non-lucid

PART 1 - POP STAR CAPTURED BY HEROS

Pop star villain who looks similar to Lady Gaga is captured in giant plane by two 16 year olds. They force her to hang outside the cockpit, this makes her pass out so she is not a threat.

They're superheros, that's their character, that's the story... one male and one female who take complete control of the environment through technology, like their big plane, and trap villains.

ANALYSIS

Pop star could represent superficiality.

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PART 2 - WEED FROM CLEE, KICK MOM

At home in my room, I almost buy some weed from Clee (friend.) I have my money out and everything. I'm facing my closet, the weed is on my bed, we're about to exchange... but I change my mind at the last moment.

I follow Clee outside for courtesy, to hang out while he smokes a cigarette, to be cool since I didn't buy from him.

On the way out, mom is laying on the floor at the door of the bathroom/bottom of the stairs (sort of both, dream merge), talking with my aunt (who is standing.)

Mom says something along the lines of "every fit person has a hot person they work out with," some limiting belief that she uses to justify her lack of fitness to herself.

This frustrates me. I get super pissed and attack her, kick her in the head. Aunt is disgusted, "doesn't understand why you can't just be chill."

Clee and I get to the door, I put on my shoes - they're black, bigger than normal, firm and puffy.

We were going to train but it turns out to be raining quite heavily. I put on an act of being upset, even though I didn't really want to anyway - I was only being accommodating.

ANALYSIS

Almost buy weed - because I've been considering changing up my meditation schedule, the thought of getting some occurred to me yesterday, but I decided against it.

Follow Clee outside/pretend upset/accommodating - literal representation of behavior patterns around this person.

Mom laying down - likely represents her weakness, given up on life. Aunt there to support her justifications.

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PART 3 - KILP CONFLICT

Kilp (Jr High classmate) is outside. He threatens me, throws a knife my direction. It lands in the dirt in front of me, as a message that he's "out to get me." He makes some jokes about me to someone else.

I pull the knife out of the ground, throw it up in the air, and it lands exactly in my sheath. Kilp says something sarcastic about "winning his heart" by this display. I say "all mine," double meaning that I will literally take his heart.

ANALYSIS

Perhaps triggered by negative social events at work, feeling "looked down upon," an expression of a desire to fight back.

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FRAGMENTS

Door breaks off, upper class family...

Use toilet positioned in middle of stage, in front of an audience for a SC1 tournament...

Jee visits me, in my room, have chat...

ANALYSIS

The toilet being right on stage seems like an obvious metaphor for self consciousness.

Anyway, I think I need more sleep. I don't feel "refreshed" upon waking up, always tired and groggy. Currently I go to bed at around 12 and wake up at 7. Will see if I can gradually fall asleep at earlier times, beginning with 11.

Slept in this morning, so was rushing. I only remember a tiny frag of my dream. There were 2 bikers, the only thing I remember clearly is they both had leather jackets and one had an incredibly white tshirt.

I remembered heaps from this dream.

There were some lifesize picture/painting things outside of the house that Dad asked me to go see because it was scary. I knew that he would be disappointed with my if I didn't go. I tried to go outside but it became too scary so I asked my mum to go with me and she was about to but then she became scared too, haha. I noticed that the thing Dad wanted us to see was next to these pictures of Mario and Michael Jackson. Someone said something about my cousin Sha-Sha having given them to him as a gift for something. And then as I walked through the house (it was some small old house that I have never seen before. It was quite nice and old fashioned) I noticed that these picture things were EVERYWHERE, all hung up on all the walls of the house. He had cleaned the house while he was at it. It looked quite nice, I thought.
Then I was with my bro in some room and Daniel was there but in the toilet and we were going to play some trick on him, I cannot remember what.

I went up to these booth places on these grassy hills. They were wooden, rectangular areas perhaps only 4m by 2m and about 2m high and you could see who was outside. The inside floor was dirt. Also, they were lockable with this weird lock and key thing that I can only JUST remember but is too hard to explain.
As I saw a creepy guy outside (who seemed to always stay there) I wondered how I knew that I was safe, even though when away anyone could just steal the key when the booth wasn't being used, and also I didn't think that the lock was that secure, nor did I think that the wooden booth was that sturdy.
But anyway, I went into these places to access IRC or something like that. I went into them a couple of times during my dream.

I just remembered that a couple of times I would go to sleep in the booth and there was some weird set up where I would lie down and then this Chinese music would play. There were some two other random Asian girls there, with accents from Singapore or Malaysia and I kindly asked them to do something for me (involving a pillow, I think), which they did. I recall saying something to them about how in Chinese culture they are always very proud and try to build up the family name, which I did not agree with.

There was one instance I left the booth and there were quite a few people around one. There were these pretty, young girls and an older guy and an older woman (lol dodgy much?). And then the woman caught the eye of one of the girls and that girl had a look of "oh shi-" on her face. She said "I guess I have to go now" or something along those lines, and walked off away from the group of people. I figured/somehow knew that they were all trying out to become models or something like that, and she had failed the first time and tried to enter a second time with the man as the judge, but the woman from the previous try out was there and spotted her. I said to Alanna who was standing right next to me "wow...but she was REALLY pretty..." and she agreed with me.

And then I was in this part with this girl. She had short brown hair and freckles and was like, an original member of Pallkars. It turns out that they used to make movies and stuff that had gotten pretty famous. I don't know where she was from, she didn't really have an accent I don't think.
I hopped onto the bus with her. She went in first and as I went in I pulled the door off the bus (the bus seemed to only be 2m long) and the bus driver (who was female) just drove off and I was quickly trying to put the door back on! The bus driver recognised the girl I was with due to her Pallkars fame (lol xD) and addressed her by name (I cannot remember what it was though). We were driving along and I was like "wow, I really am a newbie to this online community (I kinda am anyway ) because it's been around since the 90s". Hahaha.
We drove past some stores and Lanna was there again and she wanted to buy meat because it was the only bit of meat left (haha what the hell, she is vegetarian). Down the road we spotted some other store where there was stuff we all wanted to buy. The bus had turned into a truck and the truckie was this big fat guy who was really nice and also liked the Pallkars movies xD
Tobias was sitting in the seat behind mine.

We parked inside the shop, got out of the truck (Tobias wasn't there anymore lol) and the shop woman asked if we could please reverse a little bit and then our parking would be okay. So the truckie went to do that. We looked at the shop and there were a few dusty books and the girl I was with was talking about aliens or something. I asked her nicely how old she was and she said "from '83" (so she was 27) and I was like, "wow, you look really young for your age. I would've guessed about 23". She smiled.

There were a few dusty things we wanted to buy that we dusted off, and under the dust there was this kinda reed-fossil shape thing. But then we dusted some more, and there was a handprint of some creature that had 6 or 7 fingers It frightened me. We then proceeded to dust everything in the bookshop (there were a few more people there now, probably about 6) and EVERYTHING was covered in a 6/7 fingered handprint. The store was now just this small room that would have been difficulty to escape. I was getting the shit scared out of me; I was really restless and agitated. Even the chalkboard was covered in those handprints. I couldn't lean back on anything for fear that I'd get harmed by the aliens somehow.
All of a sudden these small puppet things burst out of the corner of the room and it was then that I realised this was all just an interactive play. I was angry though because I had been tricked and was genuinely really scared and so I picked up one of the puppets and was tempted to throw it at another puppet but I calmed down and everything was okay

I dreamt about dragons somewhere as well. I love dragons xD

August 18th: involved two dreams I'll write more about later but here's basics. One phase involved a friend dan vavirnik or a farmer guy riding orange vehicles down highways. The other phase I dreamt I went to lunch with my mom, aunt, lou, savanah Stanley and others. Lou mentioned a girl getting pulled over for itching her vagina. :/ ..then we went home and playboy papers flew out of my bed like a fan was there. I blamed it on my brother...

key notes: 1.) scenary was like denmark by a family friend. suburban but it still felt foreign, it was also dark out.
2.) my room was not my room I live in now, but I claimed it to be my room.
3.) I've never met Savanah so I should have realized something was up.
4.) this is the 2nd time lou popped up in my dreams this month.
5.) The character riding the orange vehicles down rural highways was demonstrating driving skills by switching vehicles somehow during his drives.

lmao this dream was interesting. my recall still needs work.

August 16th: involved two dreams I'll write more about later but here's basics. One phase involved a friend dan vavirnik or a farmer guy riding orange vehicles down highways. The other phase I dreamt I went to lunch with my mom, aunt, lou, savvanah Stanley and others. Lou mentioned a girl getting pulled over for itching her vagina. :/ ..then we went home and playboy papers flew out of my bed like a fan was there. I blamed it on my brother...

These dreams happened over 4 sleep cycles but it's difficult to separate when they happened

Flying back and forth for a job interview, staying in a hotel. S,R,L and W are there, something about a TV.

Get the new job arguing with my dad about God and miracles. Find out about troubled person Q. Have a new beach house on a golf estate - WOHOO!! Quad bikes riding around, house was Q's.

i'm engaged in some sordid online chat thing C and R are also on but they don;t know that I am. SV is complaining about cleaning the FS team office carpet. More sordid chat.

M and me were in an accident, he is in hospital in critical condition. Bubba is a DR - lol and looks at x-rays and gives his opinion, M's body is there and B cuts his hospital gown made of lycra with a scalpel to look underneath at his stomach. I explain our injuries. Later I'm comforting M's mom and the operation begins while we sit a a board room table.

I'm at dad's business in kimberley upstairs, there is a n axel for my mom's car, I am extremely tired form M's ordeal (he died). and grab an energy sachet from a bag that belongs to my dad, it feels like I'm stealing it. We go down a car ramp and then C is gonna pull me somewhere on like a rickshaw thing but she can't. We have a discussion with a street kid...

I'm on the back of a pickup, dad is driving. He greats an old friend and then a dog chases us. We go into a bike store, I look at MX pants and then tires and then boots, all the boots are sucky...

I was at the mall with Tigress and Silver, we were there just wandering around and looking at the various shops to see if there was anything interesting to be found. We wandered around the mall for a while, taking a look in various stores to include computer and video game stores, an arts and crafts store, and a book store, and then we were walking past a store with musical instruments. I wanted to go in there to look around, so the three of us went inside.

I wandered around the instruments for a bit, noting some nice instruments, flutes, guitars, violins, and some instruments I didn't even vaguely recognize… I finally found the area where they were selling electronic keyboards, and I started browsing them. They had some very nice ones, and I was wondering if there was any way I could afford one so I could make music for games. My reasoning in the dream was that the keyboard I have is not capable of playing chords, but that is not actually true… it plugs directly into a computer and plays chords just fine as long as I have the memory buffer set properly to balance between speed and quality… but that wasn't what I was thinking in the dream as I browsed the keyboards.

While I was browsing the keyboards, Tigress had gone a short distance away with Silver and they were looking at ocarinas and talking about various things, I couldn't hear much of what they were saying. A sales man came over and asked if he could help me, I said I was looking for an electronic keyboard but I am on a tight budget… was there anything he could recommend? He began giving his sales pitch, saying they had three very economical models, which were very nice considering the price. He said they had the features that are only found on the high end models at other stores… He showed me the models, the cheapest one was $298, the next one up was $315, and the highest of their economical models was $355. I haven't priced electronic keyboards recently, so I wasn't even sure if that was a good value or if he was trying to rip me off… for some reason I felt sure he wasn't trying to scam me.

I asked about memory cards for easy transfer of the songs from the keyboard to my computer. He showed me the memory card slot on the middle model, said all three had it, but the memory card slot was a shape and size I have never seen, apparently they took a proprietary type of card that the company no doubt price gouged on… I said no, I didn't want to deal with odd shaped memory cards. He said that is understandable, which is why he actually recommended the high speed USB cable to connect the keyboard to a computer. He took down a $16 cable that had a USB connection on one end and a coaxial connection on the other end, that didn't look like a high speed connection to me… I told him I'd think about the cable, I wouldn't be in that much of a rush to transfer the data from the keyboard to my computer.

I was looking at the three keyboards again, trying to think how long it would get me to pay it off if I was to charge it to my credit card. While thinking about it I started playing on one of them, I was playing a song that sounded vaguely familiar. I was thinking it was a song I had heard in a dream with MoSh, and MoSh would be glad I could remember it well enough to play it. But I would have to get the keyboard… and there was plenty of room on my credit card… This is not safe thinking for me, as I have been known to get in over my head in credit card debt… I got out of that problem and don't want to go back there. But if I could just pay it off within a couple months… I was running numbers through my mind as to how much I could pay each month… well, I would definitely have to stick with the cheapest model.

I started playing the song on the lowest price model, it sounded just as good as on the other two, until I came to the left end of the keyboard… the few keys at the end of the keyboard looked like they had been chewed on?! Those keys didn't work, and I saw there was a large dog lying not far from the keyboard, I was sure that was the dog that had been chewing on the keys. The salesman came back over and asked if I had made a decision, I said I would have to get the cheapest one, but it had been chewed on… he looked at it and laughed. He said not to worry, I wasn't buying the display model, which they let the dog chew on so she wouldn't chew on random customers. I noticed the dog was now chewing on a violin…

I was debating whether or not to get the keyboard, Tigress was there beside me. She asked me if I was sure I could afford to do that, she said it would be cool to get a new one, but it wouldn't be so cool if it got me in trouble financially. For some reason I couldn't help but notice the fact that when my ex boyfriend, James, had been with me and I had wanted to buy something expensive, he had encouraged me to go ahead and do it, but Tigress was cautioning me to be careful about it. I looked at the partially chewed on keyboard, lost in indecision on what to do about it, and that's what I was still doing when I woke.

17.08.2010

Dragon ball and fries (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A so-so night. I am too focused on the stuff going on in my business.

Second:

I was in a living room, but it was different from waking. I was watching dragon ball, but in a language that I do not speak nor understand. I was able to understand it in the dream, unknow reason. I was happy because my wife was with me.

The scenery was Goku, MajinVegeta and Gohan. They were fighting against a made up foe. Majin Vegeta was about to blow up himself to try to safe the day.







Suddenly, the scenery switched to our waking living room. I was eating fries. I could hear some Kingdom Hearts music. I was listening the Heartless Awakening song. The CD was scratched and the music was distorted. My wife had a toothpaste that needed no water to clean the teeth.

My wife advised me to use it as well. I was still eating and my wife insisted with the toothpaste thing. I got mad at her, throwed a fry and the plate. I grabbed the toothbrush and brushed my teeth. My mouth was filled up in seconds and my wife told me to just swallow it. I felt it was very gross. The toothpaste tasted like strawberries and it was pink, however, it was gross to swallow.

Missed Dream Signs:
- The Dragon Ball scenery was not real.
- Music sounded distorted.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Head for a ToTY.

17.08.2010

Burnt Apartment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A so-so night. I am too focused on the stuff going on in my business.

First:

A small fire happened in my appartment. I could see some carpeting burnt and the floor looked bad. Some maintenance guys entered my apartment and one of them told me, "Why don't you just go for a drive until we fix this?" I felt very lazy because I have been driving for a while. I decided to lay in bed for a short while. My wife was in bed, nude, next to me.

She wanted to have sex, but there were some people in the room and I wanted them gone first. My wife told me there was no issues at all if other people watched. I still rejected.

The scenery changed and I was with another DC. He wanted me to taste something. It looked like a datil peper. I hate datil peppers. The DC told me it tasted like Maple Syrup, so I trust him and tasted it. It tasted indeed like a datil and I spilled it. I got mad at him.

Missed dream signs:
- Different apartment.
- People in my room.
- Someone saying that a datil tastes like Maple Syrup.

I didn't really remember many details of this dream. Also my dog was put down today, so I am expecting dreams of something to do with him because that's all that's occupying my mind at the moment.

Me and 2 girls my age are walking inside a huge indoor city, and although all the ceilings were low like and underground court, I'm pretty sure it was a city. Everything was made out of orangish bricks, giving a familiar magical impression.
We start off in a parking garage. As we go through the city there is a sense of urgency, like we're supposed to go somewhere important, so we sort of speedwalk. At one point I find a skateboard and start riding it, even though I don't know how to. We realize that one of the girls has gone missing, and then my viewpoint switches to hers as she hurries to catch up. We find some sort of magical Halloween themed candy shop, and inspect a large glass cabinet displaying different kinds of candy all with the theme of a skull.
A new dream begins where we are inside a large hotel shaped like The Standard or a tall casino, and all I remember is there being palm trees and rocks outside, which gave me extreme deja-vu, remembering anything dream that I had but can't quite remember

1, My brother is playing a variant of the Plinko game on the Price is Right game show. As the disks drop through the machine, he has to push sticks into them, which reveals yellow circles. Five circles before a failure means victory. However, he soon loses. In his disappointment, he steals a tabletop version of the game called Klinko from backstage. After he leaves, Bob Barker reveals that hidden under the tabletop was a dazzling array of jewelry.

2. I'm driving with two friends from high school, Sam A and Matt C, just bored and cruising. As we pass through my neighborhood, we see a live bear decked out in Christmas wreaths walking down the street.

I started off the dream at some random basement of a house with KA, LI, and VI. It was apparently JU's house and she was having a birthday party. We were sleeping over down here (for some reason seperated from the rest of the people). I had forgotten to buy her a present somehow (so nice eh?), so I was scrambling for stuff. Then I realized that I had some money on me; I would give her that. I then scrambled for some paper and a pencil to make a card.

As I searched for paper, I opened a creaky closet door. Inside there was a random toilet. I shut it again and looked over, and my friends were giving me that "Shit look who's there!" look. I saw it was apparently JU's mom. She asked me what I was doing. I gave the deer-in-headlights stare. Then she asked if I had dropped something there, and I said that I had.

Then I was outside. It was a grey day. There were these grey buildings that looked out onto some murky sort of beach pool thing. At some point I became lucid, though I can't remember much of it. The last thing I remember is chasing V.

In another dream, I was at some pew with a random blonde man. I was licking his neck and shoulders and kissing his face. But at the same time he was being judged by a jury. The jury said he was guilty, and then I saw myself stand up. But I was totally decked out in this black cocktail dress with a fuzzy boa and many jewels, and a hat too. I was mad at the jury and started yelling at him. Then it ended.

I just remembered that in my dream last night I was in some place that I suddenly realised consisted of minecraft blocks. There was some strange fancy 3D filter on that I didn't like.

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
In real life I ordered a Fight Club poster a few days ago, and I'm waiting for it to be delivered. That's obviously where this dream came from.

It was daytime, and the sky was filled with wispy white cumulus clouds. I was sitting on the concrete front steps of my house, looking around the block. The deliveryman should be there any minute to drop it off, I thought. As soon as I finished thinking those words, a man in a full-body navy suit came around the corner (there was a high wooden fence in the way) and walked up to me. It looked like he was wearing a janitor's outfit, but it was slightly baggier. He was holding a large square box over his shoulder, and when in close proximity to me, he put it on the ground.

It wasn't sealed, so I kneeled down and opened it up right away, expecting a Fight Club poster to be inside. Instead, I found two separate posters, rolled up so the white sides were facing outwards. I said, "these aren't mine," without even looking to see if even one of them was the one I ordered. "Tell your boss to get the damn order right next time," I added, and kicked the box over to his feet.

8/17/10 – [Choline] [Melatonin] [Tension Tamer] I didn’t get to bed until 2:15AM, so my WBTB was at about 7:30. I initially had a lot of trouble going to sleep and keeping still, until I decided to listen to some binaural beats. I laid down on my back with my arms close to my body, like the fetal position. I laid there for a while listening to the beats with no effect, for about 20 minutes. Then I fell asleep.
I remember a short dream where I was playing some kind of video game with a zombie alien. I had “3 bronze medals” on that particular level, and I had a conversation with one of my close friends on Steam while playing it. I remember telling him I just unlocked a new character and I could “swing” with him, instead of using a gun. Then the dream ended and I presumably went into a DEILD from there.
All I remember is darkness, then I realized I was in SP, making me come to the realization I was dreaming. I could feel it, and my dream was affected by the things happening in the real world. It felt like there cold boney hands grabbing my hands as I lay in blackness. I was amazed by how easily I could stay calm and reverse my thoughts. I thought of the hands as a bar support for a roller coaster, then all of a sudden I was riding front seat in a wooden roller coaster! I rode for about 10 seconds before I heard the ocean sounds from the binaural beats, which I attributed to the sound of wind, and then the roller coaster was in mid air, very high up.
My little dachshund sleeps next to me in bed and frequently kicks his feet when he sleeps. At this point, his legs kicked my arm and got ‘caught’ on my bicep. I felt this in the dream and knew what it was from instantly. It felt very particular. The roller coaster seemed to disappear and I was falling through the air. I couldn’t do anything at that point. I was just freefalling in the middle of a blank sky. It was intense. I soon started flying by numbers that count down, starting with 100. I assume this was counting down to the ocean or ground.

I didn’t stay long enough to find out as I woke up at about 30. Crazy.