non-lucid

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had no real intentions of getting lucid last night, and my sleep was shitty. Woke up every hour or so during the later part of the night, but that only helped me with my recall and I got a little LD just like that. Seems like Tuesday to Wednesday night is my new LD night.

22.30: Sleep

05.00: Fragment
*My friend Henrik is at my place. He's got very short hair and he keeps messing with my computer. I have no idea why he's being such a jerk, but I slap him in the head hard. We almost start a fight when he punches me in the balls. I can feel the pain up into my stomach. I hold his arms down and tell him to stop. "I can pick you up if I want to, I'm that much stronger" I tell growl in his face.

05.00: Boat ride
I'm with my mom outside of a shop. We're looking at some kind of clock for her. It's got the colour of burnt clay, and she tells me she wants it. We enter the store and a girl shows up and starts showing some big vase to my mom. I look at a clock hanging on the wall. It's 9:10. "Mom, I gotta go" I tell her. I hand her all the money I have. Exactly 105 euros. Actually I'm late for the boat and it should have left already. My phone starts vibrating and I check the display, it's Monica.

"Hey babe, I'm on my way, let's meet halfway" I tell her and hang up. I run towards the apartments we had and she come scrambling down the steps with a few suitcases. I grab one and we head off towards the boat.

The dream skips. We arrive at the boat and my friends are there. I spot a couple who I recognised earlier on our trip to the country we're in. I walk away from the boat to do something, not sure what. On my way back I spot the couple ahead of me, smoking weed. I know how fucked up I can get on it, so I try not to inhale anything. I start to feel dizzy and my steps become incredibly slow. I have to struggle to even move. After a minute or two I reach the boat and get on, my friend Felix comes up from behind and tells me he was looking for me.

As soon as I enter our cabin, the boat starts moving. "Close call hah!" I say. All my friends are in the cabin there with me, and I lie down on a sofa. It's not comfortable at all.

05.00: Evil and good DILD
I'm standing near a bridge, looking at a sleeping man in the tree. Above him is a cat that is wiggling its tail. I grab the tail and tease the cat with it, trying to make the cat attack the sleeping man. I can't get it to attack him, but I have some fun with the cat. I completely forget about the cat and feel that I need to take a pee. Two girls are heading over the bridge, but they're far off and I figure I can make it. I unzip my pants and start peeing behind the tree. They walk a few feet behind me and doesn't seem to care.

Peeing that long makes me go lucid. I walk down the road while taking in the scenery a bit. It's dry out, but the trees around me looks like jungle. I try to recall my tasks. To do a good and evil deed, that's right! I've visualized giving someone money as a good deed already and I feel my pockets while walking towards the two girls who had stopped by some stone structure.

One of them has dark brown hair. I grope around in my pocket for a while but I can't feel anything that feels like money, I do feel two lighters though. "Hey, want to see a cool trick?" I ask them. "Yeah sure!" they say as I pull out a lighter. I light a flame in my hand, it burns blue.



I shoot the flame out from my hand onto the dark haired girl's hair. She gives off a shocked expression but I make sure the flame quickly goes out. I can smell burnt hair. "Sorry about that" I say. They don't seem to mind much though. The three of us starts walking down the road, I keep trying to find the money in my pocket. Soon I find something interesting and bring it out. It's a big money clip. We arrive at a boat with alot of people around. I give the money clip to the girl. "I wouldn't hurt cute girls like you for real" I say. I feel her butt. She compleltely ignores me after taking the money.

05.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

Tasks completed
NORMAL BASIC ACTIVE BASIC PASSIVE ADVANCED PERSONAL

Do a good deed and a bad deed.

That's it! I completely forgot to DEILD... Anyways that lucid was nice since I completed the basic passive task for my class. Sweet!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Recall is a bit shoddy throughout, so I'll just start from what I remember....


I was with my cousin, and we were doing or discussing something that I'm not totally sure about when this psycho arrives. There are two helicopters heading for these skyscrapers, and this guy plans on destroying the towers himself. One of the copters had a rope hanging from it so I ran and grabbed on to it. I anchored myself to the ground and watched the helicopter crash into a nearby cow pasture. The psycho guy just showed up, and he knew I was going to stop the other one, so he pulls out a box cutter, and my cousin throws me one and we square off.

I thought back to my JKD training, and tried to stay relaxed. The guy trusted at me with his box cutter and I slapped his arm away, while grabbing it one motion, and went to cutting up his entire arm. He trusted again, and this time I was able to disarm him. I grabbed the other box cutter, and he punched at me. I cut off all the fingers of his hand, and he said "are you just going to slice like that all day?" Then I went and cut off the ones he was holding out on the other hand during his little statement. He tried to kick me, and I grabbed his leg and stuck my box cutter in as deep as it could go. And the guy actually cheered for me.

I knew this was some sort of odd distraction from the other helicopter, so I headed off and there was some huge gun trying to shoot lasers at me. I used eye lasers to counter and destroy it. The psycho guy said he could do the same thing, and started shooting lasers at the last remaining helicopter. He did it over and over, and eventually the helicopter crashed right on top of him...killing him.

Going to bed 12:30
Goals: Recall
9 Had a dream that i was driving down a rural looking road at nighttime, im driving and i see a car parked on the side of the road, next thing i know i run over some stuf and have to pull over. The car on the side got into a reck and ther is debris under my car. I get out while the owner and a cop are looking around. The owner is some dude with an orange shirt and really short hair. When he walks past me he smiles and looks at the cop. I know in the dream he can smell weed on me and i just hope the cop doesnt. The dudes car door is under my car i notice as well as a handle, i consider trying to drag them out but just wait.

They figure out what to do with the guy in oranges car, and he has another dc with him now. Im leaning on my car when the cop comes up to me and without saying anything turns me around and starts checking me for stuff. I say excuse me can i ask what you are doing, he says something about weed, he continues to search but doesnt find anything. In the dream i am so relieved not to have anything. I rem the other dcs kind of laughing and i know they ratted me out. I tell the cop, i dont have any weed, you cant do shit. I walk to my car and get in, i tell the dcs, fuck you guys, way to stick up for a fellow stoner, as i drive off.

*Have a flash of walking into the living room, my sister and that girl tara is there, they are eating some sandwiches and are dressed for like a soccer game. When i see tara i keep trying to walk back and fourth past them, trying to get her attention. I go into the kitchen to get some food, i see the wrappers and stuff from their sandwiches and also see some pizza boxes on the table. I considered getting some food but all of it is covered in meat, my brother offers me part of his sandwich, i just decide to heat up some rice and veggies.

*Have aflash of hanging out with jessica and getting ready to tell her about my lucid dream from last night.

*One last flash of being out at a soccer practice for some younger kids, i just rem hanging out with alexis there, at one point i kick a ball to him.

*One more flash of walking through a school hallway, halfway through there is a class sitting in the hallway with huge pieces of paper, they are drawing full size pictures of themselves. I rem as i walk by this one big dude pushes me further down the hallway, i just keep walking and laugh about it. On the way back i wonder if he has some kind of problem with me but he is talking to someone and i walk by.

I was in a club with some friends and one of the girls that i had pulled in town once was there, i ended up going back to hers and sleeping with her, when we were lay in bed she tells me she wasn't really on the pill and wants to keep the baby.
I sat and i begged her to get an abortion or something and i felt the horrific "oh fu**" feeling creep up inside me.
I told her i can't cope or afford a kid because im going to uni, i opened the curtains and it was sort of light outside, it was very cloudy and dull and it was raining, even though i was looking through a window i could feel rain on my face.
I asked her what times do the buses start, i felt i had to get out of there as quickly as possible.
I woke up and it was raining with dull clouds, the dream was mimicking the weather outside from the noise of the rain.

IMPORTANT DATES
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[ ] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me
[ ] Attain Lucidity


7th Entry:
Date: 09/07/11
Sleep Times: 11:00-UNKNOWN...6:00-6:30.
Lucid Technique: WBTB
Recall Technique: Subliminal Messaging / WBTB
Attain Ludcidity?: Possibly???

I'm not sure if the only drean U cab recall is really a dream at all....I was doing a small excercise I call 'Setting the Scene' where I pick a random 'cast' and let the scenario into play. Usually lately, my dreams have taken the form of my worries and inner-struggles both spiritually and in the waking, physical world. Tonight, this was no exception.
Though the night prior I dreamed of the perfect(ly odd) ending to the story that is a fight between friends, in the waking world we are still on the long road to love....But I'm nor here for therapy. I am here to journal down my dreams. This time, the cast taht decided to show to the party besides myself was my friend Colton who, previous to this stupid quarrel, used to protect me in every single one of my dreams! However, behind me and waiitng was Twisted!Colton, who seems to do the opposite of his original copy and want nothing more than to tear my mental sanity apart. Some close friends and I theorize it could be a manifestation in my subconcious of hurt feelings between the two of us from the last life and possibly this one. I implored with Colton to forgive me, that I truly was sorry and just didn't care about whether or not he and my beau ever got along- that I cared about getting back the only family I had ever truly known. However, he proceeded to tell me that our 'family' and 'friendship' wasn't worth any sort of dramatics or the effort. I tried telling him I never had started this drama, that he was lied to- I never said a bad word about my one and only brother...And that I spent my entire summer on this effort, so it was worth it to me if he would atleast see me to the other side of it. However, unlike yesterday's happy ending, this one ended badly....He merely said goodbye and walked away from me. I began to scream and try to give chase to my best friend, however this didn't result well. Instead, Twisted!Colton pulled me back against him and whispered in my ear, "You're mine, now....We can be together forever, Autumn...." (Autumn being my name from my previous life.) At this point, he held fast, practically dug his fingers into my skin, and pulled me into a coffin behind him with him while I scream after the real Colton to save me again like before.
But this time, he didn't come...
I fell into black sleep after this point.

i was driving down a road i was going over a low bridge and then suddenly i was on a broken part of the bridge my car went in the water i shot out of the car and was airborn for about 30 feet and hit the water. In most of my dreams i always have a problem swimmnig but not this dream, in this dream i could swim perfectly.

james hetfield was one of the movers that helped me move from a second story apartment. he found an old cell phone in the sofa he was moving. it still worked and my wife and i listened to some old messages from people from texas that we had not spoken to in some time. then james and i had a gutiar jam.

I had several dreams last night, the last of which was my first ever lucid dream. Finally!!!

All I remember from my first dream is standing on the front walk of what I know in the dream is my ex in-laws house. But no such house exists in the real world. Another strange thing is that the house, it's foundation and even a layer of soil, is sitting on the ground (kind of crooked) like it had been pulled up from the ground and set down somewhere else. I also notice a trail of ants running up and down the length of the front walk.

In my second dream, I found myself in a large cavern of some kind. There seems to be some kind of community living here. There is one man whom everyone calls "the bird man" because he raises all kinds of different animals as pets. I walk over to his part of the cavern and see a small pool. Then I see a small dinosaur, like a baby, about the size of a large swan or goose. It looks like a stegosaurus, except that it has light purple fur on it's body and the plates running up and down it's back are brilliant shades of yellow and red. When it first sees me, it swims away across the small pool. But then the bird man enters and the dinosaur comes running to me as if for protection. It's rubbing up against me like a cat does.

After I awoke from this dream, I laid in bed, briefly considering jotting down some notes in my dream journal. But I decided to go back to sleep and try to re-enter the dream. This is when I had my first ever lucid dream:

I'm sitting in the waiting area of a small office. The door to the office is open and I can see my oldest daughter sitting in there. I'm talking to her about dreaming and telling her how to to a reality check by holding her nose and trying to breathe. She does it, but is able to breathe. I'm thinking that she's not holding her nose tight enough, so I decide to show her how to properly do it. As we're doing this, two men walk into the waiting area where I'm at. I look at them and say something like, "We probably look pretty silly doing this, huh?". I keep trying to show my daughter how to do the holding your nose reality check, but I'm thinking I must be doing something wrong because it's not working for me either; I can breathe. Then I look at my hands. They're all blurry, not like an out-of-focus picture but like a pastel drawing that has been smudged. It finally dawns on me that this must be a dream! I get up and walk around, looking at everything. I enter another room that looks like some kind of call center, because there are desks everywhere with people sitting at them and talking on phones. The walls seem to be made up of panes of blue glass that are illuminated from behind. I pass by a middle aged woman sitting at a desk and nod in greeting to her; she smiles and nods back. I decide to continue exploring and walk back out of the room. But now I'm in what appears to be a grocery store. I walk by one of the check-out registers and decide to look at my hands again to see if I'm still dreaming. My hands are in perfect focus, but both hands are misformed. There are only small nubs where my index and pinkie fingers should be. I remember that one thing I wanted to do in a dream is find "the girl of my dreams". I look around, wondering whether to ask one of the dream figures or just ask the dream outright to show me the girl of my dreams. Just then, I notice a woman walking up one of the aisles towards me, browsing the items that are on the shelves. She is wearing a white dress, has blonde hair, pale skin and is wearing red lipstick. I walk towards her and as I approach, she looks up and smiles as if she recognizes me. I want to ask her if she is the girl of my dreams but she is talking to me. She says in an excited voice, "Oh my God, I didn't think there was anyone else here who wanted to dance!" Before I can reply, these two guys appear out of nowhere. I can tell by the look on the woman's face that she doesn't like them. She asks, "What do you want?". One of the guys pulls her to him and says, "You said you wanted to dance." But before I can intervene, I lose lucidity and wake up.

07-09-11 I am in an airport with a woman on a raised walkway that leads out to the gates. It is nighttime and the walkway we are on is very narrow and not surrounded by railings, which disturbs me and makes me wonder slightly.
…

I am in a car with a woman. She is a vampire and has hostile intentions either towards me or someone else and I plan on stopping her. However I have some sort of relationship to her and don't want to hurt her.

She might be Pam off True Blood. The way I subdue her by holding her by the neck but she refuse to lay off. In the end I start calling out for Xavier, who is her maker, telepathically for him to come and pick her up.

I manage to get hold of him, which is a weird conversation taking place in utter darkness inside my head. He comes to pick her up and as he does so he stuffs the car full of duvets and mattresses and then procedes to shove her in.
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I am in a house unpacking speaking with my dad. As we are unpacking my parents' neighbour's cats emerge and start making themselves comfortable.

They don't particularly want to go back to their owner though they are supposed to. Castello, though a darker and leaner version of himself, start climbing up a closet.

Clyde is lying on the floor under a table.
…

Speaking with my dad, he is drunk and he is talking about the amount of stuff Freddy bought in a shop.

06.09.2011

Weird looking villain. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I had a false awekening and left my house. It was day and very clear. I looked at the clock and realized it was already 1pm. I was worried because I had a lot to do in the morning.

I suddenly realized that I must've been dreaming. It was impossible for me to wake up so late. I took a small flight and suddenly realized there was a villein that looked pretty much like this:







I decided to follow the plop and realize what was going on.

I soon lost lucidity and saw this guy, laughing very loud. His laugh sounded very metallic and echoed. I saw some tanks and a hord of bikers. They were all supposed to fight. I felt that the tanks were going to win the battle, however, there were hundreds of thousands of bikers, so I felt that maybe the could win.

06.09.2011

That guy broke Earl's car (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was inside a car racing stadium. I was wondering how I got there as my car was not a sports car, but a regular sedan. There was a guy who tried to break Earl's car. He finally did and got Earl really pissed.

After he did, he wanted to find mine. I was wondering why he did not before if we walked by my car. I thought that the guy might expect my car to be a sports car instead of my real car. I was walking in the garage, trying to find my car before he did. There were hundreds of cars and it was hard for me to find mine.

After a lot of walking, I found the exit of the garage. I got to a futuristic looking neighborhood. It was night and I saw a lot of people in the streets.

06.09.2011

Going back to high school (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was going back to study at high school. I needed no book for the course, I was supposed to just take notes from the class. I found a lot of old friends at this school, however, they were made up.

I was trying to find a specific teacher, but it was hard for me, because there were a few dozen teachers all around. I noticed they wore name tags, so I felt it was easier to find the teacher I needed.

I met with my mom and my dad and wanted to drive them somewhere, but I could not find my car. I found myself in the cafe of the school with some old friends. I gazed at the window of the cafe. All I could see was a very old school neighborhood.

I was in a house. Traveling, and looking for something. Or I was going to an alternate dimension. A person. We're searching for something. I need to avoid people.

I traveled around the house/area. I can see the alternate dimension, and the other person can also sense me. I tried to go to a room where I believed he wouldn't be able to access its version in the alternate dimension.

I walked around, and found a lot of greenery. I was in a mansion, or a hotel. Outside, it was green everywhere due to the earth-hugging leafy plants, as well as huge trees. I saw rabbits and small animals.

School.

4 Sep 2011

We were staying at an open motel I think and there was a problem with the railway line. A man was showing us how to make railway rails out of copper barbed wire and small copper nails. He talked of a time when a close relative of mine was working at the factory which supplied these rails and of how this relative was a perfectionist. He would use more nails than anyone else as he used them a spacers to make sure that the spacing in the rail was even. His rails always lasted longer than anybody else's. We made a few short segments of rail with no clear intention but then went and used them on our Gemini Catamaran as a launching device. One short rail was attached to the stern of each hull and a rope was tied around it. Somehow this mechanism was to allow us to release the rope from on board. On the day of testing, M.S. was on the shore watching us with no idea what it was that we were doing. The mechanism did not work in theory and the same went for in practice. We had to cut the ropes in the end and nearly capsized in the process. As we finally got away, M.S. called out "Where to now?" I yelled "Home," but she did not hear me and a asked again repeatedly so I sent her a text message politely telling her that we were heading home and that she would find it difficult to join us there. Then there was intrusion from the waking world, I heard someone ask whether I was awake yet and woke myself up as the dream was quite boring and I was in a hurry. I might also mention that the rails produced bore more resemblance to zippers than to railway rails in the waking world. Oh and the Nerf Gun, there was reference to a Nerf Gun.

21 Aug 2011

Lots of navigational issues, Dad and I went sailing out to sea and tried to navigate to various points. We encountered islands and other vessels in different situations. It was kind of like 'The Voyage of the Dawn Treader". One vessel which we couldn't seem to get away from was a large sinking yacht. We were worried that the resultant undertow would drag us down. That is all, I am too tired to remember more and am surprised to have remembered this much in coherent detail.