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I took a nap today from 2pm - 4pm.

In the dream I was someone else. According to Jung's theory it was my persona. I was part of the cast of a horror movie, except everything seemed so real, it might have been just me thinking "wow, this is just like a movie." I was with three others in a white, crappy car heading for a lakehouse.

In waking life I had read a creepypasta (a scary short story) about a woman staying with her grandmother in her basement. Her mother died and soon she began to see her mother in her basement, so she boarded it up, afraid.
In the dream this woman needed our help. I don't know what significance we had, but we went to her house on a lake.
Her home was on an island, surrounded by fir tree. Everything was more vivid than usual.
There was a rotting old boardwalk that crossed the lake to her island .This boardwalk branched out. At the end of one branch was a few boys playing. at another end the boardwalk rotted and there were alligators. For some reason I chose to head that way instead of onward to the house.
At this point I think I realized I was dreaming. Things were weird - I felt as though it was a video game and I was looking over my boyfriend's shoulder, telling him how to beat the level.
I woke up.

But I wasn't awake - it was sleep paralysis. I have SP often, but never this severe. It was hard to breathe, and I could feel the struggle for air. I was frightened of the strange, loud rumbling sound. My HH are usually whispers. I had fallen asleep on my right side, in my boyfriend's house, on his bed. At the foot of his bed are three large construction signs - one specifically reading 'DO NOT ENTER' in traditional black and white pattern. I remember it being reversed, the colors flipped. I could only open one eye, and could read it very vividly on the sign. My vision was shaking, so it was hard to read. I looked over, and I could see who my boyfriend was talking to on Skype - read their names clearly. I thought, "Perhaps this is a false awakening." I couldn't move to check reality, so I felt it was just SP. So I went back to sleep.

My boyfriend - someone who I felt was my real boyfriend, but didn't look like him - and I were circling the house alone. there was a pair of basement doors against the white-sidled, Victorian - era house on the island. My boyfriend didn't see them and was standing on them. I shouted to him just before I slipped out of the dream.

I was in SP again. I looked at the digital clock on the wall - 3 pm. I was terrified. I'd never had two bouts of SP like this, same time, one right after the other before. I tried to fight it - something that usually works for me. The rumbling and my usual HH were there, though the hands crept up the side of the bed because I couldn't see the door. it was very hard to breathe, and the same words kept rattling in my head as if someone was saying them to me - "If you keep speaking I'll make that creepy smile." I tried to talk - I could open my mouth, and say "Aah!" softly. My boyfriend's name is Austin. I was trying to call out to him, afraid, but I was so quiet and he had headphones on, talking to people on skype. I tried again, but after "aah" I couldn't form the 'st' part. My tongue was thick and breathing was a struggle. I think I almost passed out. I fought my SP as hard as I could - I usually can break from it without too much trouble.

I was in SP today for an hour and a half.
when I snapped out of it I gasped for air, which caused Austin to turn around and come to me. I know it was SP because he says he heard my going "Aah!" softly, but didn't think much of it. I was so scared and weak and lightheaded. My mind is still a little dizzy. I was very thirsty. My body still feels suppressed.

11/17/2011
I wasn't even trying to WILD or anything when this happened. I'm thinking since I was experiencing a lot of stress might have been what initiated this.

I was just laying in bed with my eyes shut, I happen to facing down though I saw an image of a fan, rather than focus on it I relaxed since I knew I was fading from consciousness.This caused the image to become clearer. When my brain sent the signal to my body to tell me to move I ignored it and stayed still. Then the hallucinations started

It was two disembodied voice of children talking in unison.
This was my first auditory hallucination and if I hadn't understood what was going on I would have been completely freaked out. Even so, I was still kind of scared during the experience.

A lot of the things they said were kind of random, but I was able to manipulate them a little bit by expecting them to say things. That's why I was so sure it was an hallucination.

One of the things said was something along the lines of "I don't mean to complain but this guy is down my throat"

The last thing I heard the children say before I came back to normal consciousness was"the belly of the beast is right behind you!"

I think being scared had raised my heart rate to the point it woke me completely up.

11 Aug 2011

I did not really sleep much at all but I had a very large number of pre sleep hallucinations. Normally I wouldn't document these but they were all along a common theme. Each hallucination involved an encounter with a person I know. A conversation, an observation, a collaboration or some other type of human interaction. I ended each hallucination with some new idea opinion about the person. I have no clear memory of any of these except for one in which I watched J.T. stuff something up and then put in every effort to remedy the issue, sadly the details have left me but the conclusion is implicit. I wish I could remember more of these hallucinations but the whole process was very exhausting as I doubt whether I entered a single R.E.M.s cycle all night.

Dream - Lucid

I was trying to take a nap, and was having some hypnogogic hallucination about my friend Amanda, when all of the sudden, I felt sleep paralysis take over. I felt the heavy buzzing sensation in my head, and instantly knew I was about to enter a dream. I started trying to envision a scene I wanted to enter. I saw a dog's tail wagging in black space.

I felt the floaty feeling in my head that I usually feel when I enter dreams, and opened my eyes. I could still feel my body in SP (and could throughout this whole experience). I was in my room, laying in my bed. It was very bright in my room. Everything was very vivid. Next to my bed, I saw my friend Grace, and a girl I went to high school with, Kelsie. I thought about how I hadn't seen her forever. It looked like they were reading my dream journal, which is placed on the pillow on the other side of my bed in waking life. I got up off the bed, and was then crawling on the floor. My room was much spacier than usual, and there was nothing on the floor; it was very clean (another good indicator that it was a dream ). I crawled over to my full-length mirror, which was propped up against my chest of drawers in a slightly different place than it is in waking life. I see myself in the mirror. I'm now all the sudden crawling on the bed instead of the floor. I examine my reflection. I'm wearing all dark clothing. I thought I looked relatively normal and like myself. My eyes started to feel heavy, and I lost the dream and woke up.

DELETED

HOLY CRAP so this morning my alarm went off early and I was able to go back to sleep for an hour. I concentrated super hard on falling back asleep into an LD. As I was falling asleep I remained totally aware and experienced those weird hypnogogic hallucinations with flashing light, strange noises and the sensation that I was falling. I was scared at first but reminded myself that it was normal and that I was just in the first stage of sleep. I then felt my body go limp as I actually fell asleep and went straight into an LD! (The whole feeling of consciousness was unreal. It was like my body was sleeping but my mind was still awake through the entire process) So I find myself in a doctor's office and let the receptionist know I'm there to see Dr. Ross from ER (I have a small obsession with Clooney) but she says I have to book an appointment with at least 6 other people and she finally let me in. Then I'm in this room with my best friend Jodie and she is trying to sell me different styles of pyjamas and then I started losing the dream and wake up