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Low lucidity

I feel sleep paralysis and stay still. I try not to focus on anything. I end up in a small room with vanilla colored walls and a security door. I make sure that I am lucid with the nose pinch. I leave the security room to find a hall way in a school. I do the hand and whole body stabilization. I briefly see Valda-1 and I think she tells me to go down stairs. So I do and it looks like a hotel down there. Very grand. Someone offers me a blue jacket. I find myself. In NZ. I walk along Colombo and then I see a lady selling clothes that are stored in boxes. I grab one to have a look. The arms of the sweater (black/gray) are not the same length (I laugh to myself). I walk along further to find an escalator. I go up it to find my brother and this chubby girl in a dull yellow shirt. I ask her, "Are you dreaming?"
"Yes, I am dreaming."
My mom comes holding a baby. I think to myself, "good! Now my sister has someone to play with." It is naked and my mom hands it over for me to hold. My mom pauses and the baby poops on me.
I go to the bathroom just behind me to wash off the poo. Bathroom is very filthy. There is this bucket with a whole lot of pills which I chuck down the toilet. I yell out to my brother for a cup to wash myself with. "Were the pills my grandpa's?"

real quick. this was pretty vivid.

Grandpa's New Barn (non-lucid)

M, BroY, and I were driving down the gravel road to grandpa's house. I seen a huge, new, and nice barn behind the house.

"He is going to rent the place out to students." M says.

It is a real nice barn.

We exit the car and proceed into the house. We see young girls playing with those toy cars they can drive around in.

The girls stare at me and I don't recognize them.

Inside the house, it is extremely nice. A lot of money went into that place. It is not like while awake.

We never do encounter grandpa.

PART 1 - IMPULSIVE GRANDPA

I'm with grandpa. He's acting very impulsive. He keeps eating unhealthy food - I remember one specific instance of a burger from Burger King... and possibly taking drugs (alcohol?). I think to myself that it could be because he thinks he's going to die soon, so he's letting loose.

We're driving along, talking about deep things. We're out in the country, there are a lot of sharp turns. He's barely paying attention to his driving. I think to myself, it must be on autopilot, and with so many years of good driving, it should be fine... I feel safer having thought this.

He talks (I ask?) about his philosophy on various things... I think it had an "all the beautiful people," world peace type vibe... which is interesting as IRL his views tend more toward the conspiratorial.

ANALYSIS

Grandpa recently purchased a motorcycle, and apparently plans on (or possibly has already been) using it.

I really do often think that he's trying to keep himself stimulated by keeping busy, because he's afraid that if he gets too bored he'll just lose the will to live.

His manner has changed slightly as well... more uninhibited.

Definitely need to visit sometime soon.

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PART 2 - OUTDOOR RAP BATTLE

Outside, field in the country... there's about a dozen people lined up, each taking turns freestyling. Lil Wayne (or someone who looks like them) is one of them.

It's my job to pick who competes next. There are bins of food sitting on a table - for some reason instead of picking the people themselves, I pick two foods, and whoever owns them goes next.

I'm picking just before I leave (I'm supposed to compete next, but make some half-ass excuse, grandpa is waiting in car - which is true, but there did not seem to be any urgency.)

The host recommends I pick some frozen meat, I do... turns out it belongs to two Japanese chefs (wearing full white chef uniforms and hats) who barely speak English, he wanted them up for entertainment value.

I head back to grandpa waiting in the car, I see the hills and winding roads in the distance.

ANALYSIS

I started listening to rap again the past few days after taking maybe a week break from it, likely trigger.

I also watched a few prank calls yesterday, which to me seems like the trigger for tricking the Japanese chefs into competing, similar attitude of mischief.

Making an excuse seems literal, I don't feel prepared for something like that.

(I should have written these down earlier today... Now I have forgotten most of them)

First:
I have vague memories of my brother Jimmy being angry as hell. I think it was at my parents place, but I am not sure. The Austrians were visiting and we were going to Stockholm. We talked about flying airplanes and I said that I have never gone anywhere with an airplane before (in real life I have traveled by air one time when I was 4). After further discussion I came to the conclusion that I had actually done it once before but for some strange reason I had no memories of it. I didn't think much about it.

-memory gap-

Something about herbs used for cooking. That it is much more efficient to gather fresh herbs by yourself in the forest than to buy them. Therefor we had to go to my grandpa who lives in fjällen becuase apparently they had herbs in abundance. Then I was walking in a forest there and saw wood sorrel on the ground. It wasn't really what I was after though so I didn't gather it. I was looking for parsley and oregano but found none.

Second:
There was a race held at the uni in Umeå and I was attending along with some random people from the cognitive science program I attended IRL some year ago. The race started at the pond and continued along the road next to the lärarutbildningshus. I ran along the race track and after a while it led into a house. I think it was a store or something. Now Jimmy was there and it was if as the race didn't exist at all. Jimmy was following me around.

I opened a door that led down to the basement. It was an extremely narrow stairway so you almost had to squeeze yourself down. I started to go down and Jimmy followed. There was a lot of cobwebs on the walls. They were very detailed and I could see small dead insects, web structures and spiders. Most was small and I wasn't bothered by them. I knew that Jimmy didn't like spiders so I warned him about them and said that he should crouch to avoid them. He failed to avoid the last web and it got stuck on his chest without him noticing. I saw that it contained a very large spider (~4cm diameter). I told him about it and he tried to shove it off. It fell on the floor and the spider got squashed. Another spider appeared from the damaged web and approached me. I got disgusted and tried to shove it away but the web was sticky and it partly stuck on my fingers. It felt very repulsive.

I don't know how the spider episode ended but me and Jimmy entered another room and it was decorated with very old furniture. We approached a child bed that we thought was very typical of the old furniture style. It didn't really look like a bed, it was more like a strange cloth tube. It lead to another room and I think we were going to enter it through the bed.