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I've been pretty busy with school work lately, but I've still been recording some dreams. Finally have a bit of time to post.

2/11/14

02.11.2014

Mind Over Matter (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The hood of my special jacket allows me to breathe under water. I go deep under the ocean with my dad to search for a buried treasure that is very important to us. I know that as soon as I begin digging, this infamous sea monster will begin attacking me. The water will make it difficult for me to fight back, so I'm thinking of a proper strategy of defense beforehand. My dad suggests using my telekinesis to kill the creature.

Previously, we had run into trouble because my brother used telekinesis to kill things, which caused dark forces to stir and pursue us. I've never used tk for this purpose and am wary of bringing too much darkness upon myself. Plus, I'm not strong enough to kill the sea monster anyway since I've never used my power in this way before.

My dad instructs me to practice so that I CAN kill it. He throws a black widow spider on me, which I swat off onto the ocean floor before it can bite me. I love spiders, but this one is venomous and is actively attacking me. Left with little choice, I use my telekinesis against the spider. It writhes in pain--- though it takes three tries to kill it. Now I should at least be able to do a bit of damage to the sea monster.

02.11.2014

Krampus (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am wandering the streets of Mexico dressed as Krampus, the Yule Lord. Everyone is afraid and trying to kill me. They succeed multiple times. Every time I die, I must respawn at the start of the street and try again. Finally, despite a tense moment where I make a little boy cry, I win the trust of his older sister and the people no longer see me as a threat. They give me a necklace of skull beads as a peace offering.

Journal Entry non-lucid #39 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I tried to prepare for sleep as if I was going to attempt WILD but without the trying to be aware. I lost consciousness very quickly.

Dream fragment 1, 8:01pm-1:00am."": I saw this guy and he was being forced to have sex with this girl, these guys forced him to. She wasn't ugly at all though. I didn't see it graphical it looked like a typical movie sex scene. This one man started filming it. As they were going inside I was no longer a viewer but instead I became a DC and I saw an eagle or hawk flying by.

Dream fragment 2, 8:01pm-1:00am."": I was in side my house jumping out of happiness. I was screaming that I had a LD. (I don't remember having a LD before this dream so I don't know how accurate that is). I told my dad, he said he had one too. I became even happier because he doesn't think that LD is for him, and I thought this would change his misconception. Then he said, JK. I saw this guy from my Calc III just siting in my living room on his laptop. He looked at me weird. I also saw a girl from high school, AS, she looked at me with jealousy. The light was also on during daytime.


I woke up but I read and did some chemistry work to prepare for a quiz. I was stressed and my wild attempt felt impossible to do. But I know it isn't so I will keep moving forward.

Dream fragment 3, 3:31am-6:00am."": I had a dream about being in church and I did some sort of a play. They wanted me to be in some sort of evil villain. I tried to act as evil as I can. I didn't scare anybody. I even had the cape and everything. I was giving a friend, MS, an advice about raising his daughter, even though I don't have one of my own.

Dream fragment 4, 3:31am-6:00am."": I was with old high school friend, HL and we went to some place in a car. I remember being inside a parking lot underground.


Dream fragment 5, 3:31am-6:00am."": I saw Chem 121 teacher. He was answering questions on the phone. He couldn't hear us on the phone and it became hard to understand each other. After sometime with frustration, I started laughing. I thought why are we using a phone to communicate a problem about equations and science. The other DC gave me the phone to talk to him and he made no sense. I got transferred and this women picked up and she asked me how can I help you? I said, "I want to talk to the professor, if he doesn't answer he might have a problem with his health." She hanged up. I said why did I say that it sounds like I threatened him. Guy told me it is ok.


Dream fragment 6, 3:31am-6:00am."": I was in the sewer trying to find a way out. I later found out that I didn't have any shoes on. As I was about to climb up some ladder to go outside this man appeared and he asked me a question. I said I don't know but I don't have shoe on. When I climbed out I saw this crazy Asian lady with something in her hands chance a guy with it.

Dream fragment 7, 3:31am-6:00am."": My parents room looked a mess. I said it must be tax season. But the bathroom looked messy too, I questioned it but later forgot.

Non lucid conversation with Waking Nomad for about 10 minutes.
We are in a kitchen with 2 windows. He is cutting pineapple with a bear claw / 3 pronged scrapper.
Talks about papaya and avocados that people cook and pour out the avocado liquid.
My brother is there and he asks if we are friends. Asks where we are from? PA
I tell him I'm WhiteWind from dream views. He says he doesn't really sense a connection / we don't really think the same.

This is a non-lucid dream that I had four days ago. I had recalled and recorded other dreams from that day; but this seemed like the most interesting to me.

I was in a large, tall building, sealed off without windows and multiple levels of giant rooms, which I knew to regard as a great kindergarten. That’s what I thought of it as, although it was more like a giant playground, as there were no teachers or supervising adults there - nor were there any other children. I can’t remember my surroundings in good detail but I know that the lighting was fairly bright and the walls were a gold or gold-ish colour. In contrast, imagined play equipment was painted in varying and vibrant colours.

I don't recall actually spending any time playing here; instead, I remember meeting my mum and agreeing with her to go somewhere else in the playground. I didn’t actually realise until just then that there were multiple levels, when we went down the stairs one floor (I think I'd been at the top floor initially) and then looked down and saw that there were still several floors beneath. The structure of the building was such that every floor was built at the edges of the room, with railings at the edges and a hole in the centre of each floor.

Then, I believe we jumped off the ledge, as we skipped all the levels and dropped down to the bottom floor, but with no expectation or reception of injury. The bottom floor was an empty one, save perhaps one piece of furniture and one or two doors. Then I found that I was looking to leave, so I asked my mum where we could leave the kindergarten, even though I already had an idea of where it could be. I thought it was the door – or one of them, as I simply knew which one – in that same room. My mum confirmed that it was the door I was thinking of.

I started walking to the door and going to open it; but as I did so and as it was opened by my mother instead and I saw the outside of the kindergarten palace and she walked out there, I felt taken aback and no longer wanted to leave. The kindergarten as I was there previously felt so warm and safe and insular and childish, reinforced in this sense by the quality that there were no windows to the outside world and nothing existent except a lot of indoor playground rooms.

I saw that leaving this place, I would not return. Not ever. It was as if I had spent my life in this kindergarten previously. And leaving it felt like it represented leaving childhood, as a child lives so heavily insulated from the dynamics of the real world by his own home and school and wherever his parents take him, knowing hardly anything of it but play... to maturity, which was full of difficult and confusing ideas and choices that would never end, after which I could never go back.

I thought that this was just like something that had happened to me in real life, when I was a child and I physically left a more realistic but still literal place in just the same way for the life that I am living now. Even though, of course, no singular, literal event like this truly ever happened.

That's right. I thought that this was identical to something that had happened to me 'in real life.' However, despite imagining such a thought, I didn't even think to couple it with the thought that I was dreaming. It was as if I was operating on an extremely low level of lucidity; or I had very closely, almost entered a lucid dream but not quite. (Not to mention that the event I imagined happening in real life never actually happened, which further shows how unaware I was of reality in this matter.)

I saw, in this imagined event, me being in my motherland, where I had lived up until I was six but no longer do, and the place I entered as I exited through this doorway was a street from that country. In fact, it may have been the street where my old home there was situated. For a moment, that's also what I saw outside the doorway where I was just then. Immediately after this, though, I saw a Western front porch, with some potted plants and a bench on a swing, where my mother went before I could catch up with her.

I wanted to tell her, without going outside myself, without setting foot through that doorway, about how I was feeling in order to garner sympathy from her. This is a childish endeavor; and the reason for which I was so avoidant of stepping through that doorway was that it felt like it would force me to surrender my childish ways. In retrospect, I think this may have been symbolic of when I left my homeland when I was 6 years old - and, at the same time, graduated from kindergarten and went on to begin school in the country where I currently reside.

2.19.14

last night, bed 11:20 - 5am. Nap from 2;20 - 4:20pm

Didnt get any HH or sensations while WILDing. Just fell asleep.

DR:
I'm in a factory setting. Someone is telling me to go and punch in quickly. So I go and when I get to the floor, there is a large group of people standing in a circle, holding hands and singing. Like a church or support group. So, I'm thinking I wan't no part of that and turn away.

There was bunch of other stuff, but I don't remember that.