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Only fragments, but it's better than nothing.

Dream One: I'm arguing with my husband. He's saying that he's going to leave me right away, and he has a girlfriend. I'm only upset because I worry that him leaving now is going to mess my kids up in school, and I tell him I won't allow him to leave until summer break. I tell him I'm not happy with being together this long either, but it's what we have to do for our kids, then make a bunch of violent threats of what I'll do if he doesn't grow up and take care of his kids.

Dream Two: I'm standing in our living room and marveling at how clean it is, and wondering where all the big toys that don't fit in the toy boxes are because I'd never been able to find room for them.

Dream Three: I'm at pokemon night. I'm hanging out with some of the friends I'm finally starting to make. My son wants to go to get food from Taco Bell, so we head out to the car to leave. For some reason S and D, and one other totally random guy that isn't anyone I know in waking life wants to go with us. We all go to get in the car, but then when I open the door to buckle my son in, D (who's actually an adult that my son likes to hang out with there) is sitting in my sons car seat. I realize then that my car only has one passenger seat and two kids seats. I reason that it's ok for D to sit in one of the kids seats because he's really skinny, and S can sit in the passenger seat, then my son in the other kids seat and me in the drivers seat, there's just no room for the 3rd dude that I don't know. I try to explain this to them all, and they just seem to feel like I don't want them to go because if they can't all go together they don't want to go. Somehow the car becomes a table and we're all sitting at a table now. D lays his head on the table like he's tired or not feeling well, and my son throws a doll blanket over D's head. Then he picks up a naked barbie on the table and starts poking D's head under the doll blanket. The random dude asks where the doll and blanket came from, and I say that they are my daughters toys and she must have left them in the car. Then S lifts the blanket and D looks up, smiles, then flips the blanket back over his head, making it obvious he's not really sleeping, just joking around. I think to myself about sliding the naked barbie under the blanket and making a joke about how a naked barbie is all the action he'll get, but then I don't because I start over analyzing it. I know I'd make a joke like that with my brother and several of my friends, but I wonder because I don't know him well enough if he'd take it too personally and not get that it is a joke. Not sure what to do at this point because I worry my normal personality would be too mean, I decide instead to get up and walk away. I wake up as soon as I get out of my chair.

All I remember from last night is talking to Bodhi about going to The Wave, and he said he couldn't go with me because he was going to the Second Wave. I asked him if he was going to leave his ropes, but I was awakened before I got an answer.

Zahidah, Mei Ling & Meriliyn were all wearing white lacy form hugging wedding dress. All of them looked really pretty.

I was walking with Zahidah before and saw a photo of a photo session that involved wearing a wedding dress and a veil that covered half the face from the top of the head to the nose. You couldn't see that person behind that veil. We saw a sample of the photo framed up behind a glass window of a photo shop.

The dream went through the havok of choosing a wedding theme and a dress for each of them, they were excited the whole time including me. I was mostly going around taking pictures of the whole thing and ended up being the last one to choose a dress.

The starting a the wedding was at an open space with the 4 grooms wearing white tux coming driving horse drawn chariots. The grooms were laughing and waving at everyone. Following behind them were more people on carriages and horse drawn trucks throwing flowers. They rode from one end to the other end of the field.

The girls came from the same place as the guys, all 4 of them wearing their wedding dressing and a parade of people behind. They did a really complex route and everyone cheered. The girls rode away turning behind showing off their long train lace, laughing and excited.

This whole time I was watching at the side line taking photos and trying to hold up my wedding gown still draped on my arm. I was slightly disappointed that I was not taking part, but I was still awed at the magnificence of the whole wedding parade.

I forgot yesterday's dream until I was almost asleep so here it is:
I was playing on my iPod with my nose. I was crosseyed while doing so, so I don't know what I was playing.
Here's last nights:
I had to many dreams so I will write one.
Homer from the Simpsons was in a small igloo with 3 underground rooms. There was two random people in the other rooms and his was to only one on the right side of the hallway. There was a big fat, drunk guy across from Homer so he left into the arctic. A few steps away though it was a sunny, bright plain with children playing and everything, wildlife. He ran over there and the was a kid with a laptop playing some kind of game. Homer pushed the kid away and sat down at the computer. He was playing a game where you choose to either play as a wolf, rabbit, bird, fox, or rat and you are in a really big forest here predators try to eat you, you have to find food, and you can unlock more animals like falcons, deer, etc. Homer played as a wolf but hunters kept shooting him, I watched him play from a distance and the graphics where amazing. I walked home and found out it was a brand new game that my best friend played. She told me how to unlock all the new animals and how you play. There is no lag and it's free.
I woke up though before I could start playing...

So I decided to set an alarm that would make a LOUD 10 second beep EVERY hour ON the hour until 6:22 AM or so. Seems it probably augmented my recall a bit, or maybe this is just the natural collection.

I did sleep fairly late, like 1:01 AM late, and I usually get shit recall, but not this time. It was okay. I could've extended on some environmental stuff, but I have to go to Organic Chemistry Lecture Before 9:35 PM, even though there's no Tardy system implemented in the first place. But still, I want to see my grade for the second exam!!! OOOH I'm so scared!!! I know I did well, but still, I don't know!!!

EDIT: I did horrible

Anyway, have fun reading some dreams. Some actually make sense for once for me. I'm going to do the Alarm ringing every hour on the hour thing daily now to see if I can get conscious at some period, and BAM, DEILD or a WILD that was initiated through a one-second WBTB with my eyes opened.

10.18.2012

Tezuka's Moral System and Picture Taking (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Kunimitsu Tezuka from Prince of Tennis is wearing the sports jacket and jogging pants he wore from the series when he had to take rehab for healing his injured arm in Germany. Except this time, the sleeves are light violet, and the base of the jacket is black, along with this long black pants.

I'm walking with Tezuka, I believe, and it seems me and probably just him are waiting for something. This area seems to be like the section in the airport where they would have a few fast food areas, along with the waiting area in between. I can tell that by this environment, it was night time. Pitch black, it's nearly impossible to see what's going on outside in this dream.

All I could gaze at really is the reflections on the glass walls inside. The flooring consists of vanilla-brown tiles, and the walls are also of the same or similar color. It could be that the usual orange-yellow lighting saturating the atmosphere in my previous dreams is making it seem that it's vanilla-brown. Everything feels calm, I feel calm, I'm very observant in this dream.

It's difficult to presume if I'm in first person mode, or just in spectator mode watching as many things possible. Tezuka also is carrying One-strapped Black Sports Backpack of some sort. It looked like his Tennis Racquet Bag in a way, since it was fairly longer than your usual backpack. It seems someone queries Tezuka,

(Paraphrasing) "What do you believe is good or evil in a moral system?" Something like that.

Tezuka pauses for a moment, and proceeds to state that (more paraphrasing, though I'm almost exact here),

"In a moral system, the good tends to go in, and the bad is dragged out."

Pretty laconic way of thinking Tezuka.

I can't recall if the person asking the question said "Thank you" in response, but they leave, and I also can't recall how that random person looked like. Then a dark-skinned female, about 5 to 5'5'' tall queries Tezuka the same question.

Before Tezuka has the time to respond, I get this surge of emotions to just state the answer myself by repeating what Tezuka said before.

I declared,

"In a moral system---------" and I decided to stop right there, since it felt rude answering someone's question that wasn't directed at me. I let Tezuka state it once more. The same lady that was asking the question was wearing a Bandana, a pure dark red or close to maroon colored one. She also had a wide dark gray hoodie jacket along with basic blue or dark blue velour pants.

She leaves, and again, I can't recall if she said "Thank you" in response to Tezuka.

I felt that his answer was directed towards me, even though he was directing it to this random dream character.

What amazes me, is that he gave her the same level of respect as the other person. He was extremely stoic in his facial expressions, but he was very respectful and calm. Because of his stoic expression, it was hard to know what's going on in his mind. It was an annoying, but an enticing thing to observe from Tezuka, since that's how he usually is in the "Prince of Tennis" Series.

I'm stating that observation because if I were to become lucid and met a DC that was unattractive, or just not appealing sexually, etc., I would just treat them like shit, and do the whole "It doesn't matter if I talk to you because you won't be real the moment I wake up." attitude.

The dream shifts where Tezuka is now getting his pictures taken. One involved focusing on the darkness of his Black Pants, and how the camera of the person taking the shot would do something fancy that I have trouble recalling.

After idolizing an fictional character from an anime for a while, the dream shifts to the reason why Tezuka may have been at this area with me that looks like it's an airport building. It seems he would be tested to see if he can catch up with Ryoma Echizen and the former Captain of the Seigaku Middle School team when Tezuka was a first year.

This dream shift had a major contrast than before, it's suddenly a huge rush for me. It's like I'm traveling within a snowy vortex accelerating and rotating at very high speeds. It felt like I'm skiing fairly quickly, trying to catch up with Tezuka, who is trying to catch up with Ryoma Echizen and Yūdai Yamato (former captain at Tezuka's first year) I believe?

I didn't realize this in the dream until later on but, I noticed that I was following Tezuka in this path for some reason. I know that in the series, Tezuka had to overcome many trials, especially before his fully healed arm. Ryoma Echizen was someone who beat him, and it seems this dream is his path to beating the former captain when he was a first year, and even Ryoma sometime in the future.

And I'm following right behind him, as if he is someone I need to overcome, or take the personality off before I reach true divinity I guess. It's confusing, but I guess the next dream I'm going to state will add on to this.

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10.18.2012

Final Star in Mario 64-esque Game (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm obviously controlling Mario in this Nintendo 64-esque game. The graphics are way better than the N64 version, and it seems I'm at a very confined floating area in the sky. I move Mario around a bit, and it seems this place is just going around in a long circular path.

The bottom of the floating land is brown dirt, and the top is green grass, and it's designed to be simple like that, just like in the N64 counterpart. After a few seconds of running around, trying to see something new from this circular path around this floating land, I finally see different things now.

I also noticed a small dog, and it looks like a Chihuahua. It has a mix of white, gold-ish brown base for its face and some spots on its fur, along with black and white areas as well. It's coming after Mario, and it's making barking sounds. It's not coming in too fast, but I don't want that little fucker anywhere near Mario.

So I try to out-maneuver it, and when I saw a two row stack of Transparent and Crystal Blocks floating above, I immediately directed Mario to jump on top of them. I continued running, even though the dog most likely would have never reached that height.

As I'm controlling Mario the jump occasionally on the series of transparent crystal like blocks, I believe there were some words forming on them, but I went by them too quickly to recall anything from it. I finally get to the other side of this circular path in this floating land. Then everything becomes quiet from this point.

I see a mushroom on the green grass next to some Black Walls. The mushroom has its Cap exhibiting a pulsating rainbow accelerating pretty quickly inside of it. It was going in one direction upwards, but not coming out of the Cap at all.

Then I remembered having to figure out some small puzzle that was a bit random and confusing at first. I had to hit a block, which would then make some kind of bumper or floater appear. I would then direct Mario to go on it, and he would soar all the way up to where I can see the whole floating land's structure, and then come down.

I wondered what the heck is going on, and what I have to do here from this point on. I take another shot at going up into a higher level, looked down on the floating land again, and saw there's an open gap on this fairly tall dark brown brick chimney with not house around it. It was just supported by the black walls.

I decided to shift Mario in the air into that whole. I finally go all the way down, and the bottom was curved slope, so I presumed Mario was able to slide for the rest of the short trip down the tunnel like slope.

He reaches an empty base, and it's darker than outside, but light Pastel Green light is emitting from the Black rock walls, kind of like glowing crystals if you will. I then get an awkward view of Mario, and can only see the back of his head, and then his red cap as well.

I heard a distinct sound, the same distinct sound in "Super Mario Sunshine" that verified a Shine Sprite was very close. I turned the camera around, and noticed the Shine Sprite is right there. Out of reflex, and it's probably anyone's reflex to do if they played a Mario game, I grabbed the Shine Sprite.


Mario does the usual dramatic build-up for twisting and turning around and then floating and exposing his right white glove palm.

Then the classic Mario font style shows up stating,

"YOU GOT THE FINAL STAR!!!!"

After that, the camera slowly zooms out, and the whole dream fades away.

Okay, I looked at the general meaning of stars in a few dream dictionary and interpretation sites, and for this situation, it seems that it portrays I'm at some path towards excellence, etc.

And since I apparently found the "Final Star," what does that mean? Does it mean I'm finished with the path of finding divinity, and I'm now walking and learning into the true path of enlightenment?

Too vague of a dream to say, especially since it's contained in a video game type of dream.

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10.18.2012

Running Really Fast (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm running with some people on a wide field of grass of what seems to be related to a section of my University that's close to bus section where you can get a ride to the Biochemistry Department and other sections, with a few off-campus routes.

The grass is faded, it has a yellow-green color to it, with the yellow part showing up just a tad more than the green. I see all sorts of people, a man wearing maroon jacket with a light brown cowboy hat and Khaki long pants.....all sorts of things.

After a while, it feels like I'm at my final lap, and I decided to give it my all, and started to really go fast but gathering all my energy toward my stomach, and then releasing it to zip through everyone else.

I remember finally finishing the lap in a few seconds, and the dream ends.

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10.18.2012

Resting at Sbisa Hall and Nvidia Graphics Cards (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting outside near the Sbisa Hall at my University, and I'm resting on that seems to be fake green grass. I'm with a group of people, though I can't remember them too well. Based on my emotions at the time, despite them mostly consisting of complacent and passive demeanor, these seemed to be familiar people.

I think I'm resting my head on a backpack, and I slowly close my eyes. After a while, I wake up and see another set of random people. The fountain at the Sbisa Hall is most likely there, but I don't pay attention to it.

The picture below is a pretty good example of where I was at. If you look beyond the fountain in front, that's the Sbisa Hall. Look to the left side of the photo near the Sbisa Hall. See the grass there? That's where I was resting and sleeping on.

I don't know why I'm doing so, but I guess it doesn't matter how I spend my dream time non-lucidly I guess. Then the dream shifts where I'm inside the house of a girl that I know in waking life.

Let's call her "A. Lee"

A. Lee's house, with her parents and her twin brothers, are all there with her. It seems my father and her father are actually getting along and having a good time. I don't look at them for too long, and by the sounds of their voices, it looks like they're having a good time watching some kind of sport on television.

Dream shifts to me being inside some random bedroom. A. Lee's mother is inside, and she's wearing a black female corporate suit. The fancy black dress tuxedo style jacket with a light gray dress shirt underneath buttoned up, along with the Black skirt that goes all the way a few inches above her knees.

She's wearing fairly thick framed Black glasses, has really curly hair to the point where I think it looks like she's wearing a wig or something. I'm sitting on the floor, looking up at her. She's helping her child sort through some stuff, and it turns out, the child actually broke the laptop he had in half. He starts getting scared and crying out of confusion on why this had to happen to him.

The mother doesn't seem like she's going to punish him for damaging expensive equipment, which is probably a characteristic the waking life mother has of being non-violent and tolerant compared to the father who does the opposite.

The mother takes out a graphics card from the laptop, and it turns out it's an Nvidia Graphics card. I assume it is, since I'm mostly seeing Green and Black mixed in, and it probably had "Nvidia" on it, but it's hard to tell, probably because the font changes occasionally if I look back to it.

The mother asks me a question, and them gently throws the Graphics Card in the shape of a CD upwards and it lands on my lap. I look at it, and I answer her question, even though I can't remember what the question was in the first place.

I declared, "Well, this used to be a good graphics card back then..."

And things kind of felt awkward at this point, I was still speculating if the mother threw the card on my lap gently out of a seemingly intention but failed expression of anger when her child destroyed his laptop in half, or for something else.

I'm concerned because the waking life counterpart is extremely nice to me, like all other women....pffft what nice standard to use her in when it's applicable to the majority of females....18+ or Cougars...you name it...

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10.18.2012

The Toilet of Extending Doom (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Yes, the title was served as enticing you to read this awkward dream. NOTE: I put this on the bottom for a reason. DON'T LOOK if you don't want to see....I mean, it's not graphic, it's just me taking a #2, but there's some weird stuff that might entertain someone......

SOMEONE.............*chuckle*

So I'm listening to someone sing a country song, and I have this abnormal fascination at the fact they are actually making rhymes, as if this is some in new age discovery for me or something. The song is your typical country song, some kind of problem the person has, and then how they can overcome it, *insert Christian God morality values expressed in verses here*, and that's how it was for a few seconds.


------------------STOP HERE if you cringe at the word "shit" and "Number 2"---------------------------

I needed to go to the bathroom, and go to the pipes first, but I forget what I did near there, then I turned around to find the stalls for the toilets. I'm trying to take the #2, and the distance from the entrance of the stall to the toilet is fairly long. As I'm actually trying to do the #2, some random guy on the stall next to me asks,

"How are you doing?"

I don't know buddy, I'm close to having a shitty time!

The guy doesn't even look like he's going to take a shit, despite him sitting down as well. And WHAT THE FUCK, HOW CAN I SEE THIS GUY SITTING DOWN? Like, the walls on the sides are so short, that there's no damn point in having a door in front anymore.

The guy seems to be looking at a text message on his cellphone. He's Hispanic, is wearing the classic "Look at me, I'mma HomeG Sliceboy from the Bronx" looking Black cap that he turns backwards. He's wearing a hoodie with a Black base and dark gray sleeves. He's wearing Khaki colored shorts that go a few inches past his knees, at least when he bends down to sit.

I feel so awkward having myself exposed, even though the guy isn't looking at me. It feels weird trying to take a shit without that can sneak a peek on you.

The toilet can extend, I find this out by dragging my feet (since my pants are near my ankles), and I noticed the metal pole from the back is what makes it extend. It can go all the way until the end of the stall door.

I finish, take care of my business, and I get up to wash my hands and all that fun stuff. Then there's a slight dream shift where I'm naked, and I only have a white towel to cover myself. The towel is too damn short to cover my crotch radius (fancy words), and I really try to pull this thing close to the other end to tie it, but fail.

I flip the towel over, and there's a smear of shit on it. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. From that point on, can't remember

NOTES: 100, stay put upon awakening (Yuppie's DEILD technique)

1. M's birthday. I wasn't invited. R was there. M said something harsh to me, but I forgot what. I cried and I left. There were allies who accompanied me. Witches.

2. Train station. Hurry. Bike. But it has four wheels, and two are made of spirals lying flat on the floor. It's a bumpy road. Looked for a CR. I need to change. Clean. It was near a restaurant. Barely recognized because the sign on the door is soooo small. I tried to pee on the urinal, but some guy left his stuff there. I told him to take it. I can't see because of a blinding light. There are a lot of people in the comfort room. The color is sickly yellow. I went inside the toilet room. It's hard to lock. On the left room, I heard some noise, and saw two sets of legs underneath. Ignored them. I stod up and I can see people passing by outside. I saw Iv pass by and called his name. He asked "Which Iv?" I thought probably it's not him. I saw No on the right room. I was outside, walking. The church was hiding the MRT or the mall.

Woke up, DEILD, thought of running. I need to hurry. I'm in my hometown. Planning to take a bus to the crossing area. A feeling of "too late."

Dream - Lucid

I was giving my old cats, Ziggy and Pounce, to my old manager, Virginia. The room we were in had tons of black cages on the floor with animals in them. They were to be put to sleep; it's why I was giving my cats to Virginia...they were old and sick (IWL both had to be put down, Ziggy when I was 15, and Pounce just last year). I handed the kitties over to Virginia. She seemed very professional and emotionally detatched from the job (I suppose you'd have to be, wouldn't you?).

Then, I remember walking into my grandparents' house, though it didn't resemble any house I've actually seen before. I went through a couple of rooms, and found them in a wooden room. They were having a huge sale inside their house that had been going on for a long time, day in and day out. They were just getting rid of what seemed to be old junk that was all displayed, lined up on a wall by some windows. I saw Barbie-like figurines, an old Walkman CD player, among other things. People were coming in and buy them for garage sale prices. I think there were also some animals in cages here too, I remember seeing some puppies or small dogs; they were for sale as well. I saw someone, a man, pick up and buy the old Walkman, and something else from one of the bins.

I then saw Virginia again, and asked her about my cats, and if they'd been put down yet. I asked her while not making eye contact, because I was trying not to show her it was a tough subject, and it did hurt me. She told me that they had, saying one had just recently been put down. I don't remember what else we said, if anything. The animals at my grandparents' were somehow connected to what Virginia was doing.

Then, I was going through some more things to put out for my grandparents' sale, some more old Barbie doll type toys. I noticed that there were some on display already, and someone had made it so one of the Barbies looked like they were making out with a Ken doll. The Barbie was bent backwards, and the Ken was leaning in and "kissing" her. I kinda didn't know how they were even standing up that way, but I let it be for the time being; I'd fix it later.

I started to set out some small dog figurines. There were some that were already up there with the Barbies, but I guess I had some other ones. I remember specifically setting out a small, black, fluffy dog, that kind of looked like a Pekingese with a haircut. Its tongue was hanging out.



Like that, except for it was black. And also a toy.

I got out some more figurines, I remember one that wasn't a Barbie at all, but it looked like an old McDonald's toy, some superhero or supervillain. I then fixed the Barbie that looked like it was making out with Ken so they were both standing upright and not "kissing".

I remember thinking that though the stuff I was setting out was mine, I wasn't sure if I'd be getting the money for it, of if my grandparents would be. I figured it would be my grandparents, and I was ok with that.

Forest. School. searching for something. Allies. Classmate. A building or office on an upper flow. An office. Music instruments. A stick fell off my hands and on the ground below off the ledge. I have to hurry. Walked out the corridor and down the floor below. Found another office/restaurant. Walked to the "edge" with a green plant. Found the stick. A seminar of sorts. PATAS? Am?

Projector. KenPi. He sat beside me, but then he transferred. A Thai woman gathering orders. She told me to read or do something. Can't understand. I'm holding a pen with names written on it. I don't get it. I gave it back. I thought of getting two orders, but I don't have money. Y was there, annoying me. Finally walked out with some stuff.

Library. La Salle school. Found LT and TM, high school classmates. TM was wearing red shirt. Seems like they changed their direction when they saw me. I pretended not to see, although I saw TM look back from the corner of my eyes. I continued walking to the library. I walked up the stairs, and continued walking up even if there are no more stairs, hoping I'll walk on air. No go. Went down. I noticed I'm only wearing my boxers. I wanted to change. I was in the AVR area. The closest CR is on the second floor of hall C. Went inside and changed clothing. Some guy taking a leak. My pants look weird.

No recall.

Last night, I had a dream that I was a vampire. I went to this one girl's house (I was a guy) to ask her to run away with me and let me turn her into a vampire, but she wasn't home. Oh well.

In another dream, I was filling up the bathtub with water, only to realize it was full of clothes. I started taking all the clothes out, piling them on the floor and on the toilet lid (there were a lot of clothes). I got in the tub - the water was really nice and warm - and started watching an episode of Doctor Who because there was a TV in the bathroom for some reason.

I'm not entirely sure if this is the correct way to start a journal, but there wasn't any other button, so here goes

October 17, 2012

Did a lot of research on Lucid Dreaming before going to bed at 8:45, with my little brother watching TV on the top bunk until 9:00.

In the meantime, waiting for him to go to bed, I listened a bit to Subliminal Lucid 2.0 from the Audio Aid section. At 9:00, I started the song over, made sure it was at a comfortable volume, and listened to it while I recited my mantra in an undertone for about 5 minutes: "(inhale) I have control (exhale) over my dreams." I noticed that I felt my body getting heavy, but the fan that was on was distracting me, so I shut it off and started over.

Since Subliminal Lucid is intended for use before sleep, I shut it off and recited my mantra. I noticed this time that I didn't have the "halfdreams" I usually do, the ones not as vivid as a REM dream, but more so than a daydream. It took longer than usual to fall asleep.

I remember my first dream was very short, it was of me being in the living room, and my grandmother being on the phone, my cousing sitting in a chair. He starts to complain about how I spend all of my time on the computer, kinda like he used to. Aware of my grandmother being on the phone, I yell at him: "What the hell does it matter to you how I spend my Saturdays?" That's all of that particular snippet.

My next dream wasn't all that clear, clearer than the first, but it certainly wasn't lucid. It involved being at school, and dealing with a couple of bullies that mess with me in real life. They said they wanted to meet up with me sometime during school. Then, they started jeering at me.

I pushed one of them, then kneed him in the crotch for some reason. Then, I pushed the other one into the corner and held him up against the wall. I noticed that they were surprisingly light and weak. I could take them anytime!

I walked away and went on with my school routine, but noticed (after the dream)that all of my classrooms looked different than they do in real life, they're in different places as well. Around 4th/5th period, I confront the bullies in the middle of the school. He starts to say something to me, but then he dissapears, along with the other bully. I look around, and turn to see a friend of mine in front of me, where the bully had been. He started yelling at me about how much of a nerd I was, like any bully would. I think that's when it ended.

I had my mind set, as well, on trying to DEILD, and awoke twice, but both times, before I knew what I was doing, I opened my eyes, or moved a bit. Then, I fell asleep and woke up as I normally do, at 5:00 AM. So, no lucidity so far.

carlos was in the office and i clearly remember him being upset about feeling abandoned by his mom. i called him on the phone and had a serious conversation wtih him about my experience with feeling isolated.

later my mom came in the room and asked me if i wanted to master bate uhhh. i was really freaked out and said knock yourself out, but i left the room.

before that there was a princess in my room and i watched her as the king tried to ignore her. i cud tell the princes really loved him. but then the kings wife came in and flipped out when she saw her all pressed up on the king . the girl was banished and put out the window. she had one of those helemts on that only allows you two see out of like two cracks.

later the king saw her, or i had become her, walking along the country side. he was practicing shooting cannons with his friends and called me over. i talked to them some how about video games and how ther should be like a split screen for multiply players.

earlier i member being with colin and we had discovered mario cart for the game body and pokeomon and hella other games for the game boy. ti was sweet.

9-9-09

I was doing a WBTB. I was laying there getting really bored and wondering if I should just let myself fall asleep.

The next thing I know I am laying on the floor in my sister's place and I am being pulled by my feet by something unknown into the room behind me. I felt really freaked out. I tell myself that this is just part of the WILD expereince and that I should just relax and let myself fully enter the dream.

I then felt that humming vibration. Again, I tell myself that it is just part of the WILD and that it means that things are moving along nicely.

Then I feel myself being lifted up. That part freaked me out even more, but I made myself relax and told myself that this part of the process of entering the dream.

I didn't let myself move for a little while because I thought it would wake me up if I accidentally moved my real arms instead of my dream arms. And I wanted to make sure I was fully my dreamself before I tried.

I finally did and flew back out of the bedroom and out the front door of what was my mom's house. It was raining outside. I remember thinking that I had never flown in the rain before and that this would be a unique experience.

So then I just started flying around. The rain felt very real, both nice, yet a little cold and uncomfortable.

I was near my grandparents' house at some point. I wasn't aware of any transition. I remember swooping down through what might have been buildings, but then I think they were canyons. Because later I am flying over Lake Powell and excited about doing that.


Anyway it wasn't my best LD, but I was really in the mood to fly again. I was telling myself that before bed--how much I really needed to fly. So I did get to do what I wanted.

Now that I have started up again, I need to focus focus focus. SO I can accomplish many things.
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9-2-09



I was watching Sponge Bob and Patrick building a castle from cardboard boxes. I knew that they were using their "Imaginations". They were taking paper and coloring it like grey colored rock. They placed it on the sides of the boxes. I noticed how the boxes fit together perfectly and no seams showed.

I realized this was possible becasue this was not real. I also knew that because this was not real that I could make an ice cream cone appear. I put my finger out in front of me and concentrated. An ice cream cone slowely materialized. I put it into my mouth. It melted and was gone in two bites. I decided that because this wasn't real life that I could eat as many ice cream cones as I wanted. I pointed my finger again and got another cone. I noticed that the ice cream was pink. I tasted it and noticed how real it felt to be eating this ice cream that wasn't real. I finally did it a thrid time. I was impressed with myself as I realized that I ususally wasn't this good at creating things out of thin air and I ususally had to do anther tricks to get these results.

8-18-09

Lucid Dream:

I forgot to write down this dream I had a few nights ago.

I was with Jim at some kind of amusement park. Everything was miniature, yet people still seemed to be able to get on the rides. At one point I saw a two year old child behind the roller coster, and he seemed to tower over it.

Suddenly I become lucid. I immediately forgot the amusement park. Part of me must have remembered that LD I had a little while back where it was my goal to kiss guys. Out of habit I leaned over to kiss Jim, but right as our lips touched I realized it felt wrong, so I then just took off in the air flying. I remember thinking, "Why would I even want to kiss anyone in an LD when I can fly...this is way better than kissing."

I remember feeling the wind in my hair and that feeling in my stomach as I would swoop down close to the ground before pulling back up and into the sky again. This didn't last too long, maybe a couple of minutes. But it was really nice. At one point I was flying over water, either a lake or ocean.