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D:1 My aunt Jill & I are kids again. She's only a couple of weeks older than me. We are in what looks like my childhood bedroom but it's hers & it has another window in it. We are covering the windows & hiding from people but I don't know who. Non-lucid.

D:2 There are lots of people & I'm walking through a college. Mike is with me. We walk into an auditorium. I can't shake the feeling that this is some kind of set up. We start walking into a classroom but it's like the ones with hard wood seats & the rows are like a theater. The professor is walking slowly down to the front from all of the way in the back. He never quite reaches the first couple of rows. Katie, my grandkids aunt is in the front row. She's a little younger than me. Mike looks at her her & leans down towards her & she is looking at him different. I feel someone lean forward from the second row to tap me on the arm & it's Christian. He is my oldest friend & I trust him with my life. I look back & Katie is pulling Mike to him & they start kissing. Christian grabs my arm & looks straight at me & tells me that everything will be okay. Then I woke up. Non-lucid.

Explanation of details: I was just talking about Jill & my old bedroom. I was also just talking about Katie & Christian. Yesterday we went swimming & when we were walking up the steps I could see that there were a lot of people kissing in the lazy river. I've been looking up people I went to school with lately so that probably explains the class. Or it could be that I deleted a picture of a rented book I had taken. It was the one I returned to the college when Lisa died.

Side Notes- Too burnt to go swimming again today so maybe I'll take a nap & try to get a lucid.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

I haven't had a dream set in this location before. Typically my dreams are in more familiar locations or completely fantastical.

It was a three story brick building, like an old New York Firehouse, with fire escapes on the outside. It was a school setting, and each student only had three classes per day. I remember sitting through one of the classes, and the desks were crammed very close to each other. I was doodling on a pad as I half listened to the professor and the other students. I knew that I wasn't a student there and didn't belong, but the others accepted me. Suddenly, I had a bad feeling. I left the room and ran up to the top story. There was a fire that began, but it wasn't a normal fire. It was sentient. As I walked through the smoke and flames, that's when I gained lucidity and realized it was a dream. I put up a forcefield to keep the sentient fire back, and began barking orders at students to get out of the building and back up, because it was going to explode (even though I realize it's a dream, I still like to play it out). Some students didn't listen and I had to go back up and get them down. A couple students had their face melted off by the fire, the faces literally melted like rubber or putty to the ground. About at the point, I woke up to my alarm.

Basically average life in a different town. Driving around, getting pizza, hitting the movies, not much special. I got the name of the girl at the movies, "Mia."

Dream One- I am at work, and we hear a loud sound. Everyone in the plant rushes to look out the front door. One of the skirt ladies's car has been struck by lightening and is on fore. Our Jeep is parked nearby so I run out and move it so that the fire can't spread. My boyfriend climbs in and we just leave work all together, we go to a doctor's office where our pregnant friend is having an ultrasound. Our pregnant friend grows a penis and we make futanari jokes.

Dream Two- My boyfriend and I are at the mall trying to find a new spot that we are supposed to meet my mom at. He is lost, as usual, but I am pretty sure I know exactly where to go. There is some construction in the middle of the mall, a new store I guess, so we have to go around that. We also see Christmas stuff set up for a pictures with Santa kind of thing the mall is going to be holding. We find my mom in a Cafeteria type area with a stage on one end. There is a lady giving a "motivational" speech on the stage. She's going on about how we create our own destiny by choosing the right path. Something is said about attracting a man with positive energies, and my mom acts all over the top about how she needs that. The whole speech though makes me think I had dreamed about something similar. I take out my phone and start searching my dream journal and dream notes looking for it, but I can't find it. The speech is over, and my boyfriend is ready to go home, so he kind of rushes me saying it doesn't matter, we can find it another time but we need to go.

Dream Three- I dream that I am staying at a strange apartment with one of my coworkers. Her husband and my boyfriend are on a company trip together, so we are waiting for them to come home together. I don't remember much about this dream, just a scene where she is laying on the couch talking about how her husband texted her that they were having a lot of fun. I also remember being in a kitchen and getting a call from my boyfriend that they were on their way home, and to wait for them at the apartment b/c they were going to go straight to that apartment and not stop by work on the way home.

(I knew I was dreaming but I didn't want to change the dream) I had been put into a team of 10 people around my age (15-17) and we was to live and work together our whole lives. When we did something good we gained skill points (Like on a game. '+1 Focus' for example.) As I got to know the people I was with (Never seen them in real life) it started to become more fun. In the group I was in, I was chosen to be the team leader as on the first day I protected the the entire group from getting attacked by ginormous frogs. These occurred as someone tried to gain points my going searching in a huge lake to take out an enemy. On his way back many of these gigantic frogs followed him without him seeing and was about to attack us. I took charge and instead of attacking these powerful frogs, I got them to listen and fed them which befriended them. This was where I gained my first point 'Bravery +1'. At this time of the dream I saw a girl in my dream that I liked.

A few days later I was with that girl which made the dream 100x better for me as I had feelings for her. I have never loved anyone as much as I loved the girl in the dream. The problem was, she may not even exist...

In conclusion, the dream after awakening, I decided that it was similar to films such as 'divergent' and 'Maze Runner' which is probably why I loved it so much.

+ hunt, chasing two animals, one a (rabbit?) with severed ears pumping blood; the member of the tribe who (harvested?) glass on the prairies, I see some glass crystals and point them out

+ [long!] follow car down hill, read its license plate, young tall blonde woman gets out near a gate, we must speak carefully because "they" are listening, I ask what's going on, she was driving to a conference and was captured and put to work. We're at a gate and there is some automated robotics that manipulate the controls to open the gate.

Inside down in a bunker a guy who's been there for a while is taking me to my workstation, he's bringing a big box and he's putting it under my desk next to my tower PC. I don't want it there because it will interfere with my feet when sitting under the desk. He's telling me how I need to physically turn off this box when I leave or else it will begin gathering information about me and feed it to "them".

I'm standing in a room with glass windows out to the outside, a rolling hillside. We're drinking beer? There is a distinct thin layer of fog at a particular elevation on the hill just outside the window and I point this out to the people there and watch it for a while.

In an outdoor garden with people, one guy we're with starts behaving really weird and foaming at the mouth and out of his hands. I say "what's going on with him?" Another guy says "he's (summoning? transforming into?) the (cucumber beast?)" The beast materializes on top of the fence running around this yard. This thing just needs to touch somebody, and that person immediately starts to disintegrate. I'm freaked out by that thing and I jump up in the air and levitate around watching the ground and calling out "is it gone yet?"

In CH walking in between dining room and living room, I know I'm still in captivity. I'm talking with my (cousin?) I'm back in the dining room and someone mentions the captivity and that it will be long and I freak out and start hopping back and forth from foot to foot and practically scream out, "I'LL BE OUT..." (OF HERE IN A MONTH I want to say) but I"m interrupted by someone loudly shouting "SHHHHHH!!!!!!" so that I don't speak so that the captives hear my plans.

wake
BTS

+ casino: I'm in a casino trying to get set up to play blackjack. It's pretty dark. I have a vague friend with me. There's a counter we're standing at at the end of a long room where they're setting up tables. My friend wants to watch the game on TV and is complaining that there's no TV in this room. He's being stupid I think because we've managed great conditions: only us two will be playing at this table. I tell him, "This is IDEAL for us!" hoping he gets the point but he is still unhappy and I repeat "This is IDEAL for us!". I see them setting up a table in front of us, small and straight/rectangular, and a bit below our level, not the usual kidney shaped BJ table.

Now I have a close up of the table in front of me pratically with my face in it and the dealer is standing to my right and haded me a dual pack of cards and I'm shuffling them, they don't perfectly shuffle together and I need to push them together with my hands. Then I'm handling my money. I'm handed two wrapped stacks of bills. I plan to play $5-$20 so I try to pull out about $100 in $20 bills but the bills sort of spread over the table. I ask for $5 chips. I get chips and I look at them and they are marked oddly, some of them are "$35" chips, and some of them are hand-written with wording and $35 written on them. I'm suspicious of them and ask about them.

Outside the casino there is a sign from the head of the casino about which games can be played by (card counters?), and which games they'll be killed if they try to play, I can't make much sense out of the sign.

+ intersection: I'm driving in traffic approaching an traffic signal. There is a building on the left that in an "L" shape. The traffic is think and I hope to make the light. As I get to the intersection the light turns red again and I see police waiting by the building to the left so I stop and wait. When I can go again I drive forwards and now I'm on a scooter and bank to the left and up against the short edge of the "L" part of the building around the corner so the police can't see me, I think this is probably not a legal parking place but I fit in here so easily that it should not be a problem. I see my wife out in the road and she walks a loop and comes to me.

+ LD#187. ...I'm out on the deck of my childhood home [major DREAM SIGN], it's dark/twilight, I come back in to the dining room through the sliding glass door and get the feeling/idea that I could enter the dream state by force of will, which I don't completely believe. I get a smile on my face and turn and run back out to the deck for in order to take of flying, now lucid. I stop at the railing and things are unstable. I'm flailing a bit for solidity and decide to put my face up close to the top of the railing and stare at it. I do this and it instantly comes into very bright, vivid, stable focus. "Whhoaaaa" I say as I look at the grain of the wood, and the "specks" of colored (sand) that are sprinkled around it. I remember my LD goal of looking down from the deck into the back yard, and I look over the railing. The yard is there at proper distance below me, but the ground looks "pixelated" with a frequent repeated computer-looking pattern/texture. I walk to the left towards the corner with my head still looking down to the garden. I think about standing up straight but I decide to keep my eyes on the garden below as I continue to the left. I see the wide brick stairs come into view. On each side of the steps are ceramic pots with plants growing in them. I notice how the perspective changes properly as I walk. The yard is super vivid. Then I reach the corner and look to see the lemon tree, and there it is right in front of me, bright green leafs and yellow lemons all over it. It is too close to the railing, I could almost touch it I think. Then suddenly, without looking away, it's seemingly gone, but I realize it has returned to its closer to waking position.

Content that I've done this goal I start walking without a plan back to the sliding glass door, and the idea strikes me to summon my college GF. I'm at the corner facing the house and I reach my right hand around the corner and don't look to my left and try to feel for DB taking my hand. I pull my hand back to me and look, at first I don't see anything but keep imagining that I see her and a girl appears in front of me. She's cute but doesn't look anything like DB. I will her to look like DB and try to bring up DB's face in my memory to install on the DC, but it doesn't work. I give up and decide this is DB. I step up to her and give her a nice solid kiss on the lips. As I pull back I notice that my father is to my right on the deck, a 40yo-50yo version of him. He's sort of dancing around in a silly way and leaning back and looking at us and he says "Heeewww! Heeeeewww!", I ignore him and turn my attention back to DB.

Spoiler for slightly sexy time:

I have DB up against the railing and I ask her "why didn't we have sex?" [when we were going out]? She responds something like "I made sure that we didn't." I say "well, why don't we have sex now, this is a dream!" and I unzip her top. I'm trying to get her legs open and bring out my (ahem) but she keeps crossing them

... and I wake up.

4/6/16
Dream 1: I was part of a space training program, in competition with my mum I think. We had to try and both land a space craft and then search through it to find bits and pieces. We then headed back to the command centre and watched our performance on the big TV's.

Dream 2: I was watching tv at my grandparents house.

Fragment: Something about being frozen solid.

Dream 3: I was at a giant theme park place with a few friends. We went on a cruise down a river, looking out across all of the different rides, then went to a giant shopping complex. Everyone there, including us, was dressed up in costumes, mostly of superheroes. We went into a book store and starting searching for books about ancient Greek mythology, but I think we got kicked out. We tried to sneak back in to get the book, but our plan was foiled. We then went out to a basketball court I think and started playing with some people.

3/6/16
Dream 1: I was reaching down to replace something with something else, there was something about a group of French people living in England.

Dream 2: I was waking down the street with two other people, I'm not sure who they were but I think one of them was a girl I was interested in.

First dream

For several days, I was driving by car to school. Once when I came back home, there was an utter mess inside. My family has visitors and everyone was preparing for brother's wedding. I saw that my pal looked like a known actor and wanted to make a photo with him, but I had to find something first. I took out a police officer suit and gave him. Mother wanted to make us a photo with a palm of her hand. Next day I was driving to school on a bike.

Second dream

It was a dark, rainy night. I was a vampire lord on a huge and wealthy, though a little rundown castle. I saw myself from third perspective - I had dark gray arms length hair, slightly gray skin and red eyes. I was wearing a purple-red nobleman suit. I was sitting in my study, when I sensed visitors. To remove suspicion I made a hotel in my castle. I went down a spiral staircase and saw a young couple. A man was taking their luggage while woman went to book a room. Then she told her partner to take luggage to their room.

I waited until he goes away and ran up to her. She was a tall blonde woman, wearing casual clothes. I could see from first person as it surely wasn't original part of dream plot. I caught her by arms, she tried to free herself. "Do you love him?" I asked and she said that yes. "Would you like to surprise him? I know a shortcut through this castle!" She agreed and I took her to another part of the castle, going through wealthy furnished chambers and dark corridors. I took her to a tower and opened a wardrobe, saying that it has power to bring her to her room.

She walked merrily inside. Darkness in the wardrobe was truly ominous, I laughed maniacally - flames shot from the wardrobe and demonic screams could be heard. After a while I said to myself "Just kidding..." She safely ended in her room. Going back through dark corridors I thought that they need more light. With my thoughts I invoked light. Each invocation sounded like I was burning up a torch. I tired to light a torch by shooting fire from my hands, which I did successfully.

I finally got to castles courtyard. Again I saw from third perspective. I looked at the sky and screamed, raising my hands a little. I summoned a thunderstorm, thunders stroke as I screamed. In the rain I ran towards main entrance and hid under cloaks hanging on the wall. I was crying, a butler came to say that I must go to my chamber. On the way I met another vampire and my mood got better. Together we entered my chamber, where vampire hunters were waiting for me. Together we unleashed our horrible powers against them, avoiding their holy magic. They got disintegrated, but my companion got destroyed in the end.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

I woke up from a non-lucid but my recall sucked from lack of sleep.