non-lucid

7/10/2011
I'm playing Tales of the Abyss. Two guys are chasing me. I am some sort of hybrid character of Luke and Simon. There is a lot of flying involved in the chase. I use special powers to dodge them, a shield and other artes. The terrain they're chasing me through looks like the world map view. I am dodging them in buildings a time or two. One of the buildings is like a restaurant. These guys just won't leave me alone. Guy asks me to teach him an arte and I refuse.

I'm trying to get all the costume titles in the game. There are ants in the backyard. I get Anise's Little Devil title. One of the guys we chased is in jail. He asks, do you know what they call me here? He is having a hard time. I am there too. I am trying to explain that I am like a female Sheldon (from the Big Bang Theory), but with slightly better social skills.

I'm at my old house. Our pet rabbit has been let out of his cage for a while. My mom is holding two birds. I ask her if there are other animals about. She says no, they are preparing to leave. Other animals would be dangerous for the rabbit. I spend a lot of time petting the rabbit. It's been so long since I've seen him (He died years ago). He uses some kind of special move, dashing about. I pet him some more.

I am at a high school football game with some of my friends. Josh is there and is sitting on the ground part of the stands whilst my other friend(can't remember who) is sitting right next to him. I walk up from the front and Josh says "James! Look at him scaling the mountain"
I just smiled at the remark.

I'm at the stores with my family. There is this building that has a wooden room next to it. I drove a truck through it. I'm sitting outside an apartment that is next to that store with a group of friends. All I can remember is Tiffany, Alexis, and Payton are there. I also notice this one girl from my school walk by. A little girl comes out of the store and one of us makes a remark. She stays until one of us says who made it. Tiffany said it I guess. The remark was making fun of her. The circle was filled with about 10-15 people. It was more like a blob then a circle. We were sitting on the sidewalk.

Before I went to the circle/ stores I saw my friend Trevor walking with his girlfriend down our friend Ryan's street. He turns into the driveway of a two story house that is colored blue. The house is on the corner between the busy road and the residential one. The grass is free from clutter and they just walk in. I asked him if they needed a ride but he said they were going to an amusement park.

It's just a fragment but I can remember two parts to this dream.

In the first I'm at my Aunt and Uncle's house. I take a shower and use 2 bars of soap because the first one has some weird smell to it.
Later my Aunt asks me why I used 2 different soaps(she calls it detergent for some reason) and 2 different shampoos. I tell her why I used the 2 soaps(saying one had some tinge to it), but say I only used one shampoo. She nods sarcastically but appears unconvinced that I only used one shampoo.

Next dream: I'm walking in my high school cafeteria and pass an old friend Harrison. He calls out my name "Daniel!" I turn and realize he is talking to another Daniel, he usually calls me Danny.
Everyone sitting next to him laughs and I tell them I noticed as soon as I turned to face their table. "You know he never calls you that," one of them said.
I see everyone at the table and finally realize a girl I used to date is with them as well, Megan.
I walk up to Megan and say " I didn't know you had this lunch period, I haven't seen you in forever." I give her a hug and remember holding her very closely. I then take a look at her and say "you look good."

Later me and Harrison are in some kind of theme park, we're walking across a bridge and the Jurassic park theme song is playing. I hum it as we walk across the bridge, remembering a scene in the movie which never actually happened. But in this "Scene" the main character is drifting down the river and the 2 kids are complaining that the music speakers aren't working, and he says something like "we have all the music we need on this river" referring to the sounds of nature. The theme song then played in the movie. But of course this whole scene never happened.
The dream ends.

I believe I was going on my trip to Cambodia/Laos. My mum had packed me a small bag, containing music cassettes, CD WalkMan, portable DVD player, some clothes, a very small camera and a remote controlled toy motorbike.

I was sitting at a table with 2 friends. The one to my right started unravelling one of the cassettes. I told him to stop, but he didn't, I shouted stop and he said something similar to 'Dude, no need to shout." My friend wanted to see what the album was, and the tape said 'Get High'. I tried to roll the tape back up, but the cassette had turned into paper folded into a cassette shape. I had to pierce holes in it in order to roll up the tape.

I was walking down an alley (that I know) and i pulled out my remote controlled motorbike. 2 girls behind me asked me what it was, I tried to show them me playing with it, but it didn't work and they walked ahead. I got it working and playfully drove it into them. It morphed into a stringy centipede-like thing with a bulbous head (i still controlled it with the remote.)

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I was looking down onto the ground. The ground was covered in lush green leaves and not a bit of the ground was left uncovered. Something out of my view was fanning the leaves with an even bigger leaf. I could her someone talking (possible whatever was fanning) but it seemed to be in a different language.

Was at my moms with Kara and baron. She was going to rent the place out. It was raining really hard. The house looked completely different and a lot more messy and ugly. We were thinking about renting the house. We explored every little room of the house with baron who was being bad. There were several broken ugly things in every room. Other people were looking at the house as well and I kept bumping into one of them. The person would get really mad. There was a giant rock room and I told Kara that there was no use to this room. It was cold and empty. The bedrooms were tiny and had a haunted feel to them. The lights were blood red and there were dolls in one room. We went online to look at the add and saw how the pictures posted were slot better than the actual house.

Was at with Leo and the rest of the cousins. Leo and I were going to get a massage at 1 am for some reason. I didn't realize how late it was and ended up laying on the couch. We ended up at red robin where a waiter was hitting on me. G looked impressed.

This time I took only 50 mg of B-complex just before bed at 11 pm, and took choline 250 mg at WBTB at 4:20am.

I stayed up only 10 minutes, just long enough to write in my DJ and take the choline. Tried to WILD for 1 1/2 hours, no luck. Tried to imagine the falling/sinking in bed feeling I got previously and it worked to certain degree. Felt like I'm falling through bed head first. Pretty cool feeling. But couldn't pull it off to the end.

Before WBTB, (so only on B6 and no choline) I had 2 pretty detailed dreams. After WBTB, I had some dreams, but was too tired to get up to write them down.

Dream 1.
My former classmates R mom had a heart episode. We were trying to figure out how come, since she only had heart problems from contact with roasted coffee. Then we found out, that the men she was taking care of (she is a nurse) who was munching on something out of his pocket while laying in hospital bed, was eating small pieces of roasted coffee. That men was one of the teachers from Harry Potter (long black hair, don't know his name, not a HP fan).

Dream 2.
I was on an airbase as a guest and i was watching some cool airplanes fly by. Then, the person who invited me there (r.d.anderson from Stargate movies) was landing his fighter jet and when I yelled out "look at the cools stuff", he crash-landed. He was ok, I don't think I caused the crash.
Then, I'm in a room on this base. Room is my childhood room from the house I grew up in. I'm putting on a cool air force uniform. Navy blue pants with yellow embroidered anchor on left pant, dark shirt, white belt and some small bag around my waste, that's making sound. I look in it what's making that sound and there is a small container with 4-5 bullets, they took out from r.d.
My dad walked by, and also r.d.'s aid and all were saying that I look cool in that uniform.

Fragments:
-I'm on some hillside fields. there are suppose to be lakes here, but they dried out. The shape of them reminds me of lakes I saw from an airplane when flying over Greenland IWL.
-somebody is visiting, mom is cooking, I'm trying on some clothes and putting on a tie

I have been Ill recently and I am just getting my dream recall back on track!

Dream 1

We were going on a road trip and different transport was in a line down the side of a road. I walked up to a double decker bus and decided that I was going to travel by that.

I was on the bus and we decided that we wanted to go onto the top deck of the bus. To get up you had to climb up and pull yourself up. I climbed up and it was very cramped up there. There was no-one else up there just me and my friend who I can't remember who exactly it was. We walked to the front of the bus and just like a normal bus there was the big windscreen at the front. I looked out and thought it looked like we were going to crash. It was quite scary. I remember the bus drivers saying something nasty. I can't remember what it was I just knew it wasn't nice.
The next thing what happened I was in a building with my nan, grandad,brother and sister. We were talking the building was dimly lit. I said what shall we call our team my Nan said 'Clan.' We all were wondering why clan? But I think we ended up choosing that name. We were going to be playing CoD in real life.

I was outside and I had a Scar H. I was aiming down the sight and I killed a guy on the otherside of the road. I went on a rampage. I killed a lot of people.

Dream 2

I was at school and I was outside my house. I owned a business in this dream. Someone came up with a wad of papers and handed them to me. I was meant to sign them and give them back. I was just about to sign it then I skipped halfway through and had a look at one of the terms. It said my friend had to be followed by a car at school for one hour each day. I said 'Hold on a minute, I'm gonna have a look through this when I get home and I'll give it back tommorow." he accepted the idea and walked off.

I was in the house. I was talking to my head of house and it was a Tuesday. On Tuesday's I have to help out at primary schools he said I could go early. I told my business partner what the sheets said he looked at me weird and I walked off. I walked out of school and towards my primary school.

The next thing I know I am in a garden. I am telling a friend about this game I have called oblivion. Then a huge ballon attached to a string was launched into the air. I was scared and I don't know why. Looking at it made me scared. I had a bad feeling in my stomach. Then I was getting asked questions by a voice. It was like one of them evil voices out of movies. I passed all the questions.

Then, I was in at a party. We were celebrating me passing. It was amazing! There were lights flashing everyone was going crazy singing to the song what was playing. Hai Ho Hai Ho were living on a river!

I have had that stuck in my head all day.

Buying Drugs

I was buying coke (I don't do drugs in waking life). I was sitting at a longish table. There was a man on the other side talking to me. He was checking me out.

He gave me a small amount to try. There was a beautiful, naked woman beside me. Before I could take the little bit to try, I had to take a small blade and cut the woman between her belly button and her lower region. I had to cut her deeply enough to draw blood. I didn't want to, but I cut her. It wasn't enough to draw blood, so she took the knife and just barely drew blood.

I felt her stomach. With my other hand I felt her ass, enjoyed it quite a bit, then touched her asshole. I was afraid she would get upset, but she didn't. I wanted to touch her front region, but didn't bring myself to do it. Then I put my mouth on her breast. I wanted to continue, but I was there for a drug transaction.

Then I took the tiny bit of the coke. It was truth serum, and I felt it in my dream. As he talked to me, he could tell what kind of person I was. I started saying "Yes sir," and my general attitude was honest and respectful.

I asked the man his name. He said it was Margo or something like that.

I was going to ask what it cost. I stumbled over my words and considered asking what is the minimum I could buy, as that would determine if I could afford it. I didn't have much money, so I knew I couldn't buy it.

He said the minimum to buy was three grams. I told him I couldn't buy that much.

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Weird Snakes

I was in a wheel chair type thing. I started to go down a hill with rocks and large jumps. I hoped I wouldn't wreck because it would have been ugly. My vehicle turned into a bicycle, but it was still going to be difficult. I made it down three jumps. It was very unstable, but I made it.

Dream skip at the bottom. I saw a two-headed python. It looked like a Burmese, about 3 feet long. I grabbed it, but I didn't get it behind the head, so he bit me.

I wanted to get him off of me, so I swung him with an up-and-over type back-hand. I smashed his head on the top of a small wall. It took three times to kill it. I got blood on my lip. I didn't want to kill it; I like snakes. I don't know why I felt I needed to.

Then I saw a tank full of snakes. They were Ball Pythons. Some were just heads, but they were like tadpoles that would grow the rest of their body later. Some were more like baby snakes.

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Making Love

I was in a huge liquor store asking about an award-winning scotch whiskey.

Dream skip

I was with a beautiful blond in a silky red Japanese style dress. She wore more makeup than I care for (I don't like makeup in waking life), but she was beautiful. I told her she may be the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. Another DC said it at the exact same time I did, which diluted my comment.

I stole a line from something I thought I heard in waking life, which makes me think that I was semi-lucid here. I said, "Don't keep saying what I'm thinking."

I asked the girl her name. I don't remember what she said--if anything. I took her to an open field. It was a little to visible for me, but I started taking off her clothes. Now she was wearing a lacie skirt and panties.

I asked her, "Aren't you nervous about someone seeing us?" She said, "No." I told her to take off her bra while I got on top of her. I was afraid if I took off her bra, I would have trouble focusing on her lower area again.

She took off her bra while I got on top of her. Her breasts were beautiful, but I only saw them for a brief moment. I made love to her for a little bit when the dream ended.

I was in a drivers education class. My Speech class teacher was teaching it. A was there, and we ended up finishing everything a day early. Mr. M wasn't there so we had some random guy watching us, and I decided to teach A how to play craps. Eventually the sub guy told A to go outside with him. I was going to tell him he just needed to let us go home since we didn't have anything else to do.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was standing in a corridor that looked like it had a wheelchair ramp built into it. The wall I faced was a window wall, extending all the way down the corridor. There may have been a hairpin turn along the wall to get to a tiny, glass-walled space before the exit door.

I probably stood right at the door, inside the building. Outside stood a family. They were all telling me goodbye. The family was white, kind of well-off-looking. There were an older dad, probably a mom, and a bunch of other people.

There were two little girls in the family, and I may have been attracted to the littler one. She may have been five or six years old.

I took some chance to hug the little girl. I had a feeling that if I hugged her, we could both share our feelings of attraction for one another in some secret way. I was sure she was attracted to me, too. But I didn't want to get in trouble for showing my feelings.

Later on I may have been in some cafe. I may have been sitting at a table with a white boy. The table we sat at was against a wall. I sat on one end of the table so that the wall was to my right. The boy sat at the adjacent end, so that he faced the wall.

He was probably gay. He was tall, kind of pretty. He had his hair shaved really close on the sides and then kind of flowing on top. He wore a grey jacket, and he may have had the collar of the jacket turned up.

The boy was kind of stuck-up, it seemed to me. I was pretty sure he hated me. I didn't want to bother him. But I was also kind of angry that he acted so stuck-up. I felt threatened, and I wanted to prove somehow that I wasn't threatened.

I was now back with the family at the door. The older sister was now talking to me. The older sister was maybe ten or eleven years old. She had blonde-brown hair and tan skin. She wore a white skirt and a turquoise tank-top.

The older sister told me that the little sister had gotten sick or something, so she couldn't hug anybody. So the older sister would have to hug me instead.

I knew that the older sister was attracted to me. I knew that she thought if she could just get a chance to hug me, she'd make me attracted to her instead of to her little sister.

I hugged the girl. She wasn't skinny, but her body, around her waist, felt strong. I did feel like I was attracted to her. But I didn't want her family to know. I didn't want to get in trouble.

I walked out the door with the family. I either held hands with the older sister or managed to do something with her like lift her up onto my shoulders, so she was riding on my shoulders.

Everybody in the family seemed pretty happy. For some reason, I asked the girl something either like, "If you knew this was the last day of your life, what would you do?" or, "If this were the last day of your life, could you truly say you've died happy?"

I was now back in the cafe with the tall, white boy. I had apparently asked him some question as well. He was writing something in a notebook. His handwriting was mostly capital letters, very blocky, in something like black, felt-tip pen. But he was also answering me. I had a feeling that he was finally coming around to liking me.

Then another boy sat across the table from me. He had olive skin and black hair, with his bangs kind of spiked down a bit over his forehead. He wore a brownish sweatshirt. He also seemed to be gay.

The first boy had at some point gone to open the door of the cafe so that some cool air could flow in. But the second boy sat next to the thermostat. He turned up the heat.

The first boy asked the second boy if he'd turned up the heat. The second boy said he had. It wasn't clear whether he'd done it because the open door was making him cold or because he wanted to keep the heat at a level that was sure to annoy the first boy.

The first boy stood up to go close the cafe door, assuming that if he did that, the second boy would turn down the thermostat. But as he stood up, the first boy said to the second boy, "You know, I'm really beginning to despise you."

I dreamt I was smoking cigarettes with a friend (never have irl). They were pleasant but burned very quickly. Also something about waiting around in my room for a long time and some kind of purple dye.

Dream

I was watching TNA and Bully Ray was backstage weighing himself or something. As he left the room he beat up 2 smaller guys and went onto the stage.

He interrupted some guys who were talking in the ring and started speaking in a Canadian accent. I was thinking "Since when was Bully Ray Canadian" and the commentator, Taz said the same thing. I turned to my Dad was like "See."

It was such an obivious dream sign that I feel stupid for not realising it.

Fragment from Yesterday

I was at school with this girl who used to go to my primary school. I feel like I've been there before.

Perspective: Over Head Video Game Style

I'm in a dungeon for some odd reason. I manage to escape from the cell and out of the dungeon. My only companion is a Ralts (Physic Pokemon) that knew surf (Water type move).

Now from my perspective the way I'm exploring the castle is similar to that of Sonic The Hedgehog rolling around.

I find a cave and enter it to find a Medusa type witch.

"We meet again. I am the one who turned you into a beast and I am the only one that can cure you." She took out a pendant and a bright light flashed from the pendant turning the witch into a human woman. She turned around and took a drink from the bubbling cauldron behind her and she returned to her previous state.

Perhaps I was imprisoned because of my beastly form? I don't know.

"There are three towers north from here. Bring me the objects they hide and I will set you free."

I exited the cave and captured a Geodude (Rock Pokemon) afterwards I jumped from a ledge and rushed towards the lake where a tower was in the center. There were three doors when I arrived one in the left, one on the middle and one on the right. I took the right one. Some tiles were cracked and I had to avoid razor sharp leaves. I encountered a Geodude. Here is how the battle went from my game perspective.

Go RALTS!

RALTS used Surf!

Geodude is charging up

RALTS used Surf!
But it missed!

Geodude used Solar Beam!

RALTS fainted!

Go GEODUDE!
GEODUDE is affected by "Poison of Strength'.

Then my brother woke me up.

7/9/2011
I'm in a basement with washing machines. I'm talking to my dad about college. I waited until late, almost the last day, to register for, uh, registration. They were almost fully booked. I had to sign up for whatever's available. They had an opening. I took it.

I'm waiting outside a building in the dark, near the concrete steps. I'm talking with someone. I touched a dead baby duck (it looked like a stuffed one with a broken pullstring). I feel dirty. I need to wash my hands. I go inside without my stuff.

I look for the bathroom, but I get stopped by two security guards. They tell me there's an opening right now. I say ok, just let me go get my stuff (and wash my hands). They say no. I need to hurry before the guy who was supposed to have this appointment time gets here. So I go.

The building is a bit maze-ish. There's a stair going down in the middle of a room. There's a lady down there, typing at a desk.

I go to another room for registering. It's an interview. I sit across the desk from a guy who looks like that guy who says 'inconceivable' in The Princess Bride, except he has hair. Or maybe he looks like the mayor from Buffy the Vampire slayer (the one with the todo list saying: eat lunch, become invincible, PTA meeting). He asks me a lot of questions and writes stuff down on a form. Then he asks me what I plan to do for my essay. What essay?? I didn't know there's an essay. And I still need to wash my hands. He explains. There's an essay now, about a computer science topic. I tell him I plan to do it on open source software or linux. He doesn't hear me. I repeat myself. He still doesn't hear. He closes one, but not both, of the doors to the room, limiting the background noise. He hears me this time, and asks me why. I tell him these subjects excite me.

I write something on the form? I don't remember but later it's got my handwriting on it.

I suddenly realize the interview is being filmed. I am nervous. The guy is like 'of course it is.' I realize I am not fully dressed. I try to cover up, then decide to try to act nonchalant.

There are others in the room. The guy whose appointment I got because he was late is one of them, I think. There is a small bed with no mattress off to one side.

The guy is testing me on something now, only now he is a slender dark-skinned chick. Some porcelain animal cracker shaped things are dropped on the floor. They have the devil in them. You can't touch them, she says, or the devil will go into you. She attempts to clear them up, but it's risky work. The devil will go into objects you touch them with as well, apparently. Afterwards, I am supposed to have noticed something, but I didn't. I feel embarrassed. I missed the social (cultural) cues. She walks around tapping her face making disapproving noises. But the interview is done. I am supposed to take the form... where? The basement? Oh, I get it, to the lady at the desk at the bottom of the stairs.

I take the form to them. As I am leaving up the stairs, the desk lady (there is another lady there too) gets up. She is commenting on my writing, that my v's are pointy. There is some sort of (hand) writing test that takes a lot of time/pages? The way they are talking makes me uncomfortable, as if they were criticizing.

At the top of the stairs, the room I am in has two doors, at opposite ends of one wall. I walk to the left door. Both doors are open. Down the hall, I see a guy, but more urgently, I see a dog, painted red and yellow. It's a hellhound! I shut the door quickly, before the dog gets there. It's running. I am just in time. It growls and presses against the door, up on its hind legs. I growl back. Then it goes around and comes in the other door. "Fuck!" I grab a chair, to defend myself with. I'm panicking. The two ladies are nearby, but they won't be able to get to me in time to help. I wake up.

WILD attempt. No or little SP. Possible brief lucidity. Very fragmented.
In an elevator. Poisoned. The bottom of the elevator goes up independent of the top, hits the ceiling, and goes through.

On a bus. There are two kids. I only saw the one with the ugly face. Someone tells me I am the one who taught him to dream (lucidly?).

I'm in a sitting/kneeling position, falling asleep, worrying I'll hit something and wake. I feel momentary intense arousal. Something about getting a tattoo.

7/8/2011
I'm trying to solve an interesting puzzle. I keep stumbling across clues, wandering around the wilderness (of Runescape). I find chests and kill goblins and collect the pages. Each one has one red letter on it. When put together, the letters form a message. Some of the goblins have throwing knives. There's a lot of fenced in areas. It makes it hard to navigate (why the hell did they add fences? ngh). Eventually I get close to the last page (I can guess the missing letter). I am in a fenced in area with a goblin, which I kill, and a female friend. We talk. I forget what about.

I finally solve the puzzle, collecting all of the pages and revealing the secret message: "Say friend and ?get food?." I comment on how lame and unoriginal the first three words are.

I go to the one building. There are quite a few students there. I walk up to the table that has two people at it. They are part of the puzzle thing somehow. I show them I've solved it, which somehow leads to to getting the two magic words (they are like the magic words from the Demon Slayer quest in Runescape: gabindo and orindum or something). I am about to go test them out when the table guy stops me. There is some confusion. He says I signed up for a group shopping trip (for groceries and such) and never showed up. I explain to him that I always take the bus, by myself, to get groceries. He won't accept it and keeps pressing the issue, and I keep explaining. It's very frustrating. I just want to get on with the puzzle thing. Eventually switch to talking to a supervisor type (possible he changed into the supervisor). I decide to walk off at some point.

I go into the other room. It's dark. There is some sort of poster or clue there. I try out the first magic word. It takes me to a room with a bunch of levers. They are connected somehow. Pulling one moves another, but only a certain distance and then it's stuck because they are at right angles with each other. It's meant to be solved with a group, but I'm alone since the guy delayed me. I leave.

The supervisor harasses me some more. I just want to be left alone. I HATE being called a liar. He says I've been acting odd. Others have noticed. He says I'm withdrawn lately and everyone thinks I'm acting coldly. Eventually he comes out and says he thinks I'm a sociopath. I am outraged. I am walking away outside and he is following. I tell him he has no right to judge, as he's not a psychologist or psychiatrist or anything of the sort. My actual therapist says I've got major depression and dysthymia, he can ask her (but I'm a little afraid she will turn on me too).

I'm running away holding laundry (where did the laundry come from?). I borrow a friend's car to get away. I park the car to mope, with my head in my hands, bowed over the steering wheel and laundry. A guy thinks I am weird of have money or something. There are a lot of jocks and cheerleader types walking past. The guy forces his way into the car and harasses me about hiding money or something. The car moves forward a bit. I tell the guy to get the fuck out and leave me alone. I go back to moping and am thinking about using the second magic word (they have an effect when going through doors) to get away. I'm upset and depressed about being misjudged and falsely accused.

A different dream, I think. I see my friend's dog, but he is all black instead of black and white. I pet him, but he growls at me and lightly bites me. Then he turns into my brother, D. I think, hang on a minute, I must be dreaming. I get much too excited and wake up. But I don't check if I am actually awake, and I have more dreams after that, so it was probably a false awakening.

Fragments. A lot of people are into a book that some guru type wrote. I remember something about driving and tall buildings. A microwave that is on while open. I hurriedly get out of the way and turn it off. There is a guy who keeps rolling down staircases. A friend would warn me about it, but one time he warns me too late, and I get hit. The power is out. A friend shut off the power, a bit at a time.

I somehow hurt my gums, and there is a bit of loose skin. I yank it out. It hurts, and I taste blood. It seems I hurt myself worse than I thought. I look at what came out, and it keeps getting bigger the longer I look at it, until it ends up looking like a handful of strands of ground meat. I tear it apart and throw it away. That was very alarming and gross and worrying.