non-lucid

Date of Dream: MON 11 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 557 - The Waters Of Change

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in a distorted version of Knox Shopping Centre. At first, I was by myself and was looking around in some $2 junk shops for a present for my mum. Later on, I was with my brother and was walking towards where Kmart was. In the middle of the corridor there seemed to be a swimming pool. As I walked over and stood next to the swimming pool, the walls broke open and all the water came spilling out of it.

Rather than just the water flooding a small area, it became an exaggerated amount. It was apparently going to flood the whole area of the shopping centre and I was nervously anticipating this. As it blasted out and was now creating massive waves, I could hear the voice at the back of my mind, stressfully calling, “Dreamy WB!”… This action had been performed multiple times. I would hoping she would get both me and my brother out of danger. By the time the water had imaginatively risen a deep enough level, it washed me across the floor and onto one of the walls. By then, I had failed to summon Dreamy WB.

Once the water had gone back down, it seemed to change the condition of the area. I was on the second floor and just a few centimetres from me was a massive drop to the lower floor, without any railing. I thought to myself, “How the heck am I going to get to the main area? The walkway is so skinny and if I slip and fall, I’m going to die”. I then looked around and noticed that indeed on this side was a sudden drop but if you went all the way around, there was actually a general incline coming up from the lower floor. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 557
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SUN 10 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 556 - House For Lunch

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at my house. There was known to be this entire plague of weird creatures that looked half way between worms and caterpillars, I recall calling them caterpillars. Whichever room they were in and whatever they would touch, they would decay the object, basically eating away at it and replacing the surface area with empty matter. There were heaps of caterpillars in my bedroom and I was actually freaked out to see that the floor was eaten away at and there was revealed to actually be another floor about half a metre underneath.

Before everything would get eaten up, I went in a frantic search for my four 18-Volt paper figures. Sadly, three of them had already been eaten away at and so I had to make a really mad dash to save the last one. The kitchen seemed to be the only place at the moment that didn't seem to be infested with caterpillars and so I thought I was safe. There was my grandma though, she went into another room and got a handful of caterpillars. She then brought them and forcefully released them onto the 18-Volts. The last paper 18-Volt was eaten out of and now I was upset.

I proceeded to the bathroom and I saw another version of me there! She was standing and looking at herself in the mirror. Her features were sort of blurred and she had a slightly different hairstyle to me; shorter and more twig like. She was also wearing a hot pink long sleeved t-shirt under a white short sleeved t-shirt as well as a denim skirt with a black belt and light blue ballet flats. As soon as I was about to talk to her, she began to walk off in a brisk manner.

Though she was walking away, I was desperate to pursue her and tell her who I was. She must have realised when I told her “If we can go and see the real 18-Volt and tell him what’s wrong”. She and I then ended up walking out of the house together. In the last scene though, I am by myself on a park track and the dream ends before I can find 18-Volt.



Dream No. 556
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SAT 9 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 555 - Not The Practise I Expected

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I started off in an unknown outside area. Though I seemed to be walking towards Waverley Gardens Shopping Centre, into the undercover car park on the right. As I was walking past one of the entrances, 18-Volt walked into the car park out of nowhere. His appearance was his realistic Game & Wario portrayal but he was also wearing his green jacket and pants.

18-Volt took no hesitation to tell me what he was there for; he was giving me another opportunity to go with him for elevator practise. I thought to myself, “There’s a lift near Coles?”. I asked him to take me to the elevator near Target as I knew there was one there in the dream as well as in real life. 18-Volt accepted and walked me through the connecting car parks to the other entrance.

I ended up entering the elevator but 18-Volt wasn’t there anymore and the dream was playing from a weird perspective. As it moved up, I was tossed around and ended up hitting things, just making me more nervous and not making the situation constructive at all. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 555
Dream Guide: 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 8 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 554 - A Device With No Friends

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my dad seemed to be driving my mum and I somewhere. We ended up in what looked like our donut shop but I was more on my own in this scene. There was this burly teenage guy who seemed to be acting really nasty to this girl. I know the guy was wearing a dark red t-shirt but I have completely forgotten the appearance of the girl.

I went up to the guy in an assertive stance and I said to him, something like, “If the Ethiopian dream guide comes, you’re dead”. There was hesitation on my part afterwards though as Dreamy WB didn’t seem to be coming, meaning that the guy eventually wouldn’t take me seriously. I buffed up my confidence again though and said “And if the other African comes, you’re dead too”, insinuating 18-Volt’s presence, neither him nor Dreamy WB showed up. Just as things were about to look dumber and dumber, Dreamy WB walked in authoritatively through the main doors and gave the guy a good, harsh telling off, I have forgotten her appearance. The guy then sighed and walked away in shame.

My attention was then turned to this weird device with four screens. On one of the screens, a girl and appeared and told me she had no friends, supposedly talking about the fact that it was the device itself that didn’t have any friends. Since Dreamy WB was still in the scene, she walked over and attended to the device, trying to comfort it in any possible way. The dream ended there.



Dream No. 554
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 5 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 552 - They're Judging Me

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was outside The Glen Shopping Centre and was standing in the corner of a building across the road. I was talking to my mum and a couple of other people that I had forgotten the identity of. I can recall that both women had some affiliation with my current real life university (uni) course. I also couldn’t remember what we were talking about specifically. The conversation was positive but near the end of it, I wasn’t happy with something and so ended calling for dream guide help. In the actual scene, it was Dreamy WB that came. She was wearing the high school summer dress like me and her hair was in a ladybug hairstyle but the dream made her look slightly more “beautiful”. She just stood there as the conversation casually ended.

For the next scene, I was in some unknown street with houses and 18-Volt was there but he was very distorted. He was very skinny and had very pale skin and only a medium brown haircut. He wore a short sleeved navy blue t-shirt with black semi-casual/dressy jeans, I can’t remember his shoes. He was wearing his normal blue framed glasses but both lenses were red. Despite him being altered quite a bit, giving an unusual appearance, his energy made me feel at ease. We were having a casual conversation but I forgot what it was about.

He then stepped back, in-fact moving back quite a bit, I knew what this meant. 18-Volt was signalling for me to do my little run up and get onto him. Throughout this whole scene, the dream was playing in third person mode and so I could actually witness launching myself onto 18-Volt. On initial attachment, I seemed to be at the right height and even though he looked thin, he still felt soft. As he walked, I ended up slipping down. I sensed that the dream was trying to emphasise the difference between a comfortable and uncomfortable position. After a while, 18-Volt seemed to realise as he rapidly shot me back up and that feeling of being snug returned. He then walked on, continuing to carry me and eventually, the dream ended.



Dream No. 552
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & 18-Volt
Lucid?: No

Semi Lucid

Become lucid wandering in some house. There are some boxes everywhere. they are all white and every size you can imagine. I open one box and it takes me into another room that looks like the same house. The rest of it is foggy but I'm basically finding more hidden rooms which lead to different houses with more hidden rooms etc.

Oh no

I'm flying above drumheller with Jamie. Some force hits me from behind and I launch right into a rocky foothill. My mouth is bloody and full of sand.

Thank you

First as I'm falling asleep, I see Jesus in profile. He looks different in almost every dream. I remember in one he was actually a black man.

suddenly I'm in a dark room sitting on a chair in front of a screen, like a laptop or a TV. There is an electronic device under my hand. It could be a touch screen phone or a mouse. I feel another hand go over that hand I look to my right and it's Jamie. She's smiling and is warm. She nods and we both push the button on the device. She then goes and pulls out a Rolodex or something. My impression is that these are memory files she then has to sort through.

Days later while awake I decided to finish another message to her. Being more thorough this time. I spend hours typing, revising, deleting and rewriting. I fit it down to the 20,000 character limit that facebook messaging allows. Although there is so much more to say. I'm nervous as hell, take my dog for too many walks and smoke like crazy. when I am satisfied with my composition. i paste it all into the message box. go out smoke again go for another walk. go back to it. I have my hand over the mouse almost deciding again not to send. I then remember the dream, Jamie's hand over mine. We were pushing the send button together. Then going through memory files? are we finally going to compare notes? I click: send.

Non-lucid.

This tops the nightmare I had about the haunted church with the demonic shrieking choir, and the dream about the wasps crawling out of my ears.

In this dream, my dad was forced (by some evil people, if I recall correctly) to shoot a group of people. This included my brother, my sister, my aunts and uncles, some of my cousins, and others. Then, he had to shoot himself.

My mom and I were spared, for some reason, but we were forced to watch as our relatives stood there and my dad pointed the weapon at them.

I woke up before it got violent, thankfully. But holy hell my subconscious must hate me. Took me a while to fall back asleep after this one. Awful.

2019, 05-02

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

Note: When I have video game dreams they tend to be long and detailed, which is one thing I like about them. I also seem to be very slow to realize it's a dream and not a game, which is frustrating.

I am playing Skyrim VR. I am starting a new game, I am riding in the back of the cart with Ralof across from me and Ulfric to my right, but I look to where I expect Lokir to be and instead of him there is a woman. The woman is glaring at Ulfric like she would really enjoy gouging his eyes out and feeding them to him. I am surprised to see the difference, I think there must be some random factor to the fourth person in the cart when starting a new game. She tells Ulfric she won’t kill him until he begs her to. Ulfric completely ignores her, not even looking at her. Ralof tells her to watch her mouth when speaking to Ulfric Stormcloak.

The woman briefly glares at him, then she sees I’m staring at her. She turns her glare on me. I return her glare, giving my best effort at a Vegeta (Dragonball Z) glare. She says if I even think about getting in her way she’ll rip off my face and wipe her ass with it. This strikes me as funny and I start laughing. She looks confused. I ask what her name is, she says her name is Varlin, and I’d better not forget it. I tell her she wins, and as soon as I learn the three word fus, she has won herself a place on the top of my list of people to fus off of a cliff. She looks at me strangely again, she clearly does not know what a fus is. Ulfric, on the other hand, is now looking over at me, but he can’t say anything because he is gagged.

Varlin returns her glare to Ulfric, who is still staring at me. I say that knowing my luck Alduin will eat Varlin, denying me my fus. And then Alduin will probably die from eating something that nasty. This earns another brief glare from Varlin and Ulfric’s eyes get wider. It sounds like he tries to say something, but then looks frustrated and growls, still staring at me. I want to know what he has to say so I stand up, and even though my hands are tied in front of me, I reach to take the gag off. A guard riding beside the cart gets closer and uses the blunt end of his spear to push me away from Ulfric, making me fall on the floor of the cart on my ass. He says if I try that again it won’t be the blunt end he strikes me with.

We get to Helgen and everyone gets out of the cart. Varlin immediately takes action. She has somehow freed her hands. She moves lightning fast and snatches a sword from a guard, and before he can even look her way she has run it through his chest from behind. She says she came to kill Ulfric, but now she wants to kill me first. She seems to think that will be easy since I’m still tied. I really want to fus her. So I do. I let out a full three word fus, “FUS-RO-DAH!” right in her face. And it works! She is launched backwards into the stone wall that surrounds Helgen. I have surprised myself, I didn’t think I could do that yet! A glitch? Nice glitch!

General Tullius arrives with Elenwen riding a horse close behind. Tullius asks what in Oblivion is going on, some people say Varlin killed a guard, more say Ulfric shouted at Varlin, and others say I shouted at Varlin. Tullius looks to where Varlin landed, but she is gone. He then looks at Ulfric, then at me. My cool down for shouting has finished, so I tell Tullius I have a message from Thorald Gray-Mane, and the message is, “Fus you.” He looks puzzled, then I fus him in the face. Now Tullius flies through the air and crashes into Elenwen, knocking her off of her horse. The two fall to the ground in a heap, they land in a pile of poop just dropped by Elenwen’s horse. I start laughing. This glitch is too fun!

These changes don’t delay Alduin’s arrival. He swoops over the tower and breathes fire. People start running, my ability to shout is no longer important. Tullius gets up and starts organizing a defense, all unarmed and bound prisoners make a run for cover. I turn towards Alduin and let out a fus. It does little more than surprise him, and he replies with a blast of fire. Ulfric grabs me and pulls me towards cover, his hands are free and his gag is off. He says if that’s really the World Eater, Unrelenting Force will do nothing to him. I think Ralof is the one who is supposed to come back for me, not Ulfric, and I ask where Ralof is. Ralof is on my other side, he says he’s right there and all three of us go into the tower.

Now things follow the normal path from Skyrim, notable differences being Ulfric says he has to make sure the other Stormcloaks get out safely, but Ralof will make sure I get out ok. And he wants to talk to me more, but that will have to wait. If we don’t see each other again here he will be in Windhelm. Ralof comes out the hole in the wall with me, at no time did I follow Hadvar or even see him. On the way through the tunnels under Helgen and out the back way I am completely fus-happy, these are people I’ve never gotten to fus before. The Imperial Captain who orders the player be executed even though their name isn’t on the list got fus’d repeatedly until dead. I follow Ralof to Riverwood and into his sister’s house where I collapse on a bed. That start was new, now to take off my VR headset… I’m not wearing one? Does that mean I’m dreaming? I never even get to RC before I wake.

I keep getting back into lucid dreaming and then falling out of it whenever things get too busy. This is bad. I am really trying to be more consistent from here on out.

I used to have such good recall. last night was faint, and I recall two nightmares: I had a dream about a creepy guy and his daughter, apparently. Then, I had another dream, this one about a playground for all ages including adults that was haunted/menacing. It was loosely similar to the current horror novel I'm writing. It's cool to have nightmares about your creative work; hopefully that means I'm actually creating something spooky. (:

29/04/2019

This was a great night because it was the first time I recalled 4 dreams, for me this is a new record. the first two that I'll write were more vivid and longer than the other two.
I think that happened because I was on holiday and I slept very well in my own bad.

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Pee problems

I'm a boy, it's night and I'm at home in my bathroom. I'm standing in front of the toilet with the urge to pee but I can't, after a wile I try I start worrying about my health, so I call a doctor to come and help me.

A doctor arrives with her white coat on, she has brown and wavy hair that falls over her shoulders.
She gives me a pill that should solve my problem, I swallow it and then I sit down.
the doctor look at me in a strange way and asks me if I'm okay, I tell her I'm fine and then I fall to the ground unconscious.

I wake up a few seconds later and stand up, now I'm a girl again, I'm myself again. I go to the bathroom and pee successfully.

I wake with a start thinking I have wet the bed, fortunately it didn't happen.



fighting a dragon

Me and another boy are fighting a red dragon under the supervision of a magician who can be Gandalf the white (yes I watched the lord of the rings that night).
We are in an enclosed place, it looks like an artificial underground river with a vaulted concrete roof, the river that flows below un and laterally a raised platforms where you can walk with side exit.

But the battle with the dragon isn't real, because every time we made a mistake in strategy and the dragon defeats us by growing us away Gandalf save us and brings us back restarting the fight from where it ended, giving us the opportunity to find a new strategy.
It's more like a workout.

the other guy and I are hanging by chains at the riverbank while the dragon, breaking through the wall, has come out by one of the side doors.
I start to the eight and to the left until I get high enough to kick the dragon on his head. but it wasn't so effective because the dragon kick me in return and I and up on the other side of the river.
the dragon himself, snapping, comes to save me before I touch the wall and Gandalf tells him: " I was taking her ".
but now the dragon had grabbed me and brought me back on the other side to resume the fighting again.


cuddles

I'm at home sitting in my room in front of my desk, it's evening and in front of me there is my little white budgie hanging out on my desk.
at certain point I take it in hands and start caressing him, initially he screams and wants to run away, but after a while he understands that I don't hurt him and he relaxes letting himself being cuddled.
I put it on the table and continue to do the scratching behind his head.

then I take it downstairs and I put him in his cage with the other budgies.



secret agents

I'm a secret agent and I'm on a mission with another companion. it's night and we are dressed all in black, we are almost invisible.
we are in a place that seems a construction site and we have to sneak into a cubic building to steal something but it seems to have no income.

Well, it's been a few days. and I keep not remembering non lucids. So it's time to log some I had today. I had to take 2 melatonin today just to sleep in the afternoon. (I work nights)

netflix and what?

Just a brief micro dream while falling asleep of me and Jamie in my bedroom. we are lying on my bed, which is too small for the both of us but we are trying to manage. We are picking a show on netflix. she is using a remote. IRL I use an xbox controller.

crazy ass Castle.

I'm in some abandoned houses. There seems to be a whole district of them! As a lover of abandoned places I think i've struck gold. After exploring a few I notice some extremely shady homeless people nearby. I remember i'm on a mission or something to find a castle. I go outside and it's right there across the street. It looks really evil, it is really glossy back. It's also surrounded by a black glossy fence that looks like it would cut you if you tried to go over it. I cross the street to try to break in. but then I notice some women with black angel wings guarding the fence They are all dressed in black, and in Gothic sort of makeup. Every 20 ft or so another girl is posted. I avoid a mean looking one to my left and decide to walk on the sidewalk to my right. Another fence materializes on the side by the road, so I am walking between two fences. The blond gaurd comes up to me, She had a clack spear but doesn't threaten me with it. She asks in a friendly way where I am going. I say I am trying to reach someplace else. I was lying. She warns me not to tread further. She seems nice though and we start having some conversation I can't remember.

Suddenly I am back in my neighbourhood talking to Jay, my neighbour telling him about the place I found. He mentions the abandoned district and says That's a very dangerous plave to explore.

Transitions I am in my house in a different bedroom. There is a younger woman there and I have my arm around her. She seems to be my girlfriend in this dream.

Transitions again and I am in a basement with my old co worker Jeff. We are watching UFC or something on a giant 80 inch TV. I ask him when he got an 80 in TV? He laughs and says he doesn't know.

Transitions again, I seem to be back in the town where the castle is. I seem to live close by. Jay asks me to go into his abandoned house or something to retrieve something. I go but can't figure out which house it is. I walk further to catch a glimpse of the abandoned district again. Then I turn back.

Back in my house now and my dad is there. I am supposed to get a screwdriver or something for him. He tells me to look in his bag. I check the one he asks but all I find is clothes. I go to tell him this isn't the right bag, and it's here my alarm wakes me.

1. Just playing minecraft with my brother, we have a little house and then my brother leaves, Then I start building this giant minecraft factory that come from a variety of mods, when Im finished other people join the thing and it gets less minecrafty, the factory now looks like a real factory although I still claim the extra land I used to build it on. Now theres a lot more people and a whole scenario going on, my family is there and other people that i dont even know but they work there. I go outside and look over the edge of a cliff and see the vast cliffs like the grand canyon, I see holes deep down where other houses are and its amazing, I couple times I fall of the thing and that feels pretty good, I die a couple times there although I skip the parts I hit the ground for some reason. Then I go and show the factory to my mum and we go downstairs where the lounge is and she begins about something that I want this stuff idk lol, then she starts playing the piano and she plays it like a god.

2. Something about a giant tower I now live in from EMT some organization for college students and we play "real life" league of legends there, I go into the battlefield and we fight, then retreat and I still sneak around a bit there.

(I havent played those games in like a year)

Morning of April 27, 2019. Saturday.

Dream #: 19,122-02. Reading time (optimized): 3 min.



Water induction and the Naiad/Oceanid factor changes into a fishing scenario. Despite the former process beginning at least one dream each sleep cycle for over 50 years, the continuity and outcome are always unique.

Zsuzsanna and I are sitting on the shore of a lake, though it seems to stem from associations with El Jobean, which is near the ocean and the area where I fished as a boy, close to the bridge. It seems to be afternoon.

Two unknown men are present. One of them is cheerfully fishing. The other, the preconscious simulacrum of this dream, is sitting on our right. There is a brief, vague concern that someone might throw something from the bridge high above us, but no one does. (It is subliminal anticipation of vestibular cortex activity, which is a common dream perception.) I soon attach the hook to the end of my line, and I also put the reel on the rod. At first, I snag a sunfish carcass (on its dorsal fin) floating on its left side (as analogous to my sleeping orientation) on the lake’s surface. The preconscious is holding a pair of scissors. I am wary, as I think he intends to take them while claiming someone lost them. Looking down, I see another pair of scissors that is nearly the same and belongs with the other. There are small rust marks on the handles of each. I comment on how similar they are and pick up the pair on the ground. I take the other scissors from the simulacrum (with no protest on his part, which is atypical in RAS mediation, especially as the scissors indicate potential separation from the dream state) and put both pair in the tackle box.

I verbalize loud, sarcastic remarks about people sitting near people who are fishing. He soon leaves (thus allowing me to sustain my dream). So does the other male, though it is getting later and is almost too dark to see. I ask Zsuzsanna if fishing at night is allowed and it seems that it is. (This process, regarding nightfall with enhanced awareness, is sometimes indicative of the return to slow-wave sleep, but I maintain my dream state awareness without direct lucidity.)

I do not have live bait and consider digging in the ground with my hands, but I find a live worm with at least two hooks through it in a small paper bag that someone left behind. I think it is artificial before it starts moving. I attach the rig to my line.

When I cast, I accidentally snag a cluster of plants halfway across the lake’s distance from our side. I see an unknown woman off to the left near her car on our side. She had also cast. I find the situation somewhat amusing but not that frustrating, especially when it seems I had also hooked a big fish. However, it turns out that she is reeling the line from her end, causing the little island to move toward her.

I hook onto something big. Upon reeling it in, I see that I have snagged a seal, with the hook in its bottom lip. “It’s a seal,” I loudly say. The woman and I agree that I should take the hook out and release it, which I do.

When I cast again, the hook ends up near the woman’s car. She decides to leave but ends up falling in the lake almost up to her neck. She swims out, gets into her car, and it accidentally backs up into the lake, sinking completely.

I dive into the lake. I swim to the end of the lake to the right of my original location, underwater (being able to breathe underwater as in all my dreams since early childhood). The woman is sleeping in a small dry cave underwater, as the water remains as an impossible “wall” at its entrance. I maneuver into the cave through the “wall,” without disrupting the impossible vertical water barrier. I ask the woman if she needs me to rescue her. She shakes her head and shivers slightly, with her eyes moving as if in REM sleep. I ask her again, and she nods.

My feet push against the water “wall,” and water starts to flood the cave, but I wake around this time. I see that Zsuzsanna is sleeping in the same position as the woman had been.

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This dream renders the same processes as usual, but also unique as always and very vivid and enjoyable.

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Random dreams

Lots of dreams of just wandering abandoned places. Thought I could recall more may post more of these later.

Jamie Dreams

Despite there seemingly being a lot. the periods between them are getting longer.

In one dream I see a single HH image of Jamie with something around her neck. A crucifix chain? or a charm? she kisses it.

In another dream we are watching Jesus get persecuted in Jerusalem and get hung on the cross. Jamie is crying about it as are some others in the crowd.

In one dream We are in her car at night. I'm living in some apartment building. We start kissing. IT's nice, but after a while she stops me. "That first part was REALLY good," she says. She then tells me that she wasn't feeling the later part. I ask her to elaborate. She wasn't clear on the instructions. and I was getting frustrated. We get into an argument about it and she leaves. I go into my apartment and look at the spot where we were just parked. I replay the scene over in my mind something like a hundred times. Trying to pinpoint where I went wrong. If I did anything wrong.

Dream I am on the hill with Jamie again. Jesus has his hands in our backs. We are closer to the top of the hill now. He is trying to make us face one another. We are both connected through him it feels. He earnestly tells us both. "Now I want you two to come together." Not later or soon. He wants us to do something NOW. But I'm not sure because I don't like messaging her or reaching out to her and she doesn't respond. She made it clear in other dreams that there wasn't anything I could do. That she might try and reach out when she is right with herself or something. I have to try and respect that.

The same day: Checkers again.. This time she says to me, "I love you." I believe it this time. It's not like when she told me this before floating in the dybbuk and seemed drunk on something. This seems more sincere.

another dream I had of Jamie. There was a long week or so where i didn't recall her at all. I was getting a little frustrated so she showed up in a dream where we were just exploring an abandoned building. Don't recall what we did. but it's like she sensed my frustration and showed up to show me she is still around.

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream

2019, 04-25

I am in the living room of my own house. I am there with my ex boyfriend, James. I've been broken up with him for years so I briefly wonder why he's here, but I dismiss it. He is doing something on my phone and I am annoyed that he has it. Then a magnificent bird flies in through the window. It is a peacock, as white as snow, just beautiful. It lands on the couch beside me. James doesn't seem to notice the bird. I touch the white feathers and they are as soft as a cat's fur. The bird seems friendly. I pull the bird closer and it makes only small struggles but then settles down again. I ask James to take a pic of me with the bird so I can prove what I saw. James starts fiddling with my phone. I am stroking the bird gently, but it seems to be getting tired of being held. James can't seem to figure out how to take a photo. The bird decides it has had enough of being held and makes more of a struggle to get free. I hang on, I really want the photo... but I don't want to hurt the bird to get it. I speak impatiently to James, telling him to hurry up with the photo. He gets annoyed and throws the phone at me, hitting the bird in the head. I get mad at James and look at the poor bird. It doesn't seem hurt, it just wants to leave. I take the phone and I am trying to take a selfie with the now uncooperative bird. I finally give up and the bird goes out the window, diving into a swimming pool in the back yard as if it was a fish instead of a bird.