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I didn't write this own quickly, so I've forgotten much.

I dreamed I was on a train. The train stopped at multiple afterlives, and was in fact basically the path to the afterlife. I remained alive despite being on this train, for the dead. There were conductors on every tram, the ferrymen, reapers, so on and so forth. The Kind Man shared a booth with me, and gave me a blanket in which to wrap myself with.

There were subtle differences between me and the other dead people around me. For example, at one point there was a brilliant and burning light that seemed to hurt the other dead people on the train, as if they were being burned by it. I felt nothing, and the Kind Man, ducking under the window and looking to me standing in the light, asked me why. I found I had no answer to him, and when the light faded the train was noticeably less crowded...

I met someone else on the train, who told me of their world where people worshipped a kind of creature similar to a hagfish. Their homeworld was filled with swamp and murk. The hagfish type creatures were the oly creatures that were directly beneficial to the environment around it, in other words there could never be an over-population of them. The more there were, the healthier the place was. It was believed that these creatures were the spirits of the kindest people, and that these fish temporarily regain their human forms in order to commit random acts of kindness, before disappearing again, just out of complete compassion. These fish supposedly saved drowning children and led relatives to lost family, explorers to civilizations, travelers to food. I asked that person where they were going on the train. They responded that they hoped their stop would be murky, like the swamps of their home- to be one of their sacred fish.

The Kind Man said nothing during this conversation, looking out the window with a forlorn look on his face. While I talked with that person, the scenery outside was.. hard to describe. Like an ever-shifting painting, colors that have no description. I was under the impression I was watching the essence of life and spirit and afterlife, if that makes sense. When the person passed our booth by, I looked to the Kind Man and asked him where he was going and if he was dead. He gave me a soft smile and asked me "isn't this what you made this place to be? I'm just fitting in" He opened the window to allow a warm breeze through. It smelled like... well, I can't describe it. The Kind Man looked out the window, and said to me almost absentmindedly, something I don't remember but I remember finding it fairly significant in the dream. He looked to me and gave me a sad smile, and then I woke up.

+ a young female doctor saves me from 3 "stroke bubbles" heading for my body through one of the tubes attached to me (I see them), and then attaches a matrix-squidy-like mechanical thingy (neuron stimulator?) encased in a glass tube with thousands of ultrafine metal probes to me and I study it, it takes two-handed operation to work, I'm then in a car with some device telescoping outside of the window and I'm concerned its weight will tip the car over.
There are other bubbles in the tube, the doctor was racing to me from some other location. The squidy thing is highly intricate and very bizarre looking, the glass tube and the squidy thing is about 1.5 feet long and about the size of a fist in diameter.

+ observe a battle to the death for control of one of a set of mind-operated super weapon cars which make the owners wealthy since they're so valuable, and the winner beats his opponent when he's locked body to body with him by transforming himself in to a small child so he is much shorter, and then firing the machine guns in the door of the car through the body of his enemy (and the bullets don't hit the child-man because of his smaller size). The scene begins by approaching a home in a deserted area, some thought about growing corn.

+ working with a technician on diagnosing the problems of a super complicated electronic device, I see him fixing some shorted wires, I'm digging in to putty-like coverings on the nose of the device to expose a necklace clasp which is malfunctioning, I say how strange/funny it is that a tiny simple component can ruin the operation of such an expensive complicated device. We're inside some sort of super-high-ceilinged hangar open to the outside, the device is on its side with its nose pointing to the left.

+ outdoors at twilight playing catch on a large open field, I know the T family (facebook friends) lives just a hundred yards beyond the field, I think how surprised they will be when I show up for a visit since we've never met in person. I start at one side of the field, head across the field and look backwards at where I've been. The T's live ahead and to the left of the final position/orientation.

+ interviewing the owner/designer of some super-secret device (perhaps the one worked on above), he's showing me around the grounds of his design centre, I stand at a beautiful outdoors scene in the shade of trees looking at a crystal clear flowing creek (flowing left to right), there's a Y intersection in the water, and gardens/houses/hlils rising up to blue skies and clouds in the distance, I wonder where we are and ask him "is this nearby the (some real place)?", I ask if they dump their waste into the water and a woman's voice says yes, I was going to try to drink the water but won't now. Outdoors/bright daylight.
The fork of the Y is to the left, extending around a garden containing a house. I want to find out where this place is so I can return (and drink the water?). I'm standing here for some time just looking and wondering where it is.

The above is probably my strongest location awareness in a dream yet, really wondering where I was and trying to place my location relative to other landmarks that I know.

+ (possibly continuing the above) face-to-muzzle with several fierce dogs sliding down some sort of pole/tubes, the point is to hold on, I'm a bit concerned about them biting me

+ playing some food tossing competition with an opponent of mine, I think he's rigged the game, it's like shuffleboards but with pieces of food, first guy tosses a piece of food and the second guy has to make his land as close to the original as possible, he starts with some orange colored cake thing, I think he's messed with my piece, I end up wadding a bunch of orange cake together and tossing it and it lands pretty far to the right of his piece, I think he's rigged the table as well since it's just a foot off of the ground, way too low, -- some people nearby are laughing about a girl in a contorted funny position on her knees. Walking by a table with cakes/muffins on it on the way to the competition I think of eating some. Probably residue from watching "Hook" right before bed (the bright colored imagined food fight scene).

+ I see my old college roommates (real, college age) are repainting the front of our house (fictional) with a mural against a white background, I see my face painted on the mural as one of 3 faces, I'm honored they put it there, it's a drawing of my face looking like how my wife drew me when we were still dating, then the friends are sitting around a circle joking, I'm standing a little ways apart, I think they're talking about me

20.02.2014

Licking a dead mouse (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm standing in my room, looking out the window. It's extremely stormy outside.
A very big branch of a tree on the other side of the street snapped and fell into the front yard of some neighbors.
I go to my father to tell him about it. I find him in the bedroom were he was going through a bunch of plastic bags on the foot of his bed.
He shows me something he intended to keep for my sisters (his daughters) baby, but appearently it was broken.
He then shows my a dead mouse he found behind on of the bags. He says he thinks it's disgusting and he was wondering for a while why there was this bad stench in this room.
I looked at the mouse when suddenly he moved his head towards it and liked the dead mouses belly. I was shocked. I think it was a weird try to be funny or he just wanted to shock me.
He then said "What? It's just a dead mouse."
Me: "Yeah... Who knows what diseases you just got."

20.02.2014

In Zak Bagans Room (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

We are in some dudes room. It's in the attic.
The guy had black hair and looked a lot like Zak Bagans just with less muscle.





We were about 5 people. A guy I knew back in the days, called Stefan was sitting at a desk with a printed version of the search results page from amazon. Appearently we decided to buy a book for the pen&paper-RPG "The Black Eye" (basically a German version of Dungeons and Dragons) and we wanted to split the price. Stefan used a pen and paper and tried to see how much everyone had to pay. The book would cost 60 €.

Looking out the window there was a deep abyss as if we were in some kind of canyon. The abyss was filled with 3 feet high water.
On another platform of red stone I saw an old, fat lady with a backpack and a walking stick. She eventually climbed down the rock and walked through the water.
We talked about Zag Bagans guys age and I said I think he is about 20 years old. He laughed and says: "I'm in the mid-30s. No wait. We aren't in Finland so I'm 30."
I was confused and asked him what he meant. He explained it, but I forgot what he said.

For some reason the only way out of the room were 2 windows on the top of the rooms wall which closed and opened automatically after a time, so there was always only one window open.
Some guy climbed up and jumped through the window. The Zak Bagans guy wanted to go next. He got rid of his clothes because he didn't want it to become wet. He gave it to me, but before he climbed up he changed his mind and put on his clothes again. He searched his room for something.
After a while he pulled out some clear plastic pants with suspenders from a shelf. I saw anglers use these before. I laughed when I saw them because they looked ridiculous.
At this point the Zak Bagans guy was standing right in front of me and it was the first time I got a clear look at his face. He suddenly had a full black beard.

The whole time I knew I was timetravelling. The whole thing was a situation from my past and I somehow got to experience it again.

20.02.2014

Analyzing "Limmy's Show" (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My mother is watching TV. I check what's airing and I see it's a dubbed version of the Scottish comedy show "Limmy's Show". Every now and then the skits stop and they cut to a duo of showmasters of some giant live event. They talk about how to analyze certain shots of the skits in a pseudo intelectual way.
At some point a special guest appears. It's some guy with a blonde full beard, sunglasses and a baseball cap. I had no idea who he was but the live audience went absolutely crazy.
At some point he took of this shades and exposed his face which was full of hair. At one point I said he looks like a wolfman.

20.02.2014

Nipples (starring Egoraptor and Jontron) (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see some womans face. My view than moves downwards and I see her exposed tits. It was the guy sitting next to her that pulled down her shirt to show them. He was very hairy and had a dirty laugh.
The woman laughed and said: "Now it's your turn. I know yours are perfect."
The guy exposed his chest. His nipples and the space between them were covered with black hair. "So manly!", says the woman with an excited voice.
"Okay, now you!" says the guy.
On the other side of the table there are internet comedian Arin Hanson (Egoraptor) and Jontron sitting, also exposing their pale chests, with few hairs. They are laughing loudly and shout out things.
Jon got a bottle of baby powder and put the stuff on his nipples, laughing.

20.02.2014

The FPS game with the mysterious hentai hallways (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in some kind of videogame which was a lot like Counter-Strike but you could build thinks like in Minecraft, even though the graphics were more high def.
My friends Louis and Tim were playing too. Appearently it was some kind of really big event with tons of players on a giant map.
Louis and I found some underground hallway which was incredibly big and long. We changed it so the ground contained of conveyor belts so you were able to get faster through.

At some point I was standing near a cliff with another player and accidentally killed that person.

Later we were sitting on another cliff, our feet dangling over the abyss. My friends dog Benny was there in form of an old man with white hear and full beard. He took a cigarette, lit it and put it in his mouth. He continued and lit 2 more cigarettes. I told him if he actually wants to die, but he just laughs.

Afterwards we were fleeing from something. I arrived at the giant underground hallway were we put the conveyor belts. I rand to the end of it and found a ladder going up which I didn't see before. I climbed up and stood on a platform, still underground. I saw another giant hallway which was full of hentai pictures. Appearently the theme was that every picture had an assortment of different girls on it. I looked around and literally saw hundreds of these hallways full of hentai. Everyone had a different theme. I remember asking myself who the hell built these.
I saw one about tits and started going in that directing. I had to jump from platform to platform to get there. On the way there I accidentally triggered some kind of mechanism which threw me into a body of water and released some zombies. As soon as they touch me the game was over for me and I was in some kind of spectator mode.
I heard my friend Tim ask me if I was the traitor. I didn't even know there was something like traitor in the game. I eventually found out that I was originally an innocent person but when I accidentally killed that other player I became a "traitor".

20.02.2014

Near Death Experience Dreams including mermaids (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I knew that next to next to lucid dreams and regular dreams there was another kind of dreams which were about experiencing near death situations. There was just as big of a community for this like there is for lucid dreaming.
There was a guy that set up a shipping container with one open side somewhere in the woods. I put a wooden chair in there, sat down and started sleeping. He arranged for a naked mermaid to swim around him in the air like she was in the water and whisper stuff, just to get one of these near death experience dreams.
The mermaid, which was chubby but attractive, swam around in the air, also swimming through random rectangular things which were flying around. At some point she says in a hauting voice "guuuuiltyyy!" and swims away.

20.02.2014

Shopping with my sister (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I sit in a car parked in the middle of some huge plaza in some city. I was sitting on the driver seat but the steering wheel and pedals weren't there. Someone was sitting next to me. We talked about something until that person says, that he/she had to go somewhere.
We both left the car and walked over the plaza, past some old woman with a headscarf and a guitar and into a giant grey building. It was some kind of mall.
A group of people walked along the mall in a line. They walked from shop window to shop window acress the hall. Appearently we had to follow this group, so we did.
Later I was with my sister in some sort of shop for clothing with tons of movierelated shirts but rarely any in my size. My sister had her baby with her in a buggy. We were standing at the shop counter and talked to the employee. She pulls out a shirt from a shelf and gave to my sister. She says she likes the design and wants to try it.
The employee then gave me a shirt as well. It had a huge print of a dinosaurs head on it (Some kind of Saurolophus).





I liked it and told the employee that I wanna try it out to see if it fits.
Somehow Hello Kitty shirts came up and the employee gave me a catalog, saying they have a lot of Hello Kitty shirts. I looked through the catalog but couldn't find anything Hello Kitty related. When I told the employee she just stared at me speechless and shocked.
My sister then talked about rubber ducks with the employee and she showed her a bunch of different kinds. My sister chose one and the employee got a pen to write my sisters babys name on it. She was about to start writing when she suddenly realises that there is already a name on it and her previous smile vanished.

Later we were sitting at a table, which was actually just a big cube, very colorful. (I forgot what we were doing there)
At some point a female friend from my sister showed up. She had a buggy with to babys with her. She took one of them and put it down on the chair next to me. Than she took the other one, which was a girl, and gave her my sister, who jokingly said "I take the crazy one."

Ah - it's already a bit late, that I try to reconstruct this dream now - but it was really memorable, because I was leading a logical argument, and pretty complex for a dream.
No - not philosophy or theoretical physics - pearl-jewellery..

Jewellery keeps showing up in my dreams - I don't even wear any most of the time.
But I used to - I collected necklaces - unusual ones and used to always wear one.


It was so - I had given a game, a bit like Connect Four, as a present, but with water in the columns, and many different coloured plastic balls. You played it by levelling out the water, on which the balls swam with turning three way handles.
Then I tipped it over, and while collecting the balls back together - more and more jewellery made from these very little glass pearls showed up.
Many pieces - they were coming from my luggage - and it came to me then, that I had brought them to sell on a market the next day.
Something along these lines:



Then came this mother and made a snide remark.

She said, it would be obvious that I would have made them myself.

As in crooked, and it was clear to me, that she didn't like it either - not a classy sort of style.
And I was guessing, she knew, that I was aware of that style-deficit.

Then she stormed off somewhere.

And I was left explaining to her son, friend of mine, why this comment had been nasty on several levels.
He needed convincing - that was a real longer back and forth and I remember it exactly:

First of all - there was hardly anything crooked on them.
Secondly - such jewellery is always handmade.
Thirdly - I had never said, whether I made it, or hadn't made it myself.
Fourthly - I felt insulted, that she thought, I would have spent hours, weeks, probably rather months, on making such things - it was really a lot of stuff.
Fifthly - she somehow seemed to know, that she would insult me with attributing this style to me, so I was partly thinking, she might have well known, it wasn't my work, but said it to be nasty.

I find it remarkable, how much logical thinking and organized argumentation I was able to put up.
Can't even find a flaw - I dreamt her saying it - so I guess it's only reasonable, that I understood what she meant.

But I like, how much colourful complexity, I dreamt up again - see above - there were maybe 50 such pieces.
I really don't like that style - but anyway - lots of detail.
The game at least looked great!

Not sure, if I can transport, what I am on about - but what I really find astonishing is people claiming their non-lucids would all be totally bizarre and they would loose their rational minds.
Bullshit in my opinion - the overwhelming most of it is very realistic, and I function nicely in the situations - only the over-view-awareness is lacking.

Got to say - very happy with my recall lately - despite not writing anything down - only going over it in my mind.
When I do that waking up in the middle of the night, I mostly forget them again.
But I anyway feel, that I have lived in the night - if that makes any sense.
It's not that nothing has happened - I believe I gain a feel for dreaming like this from the forgotten dreams as well.
Still suffering my pretty nasty cold - lots of people down at the moment in Berlin.
So that means - it would really surprise me, if I got lucid - maybe night after tonight I will be feeling up to further activities. Yesterday I simply fell over backwards in my bed, where I sat/lied all day anyway.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in some sort of cube thing in Minecraft, I keep falling from cube to cube, it hurts and takes half a heart every time, there are spiders and creepers around the place, I think I make it to the bottom, I say something but I forgot.
Someone (Lewis?) is chasing me as I'm trying to run away, he grabs me and I fall to the floor, I'm now laying on my back and hes now on top of me with a sharp razor-blade in hes right hand (his right), hes about to end me then...my alarm went off and I jolted awake.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at the top of some stairs (1 step then turn right then stairs) I take a while to get down the step, I'm grabbing on the handrail to the left for dear life as im scared of falling down the stairs, I put my left foot forward ((I can actually see my leg)I think I'm wearing white socks), I'm really scared at this point it takes me at least 10 minutes to get down this step, I think I sit down and shuffle down the stairs.

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Possible dream signs:
Stairs, Lewis, Minecraft

I was a new employee in a company, and yet I was tasked with conducting phone interviews for a position. Also I was supposed to contact a contractor whose contract had expired. Very awkward and stressful.

Outside there was mud and leaves and a bad rotten smell. I was in a car and there was lots of traffic that I needed to maneuver around, had a near miss almost accident.

I have a memory of intense dreaming last night, although I remember just a few things from before I woke up.

I know that the ambient in which I am now is my faculty (the building where I studied). I am seeing some familiar faces. Don't know actually what am I doing there, cause I've finished my education.
I am feeling, well not quite positive for some reason, like something is bugging me.
I really don't remember what was going on here I just know that I have to take a trip somewhere with someone to meet some Chinese woman. I am upset cause I won't see my boyfriend. I don't know when will I be coming back. I am sad, feeling this uncomfortable feeling of separation ... like a bad dream (heh!)

We have arrived to that woman's place. She doesn't really look like Chinese woman but the people she work with does. For some reason now I am more relaxed. I think I am seeing some interesting stuff iaround me. I remember I was curious and playful.

Now I am seeing some strange creature. I've heard that she has a monkey, but wow, that is not an ordinary monkey, and as I am looking him more I am thinking how he looks more like a Gargoyle - it has those "devilish" wings, and a pointy tail. It gets closer to me and it really is kinda scary creature.

I take a look at my mobile phone and I realize it is turned off (same in reality, gets turned off by itself). I am upset cause maybe somebody called me, needed me. I turn it on and indeed I see a message from my boyfriend - from around 10 in the morning, saying something like: My love is a little wild animal (referring on me - cause in reality I was reading some horoscope and my asc. and venus are both in Leo (wild animal)). What you say on you runing with me? (like, while he is running I'll be talking on the phone with him)
I was kinda feeling bad cause I saw this message just now and is afternoon. I felt like I let him down by not keeping my mobile on. I was happy tho that I have received his message. That is all I remember- for now.
Anyhow, overall - bad feeling, don't like it.

Dream brings vision of this ^ (maroon) color in me for some reason.

WOOHOO first entry

this is an entry from last night, most of my memory of it has faded but I do remember a few specific things.
I was in a trailer, there was some sort of conflict going on outside. so I grabbed a shotgun and went out into the yard. this consisted of a large fenced in area covered in leaves, absolutely nothing else. whatever had been going on seemed to have just disappeared, and as I wandered around I noticed there were copperheads all over the place. (this possibly originated from something I had seen on FB where you were supposed to try and find the camouflaged snake within the picture). I almost glided back to the trailer, where I proceeded to have strange interaction with even stranger people. it all had a very "southern dysfunctional family" feel to it.

this dream occurred after the second time I had woken up and fallen back asleep. I am certain there were others I cannot remember but intend to keep better track from here on out.

02.16.2014

A Little Scissor Happy (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It is 11:00 pm. I'm watching tv with my mother in our old house when she abruptly says that it's time for bed. Thinking she means it's time for her to go to bed, I say that I'll go later. "No," she orders, "You need to go to bed NOW."

Put off by her telling me what to do since I don't even live with her anymore, I refuse. We argue for a while until I get sick of it and stomp off to my room to gather my things. If she's going to be like this, I'll just leave. Thinking that I'm obeying her, she goes off to bed as planned. While I'm packing, I hear a CREEPY girl's voice outside my window--- "Don't you wanna play?" Disturbed, I run to my mom's room.

"You heard it too?" she asks, wide eyed.

We go into the living room, where we hear someone breaking into the back door. There's no time to go grab one of my knives as a demented-looking girl with wild black hair bursts into the house, brandishing large scissors. Her choice of weapons reminds me that there are kitchen shears in the nearby cabinet--- I lunge for them, arming myself just as she begins psychotically trying to stab me. I stab at her as well, right in the jugular. The only problem is, her skin is as hard as steel! I do no damage whatsoever!

((Somewhere along the line, the dream deteriorates into me cutting all my hair off.))

02.19.2014

More Attempts on my Life (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The townspeople of Storybrooke (from Once Upon a Time) and a couple of other characters are all gathered around a large tree late at night. They are discussing my fate, which seems to be in jeopardy due to some dark forces.

While they're busy worrying, I come across Dr. Lauren Lewis from Lost Girl and we quickly become very fond of each other. The storyline "pauses" itself as we have sex. When we're done, the dream resumes as if there was no interruption.

I somehow end up in Wal-Mart with Lydia (from Skyrim). She still looks like Lauren, but in the dream it is understood that she's Lydia. Just as in the game, she is my wife.

We're currently being pursued by the cohorts of an evil botanist who wants me for some plant spores that have cultivated in my blood. I am armed only with a small screwdriver. This seems to be weapon enough for now: I easily slide my make-shift shank into my enemies' throats, who subsequently choke to death on their own blood. It is quite satisfying to watch.

There are a LOT of enemies, however. Lydia and I decide to split up so they'll have to divide their efforts. I'm worried, because while they're ordered to bring ME in alive, the botanist gave no such orders for Lydia.

As one of my enemies grows too close for comfort, I stab in in the neck like the others--- and my screwdriver breaks off into his flesh. Great, now I'm weaponless...

I suddenly remember that I have a knife in the pouch I carry, which hangs from my belt. I quickly draw it out and, partially lucid now, rejoice that it is somewhat bigger than in real life.

Lydia meets back up with me just as I slash out the throat of yet another henchman. He is one of the few remaining. The man is still alive, begging for mercy through a gurgle of blood. Even so, I see that he is reaching out to kill me. Lydia finishes him off wih a sharp kick to the head.

The man had possessed a large serrated blade, which I proptly give to Lydia so that she can better defend herself. We walk arm-in-arm from the stor, bragging to each other about our victory.