non-lucid

a few years ago i had a dream about a girl named jody in the dream we were in love but then she died. then around a year later i had another dream about this other girl i dont remember her name but i think it started with a k in this dream we were love but her dad killed and i think he raped her when i woke up from both off these dreams i hurt i felt like i really lost someone close to me. also for open minded people do you think dreams could be real could they excist in another dimension becuase when your dreaming there real to you

I was in my room at dads before it was my room. There was a huge arcade machine there. I bought a pop'n music motherboard so all I had to do was plug it in, but I wanted to be extra careful. I wasn't sure if I had to wear gloves, but I just went in anyway. There were USB ports and Ethernet ports too. Before I could turn it on I woke up.

Dream One Non-Lucid

I start in one of my dad's ex-girlfriend's grandma's yard (we'll just say grandma). The grass was so green, and everything was vibrant and colorful. The sky was a bright blue, and the skin, although in a dream, felt good on my skin. There was something wrong though. I felt like I was running away from something. I ran into the house that was behind me, which was my grandma's house, and I shut the glass door behind me. The door led into the kitchen. I felt safe once again, and everything was just as I remember it. There was a wooden table with wooden chairs around it. On one end of it was a table top and there was a fridge on the left. Also, I don't know why, but I wanted to talk to grandma so I could ask her if she remembered me. I headed into the living room to see if she was in there, but she wasn't. It was just like I remembered it- dark blue carpet, dark blue chair, and a white door leading outside. I decided to go back to the kitchen to get something to drink. I opened up the fridge and picked out a cup of red Kool-aid. I headed back outside with the Kool-aid, and once again, I felt as if something was wrong. I then heard a lot of yelling and screaming from afar. I could tell that it was a mob for some reason, so I ran back inside and locked the door behind me. I also knew that my friend was leading the mob and they were coming after me. Now grandma was there, so I could ask her if she knew me. I didn't really recognize her when I looked at her though. Her skin was a very dark tan and she had many wrinkles on her face. "Um...Hey...do you know who I am?" I asked her even though I didn't recognize her. She sighed and replied with, "Yes, yes I do,". I was happy for some reason, and then, from outside, I heard a voice yell "Come on out Dakota!". I looked through the glass door and saw the friend that was leading the mob. Katie. She walked on the other side of the house, and then I went outside. I sat on the grass, and Katie came back. She looked at me like she was mad. "Why are you avoiding me?" She said meanly. "You brought a mob after me!" I yelled back. "You mean the three eight year old boys that I brought with me?" Katie lashed back. I then saw three blond-headed boys with white shirts and blue pants on walk into my view. "Whatever, just get away from me. I don't want to talk to you," I said harshly. I then woke up.

02/16/12

Note: I have not posted any dreams for quite a while… and that is because I haven't had any recall at all for quite a while. It has been getting very frustrating, and I really hope my recall improves soon. Combined with not having any recall, I have also been busy with homework from school and a new job. That's why my resolution to post something every day has gotten pushed aside. Well, I have finally been able to recall a dream. It's not much, but right now I am willing to take anything I can get!

Tunnels of Madness
I am in what appears to be an underground tunnel of some kind. The tunnel is perfectly circular and is made out of a metallic substance. There is a band of light going down the tunnel, four of them. One of the lights is directly overhead, I am standing on a second, and there are lights to the right and left of me. The tunnel looks very strange, and I can't remember how I got to be here. Somehow this doesn't trigger a reality check, though. I walk down the tunnel, which seems to go on forever. Sometimes it curves to the left or right, and it does so often enough that I become really disoriented. I am wondering if the tunnel is ever going to end. The quality of the lighting changes… it is now flashing, now it looks like little balls of light are zooming down the sides of the tunnel. That is even more disorienting, they are going in such a pattern that makes it seem like the tunnel is spinning. That makes me feel like I might vomit. Instead, however, I wake up.

1:15am

Clear Skies, Blue Ocean
Out in the country, we are diving down a dirt road, until we get to a house. It doesn't have a fence, well it wouldn't matter because they have no neighbours. in fact, there is no civilization visible in any direction at all. All I can see that is of any interest is the forest further down the road. Anyway we pull up next to the house, it looks more like a shack that is missing doors and windows... we go out the back where there is concrete, and the view of the plains is blocked by a tall hill. there is a guy there, I assumed he was the delivery guy or something. Double sink? There is a little well outside and the same guy wastes all the water by pumping it into the grass.. now without water I go and look for a river and i see one in a valley. I see that I already have some fishing gear with me, so I decide to go fishing. I'm walking along the river, in the direction of the current. The river is very clean and looks good enough to drink, i see a spring? Water is flowing into a hole and making a whirlpool effect.

Very vivid! I see an ocean far off into the distance with three ships. I'm with guy (im assuming its the same guy from before) we walk towards the ships. There is a rock formation like an arc and through it we can see an island with lots of trees. He tries to swim over to an island, gets eaten by a shark i didn't mind he was annoying apparently.. I see party members swimming from another direction, i join them, almost get eaten by a shark.

We get to a place where its snowing, i open up a tiny window and it was like opening a freezer door.. Lol our party members had rooms separated by silk drapes.

There are 2 of me in this dream. The one me who was me was the one who has to die ((sorry if this is confusing)) lol..and the other me existed but I never got to see that me in my dream!
I'm on my last day of being alive, I go to town with my Dad and I buy some strawberry laces ((the sweets)). We now go into a shop and I see some flower transfers on the wall, they are for sale, they are so pretty and glittery, I am attracted to the pale blue one and run my finger across it as I admire it. My Dad now notices a floral handbag, I say "that's really nice" he says "yes...you can try it on for your mom then. I put it over my shoulder and think "why would I need to try a bag on for her??!" and I think this is a bit weird.
I am now in the town and I'm on my own. I now see my Uncle M and he comes over to me, he is in a wheelchair and wearing a black ribbed hat. I speak to him and tell him what's going to happen to me, he is crying and hugs me and says "it'll all be over soon". I really don't want to die, I'm so scared and can't really understand why I have to.
I now meet my hubby and he takes me to a place where my coffin is. The mattress inside is made out of black leather. I now have to say my last goodbye to my hubby and then I get in my coffin and lie down on the mattress. It all cracks under me like it's rotten and it's all wet, dirty and horrible.
I now lie down and shut my eyes waiting for myself to die, I'm scared shitless because I don't want to and I want to live my life not the other me, but I have no choice. I know there are other dead people in coffins around me and I'm thinking about this as I lie here.
I suddenly hear my Pigeon gasp, I jump up out of my coffin and go and check on her and she is gasping for air. I notice she's not in her bowl now ((eh!!!??)) But she has tried to get out and is caught between the table and the lid of the bowl. I take the lid off the top of her and shout to my eldest ((who has suddenly appeared from nowhere lol)) "she needs water, quick!!" my eldest just stands there and does nothing and then a bowl of water appears in my hand, I give my Pigeon a drink and she is now better.
The Pigeon now begins to talk to me and she copies what we say. It's not time for my Pigeon to die yet, she has to wait untill I die. ((dream skip)).
Myself and my Hubby are at a cemetery, we are looking at a grave that has been newly dug and I realise it's for me . I say to a woman who is with us "no..wait!!!, we want to be buried together" she says "you can't now but maybe when your both dead we can put you together" I reluctantly say "ok then". I am so jealouse that my Hubby can stay alive but I have to die. I begin to wonder what it will feel like when I'm dead but the other me is still alive and I'm very, very confused.
((The feeling I had in this dream was bloody awfull, I can't explain it but it wasn't nice atall !!!!))

i was standing in my room and i tried to adjust my very small glass tube tv, then i realize my flatscreen is gone...I WENT OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM and asked mom where it went and she said i dont know, i went back in rooma nd found my flatscreen perched on top of a large library card type wooden file cabinet balancing onthe corner of my bed O_o the rest of the dream went this way as well, noticing things missing, asking mom then finding missing items in impossibly precarious places...woke up...

It started out i was wandering the halls of some office building, endless halls, couldnt find my way out or around or anything...allof a sudden Jack sparrow appeared carrying a very long ladder, he said follow along now, we're practically finished! so i grabbed the back of the ladder and he lead me all over the place from one hall to another neverending hallways...then woke up...

I was in front of a school with a group of kids and my history teacher. He was in a pretty bad mood. He told us he had the 3D models of the school building and he could change the way it looked. He did and the school became a group of dull gray/white buildings that were rusting. He also said he was going to make my pants 2 times longer, for some reason. Then we passed a pole that had pop'n music buttons. I pressed them and they were super cheap quality. After that my history teacher walked to his car, but only I followed. I got in with him and he was holding a brown bag, like what your food comes in at mcdonalds. He started driving a little, then he made me get out. I warned him to be careful because I could tell that he was drunk.

Two lucids AGAIN! Holy crap! This night was fairly bizarre as it was, but I think the last dream was the most interesting for me.

#1 - Parties And Dancing [Non-Lucid]

There's a family party going on at my house. Apparently I'm tormenting my cousin G and his brother P is supportive of it at first but not later. I don't remember much of that part of the dream, though. What I do remember is that I was wearing some completely ridiculous dress. Not ridiculous by look (I don't even really remember what colors it was or anything), just by... function. The entire time I was wearing it it was constantly shapeshifting itself and my body, I would look down and my boobs would alternatingly shrink or become pointy or slide around on my chest and stomach and the dress would randomly inflate and deflate and become really light and really heavy, at one point it basically felt like it would if I had a t-shirt on with a really thick pillow stuffed into the front, it was so awkward feeling. For some reason though, I also felt really confident in myself, like the dress looked really good on me or something. There was music playing and my aunt asked me to dance. We did for a bit and then I felt really good about myself so I went to the center of the room and did this dance that I came up with while tripping that I do when I'm alone that I feel is really cool to experience but I've always been too embarrassed to do it in front of anyone. Amazingly, I did the entire thing with my eyes closed AND was spinning a lot and when I finished and opened the scene still hadn't changed. It also made my other dream senses become much more apparent, which I thought was cool. Everyone was impressed at my dance, and I still felt embarrassed but in a good way. This is all happening in the den, and when I walk by the living room I see G still avoiding me. :T After that I walked into the kitchen, and maybe to the laundry room but I can't remember, but then I turned around and walked through the hallway behind the bar which somehow led outside into this beautiful garden (at the time I thought it as a park) with a few tables set up, and apparently my cousin A and her husband P (different P than before, but actually even the same name in real life) were having another family party as a follow-up to the one I was just at. Now I'm suddenly wearing some hard to remember white top and blue velour pants, I'm not sure what happened to the dress, but I actually am confused about it in the dream. I walk past a gazebo and see P sitting down with some random Asian guy at a table so I join them, but then A and other P told us that the Asian guy wasn't with us, so we felt embarrassed, and he looked at us weirdly and asked "Who are you...?" After that, I woke up.

#2 - Pointless Obstacles [Non-Lucid]

This one I was a little lazier about making note of so I don't have quite as much detail remembered, but I do remember that I was going to hang out with my friend K and I was wearing the same dress as before, only much more stable and unchanging. I was at his new apartment complex that he just moved in to and it was nighttime and snowing outside. Though one of the rooms of his apartment is apparently on the ground floor (it's not, it's on the top) and I can see through the window, I still start climbing the stairs up to get to the main entrance. Normally there's just a staircase to climb up, but this was like a legitimate obstacle course. And not just a regular one, I mean it had floating and moving panels and big gaps where you could fall through the floor into darkness, it was a like an intense video game map. I don't remember much of the first parts, but I had to work through several floors and finally I got to the top one. I climbed up a ladder to it and opened up a wooden hatch on the ceiling, and T, one of K's old roommates, was there in a sleeping bag in what looked kind of like a cross between a storage room and the inside of a pirate ship. >.> At this point I notice I'm somehow naked, but it doesn't bother me too much. I ask T if I can borrow one of his blankets, and he hands it to me and when I wrap it around myself it transforms into some really crazy anime outfit, and I go third-person and I have hot pink (but sort of almost red at time) hair with those gigantic anime/game character curls.



I make my way across some giant obstacle field made of ice, and hear some girls in the corner having some random conversation that catches my attention for a second but then I finally make it to K's door. But he rejects me because it turns out he's busy hanging out with someone else. I turn around but end up slipping on the ice floor and end up falling into the blackness below the floating panels, and that carries me all the way down through the floors I'd made it beyond so far, finally ending with me hitting the ground with very little pain. :\

#3 - Creepers Beware! [DILD]

I'm back outside at K's apartment complex, and it's still nighttime but not snowing. I'm walking around waiting to do something, but then I remember it's in what can be considered a kind of shady area, and I'm afraid of getting mugged or worse by just standing around. >.< I start walking back to my car and on the way there a gang of guys who're loudly cracking jokes about something comes walking near me which makes me uneasy, but then I suddenly become lucid and the dream starts quickly ending. The dream is very visibly crumbling around me, my vision is narrowing down to a pinpoint with just blackness surrounding it and frequently the entire dream blurs and looks sort of like a big crystalline fractal image, but not an actual 3D scene or anything. I'm tired of becoming lucid and having dreams immediately end, so I start furiously rubbing my hands together. I also start repeatedly yelling "BECOME LUCID!" and "MORE VIVIDNESS!" and every time it actually works a bit, but the dream is still obviously hanging on to its very last breath of life. I figured I'm going to have to interact with the dream a bit more if I want to really save it, so I walk over to one of the creepers and start talking to him. I act all friendly and lull him into a false sense of security, then grab him by the shoulder and punch him in the crotch as hard as I can. I laugh as he falls, but as he does I see the dream go all crystally again and I'm afraid my efforts aren't working, though my full vision was returning. Next I grab him by the crotch, then blast off the ground with a sonic boom and fly us up right into the side wall of the nearest apartment building, where I position his head directly at it and smash him into it, still applying the force directly to his crotch to do so. There's an incredibly loud impact sound and the side of the building crumbles around his body a bit. I let myself fall back to the ground and am satisfied because the dream seems to have restabilized enough. I walk around and notice that it's daytime now, and there's still really nothing to do. :T But that's okay, I've already had my fun. I flew up to get a nicer view of the apartments from the sky, then the dream ended.

#4 - Lucid Within A Non-Lucid [DILD within a Non-Lucid]

This one I only have a short description of, but it was rather interesting. It starts with me in a class but this kid, J, who only went to the same school as me up until middle school. The first part may have been more of a transitional state or a hazy third-person part, because I honestly don't remember much of it at all, at least in any way that really makes sense in my mind, but it was about us fighting robots in class! After that there was some kind of boss, and J handed a magazine that was apparently it. I tried to figure out how a magazine could be commanding robots, and there was some kind of hint in one of the articles about there being a sensor of some kind hidden above the ceiling tiles in our classroom, but then we just kind of abandoned that plot and started waiting for class to end. I go sit down at my desk and get really tired, and fall asleep while waiting. Here's where things get strange! I lifted my head and I was still in the same classroom, but the people were acting weird and robotic (heh) rather than how they had been a second ago, and everything had a really foggy feeling to it. It was extremely trippy. I look around and think, wait, I just fell asleep in this class and now it's different and... wait, is this a dream? :O Yes, that's right... I became lucid based on clues that weren't true. And at the time, though it was a legitimate lucid and felt like one (rather than just dreaming about being lucid but not actually being), I still thought of the non-lucid dream as reality and where I was sleeping. The atmosphere of the lucid was extremely confusing, probably because somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that I was lucid but still very unaware of the situation. It honestly felt like I was the lowest level of lucidity I could possibly be. I decided to just waste time since I was waiting for class to end anyway, so I had everyone in the class start singing a song. The teacher even joined in happily. I wanted to go flying outside a bit after that started, and I saw it happening in my mind's eye but it wasn't really, and then everything got really hazy and I figured the dream was ending, so I woke back up... into the non-lucid dream. Obviously, I thought I was awake at that point so I lost lucidity. Not long after that though, I actually woke up. What a strange experience!

I forgot to jot this down. I remember having a dream a long time ago where I was an old man. I was sitting at my desk that was located up on a podium or small stage and it was situated to the back of the school--the exit was on the opposite end of the school. The place looked like a school to me and I guess my desk was the teacher's desk. The room was fairly large and there were long chairs on the floor for the students I guess.

I looked over to my right and saw a child standing there right beside me. I asked him in an old man's voice, I said "Who are you?" And the boy, who looked to be maybe 12-14 years of age, said "I'm *****, your new intern, sir." I don't remember the name. Then I said "Oh," and continued what I was doing.

First off i'd like to say my father passed away when i was 13 and i am now 18, this is the second dream i've ever had with him in it, the first being a very similar dream a few nights ago.

I was sitting in the passenger seat of my dad's pickup truck which was parked outside of a clearly abandoned old house that seemed very familiar. My dog(which was actually my IRL friend's dog, Kane) was sitting in my lap with his leash in my hand. I finally recognized this house as one i'd seen in a dream before and remembered my dad telling me it was haunted(in the dream i just thought of it as an actual memory, not a dream). I had no idea why we were there, but that didn't matter at the time. We entered the house and it was different than last time. It was carpeted rather than having half-broken wood floors and the ceilings seemed lower. The basement of the small house where we were heading, just like the last time we were there. As we entered the musty room my dad let Kane roam free off his leash while we did whatever we had to do. We were just looking around, observing things. I started to hear strange noises such as doorbells and people calling my name all around me so we decided it was time for us to head out of there. We got Kane back on his leash and headed upstairs. Right as we were about to exit the house, Kane broke off his leash and ran back into the basement. Afraid of losing our dog my dad and I rushed back downstairs to look for him. He was crawling through some small cracks that we couldn't reach him in, but we finally got him out. After we got back upstairs to the front of the house the same thing happened again only my dad told me to stay here this time. I was waiting for a long while standing in the middle of the living room looking down the stairs hoping to see my dad,s familiar face. I grew nervous and decided to go downstairs. My dad was trying to get Kane out of another small area and then i noticed an old laptop i had never seen before. I told my dad about it and he said i could have it. I didn't want the laptop though i only wanted to see what was on it. I clicked the shortcut for the internet, but it turned out the icon was only an alias for some program that actually deleted the internet. "Oh well" i thought and went to help my dad rescue Kane. I looked back at the laptop and it was playing Minecraft by itself and i found it very amusing. Kane was back on his leash by the time i was done watching Minecraft play itself and we left the house after what seemed to be a few hours of being there. I still have no idea what we were doing there and what the significance of this dream, if any, is.

I've been trying to remember my dreams without writing them down but it seems statistically speaking we remember more when typing or writing so I will start this DJ. I'm writing these down from my Job which is about two hours from the actual dream so in the beggining I wont be able to recall much, Anyways.

Today I dreamt I was in my car on the way to a house i've never visited before. Once i got there, this lady who i've also never met or atleast dont think i have, since this dream was a little hazy but long, greeted me at the door and allowed me to come in. She showed me around and next thing I know we were leaving to go somewhere. I could remember the car ride being a series of highways and roads. The dream skipped to the destination and it seemed to resemble a mall or school. I Woke up at this point but quickly fell back asleep and resumed the dream The lady I was with was gone and I found myself wondering around seeing a lot of people but not really noticing anyone in particular. At one point I stood in the middle of a plaza and some kids started talking to me (cant remember what they said). I woke up after the conversation.

A second Dream I had, I was taking care of someones house or acting as a security guard for a museum of sorts. This museum was weird because their were famous people hanged up on the wall but they looked perfectly fine, not dead like or anything. I was staring at this woman who was pretty damn fine and I just couldnt resist but fondle her breast I was on the couch watching tv with the woman i just touched acting on the screen. My alarm sounded shortly after...

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

It was night. My mom, one of my nephews, and I stood outside under some kind of shelter, like the shelter over a gas pump island at a gas station. But this shelter was lower, and it seemed a lot brighter underneath, like it was lit with incandescent lights.

There was a lot of stuff under the shelter, like stuff out of a house. The shelter also seemed to be connected either to a house or to a grocery store.

My mom and I had probably come from whatever place the shelter was connected to. I was probably getting ready to leave the shelter altogether, maybe because I felt I needed to.

But now a car like my little brother's car came driving toward me from the building, as if it had been inside the building. The car stopped. It may actually have been driverless. The doors opened. Something like a gust of cold wind may have come out of the car.

I suddenly got the feeling that my actions were hurting somebody's feelings. It may have been my brother. But it may have been a woman, possibly a relative of mine.

I started shivering. Then I started getting a really weird feeling, like I was melting inside. My emotions and my sensations all began quivering and getting really weird. I was shuddering and rubbing my arms. Then I collapsed.

People, probably including my mom, may have helped me up. They may have walked me into the building, which was now a grocery store, although it was supposed to be a hospital.

I was laid down on a hospital bed that was partly walled-off from the grocery store by a hospital room privacy curtain. The space I was in was cluttered.

I had been told that I had gone through the weird physical moment because I had been dehydrated. I knew that my being dehydrated had something to do with the car.

I don't think I felt terribly tired or bad. I may even have been standing up and walking around. But I had been told I had to stay at the place because the doctors were still observing me, making sure I wasn't suffering anymore of the effects of being dehydrated.

At some point a doctor may have come in to see me. The doctor may have been a woman. Or, possibly, after a male doctor had seen me, a female nurse may have come in to see me.

Whoever the woman was, at some point she was so close to me that it was like she was embracing me. She began telling me something about how some other woman, another doctor or another nurse, was either jealous of the woman or jealous of me.

February 16, 2012
My dream recall has been horrible lately it seems like my dreams just keep getting less vivid every day. Anyway I had a short full dream and two dream fragments. Here they are:

1) This dream was like a false awakening again. I 'got up' from a dream and wrote it down in my journal. Too bad when I got up for real I found out that it never happened

2) Fragment: not a lot here but I know it had something to do with a mars rover excavating rocks.

3) Fragment: this was another false awakening but I can't remember much. Just the aspect of waking up. The rest is all fuzzy.

I am determined to get better dream recall! If anyone has tips I would love to hear them

Edit* I remembered something today. I was in class at school talking to my English teacher. At one point she offered me a baked potato that was sitting on her desk because she wasn't going to eat it. O.o