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12/21/11

Afternoon Nap

NON-LUCID

Dream 1:

I think I was inside a ship, like in Titanic. The ship was close to destruction, there was water gushing out in small holes on the ship. I couldn’t get good clarity of this, but for some reason, I needed to set something on fire to escape the ship.



There were people that were one floor above me, and everyone is rushing and panicking.

Then it hit me. As soon as I set the lit match, or whatever it was in my hand, There was this small line of fire manifesting itself from bottom to the top level of the bridge.

I saw people dying, I saw their pains turn into nothingness, I could see their innocence degrade as the flames continued to augment. Then I saw a familiar face.



Out of all the DCs, I paid attention to her the most. She was stuck, she was burning too. All I could do was watch. I loved this girl in waking life, and all I could do is watch her burn!

I turned around and had to escape, because I would join the rest of them quickly if I didn’t. While the water washed away people who had bonds, families, friends, etc., I was worried about how I reacted towards this girl.

It felt as if I had an obsession with her. I felt sad but mad at the same time. I felt so selfish, and realized that this girl is just someone I wanted to like, someone I was too quick to love in waking life.

When I boarded onto a safe area, which was a pretty weird installment inside of a bridge, it basically was some kind of missile that did an auto-launch so that if the operator wasn’t there, it could still save whoever was inside of it.

That’s all I remember in the first dream. I realized this same girl I was worried about being burned to death was still alive in the next dream.

Dream 2:

It’s as if I’m watching a film over the same girl I liked in waking life. Let’s call her “IH.”

“IH” was in a bikini outfit. She looked cute in it, no, she was beautiful. The environment was a small beach, kind of like the section from Super Mario Sunshine in Delfino Plaza, but it wasn’t a cartoon theme, it was like a real life replica of it in a way.



She was running inside the water, and she was fairly tall. After running around, she gets back on land and starts skating I think. There is a light blue sign that she turned to and jumped back to the water to start surfing.

I was wondering how she could surf when there were no waves, but I didn’t care. I saw her full body, and it was so natural. I focused more on her than on the actual environment after I saw she did the same thing over and over again.


I woke up, and I felt horrible. I almost cried. Maybe my subconscious is teaching me how to love someone again. Not sexual love, just loving someone for the internal beating of their heart.

My legs are still shaking from this.

Another busy morning. As a result, I had to wait all day to journal so my recall isn't so good.

Weird vitamins

I am at my grandparent's house. Someone has made up packets of vitamins for myself and some family members. I look into the packet that I am given at the vitamins. There are some pills and odd looking herbs, and a worm. The longer I look, the more worms appear in the packet. Apparently the worms have medicinal properties and are good for us. I don't like the idea of eating them, but I think I do anyway. It doesn't taste too bad really. More like gummy worms than anything.

Meeting the Emperor

I am on a field trip or vacation of some sort. There is a girl there who is kind of cute, but a little odd. For one thing, she is dressed like a leprechaun. I can't tell if I think that is cute or weird, but she seems to like me. We sit near each other and now and then she holds my hand when we walk. We go into a building, going upstairs.

Somehow, I become a soldier in the revolutionary war. It is still the same setting and the same building, but a couple of centuries earlier apparently. I have to meet the "Emperor" of England to discuss the terms of the American Colonies. I go into a huge room, which is dark and apparently contains a lake. The Emperor is sitting on a throne in the middle of a lake, and people who have been granted and audience are expected to crawl to him along a path over the water. I refuse to crawl, and walk out to the Emperor even before he calls me. I don't like the guy's arrogance, and I'm an American anyway.

I tell him that the Colonists want independance. He tells me that I will have to schedule an appointment to talk to him. He says that it isn't so much his idea, but people will get mad at us if I don't get an appointment. Not only that, but he is apparently so great that only really extraordinary people can talk to him on such short notice. He suggests that I talk to his receptionist, and pretend that I was dead but came back to life, or something like that. Apparently that is the scale of importance that I have to meet to talk to him.

I go back into the hallway and find what I think is the receptionist's office. I think instead of saying I was dead and came back to life I will tell her I was blind but now I can see. It turns out though that this isn't the receptionist's office. The lady gives me directions to the receptionist.

"Go out this door and to your right," she says. "Take the elevator with the red door..." I forget the rest of the directions. I go out into the hallway again, but have some difficulty trying to find the rest of the way.

12/21/11

Went to bed late and didn't really get a good nights/morning sleep. oops.

I'm eating hummus and pita bread outside at a restaurant with my family. The waitress is loud and over friendly. She is sitting at our table and eating our food. Back at home I smoke a joint with my brothers and watch Family Guy. That is pretty much it.

No school, no school, yay. I had two lucids, but both were pretty pathetic--one spiraled out of control and I woke up as soon as the other started. Don't have them or any other dreams with me now and I won't be able to get on until next week, I think. So.... yes.

I had a decent dream last night. It was kinda weird though, but I can remember it pretty well.

Riot in Math Class
It was nighttime and I was at my school going about my day like I normally would. I headed over to math with a some of my friends only to be met by the disappointed stares of our math teacher. When we took our seats, he told us everyone in the class had done poorly on the test and was issuing a retake. One person was outraged by this and began yelling at him. Then more people got up and started screaming their heads off. Out of nowhere, a Molotov cocktail went flying through the air and caught a part of the building on fire. At that point, I was scared for my life so I booked it out of there and woke up.

Conclusion
I remember a couple other fragments of a few dreams, but nothing substantial. Happy dreaming everyone! :L

My dream life was once pretty vivid and fun. Then I spent a year so busy that I hardly dreamed at all- or if I did, I wasn't aware of it in the morning. Things have slowed considerably the past month, so I've been noticing my dreams again. But gosh they are more boring and less vivid than they used to be. Or maybe I've just forgotten how to pay attention?

In which I have a conversation with my neighbor...

A large, well-dressed family arrives in the driveway of my neighbor's house. They are waiting to speak with him about some lucrative opportunity involving his home. They have not made an appointment. I see them through the window and call him up to let him know they are waiting. He asks me to stall them until he can get there. I go outside and make excuses. They are detached and properly polite. I can't tell if they are put out or not, but I get the sense that they don't want me to hang around and make small talk, so I tell them to make themselves at home and then I return to my own house.

Quite some time later, they are still waiting. I see one of the cars leave, and now only one couple and their driver are still waiting. I call my neighbor again and urge him to get home as soon as possible. He explains that he is trying to get there and asks me to stall them longer. I talk to the couple for a little longer, and then my neighbor arrives. He shows us around the house through secret hallways and hidden rooms that I had never seen before. The couple leaves.

My neighbor and I lean up against the fence in his yard and share a beer. It is night time and the stars are out. He tells me about some problems he is having and we have an intimate conversation. I feel really sad for him and think how much I like him and his family, and I really hope things work out for him. But I can think of no solutions for his problems. The whole dream just has a feeling of resignation and sadness. I remember feeling that life is so hard for so many good people.

Just a dream fragment: boss sent me a message saying that the reason my project failed was because of me

Note: went to bed very drunk, guessing that affects recall

Edit: Later remembered another dream fragment involved meeting Bill Hicks. I asked if he knew he was dead. Non-lucid, hoping more of this will be remembered later.

12/21/11

Dream 1:

NON-LUCID

I remember I started out in an elevator in this dream.



I had to go to a specific seating area for a college class, and it looked like it was going to be the Chemistry 101 Course I already took, but with a different teacher.

Me and a group of random DCs had to go to “Floor E” or something like that. Once we headed out, we’re in the class, and it is REALLY HUGE just for a college class. In fact, it looked like an indoor stadium.



There was a big screen for the professor to use for lectures and working out problems, and on the screen, we were learning how to do ionic bonds. The thing that bothered me is that it wasn’t related to that, it was actually us learning about electron spin and how to determine whether there would be a positive or negative spin.




It was basically learning Quantum Numbers, but just step 4 of it and balancing ionic equations (it should’ve been balancing equations to make a NET IONIC equation), but I wasn’t aware (typical) at the time.



Everyone started complaining, but not too loudly that the professor could hear. It was one of those grunts and moans where everyone would go “ugh!” and start to laugh at each other because they’re sharing the same problem too (I hope I that made sense).

The dude to the right of me looked really familiar, let’s call him Richard. He was looking at me weird, but not in a creepy way. You know how you see someone you haven’t met in a long time, yet they still remain quiet as if they never seen you before?

It was exactly like that, and I did the same stunt he did on me. I didn’t really care to socialize with him because I was focused on the randomness that our professor is trying to instill into our minds.

And there was this other DC who was a student who tried to show off what he knew to the professor by saying the answers before she did. He did it so much, that I thought the professor was going to RAGE QUIT. I mean it’s obvious that he’s working hard, but let the professor do her job god damn it!

You declaring your knowledge of the course isn’t going to make US cognizant of it. I hate those kinds of people, but it couldn’t be stopped, I just let it slide and listened to him increasing his confidence in answering questions the professor dished out to us.

I couldn’t remember much after that.

Dream 2:

This dream was pretty short. It seemed I was in a small town, and I see my father near a house. I go up to him and he asks me how I did on my Biology Final. I told him that I passed, and didn’t want to give him the exact grade.

But he already knew the grade and said I got a 11/15 correct (I honestly don’t know how I couldn’t pick that up, since the actual exam was 60 questions long). I tried to explain to him that on college finals, they would curve it BIG time.

But he didn’t look like he was worried about my grade. I couldn’t remember much after that.

Dream 3:

I’m on a different planet; I HAD to be on a different planet. Everything felt so weird, the DCs that were apparent looked like humans, but they looked at me as if I was some kind of alien.

I guess I had a different visage in the dream, but I never really look at myself in my dreams. A voice told me that these people hated humans, and I guess they were just tolerating me for now.

It really irritated me that I’m in a different realm where people are secretly making snide remarks about me, but I couldn’t let it dominate my reasoning. Maybe it’s my subconscious trying to portray my repressed demeanor of just hating people in general because we all have to commit hypocrisy in order to prove a point or just defend our way of thinking, and I really hated that mentality. It just can't be defined or escaped.

But I didn’t want to think too much in the dream, I was riding on something pretty fast, or maybe I was dashing in short distances in less time. I end up near some gathering where these people are looking at me, but I ignore them.

I go around asking random DCs on where I am at the moment. It was like me running around with no head attached. I could see some DCs looked at me with a repressed “I really hate your guts right now, but I’m going to be kind to you” façade.



The area was a combination of a beach and very small hills with a lot of grass layered. The ocean looked beautiful; the sky was dark and ominous, despite of my fuzzy clarity at the time. I turn around and see this black building that led to a place underground.




It was pretty obvious this place was going to be dangerous, but I go in and I’m in a Biology course I already took in college.

(The place I was going to was like this, but the lights were red instead of yellow)


This area was kind of like a theatre. There were a few students in here, and apparently it was some kind of review session, but it looked like a lecture since students were turning in assignments.



I wondered what they were turning in, and then I realized it was one of those extra-credit assignments that the professor doesn’t announce online, so you had to attend class every time or hope you were lucky to attend the lecture where they declared it.

As I’m sitting down, I was worried because the professor at first was being a bit aggressive with his words on students who don’t attend the lecture.

(In waking life, he wasn’t so serious about it, he just made jokes on how he would give us extra credit since we attended his lectures, but he said that doing so would be unethical, but he still had that behavior of joking with us).

This dream was different. He was being aggressive yet calm, I was starting to go bat shit crazy because in waking life, I skipped some of the lectures to study for other classes because all he really did in waking life was talk about his life stories as a scientist and how he would go on a huge ego trip when he found something no one else knew.

I started to worry more because this extra-credit assignment seemed to add a lot to our overall grade. But apparently I did it in this dream, because where I passed the paper to the person left of me, who looked like a guy I sat with for a while in my AP Human Geography class, said my full name.

At the time of this dream, I didn’t know that I turned in the assignment, so when he said my full name, I was even more freaked out. Then I remembered I’m on a different realm where people hated humans, but they didn’t look like they hated me.

I couldn’t take it anymore, I was still going bat shit paranoia mode for no apparent reason, and this was a perfectly stable environment, but I left the room.

The dream scenario changes and I find it very odd that I’m suddenly recalling all of this, because it was SCARY to me at the time.

When I left the Biology lecture room, I’m being chased by random DCs. I see a battle spaceship with a charging unit. I didn’t know about the charging unit until later when I had to go into more battle space ships.

The ships were a combination of the Wraiths and Ghost vehicles from the Halo series.

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I got onto one, and automatically it set itself into space. I could see space from afar and something shining very brightly, as if that was the location I was going to next. My perspective was this time was being a spectator, and I literally was ZOOMED into space.



Now I’m in a different area, I leave the ship, and see a door in front of me. (This whole dream was sporadic and tense since I was running away from something I thought was after me).

I open the door slowly, and it’s another lecture class, but I didn’t know who the professor was. It was like being in another theatre type environment. Then I see a random DC who wore a Cadet uniform with dark green top and khaki or tan-ish brown pants.



I couldn’t remember what he was saying, but he looked suspicious to me, and suddenly it feels like I’m being shot. But I don’t know who is shooting me, so I decided to go back to the battleship station to escape to another area.

I think I did, but I’m back into a similar environment where I’m in another college class. More DCs that look suspicious started to pop up, and I even made a joke to them, “Mind if I escape using your battleship?” with a fake smile on my face.

By then, I knew that I could recharge my health in this station, so I was more relaxed than before, and I had some random DC who needed my help in escaping as well. I told him to get on the other battle space ship and guided him on how to go to another dimension.

But the guy was a complete imbecile. He couldn’t even guide the ship right, but I couldn’t blame him, since I was lucky mine did an automatic guidance mode to transportation.

So I decided to ditch him, and that’s all I remember.

NEVER THOUGHT I COULD FLY

So I was readying myself to get up early the next morning, by getting into bed a little earlier than normal. I had these sleeping pills, that make you drowsy because they have every single natural extract that makes you feel relaxed or sleepy, no synthetical sleeping bullshit or something

Last time I took them I had this plague and thought it was due to the pills, which is very odd since they're natural. Anyway I took 2, as inscripted. Went off to bed.

I had a really fuzzy dream! Didn't write it down, maybe that's why.
So I was dreaming I woke up, checked the time, and it was 11:29. Strange coming to think of it now, seems a good part of my brain was alive enough to be able to read digital clocks... So I got up and went past the room of my brother. I told him I overslept, and actualy I felt really bad about it because it wasn't the first time, and I had reported sick alot of times already.

So I thought to myself "god damnit this can't be true, how could I have let it happen". Instantly I performed a reality check because I didn't take this clumsyness for granted, oversleeping wasn't like me... I performed it, but it's weird however. Before doing it, I already noticed it for a part, that I was dreaming.

I don't know if that's just paying attention to it before performing the check, or just knowing already. Anyway I expected air to flow through my nose even after pinching it. And it did! I was suddenly very aware of the things. I was also very happy to be lucid after such a long time. So I'm standing at the end of the hallway now, in another room. First I tried to spawn stuff, but I couldn't pump any detail in it.

Then I chased one of my milestones yet to be set, flying! I got together all my courage and self esteem, since it's all you need to actualy fly. I tried to convince myself it would go even better by doing a certain move, just to speed it up. So I moved through the glass of the window, which I have no problem with ;P and there it went, I hovered, and by waving down my arms I grabbed more and more altitude!

I got to the highest point ever, could see the houses in the near neighbourhood from up there. It was already an amazing sight. But suddenly a thought crossed my mind, which blocked the flow of self esteem needed to do flight. It was the thought of, not having enough rendering capabilities for any higher altitude. Fear that I won't be able to see much more detail than it already gave me.

So I landed in the nearest street. This time I really sat back to look and notice the detail. Just stand there and percept how much detail a dream can provide! And that's all I can remember.

I have not set my milestone for: STEADY FLIGHT yet. There are also other milestones that need attention, such as finding my dream guide! Or finding my inner self, but these are for much later!

So, could any of you give me an idea of how much detail our brains can render in a dream? It could pump up my self esteem again. THANKS FOR READING

Old LD from 8-17-07


Lucid Dream (Task Attempted):


The dream started with me watching this girl. She was about 17 and looked mixed race (probably half black/ half white or Mexican). She was standing on a busy road that bridged over another busy road. She looked down and saw a homeless man. She then took off her nice jeans jacket and dropped it down to him.

The man saw the jacket fall to him. He ran over to it excited and took off his old torn, dirty jacket and put on this nice one. He looked very happy.

I looked back at the girl, who had also watched his reaction. She smiled and walked away to meet her friends.

I got the feeling by watching her that she did this on a fairly regular basic. I also felt that she had picked this particular homeless man for a reason.

The next thing I remember is that I am now a character in the dream, rather than just an observer. I am with the gil and her friends. The best friend (a guy) also looks half black.

First we are talking. The boy is trying to figure out why the girl enjoys giving all her stuff away to the homeless. She is trying to explain. I get it, but the boy doesn't quite understand.

Then we are on a road riding something (I can't remember what it was--not a bike, but something you sit on that had wheels--but I don't remember how it moved). I remember coming to a hill. I knew that I had special powers, so I made my thing that I'm riding start zipping up the hill very quickly. The guy freind is now next to me, and we start to race up this very big hill.

Then I remember being back under a freeway (yet it seemd to be high on a hill). I saw the homless man again. He had written on the side of the freeway wall a big message with shaving cream. The message was saying thank you to the girl for sharing her stuff. I was touched by the message--as if I were that girl.

Suddenly I became lucid. I don't remember anything in particular triggering it.

At first I wanted to stay and thank the man, but at the same time I knew this was a dream, and as rude as it felt, I just took off flying away from the man.

As I started to fly over the city (I felt this was LA), the thought came to me to try one of the Tasks. I had this feeling of panic come over me as I had developed this fear the past couple of weeks that I would wake up the moment that I thought about the task.

I focused hard on the dream. I told myself to think about the bridge task--not the waking myself up task (I was just sure that by even attempting this one I would lose the dream).

Suddenly I was with Philip. We flew together. I told him I needed to find the blue DV bridge. We flew to the ocean and start flying along the coast. I felt that this is where we woudl find it since in the picture the bridge goes across the water.

As I was flying I started talking--kind of chanting--to myself. "I'm looking for the bridge...I'm going to find the bri-dge....I need to find you bridge...."

I then saw some friends of mine standing close to the edge of a cliff by the ocean. I got distracted for a moment and flew down to talk to them. It was Steve J and N. I started talking to them about Lucid dreaming. And asking them if they've ever had a lucid dream. I can't remember their answers. But as I left I told them that I was having a lucid dream right now, and that's why I could fly.

I then walked to the edge of the cliff. I wanted to jump off. For a moment I was afraid to. But then I just did it. I didn't even fall. I just took off flying into the air again.

Finally I saw a bridge. It was this huge metal bridge. It went out over the ocean just like I pictured the blue bridge to go. I could see in the distance a mysterious city just like in the picture. I decided that even though this bridge was metal, I would just have to see where it went.

This bridge was very tall from bottom to top. I think cars drove on the very bottom. I didn't know what all the stuff on the top was. It was built like a huge child's climber.

I started walking across the very top. There were these metal balls (about 5 inches diameter) that I had to walk on (it was not a smooth strip) that were on top of these poles. I noticed that I was barefoot and the tops of these balls had a bump that was very uncomfortable to step on.

I told myself that since I was in control here that I could make it so the bumps went away. Sure enough, the next balls had a nice smooth surface.

The bridge arched with the high spot being in the center of the span. I could see that the balls I was walking on met a higher structure that was built on that very center spot. It was like a geodesic dome, all filled in with connecting bars (again, like a child's climbing toy).

I got to that and started climbing through. I couldn't see the other side but I told myself again and again that once I got past this high poin that on the other side I would see the blue bridge and that I would just be able to sit on it and slide to the mysterious city. I was so absolutely positive that I would be seeing this.

As I climbed through that center area, I suddenly noticed that I was not alone. I looked above me and saw a black figure with a long black cape. My heart started to pound as I realized that I was only about 20 feet from Darth Vader. I also knew that he had been looking for me for a long time.

He started talking to me. The first thing he said to me was that he was about to kill me.

I looked back at him and told him, "No, I don't think so. If you wanted me dead you would have killed me before I got this close."

I could tell he was a little upset for me having called his bluff. But he tells me again that he is going to kill me.

But I'm no longer afraid and I climb closer and closer to him. I told him, "We need to talk. You aren't going to kill me because you want me to join you. So let's talk. "

And alas, at that moment that could have proved so interesting......I woke up.

And sleeping harder. Every time I wake up, whatever I was dreaming about quickly leaves my mind. Meh...maybe tomorrow.

Old LD from 8-8-07



We can do anything.... (Lucid Dream):

This one started as a typical school nightmare. I was in high school or college. I couldn't remember my schedule or my locker combination.I remember thinking... "Well, I'll just go to the office to pick up my schedule and locker combination." But I couldn't remember how to get to the office.

I had this tiny computer in my hand. I decided that I could find out my schedule by looking online for it. I tried to type . But I couldn't push the right keys. I tried over and over and was getting very frustrated.

I finally ended up ina classroom. The teacher was Cordelia (from Buffy the Vampire Slayer).

I sat down next to Xander. We had this huge assignment that we were having to work on together. I was very stressed about getting it done. I also realized at this point that I was supposed to be taking this test.

At the moment I started to panic, I realized that I was dreaming. I had this wonderful sense of relief. I didn't have to finish the assignment or take the test. I could walk away from it all.

I looked over at Xander. "Do you know what this means?" I asked him. "We can leave." I then took his hand and we floated out of the room.

We ended up in my front yard. I man I know was there (MM). MM asked Xander if he was an Eagle Scout. I told him that he had gotten very close.

Then some weird guys dressed up in Halloween costumes came into the yard. I could tell that they were going to cause trouble. Xander wanted to stay and confront them. But I pulled his arm and turned him to face me.

"Let's not fight them. This is just a dream. We can do anything"

At that, he looked at me and smiled and gave me the "ohyahbaby" look:

But in this dream I had other ideas. I told him, "Look at me..." And I took off flying in the sky, laughing.

He saw me flying "swimming style" and told me to make rockets come out of my feet--that we could go a lot faster if we did.

I looked at his feet and could see little flames shoot out of them as he suddenly took off fast. I then pressed my legs together very tense and straight and concentrated on flames coming out of my feet too. I knew it had worked when I started flying after Xander very quickly. I remember thinking that I really needed to remember this style of flying becasue it was really better than what I did most of the time.

Xander and I fly for a while until he wanted to stop and eat at a restaurant.

Old LD from 8-8-07





Kissing Jonathan (Lucid Dream):



I don't remember when this started. I just know that I suddenly saw Jonathon (a short somewhat geeky character in Buffy the Vampire Slayer).

Seeing him cause me to become lucid. I remembered kissing Xander and how much I enjoyed it. I decided that I to try the "detail" experiment again with Jonathan this time.....

I went up to him and looked into his face. I remember seeing his eyelashes. I reached up and touched the skin of his cheek with my thumb. I then pulled his face to me and started kissing his lips.

This dream was so inspired by my "Kissing Xander" dream that I even had the same problem with a little piece of food showing up in Jonathans mouth too. But I don't remember the same feelings of closeness with Jonathan as I had with Xander.

Old LD from 8-8-07




Showing off (Lucid Dream):


I was in this large classroom. Our teacher was a black man. He asked for a volunteer to show the class how to float. I decided to volunteer because I knew I was really good at this.

First I jumped up to the ceiling and lingered a little bit at the top. I did this because that was what the teacher expected me to be able to do. Everyone applauded.

I decide to keep going. I jumped up again and floated a little longer at the top. I could hear people make little gasping noises at how good I was.

I couldn't help myself. I jumped again and this time remained at the ceiling in a perfect stationary float. I decided that I had to take this further. I started rotating myself so that I was flipping myself over so that I would soon be completely upside down. As I did this I realized that I had never done this in a dream before.

At this point I felt the need to tell the teacher-- "By the way, I'm lucid dreaming, you know."

Actually, I have no idea at which point I became lucid in this dream. When I said that comment, I felt like I had known for a while--but I'm not sure where.

I then thought about doing the task. I wanted to find my sleeping self. But as soon as that thought crossed my mind I woke up.

I laid there in bed suddenly terrified that I would start a terrrible habit of waking up everytime I tried to do a task. For some reason I was really upset over this.

Old LD from 8-6-07



Kissing Xander (Lucid Dream):

I remember this starting out in a park. I was watching kids going around on a merry-go-round. Suddenly I saw Xander from Buffy the Vampire Slayer standing next to me....and I'm lucid (I'm not sure if seeing him was the trigger or not).

I remembered that I had been thinking recently that I don't remember "people details" in my LDs as much as I would like to. So I decided to use Xander as the person that I would notice detail on.

I walked close to him and stared into his face. I noticed that he looked exactly like he did on the show. I reached up and touched his cheek. I could feel the texture of his skin and a little stubble. I looked up into his big brown eyes.

I then decided to kiss him. As my lips touched his, I realized that not only did this feel like a real kiss, it also felt really good too.

Then I suddenly lose the dream and it fades away. Fortunately, I quickly realize that I'm still in the dream--that I had just had a False Awakening.

Xanderwas still there. I wanted to kiss him again. But I was embarrassed to go up to him and just kiss him. Then I had a clever idea. I decided to pretend that I thought I'm dreaming, and that would be why I was acting so boldly. So I said something to Xander about this being a dream. [This whole thing is strange because I was still lucid to some degree, but obviously part of me was mixed up.]

We were standing by or in a bathroom. I pulled him to me pulled him down so we were both kneeling by a bathtub.

I kissed his lips for about 30 seconds enjoying the sensation of our lips touching. Then the kiss deepened, and I could now feel the texture of his tongue. I couldn't get over how real the dream kiss felt.

Then of course things had to get funny. Suddenly there was a piece of food in my mouth. I pulled away and looked at him closer and saw that he had been eating cheese and he passed me some through the kiss. This didn't bother me though. I commented on it and we both laughed and kissed again. I felt completely at ease.