings. I was exploring with 2 dcs, they stayed with me along scene changes. Even after teleporting. Started in city area , in apartment that was locked so tried to find other ways in didn't recall dream goal so explored. I also went to a condo or apartment that was brighter and seemed higher end I have a feeling it was the same one where I meditated outside. But this time I was inside. Was trying to get to country side at the end.

Had nlds too.

I tried very hard. It was pretty much Ada. Perhaps maybe 10 min longest of non awareness or mindfulness.

No lds though. A bit disappointing and dissuading. But it was very interesting to be able to observe every thought. I did not do it as hard today but I still practiced it for most of the day. It helped to change or redirect a certain negative thought pattern for sure. Astounding progress in certain ways really if you don't consider it only as a ld practice.

I tried injecting thoughts regarding dream each time my thoughts wandered to help question reality while dreaming.

I did do mild with sw and got some excitement but maybe not 100% feeling. Nor did I visualize it much. I thought I did well but I could probably improve a lot more.

Dreams :

Had 3 long ones, 2 notes were gibberish though. I should just take 1 second longer to make 2 words legible then id remember it all.

I was on the upper most floor of the jap school. My teacher was doing a presentation I recall she was not one that I liked. Me and a friend decide to play hooky. I wanted to go to bathroom so we leave. We head down the stairs to the right and pass classrooms of kids from lower grades.

We head to the right on the ground floor and we pass through the kindergarten area. I ask them how to get to bathroom. Etc

We go further and into hell or something similar. Hot lava place. Pretty nice temp. We gotta get some thing to help us through demons down here. Although most are chill some are not. We end up getting a familiar or something like a fire elemental.

Long arse journey. We go through many series of puzzles and rooms, fighting some drunk demons by bars and gain new abilities and what not as we progress to get to...

The bathroom. It was pretty dirty there.

Peed in dream but I was safe. Decided to wake up to check.

Perhaps a little lucid in the end after all.

had 4-5 ld. Did not jot down much. I was more focused on recalling steps I took yesterday rather than the dream content. Maybe am a little jaded of recording dreams.

I focused mostly on questioning if I'm dreaming or telling self a dream throughout the day. Did mild, Shadow work. For shadow work I spoke to my subconscious candidly. I was 100% sure I would get lucid. Also tried to wbtb, set alarm but woke earlier than alarm so turned off alarm. Did raduga alarm not sure if that helped since I didn't use it last week. I'm getting better at this: kind of getting a feel for it.

It was mostly dild towards the end of dream. Dreams were long I think felt like a week worth of events. A day each. Did not mediate in the dreams so didn't have continuous lucidity.

Lds: mostly about game themed stuff. In the first one I was doing rc but they did not work, but I kept the idea in my head and worked near the end. Well maybe was lucid earlier but had a small doubt that made rc fail. Was also pretty realistic.

one had link from Zelda, I think I was link and there was Gandalf like figure helping me to progress through puzzles.

I dreamt about playing against the pro gamer. Became a more serious theme towards the end. He became evil and was trying to stop him mostly.

In the last one I cried at the end of dream. Crying woke me and stopped ld chains. It was something sad.

*maybe it's my belief that crying would stop ld chains that stopped it

Dream: had an unpleasant dream Mario party, also teleported. It was an amusement park needed to poo. Saw a relationship thing. Pretty violent content.

I did not ld today or yesterday. What can I do to improve? I noticed when doubt is strong it is easier to notice it and work on it but what if it's subtle? Would the efforts be better focused on addressing the doubt or focusing on creating exciting feelings and visualizations? What should I do for perpetual lucidity?

I didn't think about ld as much the past 2 days. Maybe it helps to have it in the back of your mind. Perhaps thinking about dreams or ld are more crucial than awareness.



I dreamt of riding on airships. Trading potions and whatnot. Dream plots lasting a week or something.

I remembered the dream before this one was about will Smith selling pencils talking about its greatness.