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Brief lucidity. At a warehouse with friends - Shane from high school. Something seemed off (can't remember what) did reality check with hands and realized I was dreaming. Started pushing my body through walls. Conjure JC - took forever, but eventually worked - sort of. Concert - guest list - more high school friends. Lost lucidity, but the dream continued.

I've been gone for a while, lost my motivation with my new social life. Things have changed a lot since I've made my last entry, so things might be a bit different. Not that anybody will notice. Anyways.

I find myself in a sort of dome. I'm rich. I was very high at a friend's house during the course of this dream, so. I walk out of the entry room where there is no exit that I remember, and I'm surrounded with color. Beautiful landscape is around me, and there are some aggressors, but they're ignoring me. I can feel the fun in the atmosphere. I see two or three people talking, and they're obviously quite posh. At least one of them is a parent to me...
Which explained the dome. They've paid for this, all for me. It was weird. I play a few games, but it's all faded since it's been a few days.

This is my very first lucid dream that I can remember. Here is how it goes:
I was walking around outside in complete daylight, everything seemed nice and I kept looking at my feet while walking towards a tree that was right outside of my dogs fence, (it's not really there in reality.)
I stopped half way to the tree when I spotted a HUGE anaconda, this instantly made me lucid. Snakes are a big sign that I'm dreaming, because they are frequently in them. Whenever I see or think about snakes I do a reality check, this way whenever I have a dream with snakes in it I will (hopefully) pinch my nose.
Anyways, I started looking around and then I suddenly fell down, and the dream scape then changed. I woke up on a couch in a hotel, I pinched my nose and I felt how I was still breathing and then I knew once again that I was dreaming. (Hehe, I made a rhyme... Well, I think I did)
I looked around and saw my parents sitting on another couch, they were talking. I focused on trying to make the whole dream clearer, so I shouted things such as "clarity now!" and "vividness now!", but it did not work very well, so I went up to my mother, who was eating something, and I said "show me unconditional love!" (it was all I could think of.)
She took me in her arms and said: "Darling stop talking nonsense."
I laughed, because I was in shock at how the hug felt exactly how it would feel in reality, yet the dream was still not very vivid.
I then did a foolish thing. Since this was a DILD I guess I was still not in my right mind...
I looked at my mother, and father, and told them that I wanted to wake up now, so that I could tell my friends/family.
My mom grabbed my shoulder gently, and said "whatever you want sweetheart."
I thought that she was going to wake me up, but I was wrong, I had to to it myself, so I closed my eyes tightly and opened them really fast, and I awakened on my bed. I was in misery, I mean, I just let a perfectly fine lucid dream go to waste... Shame on me.

Another experiment with galantamine

Details
cool down - 10PM - 11PM
sleep start - 11PM
brief wake up with a little trouble getting back to sleep - 12:30
alarm - 5AM, galantamine + choline
lucid dreaming - 5AM to 7AM even during light sleep, 6 lucid experiences - attr: intense, dark, false awakenings, local

I wake up a lot during the night, which is actually quite nice for dream recall. This time, I remembered four dreams.

I need to get better paper to write my dreams on at night. Because writing it on my bookmark or inhaler box is rather inconvenient. -_-

Dream 1: This wasn't actually a full-blown REM dream. It occurred during the hypnagogic (is that the correct term?) stage, in which I generally have a bunch of random images, sounds, and so forth being broadcast into my mind.

All I remember is seeing this weird spiralish creature that looked like an old toy I used to have. Someone was telling me its name, and it was an odd name, though I can't remember it now. It looked very, very familiar to me in the dream, although I'm not sure why. Woke up shortly afterwards.

Dream 2: I honestly can't remember much about this dream other than I had it. It wasn't too far into the night. I think it involved a log ride, and the prevailing emotions were fear, apprehension, and excitement...but I might actually be mixing it up with an earlier dream. A lot of my dreams are about amusement park rides!

Dream 3: I was on the peak of a really high mountain with a bunch of relatives. This included my uncle, my mom, my dad, my aunt, and my grandma. It was really steep, the peak was small, and we were near a cliff on both sides. Some of us were sitting down, on rows of oddly-shaped rocks - cylindrical, strangely enough. Cylinders on their sides. Others were standing. I was sitting, and terrified that I was going to fall off of the mountain.

Someone - my dad? made a joke along the lines of, "Don't back up too far! You might fall off!" and for some odd reason, everyone except me found this funny.

Even though we were high up, my brain seemed to forget that, because I looked down in front of me and saw a beach. My cousins were playing in the water, which was an absolutely beautiful shade of turquoise. The waves crashed and traveled back and forth along the shoreline at the base of the mountain. I wish I had touched that water, to see what it felt like. If only I had become lucid.

Why all these family dreams lately? I think it's because as of late I've been slowly pulling myself out of my bubble of antisocial-ness and depression and starting to interact with them again. And trust them. But I'm not sure.

On the second part of this dream, there was some sort of transition into a new scene, and on the mountain there was a conveyor belt with a gutter on top of it. Basically, it was like a narrow open-top fish tank with a moving conveyor belt as the floor. For some reason, me and some kids were putting fish we had caught onto the conveyor belt-gutter thing.

One kid put in an anglerfish. My hand was still in the water with my fish, but he told me not to worry - the stinger had been removed. By the stinger, he meant the lure. I was really glad I wouldn't get stung but took my hand out anyway. (Funny considering IRL, anglerfish don't sting!) Some other kid had a shiny electric fish, which had little electric flashing white LED lights on it. xD All the fish were deep-sea fish. And they were pretty much all black. For some reason, the water in the conveyor belt-tank thing was starting to dry up, until the fish had hardly any water. It was odd and a bit sad, because the fish weren't too happy with what little water was left.

Dream 4: For whatever reason, I was back at college again, and classes were to start the next day. But it looked different. I was in a dorm-like building with a bunch of guys and girls in it - and oddly enough, I was feeling sad and homesick, missing my family. Which usually doesn't happen, even though I love my family. And more than that, I was scared. My head was filled with fear about the semester in front of me and it was very unpleasant. I was supposed to go to school for only part of the semester until I got called to my mission (it's church stuff) and then I would just drop my classes and go. I had a bed in the room, and a window view. I had a schedule for classes and (for whatever reason) breakfast/meals. I missed home and couldn't believe how stressful everything was going to be.

Needless to say, I was extremely relieved upon waking up. O_O

I had more dreams during the night; I'm sure of it. Unfortunately, I was often too tired to record them, and fell back asleep.

This strange thing happened a few nights ago. I was dreaming of laying in bed with this asian girl. She was asleep. I was looking at her eyes and all of a sudden they jolted open! It scared the shit out of me. The scene went black and i assumed that i just woke up. So i laid still and imagined my body floating. I started hearing loud bangs on the door. Then i heard someone stomping up the stairs. I was aware of what was happening so I wasn't frightened. I heard a cat strut in and meow. I opened my eyes and i was laying on my bed watching the cat walk around. I got up and looked into the mirror and saw myself laying in bed! I was stoked! I left the room and in the next room i saw my brother and this guy just staring at me before i opened the door. It was creepy. Then i went into my aunts room. She was asleep wathing tv. I walked over to her and patted her back. She jolted around instantly and had a blank stare. Once again creepy. I woke up and got up to go pee. I noticed my aunts room lights were on. Here's the crazy part. She said she woke up to this feeling of someone pushin her back. I was really creeped out then.

Anything like this ever happen to anyone?

The first dream I had was about my friend Nick and I. We were hanging out with a few other people at my house. My house had bunkbeds for some reason though. All I remember is having a group conversation for awhile, and then looking over at Nick because I heard him snoring. He had fallen asleep with his eyes open and was snoring. It was terribly funny to me so I pointed it out and threw a pen at him to snap him out of it.

The next dream was very weird to me at the time. My family was getting ready to head out for church on a Sunday. I was in my back yard waiting for everyone to gather. I noticed my sister's boyfriend pull up in his car, and opened the gate for him. He was walking in with a toddler boy that looked a little bit like him.
"Who's this little guy?" I asked him. He told me it was his son. I was so blown away, I said "Oh, alright." Then I walked back into my parent's house and talked to my mom.
"Did you know that Tristan had another kid? I sure as heck didn't." I said to her. She had no idea either, we were both a bit dumb founded.

After that, I had a dream that I was back at my old elementry school. I was having a cigerette and talking with someone else. After awhile I began having a very bad feeling like something was there. I told everyone we should leave, it was dark and I could feel something dangerous around. There were kids with us then and I began getting them to the exit. I saw what it was that was prowling. A character named Urgot from a videogame of mine. He was a biological machine that gave himself eternal life by replacing all of his organs and limbs with other creatures bodies and machine's. He looks like a huge wrotting mass with long metalic legs like a spider. We needed to get out. So we got to the exit and everyone was out except for one small boy. He had dissapeared. I ran back in the school and found him propped up against the wall, his chest was bleeding. Part of the skin of his chest had been taken out, so I rushed him away and back to his home down the street. The scene shifted to the next day. There were police in front of his house and his family had gathered to keep him company through recovery. I knew for some reason that I was the answer to Urgot's attacks. I walked in the house and pleaded with the family to let me through, I could help. They let me in, and I put my hand on the boy- and his injuries were healed. There was a bit more after this part but I don't remember it very well.

The last dream was about my mother and I taking a trip up to the mountains with a little girl we were taking with us. Her parents both recently had died, and her and her sister were being taken in by my family but weren't together at the moment. The little girl wanted to hear about my mother parents, this was in the future some time after they both had died. My mother told me to tell the girl about them, so I did for the rest of the car ride. We got to a cabin we were going to be staying at, then my alarm went off.

I have change my dream journal format. I decided that hand writing and sketching would make it more personal to me. I will upload scanned images but I am not sure for how long.

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i was in a house and my dog i used to have named sophie and my dog i have now named dolly was int there and i kept trying to pet sophie but she wouldnt come here then i got up and locked the doors to the house then i ended up in my moms van and she was driving the sky was foggy and we where in a town i said mom theirs gonna be a yield sign up ahead and she said no its gonna be a stop sign and we got up to it and it was shaped like a huge stop sgin but it had tons of weird words and i said im dreaming and i said mom im dreaming she said maybe i got out of the car saw the sky was foggy so i spread the clouds appart and i woke up.

Non-dream Dream

Dream 1:

I am house-sitting for my parents in their old house on Pam Ln. My wife is with me and we are sleeping in the master bedroom downstairs. The bedroom looks very similar to what I remember as a child except in addition to the sliding door out to the spa there is another very large window behind the bed. My wife wakes me up. It must be morning because we can see clearly out of the windows. She is very concerned because we see a coyote walking across the window by the spa and our cats our outside somewhere. I try banging on the window to scare it away but this doesn’t work. After this attempt I resort to tormenting the coyote. I am laughing at it, scratching on the walls, yelling at it, and talking shit on it because it can’t get inside.

Suddenly it gets dark outside as if it were nighttime again and the coyote grows bigger. More coyotes are outside now and they are trying to get in. I regret my previous actions and I am now frightened. The coyotes are very intelligent and one of them is talking to me – it called me stupid. My wife and I move upstairs to my old bedroom, closing two doors behind us. We are almost certain that the coyotes will get inside of the house but we feel safe in this room. We realize that we will eventually have to face them when we leave the room and we are scared.

Wake up.

Dream 2:

I am in a huge crossfit gym getting coached by coach D. There is some kind of tournament going on. I haven’t been to the gym in a very long time so coach D is designing a special workout for me. I begin with box jumps and he brings out a 12” box. I pride myself in being a great jumper so I tell him that for this exercise I want to use the same box everyone else is using. He brings out a 30” box and I am having a lot of trouble with it. It seems to be as tall as me and I have to use my hands to pull myself up onto the box. Embarrassed that I can’t do it, I call coach D over and ask for the shorter box. Then I move on to a 225lb deadlift and a few other exercises. Coach D and some other people are recruiting me for their football team but I decline. They want me to play the occasional cornerback by I say that in order for me to play I have to be one of their main options for quarterback and wide receiver because that’s what I’m used to.

Soon after my workout I discover that there are hundreds of pigs lying around the gym. They are all dead, hairless and they appear to have been infected with something. I am completely grossed out. We all get white trash bags and go around throwing all of the pigs in the bags. I am now standing in a disgusting pool picking up the pigs. Coach D apologizes and explains that his pigs are breeding out of control and he can’t handle taking care of all of them – that’s why they died.

The horrible pool of water that I am standing in contains a bunch of broken needles. Me and some other guy step on the needles and one goes very deep into my foot. I announce that I have been stabbed in the lymph node and it is very deep. The guy next to me says it will be fine and I reply “you don’t know as much about science as I do.” I have a strong feeling that it will give me cancer.

I am not in the gym anymore and it looks like I am at someone’s apartment. I go through some weird scenes explaining what lymph nodes do. Basically if you leave stuff open then bad things like pollen and other irritants will get into the lymph nodes (?!?). Bill Murray is acting it all out. Bad things are attracted to me now and are trying to get me sick.

Dream 3:

I am in the parking lot at a golf course. Some guy comes up to me and begs me to play. He tells me that nobody is playing this course because there is some crazy guy roaming the course. He offers to pay for everything: green fees, golf balls, etc. I accept. We go into the pro shop and he purchases a couple of golf balls. I tell him that I’m not very good so I will probably need more than that. We head out to the course and the guy changes into my dad. The course is very difficult and the balls are cheap. They look and feel like balls of mud. I manage to birdie the first hole. On the second hole I out-drive my dad off the tee but he ends up winning. I got stuck in a sand trap that was impossible to get out of. One time I managed to hit the ball from the sand trap and hit the flag stick, but the ball just rolled back into the sand. I eventually realized that there were other holes IN the sand trap that were eligible.

I go back to his house and he administers some strange medicine that makes me very sick but I get better later on.

The bus
Sep 25 7:09 am

I remember being at my high school glencliff. School had ended and I had just walked out of the building. I seemed to be the first out. It was gloomy and cloudy. I was ready to get on the bus but there wasn't any around. A few other people came outside and *started talking about where the buses were. Then one pulled up. I checked this sheet and it wasn't my bus. But i checked again and it said it would run my route. I got on and it was already packed full of students. Only one seat was available in the back of the bus. As i walked on i saw this asian girl in the second seat on the right.I also remember that when i got on the bus i asked the driver if she was doing my route as well. She said no but she also said she would take me home. Then she asked me where i lived and i said 420 East Thompson Lane which was really one of my addresses when i attended Glencliff. I noticed the asian girl laughing at what I said. She was staring me down and smiling. I wanted to sit with her but i didn't and went to the back. I sat down but i didn't have a back rest for some odd reason. There was two hispanic girls behind me. They scooted over and my seat converged with theirs and i had a back rest. I didn't say anything. I was a queit person in school. The bus left and i remember noticing two people in the very front seat. Apparently i knew them. They were talking to the asian girl and they were lip-synching me that she liked me. So i got up and started to walk to the front. I noticed it was dark outside and we were driving down this hill. Then this white cloud of something was foaming at the front right of the inside of the bus. I stopped walking to the front and just stood there. I noticed outside it looked like snow covering the right side of the road. The bus driver said it was paint which seemed reasonable to my non-lucid mind. The cloud was turning red and it faded away. I remember the bus stopping.*i got off the bus with the driver and some other kids. We walked in a dark neighborhood lit up by houses. I was skating around on the wet floor showing off. I kept taking pathways which parts of a house would extend *over the road and cause dead ends with small openings to the other side. The openings had spider webs. At first i would go back and around but then i noticed the group getting further ahead. I didnt want to be left behind so i started sliding through spider webs. I became paranoid they were on me. And as i passed other spider webs i noticed the big spiders in them. The group was so far ahead i couldnt see them. Then i noticed i was passing through a zoo. There was shit everywhere with cheese on it. Nasty. Then i saw the lion. I ran and jumped around like it was a video game. But it kept up with me and kept biting me. My health went to zero. I died. Thats all i recall vividly enough to tell.*

Sep 24 6:00 am
Please excuse any grammatical or structural errors. My dream journal is my ipods notes and while typing the dreams in i dont have time to fix it since i already start to forgt them.

I was getting ready for my job at mygrandmas house i believe. The old house. I wore some of my new jeans. I went to work and i had to break up this stone and pile it up. I just stomped on it and picked it up. They broke into perfect little sticks. A lot of my coworkers went to do something else but i was able to finish on my own. When they got back they were surprised i had finished. I remeber looking at the dirt. It had a weird texture. I wanted to feel the coolness of the ground. But didnt because of other people around me. The texture had dots everywhere. Me and the coworkers walked over to this structure where we were briefed about our pay. It was like we were in a park under a shelter. It was nightime with the orange glow of lightpoles. I sat down and noticed a lot of kids from this alternative school i attended. I sat next to michael from glencliff high school, not the ALC. He kept making humorous comments just like he would in real life. Then the briefing was over and the white chubby girl from alc asked me to dance. A few people got up and we started dancing. They giggled at me and i stopped but i was laughing as well. I remember being called hot and kissing her. Then i kissed some other girl on the cheek. She wouldnt kiss on the lips since i just kissed the other And then the first girl again. Nothing passionate. Just pecks. I left and ended up in a glencliff hallway. I had on a rotc uniform. I remeber speaking my mind about anything. As we walked down the hallway we got called back. So i went back and sat down next to the same kid i sat next to at the briefing. Then carlo, my old boss, came in the room and was passing these cards out along with cash. It had your social security number on it. Mine got passed down to me by michael. I then noticed i had two wallets. Michael said he found it. There was thirty one bcks in it. He said he only took six. I was mad but i didnt show it. As we were leaving this kid across the table grabbed a hold of my card that had been passed to me. I got mad and the kid across me thought that was funny. So i told him if he didnt stop i was gonna beat his ass. He kept grabbing my backpack as if he were pickpocketing so i followed him to this random classroom with some young blonde teacher. And i beat him up pretty bad. Then commanded him to walk in this corner while calling him degrading names. I made him get in a trashcan and everyone laughed. Even the teaher did. I then started talking in the "clear eyes commercial's" voice and was telling the class about how bullying affected four out of seven kids. They laughed again. As i was leaving i saw this dog with mini horns. I asked the teacher what kind it was and she said black ite or something similar. I then said black dynamite as the commercial does for the new show out loud as a joke but no one laughed. So i left the classroom feelin like a badass because of what I had done. Walkin down the hall I felt like the coolest kid in school. I had a strut lol. I remember lookin at girls and they maintained eye contact until they couldnt see me. I figured it was my lunch time so i was heading there. I bumped into a nerd on purpose. Still strutting. I had on something fashionable. Then alex's gf comes up to me and starts flirting. Her name was alyssa. We are in line outside the kitchen door. Then these two cool kids come up and start shit sayig "this guy? Are you kisding me." they apparently were jealous. i said i would fight him. But he said he didnt want to kill me. I assumed they were football jocks. I told them i was strong and they laughed. They did have bigger muscles. *I hit him cause i was a badass remember? He just shakes his head and slowly turns to me. I keep swingin. Hitting him but it hasnt much effect. His friend intervenes with high kicks whenener i have the upper hand. I see mario and i yell for his help. He jumps in once but doesnt do much. I still manage to win. I then end up home in the bed. My brother is on my left and camilo is on my right. Camilo is changing the channel and jonah is asleep. Camilo puts it on this sitcom about four guys. It had charlie sheen in it. Camilo gets up and goes somewhere. Jonah says something but i cant remeber. I then notice its 7:20 am. I freak out cause i know i have the morning job as a stone worker. So i go into the bathroom and see my dirt stained jeans from yesterday. I debate on whether to wear them again. Then i wake up. I recall talking to jonah about the fight. I asked him if he knew i got into one and he said no while camilo said yes. I explained how i took on two guys and how mario didnt help much. The end.*

I'm in some kind of a mall/video store. And with me is my sister and my father. Around us, I see sections of movies and cash registers. There was no one at the cash registers, or at least I never got the chance to look, but there were a few people roaming around the video section of the store. They were selling really good movies. One movie did catch my eye. It was the Hunger Games, and I really wanted to get it but I couldn't because the price of the movie. The blue price tag below the cd case said $39.99. I looked away as soon as I saw that. A little later, me, my sister and father walk over to a cash register to check something out. I never saw what he was buying. But while we were at the cash register, some lady, out of nowhere, came out and told us that we were needed to put something on our arms to make it numb for a bit because she was going to stick a couple of needles through them. This lady had blonde hair, so I'm not sure if it was a good idea. She told me to extend both my arms and so I did. She put something on my arm to reduce the needle pain. I'm not sure why two arms were needed though. After this, I immediately told my father that we had to leave the mall before she comes back with the medicine. I walked fast directly out the mall doors and tried to make it to the car parking lot as fast as possible. There was something nice I set my eyes out on. It was the area outside the mall. It had some kind of "Las Vegas" feeling to it. So anyways, this area is too huge for me to find the exit, so I thought maybe I 'ought to find a location that would be hard for the blonde woman to find. I tried going through a restroom across the mall but she was just staring at me to see where I would go. I didn't think I would ever find a way to escape, so I just though waking up from the dream would be a better idea.

Been nonluciding all over the place. Some have been pretty entertaining though. But the lack of lucidity is totally my fault for going to bed too late. Politics keep me up.

Anyway, it was post nuclear bomb attack or something. Most people survived by having bunkers and radiation suits all ready to go. Me and Mike from work (the cute chef with the handlebar mustache) shared a bunker. But we only had one suit between us, so I wouldn't let him come with me if I went outside to find survivors/food/supplies. The only thing I remember from this dream, was Mike came up to me, complaining that his head had been hurting. I panicked, thinking he had gone outside without the suit! I said "Oh my god Mike, did you go outside?!?!" He looked at me, really serious, and said "No.. the other day, there was an explosion remember? Well when it happened, a bunch of crates nearly landed on you so I pushed you out of the way and they hit me in the head. I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to worry." My heart just melted at what he said and the way he was looking at me. *makeout makeout makeout* (There it is boys, save a chick's life by take one in the noggin = instant tongue party).

Later another nonlucid about some orphans. I'll add it later, I gotta feed the animals.

So I spent the better part of yesterday on this site, hoping that it would cause me to have another lucid dream and Poof! it worked.

I was in the middle of a pretty fun dream watching Goku fight Boromir and all of a sudden I awake in my bed. I get up and start walking to the closet and notice that my teeth are loose, and I grab one and it just falls out. Another one falls out a second later and I automatically think This is a common thing that happens to people in dreams! I must be dreaming! I look at my hands and lo and behold, they are all messed up. I start walking to the other side of the room and think about stabilizing myself more to the dream, but then think better of it for some reason and just walk over to my door, as I open it I wake up.

I was pretty frustrated, I have had four lucid dreams that I just thought that it seemed like a stupid idea to stabilize myself while I was in them. Pretty lame dream, but it was still lucid, and I really love false awakenings since I almost always become lucid after them.