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    1. Daddy issues

      by , 08-06-2018 at 02:26 PM (Exterminate)
      I had a twisted involving meeting my dream dad who I hadn't seen in decades. I had to see him because I was working on a criminal case where a baby was locked into a safe for a length of time. I was able to solve the case because he had done the same thing to me when I was younger. I do not recall if he was doing it to stop the baby from crying or what, but I believe it had a medical connotation to it. He looked kinda like Shaun from Fallout 4 (Spoilers). Apparently he was a rich and famous actor or something. I ran up to him holding some sort of evidence of what he had done. I was about to question him for what he did to me and others and he asked me to come closer. He then pulled off my thumb and the joint. I was in shock. It didn't really hurt yet, but I just couldn't believe he would do that. He just sat back in the car and smiled and said he was not ashamed of what he has done. He was then put into the back of a police car. The police officer then told me they didn't need my evidence, they had all the proof they needed that the man was a psycho.

      Another fragment involved a D.Va racing game. I was watching my brother play with 2-3 other people. Think sonic racing for how it is played. You're constantly going forward and you can use the boosters to jump up and hover a bit. They all were doing pretty bad at the course and it prompted me to want to try. I hooked in a controller, n64 if I recall correctly, and gave it a shot. The course was much more difficult this time around. It had many more jumps and curves and obstacles. Before it was pretty straightforward, but this one had many parts of the track that led to a void requiring you to boost over.

      (Dad in this dream looks like he does irl, the previous dream dad and this dad don't look alike.)
      My dad was going through a very drastic midlife crises. He bought a fancy new car and started to disappear for long lengths of time. The dream picked up with my dad picking up some stuff from the house and going on an unspecified vacation. He had transitioned into a female, sortof. He sounded and looked like a woman, and had lost a little bit of weight. You could kinda see his original appearance and hear his original voice, but he had clearly gone through a lot of changes. I am sure he had started HRT. I was so confused and scared. My mother tried to support him but was afraid she was losing him. He said he had a boyfriend on the side and was trying to figure out who he was. I asked him if I should still call him dad or if I should start calling him mom. I didn't want to have two mothers this late in life. I asked him if I need to call him male or female. Despite his appearance he said he was still male and dad. I wasn't ready to accept such drastic changes, and I kept in mind that he could still reverse the process and be like his normal self again, but I just didn't know what to think.

      Updated 08-06-2018 at 08:59 PM by 57282

      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable , dream fragment
    2. Yeey transition

      by
      gab
      , 05-13-2016 at 02:55 AM (Turquoise Dreams)
      5.12.16

      It's thursday, and I started consistent day shifts this monday. I thought that will fix my recall and dreams and everything. But I guess not, or at least not yet. I'm barely remembering fragments from my night sleep.

      Took a nap today after coming home from work. Was falling asleep on a sofa and getting images. I thought even if it's too late for a LD, I stil can practice falling asleep with intent and with keeping some awareness.

      Well, it worked. After some random images, I got an image of a horizontal metal rail, about chest high. I grabed it and did a pull up on it. Then I pushed myself down, then back up again.

      The movement was easy, as if I was in 0 gravity. This had happened often n my dreams and it was one of my favorite dreams when I was traveling this way up the side of a house pulling myself with ease on the railings of balconies.

      I kept pushing myself up and down, untill after 4-5 push ups the movement took over by itself and I was getting higher and deeper down with every turn. Next thing I know I have my classic, favorite head rush, flying head first at warp speed over bumpy, turbulance like surface.

      I remember that I opened my eyes once during flight like this and saw that I'm flying through space. So I opened my eyes and it looked like I opened my real eyes. Even so, it felt great, the whole experience.

      Last night I had a dream with my "prehistoric" snake from few nights ago. He had red gloving tiny eyes and somehow he got on me and I yelled at someone to get it off.
      Tags: snake, transition
      Categories
      non-lucid
    3. Spooky Transition and Empty Room [WILD]

      by , 10-29-2015 at 06:18 PM (Dimension X)
      Hooray, I had an LD the hard way again! Am I cool yet?

      Really though, I think this is the most aware and in control I've been for a WILD, so this honestly feels like the best one. Let me describe what happened.

      I did a WBTB without even really knowing it because I had trouble sleeping last night, and eventually I got to the transition. I'm not sure how, but I began to focus quite a bit. I began to think of visualizing things, so I thought "Hmm, let's try a sandwich." And I tried to imagine a sandwich floating in the darkness. It worked. It was kinda small, and looked like one from the Simpsons. It was there though, and after a few seconds it floated out of my field of vision. Then I thought "It worked! Let's try something else... A slice of pizza."
      The slice of pizza looked a little cartoony too, but it was there and did the same as the sandwich. I moved my eyes and it seemed like the pizza left a graphical trail. It floated out of my vision due to my eye movements. It was as though my eyes were making the visualizations have... graphical errors? It looked... glitchy. Then everything sort of went a bit haywire. I started seeing random stuff that looked like it was reminiscent of World War 2. That's what comes to mind at least. I silhouettes of soldiers standing in a lineup, some child's face, some military commander... All in a 1940's old black and white photo style. Pretty spooky if you ask me. There was a bunch of those types of pictures, and then out of nowhere, I appeared in a room. I did it. I was in the dream. I felt like I was still aware of my physical body though. If I tried to move my arm, it wouldn't budge and I could still feel it on the bed. If I tried to move my arm with my mind however... The one in the dream reacted. It worked. I was able to lift my arm to a doorknob and open the door. I didn't see anything behind it though, and I stayed in the room. It had two big open windows on the side opposite to the door, where light was flooding in. I saw some environment outside, but I can't say what it was or what it looked like. The floors were a golden brown hardwood, and my bed was in the room too. It was strangely empty. I felt like I was actually alone. For once, my dream wasn't all over the place and confusing. It was just me, in this empty room. Nothing was happening. There was no one else around at all. I woke up shortly after.

      I think this is the most stable LD I've had. I need to have more of these...
      Tags: transition, wild
      Categories
      lucid
    4. Sinking and rising up while dozing off

      by
      gab
      , 08-28-2014 at 03:29 PM (Turquoise Dreams)
      8/26/14 - Monday

      I forgot to write this down. I was watching TV in the evening, trying desperately not to fall asleep. It took huge amount of willpower to keep my eyes open. Even so they were blinking rapidly and I had hard time keeping them opened. When they closed for longer than a second, I got a sinking sensation. First time since I lost all my transition sensation. This ofc jolted me awake from axcitement. So I kept my eyes closed in hope of getting it back. But I realized it has to come by itself, when we not thinking about it.

      Next time I closed my eyes, I got a rapid ascent sensation. And one more time. All those time, including the sinking one, was so authentic, I got butterflies in my stomach, just like when you on a rollercoaster.

      I could not get the sensations when trying to get them. Only when I forgot all about them and was falling asleep. As soon as the movie was over I shot the TV down in hopes of fall asleep and "get me some", but what do you know, suddenly I'm wide awake, no chance of falling asleep. wut
      Tags: transition
      Categories
      side notes
    5. First FILD

      by , 08-02-2014 at 10:45 PM
      Ritual: wtb around 12:30am. Had to get up at 8am so no time for serious WBTB, but I had been reading about FILD and how it relies on short WBTBs that allow one to go back to sleep quickly, so thought this would be a good opportunity to try it out. I was waking up naturally every couple of hours and each time did FILD as I went back to sleep, but no results. If I was having NLDs, I didn't take notes and don't remember them now.

      My fourth waking occurred at 6:50am. I did FILD again. This time, as I was nearing sleep I saw a tiny white light, rayed like a star and unusually bright, appear in the darkness behind my eyelids and seem to come closer. This reminded me: wasn't I supposed to be paying attention to hypnogogic imagery? Actually I don't think that is a part of the FILD technique but in my half-asleep recollection I was convinced it was, so I focused on that white star, and for whatever reason I felt like it was actually effective in helping me transition.

      I had not been doing the "nosepinch" RC during my FILD attempts, as the tutorial recommends, because it struck me as potentially counter-productive to make such a large motion—if the body is not already in SP then one would end up moving one's physical arm and disrupting the transition. Plus, I figured, if I still had the presence of mind to remember to RC in the first place, then I could probably figure it out in some other way.

      As I was trying to come up with alternate RCs that didn't involve physical movement, at one point it occurred to me, "Hey, if I'm lying here with my eyes closed, how come I can see my bedside table?" What a giveaway! So then I realized I must have transitioned without even knowing it, and got out of bed.


      WILD: The first thing I did was go look out the sliding door in the bedroom. In RL it leads to the back patio, but in the dream, it opened onto a wide grassy lawn that extended a great distance. The air felt very real and fresh as it came through the door. I remembered my tasks, but after botching them last time because I rushed out of the house before the dream had stabilized, I didn't want a repeat of that failure. I realized I'd better take some time first and let the dreamstate develop a bit more strength. It felt unusually "thin," even for an early-stage WILD.

      As I walked down the hall, I noticed three coins lying on the floor just inside the door to the library. This pleased me immensely, because I recognized it at once as waking life residue, the consequence of a conversation yesterday, and I was glad the dream was showing a bit of initiative. I picked up the coins and then wondered where to put them when I discovered that was wearing a skirt that had no pockets. "Don't be silly," I reminded myself, observing that this shouldn't be an obstacle in the dreamstate. So without looking, I slipped my hand down until I could feel the edge of the pocket that manifested on the skirt just where I "expected" it to be, and slipped the coins inside.

      Shortly after this the dream was disrupted by a half-waking, but I was able to re-transition. I got out of bed again and realized I'd better work more deliberately on stabilization, running through each of my senses in turn to better engage them. Touch always seems the most foundational, so I rubbed my hands together and over various differently-textured surfaces in the room: the fluffiness of a sheepskin, the scratchiness of the wool rug, the smoothness of the wall. My sense of touch tends to be robust even in the most poorly-integrated dreams, so the results were satisfactory. What next? I thought of sight and sound, but immediately hesitated. The dream felt so thin and fragile that I felt convinced engaging sight and sound would expose me to RL stimuli and risk waking me. I thought it might be better to do taste and smell first to try to get a little more traction. As I walked toward the kitchen I saw a potted basil plant (much like the one I had bought yesterday from Trader Joe's) sitting in the door of the hallway bathroom. "That'll do for taste," I thought, plucking a leaf and putting in my mouth. It tasted very much like real basil, spicy and herbaceous, but somehow not entirely pleasant on its own. The leaf was unusually large and now it was filling my mouth in an unpleasant limp wad, so rather than chew and swallow, I took out what was left of it and put it on the counter. Surely there must be something else to eat? Ice cream maybe? I looked in the freezer, but remembered that I had finished the chocolate ice cream last night. I considered manifesting some more, but didn't get around to it. This might have been around the time the second half-waking occurred, and I had to re-transition.

      It's not unusual that I have to chain a few WILDs like this before the dreamstate stabilizes, but this time it only seemed to be getting weaker rather than more robust, despite my deliberate attempts to gain traction. I guess my REM state wasn't very strong or I was already too wakeful. At one point I had opened the screen door by my work area and was standing with one foot inside the room, one foot outside on the patio, looking down the side of the house and thinking how unusually lifelike it looked, rather than showing the typical degree of dream-like distortions. And not long after that I woke up for the third time, too fully awake to retransition. I checked my clock and it was 7:35am.

      It was a rather unsatisfying WILD in that the dream started out thin and only got thinner as time went on... there was one rough patch in the third part where I felt like I was holding it together through imagination alone before my senses re-engaged. By the very end, after it became apparent that I wasn't going to be able to accomplish anything worthwhile, I think I just gave up and was indulging in libidinous pleasure—through thought alone, as it seemed too much trouble at that point to try to create a scenario.

      I'll have to keep trying with FILD to see if I can get better results. On the upside, it has the advantage that it can be practiced during very brief WBTBs, so it can be used at times when other techniques that require more mental focus would be unsuitable.

      Updated 08-02-2014 at 10:48 PM by 34973

      Categories
      lucid
    6. SP

      by , 10-04-2012 at 08:58 AM (Tales from the sun chaser.)
      two episodes of SP....

      I think the first could have been the transition....because I didn't feel anything, and I just sat there and broke out of it.


      Second time....it was a different story.


      I couldn't move...all I could do is open my eyes. And when I did, I saw i was looking at the wall, and black objects were coming through it and heading towards me. They looked like spirits.....or something, and I was just trying to tell myself no one of this was real, but I didn't want to give in because it felt like I couldn't breath at all. Once I broke out of it, I couldn't get back to sleep...my heart was racing heavily.
      Tags: sp*, transition
      Categories
      side notes
    7. Lol fuck this

      by , 07-09-2012 at 08:26 AM (Tales from the sun chaser.)
      So I'm in bed and I feel the transition. Falling through the bed and all that jazz. I think I got a little disorientated, but other than that it's all good right!? WILD action right?

      No, I'm in the void for a bit and scared to open my eyes and all that basic stuff I should already know. As a matter of fact the dream starts.

      I'm in my room trying to go back to sleep and I hear my nephews enter the hours. Furiously, I yell at them about how they need to shut up. It felt weird cause I don't do things like that.

      I even closed my door so I wouldn't hear them. Seconds later they opened it. I was soooooo mad, Nd then they're like "uncle Auron can we play your game". I gave in and I feel them in the damnbed rummaging around all my old games. Oddly enough they want to mess around with my Dreamcast and Nintendo crap, and I kinda want to punch them. One of them holds up a copy of dead or alive. I say something that I regret, but at the same time I meant it.

      it's so crazy how I was like I need to go back to damn sleep when in actuality, I was already asleep. Just laying there in my dream waiting for the dream to begin. I should have recognized my aggressiveness. Also the whole part where some random kid was with them. I guess I'm going to just pretend that it was going to be a short lucid that wouldn't have mattered anyway.
    8. DILD + 5 DEILDS on one night

      by
      gab
      , 04-01-2012 at 06:16 PM (Turquoise Dreams)
      Saturday 3/31/12 5-HTP at 10:15pm, bed at 11:50pm didn't practice awareness
      DR 3:47
      WBTB 3:47 - 4:21 didn't fall asleep till 5:20 (cat going potty)
      Woke up at 7:15 from DILD + 5 DEILDs Each about 5min long
      For WBTB WILD I visualize being at beer pub with mom, dad, and two others. I recall the tables, people, green leaves on a tree, glasses with beer.
      Then I fall asleep and have a DILD.
      DILD
      At home on RD10. I'm hugging and kissing my parents. My dad's cheek has a 5o'clock shadow. We are in a hallway, light are on. Then I'm on front balcony looking out (or maybe through my brothers room window). It's at night and everything is shining under moonlight, as if it was covered by ice. (EDIT: I thught for long time what it reminds me of, and I figured it out today - it has colors, beauty and misticism of Hyu's avatar pic.) I trick my mind into making everything more focused by saying 'Look how is everything so detailed', although it wasn't. In that moment it gets very vivid and focused in shades of black, grey and blue, shiny with ice surface. beautiful.
      I'm on my balcony. It's daytime. So crisp and focused, I think it's WL. I do a bunch of RCs. First time I do 'nose plug' RC, although I have never practiced it. I can breathe. But I'm not 100% sure. Doesn't stop me from jumping off the balcony to fly.
      Not sure if this is the same LD or a separate one. - I'm on balcony to a street. I know that in my previous LD was daytime and I wonder, why is it night. I say it and in little while the sun is coming up. I'm trying to go to the moon from the backyard. I find it on the skies and take aim. I think I wake up.
      DEILD 1
      I'm on a sidewalk of a major city. I see tall modern buildings on the left. Bunch of DCs. I ask two of them, one man and then one woman 'Excuse me mam, sir, what is this town, err, city?' I'm so nervous talking, I fumble with words. One of them says Philadelphia.
      A bus pulls up to the sidewalk. I'm so scared as it's turning towards us, because its huge, like 3 buses on top of each other. Menacing, white metal, heavy looking. I walk on a sidewalk among lots of DCs. From the left is an exit from a bus depot? Big machines are coming out of there from behind big black rubber flaps, so you don't see something is coming until you are close to it. I'm scared to walk by, so I don't get run over.
      Note sure if this is the same LD or another one. >> I'm in a building. Me and another person or two plus our guide are hovering on top of some very tall furniture - couple of stories high. He is shoving us this so we can decide, what kind of a tour we want. I see a window, open it, pull away the screen and fly out. I feel so free. Not sure if it was here, but at one point I jumped off a tall building although I was not sure, that I can fly. Just inches from sidewalk my fall changed to a glide above ground.
      ***I wake up, (was I sleeping on my back and right shoulder) and remember not to move. I wait to enter another LD.
      DEILD 2
      I'm on a river bank. Decide to swim across. Water is yellowish. Someone else is in the water. I get out on other side. There is a area fenced off by chain link fence. Some bikers are watching two of them fight, as if in a rink. I decide to try my powers and take the place of one guy to fight the bigger one. The ground is slippery from spilled beer. I think they are pouring beer at each other. I ask where is my beer. One of them brings two big, classical beer glasses filled with what looks like lager. But he takes a drink from them so I say to forget it. I don't know how to fight this guy. >> I'm in a building/shack next to this fight field. I ask a cute biker if he wants to have sx. He says sure and we start to undress. We are almost there, but I wake up.
      DEILD 3
      I'm back with the biker. He doesn't want to go on, because he doesn't want to wake up again. I walk over to a group of 2-3 bikers, one is a cop in blue uniform and tell them I just broke up with my boyfriend, if they want to continue where he left off. Things start to happen, but I wake up again.
      DEILD 4
      I'm flying inside the museum. Lots of rooms and people. I realized a few moments past by and suddenly everything is focused. I realize, this is what people mean about dream getting focused after a minute or two. Looking for a window to get out, but can't find any. I realize, I can get out by getting lucid by looking at something moving towards me. I find a boy sitting on a floor playing with a train. I sit down and we pass the train between us, while I stare at it when it's coming towards me.
      DEILD 5
      I'm hovering over a street with other DCs. I ask out loud to see my grandma. One DC separates from others and flies to me. She is smiling, but her face is changing from a mummy to a girl of maybe 20 years of age. I ask her if it's really her and she assures me yes. But I'm pretty sure it's not.

      ***In one of the LDs I was able to only whisper. Rest of them I was shouting***
      ***In one of the LDs I signed my full name without any problem and then was able to read it***
      ***In most of them, I kept saying to myself loud 'I'm dreaming' to keep myself aware***
      ***First time 'nose plug' RC. Feels great to breathe through pinched nose.***

      Each transition - when woke up from LD - was the most awesome part of the whole thing. I realized, I can get a headrush by looking at something moving towards me and then tilting my head forward or back. (This head tilt is recurring thing from couple weeks ago, when I realized in regular dream, that I can get lucid this way.)
      So I looked at the street hoping for a car to come by - and it did, looking at a toy train when playing with a boy, looking at starfield in hyperspace on TV. When this field was going sideways, I made it change direction so it flies at me. Also was able to recall smell from previous LD to help induce another one.

      Updated 04-21-2012 at 06:40 AM by 50242

      Categories
      lucid , memorable