non-lucid

I became lucid twice but woke up immediately

I'm travelling somewhere by elephant. Then we're walking on some narrow pathways. We're at the cave churches in Cairo and I'm giving a tour. G was there.

Late morning nap:

I went to have a nap with the intention of trying to WILD. I lay still for more than an hour - no SP . Eventually I just went to sleep. I dreamt that I heard my wife coming home with the kids from school. My daughter came into the room to wake me for lunch. I pretended to sleep and she was pinching my face and stuff. I woke up for real. I did the FILD technique and literally felt something happen in my mouth when I transitioned. I slowly did a nose RC with my dream eyes closed and I could breathe I lay still for awhile trying to calm down. Eventually I slid out of bed there was a moment when I almost lost it cause I could feel my real legs. I remembered the TOTM and immediately went over to the dresser and started looking for colorful objects. I picked up a small bottle with it's lid painted red (I think it was a lip stick bottle) and two female deodorant cans one with a blue lid and one with a yellow lid. I was super happy but when I looked at my objects the yellow lid had turned to green and I panicked. I rummaged through all the items on the dresser and found a glass bowl with a yellow glass lid that was slightly transparent. Happy with that I headed over to the window to either teleport or just go outside, I was planning to find some unicorns. As I approached the window I started loosing the dream. I spun around slowly and felt the wooden cupboard door. It helped and I decided not to go outside but to go and see what my family DCs were up to as I got to my bedroom door I woke up.

12/08

Something about the fundraisers I'm organizing for a trip some young people are going on. Phone call with pastor from Bikers Church about details of fundraiser.

Something about a guy coming for biltong

Dads birthday. Beer and biltong ( google it ) Grandpa - cricket. Sharks are playing rugby against Griquas. Jean Deysel and Juan Smith and Kabamba Floors are in the house. I try to speak to Jean but can't speak (something to do with breathing). Meagan is in the dream.

13/08

I'm travelling of the Kimberley yacht club road with Janet. She is having financial problems and is basically asking me for money. I tell her I can't help her. I'm showering next to the road (in a shower that just happens to be there). P and a lady are walking on the other side. I get out the shower and I'm suddenly looking for a place to get dressed, I go in a cave and suddenly it turns into a warehouse - there are lots of teenagers there we're planning on camping there. There is a trampoline and tents. Piet is in a small office working on a PC. Their are broken forklifts in the warehouse and some working ones. A giant crane/machine comes to life and at first is just randomly dangerous but then it tries to kill us by spinning stuff that we have to jump over and dodge. It turns in to a person and I try to explain that we have permission to be here.

14/08

Walking over a bridge at night
Golf balls in the mud

15/08

Running an event. B and co involved. Event involves dancing and music. B and co supposed to be helping. D is also involved and organises some expensive socks to give away - I get a pink pair . i go to P in an old bathroom attached to a theatre like room. B and co are there I call them down to talk to them and try to finnish p'ing before they get there (I didn't wet the bed which is always a good thing). I eventually get to talk to them and some lady who has higher authority than me is backing me up.

Oh yeah. Last night I managed to not move and stay still twice (no dream though ). Not only that, two extremely vivid dreams.


Dream 1: I am in a place trying to increase my dream control. An old man, that seems to be my grandpa , is a kikass dude in dreams. He destroys stuff and I try to mimick him. But then another man, who is my father while not looking like my father, goes crazy. He tells us to stop, but we are both aware (yet not lucid) that we are dreaming and that nothing is real. In an epic move, pappy slows down time and tries to implant in his mind that its a dream by saying "Ca va revenir...Ca va revenir" French for: It will come back (like when im waking up). He also does something with a tall can of peas, reconstruct it maybe? Then I try to do the same move and fail miserably.

Dream 2: Im in class and sitting in the back. Next to me is Valerie. I open my science book and browse through. The teacher starts talking about how Nicolas is nice. I dont really pay attention, im watching the images of my book. But then she talks to me and says the time to pass out books is over. I didnt hear that we had to pass down our books to the person next to u so a girl in the back would get one.

Times out

Countdown: 14 Nights

PART 1 - STUCK LIVING WITH CEE

Cee is living at my current location...

She is outside, at the end of the driveway. I go up and say "hi," in a confident charming way, even though I'm only at my current level of fitness... but then I change my mind, think it was a mistake and that I should wait until I'm more prepared, and run off down street (opposite of work direction.)

At night, I watch from outside as Herm (internet fitness personality) breaks in through a window...

I realize I have no choice and have to go back home, since I live there too and need a place to stay. I return but try to avoid Cee as much as possible, try to keep interactions "short and sweet."

She asks how I got there, I say public transport (lie.) She asks if the driver checked out my teeth for some reason, which throws me off slightly. I laugh and say, "not that I know of."

ANALYSIS

Gah. I finally went a day yesterday managing not to think of them that much, and then I have a big dream about them.

Her living here - possibly a metaphor for how she is so deeply ingrained as to be fundamentally a part of myself.

Watching from outside - kind of like, uh, stalking.

Herm break in - possibly the archetype for "douchebag" in my mind, reflection of jealousy, worry over other guy "breaking in."

Forced return - possibly represents the idea that there's nowhere else I can go, she is home. No matter how nice anywhere else is, it's just not the same, it's not "home."

Keep distance, short and sweet - sort of the pattern that always was... I didn't feel like I was up to my own standards, so I have to carefully edit her impression of me in a positive light.

Lie trip up - possibly a reflection of my guilt at not being completely honest.

...She said with tender voice "I'll let you fuck me if you want". I got quite impressed by those words! I never thought she would ever use that exact word... I was pretty happy (and some sort of proud) to hear that, despite the rough way to say it... But predominantly I was sad. 'Bout what? I don't know. But I already conveyed that emotion, that image of me. Not even I was intended to prove it false when actually it wasn't, partially...

She hugged me and I exploded in joy, and instantly it faded into concern. Concern of annoying her with the actions I was thinking to make. I was going to tell her I didn't want to, and I did it, but she didn't care. Anyway I was still pretty concerned. I was going to reject her invitation but not her huggs and pettings. I also wanted to cuddle her, but softly... I told her to hold on 'cause these guys were calling me to watch them practice with their band in the room next to the corridor we were. The door was only 8 feet away. Even though I didn't want to ruin it I was doing it.

I watched the guy practice a song I liked very much (Detras De Tí), the intro, but played it crappily... They were me and other 3 guys seated in black cushioned sweet sixteen-party chairs set in a row like in a theater despite being only ~12 of them and the room being ~2m x 4m. One of the guys turned around at me and made with his head a sign he didn't like what he was playing. He was Sausage, the guy playing was Rolando, and the other guy was one I actually talk to a lot, the Tree Man. There was a 4th guy, I don't even knew who he was, I didn't even see it but acknowledged there was a 4th... Then I remembered she was out there waiting for me... I farewelled everyone and walked to the door impatient to see her. Fortunately she was there sit in the floor waiting for me...

There was some house with these rooms and I was throwing out rubbish out the window of a room where some girl lived. There were heaps of bags of rubbish outside, and it was so messy and there were flies and bugs everywhere.

I think in a similar area with rubbish bags, but in a factory, I was part of some group and we were hunting down some people. I was shooting people these bad people with a rifle and it was weird to aim, but it was pretty fun. It reminded me a bit of shooting with the bows and arrows off Minecraft.

In another bit we were sitting around in a group (I am not sure who I was with), and somehow there was a screen and it displayed songs from Thrice's album The Artist in the Ambulance. I was like "yeah let's listen to it!", and we played a song and I was like "what the hell is this!?" because it was all slow and distorted and stuff. But then I played the song before the one we listened to on the list, and I was like "nah actually it's kinda cool and I think it's supposed to be like this, but it's just a bit slowed down."

This is incredibly frustrating.. The only thing I remember from dreaming last night was that I was telling someone all about lucid dreaming and how cool it was! Moving on to the next frag, I was speaking to an older lady who was wearing a white, floral print dress, a very 1950's style hat with a white veil and white lace gloves. She had shortish curly brown hair.

Grrr... how could I tell someone in my dream about lucid dreaming and not realise that I mysely was dreaming!

I go out hunting in a more or less desolate canyon. I try for a round or two to shoot some fish. (I don’t know why I just have a thing for killing fish abnormally.)
*fade to black “one more bullet” I said and I go farther in the canyon.*fade to dream*
Then I find a huge rhino so I slowly walk quietly a few steps. And I run up and down some slopes trying to confuse it then a drop straight down about 6-7 feat so I jump to the left with the rhino right on my tail take out climbing equipment and hook myself loosely into the wall, and as soon as the rhino charges me I jump continue my run, I scramble into the river I hear I big splash from the rhino, feel warmth and I wake up scrambling for the computer trying to write it down.

15.08.2010

Waterless toilets. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I guess my subconscious is assimilating all the changes in my business. This was a better night, not to my average but getting closer. Four dreams.

Fourth:

I had to visit a sunglass store and make sure everything was OK. The employee gave me directions in how to go to the restroom. He provided no advice about the sunglasses.

I went to the restroom. It was very dirty and it had a very unpleasant odor. One of the toilets was clogged. There was an old woman and she had no clue how the waterless toilets worked (those were the toilets they had at this restroom)

The old lady though that there was a dog inside the toilet who took care of the cleaning. While I was in the restroom, I saw my dad with his helmet who came from work.

The scenery changed and I was in the street. I heard a voice that said something about a guy. Two folks came out from a taxi. They were smiling and looked evil. A third character came out of this taxi. She wore a hat and these two guys pulled it from her head. I woke up.

Missed dream Signs:
- The entire dream had no sense at all.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

15.08.2010

At one company's hq (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I guess my subconscious is assimilating all the changes in my business. This was a better night, not to my average but getting closer. Four dreams.

Third:

I was working with one of the business I am associated with on waking. I am associated with this company and I do some work for them as a Independent Contractor, they told me a few times that they did not see such a hard worker like me in ages. This company gave me some unexpected additional work. I knew that I got all that extra job, with bonussed payments because they were very happy with me. I logged on their database and I saw quite a few stuff to do.

I entered their office and there were a lot of Coca-Cola bottles. One of the bottles was wider and abnormal, it said, "Coke Coffee" It was a coffee flavored Coke. I felt very good about this. My wife was not very excited because I was going to be very busy.

I realized now I had a lot of work to do and I was going to be quite busy, but I was glad as it would add to my income.

Missed Dream Signs:
- I was in that business office (It's a 100% phone and internet business relationship, I do not need to go to their offices for nothing.)

- The odd shaped bottle of Coca-Cola coffee flavored.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

15.08.2010

Reckless driving truck. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I guess my subconscious is assimilating all the changes in my business. This was a better night, not to my average but getting closer. Four dreams.

Second:

I was driving. It was a sunny day and it was warm. The freeway was almost empty. Suddenly, a huge truck started to change the lane while I was passing him. I had to jam the breaks while I honked him. I was very mad due such a reckless driving. We were going uphill and I tried to speed up and pass the truck while honking. My wife advised me to leave the truck alone.

I was suddenly running, at the same speed that the truck. I was still in the freeway. The truck was changing lanes again, so I did as well. This happened for a few lanes until the truck speedup more and left.

I had a false awakening in my bed. I felt my body in my bed and at the same time, I felt I was somewhere else. I was wondering if I could fall back into the dream, turn lucid and blast that truck into oblivion. I tried to open my eyes hopping I was in the dream, but I felt my eyes in my bed so I waited a little more.

Suddenly, my mom entered my room and advised my wife and me to wake up. I left bed really tired, with memories from waking and hopping I could sleep more. I woke up for real.

Missed dream signs:
- I was running in the highway.
- The False Awakening.
- Trying to turn lucid.
- My mom.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Blast the truck driver and head for a ToTY.

15.08.2010

I go to the beach with my son (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I guess my subconscious is assimilating all the changes in my business. This was a better night, not to my average but getting closer. Four dreams.

First:

A son was bringing a present to his dad. It was a shell he found somewhere in the beach. I was in the beach with a made up son of mine and we were crossing from one beach to another. There was a metallic fence in the middle, were were hanging into it as we did not want to go deep in the ocean. It was very sunny and windy. The water was warm.

I suddenly saw this DC who was my soon diving in the water. My son was about 10 years old, slim, with sort black hair. I felt happy because I knew he was going to search for something nice for me underwater.

Missed dream sings:
- I do not have kids in waking.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Ask this kid stuff about me. He was probably my inner kid.

1. Some sort of cartoon/live action switch thing is going on in this fragment. It takes place in a world where our superheroes are revered as vengeful and fearsome gods. Batman, with the epithet "Scientific," can swoop from anywhere to show his wrath. Superman's X-ray vision can see anywhere to reveal embarrassment and sin. The Green Lantern is a trickster god; he is shown using his powers to unwillingly jack off men at unfortunate times.

2. I'm watching Futurama. Fry is on the run for some sort of debt (notes unintelligible). He is without transportation, so the going is slow. At one point he comes across a dragon pulling a rickshaw, but the dragon is high on drugs so Fry continues on foot.

3. I play bass in a School of Rock style concert, closing with ACDC's Shoot to Thrill (sounds fantastic). Backstage, Dan C from high school shakes my hand and a number of teachers congratulate me. The teachers are talking not only of the show, but also of the insurance scam they are pulling. By burning their houses, they've made enough money to take luxurious vacations!

the following three dreams are all that i can remember from last night... i'm sure they are all missing something and may be slightly wrong but here goes...

1- I'm driving in the car with my brother... we arrive at an old abandoned house where there is going to be a party. i know this because we are the ones that are going to be hosting the party. We get out of the car and i start looking around. I know that my brother is, somehow, really drunk, which annoys me a lot. No one is arriving at the party and eventually we get back in the car and drive home, which is actually quite close to the abandoned shack where we were going to have the party. [END]

2- Next dream that i remember also takes place at a party. Only this time we are not hosting it and it is not empty... in fact, it's packed. there is a swimming pool and lots of people swimming. however, it is night time. i wander through the crowd of people, i don't know most of them. I do eventually run into someone that i do know, in real life. In the dream he looks quite different. but in the dream i immediately recognize him as my wise, old, south american friend. We chat for a while. I can't remember the topic of our conversation. [END]

3- I'm with my mom on a street. a very crowded street. It seems like we are doing some sort of survey. We are in the united states. some big city, maybe new york(?). the survey relates to sports and in the end we draw the conclusion that american's don't know anything about soccer. they don't care about soccer, and they never will. This is a depressing thought since soccer is my favorite sport. It all fades away. [END]

I'm not currently bald. But my parents keep teasing me because it appears to them that there is a possibility of me going bald. So I'm liked by no one in my dream. Even God doesn't like me (of whatever religion). So I worship a pencil sharpener instead!