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I was so concerned about one of my guy-friends, knowing that he was dating a girl that might had ruined his life. I heard a lot of bad things about this girl. I loved my friend and I didn't want him to get hurt again. After the most painful breakup that he had experienced from his past girlfriend that made some changes to his attitudes which only me could notice, I never wanted him to experience that pain again. He was badly hurt when he realized the woman he loved so much only used him as a rebound to get even with her ex-boyfriend. He was willing to marry her but the girl left him to get back with her ex again – the man that she really loved. So sad that though my friend was so in love and faithful to her, this girl only played games with his heart only to make her ex realized that he was still in love with her.

Then, here came another woman that could make him to cry a river again. We, his friends had been trying to warn him about his new girl but he never listened to us. He even kept on defending her. He was too blind to see the truth for his strong desire over this woman. As a christian, I had got nothing else to do but to pray for my friend. And after a few nights of praying, I received an answer through a dream.

In my dream. The woman that he’s currently dating was crying. And she was chasing my friend while my friend kept on avoiding her. I really could feel how my friend felt in my dream. He was hurt and disappointed. He was mad and sad. I felt it all, too. He was so faithful to her but he discovered a skeleton in her closet that turned him off.

Two days after that dream, a big secret of this girl was revealed. There was a dirty old man who claimed to be the real boyfriend or the first in the line of my friend’s new girl. He was so furious and said the girl cheated her with my friend. But my friend didn’t know about this. All that he knew was that the woman loved him too and she was faithful to him when she actually was not. The old man also said that he had been sending out money to support her studies, etc. They were in a long-distance relationship. And for nine months being together, he already had sent almost a million dollar to this girl. He really loved this girl and he wanted to give the world to her. He said the girl promised him to marry him. This man sent a message to my friend through a micro-blogging site that said, “Tell your girlfriend that I want my money back.”

My friends and I were trying to defending my guy-friend and we told the old man that our friend didn’t know about him at all. And our friend, like him, was just another victim of this woman. He told us that it was not his intention to ruin my friend’s reputation. He just wanted our friend to know the kind of woman that they both loved. He admitted that he felt sorry for our friend.

The girl used the old man to get money easily while he used my friend to get the job she had always been dreaming of. My friend was so able to do it for her. She pretended that she really loved both my friend and the other guy for her own advantage. She’s indeed, “Best Actress in a Pretending Role”.

On the other hand, when my friend realized that he’s not the only man of his girl’s life, he decided to cut his relationship with the woman and to focus on his career for now. But yes, he was left with his heart broken into pieces again. The latest thing I heard about the girl is that she's dating a another millionaire that she can have in her hands from her new man.

April 25, 2015

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My New Mommy
I was in class with the kids but we were in this weird room. I sat in the corner with my computer, and I greeted the kids as they came in because the door was right in my corner. I remember that the room was made with light wooden floors and walls, and was very open to the outside; there were big windows. We all had on headphones with microphones that were all connected, so all we could hear was each other. I was checking kids' papers (we did research papers) and sources. M and T had the same source for their paper about women's suffrage. I walked around a little more and then sat down and turned on my headphones. K said "if i loose my mom and I'm all tragic will you be my new mommy Ms. Kestrel?" And I pretended I didn't hear it, because I wasn't sure what an appropriate response would be...

I was with K, T and M later at recess or something and we walked around the back of the school. There were interesting stairs and weird structures so I climbed the stairs and came to a pretty hill overlooking an orchard of sorts with some forested areas surrounding it. It was sunset and very pretty. It reminded me a lot of the space Zukin and I found in Germany while biking one day.



The Next Level Cult

I was in some kind of survival game, or a spiritual/intuition test. A bunch of people were let into a big room with about 7 holes in the ceiling and ladders hanging down from them. We had to pick one of the ladders to go through. N (one of my students) was there but I don think I recognized anyone else. He was trying to reach one of the ladders but couldn't because he was too small. I lifted him up to it and then went to a spot where two ladders were in the far left corner. Almost everyone was choosing the ladder that had a platform to reach it, but something drew me to the other one. It wasn't a lot harder to get to or anything, so I didn't know why everyone was going up the other one. I had to fenangle just a little bit to reach it, and climbed up...

I came up into another room with a really tall ceiling. There was also some ledges. It was as if the room before had a huge box over it, if that makes sense. There was a very short (maybe a foot tall) fence down the middle of the room, which was made of spaghetti, or something else that wasn't all that strong. There were about 15-20 people on my side and lots of people on the other side. There was a voice through a speaker somewhere. It told us that anyone who tried to cross the fence in the middle would be thrown off the edge, into something deadly... The voice also told everyone on the other side of the room to go back home. Then the guy in charge of this event came up the ladder on our side, and greeted us as people who had good intuition. The ladder test was to weed out the people whose intuition wasn't good enough for the following tests and trials.

We all sat in a circle and he explained the point of this all to us. He said we would be feasting tonight... he was sitting between me and a guy I had met and been chatting to, and he seemed to be favoring us, like talking mostly to us, or at least looking at us more. Anyway, he said we'd be feasting and then looked right at me, ran his hand down my back to my waist. "Feasting," he repeated and I was just like "No." Very firmly.

He seemed put off but in a good way, as if I had impressed him, and moved to the girl sitting next to me and said "feasting?" She said hesitantly no. He tried a few more girls and then said something about us "not liking vampires too, I guess." I rolled my eyes and we were all thinking, ugh, Twilight. The Master said, "well, I mean, I read the first books." I had to confess that I had as well in high school. Then he talked about Bella birthing Renesme and this is where it got even weirder... He got on the floor and spread his legs, pretending to be giving birth, scooting around on the floor on his butt and making weird faces. "You'd pay to see that, right?!" We were all a little disconcerted. "Right?!" He was a little crazed here, and then he zeroed in on me again which made me feel super uncomfortable. It was as if he was targeting me more now, and planned to get me pregnant, then keep everyone here for 9 months to watch me have his baby... That or like he knew I was already pregnant or something. I was starting to think this guy was an insane creep... But this test was somehow important to complete.

We moved on to a new conversation though I can't remember the topic. I know that we broke off to do a series of tests but that whenever the Master stood up and held out his hands we were to create a linked circle. It got more and more cultish. Eventually we ended up at my house; we were competing in my driveway. One of us had a little chocolate-ish blob and the other was supposed to try to squish it. I was partnered with H (one of my students) who had just appeared there. H's blob started going down the driveway hill and I was able to pretty easily squish it, so I won and started up the driveway again. It had been all nice and warm and spring-like, but once I got to the top of the driveway, in front of the garage, there was snow on the ground. I was walking through it barefoot (we were all wearing barely anything by now; short shorts and tank tops with hair pulled up) and then the Master threw snow at me and it got in my left ear. He started throwing snow at all of us, and we weren't quite sure what to do about it. None of us were sure whether this guy was a mad creep or a genius.

I went into the porch but noticed a circle gathering in the garage, so I dropped my stuff and went to join the circle. We were all standing. The Master was standing opposite me and said, "everyone sit down." But even though i heard him clearly, at the same time there was a crystal clear, loud, strong voice in my left ear that said "Don't. Move." So I stayed standing. 3 or 4 other people stayed standing and the rest were sitting. All the sitting people closed their eyes and seemed to be asleep. The Master looked at each of us (one of them was the guy I met at the beginning and had a slight crush on) and was about to give further instructions (I knew now that I had passed some sort of spiritual or other-worldly test... I had been chosen, but I don't know what for) but I woke up.

It's strange, because I think I was in and out of waking throughout this whole dream. Like, I knew I was awake in bed even as I was in the dream. Two places at once, almost. It was strange.

1. I was outside of a huge facility. My dad and my friend John were with me. The entire outside of this facility was constructed of concrete. The sky was covered by huge thunderstorm clouds and rain was falling extremely heavy along with lightning. There is so much rain that the concrete I am standing on looks shiny and shows my reflection. Me, my dad, and John are all just walking around this facility and just chilling. Suddenly we all hear an extremely loud growl that doesn't sound human at all. I walk around a corner and sprinting towards me I see a giant 10 foot tall monster. This monster has gray skin, two bull horns, and red eyes, and its naked. This monsters legs are huge too, like he loved doing leg day. It looked as though he could easily squat at least a ton.
I immediately turn around because I do not want to be killed by this thing, and I start sprinting towards my dad and John. I turn the corner I came around before and start yelling at them, "He's coming, he's coming!!" in the hope that they realize that I wouldn't be running away from something if it weren't good. We are run the opposite direction of this beast, but he is catching up fast. All the while the thunderstorm above us is still going super strong. We turn another corner of the facility and we find a door to the inside. We open this door and run inside and close the door behind us. In this room, there are machines and all sorts of utilities everywhere. The lights are off and there is no other light in this room except for a red glow coming from two corners of this room.
We wait silently, but this monster isn't stupid. We can hear his giant footsteps quickly getting nearer. Right as the sound of the monsters footsteps get to the door of the facility, they stop. "Whew, that was a close one" I think to myself. But the monster isn't stupid. Suddenly he rips off the door to the room we are all in from the outside. Somehow we run out the door past the monster without him catching us. It's as though extreme luck was with us at that moment. Now the chase continues and we sprint away from the monster once more, except this time, the monster has someone else by his side: A small yellow hairless alien that runs on all fours like a monkey does.
Somehow, the monster and the alien catch up fast and they catch me. The monster grabs my body and kills me instantly. I then wake up in waking life.

The dreams I had just barely slipped out of my mind earlier today :/.

I've been slacking off in daily reality checks and general awareness these past few days. I gotta step it up.