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My dog was on the dreamviews website creating a new thread under research. Then I woke.

I only recalled 1 dream, where I was waking through my school without a top. I felt proud though. When I walked past a few people view laughed at me and I felt embarrassed and the dream ended.

I had many dreams last night, many dreams which I realize kind of all faded and looped into each other. So it was more like one long and changing dream, fading in and out of states of awareness. (which made it seem like separate dreams.) The past two nights though I distinctly remember telling myself I knew I was dreaming and became aware of my intention for several years now to lucid dream but then I became more lucid in my body and I assume I lost dream control or awareness.

Fragment: Lorenz was here with me and we were traveling downtown. I think I actually met her downtown. She was very nervous about something, and part of the time spent at this large school type environment although it was built and looked much different than mine or any real one in my dream. It was more castle like and large, like a private school or collage, with terraces and fancy architecture, etc. The coast of Lake Michigan was right next to the left or right side depending, how you looked at it, of the school. Again, Lorenz acted much more nervous than she did in reality or that I could ever remember her acting. There was some performance and many people watching and I remember I had to perform too. There was much more imagery but it all isn’t coming back to me. Anyways, there was a lot of anticipation, not all bad, in it.
I also feel like a cafeteria was also a part of this dream. Sometimes, I dream of cafeteria’s and having to order food or serve food or sit and eat in one. etc, etc

I’ve had similar dreams with swimming, and swim meets, although I was never a swimmer in my life. I have had dreams of swimming in large pools or having to swim and race in dark, and dangerous, scary oceans. I feel like this performing or anticipation greatly relates to the above little scene in my dream.

And then later on I ran into Sherry. Sherry was wearing a dress that was much different but kind of like what I was wearing and she criticized me for this, asking how I could wear it and why, assuming that I knew what she would plan to wear. She was kind of cold and distant, but for some reason I gave her a ride home anyways. She was mean actually, and had kind of become mean to me in real life. As has everyone actually.
This was actually supposed to be my high school however it was on the North Side, probably because of the times I have went up to visit and hang with Fela or go to a party. I was talking to Sherry and a boy I somehow knew.

Fragment: I was a kid and I was playing with a group of other kids. We were roller blading in this hilly environment. There were many pathways and as we were roller blading the sidewalk curved and made sharp turns or was blocked by buildings or other things you can imagine would block a child’s path while rollerblading, like grass. Then, we we skating and trying to hide from somebody. I think there were cops or parents or people looking for us with lights so we were trying to escape them. I think there were vague characters I could remember and sense as people from my life but couldn’t pin point anyone by face or name. All just vague representations I knew were representations of people but what people, I cannot say. We were having fun.

Fragment: It began that we were on a ship and it was speeding so fast I was so scared. I was so scared because I thought something bad would happen and to be in open water like that scared the shit out of me. Mom was with me for this part and she was comforting and assuring and made me feel safe. There might have been someone who reminded me a lot of a teacher I once had named (?) and he taught Math and Guitar. There was some sort of talent show while we were still on the ship and I thought it was really stupid and felt uncomfortable especially watching this fashion show that several girls put on. 6 of them fell or something. I remember that there was 6 of them that fell down. Some were black. After that, I guess we must have landed and everyone started walking towards wherever we were going in a large group, lots and lots of people were here together. Some of us knew each other. I stayed by my dad and I felt very protective of him here. I worried about him and wanted to save him as suddenly there were intense rain clouds but it seemed like it was going to be really bad weather. Like very dangerous weather. This dream was like the earlier one in that there was still a lot of rushing and I was running again as fast as I could but it wasn’t fast enough like always. Dad was running with me too. (This image and awareness of me running has occurred a lot in the past few nights in my dreams.) I have sometimes been jogging outside in my waking life and have had similar attitudes toward my performance. I am pumping my arms to and pushing my legs to try to go as fast as I can and I worry why I can’t go as fast as others my age or older or even younger. Again, there were some males I could vaguely understand and remember as representations but their identities did not come into awareness in the dream. Although, I could see one boy who looked and reminded me a lot of Mike Tr. at one point. We knew where we were going but I can’t remember or didn’t know so much that I could name or describe it for you, only that I could see it wasn’t that far away. It was walkable distance, which is why the ship docked at a pier not far away or something. There was water we had to cross, and there was quite a bit of walking imagery. I remember wanting to go back because although we were trying to get to shelter, I worried that if something bad happened we would need to get back to the ship and flee. I didn’t want anything bad to happen to my dad but everyone else seemed to chilled out and relaxed in spite of the weather. I think that the place we were going to might have become the animal welfare from the next dream. Next dream...

(I felt like this part of my dream had lots of parts that were really like a second school I attended in LaGrange with many problem kids.)

Last Dream Fragment: Then, all of a sudden, I dreamt I was at the local Animal Welfare where I volunteer. And my friend Ashley was there. That was where we were walking to. There were many rooms and confusing pathways, just like our welfare league.
I think I saw Lorenz there again, but I know for certain I saw Ashley there.
A woman who reminded me of the young, blonde character on Grey’s Anatomy which I think I dreamt of only because it was a hospital type setting. Towards the very end, these two grown women who held some sort of authority at the hospital and were in charge of some higher up type stuff sat in a room and talked to Ashley and I. They appeared very nice in the room and pleasant and polite, however afterwards I overheard them making rude comments about Ashley and I. Especially something about Ashley’s resume and this welfare had a very strong resemblance to representing a hospital I once spent some time at. One of the women said something like but not quite exactly, “ How can we (or), Who will hire her? Look at her resume, she spent a lot of time at our own school here in the corner.” And I didn’t hear them say here in the corner but in the imagery I saw a corner which was the school just like the building in Lemont which served as a school. I was angry at them for feeling like she and I were being made fun of and really felt the urge to stick up for her. Ashley gave me a book which said something about best friends. I felt stuck in this place. It was busy and hectic as always. The same nurse who looked like (First Name-Kathryn?) Hiegel ? maybe her name, from Grey’s Anatomy, diagnosed me with something out of nowhere. Something she said came from a friend she said she saw visit me with a beard. I think it made me feel bad and worry. It had a name.

To end; in regular day to day life, I've been having much luck at least in reality checks due to the fact that I have been sometime convinced I am actually in a lucid dream in reality but I don't want to be actually convinced of that of course. I have thought sometimes that my dreams and my waking up from my night have actually been a string of false awakenings. I'm not sure if this will help me achieve a lucid dream or not, for I am trying to just keep it as a possibility and question it, but not believe it.

Doser?! Is that you? (non-lucid)

I am in a department store with a friend. We walk near the help desk and hear someone say a large, deformed man is looking for someone.

We turn around and walk the other way when a huge man walks out from a door. I try not to make eye contact but he must have been 8 foot and heavy set. He was wearing sweats and had some light facial hair. No deformity.

We keep walking when I women said "So you guys want to go to heave?". "Uh...ok" I say. She responds with "Just how wild a ride you looking for? Follow me and place your money in the mailbox."

We follow her down some dark steps and into the parking garage. The dream becomes real vivid. We keep going down even further to a basement. I lose my friend. "Where'd you go, Jim?" I yell. The women said "He's dead and you're next." She points a gun at me and then runs back up the steps.

Then, in real life, my fan fell from my window and scared the holy guacamole out of me. I woke up.

So I am at a dinner table in a airport hanger. Their is this kid at the table playing his Gameboy and I keep telling him to stop playing it but he will not listen. So I grabbed his arm and then I fell backwards out of my chair and tumbled down a hill that was RIGHT behind the dinner table. After the fall I get up and I fell sore and in pain. It quickly goes away. I then end up on a kite somehow being pulled by a small airplane. Well the airplane decides to land and the line connecting the plane and me breaks. So I fly forward and make a huge circle, flying over this scrap yard. I land in the scrap yard and walk back the the hanger place to put up my kite. I do so and I find a computer there so I jump on it. I play so music but it hurts my head so I shut it off. Then I wake up.

Last night, I got myself mentally prepared (or so I thought) for some lucid dreaming...and was planning on using the phone during. But it didn't happen. FAILED ATTEMPT!!!!

Anyways, the only parts I remember of two dreams is:
1. Going to the pharmacy, to get some medicine. My husband found what he thought I needed, but it was not for humans. It was for the ground and was toxic to humans. So, as we were leaving, frustrated and arguing because I did not want to use a toxic chemical on myself. (lol) So, as we were leaving, I told myself to go ask the pharmacist....so I did. But thats all I remember.

(is that a lucid dream? because i did no reality check, but i certainly did what i told myself to do.)

2. All I remember of another dream is that I was with some old friends on some wierd trip. It was related to the dream I had the night before and involved other dimensions. The only thing I remember, is going with Katrina to the doctors office. On the way out, I seen a sample bag with a toothbrush in it. I started to grab it, because it's always nice to have a new toothbrush, but I refrained because it was really for someone who had an appointment. (lol)

I didn't put a lot of effort into recall today.

I did attempt a WILD after 6 hours of sleep. I wanted to test whether it was better for me to do one with the WBTB or to do them separate. The verdict remains to keep them separate. I didn't slip into HI at all! Although I did experience some intense SP, complete with shaking, flashing lights behind my eyelids and even some noises... I tried floating and rolling and visualizing and after all that, I was still awake.

Verdict: Better for me to split them up. I prefer having the HI and just working on the balancing act between sleep and consciousness.

July 24, 2010
Another crap McDonalds dream
I recall working with the hashbrowns again, at McDonalds, and Maxwell (ex-bf) being there.

Well, last night I had four dreams which I remember. However, only in one (the last one) can I remember what happened and what it felt like. It's all non-lucid, but I got pretty close.

Background knowledge: around once a year, I go to America with my brother ('J') to see some family members - my grandfather (from now on 'G'), and my cousins (only one is in the dream - 'E')

I had just arrived in America with my little brother (although my mum wasn't with us), and saw E. She looked nothing like she does in real life, however. If that wasn't strange enough, the airport which we had just arrived at (in America) was my school - in England. We walked outside and entered a strange building made from orange steel cylindrical bars, so each room looked like a prison cell. There was very little light. J commented that my school had a strange repair facility (?). We then walked past a cell, in which was imprisoned a young, blond member of my school (whom I did not recognise). We then left the strange building.

We were back in natural sunlight. I have no memory of seeing J after that.

E and I walked into a car park. We entered a large black car. She went in the passenger seat, and I went into the back.

At this point, I attempted my first in-dream Reality Check. I bite my arm and feel nothing. I also hold my nose, and continue breathing. Just as I am about to conclude that this is a dream and become lucid, the driver (G) turns around, revealing himself to be a character with a face not unlike the clown from Stephen King's 'It'. This surprised me enough to wake me up.

Waking up so close to lucidity was a massive disappointed, but at least there's always tonight.

I look out my bedroom window and find that there is debris from a storm covering my front lawn, and a horse is sitting where the mailbox should be. I run downstairs into the garage, but I can't find the opener near the door, so I run to the other end, where another opener is, and I find a dead squirrel on it. I yell and run back inside.

*Time Lapse*

I'm outside with my family looking at the damage from the storm, and I am eating something. Some dogs start coming into our yard, and my sister says it's because their owners never fed them. Soon, there are people who are acting like dogs that approach us, and we run inside to escape the zombie-dog-people.

regular dreams: 7-24-10

The Ghost

I don't remember all the details to this dream since I didn't write it down right after I woke up so some of this might be guessing.

I had a picture of something that someone gave me... I'm not sure what it was. I think it was painted by Charlie, who was now dead. I remember being really scared, like I just needed to get this picture off my hands. In one part of the dream, I appeared to be in a house with my mom and sister. It was haunted by the ghost of this Charlie person. I didn't believe in ghosts, but I started to change my mind throughout the course of this dream(until I woke up). I remember in one scene me and my sister were in this really small bedroom with plain white walls and a bed. On the floor there was a doll that appeared to be walking. It freaked me out and I knew that it was the ghost of Charlie.

There was a lot more to this dream and it was really scary but I forgot most of it..


Criss Angel At My Door

Criss Angel and his manager were going around the block and ringing people's doorbells to give them fliers for something. Criss came to my door quite often, and I was really excited because I wanted to talk to him. But when he came over, all he did was say like one thing to me and then leave before I got a chance to talk to him. Then his manager came up to me and gave me this orange brochure.. I don't know what it was for but I don't think it related to Criss in any way..


Huge Theater

Me and my friends were at a screening of the Hannah Montana movie(who knows why..). I even think that I was hanging out with some of the people from the show The Buried Life. It wasn't even opening day but the theatre was packed. We were in this HUGE theatre. It was like 6 times the size of a normal one and the screen stretched all the way above our heads, like an IMAX theatre, only bigger, but the seats were all on the same level of ground, instead of a normal theater with seats on different levels. I wanted to sit close to the front but we ended up sitting in the back. Apparently it didn't matter though, because when a preview came on, it was amazing how we could see everything perfectly from the back row. It was really cool, even if it was a Hannah Montana movie. After the preview, the screen went black again. The actual movie was going to start in about 5 minutes. I started walking around and then saw Nikky, sitting by a bunch of random people. I saw a bunch of open spaces in the middle, where the seats were wooden(or maybe the seats were wooden everywhere..). I asked her if she wanted to sit in the middle with me and she agreed. I wondered why she would even want to see this movie... I woke up before the movie started.

Blair and I were at the beach. We were not actually on the beach, but right next to the beach in a city. As we were walking, there was a since of something bad happening in the air. You could just feel it. It also looking very stormy and windy.

So as were walking down the sidewalk next to the street, a loud noise explodes over my head. I could feel the pressure that came from the sound and it knocked me over right there on the street. Another reason it knocked me over because I was scared and I was a tad bit embarrassed that I fell over right on the street.

So I look up in the air to see what was the reason for this loud blast. It was a large plane flying very low. Everyone started to scream and whatnot because the plane was heading right for a building. It was very scary, but as it hit the building, it kinda of just bounced off like a paper airplane! Everything got quite and it almost seemed like no one was surprised by this. Then a second one came, but much smaller. It did the same thing: hit the building and bounced off. No once found this weird except me! So we continued walking.

It was still stormy weather, and we wanted to find something to do. So we walked over to a zoo that was here at the beach. We walked into the front were the ticket office was it was under this big awning were a bunch of que lines were. I walked up and a lady that worked at the zoo was holding some sort of big, brown, slow monkey. I didn't say anything, but overheard here talking to a man that was questioning her. The lady was talking about whether or not the could open up some of the main exhibits because a lot of the animals were scared of the storm.

So we left and continued to walk down the road. There was a little "fold-up" table on the side of the sidewalk in the little grass patch and there were three guys sitting around it. Blair walks up to them and starts talking to them and asking question, but I did not here what she was asking. The guys were laughing and I heard one of them say, "How can you talk to us like that and stick your butt out like that when your boyfriend is right there!" This made me angry so I started walking. A fight between us ensued.

We went home, but for some reason it wasn't a beach house, but rather the house in Rolseville. We went to bed, but in different beds ( I don't know where she slept.) The next morning I woke up, and on the stairs there was a cake. On top of it, it had written, "Happy Birthday Daniel!" Blair had made this for me because she was sorry for what she did. I did not find it weird that is was NOT my birthday, and in fact my birthday is coming in no time soon!

Left 4 Dead

I was playing the powder game on my computer, while my parents were having some discussion in the background. I was messing around with dust and ice and then lava in the powder game, but then the lava started to glow brightly. This happened for a few seconds, and then the powder game turned into oecake, and there was greenish goo spewing everywhere in oecake. I was wondering why this was happening, so I used the move tool, and suddenly the background disappeared and there was a sewer full of left 4 dead zombies. Somehow, I was transported into this sewer, so my immediate reaction was to light all the zombies on fire, because I thought I was awake, but then I lost my lucidity. After all the zombies burned up, there was this weird ball, that was all nasty and was skin color but had these two dark patches, and between them a really nasty incision. My mother (but looked different) appeared in this sewer and began swimming. Then another tank spawned (giant zombie figure), and I tried to light it on fire, but this time with the weird ball. All it did was turn into a flashlight, but it did nothing to deter the tank. I began swimming to the place where I had initially burned all the zombies, but for some reason I was really slow and my mother was even slower. The tank also was really slow, and just stared at us as he slowly got closer. Then my mother made some sort of realization that it was bad, because she was like "You're a cougher, you're a smoker, you're a shrieker!" (Dave Matthews band?) and the tank was just nodding slowly the whole time. My mom started blocking me from accessing the platform, at which point I realized that this was indeed a dream, because I realized I had a false awakening. So then I decided to wake up, and I did.

[Dream in blue.]
[Lucid in red.]
[Nightmare in pink.]
[Non-dream in normal.]



I'm going to start making more of an effort, I swear. Although, I've had around 4 lucids lately. Forgotten them now, but ah, well. I had a stressful few weeks.

The last dream I recall clearly was one I had a few days ago. I was a mom, with a daughter of 6 or 7 months. I was fiercely protective of her, although, she had no name that I recall (Lennie? Maybe??). I had to keep changing her, but I didn't mind.

Her diapers were made of Lavitera leaves - a plant I'm allergic to - but even that didn't stop me.

I left her with Joy, our neighbour, briefly, and rushed to her side when I got back.

I was so attached and when I woke up I almost cried. Spent the next two days longing to be a mother.

I'm 17. Wtf!

this one was kinda thrilling lol. i only remember being in my living room, the furniture is the same, but the people are in different places. my stepdad is outside, taking the dogs out, when he suddenly tries to open the door and get the dog in as fast at possible. he doesn't make it in time and this brown dog runs inside, barking. i jump up and run over and hit it, kick it, and yell at it. it tries to bite me, i think it gets a finger, not sure, but i just kept hitting it. it left after i hit/kicked it some more. thats all i remember

1. I remember thinking that I was able to transport myself through space and time at will, since space-time was not linear. Many of my friends were making fun of me for this, and were interrupting my concentration while trying to transport. Eventually, I managed to transport from my old high school in California to my current bed in Rhode Island, and had what I guess could be considered a "False Awakening", even though I never "Woke up".

2. My mom had confiscated my computer for some sort of wrong-doing I had committed, but absolutely refused to tell me what the wrong-doing was. Everybody else seemed to know, but nobody was telling me what it was. (Note: This was at my old old house. Everybody was in the garage.) Every time I asked what I had done, mom just got more and more pissed at me for asking questions. Eventually, my sister-in-law explained to me that (And this is where it gets ick) they found some of my semen on the bathroom floor. I try to explain to them that I only ever masturbate in the shower, with the doors closed, so that all of that would be washed down. They don't believe me.

3. I'm with my mom, at her job at... McDonalds. She actually works at Red Robin, so I don't know. I'm waiting for her to get off work, or something. I'm sitting at a table that is incidentally sat down at by two black ladies looking for something to eat. My mom comes over as their server. (Servers at McDonalds? Yeah, don't ask.) She asks them if they want their special today, which looks like a pizza with little pizzas on top, but for some reason my dream-mind kept telling me it was a pie.

The one to the right of me wants one, and the one to the left of me wants one too. My mom notices that the one to the left also has a salad (Which actually looks like a salad-pie, too). My mom then asks her if she wants the Baseball Deal. She'll get the pizza-pie thing, the salad-pie thing, some other food items, AND a ticket to the (Insert whatever baseball team name it was here) game, all for just 6.99 (Of course, it being a dream, this number changed often. I didn't notice anything strange, unfortunately. It went from anywhere from 700 dollars, to 3 dollars, to 14 dollars.)

4. It feels like a sort of city-building game. I remember at first I'm connecting roads around this really rural town. I remember constructing a two-lane high way (Or was it four-lane?), and trying to build a road-connection just to find out that a rocky area is blocking it, then realizing that there was a road leading out to pretty much nowhere, and deconstructing it. It's strange. I think it's a frontier town, or something. I go back to the docks of the town, and realize that it would probably be best to construct a city on the docks, first, that can spread out to the more rural, desolate areas. However, I realize that the only industry that could be supported in the dock town would be either fishing or oyster-gathering. I use the menus (Where the menus are, I have no idea.) to check out oyster locations. There are none. I check out fishing. A moderate amount of fishing spots, enough to get something started.

I go into a sort of first person close up view, with two people, I think one is my uncle, standing by me. I go through the town that has spontaneously appeared at the dock area (But, of course, to my mind, has always been there.) and look for places to put fishing docks up. Unfortunately, everything seems to be taken up by industrial docks and tourist docks.

I remember at one point I thought I found a good spot, but it was a swimming hole, and thus I couldn't build there.

Everything was slightly reminiscent of Tropico 3.