Recall from today's naps, some success, also not much of non-lucid recall due to me trying to DEILD after waking up from non-lucid. Also wow, i did successful WILD in a dream(which counts as DILD i guess?). Nap #1: I was in game that looked similar to quake 4 and was shooting some stroggs with my hyberblaster, cleaning room after the room. Then there was very dark passage where i got ambushed. Then everything went black and i spontaneously go lucid, i try to imagine different location and teleport to it, but there's no success, i try a few times but i am still stuck in darkness. Shortly i feel something touching me and 'hugging' me, no clue what it is. I try to teleport again but no dice. After a bit i see some white/cyan wall for an split second and then i wake up the room is different and the lamps are broken so i realized that i am still dreaming, but i can't move for some reason. Shortly dream fades out. Nap #2: Can't recall much about this one, i recall finding out that one of the forums that i was previously on, which expired, has been restored and functioning also there were some troll users getting banned on it. Later i was browsing some other forum that was apparently about Trigonometry Wars shmup, in one of the threads the author was having some problem with a different game he was making. Later i noticed that my PC was overheating. Nap #3: I was home and there was major revamp of furniture positioning, people were annoying me and PC was loading extremely slow due to some problem. I got tired of trying to fix everything and ended up just lying in my bed, trying to WILD... I awakened in my bed and i know i am in a dream, i take off headphones and i can still hear binaurals, that confirms it. I get up from the bed and while getting up i am concentrating on touching it with hands for stabilization, sound of binaurals shortly fades out as well. I am looking at the room and it is pretty accurate to my room in waking life, also it is daytime. I go to the balcony door and on the way i am repeating 'I am dreaming' a few times for additional lucidity and stability. I started ramming the door, had to do it twice like i did in the other lucid dream, though this time it just opened instead of breaking, i am fine with it since i want to do something more major for TOTM anyways. As soon as i get to balcony i take off, i immediately feel the wings, and this time i am better prepared for it. It's still not easy though, i start flying in circles for a bit and then far to the right(if facing balcony from outside), being unable to get higher. I note that the building is very long and as much as i was in flight, it didn't ended. I finally figure out the movements and start getting higher, my target is the roof, since i need a good big open place. I reach it in a bit but it is very small somehow, i take off again searching for different roof. Shortly i reach some red brick building, i note that my flight is pretty stable now. The roof is sloped, again not fitting for my goal, but i find decently open plaza-like area down below near this building. I also try taking a look at wings, but for some reason the angle at which i can rotate head is rather small. I land and look around, there are people walking around this plaza but i don't care. I start thinking up the way to reach my goal: transformation into a dragon, and i decide to try just concentrating, imagining transformation and shouting 'Dragon form!'. I try it for the first time, no success. Then second time, still not working. Then i try for the third time! I feel my right hand becoming different, i look at it and it's mostly normal but slightly bigger and clawed looking, it becomes normal shortly. I become more confident and attempted for the fourth time. I concentrated much more as well and i got it, my hands became clawed and black scales appeared all over them, but a second later, dream abruptly ends. I woke up in my room and dad was annoying me about something, so i forget to do reality check, then shortly i wake up again, this time properly. Worth noting it was my longest lucid up to date as well.
I'm on Teraluna. Yuya is teaching me about dream bubbles, or temporary dimensions like she calls them. We've done this before, but this time she's telling me how to create a completely customized bubble, with my own rules at will. She's explaining that using the 'natural bubble' we spawn in when we dream requires little to no energy, but it is also impossible to fully control. We can definitely influence it to a great extend, but the control is limited. Creating a custom bubble whilst in the dream plane requires a lot of energy, and it is fully customizable, but unfortunately they are very small and somewhat limited in features. You can create a simple room, and apply some rules to this room, but you cannot create a beautiful outdoors environment for example. The idea is quite basic, create a custom room and apply the rule "create gradually more powerful monsters attacking myself". According to Yuya this is a rather high level training method, and quite effective. Not only do you have to stay alive, but you also have to keep the dream bubble up, which requires a high degree of concentration. Maintaining such concentration during a battle is very hard. I don't understand how it works, but I somehow understand how to do it. It's quite complex and requires delicate energy manipulation and a lot of willpower. You have to fade into the new dimension at the same time you're creating it, it is a very weird and confusing experience. My first few attempts are quite unstable, and the dream bubble breaks twice. When it breaks I simply fall out from the spot I created it. But then I get a feeling for it, and suddenly it seems very straightforward. I am fighting waves of increasingly more powerful monsters, using my dragonic powers and my katana. Even though the monsters are very realistic, there is no blood or anything. When I slice through one, it simply fades away. I'm trying to push myself to the limit, to see how powerful I truly am. My own aura causes massive vibrations throughout my body, it feels great! I move at an incredible speed, and the heat of my aura leaves burning trails behind me. The dragon tattoo is fully grown and glowing in a bright blue. Even though when I fully focus, time progresses so slovely I can time every one of my movements perfectly, I still occasionally manage to move so quickly that my mind cannot keep up. It's a fantastic experience. I'm at my limit, I cannot keep up with the monsters anymore, at this point I'm just reacting instinctively to stay alive. One scorpion like monster manages to pierce me with its tail. It feels really cold for a split second, then the dimension disappears and I fall back to Teraluna. I check my chest, I haven't hurt myself, this really is an amazing way to train! ... I'm now at Yuya's place. I'm exhausted and we go to bed... I feel myself falling asleep very quickly... I know this feeling from waking life. The numbness of my body, the heavy blanket feeling, the lightheadedness, I'm beginning to dream! I am floating through darkness. I do not have a body, I am pure energy. A scene starts to form around me. The ground is volcanic, there are small crates everywhere and colorful plasma is streaming out of them. There are a few lava streams as well. I realize I cannot be on a planet. The horizon has no curvature and there is no atmosphere, I can see directly into space even though it is daytime. Somehow this place feels oddly familiar. I feel a presence behind myself and turn around, I am still floating in the air. A white and blue dragon approaches me. He is very beautiful but also very fear inducing. He has two pairs of insanely large Wings, and two tails with white blades on them. He stops right in front of me, gazing into my eyes. His voice is deep and so strong it is resonating in my body. "You are Dragon!" I am surprised by this statement, even though people call me Dragon all the time. I always figured I was somehow using dragonic abilities, but I never considered being an actual dragon. "I use the powers of a Dragon." "No. You are Dragon. Always." "You were born Dragon. Appearances are irrelevant. You are Dragon!" "I am here because you need to know this." "You are near the age of waking. When you do, your powers will fully awaken." His presence is absolutely overwhelming, I feel that whatever question I would ask would be inappropriate. "Thank you." "Remember... you are Dragon... ALWAYS." "Yes." I wake up in my bed at home. I want to tell Yuya about this dream, but when I turn around I realize my mistake. I am not on Teraluna, I am at home... I just woke up... stupid me. I take some quick notes but then my eyes start to itch. Rubbing my eyes, I walk to the bathroom to check in the mirror if I have something in them. I am shocked when I see myself in the mirror. My eyes are glowing lightly... The same way Yuya's eyes do, the same way mine do when I look at myself in a mirror on Teraluna. What is happening??? I am Dragon... always? Shit... this can't be! I turn around to look at my back in the mirror, searching for the dragon tattoo which I know cannot be there. But there it is... It is not fully formed yet, my skin is bleeding in the spots where the dragon tattoo is in my dreams, and it is slowly being filled with color. Holy shit... am I really a Dragon? Am I awakening? I can't decide if I should be amazed or be worried about the consequences this would have on my future life. But then I realize that I'm wrong. Of course... I am still dreaming, holy shit! I wake up again, this time for real.
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