non-lucid

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream

2019, 04-25

I am in the living room of my own house. I am there with my ex boyfriend, James. I've been broken up with him for years so I briefly wonder why he's here, but I dismiss it. He is doing something on my phone and I am annoyed that he has it. Then a magnificent bird flies in through the window. It is a peacock, as white as snow, just beautiful. It lands on the couch beside me. James doesn't seem to notice the bird. I touch the white feathers and they are as soft as a cat's fur. The bird seems friendly. I pull the bird closer and it makes only small struggles but then settles down again. I ask James to take a pic of me with the bird so I can prove what I saw. James starts fiddling with my phone. I am stroking the bird gently, but it seems to be getting tired of being held. James can't seem to figure out how to take a photo. The bird decides it has had enough of being held and makes more of a struggle to get free. I hang on, I really want the photo... but I don't want to hurt the bird to get it. I speak impatiently to James, telling him to hurry up with the photo. He gets annoyed and throws the phone at me, hitting the bird in the head. I get mad at James and look at the poor bird. It doesn't seem hurt, it just wants to leave. I take the phone and I am trying to take a selfie with the now uncooperative bird. I finally give up and the bird goes out the window, diving into a swimming pool in the back yard as if it was a fish instead of a bird.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Going through a beautiful old city. I find it similar to some place I've been before (not actually, but that was the feeling in the dream). I find a little shrine on the wall of an ancient building, I notice it is damaged compared to when I last saw it. Seems to have had some water infiltration and erosion. Then I notice some strange objects semi-buried in the wall. I check and find a kind of stone with different semi-precious gemstones in it. Old ladies pass by and look at me with disapproval, but I don't feel that I am doing anything wrong.
Then I go down a street where these old ladies live in and one of their neighbors is throwing away a few decorative items from her house, that are actually antiques with some value and I ask if I can keep them. She's ok with that. I wonder if I can fit all that in my luggage when I travel back home, but I take a chance.
On my way to the place I am staying, I come across a big parade party of young people, some of which I know, all heading towards same place I am going. I join the party, I drink a bit, but draw the line when they start dancing a silly choreography from some current hit song I never heard of and hope never to.
We pass by a truck where a dude is sleeping on top of the truck, sunbathing practically naked. It is Avelar. I pretend I don't see him, although I am happy to see him. I have the strange feeling he is there because of me. When the party is coming to an end, at early dawn, I pretend to be falling asleep sitting against a wall, where others are also taking a rest. Then some friends come pick me up to take me to wherever we are staying. Avelar has surely seen me by now but neither him nor I acknowledge each others presence.
On our way, we stop by a grocery store, but it is in such a bad neighborhood that they have the most unwelcoming entrance. We have to crawl under a slight opening of a sliding door, then climb a balcony and land in the middle of the workstation of 3 ladies that work there. Then they open a door with a grid, that allows us in to buy groceries. I comment how old people from the neighborhood can't possibly buy food there.

Some walks up and down the city, semi-lucid, enjoying the architectural details and enjoying a slide down a hill to a coastal area, while listening and singing a Portishead music. Then arrive home, which has some similarities to my childhood's house but totally different place and disposition. My dad is there. He is being unpleasant about something, trying to control my life as usual. So I go to my room. I can still hear him and know that he is coming in, so I decide to go out the window. But we are on a precipice kilometers high above the ocean. I recall that I am dreaming and I can just jump and fly, so I do that, but all my father sees is me jumping and he runs to the window in distress thinking I killed myself. I feel compassion for my dream dad and I go back to tell him "look, I know you think very little of me, but I am fine. You see, we're dreaming and I have all sorts of powers that I use at will. I am fine, I don't need your help." He has no reply and slowly fades away.
I fly away, enjoy it for a while, then land back home, but now alone and think what to do next. I sink my hands on a wall to reinforce lucidity and decide for the first time to also eat the wall and taste it. Zero taste.
Then decide to try something I have been wanting to try for some time. Oral sex on myself. I contort myself in impossible ways and yes I do it. It is very weird because I am still watching from my head in its normal position as another head with my face comes up from between my legs and does it. I feel simultaneously the me doing the oral sex and the me receiving the oral sex. More than the physical sensation, it's the feeling of being two and being one at the same time that I feel more interesting in this experiment. Not something I can explain, you really need to experience yourself.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

Kidnapped with a bunch of other people by some unknown entity we never see. We wake up in a kind of well or shaft, hanging dangerously from the wall. It seems that at the slightest movement this well might start to break and fall apart, so we are all very still, except one guy who seems determined to break it. The entity assumes human forms and we are removed one by one in an elimination process that seems like a contest looking for the winner. And the winner is me and another person, who apparently have something they look for or want. They examine us, I see now I have needles still in my arm that they remove and big bruises.

I am with a friend (maybe Riverstone) and we go to a shopping mall. Although I feel heat and I think it's summer, the decorations are all about winter, snow and Xmas.

At the mall with some friends, some weird situation with someone stealing my jacket and then leaving it hanged in a place I pass by and it has something in a pocket, that sends a video message to a screen nearby when we walk past it. In the video, there is a warning, a bit cryptic, about some girls robbing something and we conclude it is the Mango store. We go there to warn but actually the robbery is happening right as we enter. First we pretend we didn't notice, then they threaten us, but I signal to my friends to attack. I take down the one with the gun and they help take down the rest, but I am the one that knocks them unconscious. We then look for materials we can use to tie their hands and feet and wait for the cops. The cops bring us bread.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I watch a friend bringing his gay boyfriend home for a dinner with the family. Family is unaware they date, and maybe even that he is gay. So it comes as a great shock when they casually mention it. Also, the guy had a recent drug problem and his parents are highly controlling it and all hell breaks lose when he shares that his boyfriend is a meth addict in recovery. They leave the dinner and go to the train station, it is raining and they kiss and make out. A train arrives and some guys that usually bully them get out from it. The couple decides to walk away and avoid them.
Then I am caught in the action, as I stand in their way to allow the guys to escape. The bullies get pissed at me. I escape, but later I am in school and they bully me at the sports field. I don't feel fear, but I want to expose them, so I find a way to record them bullying me. They mock me, force me to do push ups and other silly things as they say intimidating things and somehow I end up naked from waist up. But I feel pleased because I got footage of it and pictures of the 4 guys. I run to the house of a friend. At her window is Conan Osiris (the musician) who is apparently her friend and looks surprised to see this girl running in topless. They borrow me a blanket that I use to cover myself and then everybody feels more comfortable to hear what I have to say. Then we make a plan to show these images the next day to some teacher or the director.
But the next day there is something going in the school behind closed doors at the auditorium, some presentation or so. Outside in the lobby there are many strange machines like ATMs and we are told by a lady at a desk to take a machine with us and join the presentation.

Late night with my mom at a retail shop to buy a blanket for some baby. The shop closes and we are the only ones left. I am actually excited we might spend the night in there, but a worker spots us and tells us to go towards the exit. We argue we haven't yet found the blanket and because it is for a baby, she feels moved and helps us finding it. Then we take it home to the baby, which we are just taking care of and I have no idea who the mother is. I fall in love with the little one, but I get disappointed that he rejects all the food I give him. My mom feeds him chocolate desserts and it's the only thing he'll eat. I argue against it, but she says it's too late to break the habit. I say if it was my kid I'd cut all sugars.

Watching and then taking part of a Tarantino movie, so excited with how awesome it is. I am walking into a heavily guarded compound to talk to some bigshot, who happens to be played by Eva Green. I have to exit the building to an interior garden and have to meet her at the garden house, which is also heavily surrounded by guards. I am led by an attendant. First the girl goes in with a dress to hand over to Eva. I hear that she doesn't like as much as she likes the attendant's own dress, but accepts it anyway. Then I am allowed to go in and my first thought is how incredibly hot she is and I hope she changes the dress in front of me. She doesn't but anyway we don't talk much. I simply go towards her and grope her. I grab one of her breasts and suck it through her thin clothes. (I'm not a lesbian, but I just find her the hottest and most beautiful woman and I would definitely do her ). Then something bizarre happens and I become her! Now I am horny for myself. I start to undress in front of a mirror and I suck my own breasts (a dream ability I have!). I touch myself while admiring my goddess-like beauty. I am not Eva Green anymore, I transformed into a Buddhist deity, even more beautiful and irresistible. I can't hold up the hornyness anymore and I find a rubber toy on the table and I use it for my pleasure.
Some guard comes in and sees me, but I am not disturbed by it, nor do I feel like having him join. He feels awkward and slowly walks out in silence. I continue pleasing myself in front of the mirror and I climax gently and continuously and feel an amazing sensation of well-being rushing through my veins (not just in the dream, I actually had an orgasm in RL).

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

At some place, playing with someone's toys and I see a gorgeous realistic doll. The owner says it is for sale and not very expensive, still it's 39€. For this type of collectible it is cheap, but still is 39€ for a doll, so I get really divided and can't decide to buy it.
Meanwhile, Riverstone comes along and he asks me for some money and I go to my wallet and have packs of money. I start taking all the bills out for counting and ask Riverstone to help. He starts counting and I need to go do something else but I more or less evaluate how much money that was from my week sales and it is quite a lot. I feel glad.

Dad invited for some event with VIPs. He takes me along. He joins a bunch of old white people who are down in the garden playing a kind of mini golf and Trump is among them. When it's Trump's turn, he does some weird trick and my dad is under the impression he cheated. But from my viewpoint I don't think so, so I tell him that. My dad gets upset that Trump might actually be a good player. Anyway, as I watch closely this group of old pathetic weirdos, all sucking up to trump, I just feel compassion for the poor fucks, including the Donald himself who simply looks like a clown unaware of his own ridiculousness.
Meanwhile they are being watched from afar by a group of younger people and I notice some dude staring at me and quite a few others also looking like wondering who am I and why I am among the old geezers. Then I get a big smack in the face. It's a girlfriend that just saw me there and is totally surprised to see me there. I wonder the same. She confesses she is around for something else and spotted me with that group and had to come and check.

Back home (childhood home), I am with my dad and my three cats. My mom has a friend and some family coming over for a dinner and she got drunk on some liquor. I ask the name of it, because I also try it and it is really tasty. When the family members leave, my mom goes out with her friend. My dad is at the bathroom and when he comes out he gets really scared at something. I heard a noise, but I see nothing strange. Then I see the front door completely open and ask if that's why he got scared. He says no, but also doesn't explain, just goes to get some tools to fix something. I close the door and immediately go check on my cats. One by one I find them deeply asleep in different rooms. I feel relieved.

Parking one of my cars at home (the farm), I notice something weird: my van is not a van, but a second small car. I go check and it is a flying car. I take it for a ride through the country. People walking below get scared but I am high enough not to be a danger. Then I slow down at the next village and an old neighbor who is walking his dogs makes several complaints. We discuss back and forth, but I tell him not to worry. If we conclude the car or my driving are dangerous, I will stop it. So the grumpy old man and I depart in good terms. Then his son comes along, arrogant, no respect for anyone and he wants to sue me. He carries on bragging about his properties and his rich inheritance as if it had anything to do with this situation.

Doing a Buddhist retreat, staying at some big hostel, several floors high. I find my room, I am tired and just wanna go to my bunk bed. I start dressing my pajama pants, but my neighbor from the bed below invites me to go to the cafeteria for a while. I have very little money that I can spend but I am definitely hungry., so I accept. She actually needed someone to talk to. She says she gave an interview to some media and she is afraid she might have said too much about our retreat. I tell her I always share just the basic and other things I refer to my teachers and if they need, they can ask them. She orders something to drink, I order some kind of yellow thin pancake, the cheapest thing in the menu and then some generous folks come buy with plates full of food, leftovers they want to share, toasts, pasta, sponge cake... I am so happy and don't want to look greedy but I immediately dive on these plates and eat from all of it.

Some guy who's into booze comes to find his drinking bottle grew and stretched into the sky like the bean stalk from the fairytale.

Some graphic news on tv about a lady haidresser and her boyfriend who became dogs serial killers, because supposedly she was going through difficulties and started eating dog meat and cooking it to sell to others. They show graphic footage of her cooking live puppies in a barbecue and cutting the neck of a grand danois.

Haven't had anything worth sharing/not too personal to post in quite some time...

Spoiler for Wordy, as usual:

Dream 1 - Wondrous Cruise Liner

Scene 1 - Brief Infinite Cruise
The visuals were quite blurred. I was approaching the upper deck of a luxury cruise ship, a larger-than-life vessel as vast and lively as it was ostentatious. Colorful, blinking lights were strewn on its walls and on wires running through the area. Wherever one looked, a pool and festive lounge was in view.

I got spontaneously aware. Without wasting a moment, I zapped away at random. I'd somehow changed a nearby girl (one who appeared remarkably similar to Alice from Lewis Carrol's namesake novels) a 20ft+ giant. I then hurried into a dark hallway. Things began deteriorating, not surprisingly. I instantly conjured the Infinity Gauntlet in my right hand. But, the Gems themselves weren't colored properly. In fact, at least three of them glowed green. Still, I channeled power from the gauntlet. Pity I didn't think to do much else with it. The dream destabilized. Unknown warps and non-lucid scenes before transitioning to below.

Scene 2 - Terror Voyage
Similar visuals as above, if dimmer. I was lost in a winding hallway. Dim lights revealed no obvious exits, only metallic walls that stretched endlessly. The moisture-ladened air I breathed was as still as it was silent. I "knew" I was within the lower decks of a cruise ship, likely the same one mentioned above. I also "knew" I was trespassing in places a passenger wasn't supposed to wander. Confusion to the matter brought more uneasiness than the emptiness around me.

In time, I realized what was wrong: I was only a few inches tall. That's when a normal sized figure, a colossus from my perspective, loomed in from behind. This was a savage looking woman, a female scantily dressed in torn animal skins, her light skin reddened and mottled by years of sun exposure, and her thick, brown hair long and unruly. I now "remembered" the reason for my plight. This woman was actually a witch. Quite some time ago, she'd shrunken down everyone aboard the ship. She then proceeded to devour any victim she could catch. It had been a few days since the incident started. Reckoned I was one of the few survivors left, if not the only one...

Before she could close in, I leaped towards some exposed pipes. Unfortunately, these all were bent into sheer upward inclines, impossible to climb. I hid as deep as I could, and prayed this would throw my pursuer off my trail. She passed through seconds later, but just as quickly, returned to investigate. The huntress sniffed around vigorously in my direction, then glared momentarily. Seemed like my capture was inevitale. But, suddenly, she about faced, and left me be.

Timeskip at least half a day later. I was making my way down the hallway again, when the giantess resumed her pursuit. Once again, I jumped into a smaller space, an opened panel within the wall. As before, this only went so deep. The witch caught my scent once more, only to turn away at the last second. What was she doing? Far as I could tell, she was dragging the hunt on for sport. How thoughtful...

As soon as she vacated the area, I hurried on out the hallway. In fact, I was actually flying around. Somehow, I ended up on the upper deck, the space, of course, now far more empty. Glancing at the pools got me thinking, perhaps chlorine water could mask my scent? I took a short dip, if only because I dislike pool water rather than because of how deep it was. With that, I launched myself off the ship (something I should've tried much earlier). But, somehow, I was dragged back in by a mysterious force.

Unknown transition.

Scene 3 - Just Another Caper
Similar visuals. I was in the deck of the same cruise ship, only now, it appeared far more extravagant than before, swankier than even the swankiest mansions. I was teamed up with this dude dressed in a gold jumpsuit and adorned with gaudy jewelry, shades, and other accessories. I "recalled" we were part of a team of notorious criminals, pulling ridiculous heists all throughout the globe. This super-yatch served as both our base of operations and as a "pleasure vessel". Indeed, the two of us were infamously loose when it came to the matter of women (big personality contrast here...). Over the years, we'd amassed a horde of mistresses, many of which lived in the ship with us (along with the scores of children we'd bore them). Of course, this meant we were haunted by the specters of alimony; even minuscule oversight could shatter our otherwise solid financial situation. As it so happened, many of the mistresses (underdressed and aged ungracefully) had stamped out at that very moment to "calmly" discuss the matter. My fellow criminal I decided to do the logical thing: we abandoned ship! This was, after all, just the latest in a long list of capers.

Don't recall how this ended.

Scrap Group 1
Playing a Sonic game, one similar to Sonic 3 and Knuckles. Think my bros and/or my nephew were watching. The first stage was called Magma Zone, yet it looked pretty much like Angel Island Zone. Upon reaching the end, Robotnik amushes Sonic with a wide, metallic hoverpad. I unwittingly found a way to breeze through it. This even included the second phase, where Eggman detaches his classic Eggmobile from the pad, but I defeated him too quickly to even see what it does. Disappointed, I reset the game to at least give him a fighting chance.

In an unknown room with an unknown group of people. We have a discussion on the Japanese language. Namely, on various words that end with 'tsu' and 'su', and differentiating between each.

Browsing the web. I find a 16th century image of colossal ogress ravaging a mountainside. She was depicted as a particularly hairy woman with otherwise ordinary features. On closer inspection, her hair (head, body, and facial) were actually plants and trees.

I'm sitting in a chair in my new office. 2 other people are sitting there as well. One is someone I know, the other one, female, is an employee who worked there for a while. She tells me that in my chair used to sit one of the smartest people of the planet. I ask her "he must have told you the secret of life, why we are here, or what is this place?" She giggled and said yes. I went on asking, if this is for real, as in real life, or something else. She said "yeah, something else, we are in Limbo. I understood that as we are "neither here, nor there. We are in between."

Next thing I know, I'm entering a large, industrial elevator. Some people I know change their minds and get off, but I stay. We are going up, to 7. floor. I'm thinking in my mind "level up, go up". Thinking that I'm on a journey higher up spiritually. I hear a voice saying to all of us, that there maybe things up there we will not understand, but it's ok, just go with it. I get off the elevator, and everybody there has big muscles and they are flexing them. In a middle there is a fighting rink, people are chanting "ka-ra-te".

Somewhere during this time, I thought I understood the message and tried to "level up spiritually". I was thinking "go up, level up" and I started to feel strong head vibrations and a buzz of the transition. But then I felt the strong need to know where is my bed and where is the door to my place and that took me out of the transition. : (

My dad was mad at me because I didn't tell my mom to pick me up at the correct place. She drove to pick me up but it was a dead end so she had to turn around. My dad and I got into a fight. He unleashed a mac miller song about junkie zombies on me and i was grabbed by a blue zombie. But i clenched my body and the zombie poofed into dust.

Worked event in a theater. Natalie asked me to put my phone on silent. I was sitting down in the theater. She wanted to talk. I was worried it was about me laying down on the job earlier.

In the brush with strangers who communed at the same place each night to discuss there problems.

I saw a photo in a temple, it was put there by my uncle apparently, it was strange it looked as if he was treating the whole thing as his own, I didn't like it but couldn't say a word as it's none of my business. I took it to see and forgetting where exactly I took it from had a bad time remembering and putting it back. I went on and wrote on the ceiling my handmark, to let people know that I contributed to the place somehow, but then it looked as if I was dishonoring the place so I tried to remove the sign, but wasn't very successful.

Notes:
Whole thing was about being confused what's going on and what I am doing about it.

I am driving after my cousins car on an empty road, suddenly I am reeling away, I don't know why but the car now is on the roadside and I see some road posts but didn't notice in time to do something so I went over them and then... nothing I was continuing to drive, after a while we arrived at a weird car wash so I looked at tires and everything was whole and perfect, I wondered at it, but somehow it wasn't for me enough to ask if I am dreaming! ((

I am eating something with meats and suddenly I get the idea that strings of it look like worms, and ... one of such start to move on front on me, on the table, I am scared to death because I am still eating a portion so I start taking it out from my mouth and those too start to move and a moment after I am looking at rain worms.

Notes:
It's heavily raining out there, maybe that gave me association. Also worms is one of my biggest fears in life.

Following another dream, in which I was actively searching for my room in a weird housing building, I found myself passing customs at airport, or maybe it was just a general check, anyway, there was some officers, one of whom had found my hat that I didn't care about and lost somewhere earlier. He looked as if he found an evidence of my guilt against the country or something, when I made it clear how preposterous his allegations were, he went on to get some pages out of my personal journals (maybe he has intercepted the images or found torn out pages) and presenting them to me showing the words and phrases I have removed, as if to say, "I know you are at something nasty!", at that point I lost all tact and fear and started to yell at him that it's none of his business and I am free to do whatever I want in my notebook.

Notes:
It's a strange dream for me, because otherwise I am a timid person and more than often see dreams in which I am running from someone, feeling fear and worry (as I do IRL), so I woke up from that dream quite good, not feeling happy, but it had some sense of reassurance.

Before that dream, I was wondering along some streets, which I have never seen IRL, as well as those places in dream above. I saw a few cars without front tires, I rationalized that thieves probably have stolen them because they are usually in a better condition than rear tires (I have no idea about whether that is actually true or not).

The interesting thing about dreams, about which is written in ETWLD of Stephen LaBerge, is the absence of critical faculty, how easy do we rationalize absolutely stupid things! Then I thought remembering his dream sign categories that in my case it's clearly the Place that is different more than anything else. I am always dreaming about places which I have never seen in real life though in drems they seem to be mega familiar so I never question their reality. I have to concentrate on "Where I am" more to attain lucidity with some better results.

15/04/2019 - Non lucid - Choline

I was in the old west and using an old fashioned camera to take picutes through a window half way up an wooden stair way.
The stairs had two turns leading to the top floor, the wood was stained pine wood or a dark colour. I took several pictures over what felt like a ten minute period of the street from above via the window, one set of stairs up on a short walk way.

The photos came out quickly like a polaroid and where there were horses in the pictures they had cars or different types mixed in with them much like a computer glitch when you see a character sitting halfway in a chair or standing halfway through a wall.

For some reason this depressed me a great deal (it broke the magic?) and I left the building. The dream merged into dreamless sleep.

Last night was the first vivid dream that I have had in a long time. It starts with me at a grocery store with some kind of device that lets the user swap faces with any living being they can find.
I used it to swap my face with a cat, with the supervision of the inventor of the device. After this happened, I went to the house of J (who is now trans and goes by E, but it would be awkward if I made it seem like this was the same E as in Let Your Imagination Run Wild.)
were I came out as transgender to everyone except her parents. We were doing some kind of odd puzzle with the bisexual and transgender pride flags, but we had to hide it when J's mom came in. After that, I was in the jungle and came across a cartoony-looking British guy who spoke with an unintelligible Jamaican accent.
We entered his airship and he told us about how he landed on the moon once, which automatically switched me into a flashback from his point of view. He was flying high above the clouds and navigating his way to the moon, while all the while the people he was with were talking about how globalist Marxism couldn't possibly work in practice.
He had an extremely hard time landing on the moon once he got to it due to the fact that everything that landed on it immediately shot into space. He landed the ship on the moon (which was impossibly small, by the way), and once his feet left the shuttle, it shot into space. He tried grabbing it, but to no avail. He found two flags, both with years written on the cantons.
One of them (the one he picked up) was what appeared to be an anarcho-communist soviet flag with an extremely long year number of (something like) 5120598908802. The dream ended with him placing it in a crater and looking into the sky.

15/04/2019

this dream is short but for me it was very interesting and strage.
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I'm in a documentary, I see the scenes but I'm not a part of it, I'm the voice that explains the things.
the documentary is set in the African savannah, and I'm telling you how the man evolved.
our predecessors were called Eres'al, they were bigger than us, with hair all over their bodies, they had strong arms with big hands and they walked on all fours; in practice we were something very similar to a gorilla.

This animals became human because some individuals, in addition to looking for food and avoiding being eaten by others, found time to devote to themselves to stop and reflect, this with time led their minds to evolve.
We can see this big gorilla laying in a field and looking at the clouds that float in the sky.

The next part of the documentary take place on the bank of a river with a waterfall nearby, wee can clearly hear the sound of water falling from a big cliff.
there are see a man and a woman, still very primitive and naked, who haven't yet learned to speak approaching for the first time. both of them had never seen a human being of the opposite sex, so they are very shy and wary. they approach slowly and when they are a few steps away from each other they stretch their hands until they touch each other.

In the last part wee are in an African modern village, there are people who walk among the huts, others who cultivate the fields. then the camera zooms into a school without walls where there are a lot of children writing on their notebooks, the teacher is explaining something and on the other side of the room wee see a cameraman who is obviously doing a bad job because he isn't suppose to be in the scene.

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this dream is hilarious, I'm thinking about how it would be if they really did show a documentary like that on focus hahaha