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18.02.2014

Gary's Old Yoyos (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

On some kind of a busy train station.
Some bearded guy shouts: "What happened on my train?"
A bunch of men shouted in union: "Gary's old yoyos!"
The bearded guy repeats it calmly as if he's not surprised: "Gary's old yoyos...."

Wat?

I was at my home, but instead of a forest behind it there was a cliff falling at least a mile down into a beautiful river valley. At the top of the cliff there was 20 feet or so of rock at a 45 degree angle before it went totally vertical. A friend of mine who's very much into hiking and climbing was climbing around on the horizontal part, so I went over and climbed down a bit to talk to her. Right at the edge of the cliff, where it goes vertical, there was a hand-sized crack in the rock. She climbed down to it, put her hands it in, and let herself fall off the edge. The wind tried to pull her outwards over the valley but, holding onto the crack on the rock, she ended up floating over the precipice like a flag. She wanted me to join her, and I did. So I was there looking down miles into the abyss, with the wind trying to pry my hands out of the crack. It was very strong, and when it shifted, I could feel my hands shifting in the crack, and I would feel vividly anxious, thinking I was about to lose my grip. I said to my friend beside me: "We'll die if we fall, isn't this dangerous?" and her answer was, "of course not, if you're brave enough to try, you're strong enough to hold on." And those words came across to me as such a powerful expression of freedom and vitality, I knew it was true and wasn't worried anymore.

Journal Entry non-lucid #37 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed and told myself that I want to remember my dreams. I heard Robert Monroe's intro to focus 10 audio but I fell asleep before finishing it. The influence for the anger part of my dream had to do with church. My friend got me angry and a little kid got me angry by screaming into my ear while I was sitting down. This is not my typical monday dream recall. Since there was a holiday I slept in.

Dream fragment 1, 11:11pm-3:47am."":
Something about bullying.
English 1C teacher was a student in my school. He wrote some sort of book.
This guy warned me that I was getting ripped off by these two guys, one of which is Mark Dice.

I got up and watched some motivational clips again read a bit about LD and ate some food because I am hungry. I made myself cereal this time. I tried listening to Robert Monroe's audio again but shortly went in and out of consciousness. Until i realized I was doing this I wasn't really sleeping.

Dream fragment 2, 4:31am-8:17am." Angry at teacher": I found myself on a motorcycle, inside of an Airport that looked like the one form GTA IV. I stopped at the helicopter landing zone. I sat down in the meditation posture by crossing my legs, and began to meditate for some reason. This guy came into the airport with his futuristic motorcycle. He did a wheelie and the front wheel transformed and disappeared. He jumped off the motorcycle by doing some aerodynamic flip. He landed with one knee on the floor and one hand touching the floor with his fist, it looked cool. The motorcycle didn't fall though, it remained motionless, but it accelerated on same spot. It drove itself off and he called it back with a push of a button.

Still in a meditative posture I tried to concentrate again. This time I saw different people from my school especially the math lab flock to my location. I got up because I didn't like the idea of meditating as a form of show off. I found this store and my Calc III math teacher wrote some stuff down on paper, he told me it was attendance. I briefly looked at it and saw someone's name, which was good enough for me to confirm the truth. My math teacher asked me if I could go deliver the attendance to the office for him. He warned me that I have to deliver it to the door and not give it to the person. I said sure and left to go find the office.

As I walked to the office, which resembled my old high school pathway, I saw a friend from Eng 1A, Aa. I also saw a much more attractive version of her, which I assumed was her sister. I looked at the sister smiled flirtatiously and said hi completely forgetting about Aa. I walked inside the office and I saw them again but this time from a different angle, Aa saw me and she smiled and said hi. I sat next to a table right next to them. I asked them, "didn't I just see you guys right before I walked inside the building?" They looked completely confused, all of them said no. I told them Dejavu. I started talking to the fictional character, Aa's sister, Aa got mad and left. I said bye to her sister and left. I was lost once again. I showed back at the table and I found CA which is a girl that was ignored in the dream and is ignored in waking life. I asked her about the attendance office. She said she could take me. As we walked along this pathway it started to rain on us. I realized I am going to be late to class so I said bye to her and departed from her. Even though I ran in a hurry I was aware of my surroundings. I saw this wooden light house stair case, pretty old wood, eaten by years of hard rain. It smelled like old wood that has grown fungus on it. I don't remember if I made it to the attendance office but next thing I knew it I was inside my classroom.

I entered the class room while teacher was teaching. I squinted to see who the teacher was, it was my Calc III teacher again. I thought that's weird this was not the class room I thought I would be in. I didn't follow through with my reasoning because I was too caught up with the plot and if it was not a dream I don't want to be standing around looking at my hands. The classroom was indeed a strange one it was a blend of my high school arts and crafts class and something else. I found a seat to sit in, which was also the only seat. This kid said I don't usually sit here. I said yeah that is true, I laughed at first. I picked up my stuff and came to realize that was the only seat. I told him I am going to sit there. He had his back pack on it and didn't want to give it up. I got mad and picked up his backpack and threw it. I tried to reasonably explain to him that I am going to sit there. My teacher got mad and yelled, "SHUT UP". I got angry, but not without reason and I said, "YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP, I was only late because I was delivering your stupid attendance". He told me he doesn't care and told me to leave his class room.

Dream fragment 3, 4:31am-8:17am." Angry again, at student": I only say that this is a new dream fragment because I forgot the whole dispute with my teacher.Well the dream started with me inside of my Calc III class. I had my original seat or so I believed I did. My teacher was teaching and I was taking notes. I wasn't aware of what I actually wrote though. This guy sat in front of me and tried to annoy me. He kept turning around and touching my stuff. I told him to stop touching my stuff. I thought about George Carlin's joke about stuff for a split second, but it only amused me for that very second. I told him to stop touching my stuff and for him to mind his own business. He wasn't listening so I forced him to turn around by grabbing him by the neck and turning him. He thought it was funny. I got angry and put my hands in a knuckle with my middle finger slightly sticking up while still bent though. I forced it into the back of his spine rubbing his spinal cord with my knuckle and he fell to the floor begging me to stop. I stopped but the teacher was finished with his lesson and I missed some of it. My teacher left pretty quickly. While outside people asked me why I did that, some asked me how I did, where is the weak spot locate. I didn't care to respond to much of them. I went back to my teacher's office, which looked nothing like his office. It looked more like a normal accounting office not a math teacher office. Well he was eating lunch, and I didn't want to disturb him so I was heading out. He signaled me to come and I did. This women brought me a seat and sat right in between us. She was saying, "hmm" after I said something. I thought that is weird. I told the teacher that I didn't mean to hurt the guy but he was distracting me from school work. I pleaded my case by bringing up the fact that I normally take notes when teacher is talking. He smiled then laughed and said don't worry about it.

Dream fragment 4, 4:31am-8:17am." Weird Costume": I was in a store. I imagined what it would be like to have super powers. I saw this dragon and it had the whole galaxy on it. I saw stars and universes inside of it. I saw some sort of bird wrap it's wing around it. I had some weird costume on. It was blue and pink and a little purple. I don't remember the super powers I had. Oh yeah I also met spider man.

2.17.14 Monday

Worked 6-10am. Got home, tried a nap around 1pm, but fell asleep, almost. Tried another one at 3:15pm - 4:50pm

DR:
I'm working in this office. There is not much work to do, so I goof off. One time, I float into bosses office with my luch on a plate. He is not happy. Another time, I do something similar.

Then I'm WILDing. Dont remember the first 2, but after each, I tell someone, who is right there. Third one, I'm just standing there with others, talking. I feel like I have another WILD in me, from the way my head feels full. So I just close my eyes and concentrate. Sudennly I see others through closed eyes. I'm moving backwards while standing up, as if someone held me under my arms and was dragging me backwards. I rush back to them and tell them again.

Another person in the office is telling me just to give up, because he is going to be office manager anyway. He got into that office just days sooner than I am, so I'm pissed, that I won't have a chance. I tell him, if he wan't to give up managaerial post without fight, he is welcomed to it. But I'm gonna fight for it.

Some ladies just came for second shift, and they ar happy to see that I have been hired.

There's a kid who's gone down to the docks and started talking to a homeless woman there. He's already seen the events that are about to happen, and he wants be sure he's near her at a certain moment. She's fishing with a stick with a string tied to the end of it. She says to the kid she's "not fishing, just putting out bait."

There's a private party, all women, that's rented out the restaurant at an inn. There's some drama going on and the cook got stressed out and overwhelmed, he took a break in the garden out back and someone else, the former cook, is filling in. He's not human; he's something large, bulbous, vaguely frog-like. At the moment, the human girl acting as a waitress is standing in front of him saying "Um... um... um..." and he suggests what she's trying to say - that the other cook's just about recovered, so it's okay for him to go now - and when she nods gratefully, he takes off his apron and lumbers off. The boss, an elfish creature, walks over to him. In the boss's POV now, I say to him, "You knew staying here would change the way she sees things." That is, the illusions that make the humans see us as human were bound to eventually stop working on her. "Why didn't you say something to her before now?" He sort of grunts.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

There's a little girl who's seen a glimpse of a woman in her house that no one else saw. As a disembodied observer, I'm thinking she reminds me of the faceless old woman who secretly lives in your home, although this one's not particularly old, and she may or may not have a face. I like her. Now the girl's in the bed that she shares with her sister, both of them under the covers, except for her hand. She feels a touch on her hand, snatches it away under the covers, and asks her sister if that was her. The answer is no. The girl peeks out from under the covers and sees that there's no one there. But the moment she puts her head out from under the covers to look around, the rest of the covers are ripped off the bed, and the woman, who was standing by the head of the bed out of sight, says "Finally."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A man's holding a vial of some kind of virus. He's meant to add a second vial holding some blue liquid to it for some plan that's about to be carried out, but there's something wrong - this isn't the fake that had been prepared, it's the real virus. What happened to the fake? The scene changes briefly to show it back at the lab, where the real virus should be. I switch to the POV of that man with the vial and decide we're going to have to go ahead with the plan, it just means that what we're about to do is less of a bluff than I'd like. I add the blue substance to the vial. Something red like blood forms on the top as the two substances mix.

In a scene I think of as "Five days in," a man is meeting up with someone named Hugh. Hugh's sitting on a dock with blood around his mouth, one arm slung casually over his dog, greets him with "Hey man," and generally is completely relaxed and sees nothing wrong. The man meeting him is bothered by seeing 'immortals so much older than me' losing control.

A fragment involving a city made out of pieces of every road built in the past century.

Went on a fishing trip with my dad. He was on the shoreline and I was out in a canoe. I looked in the water and there were giant fish like muskies, salmon and humongous goldfish. But the water was pretty shallow oddly enough. As I got closer to them my dad would shout out that I was scaring them away but really it was his shouting that frightened them. Then I was standing and a fisher( the animal) started coming towards me. It was trying to bite me and I kicked it in the face. The water was gone at this point and my dad rushed over and let the fisher bite him. It was like slow motion as it sunk its fangs into him arm. He said that it was the only way it would go away. We got into a van and I was freaking out cause it gave my dad rabies. He said he needed to get a tetanus shot because it had the most chemicals to counteract the rabies.