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I went to a beautiful neighborhood in quincy and it was where joe and adry lived and apologized to both of them and adry was happy to see me. I said "sorry i was being a c--- and left you hanging" and they were like no its cool it wasnt your fault

Been analyzing dreams for about a week and I feel I am on the verge of something or the other. I have tried cues to get me to sleep and I think I am changing them up too quickly. I pick runes, grab a notebook, change positions, even change meditation techniques before I go to bed.

My dreams are coming in jolts like misplaced chapters in some crazy book, unknown to me as the big plot. I wake with the most results from about 2-3 am, trying hard to use the MILD but if I fall asleep I never return. Many times I feel that I am grabbing onto the rope of a floating balloon but can never quite reach it. Despite this I sense that I am on the verge of a breakthrough.

I have been reading and I think the eyelid pattern technique will be the one for me this evening. I plan on returning here and journal a few dreams I have been having recently. Of note, dreams have been rather broken up and have had many smaller chapters with the larger chapter happening just before or after 3am. Alas 3am seems to be the wake point for me.

Didn't even have the chanting last night. Could be that I was so exhausted.

All I remember is a guy stabbing another guy. Lots of red blood. Like, bright red. The guy getting stabbed was kind of old, white hair, white beard. Skinny. Resembled Einstein in a way. I had about two other dreams but now I can't remember what they were about. I was going to write them down but got too tired and fell right back to sleep.

As I always say--there's always tonight!

2 dreams, non-lucid.

I'm with uncle Efren at a water park.

I'm in a theme park. I'm in a small group of people. I don't know who. One guy in the group is carring around Magic: The Gathering cards. I might be drunk and people can smell it on me.

So, I'm at an impasse. I've been faithfully DJing, as you can see, for the last 50 days. Nearly two months, now. My ability to recall dreams is much better than it has ever been before. I can say that I have progressed that much, at least. Lately my DJ activity has dipped (in terms of # of dreams per night) but mostly because I've been too lazy/tired to write them down during whenever I wake up. I feel like if I were to read over my entire DJ I'd see that I'm way too scatterbrained in terms of my efforts and attempts at induction techniques. The only thing I've done consistently is DJ and RC during the day. I think it's time for me to quit messing around and finally pick a technique to work on.

So I've strained all of the excess techniques and left my two favorites: The CAN WILD technique, developed on this forum, and the MILD technique by the big man himself, LaBerge.

Pros of CANWILD:
-LD at will, essentially.
-Seems like it'd get concrete results quicker.

Cons of CANWILD:
-Sleep Paralysis. I don't like the idea of the hallucinations. Though my fear of SP may create a self defeating mindset. If I quit fearing it and just rolled with it I may be OK.

Pros of MILD:
-No sleep paralysis.
-Seems more organic.

Cons of MILD:
-A bit harder to actually do consistently with all of the steps through the day that are required.

Suggestions?

And my fragment from last night:

I dreamt about this remnant that had been passed down a million different times abs touched a bunch of different times. Each time it got touched the person touching it imparted some sort of detail upon it.

L u c i d D r e a m G o a l s

Difficulty: Easy

• Have a lucid dream
• Stabilize a lucid dream
• Recall a whole dream
• Recall several dreams in one night
• Talk to a DC
• Have a successful DILD

Difficulty: Moderate

• Fly slowly and peacefully through the clouds
• Fly in a spazzy manner to another planet or dimension
• Go to Degrassi
• Bake a cupcake, and eat it
• Hold up a free hugs sign on the street
• Control the weather - make it snow, sunny, or stormy.
• Ride on top of a moving plane
• Pilot a plane
• Meet the Beatles
• Have a party with my friends
• Make/listen to music and remember it the next morning
• Ride a horse
• Walk on the moon
• Bring back the dinosaurs
• Explore the bottom of the sea
• Jump into the television
• Tell a DC that I love them
• 360 degree vision
• Find my DG

Difficulty: Hard

• Have a shared dream
• Have a WILD
• Get over my fear of SP
• Complete a Task of the Year
• Complete a Task of the Month

i remember sitting in civics and economics class. I was with a friend who doesn't actually even go to my school. We were talking about a movie: Requiem for a Dream. There was one scene that showed a woman laying down. In the scene her boobs looked really big. We were talking about it, and for some reason i wrote down what we were saying. I then proceeded to show it to the most annoying person i know (real person). He then proceeded to tell the teacher and get me in trouble. I lost points for my team (we had teams in the class, not real). end of dream.

august 30th

I remember standing in a bathroom at school. I get a text from a friend. Not a good friend. But my brother's friend. Anyways, he told me that i should text these two girls (real girls--->r&d). He said that i should text them because they were really horny and that they wanted to have sex with me. That they would be really easy to get naked pictures from. This txt message is all i remember. I can't remember if i ever acted on the friend's advice.

i don't remember the details...

It was a soccer game. I was playing really well. I scored a couple goals (one of which i dismatled the defence and flicked it in with my heel.) COOL. thats all i remember about the game.

august 27. i know that this is very VERY late to be posted but here it is anyways.

i remember being in a really tall hallway. the ceilings were at least a hundred feet tall. It was relatively crowded and there was some sort of event. I don't remember the purpose of the event. I was with some friends (female friends) and they were discussing whether i was hot... or not. One of my friends mom was also there pitching in to the conversation. Most thought that i was hot, but a couple disagreed: mainly because i had black circles under my eyes. I remember leaving the hallway

After leaving i walked into a staircase which is a real part of my real school. I was with a friend talking about what the girls had said. Thats when the dream ended.

I was in my bedroom thinking I should be cleaning out the cat pans when I heard a cat heaving like she was about to throw up, most likely coughing up a hairball. I waited until the cat sounded like she was done, and then I left the room to find the mess. Midna ran past me to my bedroom, I figured it was her that had coughed up a hairball. I followed the path she had come from and I saw something on top of the entertainment center. At least it should be easy to clean since it wasn't on the carpet. I got a step stool to climb up and look, there was a HUGE pile of vomit there, it was right on the back edge of the entertainment center, it looked too large to have been made by a single cat… It also looked like some of the mess had dropped off the back of the entertainment center. I climbed up on the top of the entertainment center, which is about three feet wide and made of solid wood, and peeked down behind it… to find another HUGE pile of vomit down behind it. Seriously?! How could all of that come out of a single cat? It seemed impossible to even imagine! And now I would have to clean it all up… yuck… I got some paper towels and came back, the towels proved to be excessively absorbent, and only a couple of them absorbed the vomit on top of the entertainment center… I was throwing that away when my mom said it was time to go, so hurry up. I followed her out to the car, very willing to not mess around with the second pile of vomit.

My mom drove us to a friend's house, I know they were friends, but I don't know them IWL, so I have no idea who they actually were. We were there for dinner, but it wasn't quite ready, so I looked around the house and the yard surrounding it. This was a new house, this was a house warming party for the people we were visiting. It was a very nice house with a pool in a very large back yard, very nice interior, several nice bedrooms, definitely very nice. There were also several kitties wandering around. I had to try for a while before I finally caught up with one and managed to pet it, I managed to pet a cute little tabby that purred as I stroked it. My mother finally found me and asked if I would help with the final preparations for dinner, which included peeling a few potatoes, I did that as I stared out the back window at the pool, which looked very inviting. Shortly after I finished that, dinner was ready, not sure how the potatoes got done so fast, but dinner was good… a pot roast with lots of fresh veggies that actually tasted really good (I don't normally like veggies much) and some fresh rolls. Dessert was even better! A huge sheet cake was brought out, it was a white cake with white chocolate frosting, and it was delicious! They passes out large slices of the cake, and I enjoyed every bite of mine, though I ended up wanting more. I wasn't going to be seen taking more, or ask for more, because I didn't want to seem like a pig, but I was wishing for more of it just the same.

To get my mind off of cake, I went to the back yard and looked around, several fluffy white bunnies ran for it when I stepped out, and I thought I would dip my feet in the pool even if I couldn't swim. I was sitting on the edge of the pool when an older woman came out with a large chunk of cake. She complained that a fly had landed on it and she dumped it in the pool before going back inside. A fly had touched it… um… that wasn't enough to stop me, and apparently the fact it would be soggy wasn't enough to stop me, either. I reached into the water and pulled the cake out, and amazingly enough it was not soggy. My answer for that was that the frosting was thick enough to keep the water out. I was eating the cake, staying to one side so no one would see me eating the cake. It was just as delicious as my first slice. My mother came out just as I finished the cake, saying it was time to go home. As we passed the cake, there was a lot left, I grabbed a third piece and took it with me. My mom said I was making a pig of myself… then she also grabbed a piece of cake for the road.

Back home my mother and I were going to watch a movie, a horror movie called 'The Doll' was on the instant movies through NetFlix, the puke behind the entertainment center had been completely forgotten. As the movie started, I saw it starred David Caruso, who plays Horatio Caine on CSI: Miami. Which was weird since his name wasn't on the cast list. It wasn't until here that I did a random RC. The RC revealed that I was dreaming! I definitely hadn't expected that one, I did another RC, and then I was finally lucid. But what would I have time to do now?

Ok, maybe a task of the year from Dreamviews? I thought I would try the one where the goal is to see how the pyramids in Egypt were built, so I focused on opening a portal to get there, and it finally opened. My mother told me to hurry back or I would miss the whole movie, then the portal closed behind me. I was now in the deserts of Egypt, I looked around to see if I was there in the proper time period, and it looked like I was. I went over to a giant pyramid that looked like it was under construction. I saw groups of people pushing the huge blocks up the ramps to get them into their proper positions at the top of the part that was completed. I found that to be quite disappointing, I had been hoping to find something interesting. This was just the typical mundane explanation of how it was done.

I decided to look at it closer, anyway, since I had come all the way through time to see this. As I got closer I saw that the people moving the blocks up the ramp didn't look like they were straining at all, I got even closer and saw they were moving the blocks with ease, even going uphill. I saw some people preparing another huge block to go up the ramps, and I got a closer look, they had black stones that they were working with, somehow they were attaching them to the bottom of the large block… the large block was sitting up on smaller blocks, allowing the people to get to the underneath side of the huge block… I also saw that the ramps going up the pyramid were covered with black stone, there was also a railing about a foot high along the edge of the ramps. I saw some people coming down a narrower ramp from the back side of the pyramid, they were pushing containers of the black stones back down from the top.

I spent a bit of time figuring out what was happening there when one of the people in charge apparently thought I should be working, not watching. So I helped move one of the huge stones all the way up the pyramid, it was very easy, and I realized how it worked as I did that… it was all done with magnets! Each of the huge stones were being kept floating a couple of inches off the ramp by a magnetic field between the stones on the bottom of the block and those on the ramp. They must have been angled just right, because the block didn't tend to slide back down the ramp. The railing along the ramp was to keep the block from being pushed right off the edge, which since there was no friction that would have been very easy to do. The block slid easily up to the top, where the stones were removed from under the huge block and it was slid into place. It was very heavy to slide into place, but that was such a small move compared to the entire path from the bottom… magnetic fields. I wondered if that idea had ever been thought of before… most likely. I was looking at the block we had just placed when I woke.

★★

Flying

I was with a group of people and decided to take off flying. I was going over an outside landscape that was lush with trees and a certain path. I flew until i came across the same scene that i had seen before. that looked like the one i left my friends on. while i was flying i knew that i had wings, i could feel them sort of.

Train WTF

I was on a train going through what appeared to be India. I got off the train and wanted to avoid some people so i hid with a couple others behind some strange trees. I waited for the other people to leave. When they were gone i left and found a bathroom and drank some tap water. It tasted wrong. I wondered if tap water in india was bad for you. I eventually boarded the train again.

House

Just being in a strange house and i appeared to be living with Jaas and his gf Haley.

Notes: After successfully recalling a couple of nonsensical non-lucid dreams last night, I had a positive outlook for remembering more dreams this night… and I did! A few weird non-lucids, a couple of lucids… compared to my recall of late, my recall last night was downright epic! I am sooooo happy I seem to have broken my dry spell! On a side note, when I was about to go to bed, I checked my kitties' food dish to be sure they had food for the night. I found they did… but it was covered with ants! I was very annoyed at that, since I had to stay up long enough to clean up the ants before I could go to bed, and I think that influenced a couple of my unpleasant non-lucid dreams. I had some good recall last night, but when I fell asleep, I was not successful in slipping into my WILD…

FA - I rolled over in bed, not realizing that I was in a dream, and I felt I had a lot of itches all over my body. I tried to scratch a couple places, I didn't want to have to get up and wake myself up… I remembered cleaning up ants from my cats' food dish before bed, and I thought how strange it is that after seeing ants I often get the sensation that there are ants crawling on me even if there are not. Scratching wasn't working… and I thought I felt something. I reached for my lamp to turn on the light and see if there might be a few ants in my bed, which was really going to piss me off since now I would have to change my bed in the middle of night… The light came on and revealed that my bed, and I, was covered with ants! Hundreds of them, no, thousands of them! My first response was to get up, and try to brush them off, it wasn't working, I went to call for my mom to help and I got a mouth full of ants, I spat them out and finally did call out for my mom… and that woke me up.

FA - Wow… that had been a disturbing dream… I was still feeling the ants on me from my dream, crawling all over me. I sat up and turned on the lamp by my bed… no ants, thankfully. I sat there and thought about the dream I had just had, I heard something on the floor beside my bed. It sounded weird, but I figured it was most likely one of my cats down there doing something, most likely getting into something that she shouldn't be. I looked down to see which cat it was and stop the cat from doing something she shouldn't be… what I saw was the bloody carcass of a cat that was teeming with ants! The bloody cat moved, looking up at me and giving off a pained meow, as I was paralyzed by the sickening horror of what was happening to my poor kitty… A scream welled up in my throat and burst out, which woke me up.

FA - That was too much… I had to go check on my kitties! My poor kitties! I sat up quickly in bed, disturbing and chasing my one cat, Midna from the room. I saw a dark form of her as she ran from the room, well, at least she was ok, but I wanted to see my other two cats before I could go back to sleep. I left my room and went into my game room, my black cat, Shadow, met me at the door with a meow. I scooped her into my arms and cuddled her for a bit, then I left that room, looking to find Princess, my fluffy white cat. She wasn't in the living room or the kitchen, she was most likely in my mom's room sleeping with my mom… I didn't want to disturb my mother, but I couldn't go back to sleep without seeing that Princess was ok… I carefully opened the door to my mother's room, allowing just a small amount of light in, since Princess is white I would see her easily… I saw that the bed was moving, the whole bed was moving, it was nothing but a mound of ants! Ants! Why so many fucking ants?! Just like in my dream… wait… dream… I did a nose pinch RC and found out I was dreaming… just a dream… whew.

So I set the mound of ants on fire and burned them away without touching my mom or the two dogs and one cat on the bed… my mom looked over at me and sleepily asked me to turn up the air conditioner, she was hot. I said sure, then closed the door and moved away. Hmmm… enough playing with DC ants, my DC mom, DC dogs, and DC cats. What was my first goal? I remembered that my first goal was to go meet up with MoSh, we had wanted to see if Asuka knows anything about the enemies who most recently attacked her, to see if there was any connection between the attacks that happened earlier and the most recent attack, it seems like there are too many attacks for it to be random. So I opened a portal to MoSh's inner world and went through…

On the other side of the portal I found I was outside of MoSh's house in his inner world, MoSh was outside in his yard with a large black dog, I headed towards him and the dog. As I approached MoSh, however, the dog disappeared, MoSh looked a bit disappointed, though he didn't look like he was upset at me. I was hoping I hadn't interrupted anything important. MoSh said he was glad I was there, he gave me a big hug, I was a bit surprised, but I hugged him back and we went into the house. Asuka was inside the house, and we went into the living room, and there was a comfortable place to talk. MoSh wanted to know if Asuka knew the people who came after her the most recent time, she said no, she didn't know them, in fact, she didn't know any of the people who had come after her the first time they had done it… except those who had stolen her flame… and of course if they were trying it for a second or third time, of course she had recognized them. I asked her why, since she has been training with Vegeta and Tuvok, why she hadn't been doing more to defend herself… she said she thought I already knew that, she didn't want to lose control. I said I thought Tuvok and Vegeta had been helping her with that. She seemed a bit irritated about me asking that… She said she wasn't certain she could keep control.

Asuka added that someone had been trying to nab her off of Voyager one of the times she was there with Tuvok… but Q had interfered with that. I asked if Q had said who the asshole was. She said the guy had been hired by someone, but he hadn't known anything about whoever had hired him, just that he was going to get paid well and he was supposed to infiltrate Voyager to get someone. Great… more mysterious enemies. I was thinking it might still be a good idea to open a portal and try to track down and see if there might be any commonality that connects the various assholes who have gone after Asuka. I was about to say something about that and open a portal when everything faded and I woke.

04.09.2010

Launch (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This was just the end of a long dream I can't remember much about.

I was on an old, rickety bus, travelling through a hot, dry country. All the windows on the bus were down, and I had my head out to cool down. The sun was scorching, and the light reflecting off the light soil was making me feel slightly dizzy. The ride was uncomfortable. I felt every rock the bus drove over. After a while though, it stopped and I got off. I found myself beside a shack. I think it was a public toilet. As I walked into the shade cast by the building, I noticed (with worry) the vast quantity of snakes and huge spiders around. They were everywhere. Enormous snakes coiled on trees and around rocks were looking at me and baring their fangs. I backed away from the trees only to find myself up against a monstrous bird-eating spider. (Only the biggest hairiest fucking spider in the world... yes it does eat birds)



I turned around again, and finding more unsavoury creatures, looked for an escape route. I would up with my back to a lake (infested with eels and crocodiles of course) and paused. If I paused to think a bit more often in dreams I'd be far better off. Why were there so many stereotypically scary animals after me? The situation was ridiculous, I didn't need to reality-check. I stepped onto the air and floated out over the lake. The mood of the dream had changed dramatically. The sun was no longer scorching, just pleasant. The lake was flat and smooth, with tiny ripples appearing below me wherever I floated. There was an island in the middle of the lake with two 50m high trees on it. Seemed nice. I floated around the lake a bit more just taking everything in. Then I spread my arms wide before throwing them downwards. There was a bang, and I was launched skyward at a breakneck speed. The water below me was displaced as if a metor had landed. I shot up to twice the height of the tallest trees, and got the now-familiar stomach-in-mouth feeling that always comes with high-speed flight. I landed in the upper branches of the tree, then woke up.

22.08.2010

Riding Through The City (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Not much sleep last night, so in the afternoon I went for a nap. This initially started off as a WILD, but I got too drowsy and fell asleep naturally. I got one nice little hallucination as I was dropping off though. I was visualising leaning with my back against a brick wall, outside a bar. There was a small light attached to the wall above my head. I was only vaguely aware of its presence until it turned blue and exploded with a crack/pop. I heard the sound so vividly, and the outside of my vision went blue for a split-second. It shocked me back to full wakefullness, but the sound seemed to still be ringing in my ears. Anyway, shortly after that I fell into a few dreams which I now can't remember.

I remembered the one I became lucid in, however. It started off seemingly as a continuation of a dream I'd had many months ago, where I was playing football for the Northern Ireland international team. We were now in the World Cup. The strange thing was, the pitch we were playing on was in the place of my back garden. There was no real stadium to speak of. I became semi-lucid when I noticed how easy it was to run towards the ball. Running took absolutely no effort, and I was really fast. Easy running is becoming a bit of a dreamsign. At half time, I jogged to the petrol station next to my house. I fancied a chocolate ice cream or something. My friend Hugh had given me money to get him a Snickers too. As I wandered round the shop looking for said Snickers, I found I was having real difficulty counting out the money I needed. I kept dropping change, and the handful of change I was holding just seemed to get bigger and bigger. I also couldn't keep any figures in my head for more than a few seconds. After the fifth time I dropped a load of money, I said,

"Fuck it, it's obviously a dream." and threw the handful of change across the shop. Just then, a guy who introduced himself as "Jeff" came in. He was slightly chubby, and wearing a crappy suit. He had the distinct air of a con-man, which I immediately picked up on. He said,
"Hey buddy, it's Jeff, remember me from that other night at the club?" I suspected that he was trying to fool me into trusting him by suggesting a generic situation- one like which a guy my age was likely to be familiar with. (And not remember clearly) I laughed in his face and went outside. I looked back downhill at the football pitch. There was no-one playing on it any more. There was a clinking noise to my right, and Jeff came out of the shop, along with a women and a man. I flew up to the roof of the petrol station and sat there for a bit, contemplating what to do with my free time. After a second, Jeff and the other two floated up to join me.
"So what are you doing here?" the woman asked me.
"I don't know yet." I replied. "Just thinking about what to do with myself here. It's a completely simulated reality inside my own head and I'm out of ideas... Well, lately I've just been working on some dream control."



With that, I stepped off the roof and glided to another as if gravity had been cancelled out. The others followed me. After a few more leaps, I found myself down at ground level again, in a street I knew should've been miles away. There were four motorcycles by the side of the road. Big huge ones, like Harley Davidsons. We each mounted up and roared off down the road. It seemed to be getting to evening time, and the buildings had the same orangey-red glow as the sky. I looked up to see the moon, and another, purple planet farther away. Jeff said something about building up enough dream control to manipulate the planets. I told him I was having enough trouble maipulating a small city, and detailed my previous failed attempts at getting from one place to another through my own city. Just to test myself, I tried to rotate the city around us, using a spire in the distance as a point of reference. Nothing happened. I shrugged and we rode on.

The people we passed in the street seemed terrified of us. Because there were four of us, riding motorcycles, and due to the orange tint to the whole scene, I was reminded of a scene in The Simpsons where the four horsemen of the apocalypse appear. I commented that I felt like one of them. Jeff laughed. We were getting closer to the spire I'd seen in the distance earlier. I could now tell it was cathedral. Quite suddenly, it changed to nighttime, and I felt like I was getting close to waking up. I felt my own body in bed. Tried to hold on, but it was impossible. I don't know what woke me up at all!