Recent DJ Posts

My recall has still been crappy. Maybe one flash or dream per night. I have weekly work in stettler now, our family is restoring one half is a motel. We stay for 5 days, then 2 days in Bowden. We rotate staying home to look after the animals. And it's 30 per hour per person. Could take a few months. At least I have work for now.

Dreams.

Justin

Random dream about our recently former PM. Justin Trudeau. I was in a room like our living room. On a table, I saw a cinnamon bun. No one was around so I ate it. A second later Justin came in and looked at the table. He looked dissapointed at something and left.

Well, I guess he had it coming.

Jamie

Just a flash of Jamie with Dexter. They were both killing someone.

Wal Mart?

I was walking around a Wal Mart. I had memories of working there with a red head girl. But I think it was Jamie in the dream. But she wasn't there. I saw the door greeter guy with glasses who use to be a cashier and he's been there like 15 years.. The lobby, vestibule was like the co-op in Innisfail.

I really hope to have more Jamie dreams. Kind of sad we don't hang out dreams much anymore.

We've been doing good in the voice lately. Except yesterday I had a bad emotional episode, which hasn't happened in quite a while. We got through it and we seem to be on the same page.

Is this website dying? seems no one DJ's here after the spring competition...

On the last entry: The "drive by". I heard the Jamie voice in my head apologize for that or something. No! It's okay. I go stir crazy sometimes trying to figure how "real," what I am experiencing is. To show up on the day I post about something distressing... Nah, you threw me a line girl! Thanks.

BTW if Jamie reads these. Because of my situation at home, my cousin just offered me a room in Lethbridge, I can get my old job back, I'm on 3 delivery apps, and i have the basic skills to start a side business. You KNOW how mentally unhealthy my family is. It's triggering for me here. I understand I was put here for now, to be closer to your area, for a reason. I'll hold out for as long as I can. But, if it gets really bad here. I gotta run. I'll let ya know. I'd hate to because it seems like a phenomenal amount of progress has been made between us.

Anyway dreams:

Jamie is crazy

FA, get out of bed and I see it's hailing out and there's a big storm (It's also night time.) I don't think to RC. I hear my brother say he hopes Jen makes it home okay. I hear a crash and I hear Jamie's voice from the kitchen say, "Rob, come look!" I run into the kitchen and see Jamie (As Jen) standing behind my dad. There's an acoustic guitar smashes over him. Parts of the wood are stabbed inside his body and the strings are cutting him. He's awake but makes no sound. I keep asking, "Um Should I call an ambulance?" Jamie keeps saying while grinning, "No, I think he'll make it."

Remind me to NEVER really piss Jamie off... my god.

Work

I'm working in some large building with storeys. I'm new, but everyone is wearing Wal-Mart vests. I see Jamie as a different girl. and the nametag says, "Julie," I have false memories, of working in another town with a girl that looked like her name ,"Julia.". Jamie's eyes widen in fear and she runs past me. Her friend (The one I met at the metal party at the airstrip in didsbury.) says something like, "Oh I think she likes you. Just let her make all the moves on you, she will." and I'm like, "Okay, i'm pretty shy with that stuff anyway so it's nice when someone else takes initiative." But in the middle of the sentence the girl I'm taking to is replaced by a chubby woman with grey hair. She yells at me, "Stop talking and get to work."

bed

FA, Jamie and her friend walk into my bedroom. I see Jamie as Katelynn now (Great now my perception of her is off again). I'm like, "I haven't seen you in so long we should have a hug." (knowing it's really Jamie.) Jamie goes to hug me in bed but turns around and I hug her from behind. Her behind is literally on my you know what again. But her friend drags her off the bed an out of the room. (note: In addition to the voice, While going to sleep or waking up in the middle of the night or early morning. There is a phantom sense of Jamie with me. I experience hugs, and other things. And I have read other "Twin Flames" have gone through this as well. While I think I'm going crazy, I do find it comforting.)

Last night.

Two brief flashes


In one Jamie is prancing some other guy around in front of me. I start getting mad and Raven says something like, "She just needs healing"

in the second Flash. I'm watching peaceful energy go over Jamie. Her vacant, glassy eyes become whole again. She looks at me and smiles. and we grab our hands together.

Peanut butter cups are now my official recall aid.

Ok computer

In a weird room with some nerdy guy on a giant computer. I was trying to search for music but he ws stopping me. He went on some gaming forum and I was watching him scroll through it. Pretty boring.

Wal mart

I'm working wal mart again but all the workers i know from mcdonald's work there instead. We are trying to stop a flood from from the top shelves. We use Styrofoam stuff? not sure.

I go to clean the vestibules and notice that the sisters from the north store are there, C and C. they are still young beautiful and up to no good. The taller one notices me and smiles. She waves. I shyly wave back and go in between the doors to clean. They keep popping their heads around the corner to get my attention. I find it funny.

Trooper

I was in the same area as the previous dream but I was in Trooper's car (he's a youtube Vlogger documenting his life in vegas as a poker player https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSKG_qk60r0) I have Bjork's music on in his car. It's a song I seem to know in the dream but I haven't heard it while awake. He gets in and starts driving he then notices the music and then violently shuts it off.

Bus Terminal


I'm walking on a street near the bus area in Lethbridge. I'm with some girl who's taller than me who has long black or brown hair around or past the shoulders I think, kind of thick hair and sporting large sunglasses. She's like a cross between Jamie and Kaomea. She goes up to a taller guy which may have been Data and asks him for something. I get mad at this for some reason (My dream self is extremely dumb in social situations and likes to run his mouth). I say something like she seems about as deep as a bowl of soup... lol I'm so mean for no reason. She starts protesting and walks after me asking what my problem is. I keep ranting myself for some reason, get to the curb and wake up. If that's viatorem I'm sorry, I don't really know what my problem was.