non-lucid

11/17/11

NON-LUCID


I dreaming I was in the lunch line and some dude behind looked familiar. He was a kid who insulted me in High School Middle School. As I’m waiting to get my food, this lady gives me a large pancake with a large chicken tender. She’s giving everyone else small amounts except for me.

Then I had another dream where my parents and I was standing up and I was going to get some ice-cream. My father looks at me weirdly. Then some evil music started to play, so I sat that and decided to get something else. But the music played after like 5 seconds.

Then I meet my Art teacher from Cy lakes, she’s wondering what’s wrong with me, but I just keep walking. She’s surprised for me not responding and is just standing there confused.

Hey guys,

This is my first DJ entry. In attempt to eventually reach lucid dreaming and after reading a lot here, I found I'm going to have to be able to remember my dreams consistently. So to do so, I implemented this on the side of my bed:


Now I previously have VERY rarely remembered anything from my dreams. Last night however, after saying "I will awake from my dreams and completely remember them" over and over to myself and also having my DreamJournal.txt on my desktop on my PC next to my bed, I found myself waking up twice in the night and typing into this text file. So here goes:

Dream 1:
I was in what appeared to be an airport waiting room with my Dad's best mate Tim and my Aunty R--- (both of whom live in England, I live in Australia. I immigrated when I was younger). The only other thing I remember from this is that I was eating a rather large cake that had LOADS of Smarties in it.

Dream 2:
I was in the room of one of the tripplets I went to high school with (I've not spoken to any of them in person in about 5 years) and J--- was talking about her new boyfriend who was a writer for a magazine. Her brother D--- was making fun of this and I was laughing along too. J--- was wearing a white T-shirt with some writing on it and she had lots of make-up on. D--- had straight, long-ish hair and was wearing a headband.

I think this is a step forward from not being able to remember anything at all

Thanks for reading guys. Any feedback is welcomed and appreciated.

Until next time,
Oblique

My dream was last night stared off with me looking into my daughter throat with a torch so I could see properly. For some reason (this part makes no sense) from looking into her throat I could see her ear cavities but I was only looking at her right side and I saw these grose little white worm with black head they kind of moved like catapillers though...so I'm not 100% sure if they were worms or cattapillars. The first time I looked there were heaps of them I then went back for a second look and only saw one. In my dream my daughter kept putting her fingers in her ears like they were irritating her. The dream made me feel incredibly sick and like a bad mum for not knowing about them earlier so that I could fix the problem earlier.

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Two nonlucids last night.

1. I was sitting in a hotel room-esque room. I was with my 8 year old cousin, some woman, and a kid that was maybe 4 or 5 years old. The room was maybe 10x10x8 feet.
My little cousin asks us if we want to see something cool, and we say, "Sure," though I feel some sort of impending danger mixed with curiosity. He tells us to turn off the lights and we do. The little boy, being a little kid, is afraid of the dark and has a flashlight. My cousin is getting very angry at him and yells at him to turn off the light. I go to him and say,
"Don't worry, there's no monsters. Can you turn off the light for me?"
He turns off the light and I hear some really fucked up growling coming from where my cousin was. I grab the light and turn it back on, and see a troll-looking thing where my cousin was sitting. (It looked kinda like a Bullsquid from Half-Life, but with arms and standing upright) I feel a burning on the right half of my body (more specifically, my ribs) (as it was a dream, it didn't hurt, I just sorta knew it was burning) and the flashlight breaks. The troll thing breaks through the door, letting light from the hallway in. I see that the woman has been stripped down to nothing but her skeleton in less than a second, and the boy is horribly burned, as if he had fallen in acid.
I sit on the chair where my cousin was originally for a few moments and then a group of four people run in. They say something (I forgot) and bandage me. The dream skips forward and now I'm in front of my grandmother's house (my cousin practically lives there because his Xbox is there). I walk in through the door and I see my grandparents watching TV as usual, with my little cousin sitting on the couch. He looks at me with a surprised, almost scared expression on his face at first, but then he gets a big grin and says,
"Hey, Chris."
Anger surges through me as I grab his leg and fling him across the room. The dream ends.
2. I'm in a semi-barricaded house. I remember something about a zombie infection and the group I was with were the only people who knew about it, and everybody we told wouldn't believe us. We were barricading some house in preparation. The dream skips forward and we're in some dark corridors. I guess we went to a bunker or something. We're all unarmed save for a few glowsticks which only let us just barely see two or three feet in front of us. I can hear zombies growling all around us. We make it to the end of the corridor, and there is a door. As one of the members of the group starts to pick the lock, my glowstick dies. Another guy hands me a magazine looking thing with a picture of a glowstick on it. I push down on the glowstick and it lights up (cool). I hear zombies start running at us. I grab a rake (?)that was next to me (as I said, we were unarmed at that point) and start fending off the zombies. They unlock the armory and in the confusion, a zombie bites me. They come out with guns and kill the remaining zombies. I tell them to kill me, and they do.
The dream doesn't end there, though. I end up looking at a computer screen with a wall of text that I can't remember. I'm not looking at the screen, though, it's as if I'm in it and my world is the desktop of the computer. I can move the cursor as if I had a mouse in my nonexistent hand. I remember thinking something like,
"Huh. So this is what happens after death. Not what I was hoping for (a DMT trip that seems to last for eternity that puts me in pretty much an infinite lucid dream which I'll talk about more if somebody wants me to), but better than nothing."
The dream skips forward and now I'm in a field. There's a nice mountain range and lake. I feel and hear some banging and look behind me. There's a colossal giant, easily 200 feet tall, running at me. I wake up.

1. I was under my porch and me and Dave Chappelle were having a rap battle and I kept rapping about sandwiches.

2. I went into a store in a bikini (I'm a guy..) and I thought everybody would make fun of me but nobody noticed and I was looking for a drink and said theres nothing good here so I became observant and found a root beer.

Took 50 mg of b complex and 250 mg of choline at bedtime at 1:30 am.

Had a few dreams but can't recall enough to write about. I was in SK, packing something in a bag...? I have a feeling dreams were long, but can't recall.

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I'm walking through a big, vacant parking lot with a friend of mine. I pass by my cousin and uncle driving through and wave, but they didn't see me. I'm not sure if they didn't see me or were just ignoring me. We arrived at our destination, a video game store, and when we walked in the place was crowded.

There was a sale going on. I remember noticing a Super Nintendo bundle being sold which came with several games I remember being awesome (including Yoshi's Island). I look to my left and the person standing next to me was the one and only Snoop Dogg.

I look at him and he seemed to realize I wanted to shake his hand so he extended it. I shook his hand and started chatting with him. In an effort to entertain, I went over the a record player in the front of the store and put on the Slits. I wasn't sure if anyone was going to like it, but I remember it sounding pretty good.

I walked back over to Snoop Dogg and he was bobbing his head and asked if it was the Slits. I told him it was and asked him how he knows them and if he's a fan. I responded that he has two friends who likes them a lot. I felt like we were becoming friends.

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For real, in waking life I ordered in ear beats by Dre tour earphones off eBay. In the dream, they arrived earlier than the estimated arrival date and so i opened up the package. I remember some sound I kept hearing as I looked at them and stuff. I found that they were super low quality and seemed to be falling apart like clay sort of and the cables extended out of the headphones. I really dont know much more but it was a kind of weird dream but a fragment.

I had a friend stay over last night so I wasn't really expecting to have anything interesting to journal today. However once I was alone I decided to lay down and give try to fall back asleep.

I put on a movie and lay in bed and slowly I started to drift off.

What happened then was a complete surprise. My bod started to slowly tingle. I don't remember if it ever began to vibrate.

I started to feel myself turning in my bed to weird angles and positions. It felt completely "normal" at first but then I decided to try "waking myself up" and seeing what happened. To my surprise I woke myself up and realized I had been in a very light sleep and dreaming of myself turning.

I fell back asleep and began turning and shifting positions until I basically melted off the bed and onto the floor. I remember thinking how it should have hurt hitting the floor and that the angle I was positioned in was awkward and too tight a space. I should not have been able to fit in there and it should have hurt badly.

I realized I was dreaming and struggled to stay asleep but was successful. I remember my eyes were closed and was afraid if I opened them I would wake myself up.

I slightly opened them to find myself up against the wall near a window in my room looking down on my bed. I was still asleep. I tried to see if I could see myself sleeping but remember it was very blurry.

I floated up the wall and plunged up into the ceiling and into the second floor of my house. I remember it was "blank" and I defined the area of what it should look like as I walked around.

Looking at the color of the paint on the walls told me that I was in the past because the color is different now. So I focused on the paint colors and the walls changed to various different colors until they settled on what I recalled the colors should currently be.

I noticed that the second floor had no people and no furniture. It was empty. In real life there are people living there and it is fully furnished.

I walked around the apt. for a while and don't recall exactly what happened next.

I remember waking up and falling back asleep several times but I was fully confident that I would return to my lucid state.

Next thing I can remember I was floating outside of my house however it was the house I grew up in during childhood. There were no people, just houses.

It felt so intense. I felt so connected to everything. I remember seeing a person at that time and I said two things to him.

1. "I realize that I will never be any more than I already am"
2. - I can't recall the exact words but it had something to do with me being connected to everything. I think the idea was that I was already more than just one person.

I rose up in the air floating / flying and laughed as I realized I had full control over the world around me. The feeling was so intense that I remember fearing I would become crazy and possibly lost in this world. (I think this realization and validation through a person in my dream state shot me into a level four dream)

I don't recall if I actually woke myself up to make sure that I could or not. I may have but it was only for a moment and I was right back in the same situation flying. If I did or not, something reassured me that I would be ok and I continued my dreaming.

I flew up into the air and decided to fly to the moon. I remember seeing it small and ahead of me and as I approached it grew no bigger. It was the size of a small asteroid. I knew this wasn't correct so I tried to change it's shape to what I knew the moon was supposed to look like. I tried to give it craters and increase it's size.

I don't think I was fully successful. I remember looking around and seeing dot's all over the place, I suppose they were stars.

It reminded me of my "sandbox mode" dreams that I had yesterday. Except things were "real" not made of color. I was trying to create the world around me as I went and was doing a better job of it... but not hitting the mark exactly.

I woke up and ended up falling back asleep into a regular dream. I was in a mall area with my family. I recall trying to buy some things at the register but something rang in at the wrong price. I complained to the cashier and we looked at the prices on the register tape. The prices were ambiguous. We couldn't tell.

The cashier went to get the manager and he came over and refused to do anything about it because he was literally about to go on vacation THAT MOMENT. SO he walked off and left.

I remember being angry and telling him I would be calling to complain to the people who ran the place and I made sure he knew my name.

I went out in the parking lot full of cars and it occurred to me that I could fly. I remember just lifting up and flying around the parking lot. Landing and flying around some more.

I think I was lucid at this point but it faded in and out. The next thing I remember was seeing a huge amusement park in the parking lot. With a crazy big huge gigantically large roller coaster. It was so abnormally large, towering up into the sky, that there was no way I was going to get onto it.

I think my mother told me at that point it was closed and I felt some relief that it wasn't an option.


The lucid portions of my dreams were so intense. I feel like it was "part two - intermediate level" from my dream yesterday. These are a brand new type of lucid dreams. Ones where I am creating the world from my imagination rather than them appearing already fully developed.

I watched some videos last night on the five stages of lucid dreams and I am quite sure this had an influence on my dreams. He talked about touring space and alien planets. It never occurred to me before that I could fly myself up into space.

Based on the level theory he presents I have a vague idea of what may be happening.

Yesterday, I was not sure if what I was experiencing was an OOBE because of how different it was.

But now I believe what may be happening is I am jumping right into "Level Four" lucid dreams and encountering a "blank slate" situation. This would explain why I am entering a dream state that seems empty and why I have to create the environment around me ahead of time.

Waking up and falling back asleep into normal dreams where I attain lucidity by realize I am dreaming, brings me back into a lower level lucid dream where the environment is already established and I am able to move around in it.

Then that lucidity eventually brings me back to a level 4 LD where I flew into space and created the moon and stars myself.

This makes sense because of my conversation with that person. It validated that I was in a LD and it pushed me into the next level. I remember feeling so intense that I may be going crazy. This is similar to "breaking through" where the last time I did it I reached a level four dream state also.

Totally amazing. The entire experience was from approx 10 am to 12 pm noon.

Fragment

The GSE ran out into an area to fight another firm. The area was dark it was like behind a warehouse and a spotlight was shining in the middle.

Long dream with Leo and I playing age. The first game we played he beat me. Apparently this. Was a year long game and I never built an army because we never attacked each other. I got pissed. We played again and he almost immediately beat me. This time we played longer. He tried to rush but he held it off. I got a giant army and destroyed his walls and beat him. We went outside to a super sunny day. So vivid and sunny. We were going to our place and ended up going to mothers. We went the wrong way and backtracked to our mothers. Leis mom met up and was happy we even went outside. There was a house we were selling that ended up being sold by someone else.*

- Setting: great Grandmother’s house, night time

Experience: my girlfriend and I are in the living room watching TV. Chatting. Laughing. I guess somehow we get a little “hot” and begin making out. I pick her up and sit her on the dresser by the door. As we’re making out, we hear my sister and her boyfriend getting it on upstairs. We can hear the bed creaking. My girlfriend and I laugh. I can also hear my great grandmother complaining to her friend in the back room saying, “Those damn kids are at it again!” her friend simply laughs. The creaking noises from upstairs suddenly come to a halt. I assumed they were done. My girlfriend and I continue making out. Our joy ends abruptly when all of a sudden my great grandmother’s friend screams, “burglar!!” knowing what would happen next, I race to the dining room area that leads to the kitchen and my great grandmother’s room.[my girlfriend, sister, her boyfriend, and great grandmother’s friend seemed to have faded from existence by this point.] as I arrive to the dining room, I hear an unfamiliar, sinister laugh, “ha…ha..ha..ha” and at that moment, a shadowy figure dashes forward and stabs my great grandmother in the heart and stomach as she entered the kitchen to see what was going on. Terror sets into my heart and my entire body began to shiver. I knew she was already done for, and now my life has become the top priority. I race toward the front door, the shadowy figure hot on my tail, I reach the door, that was open already, and as I begin to turn the knob, the burglar jumps on my back, as a reflex, I snap my upper body forward with as much forces as possible. This sends the burglar flying through the screen door and falling down the outside door steps and crashing into the ground at the bottom step. As the burglar lies in front of me, trying to catch his balance, I see that he is a white male, my height, my body size, however, his face is blurry, like someone put a censor on it. Without taking too much thought about it, a memory of my great grandmother’s death flashes in my mind and the flames of hatred instantly ignite in my heart. From the top step I lunge into the air and crash my landing right into the man’s ribcage. I start pounding his face with relentless punches and soon he is knocked unconscious. I continue to destroy his blurred face when suddenly a woman’s voice halts me. “Your death…is near...” the voice says, and I snap my attention behind me and see a young woman standing at the top of the stairs of the house. Her face is blurry as well, and like the man she is wearing all black, except for she is wearing a black dress that has a front that is slit perfectly so the stomach is showing all the way up to the bottom part of her breasts. The only thing that threw off this beauty was the fact she was carrying a long, rapier sword in each hand. She slowly starts making her way down to me, as if she were hovering just above each step. As she made her way to me, she raises the sword in her left hand and points it at me. Something about her screamed “death” in my mind. She seemed more sinister and professional than the man. Then it clicked, they had to be assassins, and she had to be his master. Knowing that I was outmatched, I let go of the man and run. I make it halfway to the street when I hear a loud whistling noise…almost as if…my instincts tell me to duck, so I duck and at that exact moment, a sword comes flying over my head, spinning like a Frisbee of death. I stay low because as predicted, the sword comes flying back to the woman’s hand. The man regains consciousness and joins the woman in the assault, with him standing in the front. I realize that running is no longer an option, so I turn toward them, and brace myself for the fight of my life. The man has chained weapon with a spiked metal ball at the end. Both the master and pupil begin hurling their weapons at me, I am able to dodge the all somehow and the moment there was a break, I put a little distance between us. The woman throws her sword again but this time I catch it. Now, with a sword in my hand, I charge forward, and begin my attack. The man hurls his chain at me, but I catch it with my free hand, pull him close and stab him in the heart. Adrenaline fills my body as I turn to the woman, my only urge is to survive. I swing at her stomach but she parries my blade with ease and lashes out at my face. I duck and soon we are locked in a deadly duel…(wake)

Fragment where I was playing Mario Kart 3DS. I wasn't exactly inside of it but my entire field of vision was the game. It looked nice but the controls were really unresponsive and drifting was ridiculously hard, I kept crashing into things.

Setting: my suburban area, grandparent’s house, all houses in neighborhood are extremely close together. Day time
Characters: Older Sister(Tiana), Little brother(Jeremy), Mother

Experience: Tiana, Jeremy, and I are relaxing in my room upstairs. We are all discussing mom’s behavior lately. Not only has she been acting strange, but she seems to be very ill but refuses to lie down. One other thing that my siblings and I noticed about her is that she constantly goes down to the basement throughout the day with a plate of food…almost as if there is something down there she is feeding. Mom enters the room, her face is extremely pale and there are heavy sags under her eyes. She says to us, “Lunch is *cough cough*…ready whenever you guys want it…just come downstairs...” We all look at her in worry. She leaves the room and heads back to the kitchen downstairs. I follow her. I needed to know what was going on, as I head down the stairs, I get a strange feeling that something is watching me. In the kitchen. Mom is standing by the kitchen table, her back is facing me. I ask her, “Mom, are you ok? You’ve been acting strange lately and we’re concerned about your health too.” At that moment, a low growl echoes from the staircase leading to the basement. My heart begins to race, and my mother slowly turns her head around to look at me. However, her eyes are completely black and she says mutters words I cannot understand. I can only stare on in horror as my mom’s body drops dead in front of me. I begin to rush toward her to check her out but the moment she hit the floor, the basement door swings open and my mother’s body is dragged across the floor and down the stairs with tremendous force by an unseen entity. I knew we were in trouble, wasting no time I bound up the stairs and back to the room. “Jeremy, Tiana, climb out the window now!” I yell. Without hesitation I open the window to help my little brother out first. As I’m holding his hand and lowering him out onto another house’s roof top, my room door is blown away and in flies the most terrifying and unexpected figure, my mother…except, it wasn’t really her, whatever entity it was that dragged her into the basement has taken over her body, her skin is gray and muggy and her eyes are as black as death. She raises her hand and points at my sister. My sister screams but it is cut short because her body begins to expand until she explodes from the pressure… “Tiana!!” I yell, but my attention then snaps to my little brother who is hanging from my hand, his body too begins to expand…I close my eyes to avoid seeing another death, but the vision still pops up in my head as he explodes..left with nothing, I dash out of the window, promising myself to mourn their death’s at a better time…as I’m running and jumping from rooftop to rooftop I can hear the entity behind me flying above and swooping down at me, I duck and dodge and search for a safe place to get away but I see none, nowhere to escape…(wake)