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05.08.2010

Master's Degree in MILD (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to bed very very late. I have been working on after-classes duties, organizing the users that attended and some notes about all discussed. I had some super game operator duties to attend and I have been working on my new self employment management opportunity. I recalled four dreams.

First.

I was at college. I was the teacher for MILD courses. We had a degree on MILD and I had to teach it (nice daily residue...) A male student said that all could be gone because it was not real. Everybody ignored him. All the students managed total silence by turning off the class (Does not make sense, I know) They waited until I started and I started talking about lucid dreaming. I knew I had young people in the class too, so I had no worries.

Due the sound and for all the people realized that there will be always a class and they could sign in. I woke up feeling good.
I know this makes no sense... is how it was written from my journal. I cannot recall anything...

Missed dream sign:
- MILD career.
- A student saying it was not real.
- Most of the nonsense of the dream.

What I would have done if lucid:
- I would suggest a brainstorm to all students to improve lucidity. I am sure I would learn a lot from my subconscious.

I am walking along the expressway at the Cut-in-the-Hill near Cincinnati. A convoy of Fender guitar trucks passes to my left, each carrying a different model of Stratocaster guitar and each labeled with the make and price of its contents. One of these is called the "Super King" and is listed at $42000 dollars! Somehow I cross the lanes of traffic and open the truck, taking out the guitar. I call my mom, telling her that I'm holding a guitar worth more than all of our cars combined. Soon, however, I put the instrument back and start to walk home.

It's harder to walk up the hill instead of down it. I have to dodge cars, even jumping into a ditch in the median to avoid getting hit. A cop rolls by my ditch and takes a look at me, and I start to worry. My brother then walks out from nowhere and starts to walk with me. Soon, one of my back teeth comes loose and breaks away with a slight pain. I look at it, and am disgusted as it's completely black and cavity ridden.

all i remember is being assigned an important duty, almost a sacred duty.

this one is kinda personal, im not gonna go into much detail. im in the shower, not at home, im in a different bathroom. for some reason im trying an unconventional way to WILD, which im not going into. also i remember someone walking into the bathroom and talking to me.

this one was pretty cool. it starts out in this creek, its a big creek, maybe 30-40 feet wide, and theres trees and rocks in the middle everywhere, like the creek is running right through a forest. me and a group of a few kids were going down the creek, jumping from one big rock to another, trying not to get wet. im in the lead, and i come across a rock that is flat, and the surface is just below the water. then i get a sudden memory, of coming across the same rock, and discovering that it was covered in water, and being disappointed. i jump onto the rock anyway, and continue down the creek. then theres a stretch of water between me and the shore, lined by a stone dock type structure. if i remember correctly, the creek got a lot wider, opening up into a lake. i run across the stretch of water, coming to the stone walkway, and resting on a broken stone. then i see someone coming up beside me, with a person in his arms. he lays the person in the water, a kid, and says he drowned. i look at the kid and the he releases some air bubbles, i quickly jump and get him out of the water, to try and prevent him from drowning. this was a very strange case of drowning. he was entirely conscious during the drowning, but he couldn't talk or breathe, just look at me with a "help me!" look. i start giving him CPR, and giving him mouth to mouth. it works eventually, i think. it was very weird. thats all i remember.

Note: This night was another night like last night in that I had an epic WILD all crammed into one hour followed by the rest of the night with CRS. I don't know what the cause of this is, but it does seem to result in epic recall for my WILD, which I will post in a few different parts here.

I fell asleep with goals including getting MoSh to meet with his spirit guide and don Juan, and Tigress suggested MoSh might benefit from discovering his animal guide. Additionally I am still going with the goal of sharing a DDO or Oblivion dream with Tigress as well as completing the TotY. I used my light / sound device and slipped into my WILD…

I started this WILD as so many of them start, which is inside MoSh's inner world right in front of his house. In just a short time I had met up with MoSh and he said he was ready to go, but I said there was something extra that I wanted to do that might also help him. He asked what that was, I told him we would go find his animal guide. He asked why he needed to find an animal guide when he had already found his spirit guide. I told him that an animal guide can help you with different things than a spirit guide, I told him I am not as familiar with these things as Tigress, but I understand enough to know each guide has something special to tell us if we will just listen.

I led MoSh into the area behind his house where there were trees, though some of the trees, and to a nice meadow, which we sat down in the middle of it. I told him to focus on calling his spirit animal to us, and when the animal comes to us, we will know what animal it is. MoSh sat there for a bit, he appeared to be focusing on something, but nothing was happening. No animals were emerging from the forest. MoSh seemed to be getting impatient, he said he wanted to get going to talk to his spirit guide and don Juan before he woke up, he didn't want to spend the whole dream waiting here for some animal that might not come. I figured it would be pointless to just sit there if the animal guide wasn't going to present itself, so I told MoSh we could move on as long as we could look for his animal guide again later. MoSh said fine, and he got up.

That was when an animal did finally enter the meadow and headed straight for us. It was a fox! Could MoSh's animal guide be a fox? I remembered that Pablo's animal is a fox… The fox came closer to us, not showing any fear or hesitation, and then proceeded to jump directly into the air at me. The animal looked friendly, and I caught it in the air, pulling the cute fox into my arms and stroking the soft fur. Then I looked at the fox closer, MoSh wanted to know why his animal guide had gone straight to me, I said that was because the fox was Pablo, who had told me he might be showing up in my dreams in his fox form. So as MoSh and I went looking for MoSh's spirit guide, whom he calls Victor, I brought the purring fox with me, stroking silky soft fur.

MoSh and I searched for Victor, and the search led us to a night club or bar or something, they sold drinks, but they also had a live music going on there. We found Victor, but the music was much too loud to hear him over, so we just motioned to him that we wanted to talk to him, but we would have to do it outside. The three of us went outside where it was quieter, the bar must have had excellent sound insulation, because I couldn't hear a bit of the music outside. Victor asked MoSh how it had been going, MoSh said he had some questions, Victor said he would do his best to answer those questions. MoSh asked how he could increase his recall of his deep dream state. Victor asked if MoSh can't hear him at all while awake, because he had been trying to help MoSh remember some of what had happened in the deep dream state.

Victor said that the memory is a lot like a muscle in some ways, the more you use it, the stronger it will get, and when it comes to MoSh's memory of the deep dream state, that really needs some good exercise. He said the idea was to help MoSh with recalling deep dream memories only as much as needed, if that meant channeling the entire dream for now, then it did, but as MoSh did it more, Victor would have to tell him less and less of the dream until just giving MoSh a dream symbol would trigger the memory and finally MoSh wouldn't need Victor's help at all to recall all of his dreams. And even better, as MoSh gets better at recalling the deep dream state, his regular dream recall will also improve since his overall memory will get stronger. Victor went on to say that anything MoSh can do to improve his waking life memory will help him recall dreams, too… memory games, supplements, he rattled off a list of supplements here that a lot of them I didn't recognize including B vitamins, Omega 3 fats, antioxidants… I knew I would never remember the ones I have never heard of… but one of the best things MoSh could probably do would be to get a key piece of information from Victor and then meditate on it, letting the images flow freely and without questioning them, and if he had any doubts, he should just check with Victor who would confirm or deny if they were correct.

MoSh seemed to be thinking about that a bit, he said his ability to hear Victor in waking life is not consistent, Victor said the more they communicate in that manner, the better it will get. He looked over at me, I did a double take, not sure what I was supposed to do to improve MoSh's contact with Victor, he said that I have an excellent connection with my guardian and my guide, it is something that develops over time. I confirmed that, telling MoSh that when I first started hearing Hetfield, my guardian, I was not really hearing words, I would just sometimes get feelings and images, now I can hear him quite clearly, down to the last expletive… I thought about Hetfield letting out a stream of nasty words when he gets angry at something… Victor said that events occurring in the deep dream state weren't originally meant to be remembered, because that's where the subconscious mind deals with things that might be too extreme for the conscious mind to handle, so it takes some work to make it come easily, but it can be done. He looked at his wrist as if consulting a watch that wasn't there, then he said we had better be on our way to see don Juan before MoSh or I woke up. I noticed the fox in my arms disappeared. I didn't want to also wake up before finding don Juan, so I opened a portal focused on locating don Juan, MoSh and I went through it.

On the other side we were in the same kind of desert setting I had found don Juan last time when I dreamed on four planes simultaneously, controlling each of them separately but at the same time. Don Juan saw the portal and he saw us emerge, then he turned his attention to MoSh, almost seeming to not notice me at all. I knew that wasn't the case, he was just focusing his attention on MoSh. He said he had been expecting us, and that he and MoSh had much to discuss. Crap, I hoped I would be able to remember it all… I stood near them, trying to focus on what don Juan was saying… but he wasn't saying anything. He looked over at me. He said there is no offense meant in it, but as what he had to discuss with me was done with just the two of us was as it should be between him and MoSh. MoSh hesitated, then said no, he needed me there to remember. Don Juan said that a man who lets another support him all the time will not learn to walk on his own. Don Juan and MoSh both disappeared, not in a flash of light, not through a portal, they just vanished, one instant they were there, then they were gone.

I felt the dream slipping, and I didn't want to lose it yet. I thought maybe I could follow don Juan and MoSh, and just only tell MoSh what had happened if all other attempts had failed. To maintain the dream I did a time dilation, which stabilized the dream. I focused on following don Juan and MoSh, tried to open a portal, but nothing happened… hmmm… maybe I was really not meant to follow them. I figured I might as well continue to another goal for the night…

Note: This dream is continued in the next post

★★★

Landlord WTF

Had a dream that my landlord wanted me to do something for him. There was this weird walkway made of loose branches and I was climbing up them to do his task. I did this at least twice. Then i jumped down and played with letter blocks with some children

doggy dogg church

(Had this one the other night but it's worth writing down)

I was walking on some busy street on a summer day. Came across a car where there were a bunch of black guys smoking weed. Snoop Dogg came up to me and had this weird pipe shaped like a beehive... or really it looked like it was made from beehive material... I don't know. But he handed it to me and said I should smoke some. Now, I don't care much for Snoops Dogg, Or much for marijuana... BUUUUUT, When Snoop Dogg himself walks up to you and hands you a peace pipe. You better damn smoke it anyway.

After a few puffs is tarted feeling high. I thought "Great... now I'll feel all fucked up for hours and it will kill my recall."

Then he directed me into some church. I don't remember much in there other than the fact that I didn't like it.

Other dogs

I think I'm in my backyard playing with a golden retriever. But another dog approaches me and snarls... It had a ridiculously small head. After a while it ran with the other dog down a small hill. As I chased them I became lucid but my memory fails after that point.

missing lucid

i had a nother lucid but i can't recall what happened after either


Cacophony

I remember looking at a computer screen with some social website that Cacophony was on. She had some elaborate screen name and a personal page. After clicking on it a few times navigating the page disapeared. For some reason she deleted her page, and I suspected it was because of me.

False alarm

I was looking at the computer screen again and found her name. I left the computer and entered some room. In the room i found Asuka... but she looked like Cacophony... Weird. I looked closer and recognized Asukas eyes. She seemed down about something and I could tell she needed comfort. There was a couch with clothes all over it so I cleaned the couch off. I sat down and Asuka joined me. She wanted to cuddle so we spent a minute adjusting ourselves so that we were both comfortable. I felt close to her and sleepy. I soon fell asleep and As i fell asleep I woke up.

House is messed

I remember walking towards my dream house at night time. I came from the backyard and saw a part of the house was on fire.... I was a bit panicked until some firemen came and put the fire out with a firehose. I walked through the house looking at the damage. All the windows were out. The stairs looked like they weould crumble but i climbed them anyway.

Back at the house

i'm at the house again listening to some strange music. Some Women walk by and give me a dirtly look because they hate the music. I just start dancing silly and they look shocked.

House again.

Back at the house I remember giving some children there some blankets because it was cold. I then went to the living froom and went on the computer a bit. Can't remember what I did there but I vividly remember going to a large TV in the room. The kids were going to watch it, so I turned it on with the remote. At first i thought the remote didn't work but a few seconds later the screen went on with a cable channel menu.

14.06.2010

Testing Entheogenes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was walking through the house, and Tina, my sister, asked if I was ready. I said yes, nad she put cups on my ears. She said that the guy would be in soon. We waited, and she said she would be in charge of the music being played. I said NOWAY. She played a bit of music. Jump on it(its not called that, but I forget the name). Then I told her not to go above 10 in volume, as it was on 8. She said ok. Hunter, who was the man, came in with another dude. He said that this was this guy, and thats where he got it from. Tina set up the blindfold, and then I started talking to this guy about DMT(this was after I took the compound, it was like I was transported, and began talking to him) and if you could put it in a sticker, and place it on the toungue. We distilled it from plants, and freeze-dried it in a vacuum sealed case thing. He took it out, and gave it to me, and we walked over to this other large cell, with no windows. As I walked up, I had transformed into a girl with a large puffy dress. I plopped down on the cushion in the room, and their was water where I sat, and I wondered how I could be transported if there was water. As soon as I said this there was a knocking on my right thigh, and my vision exploded into color. Instantly, my mind was fucked, and voices began to speak in my ears, especially my right one. I had little awareness of my body, and the voices began to speak 1000 times faster than normal, but I knew that I was getting the information. My senses were overstimulated, and I remember little of what I experienced, and thus, do not know how "long" it lasted. I became aware of the letters SHUNSHA in multi-colored writing as I was dropped into my body on my bed, and I still felt the knocking on my right thigh, and I think the knocking was my leg spasming, and hitting the wall. I got scared cause I thought there were zombies in my room(I sensed something). the next week I felt fucking amazing, and was high all week long from this dream.

14.06.2010

The Buddha Ring (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was at St. Pats, and I walked around, and then I go home. I got into this room, the office room of the old house that I used to live in and there is a ring on the floor under neath the piano. There is three little animals that are guarding it. It is the ring of buddha, and whoever wears it shall act, and feel, like Buddha. Sure enough, not only did I act like Buddha, but a fields was emitted that made all creatures not be able to attack me. It even made people act very peacefully. This girl I used to hand out with was swimming, and for some reason as she ran up to me, I thought she was going to physically hurt me. then she kissed me the way Elyssia does, which is fucking hot by the way. I then stopped her, she ran, took off her towel, and jumped in. I jumped in, but took off the Buddha Ring. She swam towards me, and I said that we could still be friends, and then Michelle said, "Weren't you already friends?" Tina said something along the lines of FB. Everyone laughed and I had a cardboard boxes over my face, pretending to be ashamed. I was in the room again, the Buddha ring on my finger, and there were the same 3 animals around my feet. One was a snake, the other a mouse, and some other funky creature, that had a really funky tongue. Same animals as before. they licked my feet. Somehow I knew they were venomous. I scratched them with a piece of paper, and a salesman appeared to my left, and asked if I wanted to buy more pets/Rings, and offered me a very good deal, and I said I'll think about it .

12.06.2010

Personal path to ascension (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was walking somewhere, and I came across this compound, that was guarded by this barbwire fence. I saw a sign saying that they were giving away free shoes for people who needed it. I climbed the fence, and cut myself on my leg. The shoes were upstairs, and there was a ladder to the open window. I climbed up the window, and took some for grant, maybe white ones. I climbed down, went in the shop downstairs to but hair, and the lady(who reminded me of Michelle) told me my pants were dirty, and I had to go clean them. I climbed the fence again, and went and washed my pants in the river side. I came back, and climbed the fence again. I climbed the ladder again, and this time it was a large step ladder, and I could walk up it like it was a right angle stair case. I couldn't find my shoes, so I stuck a nice pair of black shiny ones into my black one, even though i knew they would be too tight. I was stepping down the ladder, and there was a hole in the ladder on my way down. I mobed the stairway so it abutted up against the side of a building because I was going to jump to the next available stair. I decided just to jump through the hole, and land vampire style. After I landed as such, I found my shoes again, and then this lady called me out. She asked if I was the same dude that climbed the fence earlier. I said no because I thought I would get in trouble. TUrns out she just wanted to let me know that I could sue for damages. I apologized for lying, and was sad that I did. Earlier, I had found Jake on ground, and other kids were running around him, not helping.

11.06.2010

The Law in regards to hurricanes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I read a law notebook, and it had a list of hurricanes on it, almost like a most wanted list, on how much money they were responsible, how many lives they were responsible for(if they ever came back). Also beneath the table, it had things to do in case of a hurricane. "Have a stern talk with, and fresh the weather man"
"Fire the sewer people"
People were cooking food while I was in Nannas kitchen reading, I think it was 167 for the page number.
I still don't know what meaning this dream has, if any.

09.06.2010

Virus removed (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Me, Xavier, and some other dude went on a carride. The places we went to were very swervy, almost like the roads in Oregon. I was in the back left seat. We got to a spring type place, and we swam. We swam, and I said "Be bareful not to drink the water". I go into the bathroom, look in the mirror, and my irises were filled with yellow bacterial flecks, and were rapidly growing faster and faster. I blinked them, and black stuff came out of my irises, and got onto my irises. I got all the fuckers out, and was very relieved.

Right as I began to write this, a big black lady with a purple shirt on walks past me LOL.

Doorbell rings, I am doing dishes. I rinse off my hands and quickly dry them off. I go to the doorway, and answer it, and there is a big Purple Hummer at the end of the long walkway. An MIB type Asian dude points to the front. I walk up to the front, and there is a Big Black lady on a purple tricycle, and she is wearing a Purple blouse, that is silk, and is of regal quality. She begins to pull the Hummer up my driveway by pedaling the tricyle(I know, Holy shit, physics were in complete effect). Shes huffing and puffing away like a train. She travels up the driveway, and she goes around the house. I give my brother Jake to Grant, my other brother to go inside. I rush after her, and I see her go up a very green hill, that is luminous with plant life. Everything begins to take on a golden quality to it, almost like in harry potter the lucky potion, how its golden and bubbly and tastes so good. I follow her down the other side of the hill, and the tricycle has transformed, and there is a very beautiful tree growing out the back, with a golden green hue, that has merged with the tricycle. The tricycle is still that regal purple in the front, just with a tree growing out of it. I find the purple lady, and we begin to chat about stuff. She then asks me whether I would like to travel with her to her ranch? I say hell yeah. She nods to the man in the purple Hummer, and an extremely colorful wormhole opens up, that is swirling with different tinges of color, like a sundae of different types of icecream. Me and my brother Grant get to enter, and just as I get to the singularity beep Beep BEEP BEEP BEEP, my alarm clock goes off.
That was an AWESOME dream though, and I think that may be a DG possibly, or just a friendly spirit. I haven't gotten another dream with her in it . She was really cool though.

I dreamt a lot last night. It started with me looking in the mirror talking to someone that wasnt visible, but i knew they were there, i didnt realize they were invisible in my dream. I was talking about my sideburns and i had thick sideburns, but there was this weird black fuzz on my chin. (i dont have any facial hair, yet). Then i woke up and went back to sleep and i was in a doctors office and i had the memory of an exam in my dream. But, then i was like, "can you look at this too" and i felt somethign burning on my inner thigh, and i have this wart on my hand, and the doctor looked at it, and my doctor in reality was there, but he wasnt the one examining me, a teacher that retired from my high school was looking at my hand and i thought he was a a doctor. as he started looking at it, he said, "this is a conjuctive infection and somehow you cleaned it up, but now it's spreading" and as he said that i could see it spread to my finger tim and it bubbled the tip of my finger and then on the other hand halfway up my pointer finger started being encased by this green stuff with these giant pricker needles. and it started on one side and moved all the way around and when it closed around my finger, i felt a burning.. i then realized i was dreaming, and i was like, this needs to go away, but it didnt just go away, it started to melt away into a deeper shade of green, and it dripped like candle wax, but the drops of fluid had faces in them.. then i woke up.

1/11/06 - 3rd Visit from Dad : Lucid

Before this I had 2 profound lucids / visits from my Deceased Father. One was a couple days after he died and another one a couple of years later. Last night I had another. I've had many lucids where I call for him and he doesnt show up, it has to be his own doing. Also I've seen him as regular dream characters where he doesnt ever directly address me. These 3 are different, and they have a major impact on me throughout the days and my life. I was awake at 5:00 and had to get up at 5:45 so it happened in that short time frame. Like the last lucid it took place infront of our old house. I pulled up in a car in front of our old house. My dad came out smiling. I knew I was dreaming; I usually get really excited but I didnt want to pop awake so I remained calm although he could tell I was glad to see him. I asked where has he been, hows he doing?
He said he's fine. He walked down the driveway and was walking towards another car, a car I didnt recognize but it was an older car probably from the 50's. I'll have to look at old pictures to see if it was an old car he drove. I asked him how is the other side? He said "it's great" but then looked up and said "it's not always easy to reach the highest star!" Then my alarm went off and I woke up. I think he delivered this message because I'm going through a hard time in my life. He's trying to give me words of encouragement!