Jamie showed up but she wasn't happy. Jamie 1 We were in WOT again... At the beginning of the third book when everyone is sitting in the woods planning. Jamie was sitting by a tree with some one. She was giving me a mean look. I had no other dreams about her so I don't know what the deal is. Cats FA, I'm on a bed like mine but the room is slightly different. Our home cats are on my bed. The grey/ blue cat goes by me wanting to be pet. He does a big pose to show off. Hopefully now I can get back to my normal routine. Hopefully it will improve the Jamie dreams.
Finally back home. But spending the long weekend in Lethbridge. My cousin is getting married there Saturday, so leaving Friday. Jamie trapped Dreamed that Jamie was in the wheel of time setting. She was in a cage . A man in white garb was questioning her. It was the black guy from the show who was a whitecloak. He left eventually. Jamie grabbed the bars and stared through them. She lightly cried, " Robert." Next day I asked Raven to help. Rescue Just a brief flash. Jamie and two others were freed from their cages. They were thanking me. Jamie wanted a hug but I saw her as a blind girl I didn't recognize. I outstretched my arms but one of t6 guys hugged me instead. My memory fades after. A but later I wander by a man by a fire. Two wolves approach me. He says not to worry, they won't attack unless I'm an enemy. But they have to sniff me out first. I'm scared and cautious. I but my arms in front to protect my organs or something. They sniff me seeming uncaring but not violent. I realize this was probably Elyas from the books. That's all I remember. I need to give Jamie that dream hug.
Jamie 1 I wasn't with Jamie. I was watching her walk down an alleyway by a middle school in Lethbridge on the Northside close to where I use to live. I saw a black shadow/shape following her. Strange I think this is WOT related. I was in a bedroom with an older woman who also looked young. She was wearing old style red robes. She reminded me of how someone might dress in the Red Ajah from the books. She was convincing me to sleep with her. I wasn't sure. She has bruises on her arms. Near the bruises the skin showed her real age. She instructed me to sit beside her on the bed. I wasn't sure where to start. She told me to kiss her. I started to even though I really didn't like it. Thankfully I woke up right away. Big battle I was floating with Jamie in the sky. We were in The Wheel of Time. Rand was also with us. He was looking at a huge battle on the ground. Armies of Trollocks against human foot soldiers. The humans were losing. Rand started shouting and getting really angry. I can't remember what he did but he wiped out the Trolloc army with a grand display of magic. Jamie was elated at watching the scene. At least she didn't seem to have a problem with me in this dream. Spoiler for the wheel of time books. The dream seemed to be depicting a scene at the end of the first book. That's all I remember. Jamie is still talkative in the voice. Just not many dreams. I'm glad she shows up consistently.
Bed An in bed dream with Jamie. Date I seemed to be on an outing with Jamie. We were somewhere then I was driving her home. She was not talking and ignoring me the whole time. She had a bad attitude as well. Next two nights no Jamie dreams. I wonder if something is really wrong. Is something up with her or is it a dream demon related thing. One thing: I hope that if she's with me in person that she doesn't do the silent treatment thing. Or at least communicates: I'm upset/ splitting. Let me walk it off or go through it until it passes. Based on how she was with the past, I was never okay with that behavior. I know I'm not supposed to take it personal. But I can't help how I feel when it happens. So at least communicate. I noticed when we were working, she would be quiet when a manager Gisele was working. After Jamie left I saw Gisele get a customer service girl in trouble because she was talking with a male employee while working. Still, Jamie could have said something to me about it so I understood. Communication is everything. Work I was working with that Scott guy again. He called me a name I didn't like. I told him to stop. But he just started shouting. I said : I don't want to work with this guy anymore. I really miss the constant Jamie dreams from this time last year. I hope they improve!
Back home tomorrow night yay! And I also have a piano to do at the Didsbury Masonic Hall the next day. Jamie 1 Just the sensation of us kissing in bed. Jamie 2 Some woman was talking to Jamie about me. The same woman that kept telling me in dreams that me and Jamie are supposed to have a daughter. This time she's telling Jamie to think of me as her husband.. Okay. Who is this creepy dream lady? I'm skeptical. I did hear from the Jesus voice last year that me and Jamie are supposed to practice like we're married in the voice. Strange. Jamie 3 Me and Jamie are in bed holding one another. False awakening, Jamie is in another bed. Some guy hands me a love note and tries to get in bed with me. I just shoot him away. What's with me and Jamie having these homo dreams lately? Demons be throwing all kinds of pathetic things at us lately. It seems like we're not budging. Work Dreamed I was working with that Scott guy again. No thanks. I'm about to finish the first WOT book. Hopefully I have more dreams about that as well.
Just low recall in general. Had one night of dreams. All of them were too abstract for me to really recall. Maybe one with me and Rand? We were falling? In space , and clutching onto falling or floating beams?. Very fever dream like. Jamie One flash. We were by the hood of a vehicle. We emptied out our pockets onto the hood because we were going to split everything equally. But also we were joking and laughing about it. Like children. It's a borderline age regression thing. I guess. At least it was a positive dream for a change.
Unfortunately I have to stay a day or two in settler to work. Disrupting my normal routine. Very frustrating. Jamie 1 Me and Jamie are in the Wheel of Time books again. Nothing much going on. She is driving a black SUV in the dream. Driving from WhiteBridge to Caemlyn on the road between the two. (I just read the part in the books where Rand and Matt escape WhiteBridge and go on that road.) I'm with her in the car and she's smiling as if happy. This could be confirmation of her drive bys. I was asking for a dream confirmation that she does so that very night. Still prefer a verbal confirmation. I will ask the Jamie voice to confirm certain things in dreams. Usually she does if it's a simple request. Jamie 2 Last nights dreams. I was outside. Maybe Jamie's farm. Everyone was camping outside on bunk beds. She was with some girl and ignoring me. They slept in separate bunks, but not together. I was a bit flustered she wasn't talking to me. Jamie 3 Just an image of Jamie walking by a yellow car and keying it. Was this my yellow Neon? Oh no, she keyed my neon that is probably going to a scrapyard within a year or two anyway. Woke up amnd figured something was wrong with Jamie in the dreams? (Dream demons, etc) So I prayed about it. Jamie 4 I'm sitting with Jamie outside her dream house. There is healing energy about. Jamie is staring at the waves of colors that is coming from the healing. hopefully the dreams improve tonight.
I did see Jamie make an effort for more affectionate dreams but it seemed to backfire? Jamie 1 I was in Jamie's dream space where there's a house on a farm. I was nervous about going into the house to see her. There were robots doing renovations on some barns. I was helping one of the robots who had an English accent. He seemed to be like the " Stuttering Bill." Robot from the final Dark Tower book. I remember climbing some crazy ladder but that's it. Jamie 2 I was taking a cross country trip on a Greyhound bus. Crossed the border in the eastern states. Forgot what I did there. On the way back a bus was full, but I was provided someone with a blue car. I sat in the back. Suddenly Packer was there, the one Mormon guy who went on a mission to Africa. I remember saying to make sure you sleep much of the way. I noticed the roads seemed icy but I trusted the driver. Packer was now gone and Jamie was in his place. She put her hand over mine. I noticed she was wearing fancy gloves. I grabbed her hand putting my palm over hers and lightly held it. She was like: No! Not that way! She grabbed my hand again and seemed to indicate to Interlock fingers. But she wasn't happy with that either. I was like: I only know 2 ways, what other ways are there? She just looked upset and Impatient with me. I was getting really frustrated. I woke up to her voice apologizing for the dream. She said I did it right but something else was bothering her, maybe something she did? Still why take it out on me? Gross I had a false awakening in the middle of having sex with someone. It wasn't Jamie and it didn't feel right. Especially when I noticed, "Satan," and, "666". Tattooed on their behind. I stopped and began looking for my clothes. The person wasn't upset with me. Still I felt gross and wrong and that what I was doing really wasn't me. I was on the floor looking for my clothes when I woke up. The wheel of Time I was in the Wheel of Time books. ( The season ended so now I'm taking up the books. Both reading some parts and audio books other parts ). I'm in the part where Nynaeve wakes up from everyone escaping Shadar logoth. I'm messing with a white computer case by a river. Nynaeve asks what I'm doing? I look around and realize that what I'm doing in that setting must be bizarre. I almost decided to laugh it off and say: you were looking for a white tower. Here's one. But I just woke up. Bad apple Jamie asks me to slice her an apple? In the kitchen all the fruit is rotten. I go to slice one and it's rotten. One part looks fine so I try to cut it out. But when I look back it's rotten also. Still hoping for better dreams.
The Jamie voice seemed to not like my last post. Not sure why. I just go through recall dry spells from time to time. I'm still trying. Jamie 1 Just a vague dream. There was a McDonald's attached to a Wal Mart. Jamie was working inside but seemed to be avoiding me. I left but went through the drive through for some reason. Jamie 2 Jamie was walking around a bunch of screens displaying lesbian porn. She was trying hard not to look. But couldn't help herself at moments. The struggle is real. Jamie 3 Jamie was standing by a white PC case Inspecting it. Not much. Our dreams seem to lack a certain affection lately. Maybe I'm just not recalling.
One night I made the mistake of watching an insideous movie before bed. Jamie Just a dream of Jamie getting dragged away screaming in a black place by the monster guy from the movies behind the red door. Well damn. Now I have to be careful what I watch? Jamie 2 Sex related dream. I won't go into details. Apparently Raven dreamed of me Jamie with Jesus in a garden. Now why can't I remember that?
Jamie drive by? I scored a 2060 super off market place. Unfortunately I had to drive to bearspaw to get it. But for 140? Total steal. After I got home I drove around the block to see if the Punjabi restaurant was open. I was craving some butter chicken but it was closed. So I went home. As I shut off the car I noticed a black SUV came around the corner and some dark hair. I got out immediately to see if it was Jamie. The woman looked at me but gave no visible reaction. The Jamie voice said, " that looks kind of like me." I noticed the bangs were gone. The vehicle almost seemed to slow down for a second and then sped off. The Jamie voice said. " That was close.". Then later seemed to admit that it was her. Still not sure what to believe. If it was her let's go through my checklist. Could be clearly seen, ✅. Was intentional about at least being comfortable around being near me, ✅. I think that's it. Also I'm staying home this week to catch up on taxes. Jordan I saw Jordan the McDonald's franchise owner from coaldale. He was talking to me and my dad and then drove off. My dad mentioned that Jordan seemed religious. I said yes I know his family attend church. Jamie 1 Sex dream. Not giving details. Nice view! Jamie 2 Just that I was walking with her in a poorly lit hallway. Nothing else to recall. Short but sweet.
Back to work in Stettler until tuesday night. Home for wed, and thurs. again. Me and the Jamie voice are having a time... I keep splitting while my mind wanders at work. Yesterday I found my self on pseudo psychology tiktok again and made it worse. We seem to be okay. Jamie dreams have been up an down. First night I kept waking up and falling asleep, every dream I was in a different part of wheel of Time. Daughter Heir I was talking to the jamie voice. Trying to see if we could sense eachother. I said, "Hold me please." but when I finished the phrase I was in a Royalty palace and Elayne The Daughter heir was staring at me confused. I realize she must have heard what I said. I woke up out of embarrassment. Jamie 1 I was in a town square. apparently I did something great in some battle or something people were cheering me on. Jamie came up to me and said, "I pledge my allegiance to you!" I just woke up. The pledge of allegiance? What country are we in? Jamie 2 Just a flash of Jamie in some ancient garb. looked like the wheel of time. She was holding hands with some girl like they were a couple and smiling.... She's supposed to be holding my hand in the dreams. I thought that's what they were for. Shadar logoth I wa in that evil city from The Wheel of Time. Thy abandoned city that is so evil, that not even the Dark one's troops will enter. I was staring inside a doorway, and inside was an enclosed square. A giant roman like pillar was in the room. It was massive. Some creepy voices made by things I couldn't see were whispering in my ear. One voice low pitch and one voice high pitched speaking in unison. They were saying something about something breaking. The pillar then broke at the top. It was hollow inside. Perrin I was in the scene where the Trollocs attack the two rivers. Perrin was in a house that was slightly on fire fighting a trolloc. Everything was super slow motion. I startled him and he was turning around andalso his axe was swinging towards me... um. But it was super slow motion. Next night: Lan. a flash that Lan the warder was trying to come onto me. I had no shirt on and he grabbed for my hairy chest.... I was like : WTF no. EW. But I thankfully woke up quickly. funny WTF Jamie I was falling alseep. I heard the Jesus voice say, "Jamie wants to wash your spirit." I was like :Wha??? I was naked and Jsmie had a bath basin, wooden , like from really old times. I guess we were still in the wheel of time universe. The had and old bristle brush with a long handle and soap. She starts scrubbing my body and laughing. After she was done she said, "Come over here Robert. Do you want to wash my bum?" and yeah... I'm just going to leave the rest out. Made me laugh though. last night. not as exciting. old co worker Just a flash of walking around a large city. I kept seeing Mansi, the girl I use to work with years ago at Mcdonald's. I wanted to say hi. But I could never catch up to her. Jamie is angry Jamie is in a white space and looking at me. She says, "I never cared about you." I woke up and was wondering what was going on. Maybe she thought I was after the Mansi girl? Oops.
Going home tomorrow for 2 days. I'm exhausted. Jamie Directly after posting my last entry. Me and Jamie were sitting on the floor facing one another. My hands in hers. We were discussing the seriousness what I said. She seemed to be as serious as me. Fight Me and Jamie were walking around in a building somewhere. There were people in sleeping bags on the floor. Some guy was arguing with me. He wanted to get violent. I somehow talked him into not being violent towards me. He got mad and punched someone in a sleeping bag. I went around the corner and told Jamie that we were calling the police on that guy. I guess the guy heard what I said. In a flash he was fighting me. For a few moves I used his aggression against him. This made him more mad. He got me on the floor and I was trying to hold him back. I can't remember what happened after. Ladder Just a dream of working. I was high up a ladder. It started to tip over when I tried to get down. That's all I remember.
Back in Stettler. I've been given 2 new prayers. One for the kindness of Jamie's heart. And 2: to pray that she finds me. My 15 minute prayer list got longer. Jamie 1 A dream of her standing behind a counter looking zoned out. Not responding to me. Uh oh. That hasn't happened in a while. Jesus A dream of Jesus hugging my brother. My brother is like the most anti Christian guy I know. Also why my family knows nothing about my faith. My family is toxic enough without adding extra things they could traumatize me with. Running I was in a field with a woman. Some guy, David, ran past us at super speed. I ran up a hill after him. The woman following behind me stopped from being tired. I kept going up but the path got way too steep. I stopped too. I think the woman was Jamie. Jamie again Jamie was with me outside by a building. I had very low awareness. She was trying to convince me that some tall British woman with glasses should be my girlfriend. She suggested that I write a letter to her. I reluctantly did. Gave the letter to the woman and ran away. Me and Jamie followed the woman to a bar. Jamie convinced me to approach her again. I did with some light banter but the woman was with two other men. She then implied with a joke that maybe she would have 3 dicks in her tonight instead of two... Okay I pretended to be into that and promptly walked away. I went outside and Jamie was there. She got in front of me. I was behind her. We were in an embrace we seemed to be having sex as we were both moaning. But I couldn't feel anything. She abruptly stopped after a minute and left. Sigh: please no more loyalty tests. Testing in a dream is inaccurate because in a lot of dreams I lack considerable awareness. Bible says he who finds a wife finds a good thing. It says nothing about dating multiple woman or finding a girlfriend . Jesus already called on me to think of Jamie as exactly how I would a wife. Even though it hasn't happened yet. So that's the position I'm in and I'm not backing down. Jamie 3 I was in a fast food restaurant. Jamie was working the counter. I was looking at the menu when a woman from the group behind me went around me and went to where Jamie was standing and tried to order. Jamie scolded the woman and said to wait in line until I had ordered.
Not much dreams. Back home for a couple of days. Wtf I was in a large living room. Kittens were around. That skunk was there. It went up to me and wanted to be pet. I pet it. The dream transitioned to a dinner table. A young girl who was half human and half pony was there. I was telling her how much she had grown in the past few days. She was laughing but unsure what to say. Asuka and Jamie were there I think exchanging confused glances at one another in response to what she said. Next night I was in bed. Me and the Jamie voice were having discussions about the subject of the last entry. We both seem to have temptations that are difficult to control. And we both know that when we physically come together that we can't indulge with other people that way. But yet, the desires might plague us. I went into prayer and asked Jesus what should we do then? How do we handle these desires which never seem to go away? Jesus answered in a dream in a strange way. [B]Jesus interview[/B] I saw Jesus in a low income apartment. A television crew was interviewing him. He wore scraggly clothes, and his hair was slightly unkempt. He also wore a black baseball hat. His demeanor was like a ,"Dude. Bro." guy. He was smiling and saying that sometimes he walks around on this earth as a physical man. He talks to a lot of people and some people don't know who he is. Then he took a swing from a beer. I woke up in shock. I pondered the question I asked him and considered if the dream was a response. The key seemed to be the beer he was drinking. It's said Jesus drank wine in the Bible. He said drunkenness was a sin in the Bible but never said having a singular drink now and then. So, these desires were to be handled in moderation? Unsure I asked in a prayer about the dream and if the beer he was drinking was alcoholic. I got an instant response that it was non alcoholic. So then I figured he was saying to relieve that pressure with a substitute that isn't the actual act. Interesting. Cave Just a dream of me and Jamie, maybe some other people sitting in a dark cave. Jamie was sitting arms around her knees.
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