All DJ Entries

4/18/11. I have decided to put some dj entries from my laptop on DV, buut I'm not gonna post them all at once because that would drown everyone else's journnals, so I'll put them up gradually.

4/18/11

DREAM 1: I was in Kohlhepp's class taking my final (I FUCKING HATE THIS CLASS WITH A PASSION, and I just took part 1 of my fin als from her. She is my biology teacher, and ranked by most as the hardest teacher at school), and in the end it was apparently the last day. everybody went nuts and started playing shitty rihanna music and ran out of the class like maniacs.

DREAM 2: Me and my dad went to some nice house, william shatner opened the door in a pirate costume. the house was like a variant of the Kumar's (one of my landscaping jobs). my dad started talking about rumble tone (My dad used to be a singer in a band when I was like 10, they got big to the point of playing a 5,000 perswon show), and how his buddies from the resturant were in it. You could tell that william didn't care. At one point, marty (my drumming teacher) ran out in an indian costume, you could tell something was going on inside, like a party.

DREAM 3: I just kept cycling through these girls talking about their favorite buddhism scriptures while at the beach. What didn't occur to me was that there ARE no buddhism scriptures, but it was hard to catch because it was like watching a movie on youtube or something.

5/9/11

DILD

I became lucid and started to ignore the antagonist of the non-lucid portion of the dream. Kevin was there and talking about how he would want to have a Portal 2 like dream. So I looked at a wall and aimed my hand at it. It was not very successful, but when I tried again, the white clawed arm of the game extended out from mine and I made an orange portal. I aimed a blue one somewhere else and observed where I would come out. As I entered, it appeared to lead out in the right area. I spent the rest of the dream making portals and traveling around. I screwed with the antagonist. I was generally successful except some of the portals would be really small.

Finally had lucid ***. Took me a while to get it but whatever. I did a DEILD to get into it.
had more dreams but w.e

Early this morning I read an artical in the German dream-forum about dreamapps in iPod. Two hours later I have dreamed about dreamapps or my iPod 4 times! For example:

I awake in the morning and want to speake a dream in my iPod. Then I see the iPod is on and shows a forgein app. As I try to switch to memo nothing happens. I look to the battery icon and see no power. I remember the iPod was the hole night on and so no wonder... As I will stand up to connect the iPod with the pc I awake up and realized that I have a FE .

It's my first DJ Entry in like six months, but anyway, I don't have that much to say. My recall was going down day after day like the amount of healty liver tissue in an alcoholic, and now I'm back from scratch, trying to improve my recall. I can only recall two lucids, one was the last year and the other one was a couple of weeks ago:

An afternoon with Chuck Schuldiner in Barcelona

I'm in my grandma's house (just behind mine), in her room. I'm watching a concert in DVD, called "Death: Live in Cottbus", with my brother and a tall guy with a black guitar, like Chuck Schuldiner's (Chuck is Death's the main guitarist/vocalist, He died because a tumor in his head). The band is playing Spirit Crusher, and that guy starts playing his guitar (unplugged), He plays so damn good (as Chuck used to), not even a singlenote is misplaced...

Wait, this cannot be real, We're in Spain (I was in my grandma's house, but I felt the atmosphere quite "spanish", like being in Barcelona) with Chuck (yes, that guy was Chuck Schuldiner playing guitar in front of me). I'm bored, so let's go outside. Chuck keeps playing, but he left his guitar in the room, so the sound comes from nowhere. I "pick up" an air guitar and start playing behind him, like an air guitar duel, for the rest of the song. After thar, He says "follow me, machine" (like "maquina", "fiera" or "campeón", ways to call other people in the local slang). Following him in the streets of Barcelona, some people starts poking me. I keep walking, but They are so annoying, like trying to knock me down. I fall to the floor, and all fades into nothingness...

Going back home

I am with my brother in a warehouse, our warehouse (huge dreamsign, we have no warehouse). I decide to go home. I'll be there in a minute, I just need to walk a couple of blocks. The moon is quite shiny this night. A little nigger comes to me asking for some pennies. I hate those parasites, so I've disfigured his face with my so feminine fist. Lolwut? I look like a woman (a very hot woman), but I don't get lucid despite the big dreamsign. Another nigger comes to me (a big one). He grabs me from my back and puts a knife in my neck with the purpose of stealing my money. I see my dad in the other side of my block, so I drag him there slowly in the struggle. My dad takes a glass bottle from the floor and hits him in the head. He falls unconscious. I run scared like a coward girl (now I can't avoid the dreamsigns).After running for a minute, I calm down and realized I'm in a quite vivid dream, inside a hot lady's body. What can I do? There's some obvious, options, but first of all I must take vengeance. Quo can't waste his (or maybe her, this time) time having sex with his/her gorgeous body when payoff calls the door. I start running back to the "crime scene". The moon seems very beautiful, and I can see the trees shaking with the wind. Finally, I am back, blood thirsty and crushing that nigger's bones. I'm so blind when it comes to attackig people! It would be funnier with a hammer and a screwdriver (like "3 guys 1 hammer"). Anyway, I had two "victories" in a single night.



Yesterday, I dreamed I was in a very crowdy train. I turn my head to the right and I see a mysterious girl. When I saw her face I got lucid (and unfortunately, I woke up). Now I can remember, I've seen her some time ago, taking the bus every wednesday for a couple of months. I knew She would trigger my lucidity because all the DCs in my dreams seem to be so boring, so common..., and I didn't see her in the dream plane until now. I can't wait to meet her so her mysterious look will lead my way to lucidity again (I hope).

I had a lucid dream 2 days ago when I was visiting my mom. Unfortunately it was one of my least recalled LDs. I do remember a few things though. I remember that I was flying. I was feeling very happy to be lucid dreaming. I had this desire to take off my shirt. So I did. I wanted everyone to see how beautiful and sexy I was.

I remember this as being a somewhat long dream, but this is all I remember.



Haha...another topless dream. Honestly I don't know what these are all about. I'm sure people could interpret my dreams and tell me all sorts of interesting things.

I had a dream today...I was in my old school playing (or not, idk) football with my friends, and then suddenly i see a girl, a friend of mine, that i haven't seen for something like a year, she comes running for me and hugs me for like 30 seconds...and when i look to her she's crying of happiness (lol). We sit in a bench and start looking at the setting of the sun, when suddenly a piece of the sky "opens" (just like those biblical images of god coming to earth...but in this case it was without him) and i say "look!thats beautiful"...i don't remember if she answered or not...and then i see a mini tornado forming...and i don't remember anything else...

Don't know about this being my higher self? Here's the dream... I enter the dream using the wild method. As the dream is forming I find myself floating up some kind of brick well. I see a dark shadow at the top of the well. I tell myself I'm going to confront this dark figure and not be scared of it. As I rose closer I realized it was the grim reaper. I told myself it's just a dream don't be scared. I floated up and yelled "I'm not afraid of you!" and tried to look threw the slit in the hood he was wearing. When I made eye contact it was instant chills up my spine. Inside was me! I stand looking at the reaper form of me directly in the eyes. I ask strongly. " what do you represent?" his face turned angry and he gave a deep yelling groan and hit me with what felt like g-forces of pure energy. I flew back down the well depratley trying to stop myself from falling. I thought I was on my way to hell. I tried to make commands to telaport to a happy location. Nothing was working so I shouted your awake. And I woke instantly. This is the only lucid dream I woke myself up. It was that scary.

I am in some sort of alternate universe where technologies are mainly the same but humans live in feudal societies and tame and ride dragons rather than drive cars. I am secretly a princess of a lost dynasty and the last of my family's bloodline. I have long black hair, pale skin and blood red eyes, which are traits of my royal family's genetics, though most people do not realize this. I have been rasied as a commoner by an adoptive family in a place called Moon City but civil war breaks out and we are forced to flee.

My adoptive mother, brothers and I go to the main city of the continent to stay with some family and friends. Politics is tumoltuous in this city and it is ruled by an authoritorian leader who controls every aspect of the citizen's lives. Every night there is a curfew at sunset and people caught outside after it is implemented are arrested or killed by the security force loyal to the iron fisted leader. It is not as bad as it sounds though and as long as people obey the rules and don't openly oppose the leader then they can live their lives otherwise normally.

The house we go to is at the end of an alley and only has three bedrooms for almost 10 people to stay in. I get stuck sharing a bed with my brothers and one of my friends. All of the older people are up all night talking about the war in Moon City and I cannot sleep because I am in a strange place and the talk of the older folk worries me so. In the morning my mother, grandmother and aunts go shopping and I wander the neighbourhood to orient myself with my new home. I find a vast, white sand beach and happily dig my bare feet in the sand and dip my toes in the cool water. In the distance I see a handsome young man watching me enjoy the beach. He is sitting on a large black and purple dragon and gazes on me with a withering smile. I do notice him but I pretend not to and ignore him.

Afterwards I am walking along a marketplace and find a used bookstore. I spend a long time browsing the books and I am so happy and content that I kind of get carried away and forget about the time. I finally buy a book and start reading it on the way home. I am walking slowly and so intrigued with my book that I do not notice the sun beginning to set and the streets becoming empty. I finally snap out of my reverie when I am at the far end of the alleyway where my grandma's house is and though I am kind of scared I know that I do not have very far to go. I begin walking briskly but I do not notice the four or five patrol officers appear behind me riding thier massive green and black dragons.

One of them yells at me and when I turn around they all jump off their dragons and force my back up against a wall. They begin shoving me and demanding to see identification and when I produce my passport they throw it on the ground and begin harassing me for not being a native citizen. They ignore my fearful protests and two of them grab me, turn me around so that my back is facing them and pin me to the wall. Another of the guards starts frisking me roughly and inappropriately by putting his hand under my skirt and rubbing between my legs. I try to scream but one of the guards covers my mouth with a gloved hand and they all start laughing and cajolling me as the assault continues.

Suddenly a voice shouts down the alleyway and the offending guards snap to attention and let me go. The young man who had been watching me on the beach approaches, riding his mighty purple and black dragon, and demands to know if the soldiers have anything better to do than harass young girls. One of the soldiers starts to stammer and answer but the young muscular man shouts at them that this kind of thing is not what his father is paying them for and he screams at them to beat it, which they do with much haste.

He gets off his dragon, picks up my passport from the ground and asks me if I am all right. I kind of glare at him with anger and indignation. How the hell does he think I feel after being sexually assaulted? The young man can see they I am distraught, laughs at himself and conceeds that it was a stupid question. He introduces as Mordred and tells me that he is the son of the man who rules this city. He looks over my passport and then seems to inspect me withis sharp and intense gaze before handing my id back. He asks me a few questions about why I left Moon City and I answer as I can.

He offers to escort me home but I am suspicious and worried that he will take advantage of me too. I am able to tell him that my grandmother's place is just down the street and we walks with me there, his dragon following closely behind. The young man gives me a cell phone and tells me that I can call him on it at any time if anyone else gives me trouble while I am in his city. After he sees be home and bids me goodnight I watch him ride his dragon away through one of the few windows in the house.

I do not tell my family what happened and the next day I stick very close to my mom and aunts as they travel to a large multi-storey mall for some shopping. I don't know why but it soon seems that I am there by myself and wander past the shops slowly and with much disinterest. I come across a food gallery of sorts but the dream distorts somewhat and while I can see the kind of food being served, I cannot read the menus and names of the food stores for some reason. Near one store that looks like a Taco Bell, I find a glass display case with many little ancient egyptian crafts and I spend some time admiring a little statue of a seated goddess Sekhmet.

A voice suddenly announces over the intercome that sunset will happen in about an hour and everyone is advised to go home. I am on the second floor of the mall and head towards an elevator, trying to avoid the man people scrambling around as if in a panic. I come across one elevator and there is a stroller nearby with a baby in it, but no adults in sight. I don't know what to do so I just get on the elevator but I am confused by the buttons on it. There are many buttons but none are labelled or clear and I cannot tell which button to press to go down. I make a guess and push one but instead of going to another floor the elevator starts moving along a track from one side of the mall to another.

I get out on the otherside in frustration and come across another adandoned baby in a stroller. People are running around ignore it so I do to. I am starting to panic because I don't know how I am going to get to the main floor to exit the mall before sunset, let alone make it all the way home before it gets dark completely. I try another elevator (and pass many more abadoned babies in strollers - I think I counted five in total this time) and luckily I find one where there is a woman with two children waiting to get on. I am hoping that the woman will know how to use it and slip in first, but she pushes her children in and then allows the door to close, apparently content to adandon her childred as well.

I am panicking and don't know what to do because the elevator is not moving and I don't know how to open the door electronically. I pull the doors apart physically but watch in horror as the two children slip between the space from the elevator to the floor and fall down the shaft. Suddenly the elevator starts moving and goes down to the main floor. When I get out of it I find the woman from upstairs holding one of her children as if nothing had happened.

It is almost dark outside and I am approaching the front doors of the mall when an army of masked soldiers in blue riot gear pushes their way in. The leader of the group points to me and says "There she is - that's the princess." The other soldiers pull out their guns and start shooting in my direction. I run as fast as I can and through a door into a dark room. I pull out the cell phone that Mordred gave me and call the number that is on speed dial. When I hear his voice I break down and start crying and tell him that people are trying to kill me. He tells me to stay where I am and that he will be there soon.

I don't know why the soldiers in blue do not located me, but I can hear them searching through the mall and shooting any straggler shoppers they find, since it is now dark outside. I am very scared and can only hope that my adoptive family made it home a long time ago. I am also confused as to how these soldiers know that a I secretly a princess.

A vent opens on the otherside of the dark room I am in and Mordred appears and tells me to follow him. Down the shaft and into the basement we go and we get on a service elevator that goes down deep underneath the mall and to a long forgotten underground street. His dragon is there and we get on and follow the tunnel to where it comes back above ground on the other side of the city. Along the way Mordred tells me that his father's spies have figured out that I am the long lost princess and has ordered my exection because he does not want anything to threaten his hold of power over this part of the land.

I cannot remember the end of the dream but I think Mordred and I run away together and away from the city.


(A lot of Dragon Booster influences in this dream.)

(Typically lately, I have been taking rather long naps in the day and have contemplated that I might be being pulled by another dreamer into doing so)

I became lucid as I noticed the car going a bit too fast. I was in the passenger seat and C's mother was driving a sports car inbound on I-10. This did not shock me, and I remembered fully that she and I often had shared lucid dreams in the past but made the decision to teleport out if she got out of hand. She wanted to 'discuss' my behavior over the last few years...so I tuned her out and just watched the landscape go by for a while, and started singing The Mission by Puscifer as she carried on. I heard bits of what she said and finally decided to end this..to her railing I said this "Insane isn't defending yourself or reacting to a threat like I do (or defending others), as compared to your definition of insane... or even your own behavior while alive."

I showed her an 'movie' of a spider/woman creeping around, doing fucked up things for no reason at all and not even knowing why ever herself, with several inner dialogs going on within her own head all at once.
"This is the perfect example of insane. Did you recognize the woman?"
She said no, quietly. "I am not surprised at all, you that didn't. This was you." I said. "I don't see a way you COULD have known after years being like that".
I told her it was time to move on, that we had forgiven her and I exited Dream.

YouTube - Puscifer - "The Mission"

I am my dream inarnate Chun-li, a chinese woman with long black hair. I am a part of a team of space explorers and we are attacked by a ship of rival explorers who have been following us and trying to stop us for some reason. We escape their grasp but our ship is damaged and we have to find a place to stop and repair it. We are in the middle of an unknown universe and we come across what looks like an abandoned space center. It is broken up into peices and our team is divided into groups to explore the various sections.

I am with two others at first but I wander away from them and get lost, though I find a large bunker stocked with tools and food and other supplies. My communicator is not working and I cannot contact anyone else in my team. I also discover that the place is infested with thousands of alien rats that attack in hoards. I have a laser weapon, but I do not need it because somehow I know that I can telekenetically incinerate the alien rats with an intense fire, which I do so for the most part, though occasionally and randomly my powers "don't work" and I have to shoot the rats instead.

I eradicate the infestation in the part of the space center I am exploring but find that my team has repaired our ship and left without me. I am furious and frustrated but without a working communicator there is nothing I can do. I go back to the storage area to sort through what can be used and what cannot when the entire ship sudders suddenly. I look out a window and see that the rival ship that had been trying to stop us before has crashed into parts of the space center.

I am kind of worried because I do not want to be captured by the enemy, but on the other hand I would rather be a prisioner and taken care of than die alone on a ruined and abandoned space center. The other ship seems to use a tractor beam to pull the various parts of the space center together and then after a little while it detatched itself and flies away. I wander around a bit in the new sections of the space center that are now accessable and run into a member of the rival team who also seems to have been left behind. He is a handsome, muscular man with brown hair and he says his name is Jack or something.

We are suspicious of each other at first but soon conclude that we have to get alone to survive. He is not a fighter but an engineer and mechanic and could repair parts of the space center to make it livable, or even flyable, but he needs my telekenetic fire powers to kill the hoards of aggressive alien rats that are flooding into all parts of the space center now that it is reassembles.

We are able to secure one second of ship from the rats and make it livable, though I am not happy because there is only one bed and we have to share it. When we have to leave our secured area we go as a team and eradicate as many alien rats as we can. The dream becomes a bit blurred near the end and I think we succeed in eliminating the aliens and we start a romance but I cannot remember the details.

I finally broke my dry spell and had a lucid last night. Not only that, I remembered 4 dreams in the morning, which is the most I've been able to remember yet. Here they are in as best an order as I could remember~
Was in a very warped version of my math class. And by warped, I really just mean the length of the room was huge. A bunch of my classmates were there, and we were getting ready to leave class.
This part was a fragment. I was at a pool for whatever reason. It was inside an unknown building, and no one else was there.
In the next dream, I was in a very dim version of my school's library. I had my mind fixated on finding some book that I can't remember the title of.
This next one was lucid.
I went lucid instantly, thanks to the BILD method I assume. Maybe not instantly, but it probably dawned on me after a few seconds that I was dreaming. I was in a laboratory, with a computer in front of me flashing a warning message: DISARM THE BOMB. Under these words was a timer that was counting down from 30 seconds. I panicked and started frantically messing with the computer, tapping keys fruitlessly. I wasn't able to disarm it in time, and the whole lab started to blow up, but out of no where, a very pretty DC ran in from somewhere and told me that she was going to save me. She picked me up and ran me out of the lab as it was exploding. The dream then ended.

Yay for progress <3

So I'm an energy sensor and have an astral familiar/guardian spirit named Omen who is a black wolf with black feathered wings and small barely pointed horns, he also had red eyes.

Well the other night I noticed another energy in my room and I decided it wasn't harmful and went to sleep, dreaming not only of Omen but this other energy too. He took on the form of a demon (so he told me at least) he had; long black hair that constantly drips blood, angel wings, horns slightly longer than Omen's (they curved a little too), a long fleshy tail that has spikes growing out of it and dark green eyes. Basically he told me he was my other guardian along side Omen to help keep my energy balanced. I woke up and his presence has been around me ever since. What does this all mean I wonder?

So a little while ago I had met this guy and we were instantly close...we recently had a major falling out.

Well last night I had a dream about him knocking me out and then chaining me up and he was about to rape me but somehow four of my friends had keys to each individual chain. Also, two of my friends that are in the Army now were basically acting like spies they had been there during the beginning when Ken started everything but didn't act until they knew they could get me out of there safely. Ken made me cry in the dream yet again before everyone else got there and he left a wound on my head. So my friends in the Army knock him out as people start unlocking the chains and then they all help me find my stuff and we run for it. Ken wakes up and in a last attempt to torment me, he cuts himself and sends me a picture on my cell phone. I still don't understand the whole dream, I just know it hurt me.

I was in my bathroom, when, out of the blue, I decided to do a nose RC. I thought I wasn't dreaming at the time (it was a very vivid dream). So when I tried my nose RC and it came out negatively, I was even more convinced. However, I'm kind of OCD about reality checks, and anyway, I seemed to recall that little breath had actually been produced. So I tried again, and it came out positively! I walked out into the hall and briefly saw my hall window, wondering if I should jump out and try to fly. I decided against it and stood at the top of the stairs. The dream was becoming hazy, so I rubbed my hands together. No effect. I said, "stabilize," and there was still no effect. I then continued my hand-rubbing and, after the word "stabilize" coming out weirdly and me trying again, it finally cleared up. My dream kind of skipped over going down the stairs, but then I walked out the door, onto the front porch. There were about five kittens playing there. One was a calico tortie, and another was black. I remember petting their fur, and it feeling not soft, but dry, kind of. Then I remember a tornado of water with a shrunken head on it, and me controlling it somehow.
After this I only remember snippets. I was somewhere dark, and I wanted it to be light, but then I realized that light switches don't work in dreams. And I remember closing my eyes and opening them somewhere else.