non-lucid

09/20/10



We're taking our lunch break. A bottle of Starbucks Frappuccino appears in my hand. It's delicious; the taste is replicated perfectly.

"Are you ready to go?" My dad asks, from the couch. He's asking if I'm ready to go back to work.

"I haven't even eaten yet!" I say, exasperated.

Scare Factor: 1/10
Rating: 1/10

It seems like I cant have ONE lucid dream. They come in packs of two. It's the third time now that I get two LDs in two nights. Awesum. However, when it comes to Control, I am just chasing my tail. Like I get lucid and go: Yay! Now what?

Dream 1: This was the smoothest transition so far. I just walked in my living room and did an RC for no reason, while not being lucid at all. Then I went: Wait, this is a dream. Well thats convenient! This time I tried summoning Meghan Fox, for practical purposes. All I got was my cat, for real. Epic fail. But something weird did happen. As I got in my room to desperatly practice my DC, the light is low. I want the lights to be on, so I turn on my lamp. And it worked. I thought lights werent supposed to work in dreams. Im gonna post about this in the forum later. Im tired of reading other people's DJs saying they had epic control in their second dream. FUCK YOU

Dream 2: When I LD, for some reason I keep getting minimal non-ld recall. But this one goes from scene to scene, all related to school. Im in class, but I forget my music book. I go get it and get a manquement. Multiple times, I see Ana and Samuel, who arent in our school anymore. I talk around. When I go up the stairs with another guy, and Alice grabs me, saying shes jealous because Laure has tons of guys that like her and shes got none. In another scene, I play some kind of Dieu Merci with Justine, along with other ppl. But what I remember very clearly is when I went to play Mario Kart with dudes, but then they all left so I started playing alone and kept trying the last level. It is a big bowser face. Then in a hidden spot, I see the Badass Hog from the game Monster Dash.

Two dreams about my job last night. Both of them were actually AT my job too. These dreams were a rarity, wherein they were normal. :O The only thing that set them of was in dream number two as i was dealing with a very nasty customer, 'Margaritaville' started playing on the speaker system. I instantly knew i was dreaming, but all i did was relax, and i lost everything. Arg i hate my job.. I've never had dreams where my brain actually used the layout of that unholy departments store. I guess i need to boost my RC's, and cross my finger they work next time...Assuming this wasn't a fluke lol.



Wasting away again in Margaritaville,
Searching for my lost shaker of salt,
Some people claim that there's a woman to blame,
But I know it's nobody's fault.

Short fragment and a slightly longer fragment tonight. The short fragment was that I was walking down a long isle in a grocery store, shopping with my wife. She was asking me if we should get some juice, but I was like, "Eh, nah." This, of course, would never happen in real life; my wife absolutely refuses to take me grocery shopping.

In the second sequence I was walking down the street with a black woman. We were about to get on a subway. She was telling me about how she was looking forward to riding the IM subway for the first time, only she pronounced it like the "im" in "him". A white woman near us who overheard was annoyed and corrected her that it was pronounced like initials. As we walked down the stairs into the subway, the black woman had her subway pass on some kind of wood or plastic board; she didn't know she was supposed to hold it at a certain angle as she passed through the scanner, but it was hanging at the right angle anyways. As we proceeded she asked me why I didn't need a pass, I told her it was because I had already picked up a special permit which required two forms of ID and that when you show them they only give back one (which I then thought was kind of counterintuitive). As I was telling her this, we were passing by the special permit area where I could remember earlier (possibly even in the same dream here) standing in line to get the permit. The subway looked more like an airport terminal.

There was some dark place I was in, with Lanna and some other person. Some girl who was quite thin, and about our age. She had a dark, mysterious look about her.
Lanna had some mini-djungelvrål lollies, and I was like "woah where did you get them?" And then she had green, mint flavoured ones. I think mine had arrived and I was about to go get them.

There were some people doing cosplay.

I fell asleep again, waking up remembering the following:

There was some bike race and I was standing there watching it with Daniel. He was saying how it was the Japanese bike race or something. I worked out that it was in Tokyo and all of a sudden was riding in it. I said "Tour de Tokyo", lol. Daniel said to look out for the guy that was a really good cyclist. I caught up to him and the back of his cyclist clothing there was a logo and it said "That Guy" xD
I can't remember much from here, but I think there was a part where one of those tandem bikes overtook me. They had a blue bike and were wearing blue clothing.

Memory blank. Next thing I remember I was playing guitar and Kattknopp was there with me. We both played some stuff on guitar that was being recorded on video. No wait, actually we were both recording videos of ourselves playing guitar.

Then this guy that was watching us was all like "hey, you should sing at the same time!" but I really didn't want to. Firstly because I suck at singing (especially while playing guitar at the same time), and secondly because this guy seemed like a total pervert and I really didn't like him. Kattknopp recorded her playing with singing anyway and it was really good. I was about to but somehow got delayed and never did.

There was another part where I wanted to show Lanna the song New Zealand by Eric Stoltz, and I was searching for it on my computer but I could only find these other songs by him (I don't have any other songs by him) that weren't as good and Lanna was getting impatient because I couldn't find the songs.

I was expecting to dream chain this morning and I even woke up from a dream and stayed still with my eyes closed, but I waited for over 5 minutes with no indication of SP or anything, so I gave up. I don't think I was tired enough. I do have two dreams to share with you!

Dream 1: Who wants some pizza?
I was at school, and I can picture exactly where I was standing and exactly the way everything looked because it looked exactly like my school actually looks, down to every detail. I won't sit here describing my school for you though. I was standing at a table with my really close friend and two senior girls I've never really spoken to. We had about 6 pizzas from California Pizza Kitchen, 5 of them were cheese and one was veggie. We were trying to sell them for some cause. We also had a ton of candy we were selling. All of a sudden I ate 4 pieces of cheese pizza, and I paid a quarter for each one. Then I tried to buy a veggie one but as I reached for the piece I wanted, an African-American lady that seemed like she was a parent or teacher walked up and took the piece I wanted. The only one left barely had any toppings on it. I remember taking a mushroom that had fallen off another slice and putting it on mine and eating it. That was the whole dream. I find it odd considering I can only eat about 2 slices of pizza at once.

Dream 2: Project Runway/Top Chef
I was in a show that was a combination of Top Chef and Project Runway. That is, it was a show where there were designers who designed things based on food. I wasn't actually a contestant, it was as if I was just watching it, but in person. The challenge was to create a pair of shoes (why would clothing designers be making shoes?) based on button candy. One of the designers were making these really ugly shoes in this shade of purple which I find really ugly (and isn't related to button candy at all).

09/19/10

"No! No! Stop!" she shouts at the bizarre figures. She's the character from last night's dream, the roommate who looks like a younger Halle Berry. The girl struggles, tries to pull away, but she's strapped into the machine by strong hands holding her down.

The black tendrils bury into her wrists and she screams. Sizzling with dark energy and blue sparks, the wires grate against every nerve, causing her pain beyond what she's ever imagined. (I feel the echo.)

She's suspended horizontally, supported only by the wires on her wrists and ankles, which string her tightly over the laboratory floor. It's pure agony.

"You should be quiet." Says one of the aliens. "If you keep screaming, we'll put you in the chambers."

Images of coffin-sized capsules, each containing a human being. The capsules are filled with a liquid which burns ("like lava," whispers one of the victims) and seems to eat away at the person inside. It's a stable chemical reaction which will last for an eternity, providing power for the alien conquerors to sustain their society.

("This is hell.")

"Nonononono..." whispers the girl, trying to ignore the pain. "I'll be quiet, please! Don't put me in there, I can be quiet!"

I come back to myself. I'm sitting cross-legged on the cold floor, and my arms are suspended by the same tendrils that are causing the other girl such pain. The wires dig into my wrists, and the blue energy sizzles through my arms. I breathe out and sink into a meditation.

"Is it broken?" One of the aliens asks, curiously.

I open my eyes. The two aliens are talking quietly amongst themselves. It's unheard of for a human to be able to withstand this particular torture for so long. It's been at least twenty-four hours since I've been put into it, and the two beings in front of me seem to think that it's broken my mind.

I'm not, of course, human.

My possible futures flash before me. In one, I collaborate with the aliens and facilitate the destruction of the human race. Eventually, I'll destroy the conquering civilization itself, and move on to the rest of the galaxy. In a few futures, I'll lead humanity in a rebellion, with varying degrees of success.

I don't pick one. Instead, I play through each of them, living through each possibility until the point that all life in the universe is destroyed.

It never takes long.

Scare Factor: 5/10
Rating: 6/10

I'm in a street near my house with my dad, and it's the dream version of the street. We get on a bus and sit down with our tickets. The whole time there was an uneasy feeling about the place.

End

I'm at my school, and everything is normal, but we have a substitute teacher who has us all practising drums on the tables. I'm walking to where I normally go for lunch, but my friend said it's only period 3 so I run back and see my maths teacher getting someone in trouble.

The end.

I'm in the shopping centre up my road and I'm with people. We pass an optometrist who is the mum of someone from years ago in RL. We walk past Gloria Jeans cafe which had been renovated to have a cover over the tables.

I wake up

Boring.

I was playing Chopin's Nocturne op. 20 when all my family was arriving for Christmas, preparing dinner. I went out and the scene changed, I was with my little cousins and suddenly charms started to hit us, I told them to get out their wands and we defeated the one that was throwing us charms. Then we proceeded to the house and my dad's girlfriend was there. She opened the door, smiled and said "You're alone! Your dad's not here. So I guess you're not hungry." I answered with an amused "Oh, I am veeery hungry." and the cook laughed with me.
I went out to wait and his son (about my age, a bit older) was there, parking his car. The scene was like a mountain made of stone, the ocean was down there. I saw a ferrari really small and short car. I asked him how he could fit more than one person there, he said he'd show me. He sat down and told me to sit on him, I sat and he hugged me, then he told me to slide at his side, and, while hugging me. We stood up and walked to the house.
The scene changes, the sun is setting. I see it and get excited, the sun is huge. I tell my friends and we all run down to the ocean. We get up in a small boat and this man gets angry because we have to pay. But we manage to get up again and go to the school dorms where my teachers say I never pay attention.

Feelings: love, desire of being close, confidence, sense of safety,

Dream of September 19th, 2010

I was in a desert, but I can’t remember how I got there or what had happened before this. I was Aang from Avatar the last Airbender. I was flying along in the desert when I saw a young girl with tanned skin and black hair. She said that there were people after her and asked me to help her. I agreed and took her with me to my friends, Katara, Sokka, and Appa.

When I entered the camp I told the gang the girl’s situation. After talking a bit I realized that I wasn’t acting quite how Aang would act, I was acting to serious, so I tried to smile more and sound happier and optimistic like Aang usually does. The girl then told everyone the rest of the details, such as where the bad guys’ base was, and then she showed me that she had wire handcuff type things on her wrists. To cut the wire off of her wrists I put my fingers as if I were using scissors for the game “rock, paper, scissors” and then I closed the two fingers and attempted to cut the wire. The first attempt didn’t work but then I tried to focus my mind and inhaled to bring in energy and then I tried to cut it again, this time it worked.

After cutting the wire we all got ready to leave for the base. For the first part of the journey we just walked, but once we arrived at the tunnel where the enemy base was I had everyone ride on Appa while I flew (which doesn’t make sense since usually Aang walks Appa through tunnels and flies through open areas).

As we descended down into the base we encountered some of the bad guys, which I quickly took care of. Once we got further down the tunnel it started to transition from the rough rock to smooth white painted walls and wooden floors. I’m not sure how it happened but I ended up getting separated from the rest of them. I found the leaders in what looked to be a kitchen but they fled out the door into a hallway.

I’m not sure after if I separated from Aang’s body and became myself or just went into first person after that. Anyways, I walked down the hallway and searched for the leaders when a boy came and said that they had placed illusions and that we would have to break them to find them. I think I went into one of the rooms after that and broke one of their illusions and found one of the guys, and then I went back into the hall and into another room. In this room there were many windows, some chairs, and at the end a grand piano. Something felt wrong about the room, the appearances of things seemed to change slightly every so often, and it made me feel a little weak and my mind fuzzy. I tried putting my hands in front of me and touched everything to see if it was real, and then I went up to the piano and picked it up and moved it. While I was moving the piano it ended up touching some pipe like object which shattered the illusion.

The appearance of the room had changed drastically. Most of the windows had faded away and the chairs and everything else looked plain instead of elegant like it used to. Since the windows faded away the room became darker, and it actually made me feel a little scared. I turned around to leave the room and saw one of the men escaping into a different room. I went to follow him but then the dream faded away.

I was sitting in science class, but I was on the opposite side of where I normally sit. My friend was sitting beside me. All of a sudden I look up and see a spider about the size of a quarter floating down on its string of silk. I backed away and said "a spider!" The guy in front of me must have heard me; so he turned around, and grabbed my science book. I held its string so it couldn't get away. The boy then whacked it. I saw its um.. guts oozing down my side of the table. The the boy put the book down. My friend kept accidentally putting her hand in the guts, not knowing what they were.

DJ Log: September 19, 2010 – Mid-afternoon nap, 3:15PM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am in a very crowded house, looking for somewhere quiet to lay down for a moment and dream. I am carrying my flashlight, dream journal and a pen. Every room I open has DCs in it, engaging in some kind of noisy activity. I walk into the kitchen, and someone is baking some kind of muffins. I look at the ingredients that are sitting on the counter for a brief moment, but I cannot read any of the labels. After roaming around for a while, the house seems to be clearing out a bit. I found a closet in the hallway that nobody was in plain sight of. I opened the door. This was the dream's exit.

DJ Log: September 19, 2010 – Mid-afternoon nap, 2:00PM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I find myself falling from high in the pitch black sky. There is a small white dot far below me, which becomes larger as I fall. Once close enough, the white dot is a rainbow colored swirling pool. The colors are super bright and extremely vivid. Once I got closer to the pool, my whole field of vision was completely saturated with white light. This was the dream's exit.

Wow, what a crazy weird night. I recalled 5 dreams from all 5 sleep cycles, all non-lucid. This is the second night ever that I've recalled a dream from the first cycle. Maybe I have broken through that barrier.

These dreams are irregular for me. They have scenes and characters that are familiar but I've never recalled dreaming about them before. It must be because of the book I'm reading "Dreamgates." And there's more weirdness that I'll note along with each dream.

0155: Sleep. Before falling asleep, I was in a very imaginative state. Zeo reports 20 minutes of wake before dropping into light sleep. It wasn't a dream and I don't think it was hypnagogic hallucinations. I didn't see any sensory imagery, just internal visualization. I was just day dreaming but it was very easy maintain the dreamplot. It seemed to flow on it's own. I imagined other characters and they seemed to speak and act without my influence. I was looking for a path or portal into the dream world. I met two French girls, Juliette and Maire who I invited to follow me into the dream world. We wandered around, asking people where to find the portal. But we didn't find anything. I remember I was still awake when I changed positions in bed and I no longer felt I was in the daydream.

0350: B. First cycle dream. It was blurry and jumpy but extremely personal and emotional. This is the first time I've ever recalled dreaming about Jen (ex-girlfriend of two years) which is odd because she was such an important part of my life for so long. And there's the whole father drama. I work for some company. The workplace is a house. It reminds me of my godparents' house. My sister, Dave work there and also... Jen?! I don't think I even saw her but but I strongly feel her presence. I am slacking off from work. I show up late. I'm unreliable. Dave is sitting in a wide hallway with a big laptop on his lap. He's waiting for my father but he hasn't arrived and everyone is worried. I feel disgusted. So typical. I think it is because he is unreliable too. Then I learn my father is a key witness in a criminal case and the criminals are hunting him. I still feel no empathy. He's in a car chase. My sister is listening to the radio or TV for news updates.

I go to the kitchen and lay down on the tile. Two cats (or dogs?) come near me. I grab food out of their bowl and pour it on the floor in front of them. Jen's workstation is in the kitchen but she isn't here. I sense she is out to lunch. I look over some papers laying on the floor that she was working on. It looks like geometry homework. I see a bunch of triangles that are paired in twos to form quadrilaterals.

My sister says my father wants to get into police custody. I think "Good, so he can go back to prison." But he actually wants their protection. Mel warns me that he may have been killed but that hasn't been confirmed. I wake up but it takes me a while to realize where I am. I'm feel strong emotions. It feels like the dream happened hours ago and I've been in bed thinking about it for all that time, but it was actually only moments ago. This is the first time in a while that I had to remind myself that "it was just a dream" to calm me down.

0520: Back to sleep after begin awake since the last dream. I got up and read "Dreamgates" for a while to get my mind off the last dream.

0630: C. I'm in a war that looks like Vietnam-era. We are fighting against our own people in two teams with real ammunition and death. It's like capture the flag. Each team is defending an old warehouse in an area that seems like an improvised airfield. The warehouses are full of crates, barrels, guns, ammunition and explosives. Hugh is on my team. The other people on both teams are familiar but I can't put names to them. Some a definitely women. I feel upset because our team is losing. The other team keeps raiding and retreating our warehouse, killing a few people at a time.

I grab a rifle and load it with explosives rounds (but later they don't explode). It's a bold-action clip-feed rifle with just four rounds per clipl more of a WWII-era gun but whatever. I start kicking ass with Hugh's help. We kill everyone on the other team. Only Hugh and I are left. We stand over a dead body and look at a black and white map. It looks like the US with some states shaded in pencil. I distinctly remember the shape of West Virginia.

0810: D. I don't remember where I am. Two groups of friends compete for my attention. One group is drinking Scotch. The other is going to meet Hugh's work colleagues. I choose the Scotch. Something illegible about email? We ditch the other group by stopping the elevator and getting off on a different floor.

0850: B. Zeo shows a short sleep cycle for this one. Maybe it was kind of a DEILD from the previous REM period. Either way, this was a long dream. Some very unusual characters in this one, especially Megan who I've been trying to dream about for several weeks in a different scenario. I start out at work. I'm generating some codes. Then I go to help some girl with her computer. Chris finds me and says "You need to file an AC-10 expense report for those codes." I say, "OK, I'll do it first thing after lunch."

I exit the office. Outside it's suddenly a school yard like my junior high. It's crowded with people. An old friend from middle school (can't remember his name) comes up and hands me a wad of cash. He has short spiky hair and wears braces. He wants me to launder the money by generating codes at work. I tell him it will be harder now because of the expense reports. The crowd disperses as people go to class. The bell rings. I'm late for class but I'm not worried at all.

I walk up some outdoor stairs and walk through a covered hallway. It's suddenly raining and this part of the school is under construction. There are clear plastic tarps everywhere covering stuff. I walk through this towards my classroom. I walk past a group of cheerleaders in the hallway. They are wearing white shirts with the sleeves rolled up and black shorts. The one talking is Megan from high school. She's saying that she didn't have a cell phone all summer and it totally sucked. I walk past them and enter my class room.

The room and teacher are like one I remember from middle school. I'm very late but no one cares because I'm always late. In the row of desk near the door, I see Britney Spears and another female singer, maybe Beyonce. I play it cool and walk past them to my normal seat in back, next to Britney. Chris is sitting at the far corner of the room and I'm reminded of the AC-10 expense reports for work. The teacher hands out kevlar vests to everyone. I have no clue why. He also passes around a slip of paper with two rows of numbers handwritten on it. It's a secret code to activate the kevlar vest. The paper gets pass to me by Britney next to me. I look at it. It's long. Part of it looks something like 1120621. I say obnoxiously and playfully loud: "Holy shit. How am I suppose to memorized this? It's got all kinds of one's and two's." Britney and the other singer laugh and look at me. I look at them and say playfully: "Holy shit, Pop Stars. What are you doing here." I notice they are wearing the same outfit as the cheerleaders outside. They are cheerleaders and are only sitting in this class to be out of the rain.

1052: C. This is a crazy absurd dream which is weird for this time of night. It jumped around a lot too. Usually my weird dreams are in the first half of the night and the second half are more literal. I'm caring for a child. Maybe he is my own son. His name is David. He grows abnormally fast, like the movie Jack. He's a 5-year-old boy in the body of a 30-year-old man. He wants to learn about lucid dreaming. I send a post card to my mother telling her about this interest.

I have a strange encounter at a doctor's office. The doctor, male, says he isn't going to treat David any more. There's also a female nurse in the room. I have to take David home.

Now I'm with a bunch of high school classmates at a miniature golf course. There is also at least one work colleague there too and some unfamiliar faces. I think David is there, but I'm not really watching him. Everyone is playing golf, but instead of golf balls and clubs we use pinecones and dice that we roll with our hands. Of course, these things don't roll very well. There's about 20 people playing at the same time on the same hole, so everyone is blocking each other and also people are playing out of turn. But I'm pretty good with the pinecone. On the last hole, it's my turn to roll and everyone watches with anticipation. But one extremely hot girl is bent seductively over the hole. She is unfamiliar. She is brunette with a tight red tank top over a killer rack. Maybe she's wearing sunglasses. Of course, I miss my shot. I say "I was distracted."

Not a lot to report as far as dreams last night. mostly just some fragments. One i can remember very clearly though and it was a FA:

I woke up and sat up in bed. i noticed the candle on the table was still lit, and walked over to blow it out. but the lid on the jar was sealed. i turned around to tell my wife, when i realized that a candle can't stay lit in a jar with the lid on.

I don't remember anything after that.


DILD Class HW:

<@puffin> 1) pick three of the above reality checks and explain the pros and cons of each.

Nose Plug: While very simple, and easy to remember sometimes it dose not work. Several people have stating passing a nose plug RC in a dream.

Location RC: This could work splendidly if you dream about the location you visit on a daily basis, but this would not work for me. My dreams take place in places resembling those from my past like my parents house, or my home town. I have not seen either in about 2 years so remembering to RC when seeing them would be nearly impossible since i never see them...

Reading RD: I'm sure trying to read a webdings book would be key number 1 that you were dreaming, however if you are so into your dream that you can understand the gibberish this RC would pass. This would also fail to work if there was nothing to read at your current location.


<@puffin> 2) why is it better to question reality everywhere, and not just when something specific happens?

Because you could be dreaming about something from real life, or having a FA. I once had a dream i was out shopping in my home town. I didn't even think to question reality because it was something I was used to. In order to really become aware you're dreaming you need to question everything even if the same thing happens at the same time every day like the mail man delivering mail..