LD#13 DILD/WILD/OBE? Monday, 1/9/12 Bed 2am Before bed last night I read Waggoner’s Lucid dreaming book, I just finished it, as a matter of fact. Last pages deal with inducing DILDs via MILD. Formal and informal suggestions. I specifically paid attention to part from Castaneda’s book “The road to…”, how don Juan was telling him to look at his hands in his dream and Castaneda didn’t understand, how in the heck is he suppose to do it. So I looked at my hands while saying “tonight in my dream I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”. I also said this every time I woke up at night, and at WBTB. DR: 3am Lots of people, bunch of thoughts, activities about Lding WBTB 6am-7:50am LD - woke up from LD at 9:40am I was trying to WILD, but fell asleep before anything happened. I had quite a long dream before I somehow realized I’m dreaming. So this would be a DILD. But I didn’t look at my hands. I did finger/palm RC and it was the weirdest one so far. My thumb went in just half way into my palm before I stopped pushing, because it was so real. Not like a playdough in previous RCs. When I pulled my thumb out, there was a big wound that started to close up, I could swear, there was blood. Quite uncomfortable. But I also remember trying to roll out and levitate out at the same time and I remember hovering above my bed and not knowing how to stand up. That would be WILD/OBE. LD- I’m in a big, one story house. Lots of rooms, lots of people. It’s some kind of a trip. My mom is visiting, rest of the family has left. I tell her, we should go and do something, since she is the only one left visiting. There was a bunch of kids and cats. Someone put some chicken soup in the yard for their cats, so all the cats from neighborhood were hanging around the yard and inside the house. One kid got eye infection and we were like oh, great, not everybody will get it. I somehow realized I’m dreaming. I’m floating around in a house, propelling myself by touching furniture. Suddenly my left had gets stuck to the cabinet. I look, and the cabinet handle was just fixed with some strong glue. I have to pull my hand hard to get it free, it feels like skin from my thumb will peel off. I get to the room I was before and think about what to do, when I remember I wanted to look at my cats in OOB. I see both of them and they look normal. I squat down and call them. My boy starts hissing and backs away, but a kitten that I don’t know goes after my hand and wants to play. Then I’m outside. It’s night. I remember I wanted to go to the moon. But I also remember, that I have changed my mind and wanted to stay close and explore the city. I look up and there is the moon, tiny, behind a mist and is rapidly getting smaller until it disappears. I start flying around, bouncing of bushes and trees. Everything feels real, branches hitting me in face, and I can smell jasmine and see it’s small white flowers everywhere. Try to fly up but not much luck. There are 3 tree trunks, like a birch, but completely white. I try to fly to the top, propelling myself with my hands, but it’s not easy. I wake up.
I had a dream last night in which a giant, ibex-like horn grew from the left side of my skull. Whenever I tugged at it, my nose would start bleeding. Gratuitously. I was standing in a bathtub, and the last thing I recall before I woke up was that I was ankle-deep in my own blood, and that the torrent showed no signs of stopping. I can't remember if anything else happened, but I feel as though this is only a piece of the whole dream. I'm sure this has something to do with the sudden loss of a friend a few days ago. She didn't die, she just violently decided to end our friendship for reasons I've yet to learn. Hmm.
it started with me and a few ppl, z, haruko, lil c, judgement, asia and naota we were headed to this new philosophy school, we get there everythings nice and chill we get our classes, haruko and judgement have a class with me. well we get into the class and class starts the teacher ask me a physics question and i answer it without a problem or hesitation he asked me abunch of questions that i answered until the class was over then me, asia,z and haruko went outside asia got angry out of no where haruko and z chained her arms behind her back to the ground then asia went cray screaming and spitting fire out of her mouth then she calmed and got quite then i awoke.
10.01.2012 NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID Dream 1: It's late at night, I believe I'm near a gas station. I see a beautiful girl inside of a black car with her friend. She tells me to get in, but I'm a bit skeptical because I'm worrying about something else. The girl looks like the girl who said April Fools to me when she told me she had a crush on me in High School. So eventually she and her friend left and she's tells me, "Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee" with a smile on her face and such a kind tone to her. Then a Jeep shows up on my left and my father said I could drive it. Of course I have no experience in driving (well I do have some experience, but it was just driving a car in a huge oval near an empty parking lot near a school once or twice). He sets the vehicle to turn left, and I go in to drive it. I move up a little and he's in another vehicle. I think he tells me that I'm going to far and that other cars might bump into me, so I reverse the vehicle a little, but when too far. Then he leaves and goes to the right instead of showing me where to go. So I go left and stop at the light. Then I'm in another dream scenario where it's afternoon I believe and I'm driving the vehicle again and instead of pressing the brake, I'm holding on to the horn of the vehicle (basically honking to stop) and then I realize I'm on different vehicle (probably a bike but I couldn't tell). I had to stop it with slamming my feet (I had white shoes on) on the ground really hard. Then I think I had a another scenario where I'm riding and I meet a DC that looks like a guy I know IRL. Let's call him "Kevin." I go up to Kevin to see if he can help me with something, but I forget what it was exactly. Then when I'm riding I see him again, in a different outfit, and he's walking randomly on the grass. So I asked him another question that I cannot remember. (I forget what happens next from that part) Then the scenario changes again where I'm inside my apartment complex, and I tell a DC who looks like another person I knew IRL, let's call him "Av" instead of his full name. I told Av to go inside the vehicle and lock it. He starts saying that he has the keys and nothing bad will happen. Then a black female DC comes up near us and finally convinces the kid to comply with what I wanted him to do because I didn't want some random stranger breaking in the vehicle (I don't know why I didn't let "Av" come in and wait for me instead of putting him out in danger like that). I think her reason for him going inside and locking the vehicle was because there was an Auto repair shop, and said they could probably wire the vehicle if they could go in. All I remember for that one. I'm on Day 7 of the FIELD induction technique, I think it's helping me remember more of my dreams. Dream 2: I believe I was playing an MGS game again, or maybe it was me in the dream. Anyway, I see like two yellow metal containers that had an oblong shape to them. I see a guard coming out of the door, and I immediately hide to the backside of the area I'm in and watch him walk a little to the right and then forward to the containers. The setting was probably in a cold region (kind of like the part in MGS1 where you had to sneak outside in the cold of Shadow Moses) and it was dark too. There were also maybe 3 red small containers of the same shape as well, and since this felt like a video game, red most likely meant they were explosives. Then I decided to shoot one of the yellow containers, and apparently it spews out poison and acid, and it immediately kills the guard. His body vanishes just like when you kill a guard in MGS1 (it flashes a bit and then goes away). Another guard comes out and I shoot the last container when he gets close and he dies as well. I can't remember anything else from that dream. Dream 3: Apparently I'm on some forum, and Pam from The Office is bitching about something I'm doing on the forum. I forgot what it was specifically, and I think below her post was Itsuki from Yu Yu Hakusho hosting some IRC party. Dream 4: I'm inside a house, and a black dog with a brown fur on its stomach comes to me when I call it. I put my hands out for it to come, and it bites me, but it's not angry or anything, I think it was just playing with me and having fun. Then another dog is sleeping on a bed, and it has strings of balls up its butt (wtf) Too disturbing to explain, so pointless that dream was. Dream 5: I'm walking inside of a school, most likely High School because I saw a DC that looks like a principal of Cy-Lakes High School and a female athletics coach talking to each other. I was with a group of students and a fire alarm initiated. I forgot the response everyone had when that happened, I know I quickly went down the stairs, and I see the principal DC and the female with her say something about students being so wild over a fire alarm. As I go out, I wait for a small line of cars coming out of a parking station you had to pay for. One allows me to walk past them, but the next section, a bus or something like that just dashes through before I can keep walking. Dream 6: Hiei and Makuro are talking to each other like they did in episode 109 of Yu Yu Hakusho. But this seems to be after the tournament was over though, they were in a forest I think, and they were probably having another fight with each other. I think Makuro wanted to see how strong Hiei was (and consciously I was interested to see how strong he was too because in the actual episode, he did his most strongest technique, but wasn't able to kill Makuro because he couldn't fuel it with hatred anymore). I can't remember all of the details of the fight, but things start slow of course. Then Hiei gets a little more serious and suddenly is flash-stepping all over the place and Makuro is panicking and trying to keep up with his speed! Spoiler for Insight on Hiei and Makuro: (It's rare for her to do that because she was strong even at half her power in the series, and she was in her state where she left her past behind, because before, her rage and hatred made her one of the strongest demons, so no rage+hatred = half as strong as she was). (After Hiei broke the chains on her wrists (she couldn't break from them no matter what she did until Hiei attacked them with the Dragon of the Darkness Flame, she had this short burst of content and relief, and smirked). And when Hiei falls down, she catches him just before he hits the ground and hugs him. (It's a nice episode if you want to see how there can be love in war. Here's a link with the summary of the episode if you want to read it rather than watch it. http://morgan-d.net/guide/epis109.html Hiei then has a gold aura (he had a blue aura in the actual episode, yet I didn't notice that for some reason) forming around his body and Makuro gets serious and has red aura around her body too (I'm assuming it's red because in the actual fight it was ). Hiei charges up by putting parts of his body close together and releases these golden bursts of energy spikes at Makuro. I think Makuro's head is chopped off into a few pieces. I thought she was going to die, but she's still alive. She picks up the pieces of her head and re-attaches it. Hiei said he would never kill her, but he wouldn't mind licking the blood spewing out from her head. If I remember correctly, Hiei chopped off the head of the swordsman who gave him his third eye, while sacrificing his arm to do in the actual anime, and Makuro repaired both of their bodies as a reward for an interesting fight. Funny how my dream turn things around to where Makuro is the one getting part of her body chopped off.
Updated 01-11-2012 at 01:36 AM by 47756
M a y n a r d. But I'm going to be selfish and keep that part to myself. I really don't feel like explaining the entire dream, but there is one part that is bothering me. In the dream, my fiancee's ex-girlfriend came by while he was sleeping. Her hair was purple instead of blonde and she wore a strange hippie/hobo outfit that matched her hair. I didn't even know it was her until she started to leave. She came to the door and was trying to keep her head down while telling me to give 'these' to T. 'These' was a portfolio of paintings she had made and had wanted him to see. I asked her who she was and she just hurried off. Then I realized who it was and called her by name. She turned to look at me, but continued to leave. As I was standing in the doorway, I called T's name to wake him. She protested with a gesture and was gone. I went back inside and hesitated about opening the portfolio. I decided not to and laid it on the counter. I went off to one of the bedrooms. I was talking to someone (my ex I believe) but he actually looked and sounded like my fiancee. He was commenting on what just happened, saying, "that was weird." When I went back into the living room, the portfolio was torn to pieces. My "ex" picked up some pieces and said, "Wow, these are actually really good." I was scared. I hadn't expected my fiance to wake up so soon or what kind of reaction he would make. I wandered down the hallway after hearing his voice. He was talking real muffled and I thought it was him crying for a moment. He was in the bathtub and I peeked it. I felt bad for him and asked if he was okay. He directed all of his anger at me by shouting at me to leave. I began to cry. Then in the same dream, but much later, one of my REAL ex-boyfriends was trying to hook up with me. I don't know what this was all about, but I wish I hadn't had the dream about my fiancee's ex, those are ALWAYS bad for me. But, I think about my Maynard dream and smile.
My family and I were getting ready for the upcoming wedding of a family member (note: this wedding is upcoming IRL). My sister and I were trying to get dressed and pack our purses. I was in a state of stress because nothing was going well. I couldn't find my cell phone, my hair was unruly. For some reason, I was desperately scooping up potato chips and dip on the floor into a bag, as they were some kind of joke my sister had set up. I eventually found my phone, but it was low on power - how could I navigate to the venue without GPS in my car? Fortunately, a shared shuttle that looked like a cable car and contained some of my relatives stopped by, and we boarded. Later in (I think) the same dream, I was in my grandparents' house in a room with many beds. This is the same house my cousins and I would stay in when we were little. As an adult in the dream, I was much too large for my "bed," which was little more than a doll's wooden rocking crib. I woke up (from one dream) in this bed, and realized I'd split it in two. My cousin's weren't impressed. I stood up from the bed and realized I was dreaming. I hadn't performed a reality check of any sort. It just occurred to me that this wasn't reality. Once I realized it was a dream, the world spun and I did circles in place to stay asleep. It worked, and I continued with a few reality checks. First, I looked at my wedding band. It was there, and the metal wasn't shifting (my typical reality check), but I realized it was thinner in the dream than IRL. I wondered if it was actually a poor reality check after all and noted that I should think about it once awake. Next, I decided to fly, since I'd been having trouble doing so. I used the advice in the forums and simply assumed I could take to the air. And I did - for a moment, but then had trouble and started merely hovering. Boo. Some kind of demon or monster came up at this point and grabbed me. I told it to get lost, since this was a *lucid* dream, and if I couldn't even keep monsters at bay then I utterly sucked at lucid dreaming. The monster wasn't particularly scary, but he grabbed me and I was in a pool of water, so it was difficult to spin in place to keep the dream going. I managed to free myself and spin. I started thinking about the artistic possibility of this lucid dream, and my thoughts became temporarily lost in books I'd read, like the Wheel of Time series. I was in a long building with a high ceiling, and suddenly looked up. A beautiful, animated lightshow was happening on the ceiling. The entire surface seemed pixelated - made of blueish metal squares. But in clumps and shapes, rainbow-colored groups of pixels were bulging and sliding like a bioluminescent mushroom, sending waves of color through the whole ceiling. I watched the show for a moment, wondering how "surprises" and new images are conjured up in a dream that I'm aware of. After I'd looked long enough at the ceiling, I decided to try and improve my dream control. I decided to create the simplest of environments - a blue sky and black ground - to practice flying in. This environment started to come into view, but I struggled to sustain it, and eventually "woke up" into (I believe) another dream, in which I didn't realize was lucid and didn't remember.
I am with Jessica and we are at a baseball game looking for our seats, although it felt more like we were walking around inside of Costco. We are holding hands and walking with one another like we once did in waking life. We try to ask for help by showing our ticket to someone who works there, but it was no help. I try to bribe one of the workers to get us good seats by offering him a $20 bill. He is interested, but he could not deliver. The scenery changes and I am somewhere in the outdoors, like in a clearing in a forest. Jessica is in the scene but away from me. There are also now many more people. We are arranged in a big circle like a carousel, and Jessica is directly across the circle from me with her friend (Ellen?). Though I am facing straight at her, she is in the furthest position from me. Every one in the circle has a rope/branch they are holding on to that reaches into the sky and and appears to converge in the center, but does not seem to be connected to anything. The circle begins to spin and we are lifted airborne by holding onto the branch. This is similar to one of those rides at the carnival that spin around in circles. As we are spinning, my attention is focused on Jessica, who is directly across the circle from me. Directly next to me are some attractive girls. As we are spinning on this "ride" the girl next to me puts her legs around me and kisses my chest in a flirtatious kind of way. I enjoyed this but I notice that Jessica begins to get upset from seeing this. In this dream, she is still my girlfriend. I felt the intimacy and protectiveness that I had not experienced in a long time. The dream gave me a sense of nostalgia and made me miss my ex girlfriend.
Updated 01-11-2012 at 01:10 AM by 51288
Dreamt Monday 1/9/12. I only remember fragments I had a group of sea animals as friends. I could talk to them. But, somehow, someone stole my seal. He was a harp seal, speckled and fat. He was just an adolescent, shifting from a white fluffy infant into a slick, black adult. Someone wanted him for his pelt. I was panicked, trying to find him. I knew what demise he would meet if I couldn't save him. -- I was in the ship with him-- my spirit, not my body. It was filled with ice to keep him comfortable. My other sea creature friends had found him. There was a large whale beneath the ship. He vowed to save my seal. He rammed the freighter with his powerful body. Part of the hull burst and water came crashing in. My seal just sat there, waiting for the ship to sink so he could escape. Somehow I could communicate telepathically with my sea creature friends and I told the whale to not let the ship sink completely, because I didn't know where they were. To bring the ship into port so I could save my seal. I got into my car and drove to the nearest port. I "knew" it was Alaska or Canada-- the Northern area. I acted like I was waiting for a shipment. One of the port workers began to question me and I indicated I was waiting for an oil shipment. My whale friend let me know he was close. In my mind, I saw my seal pup frolicking in the ship. I knew the whale was carrying the half-sunken ship on his back into the port. However, for some reason, I lost my connection with my friends at that moment. I frantically began to look around the port. No ship came in. I was afraid. Worried. I couldn't contact my friends and I did not see the ship. The icy water was black and churning with malice. I could only imagine something had happened and my poor seal and his friends; downed by a loose wire or net on the sea floor by the port. It had been quite awhile that I waited and I began to retreat to my vehicle. As I walked by a little docking section, I noticed some children laughing. I looked down and saw some adolescent seals playing in the water. I ran to the dock and searched the waters. I couldn't hear or call to my friend. Suddenly, I saw my seal. He was there! I called out to him. He saw me and leapt up on to the dock. I began to sob uncontrollably as I hugged his icy, wet body. Most of his white fur had shed but he still had a thick, white line running diagonally across his forehead. This is how I recognized him. For some reason, I couldn't talk to him anymore telepathically, but that didn't matter. He was home.
Dreamt Saturday 1/7/12 It was morning. Still dark. It was cold. M and I were getting ready. The dogs were barking. I thought this was strange, since we lived on a dirt road. I saw headlights coming down the road. A car pulled in to our drive. There was a "Papa Johns" pizza sign on the car. I thought to myself, "They must be lost." I continued getting ready, curiously watching. M didn't seem concerned. I saw a man get out of the car (no more than a boy really) carrying a pizza bag. I held my breath and watched him walk to our front door. He didn't knock. He stood there. I was in the hall now, watching the door. I saw the knob turn. My stomach lurched. I whispered to M, "He's coming in..." In horror I slunk back in to the back room with M and we listened to the man creep into the house. I heard the car door open and shut and another set of feet on the gravel in the front. It wasn't but 5 seconds until he found us, but it felt like an eternity of waiting. He had a maniacal grin on his face and he muttered to us, "You won't be leaving this house alive." Somehow I knew that the bag he held didn't contain a pizza pie, but instead tools to hack us to bits. I immediately began searching for something to strike him with. I saw a younger woman enter the house as well. M had an axe in his hand and he began to fight with the man. I grabbed a lunge whip and hit the girl in the face. I was screaming at her; at them. When she went to scream back, I took the whip and shoved it in her mouth, then kept pushing until it was guided down her throat. She was choking and I was shoving her out of the house. M was closer to the door and I screamed for him. I ran out and started to climb up the side of the house toward the roof. The girl followed me. I turned around and rammed my right thumb into her eyeball. Blood spurt out and I just kept pushing as she screamed in a shrill voice of panic. I then kicked her down and started screaming for M to follow me. He and the man were out in the yard. M held the axe, waiting for the stranger to take the first step. I started crying for help. "PLEASE! HELP US! WE'RE BEING ATTACKED! PLEASE HELP US!!!" Dawn was breaking and I looked at the neighbors' homes. They were quiet; peaceful. They looked like no one was home. I continued to panic. M finally knocked the strange man down with the axe, then clambered up on the roof beside me and we held off the would-be invaders from getting up on the roof. -- Next thing I remember is the police pushing the two attackers into a police car. The neighbors were around us, asking if we were okay. I was dazed and confused. Uncle Les was there- he was telling me something. I can't remember what.
Last night was another variety of dreams. I first dreamed that it was a post apocolyptic world i think there were people hunting us. It kind of fluttered back and forth from that atmosphere to me being a bystandard in Star Wars Return of the Jedi.lol Dreams are gettting more memorable though, I am realizing that i almost always dream of things that i see during the previous day in extreme passing view. Nothing that i take more than a second to think about. only things that i happen to encounter and barely remember..hmm
Updated 01-11-2012 at 04:38 AM by 52266
I had barely any recollection of my dream when I woke up. All i remember was I was on campus at my school, and a new kid in 10th grade, TJ was there and he had crutches. I stole the crutches and started to hobble away through campus with them. I saw my friend Paul and looked over to see my friends Knox and Jake laughing at my crutches and then I woke up.
so i lay in bed listening to meditation sounds last night for around an hour, the when i turned off my MP3 player i began some WILD techniques and fell into a lucid even though this was a wild i did not notice i was dreaming as my dream began exactly where i hut SP. when i opened my eyes i was under the covers so i tried to pull these off my head but there was no end, i attempted the finger RC while i was lying there and just as i done it my fingers sprung away from each other. i kept changing the side i was lying on and got a bit fed up. as i started to think about waking up i also started thinking of spiders (i hate them) so i started paniking as i though "the more i think of them the chances are they will apear) so at this point i had a really big urge to wake up but couldnt. i knew i was lying in bed with my arm round my fiancee so i though i needed to shut my eyes shout her name and move frantically to get her attemtion, while i was moving the dream became really intense and i done the nose RC which worked, and i kept shouting her name, then i herd "Kev" so i shouted wake me up! she said kev again and my eyes opened. turns out i was lying in bed wrigling and moaning and she was woried so woke me up lol.
DJ Log: January 10, 2012 – 7:30AM (USA Eastern) • NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID • I am working at an industrial workstation in a large warehouse. There are pallet racks along the walls and each work station has some industrial shelving for storing supplies. I am working with another guy on some wireless electronics. One of the devices has an FM transmitter, but I find that I don’t have a radio at my work station to test it with. I walk over a couple of work stations to see if I can borrow a radio from one of the other guys. Two workstations away, there are 3 guys cutting some large PVC pipe into short sections. I ask if I can borrow their radio, and one of the guys reaches to the shelf and hands me a small radio. As I am walking back to my work station a large forklift drives by, carrying a load of pickle jars. I step out of the way so he can turn the corner, then return to my work station. The other guy messes around with the radio for a bit, but it doesn’t seem to be working. I leave my work station once again and go back to where the guys were cutting the pipe. Once I arrive, I find that they are trying to bolt a divider wall between two work stations, but the bolts are too short to reach through the metal and into the concrete anchor in the floor. I pick up a bolt and hold it beside the bracket to see that it is just a little short. I grab the bolt by the head in one hand. And grab the tip of the threaded end in the other hand. I pull at the bolt for a bit, trying to make it longer, but it refuses to increase in length. (Note: I think that I may have achieved a low level of lucidity at the point where I attempted to stretch the bolt. I watched the bolt intently, waiting for the metal to stretch, but it never did. If I would have seen the smallest amount of change in the bolt, it is likely that I would have become fully lucid.)
DJ Log: January 10, 2012 – 4:30AM (USA Eastern) • NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID • I am walking into a large parking garage, trying to find my friend. I walk in from the street level, and then take the stairs down to the lower level. I find nothing on that level, not even a car. I walk up the stairs and check each level, walking over to the elevator shaft in the center, but the entire garage is empty. I go back to the lower level and sit on the steps and wait. After a moment, I lean against the railing and fall asleep.
Goals: Went to sleep wanting to have some continuity with the demon slaying dream I had, or see Kaomea. I spent most of yesterday thinking about my dreaming life more than my waking. I remember being at some area and seeing BJ...it was the first time in forever. I don't think I've seen the guy since elementary, but we caught up briefly, and he was asking about what I was doing now a days and whens the last time I've seen x, y, and z. Then he asked me when was he going to get seen in the back. I told him if we skipped him our doctor would probably get fired, and our rules is to bump anyone with an emergency up before the non-emergent people....ugh...freaking ER dreams. I'm with D and we're at some warehouse...I remember walking barefoot all around this place. The area had water all over the ground and I was trying to avoid it. I don't know why I didn't have any shoes on, but there was a splattered rat on the ground that I wasn't sure if I stepped on or not. It also had tape worms in it.....ugh. Now we're at some store, and we need two huge bags of pineapples and one case of them. I have no idea what for. We take them, and I end up talking to some kids in the gaming section. There's this one game that's compatible with a remote control race care. And someone tells me there's a tournament that's going to be held there. I told them I might make it, and left. D was contemplating filling up his car with reserve fuel he had strapped underneath his car. I told him to go ahead, because the stuff that's out now at the moment is higher. The other D didn't want him to do it. I'm in a field...then I'm traveling around my block. I see some shrubs with onions growing on it. The people who live there have long moved out, but I tell myself not to grab them at the last second. I'm at my house with D and J...we're talking about ownership of a pool table. I tell them a false memory that this one girl who I dated left it there for me...so it was technically mine. We started playing this fighting game. One character had something about "rainbows" on her shirt, and she was supposed to be a grappler with easier moves. I know she had a suplex, and some move where she removed the entrails out of the character. But everything was looking real cartoony.
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