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I don't usually have food dreams. It mighta been because I just found out you can taste food in a dream?? Nah whatever. I accept. Mundane life. Actually that's what I wanted to see more of in my dreams.

3/25
i remember making a peanut butter sandwich and showing people. I was saying how i used to do this as a kid in class, like the teacher would ask me what I’m doing and I’d say “making a peanut butter sandwich” (in my lap, trying to be discreet). They all thought it was funny so i kept going until I made and showed them one.

I don’t remember anything else. Green and Narli an old friend maybe couches and movies like trying to get there?

I did go to sleep drunk too, and something else on barbs birthday at red tent.

3/26

I forget the first dream. For some reason I keep thinking of batman. But it was something else.

It’s weird coz I woke up remembering that one and it led to remembering the one after.

Something to do with Ciera, this girl I live with?

It ended with me on the phone in arizona trying to make a dominio’s order and see if they were still there (I used to work there). Then I thought, ‘why don’t I just go there’? It’s a 3 minute walk.

Me and my sister are there. It looks different. The colors are the same. There’re more things, more room. I ask about it and they said something about a lot of money being put into the store, so I guess it got more successful after I left. I wonder what happened to the manager Ben. I kinda figure it was too much stress eventually. Teenage Taylor still works there. She might look older but not significantly. Kinda more modely but still her. She says that his working with me stressed him out. I’m kind of surprised. Me? I had my problems but I wasn’t that bad. I was even on-call sometimes. Then she added that he was using her secondlife. (she mighta said fet but it was in reference to 2ndlife the online game thing I’ve never really played but know a little about just how people talk about it). I got confused and in that she asked if I had seen her youtube channel and I didn’t know she had one. She looked disappointed and I said “oh! so ben is on secondlife and you have a youtube channel” and she answered in the affirmative and looked pleased, but I still hadn’t known she had a youtube, but it looked like I knew more than it seemed.

Helen was being really social and friendly with everyone and vice versa as fits her personality. I’m not like that and was awkward and wondering what to say. But Helen made it easier and things happened. There were these vending machine type things for soda and a hook-grab-the-stuffed-toy game, and three were connected. One guy showed us a trick where he opened the glass door to the stuffed toy game to grab a soda from the other machine. It was supposed to be locked was the point coz otherwise you could just get a free toy. He said that was his secret basically and it was really funny, and something about the machines being shaped like that (slanty, squatter) coz of this old lady, but don’t tell her that. Maybe she complained or something and they beat her to the punch, idk, can’t tell.

Well, we’d ordered a pan pizza with feta, sausage, and bacon, and garlic on the edge. I had been trying to find out specials on the phone and it was confusing I think, and agreed to something. I was waiting for the pizza and the third time of wondering it arrived,(i think a pc screen apeared, but they also said our orderr sorta) and Helen had been pouring this hot sauce type into a liquid measuring cup. I had been wondering about the garlic sauce and how to get it or ask. Now I wondered how that would help her – cool, she can do it casually like that while talking like nothing is wrong but where are you going to put it since we are going home? On top of the pizza? No. Then the pizza is here and we open it and it looks like the sausage is there? I try a piece – but the bacon and feta might not be. So it just takes like this cheese pizza and I had been worried I wouldn’t like dominos food anymore since I started eating healthier, and it looks like it’s definitely true. But they had also gotten my order wrong. But anyway, helen started pouring SALSA on the edges of the pizza and I’m like “What! Why are you doing that?! We were going to put garlic sauce!” and she says “Oh, what is this?!” and I say “Salsa! Now what do we put the garlic sauce on? In the middle…??” and I’m like mmarrgh and take this circle bit from the middle and put garlic sauce on it and try it and I think I go into this cylindrical tunnel and wake up.

WTF. But helen is great. The domino employees – I couldn’t see their faces really. White guys.

Thu, 26 Mar 2015:
*** short LD x2 + WILD=No.300!!!! 1030pm quick bts@1240am wbtb recording dream only but took at while @420am (5h50) first awakening @1240 had some vague recall of ideas. Decided not enough to use for bts visualizing and didn't record.


420am wake from an "I was just there" dream. Facility similar to SD in C(25 minutes W NW) or one of my past workplaces. End with helping special needs adult who was with C from work section near mailroom and a little girl. Actually before the facility we are in a store like Target or Kmart and I'm there with I think my #Dad and #Brother. My brother is pushing a shopping cart also and a little fast and draws the attention of a manager that is up on a platform about 1 story higher. I notice this and motion like I am telling my brother to act right and get the manager to back off.

This transitions shortly after to me driving outside the aforementioned facility and was going to park in front of the main entrance and use my badge to get something I forgot inside. I don't want that manager guy (mixing the work facility with the store) to come though so I look for another place to park more out sight and get further from entrance trying to find an actual parking spot almost parking in an area that was painted off with gray border that I decided meant "no parking."

Eventually park to the left of there and I think I hear employees coming out at the end of their shift. I think about heading to my car but they will wonder why i am out here. Now I need to hide behind a crop of shrubs and small trees on a small hill above the parking area and there is a trail off to my left that I later realize has a fork that runs right behind me as well. At first it looks like some will walk towards the couple of cars in the lot below and others off to my left walking towards perhaps the train station but cut over to the fork towards me and see my feet sticking out from my hiding spot as I lay belly down on the ground looking around at where everyone is heading. When they find me it seems both groups have converged on me and I'm discovered and get up. My story is that I was going to surprise someone. "Who?" They ask like they are interested in who has a secret admirer or something. "It depends on who came by" being vague or secretive they might figure.

Talking with the ladies, I see an ID picture of C (mentioned at beginning) and this transitions to me indoors with her a little older and a little girl maybe 5 and a special needs adult. C asks the little girl to come with her while she goes to the bathroom outside(?) in case she needs to call for help and I tell the little girl who looks maybe half Black and Hispanic "yes just come back here and knock on the door like so and I can help." During this I am having a bit of a challenge keeping the special needs person from falling over holding onto him(?) as he leans various ways but mostly backwards while he is putting on his shoes or something. 5am finish typing on my phone (quieter). time flew by though.

***League game, Mom, DEILD
I'm getting ready for a game and the game before us that seems to have implications on who we might play in the playoffs. it seems the underdog won tonight...could affect our playoffs. Oh no I think I'm not fully suited up yet and I look up and some guys are playing Basketball and my teammates are all gone and I realize that I'm dreaming. I float up a little bit in the gymnasium before waking up. On waking this reminds me to check status of playoffs and related email when i get up later. 298


I'm in the car with my mom who's driving and the road looks a little strange as I look closer it looks like the road has been taken out by some disaster but there's still a strip of it left and I ask my mom if we are sleeping and then I realize yes this is just a dream. I float up out of the car a bit before waking. 299

Yesterday I was thinking how I have shortchanged my LD count in the past whenever I had a really short LD often not counting them but I decided that was not right…so I counted those last two but will not make any adjustments to past counting…too much trouble and probably not very significant.

Trying to get in a super comfortable position after my wife leaves and has set the alarm I am determined to get back to lucid dreaming and hold on to it for number three hundred! Not a super impressive lucid dream but it was much longer than those last two and I achieved my first WILD in a little while! (FM and CL if reading: still no G yet, only apple juice but may try soon). I am very happy with how my overall wild transition went seemingly never losing consciousness as well. I was getting significant HI's (just imagery). Even reposition myself somewhat slightly and get back to the HI's. In the sequence that led to the dream entry it started with a white shape, somewhat complex, on a black background. It was like a morphing white circle with some gashes cut into it mostly along the right and bottom making the white parts in that section look like curved knives. Mentally reminded myself to only observe it passively but in retrospect I think I was already fully in a dream based on the next sequence and the stability of the white on black HI.

In the next sequence I am looking at a movie screen size and shaped image forming in front of me taking up most of my field of view with just blackness on the edges, formed from the previous white circle on black, and I start to get imagery that I thought was coming from my waking life eyes of the wall that I'm facing towards, from my position in bed...but I see that if I keep my eyes just a sliver open that I can continue to see the imagery and block out the view from my room. this was all part of the dream however because I realized that I'm still wearing my sleep mask and I would not be able to see the wall in my room at all.

I come more and more into the image and eventually I'm fully in the scene but it is not clear yet. I stay patient and before long I am in a beautiful sunny daytime scene with green grass and houses and a wall nearby that I go for, to rub on the cement wall to stabilize the visuals. It works. I float up a little bit but then I decide to land.

There are a lot of people around now and I'm checking out the DC's. I walk up to one group and at first they look at me curiously but then look absolutely terrified and run off! This is not something I've seen since purposely trying to scare DC's. Interesting. I see more people whose path I'm going to cross and as we approach each other the same thing happens, they look terrified!

I see a restaurant whose whole front wall is all big glass windows, so you can see inside and it looks like it is full, hosting a busy party with DJ lights despite being daytime outside it looks a little darker in there. It has an interesting symbol on the outside that gives me the impression that it is Asian Restaurant of some kind. I make my way towards the restaurant passing a few other terrified groups of DC's and I stand outside the door thinking about what I want to do next and I decide to go in, it could be interesting. As I go in the visuals start to fade but I remain calm and I can still make out shapes of people moving around and eventually decide to walk back outside the restaurant and observe from the outside where had no issues.

Eventually I got down on the ground laying on my stomach with my head propped up on both my hands, my elbows on the ground and just watched what was going on around me in wonder. After a while I could feel a little pressure on my left shoulder and was feeling like it was my waking life shoulder tired from laying on my side but I was able to shift back to my dream body and feel myself completely off of that sore shoulder and back on my stomach with my head propped up by my two hands, elbows on the ground which was a weird shift in orientation from side laying to a more upright straight on forward position. Eventually focus shifted back to my sleeping body and my shoulder who wanted me to turn over into a more comfortable position and I transition completely to my waking body and woke up smiling big and turned over to my other side! No.300

Side notes: RC's had more impact yesterday after the LD where I almost couldn't believe I was dreaming and felt totally awake. I did drink 6oz of apple juice this night a little after 9pm, after one night off from apple juice and 10 days or more off before the two nights before that. AJ always seems to help with vividness and putting me "there." This is also the 3rd night in a row with LD's and 3rd night in a row where my only focus during wbtb was on recall. Upon btb I am only visualizing becoming lucid in the previous dreams. No mantras or SSILD. I have also been better about checking off any daytime worries or thoughts quickly and getting back to dreamy thoughts.

Wed, 25 Mar 2015:
1am(late game) 545 (4h45) skip apple juice not expecting much opportunity after tiring game. My #brother, #mom and #dad all #exchanging #gifts. Some gift that has been great for something since some past time period. Spending $90 for a gift seems like an odd amount and if it came up more than once.


Ex KM's family, her mom was taking a rest after hosting me and now I am talking to P, ex's brother. It is great to see them. Occasion? Recalling if a trip dream sign involved: feels right.


* this feels too real! But we're totally awake! These were the feelings when I started to question the dream when I start to question if I was dreaming! I'm with my wife and she is driving into like a grocery store parking lot and she tries to pull into one space but I say that that car is just pulled in really far and there's a car in front of him so there's already 2 cars head to head and you can't park there. another car is moving a little bit so we think he's about to pull through but no he's just adjusting his space and I also interact with one of the drivers who seems to be apologizing and I say no worries . We eventually go around and park down one of the aisles a bit further away from the store but as we walk back we see there are now three spaces close and for some reason we decide to move the car. It seems like we're in then the truck today. As we walk back to the car/truck I tell my wife I don't think it was this far down but she says yes we parked all the way over by such and such. but now we're walking out of the parking lot and down the strip of stores on the main street and she says "through here" and it's an old decrepit fabric store, looks like it's been shut down but maybe you can go through back into the parking lot from here. I'm looking at it and my wife is so willingly going in through this way that I start to doubt that maybe this is a dream. She is so clean-conscious and this place looks dirty that she would be worried about cleanliness plus it doesn't look very safe. but this feels so real this can't be a dream. I looked down at my hands to RC and I have trouble seeing my hand clearly but I keep looking and eventually I can see six fingers and I realize I'm dreaming! I start rubbing my hands together to get the visuals going stronger and the friction between my hands feels so real! That feels too real but yes I am dreaming! now I'm by myself in what looks more like the layout of a house and there are 4 bedroom doors or what I assume are bedroom doors and I go to them one by one opening them seeing what's inside by the time I get to the second one I'm already thinking about Girl Friday but nothing in the second or third room. so outside the fourth room I say Girl Friday will definitely be in there and I open it up and it looks like just an empty bed with a lot of big blankets on top and I tell myself oh yes she is definitely under those blankets and as I go to the bed and start to pull back the blankets the visuals start fading but I stay confident and calm and reach under the sheets expecting to feel her warm body and sure enough I feel her warmth and then her body and the visual start coming back. I tell her how she's been expecting me, and we are so happy to see each other and I start kissing her. we kiss for quite a while and I feel something a little bit strange with one of her teeth and I pull back to take a look and it is a small chip out of one of her front teeth it looks like she's a bit self conscious about it and to keep this realistic and like a real experience I tell her it's fine it looks very cute and that I actually have a small chip in one of my teeth as well.

Spoiler for sexual content:

I pull up her shirt and look at her beautiful breasts after having only reached under there caressing them previously while kissing.

I then start to get up to take off my clothes and I think about the conversation on DV in the Lucid sex thread and I try to rip off my clothes in one swoop of my hand but I have to actually pull them off this time! I also told girl Friday to remove her shorts and her top completely while I'm undressing and she looks so gorgeous laying there!! She is lying on her back

Spoiler for sexual content:

with her breasts compressed back little bit due to the "gravity" but they are so nicely shaped and perfect and her ahem looks so inviting with just the right amount of hair! as I crawl into position to make love to her I do

Spoiler for possible schema poison side notes but with explanation to shoot down such schema:

start to wake up and I can feel myself actually back in bed but I try to deild. But I'm too awake now too late in the morning and I know that like so many times before I can definitely have sex and stay in the dream! This one was just the end of REM and we interacted for quite a while!

No.297


No apple juice, continuation of the "switch" in my mind allowing me lucid dreams and that they don't have to preclude taking care of my business, better day practices, late night after my game, but the key may have been being able to sleep in this morning that's when the lucid dream happened before waking about 9:20 a.m. Late to bed and late to rise does also seem to help in the past. Possibly just changing sleeping schedule what helps possibly? *Also, this dream reminded me that any moment could be a dream and made my RC's have more impact the day I woke up from this LD.

I only remember a dark place with a white sign, and a truck, car or a bus.
I think 2 other people were at the place, or else it was me and another.
1 of them or were getting teached to drive or something.

Red text means I'm not entirely sure that this is true, but I think it is.

The dream was pretty frightening at first. The city was purge based sorta, crime was running rampant and I was stuck inside a "bugged" restaurant with several other DCs that I don't know in real life. The manager of the restaurant (My mom??) closed it down when she was alerted that the street was in chaos. We were in total lock down mode, so we decided to stay as quiet as possible in the unlit restaurant.

Then out of nowhere, these criminals break through the doors and start killing everyone including my mom. At this point in time I scream then end up waking up briefly. I closed my eyes as soon as the dream had ended. I remember the V-WILD technique and I give it a go by focusing all my attention/visualization on the previous dream I had. Within seconds I feel intense vibrations throughout my whole body, then I feel my dream body begin to move to my command.

A minute or so later I find myself in the same dream region I was in minutes ago, completely aware that this is all a very realistic feeling dream. The criminals break through the door again and I do the coolest thing! I teleport to a group of them and completely demolish every single one of them, hitting them so hard they fly through buildings. For a few minutes I just sort of experiment and use my imagination to it's fullest, shooting criminals with energy blasts fires and so on.

But I somehow lost consciousness throughout that whole thing

We were riding robots. There were missiles. I or someone else (a female) controlling a robot was fighting three enemy robots. She had to escape but was surrounded. Then she shot a missile. The enemies thought it will explode for damage but turned out it's a shroud (of sand?). She hid and escaped while they're blinded, but one of them is capable of outrunning her.

I was in a factory with slanted glass windows so that whoever is on the upper floors can look down the ground level.

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- Listened to some OBE audio with no words.

So... in this dream I was driving a car from the backseat as if it was normal. Then the police stopped me and I freaked out a little, realizing that this was probably illegal. The whole weirdness of the situation made me do a nose pinch reality check, and the policemen (there were 2 but I only properly saw the face of 1) gave me a strange look. I didn't believe this was not a dream so I did another nose-pinch reality check, this time it worked and I knew I was dreaming. Now the policemen gave me an oddly satisfied look and then the scene switched, and I was suddenly in some kind of artificial cavern underground, though natural light came in through places in the ceiling. I spent the rest of the dream really taking in the details touching and manipulating the sand on the ground, appreciating how real everything felt.

I was in the school cloakroom. I went out of the room, only to find that the cloakroom is placed in my courtyard. I took a short walk, only to find that there are two ogres waiting for me. Green, fat and tall creatures with huge, bulging muscles. They had two fangs going out of their mouths, and they were wearing viking-alike armor.

I immediately started to run away. I tried to fly away, but all I could do was jump. I jumped up to the rooftop of my fathers carpentry workshop, and started to run. When I was close to the edge of the rooftop, one of the ogres jumpd up on the roof. I reacted quickly and jumped across the whole courtyard, to another rooftop. I ran towards the edge, and in the right moment I jumped down to the courtyard.

The ogres knew where I would land, one of them have readied a punch for me. I didn't wanted to lose with them, so I made a gesture mid air. When close to the ground, I muttered Power word! and I could hear a gravely voice saying Isthaar. The effect was doubled by echo. The ogres disappeared, but one of them managed to punch me in my left leg in the last moment.

The pain wasn't so strong, but I somehow it spread from the leg, to whole left side of the body. After a while it ceased. Suddenly something exploded in the nearby building, probably in the cloakroom. Classmates appeared and asked what happened. They somehow ignored me saying that there were two ogres set loose, and that I beated them.

I decided to go to the cloakroom, but before I entered the building, I heard classmates saying that they are making up a conspiracy against me. I decided to act as if nothing happened. I entered the room, but I've fallen to the ground. I have felt how my body hit the tiled floor. The head took the most force of the impact. I lied for a while on the cold tiles.

The classmates told that the conspiracy is becoming much stronger. Again I tried to not express that I know about it. I stood near the door. Suddenly one of the classmates pushed me, and I fallen to the cold floor. I lied for a while, and waited until all the classmates enter the cloakroom.

When they were inside, I stood up, right in the moment when they were talking about the conspiracy. I grabbed hand of one of the girls, and shouted And you are against me too?!!! I looked around. Everyone thought that I'm crazy, and looked at me as if I was an idiot. Enraged I went away.

The cloakroom opened into toilet room, with a few of the cabins. I took the door outside. There was a desert. I couldn't see too much, as the horizon was covered by ominous darkness. I decided to go back, and entered one of the toilet cabins. I thought that it was a night, so I tried to fall asleep.

I lied in the cabin. I closed my eyes. After a while I heard singing birds. I immediately went outside. The darkness disappeared, revealing the whole desert. The cloakroom was standing on some kind of small penninsula.

There was an old wooden fence close to the shore. The water had deep blue colour. I saw a huge boat, floating on the horizon. I felt that everything that I see now is just beautifull. I looked to the desert. Everything changed, and I saw that it looked like an old video game.

The sky turned blue, and then red. It did it a few times. When I tried to go away from the building, I felt strong heat. I wanted to enter the cloakroom, but I changed my mind, and ran away to the desert. After a while the heat stopped, and sky came back to normal.

Suddenly I heard voice telling I can help you. Run! Somehow I knew that I couldn't fully trust this voice, and I knew that it was of a lizard-like origin. I decided to follow it's advices and see where I'll end. The desert slowly changed to savanna and temperate forests on the high elevations.

When close to one of the mountains I heard the voice again I have a castle close. You can rest there. I saw that there was a rectanguar room carved within rock. I jumped op onto one of the stone blocks, and saw that the place was full of rock coffins, filled with eartg. There were skeletons going out of the earth.

Disgusted and frightened I ran away, towards another mountain. I started to climp all the way up. I did it slowly, and took some object from there. I heard voices from the ground, some primary school students were playing there.

*During the dream I could impose my will on many of my moves, though I couldn't take full control over it and the dream scenario; my perception abilities were also stronger than in most of NLD's. (such thing happens a lot to me). Don't know if I can call this a lucid dream, as I haven't realised that I'm inside a dream world during the dream, and partially controled parts of it.*

1. I was walking through a grocery store, when suddenly I become Lucid. I take a moment and look around my real quick. This store is full of people of every ethnicity, and you can easily tell that its packed. The floor is covered with a white glossy tile and the walls of this store are a dark red-orange. I look from one end of the store to the other end and I realize just how big this place is. I then remember what I wanted to do; find a certain Dream Character. I start walking down all of the aisles trying to find this person, but I can't find them. I seem to have not realized that I have total control of the dream.
I continue to search down each aisle. After a while though I stop my searching. I take a deep breath and take in all of my surroundings again. I look at all of the dream characters' faces as they pass by. Everything seems so real. I clap my hands really loudly just to stabilize myself. I decide to try something out: I'm going to take my pants off and walk around the entire store to see if anyone reacts. I slip off my shoes, and then I take off my pants and for some reason I was wearing a belt so I take that off too. I then proceed to walk around the entire store. Contrary to what I expected, no one really seems to care that I am walking around with my pants off, not even the store employees.
I walk all the way to the other end of the store and not a single person seems to notice. As I get to the other side of the store I go over to the bakery section. Here, many women are making all sorts of pizzas and other oven baked things. As I approach them, I can feel how hot the ovens are in the back, and I'm feet away from them. Suddenly I see my mom walk towards me from the back of this oven room. "What, how did she get in there?" I think to myself, still lucid though. She starts to walk around in the section where all of the ovens are and she looks for a certain pizza. After some time of looking for this pizza, she walks over to me. "What are you doing my son?" she asks. "Nothing, but I do want to try on this shirt" I say for a reason I don't know.
"What happened to your pants?" she asks again. "I lost them somewhere" I tell her. She then walks with me over to the clothing section. Once we get over to this section, the floor is covered in a blue carpet. I start looking for a shirt I want to try on. I find a nice t-shirt with a frocket on it and so I grab it. A lady passing by asks us how everything is going, and we tell her we are doing fine, just searching for some clothes. "Oh that's good, you might want to try them on" she says. I then walk over to the mirror and try the shirt on. I laugh at myself as I realize that my pants are still gone and I only have my boxers and socks on. The shirt seems to big, but I feel that it would look good with my pants on.
At this point I have lost lucidity because I went along with the dream too much. I wake up into a false awakening. I get up out of my bed and notice that it is daytime because I can see daylight coming into my room through my windows. I start to walk to my closed door when suddenly I get a strong urge to sneeze. I stop and then sneeze two times really loud. As I do so, I hear my sister say "bless you!!" from her room. I found this odd since my door was closed. I then hear my mom open her bedroom door and say, "Kayla be quiet, you are way too loud! Shut up!". How ironic since my sneeze was louder than my sister.
I then turn around deciding not to open the door to my heated mother. As I do so, I notice on the ground to the immediate right of my bed, two black ipod nano's. I go over to them and kneel down in front of them. I pick both of them up and the first thing I realize is, "Wow, you thought I wouldn't notice did you? I know that I don't have two of the same I-pods. I only have one" I say to the dream itself with a smirk on my face. I am now lucid but my alarm in real life goes off and I wake up.

Not too impressive, but just coming back from 11 day dry spell…Got a nice Girl Friday dream the next night.
(Morning of) Tue, 24 Mar 2015:
Apple juice again 2nd night, earlier than last night, this time at 830pm; 11p 3a wbtb(4h) facility with swimming pool? ; I am meeting someone and the previous person, a sweet lady or girl is helping me get ready suggests I wear a nicer shirt than my T-shirt and lays out my green shirt for me and delays the other person I'm meeting. I put it on and there is something bulging from the neckline a bit like I'm wearing a necklace and I flatten it out a bit. As I enter I am hearing that he is or was connected to a Native American and did something to protect his people or his family status or something that sounded noble. At some point going through this building a fire truck is superimposed by an image I took of the fire truck some time before when there were notices posted on its windshield...now neatly cleaned off as if they were never there.

Playing in a game this coming day so planning quicker btb and visualize only. Btb 320
In a really big house with huge great rooms with a large family. Beautiful and vivid.

*After my wife left I only had an hour to get back into a dream and did a little visualization that I'm realizing it was a dream. I'm in a big two story restaurant and I need to go to the bathroom <snip> I leave the first bathroom and get lost and subsequently find that I'm in a big gymnasium like I was thinking about during wake back to bed . I go out to check out the gymnasium and it is the second story seats or balcony but the kids are using it still as part of their basketball practice making long passes among the balcony and then from the balcony and down to the gymnasium floor where practicing basketball. All the kids are black and I figure I'll work my way down the stairs back to the original bathroom <snip>. heading down the stairs in this balcony area I'm dropping my jackets that I'm carrying and I'm trying to gather them and a couple of black kids walk up and it looks one of them like one of them is a special needs kid but has violent tendencies and the other kid calls him "Rabid." Hey Rabid this guy is something something. They leaned me back over the seat and although it doesn't seem too dangerous I told him "look if I fall backwards I'm gonna land on my head way down there and I will die. You don't want that." after about a minute of calm talking to them they let me go about my way and I realize that I could have just squeezed out an energy burst and knock them away as if I knew it was a dream.As I continue down the hall it really sinks in that I AM dreaming. I see a black lady and the dream starts to fade so I say "come here for a moment, let me hold your hand" and I grabbed her hand and feel all the details of her hand, it is warm and feels just like a hand should and the dream visuals starts coming back. I reach up under her shirt holding her back and stomach and I start to reach up for her breasts and she says no no, tonight she is very tired from a long day. I say okay, no worries I don't need to force myself on a DC, even if it is just a dream and I wasn't feeling strongly inclined to anyway. I keep rubbing her back and she seems to like that. And I see a bathroom with a bathtub across the way and I say how about a nice warm bath? I could give you a nice warm bath or I could join you and I keep rubbing her back as we walk that way before I finally fade back to bed. I lay still going over the details in my head and then when I finally allow myself to move, I release a big smile. No.296

I do wonder if it was only because of apple juice that I broke the dry streak (no apple juice next night but still had an LD (next entry with Girl Friday!). I did set an intention before sleeping and at my short back to bed and again a bit after my wife left. I did hardly anything during the day though, so busy with two different business deals. But I also came to the realization that I put lucid dreaming on the back burner and maybe just maybe I can do both!..allowing my brain to accept lucid dreaming back as at least a partial priority. who knows!?

I did a quick WBTB coffee and had a super vivid dream. Even though I didn't get lucid, it was still really fun.

I am playing some sort of board game that requires you to enter various DOS commands in order to carry out certain actions on an old computer. I am play with an older group that includes my parent and others who are pretty computer illiterate. I decide to somehow convert everything to a Windows platform so that it will be easier for them. I get lost staring at an icon and the screen zooms in, pixelates, then whites out.

I am ice skating someplace and I notice the ice is getting slushy and melting. Then Carrie Underwood comes along to give me some pointers, but Daniel Tosh replaced my skates with a child's version. Somehow it makes my legs to where I can't striaghten them out. I feel like my movement and skate abilities has been severely reduced. Carrie is trying to get started and I can't find my other skates so I just do the best I can do. The ice rink is now my living room and I see Tosh outside my window just as he places a webcam to the glass and sneaks away. I'm really annoyed, but I let it go for now. I skate around and feel like a child as Carrie lifts me up under my arms and helps me skate. It's embarrassing, but hey, I get to be up close and personal with her. I'm so girl celebrity crazy in my dreams lately. The ice starts melted and we begin skating on hardwood. It's not working too well so we decide to stop. My mother-in-law is standing to the side with arms crossed. She seems upset she didn't get her turn. I take the skates off and go outside to retrieve the webcam. I make a fist at the lens and act mad but I'm just joking. I'm actually a good sport about it and thank him for letting me be on the show. I'm sure it will be super funny whatever he does with it. As I come back in the house, I see the computer I was working on earlier on a cart on the porch. I feel like I am missing something (lucidity!), but I decide I'll think on it later. I see Carrie still waiting around so I go over to talk to her. I wake up.

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This seems to be a good example of what my lucidity looks like when my LD practices derail. After this sporadic and seemingly short LD (unless I forgot parts of it and dwindling recall is to blame), I had an 11 day dry spell which is unusual for me this far into my practice. Such dry spells only seem to pop up every so many months…maybe 4-6 months?

Thu, 12 Mar 2015:
Chance to get lucid as I slept in the before my dental appointment to 8:25am
1030pm? 1230=quick btw 4am wbtb(5.5h) At my #uncleT 's house I go into his room several times to use the #bathroom and the last two times I notice I can hear their phone calls via the speaker phone #answeringMachine in his in-room office suite through some double doors. Some thought about what area codes may be included in a metro calling plan but they all seem to be my local area IWL not his.
Had recall at 12:30 but didn't want to record and only spent very minor brain energy to try to mentally store before realizing I may wake too much. Can't remember at moment.
Something with a #black lady that doesn't trust the Chicago? #police. I forget to tell her the train option for getting between two cities and I see a #map with train system between those two cities in a big wide u shape. A scene then plays out that we seem to be watching at my uncles house TV in crowded family room couch where a black man is being tracked by the police and he grabs a #hostage at a busy train station or airport before a #crowd surrounds him and several have #guns. One guy carefully points his #gun at him at close range and #shoots him. Gasps all around.#hostage #vigilante


Holding #baby #singing hush little baby. also watching #kids they run outside to the neighbors to get into mischief and I go inside the house to let the mother know that they ran off
*Leaving #work with some #coworkers and we're talking about some #controversy about a cell #phone or two that was issued to some people for my work including D(the hilarious guy) "you know they may still be using it to do something with the phone calls" something about cutting into phone calls. we are going to my house for some reason and the guy that does <snip> is there and I'm guessing he's inspecting what I have set up here and we all go into the same house. "might be messy" and at some point I realize I'm dreaming perhaps through the "if I were dreaming I would" mental process and I pick up one of the female coworkers and float her to the top of the two story vaulted ceiling and back down to the floor. There are a lot of #kids here and a sexy lady and I <2nd base sexual interaction> at some point I lose lucidity probably doubting whether or not I should be so sexual and more kids are arriving and I think there's too many kids maybe someone can take them to the park while we're here but one of them ladies that brings the kids says she's been to the neighbors next door and they have a lot of board games so start to go with her to knock on the neighbors door but it seems like she turns too early into my #garage and wouldn't you know coming out of my garage is my #Mom saying that she has to go somewhere and I'm happy to see her she has short blonde hair and then I realize she's not supposed to be here oh yes I'm dreaming I forgot I give her a big hug to enjoy the moment since I don't see her very often then shortly after I wake up. No.295

WBTB method: Read Dreamviews dream journals, verbal and written Mantras, dream incubation using digital photos, meditation, body energy transfer work (both internal and external), then a couple of different tactile visualizations while in the void (consciously awake with body asleep).

Two hours later I found myself in a lucid dream, walking in my upstairs hallway, and then I got too excited and end up back in the void (consciously awake with body asleep). Quite often I get ‘the vibrations’ right after an LD, so I sat up in bed, and OBE exited. It was totally dark in my bedroom, and I couldn’t see a thing, so I fumbled around trying to find the door knob. Finally I found the door knob, opened the door, and walked out, but then the door pushed into my back. I turned around to go back into my room to see who was pushing my door closed, but I couldn’t push the door open, because somebody was holding it closed on the other side. I got too excited again and ended up back in the void. I thought to myself, “Darn, I blew it, I won’t be able to visit with my daughter tonight.”

I knew I only had about an hour left before my dang alarm clock went off, and I reluctantly decided to give it one more try. I usually don’t have much luck when I’m down to the last hour, because I usually fall consciously asleep and dream. I did tactile visualization again, where I was dropping coins from my right hand into to my left, and then passing them back to my right and repeating. I did this for about 10 minutes, and then I entered a lucid dream without losing consciousness. It was pretty cool. Suddenly a room appeared around me and I sat up in bed, and found myself standing in a hotel room with the front door open. It was a sunny summer day! There were lots of people outside, walking around on the street, and construction workers everywhere. They were building a bunch of new homes across the street. I walked outside, jumped over the porch railing, and landed nicely in the front yard of the hotel. A construction worker with a thick black beard was staring at me. I then floated up into the air, and he looked at me with a shocked and bewildered expression. At this point I remembered my mantra to visit with my daughter, so I quickly floated back down to the ground.

I headed off down the street, “Calling for my daughter to come and visit with me, because I was lucid.” People were everywhere, and it seemed like a good safe place for my daughter. I’ve notice that when there are lots of people around, there’s less chance of meeting up with a delinquent dream figure. I continued calling her name until I reached the end of the street, which ended in a keyhole. Then I heard my daughter calling, “Dad!” I looked and saw two women quickly walking down the street towards me, and then I recognized my daughter! She came and gave me a big hug, and I told her I loved her. There was this beautiful, blonde, curly haired woman standing beside my daughter, so I said, “Who’s your friend?” My daughter said, “That’s Mila!” Mila was shy, and she had her head down. I said, “You’re very cute! You look a lot like my daughter. You two could be sisters!” I gave her a hug, and she grinned a bit, and my daughter said, “Dad! Jeez.” I smiled at my daughter, but then I went back into the void.

I was consciously awake with my body asleep, and I thought to myself, “Should I continue on and risk forgetting this wonderful experience, or should I wake up and voice record the lucid dream?” I decided to continue on, because how could I possibly forget a lucid visit with my daughter? A short time later, ‘the vibrations’ started and I could feel myself floating around on my bed, so I sat up, and OBE exited. My room was black and I couldn’t see anything, so I fumbled for the door again, and then I started to count. Counting helps me stay focus and maintain the lucidity in an OBE. I was practically blind, so I started tearing at whatever was covering my face. I was thinking that maybe I was tearing my face off or that something really gross was happening. While I was tearing at my face I walked downstairs into the living room, where I finally tore off a big piece, and I was able to have a good look at it. Well holy smokes! It was a piece of white fabric! I continued tearing the fabric off my face as I walked through the dining room, kitchen, hallway, and finally back upstairs to my daughter’s bedroom. By the time I entered her bedroom I could clearly see, and her bedroom was nicely lit.

Her bedroom was incredibly vivid and clear, more so than the waking world. There were artistic sculptures everywhere, way different than anything I’ve seen in my life. There were many colors I didn’t recognize, and the sculptures were made of materials very foreign to me. I thought to myself, this would amaze the world if people could see this, but I really didn’t understand what I was looking at, and I’m really struggling trying to describe it, but it made me feel happy, like looking at a garden full of flowers, or viewing a scenic mountain range. Some of the sculptures had features resembling flowers, but I was really thrown by all the new and different colors. I started calling for my daughter to come, and she very quickly answered, “Dad, I’m here!”, as she walked in the bedroom door. She looked so beautiful and happy, and I gave her a hug and kiss. I was still very occupied with all that I was seeing in her bedroom, so we didn’t talk much. I then asked if she knew why I couldn’t see when I OBE exited, and what was covering my face, and she said she didn’t know. I walked over to her mirror to take a look at myself, to possibly figure it out, and I said, “Well at least this time I have pants on!” She laughed at what I said, and then things faded quickly and I was back in bed once again. I woke up feeling very much loved!

I guess I will try posting each night separately…see if it is more time consuming or useful.
Wed, 11 Mar 2015:
11pm? 4am wbtb (~5h) Much digging for dream recall and "train" from my dream sign checklist was the trigger that reminded me of dream where I mentioned to A (from team) where I live after seeing he is also in a newer home. "If you take the train before you get to R." "If I get there!" he says indicating he would likely never go to that place. I say it's also before C(city just over the hills)...seems my memory of geography is off - yes my city can come before those two cities but you would have to be going two different directions! "You see the new homes. None still being built but you can tell it's all one newer development." He drove me to his place in a nice sports car crossover type that makes me wonder if it is a car from England for some reason. He gets behind a slow car and speeds into the grassy shoulder on the left and around. Now at his home, he gives me a tour of his home, I see his bathtub, like modern fancy ones and when going back downstairs I see a man and a woman who appear to be a couple and one is his sibling... I think the woman. They are signing a real estate offer on a preprinted form with carbon copies. I wonder if they wonder if I took a peek at offer amount and address but they didn't seem concerned. Before this I was thinking about how PJ was disappointed in the way we lost by one point after tying it up (WL memory from that night showing up in the dream). I pass another game while heading home it seems and think a player is calling me to help their team. I need to get going but it seems I help get a piece of equipment but don't end up playing.

Feeling like I am back in bed, at some point I get a light feeling like I am moving slightly and I just enjoy it and try to do some motion-based entry into dream dancing and what not and probably already dreaming at some sleep stage. eventually images form and I am definitely in a dream but it is all very light and wispy. There is a wispy dream figure standing above me and to the left. In an attempt to bring myself more solidly into the dream, I take some swipes at "him" with much effort as if my hand is made of dream clouds. I also later get an image of a sleeping me, a close up of my face and later a woman undressing, unzipping her dress from a front zipper. Hot! Memory gap and then (maybe starting to wake into and in-between states) I hear the house alarm set by my wife as normal while at the same time feeling what seems like my wife rubbing my back and then holding me tight. I am a little confused here if it is HH or if she came back upstairs but I settle on HH or SP and try to use it but I think I woke myself up too much. I do get back to sleep and when the alarm goes off I am groggy as if in a deep sleep cycle the same as yesterday morning. we did have the time change recently which I seem to be adjusting to quite well by going to bed earlier but not as early last night because of my game. No.294

I came across a mirror lying on the floor, remembered the TOTM and went lucid. The mirror's rather small for this - I take hold of the edges and pull it wide enough to stretch out on top of it. Initially, unusually, the mirror showed me my reflection - I focus on the background behind it, and it goes black. I briefly imagine stars in that blackness, but don't actually see them; that acts as a trigger, and I sink into the mirror as if it's liquid.

On the other side, I'm walking out of an apartment building into an alley. I have a thought that this is supposed to represent somewhere in Wyoming; but looking around at the buildings, the vending machines, this definitely looks like Japan. I wonder if that's just my mind filling in the setting with familiar memories, or if this is actually meant to be Japan; I keep walking, figuring it'll work itself out, and I had no particular goal here anyway.

I cut through a shopping area where people are eating, listening to them talk, no one saying anything particularly interesting to listen in on. I'm uncertain whether I'm visible to others; my initial impression had been that they couldn't see me, which is how I preferred it, but there do seem to be a few people here and there who notice.

Out of the shopping area and onto a main street, there are Christmas lights in the trees here. I cross the street and find the sidewalk's lined with little garden plots, blocked off by ropes - some kind of display, or some kind of competition maybe. One such plot holds a tree that fascinates me - it's white, not much taller than I am, gnarled, no leaves, and covered here and there in pale green moss with small blue flowers. Very beautiful.