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I don’t really remember the first part too well, I kinda woke up sorta a bit and didn’t record…but at least I got this part.

So I think It had to do with this hospital of sorts and I was traveling/going to school somewhere. Not sure which cause both kinda happened. One scene is my friend nicole driving me to the airport with our other friend and they are laughing about something. This actually mimics one of my fears that they secretly make fun of me.

The other scene is in a classroom and I have to take a few math classes. Well the teacher I think is the ‘villian’ of the story (he/she didn’t do anything, but I just knew it). They teach the math using really colored charts and such. By the end of the class I end up…get this…trying to eat melted cheese when my boss (from real life) tries to end the class early and take the next one…

Yeah i really don't know what happened, even as i'm reading it...and it just happened this morning. i'm really trying to piece together the 'logic' of my dreams as a guide about DJ's suggested. i guess i failed this morning

I'm new here, I stumbled upon this site because I am seeking to understand my dreams more... I have dreams that are very vivid. I'm not sure if they are lucid... I have had dreams where recently deceased people that I cared about came to me to give me messages. Messages that I understood. One was confusing, and re-occuring, but once I understood what he was trying to tell me, it never happened again. I can elaborate on this more later. What puzzles me is I wonder if the person was really "in the dream." Was I really conversing with a dead person? Or was it just me, trying to understand?

I also have dreams where I'm in other realms, and I know that I'm in other realms. I know that I'm dreaming sometimes (and I learned tonight, that means I'm a lucid dreamer). I have dreams that have people in the plot that I'd rather not see. I try very hard to leave my past behind. The people in my dreams are not trying to hurt me....but it's hard to let go of the past when I have dreams that contain people from it. Anyways.....I need to start learning what I need to do, so I'm going to finish up this post. Peace.

1. My brother, dad, and I are at the animal shelter adopting a new cat. For some reason my brother empties his pockets, but all he has in them is a large and unwieldy knife-wallet hybrid with a combination lock. An Asian man grabs the lock and starts cracking it. He soon solves it and tries to leave, but I hook my finger in the lock and pull to make him stay. We struggle for a while and he calls me racist names, then pulls out a pistol. I then proceed to knock him out with my other hand and escape with the family.

2. I'm playing DDR in an arcade with some of my college friends. It only costs two tokens, but the machine has been modified to float and is very unstable on a pool of water. My friend Q starts to bash arrows on the machine, and I try to stop him from messing me up. I lose my balance, however, and fall into what turns out to be putrid water.

3. I am watching a Tupperware container with a hot dog and a bunch of Cincinnati chili. Suddenly the hot dog grows a tiny mouth and starts to eat the chili, eventually leaving the container spotless!

4. I can see my own aura, and it is green. Someone else (unintelligible notes) also sees it and comments.

July 23, 2010

Failed training (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Finally done with drivers ed so I can get a full night sleep now. I woke up at 6:28 AM and was only able to remember the end of an epic dream. I was a ninja from naruto. I had watched it just before going to sleep. There was an army of water style ninjas attacking from the north. They all looked the same like clones and there was one that was gigantic one. They used water jutsus on me and I used did some epic stuff to fight back. I cant remember exactly what I did. lol

I went back to sleep really quickly and dreamt for an hour or two before I got to the part I can remember. I was in the car with my dad driving somewhere. Then It faded and I realized I had to keep the dream going. I imagined typing on my laptop and it was 100% vivid feeling. I couldn't see anything though it just kept me from waking up. it faded again and I popped up in a dream where I was on the couch in the family room with my laptop on my lap. I knew I was dreaming but I did a noes RC anyways and got an exhilarating kick when it worked regardless. It was dark and the lights were not on for some reason. I went to the middle of the room and got into a karate stance and yelled (in Japanese this time) Kage Bunshin No Jutsu! (Shadow clone jutsu from Naruto. It should clone me so I can complete the advanced task of the month.) but again nothing. I tried to make a ball of energy but I failed at that too. My dream control really has not been very good lately. That's why I need this training. I looked up and randomly, out of the hall came one of my friends. I was like what the heck are you doing here. He said he didn't know. I asked him if he knew how to clone himself and he said ya. He walked over and looked at what was on my laptop and a second one walked up behind him. I asked if that was a clone and he said ya. I tried again and failed. I tried again and as I started to feel it happening I woke up. Grrrrrrr I didn't even get any training done. I just want to use the shadow clone jutsu for an easy and quick way to complete the task. I have plans for a much better and more original technique for cloning myself but I need some other training for that first. It was already 10:00 AM so I tried to fall back to sleep but couldn't clear my mind.

1st dream.

I was busy recusing Abeni and other girls from the "castle". I discover a TARDIS-like thing and called THE DOCTOR to ask how to destroy it and I than did destroy it. In the meantime Adrian was visiting his twin brother who is in jail. The twin started very hard into Adrian's eyes and almost use Adrian to kill me by hypnotism. I was able to remedy it with old fashion remdies. But I was starting to fret about being murder. Adrian suggested the two of us flying to the UK for meeting family on his mother's side (his mom was from the nobility class) who he never meet. I agreed to eat. But insisted I buy my only food when we get into Toronto and lock the food into my room. We meet his grandparents Sir . They welecomed us into their home. I rushed upstairs to my bedroom (after they showed it to me) and put food into a trunk there and locked the trunk. *end of dream*

2nd dream
Adrian and I after washing up went downstairs and chatted to Adrian's grandparents. The grandpere said that the two of us (Adrian and I) should get married. But the grandpere and grandmere were working on a murder mystery weekend script. They were trying to decide how to write the murder-mystery script and who to murd. I said I would play the twice-widow Lady of the House for the weekend (who is step-mom to the victim and mom to her son from her previous marriage and her son from the 2nd marriage) but only if the script was to include the step-mom/mom fear of being murder--the grandpere and grandmere never acutally have a part in their mystery weekends. I suggested that Adrian's role be the step-mom/mom recent love interest whose job is a doctor.

Originally, I was going to be writing about helping some DV members build a literal dream house, but an afternoon nap cropped up this gem. Part 2 will follow later tonight.

23.07.2010

Good Cop (Part 1 of 2) (Non-lucid)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Feeling less than safe, even with my Riot Shield and full SWAT uniform, I quickly crouched and raised my shield as two thugs came up the stairs. I turned as they moved past me and MTM, making sure to keep the both of us safe in case they decided to start shooting. Glaring as they passed, I could see they were making their way further up into the mall. Maybe we should be going down, then.

Motioning to MTM, who was armed with a G36C, we began moving down the stairs. As we went, I would jump over the ledge each time we reached the halfway mark, making the descent even faster. Soon enough, we were on the tiled ground floor of this vertically structured mall.

PING! PEW! PING!

Becoming very much aware of the bullets ricocheting off my shield, I ducked down, protecting the both of us from the fire raining from above. I looked up to see the thugs from before firing at us with a G18 and a Mini Uzi from a balcony several floors up. Calmly, I took out my Intervention, and peered through the thermal sights. Taking a breath, I fired a warning shot at each, hitting the barrels of the assault rifles hanging from their necks. Although, they seemed un-phased as they switched to their ARs, which were functioning perfectly fine despite the holes I had made. . .

MTM took cover behind the stairs and lay down suppressive fire; I moved in closer to try and stop them. I made it a good distance, but a stray shot clipped my arm rather badly while I was putting my Riot Shield onto my back. Just like that, I was down for the count.

The world faded in and out, as the amount of gunfire increased twofold. An old squad-mate ran over to me, unconcerned for her own safety, as she stood over my failing body, firing up at the goons who started this mess. It looks like the calvary has arrived, I thought as everything turned to black. . .

Images flashed before my eyes. First, a scene of the two low-lifes explaining their position and admitting they were wrong to start shooting me like that, especially when they realized I could have taken them out at any moment. They showed the camera the damage I had done to their guns. Then, my time in the hospital drifted past my faint consciousness, and I became painfully aware of the toll the recovery process took on my psyche.

A meaner, more bitter cop than before, I would no longer hesitate to take out a perceived threat if they even looked at me funny. The only thing that kept me from going off the wall was my family, who weren't taking my personality change very well. I feared they could leave me at any time. . . .

This morning, I had my second lucid dream. I was lying in bed, after waking up a couple of times and drifting back off. For some reason, the idea of lucid dreaming was in my head. I think I kind of woke up from a dream and thought it was lucid, though it really wasn't. I decided I was going to try to be lucid. But, I was sort of aware of being awake--at least, at that point, I saw all black. Then I started to imagine myself in a situation, still seeing all black. I imagined I was in a rain forest on an island. Suddenly, I heard huge sweeping winds and rain, though I still saw nothing. I thought to myself, "I must be lucid dreaming--I can hear the wind and rain!" It's possible that some real life noise caused it, or I might have imagined it. Anyway, I imagined myself hopping off the island into the water and swimming with a bunch of fish, and it felt more and more real. I forgot about lucidity. Then I got out of the water and onto a dock, and suddenly, I gained full vision. It was like the black just kind of faded to a real image of the dock, through my real eyes. It was startling, and at this moment I remembered my desire to be lucid. It worked, and I had the same weird sense of reality as in my first lucid dream of some months ago.

I noticed some people on the docks, and started talking to a girl I was sitting right next to. Just then, I felt myself losing lucidity, and everything faded to black. I was about to give up, but then I had a crazy idea. I thought, "Maybe I didn't lose the dream. Maybe I just closed my eyes in the dream." I'm not sure how to describe what happened next...I remembered where the girl was in relation to me, and I just...reached out and grabbed her leg. I couldn't see anything still, but I could feel her leg in my hand. I realized this couldn't be a leg actually in my bed with me, and then I just...opened my eyes and I was back on the dock in the exact same place. I got up, and tried jumping and spinning around, but everything was in slow motion, like a 3d video game with lag. Then I went back to black, and this time I couldn't get back. I woke up.

I tried to go back into lucidity a couple of times but it just didn't work.

Just a frag, and then a short but fun dream.

~Standing in the back yard, and a strong wind starts blowing. I look up and there's a tornado in the distance, but it's dark blue and there are rainbow flames shooting out of it. Someone had to yell at me to run because I just stood and stared at it.

~I'm a mermaid, swimming through some body of water surrounded by a bunch of houses. Out of nowhere, a flamingo starts chasing me, and I have to get away from it, because flamingos eat mermaids... obviously. I eventually swim around a post thingy enough times so that the flamingo gets dizzy and goes away. I keep swimming and find a merman with a shiny golden tail, and white hair with gold streaks in it. He teaches me different ways to swim. I leave after a while and go into a house that's half underwater. Some little girl (or something else disguised as a little girl... ) then starts trying to catch me. I swim all around the half of the house that's underwater--through doorways, around furniture, all over the place--until the little girl suddenly clutches her throat and swims frantically away, apparently realizing she can't breathe underwater. I notice that my scales are shining dark blue.

I'm in the family room of my parents' house. It's dark in the room, though I can't tell if it's night time. I'm trying to ward off some wild animals that have made their way into the house. Two of the three animals don't look familiar, while the other is a raccoon. I shoo them out the back door multiple times, only to have them scurry back in each time.

I find myself competing in some sort of real-time strategy tournament that involved virtual trains engaging in combat. I was part of a three man team (I don't remember who my partners were), and it was our job to construct a virtual train that could destroy the train of the opposing team. The trains were on the same tracks and were going in the same direction, shooting missiles and lasers and whatnot at each other. The matches would start out in 2D, similar to a SNES or Sega Genesis game, but would eventually grow into 3D (Not sure how to adequately describe this transformation). The tournament was taking place in an area that was similar in style to the block I grew up on, but somehow I knew it wasn't my block (I've had several dreams take place in an area that resembled my block).
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I'm talking to a girl. I didn't recognize the girl as someone I knew, but she he looked similar to a girl I know named Jenna. There was obviously sexual tension between us, but she insisted on keeping her distance because "we were brother and sister". I remember finding this a bit odd, seeing as how I don't have any sisters, but I let the confusion pass.
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I'm lying next to her, softly kissing her. After a while she stopped me, on the grounds that I was "making her sad". At that point I realized that the two of us were now lying what I believe was a hotel room of some kind. Some of my friends (Arianna, Alex C., Ann) were also in the room. I don't remember much of our conversations, but I do remember looking through some luggage, though for what I'm not sure.
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Walking around a corner of the block, I come upon a group of teams competing in the tournament. I see a sign which says that everyone must finish twenty matches before we move on to Paris. I approach a man who I interpret as a leader of my team and ask him what the sign was about. The man is a former substitute teacher of mine; his name escapes me at the moment. We bitch about the organizing body's decision for a little while; he mentions that a trip to the market had to be canceled as a result of the decision.
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I'm sitting in a theater, which seems to be filled with people I know. Radiohead is performing on stage, while video is projected on a screen behind them. After they finish their set a new video appears on the screen, one that appears to be about marijuana. Jorge asks Robbie if he can get him some weed. Robbie says he can, and they work out the details of the transaction.

Well, I'm new to the site, so I'm assuming that this is what the dream journals are for.

I don't usually remember my dreams. If I'm lucky, I remember 2 a month. I am, and have been aware of what dream journals are for, for a long time, and when I've actually thought to try them, I've had results. I've just never made doing so into a habit. Gonna try and change that this time.

Last couple days I've been actively trying to remember my dreams once I woke up, with varied results.

July 22nd - 1st: I was in some kind of office building, I believe. I was working there whereever it was. Everyone else took off for some reason, and someone came in. Customer, or an applicant or something. Went upstairs, down a hallway that was colored in beiges. Went past an office marked "Robin DeSantis" and looked inside, expecting everything to be crazier than it was (My subconcious seems to have misspelled the last name of a character from the webcomic Shortpacked) and found that everyone else was in a meeting room. I remembered that I should have been in there, went in, and learned that we were supposed to write a test now based on whatever they'd been talking about. I decided that because I wasn't there for the talk, I shouldn't bother with the test, and told my boss that the person was downstairs waiting. He got pissed at me for making the guy wait, and left the room. Which is when I woke up.

I remember there were more details than that, there was stuff happening downstairs before everyone left, but I lost those before I started trying to remember.

2nd: I remember having remembered a second dream, but now I can't for the life of me remember what it was, which is frustrating, because I had more details for it than the office one. Bah.

July 23rd- 1st: Me and two other people were in some spooky old house. Old and mansioney, dark blue lighting, huge bookshelves, candelabra wall sconces. Something out of a Casper comic. We were looking for a book of doom or something similar, but for whatever reason couldn't find it. I forget if it was me or someone else who was holding it, but we had the book, but couldn't read the summoning spell we had come to find. A ghost was in the room with us, scoffed at us for not being able to read it, and said "Try getting an education." Dream ended.

2nd: My wife Jen, our friends Brandon and William, and I were playing Smash Brothers on the Wii. The game started and after a few moments, I had knocked everyone out of the ring. I was beating everyone up using Pikachu as my character, but then when the game suddenly ended (I realized we hadn't changed the match rules from being on a timer) Jen had won, for actually KOing the most players, rather than just causing lost of damage as I was doing. I was a little annoyed, and went in to change the settings from timer to the lives-per-person mode, but found that I couldn't remember where to do that. Dream ended.

3rd: Jen, my parents, my Aunt Anne, my cousins Scott, Sean, Vanessa, Sarah, and I were all inexplicably in my old VW Rabbit convertible. We were driving along a bridge that takes you into Seattle, although it was apparently in California, as we were going to Disneyland. As we got there, there were tons of cars trying to turn into the road that went into DL, and apparently went through it's underground parking facility. I remember thinking it would take us forever to get there because of how many cars were there, and so I turned on the radio, with the soundtrack of the Disneyland Esplanade (the section between the two parks) going. I thought I should turn it down a bit because the top was down and other motorists might be annoyed with the music. Never did though, as we immediately afterwards were in some underground area, the car was stopped, and some of us were walking around. Each of us had to fill out some paperwork before being allowed into Disneyland. Something like immigration papers. I thought someone else should fill mine out for me since I was the driver, and apparently was too busy driving the car that I wasn't even currently in. Vanessa and Sarah had gone around the corner and up the path, and I wondered what they were doing up there. Dream ended.

4th. Jen and I were either watching a movie, or we were at some kind of renaissance faire type place. Pretty sure we were watching a movie though. There was some kind of fair going on, with a pirate ship like ride in the background, lots of tents and vendors, and one of the buildings had a string of moving lights around the top of it (where the lights flash in a pattern that makes it look like they're going around the string) We were complaining about the historical accuracy of having electric lights in a medieval themed movie or fair or whatever, and then Jen complained about the accuracy of the music we were hearing. That it should have sounded crappier. I listed to it, and stated that I heard a violin, an accordion, and a tuba or a bassoon or something. Something bassey. We went over to the where the music was coming from, despite us not actually being there, and I noted that I'd forgotten to mention the percussion. There were 3 people there with big bass drums strapped to their chest, and the music had stopped. Heath Ledger came forward from the group and thanked everyone for coming to see his performance of a Knight's Tale. As we walked away, Jen said that she'd forgotten he was in that movie, and I thought, but didn't mention, that I felt sorry for them for having hired him to do the part in this performance, when he's dead. Dream ended.

I had woken up after each dream, and there were a few I've forgotten entirely, despite having tried to remember them all. In between a few of the dreams, I did that thing where you think about the dream, and continue it in your head. Where it's like you're writing the rest of the dream until you fall back asleep and continue it. I can't remember any of what I was doing then though. Just that I was.

Hopefully I'll have more to write about tommorrow.

This dream was very vague.

I am with a group of people, and I know who they are, but I can't recall them now. We are waiting on horses for a certain person to come so that we may ambush and execute him.

Another one of my Disneyland dreams. I'm annoyed with my subconscious. I want to go back to Disneyland so badly IRL that I keep having these dreams. And as fun as they are, they're never as good as the real place. Sigh. Anyway, where to start today? I think the earliest memory I have is that there was something going on that the Haunted Mansion wasn't open at the moment. First off, the whole place felt more like a big county fair (or what I imagine a county fair would be like.. We don't have those in BC) rather than the real Disneyland. It certainly didn't look like Disneyland at all, and I only knew it to be DL because I had the sense that it was.. And there were certain "attractions" that I knew to be DL attractions, even if they barely looked like the real thing.

So yeah, the Haunted Mansion was actually more like a big stage show and it was currently closed for another stage show - some kind of musical act. It reminded me of Delhi to Dublin (*great group IRL, look them up!), but I didn't actually see them perform in the dream so I don't know if really was them. R and I were there together and I was thinking about getting souvenirs. I was also wondering when we had to leave. I figured we'd already been there two days or so, and we had another full day after this day before we had to go home. That made me very happy and I hoped we would spend as much time at the park as we could before leaving.

I remember wandering around looking for special souvenirs. I already had the classics that I wanted (IRL I have these): Mickey & Minnie stuffed toys, a shirt, a mug, mouse-ear hats... So I wasn't sure what else I really wanted to buy, I just knew I wanted something from this trip.

I didn't actually get to buying anything. At some point we ended up back at our hotel. Except now it wasn't just us. There was a group of us and we were trying to coordinate what we were doing. I don't know how many people there were and I don't know if they were all our IRL friends or what. I don't remember that part. All I know is I was getting annoyed because there were suggestions of other things besides going back to Disneyland (IRL I wouldn't have been that weird about it.. I do like doing other things in California!!). At one point I went into a bedroom and there was a little baby boy laying in the bed. He was maybe 6-8 months old, I don't know. He was happy enough, comfy and safe. He didn't look "normal", though. He didn't necessarily look handicapped but he didn't look normal either.

The next thing I remember is we were arriving back at the hotel again and now we were being told we had been moved to other rooms. There were too many of us in this one room and also, it had been booked by someone else and we were extending our stay so we had to move. There was a lot of stuff to move (for some reason it was almost like we had been living there), so we were annoyed with having to move. I don't remember much about the actual moving itself.

Another time shift and now I was alone in a room, packing a daypack. I always loved making sure I had all the essentials in one bag when going to a place like Disneyland. I was alone, everyone else was off doing stuff. I had a vague memory of a restaurant. R was also off.. I got the feeling like he was at work or just otherwise busy and wouldn't be back until later. I suddenly realized, why was I bothering to wait around here for him? I should just go to Disneyland on my own and kill time until he could join me. Why not?

I got prepared to leave. I was hungry, and found a sandwich in my daypack that had been saved from the restaurant we'd been at earlier (as per the vague memory of it). That made me happy, though I don't remember eating it. I headed out to go to DL, thinking about how it was sometimes fun to go to a place like that on your own and be free to go anywhere without asking anyone else what they felt like doing.

I don't remember actually getting there though. Next thing I remember is heading there with R and saying we should enter through one of the "back" entrances, for a different view. IRL there are no "back" entrances to Disneyland but in previous dreams I've had there was one Disneyland dream where we found other ways to enter the park besides the front. So I was remembering that in this dream and wanting to go that way again.

And that's it. I don't remember anything else. I woke up multiple times during all this, so although I'm writing it as one dream it was actually more like 7 separate dream times. Can you tell it's my "weekend"? I was in bed from midnight to 11am. Gotta love having the time to dream like that!! No lucid, though. I did try... Every time I woke up I went back to sleep with the thought of lucid dreaming, but no go. I also attempted the WILD technique, but I was too sleepy all around and fell asleep before dreaming. Too bad, since I slipped into dreams almost as soon as my body fell asleep, so it was probably a pretty good start to the WILD technique.

Friday, June 23, 2010

I'm in a house in Glen Lyon (bumblefuck old town I used to live in) with my family, and I'm checking the house out. I remember looking out the window and seeing a car, and behind it, our car, and a bunch of kids riding bikes. The next time I looked out the window our car was parked back more. The house was pretty odd, I remember one stairway leading down to the living room was really thin, you had to walk sideways to get through. It was a 2 bedroom house, and in one of the bedrooms I saw my two little brothers laying on some sort of bed. My sister got her own room, I kinda just knew that, I didn't see it. I asked my parents where they would sleep, and they said the floor in the hallway connecting all the rooms, and they said I could sleep there too. Then I got mad and started screaming about how I hate Glen Lyon and this house is shitty, and then I woke up.

Dream #1

I am in a library looking for the book The Furies, which I am currently reading in my waking life. For some reason, I cannot not walk, so I'm hopping around on my knees. There are automatic lights so only parts of the place are lit. I cannot find the book, and most of the shelves have "Winnie the Pooh" books on them.

Dream #2(of what I can actually remember)

I am an alien living with a surrogate family. The father of the family is abusive to his wife and daughter, and at dinner I get angry at him and throw the spaghetti we're eating at him. He is covered in butter and cheese and pasta, but he is still calm. He stands and begins to walk slowly around the table toward me. I reach my hand out to him in an attempt to harm him telekinetically, but to no avail. Suddenly, my view zooms out at a map, with blinking dots indicating the locations of other aliens. I somehow summon them to my aid, and the lot of us conquer the father.