Recent DJ Posts

First dream

An enormous earthquake striked, causing many buildings to collapse and I was one of many survivors. I was trapped in one of the buildings, and had to crawl under the rubble in search of food and water. I tried to clean out my way through the collapsed complex, up to the surface, but some parts of it could collapse further. Once when cleaning my way, I found a passage I haven't explored before. Four cats ran out of it, and I went inside. There was a huge wardrobe. It was in fairly good condition. I opened it, and in the darkness I saw a horrifying face of a wraith. Even though I closed my eyes, I still could see it. Suddenly the way to the surface has been cleared, and my family came inside to ge me out.

False awakening

I woke up in the middle of the night. It was really dark, I couldn't see anything. For some reason I woke up in a weird position. My pillow was moved to a different corner, and I was lying sideways to the bed itself.

Morning of November 19, 2015. Thursday.



Notas: Cinco libros, todo sobre una nueva versión de la película de 1962 - “Cinco semanas en globo”, con el actor Johnny Depp.

---

I am at my sister’s house yet again (on Loomis Street). This sometimes triggers apex lucidity (especially in the situations where she and Bob are leaving the house as here and appearing as if it is the 1970s), though not in this case. I become more aware and focused on the setting as my sister Marilyn and her husband are going out (possibly to a restaurant). It seems to be early in the evening (near sunset).

There is a certain level of expectancy regarding semi-lucidity (as if I am “testing” the setting though not fully aware yet that the setting is of a dream). I keep seeing a teenage version of my wife Zsuzsanna to the north, the left side of the house when looking out at the small front sidewalk perpendicular to the street. Strangely, I know who she is on some levels, though not on others. Still, we hug each other and begin to converse.

After a short time though, I lose focus (possibly due to a noise in my real environment). Eventually, there is an elderly male in the same general area. He seems argumentative. I tell him that he is not invited into the house and that I will “break his head” if he insists on following me.

Eventually, I am looking at five books on the couch, at least three of them paperbacks and each in one of at least three different Languages (English, Russian or possibly Bulgarian Cyrillic, and Spanish - though one also seems Italian - “5 settimane in pallone”). If Russian, it is ambiguous, as the first word would translate as “pet” (only if anglicized) and only “five” if Bulgarian. (Otherwise, I get a strange impression of a movie about a dog, a rooster, a cat, and a few other animals traveling around the world in a balloon as a parody to “The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly” theme - with the rooster crowing, followed by the cat’s “meow meow meow”, then the dogs barking rhythmically in the background; “WOOF, woof woof, WOOF, woof woof.)

Even so, the books are also all apparently different in the story itself (one being almost like an episode of "Gunsmoke” or perhaps more so “Wild Wild West”), even though all are a supposed novelization of a remake of “Five Weeks in a Balloon”, starring Johnny Depp. However, one (unknown?) actor on one cover looks like he is only pretending to be Johnny Depp in a copycat version of the remake. I have a very strange feeling of enjoyment in anticipation of reading all the books, even expecting completely different stories or plot developments in each. However, my dream fades before I am able to read much.

---

I sincerely doubt if Johnny Depp will be in a remake of “Five Weeks in a Balloon”. If so, you read it here first.

early: (details overwritten by later epic)

+ (impression) computer coding

+ (impression) squishy spiders

+ (f) sex on bed, short haired blonde

Spoiler for explicit sexy time details:

I'm on my knees, she's lying down flat with her head turned to the side, and I'm stroking my (ahem) in and out of her mouth

+ 3-chapter epic!
1. Car racing vs. IvKr
Scene: empty suburban streets at night. I turn left on to a medium sized street.
Ahead of me and to the right I see IvKr (colleague company "L") turn (to his right) on to the same street going the same way, he goes by me. I see that it is IvKr, and see he is driving a small and very sporty looking car, like a Lotus. Coming up behind him, I flash my high beams at him to get his attention so he sees that it's me. I floor it and zip ahead of him. Then he takes the lead. We're racing back and forth for a while. Our tires are squealing, we're driving very fast, and I feel that it is very dangerous. He takes a turn and loses me. I try to follow him.

2. Reunion with NI
I drive up to house on my right where I hear talk that sounds like they're talking about me, I think they're friends of IK, I hear something like "I think he lost him" (referring to me). I can't see clearly because there is a very tall thick hedge to my right in between me and the house/driveway. It is a family, a mother with children, playing and laughing in the driveway. I get the "brilliant" idea to jump out from behind the corner of the hedge where it ends just up ahead, dousing them with a garden hose, and declaring my presence with a "surprise!". I do this and their response is entirely not what I expected: The mother and the children are standing stunned, in shock staring at me. I realize that I do not know them after all. I profusely apologize for getting them wet and say "please, go ahead and spray me" and they do and I get wet from head to toe.

Then I "realize" that this is the new, secret family of my [sort of estranged now, but very good/close college-] friend and housemate NaIs. Then I see NI walking towards me down the driveway. I was not supposed to find him with this secret family of his. He comes in to the street where I'm standing and I say, "Well!…." and reach for him to give him a hug, we hug. He looks young and is wearing a full but shortly cropped beard, like how he looked in college. I am very happy to see him and feel very warm feelings towards him.

We go inside his house, he's cold, annoyed, and seems in a hurry to get rid of me. I'm confused by his attitude. I ask him what he's doing now, and he says he's the Dean of the English department [I remembered that he worked at a high school: true]. He bring out a stack of papers covered with photos, which I "recognize" to be miniature versions of collages of large posters pasted with pictures of our college days. I say "Hey! I have the full sized version of that one on my wall at home!" [thinking of family collages my wife did]). NI is complaining of the time I'm taking, he says "my A is now an A-", and he's implying that his grade will go even lower if I hang around. Later I wonder if he wasn't talking about student's paper that he was grading instead. I'm moving to the front door to leave, and I see a guitar leaning against the wall and get excited!
"Hey, I can play guitar now, let me show you!", and I pick it up and am placing my left hand on the initial chord position for the intro to "More Than Words" (by Extreme) [which I've been practicing IWL]. He is more irritated and does not want to hear it, I say something like "yeah that would take too much time." I move to the front door which is standing ajar, and I see a tall container of potato salad and a bottle of champagne have been delivered. I pick up the potato salad container and spoon some on to a plate and bring them to NI. NI gives me the spoon back of potato salad, he doesn't want a spoon that I've touched (?). There is a guy at the front door.

I head out to the street, sad at the poor reception NI gave me. There is a box there of my personal trophies? I take one out and unfold it, it is like a trophy drawing I made in grade school. My wife (?) says something. I fold it and put it back in the box.

3. [Transition forgotten. Driving around looking for food?] Car, company "K" people
I'm standing in a woman's driveway looking at her car with her. I "recognize" her as someone I worked with at company "K" (?). It's like the car is a convertible, or was sliced in half horizontally so that it's a top-down view of the bottom half of the internals of the car. The entire thing looks like a large engine. It is very messy, there are lots of green bits of debris all over it. Lots of little round green peas, like from the Wasabi pea snacks. There are also a bunch of bits of juniper leaves/needles, from the Juniper trees that are standing right next to the car, which apparently have just been trimmed and all the little bits fell into the car. The car has what looks like a lot of wooden (living?) branches intertwined. A bunch of the branches are capped with plastic mechanical attachments to electrical wires (like they're spark plugs?). The woman is thanking the people there for "helping me with the braiding" (of these branches?) and mentions something about how it was all "just cleaned."

I move to the car in the adjoining driveway and put in the key to the ignition? Some people come over and say s.l. "who are you, what are you doing?" I was explaining that I needed the car to (go somewhere?). There is a guy I "remember" [false] from working at company "K", he said it was OK to use the car, it was his house.

I go into his house, and he leaves. I'm sort of just standing in the living room when 3 big guys come in and confront me. I recognize them as people I knew at company "K". I mention to the main big guy that I was at company "K" too, he doesn't believe me.
I get angry for not being believed, and I try to prove it to him. I eventually get the idea to rattle of the name of people I worked with at company "K": JL, CD, PJ, and I'm visualizing many more people from different groups, but just can't remember their names. I say what company "K" did: "we worked on these "O" minicomputer systems and switched to the "D" "A" systems later. The guy seems to relax and accept me at this point.

There is a bag of candy on the ground. "Oh, candy!" the big guys say and reach for some. There is a sharp foldable knife on the candy and I wonder what it's doing there.

I need to get to the FCC in B, and I need a car. They're telling me I can take one but I have to bring it back, and I'm really confused how I'm going to drive there, bring the car back, and yet return to the FCC. I also think I can't leave the car overnight in the parking lot of the FCC because it will get towed.

I look at my digital watch [don't wear one IWL, haven't for many years] and the time is something like 22:19, but it is early morning/full daylight outside. I think this is because I'm on a business trip and my watch is still showing my home time. I'm also confused about days and thinking about Thursday/Friday.

*I am walking on this beach like sandy ground as I cough up a scroll. As I do this immediately become lucid. I pick up the scroll off the ground along with two other scrolls beside it. Out of curiosity I begin to unravel the scrolls and try to make out what they say. As I do this I realized that I can't make out absolutely anything written on the scrolls. As I do this interesting Li enough I actually see myself begin to lose lucidity and fall back into non lucidity.

(Nov. 18, 2015).

A couple of snippets.

I'm giving CNG a ride around to places. Not sure where. At one point we are trying to get back to my place, and we park in a sort of half-circle driveway at my house. But it's really run down, almost dirt, and on a hill type thing. The house is a shack.

Her car is already there for some reason. It's a pickup truck, like one my dad had. A little older and smaller, but red and similar. As we walk up to the house, I notice that the driver door is open. And I remember (within the dream), that the door was open last time and I had forgotten to close it. I get worried that someone may have stolen something. But I look inside and nothing looks stolen. The stereo, everything. As I'm shutting the door, I notice that some sort of interior indicator light is on. Something like a "check engine" light, but not that one exactly. So I note that the battery must not be totally drained from the door that's been open for at least a day. I ask CNG something about her cat. I don't remember the question.


It seems like I'm making progress on the WILDing, especially in stabilizing HI while maintaining awareness. There was an episode where I was in a dream-like state -- I think it was after WILDing to get HI, and in the scene I was sitting on a bed, on my knees. I wasn't yet in a dream, but wanted to keep the HI stable while entering a dream. I then thought I'd look in a mirror, and a handheld mirror appeared in my hand. When I went to look into it I woke up. The sleep paralysis was pretty heavy.

A fragment: I'm outside, with a couple of other people. For some reason we're at the edge of a canyon. I'm trying to hit someone on the other side with some sort of cannon that shoots something. Something non-lethal, like a paint ball. At first I aim directly there and shoot, but gravity brings the projectile down and it's not even close. So I aim upward for the next shot. [end of scene].

In another fragment, I'm on a beach with MM and SM, and we're sitting on the beach and it's getting really windy. I'm pointing out to MM that the waves look really big. The wind is coming from behind us, so it is blowing the waves out. Even the ones that look like they'll make it to us don't. Then I notice one really huge wave that is heading towards us. It's massive. We get scared and start to leave. We're not running, but walking quickly. But even that one gets blown out, and it doesn't make it all the way in.

I leave anyway. I'm walking away form the beach. There's a paved road that leads away, and I'm walking on a sidewalk next to an under-construction building. The sidewalk is covered with a roof for safety. And on the side is a wooden beam, like a small log, round and about 6 inches in diameter, that is holding up the roof. Some pieces of paper, flyers, are nailed to it. I notice that they are flapping around in the wind, but that the wind is super strong. Enough so that it really should be blowing the paper off the post.

In the next scene, there's a go kart track thing. It's outside, like a bike path. There are a couple of people, friends, who are driving really fast along the track. And then suddenly we see a woman trying to chase them in her own go kart, like she's mad at them or something.

I consider putting something on the track so on their next lap around they'll have to slow down and she'll catch them. But I don't. But when they come around on the next lap, one of the guys is going slow, like something happened. Like his go kart broke own or something. I couldn't see the other two.

No dream recall last night. But I was trying to WILD, and managed again to get some solid HI. Though still as soon as the HI gets solid and dream like, I lose awareness. It's like the two are mutually exclusive.

There was one event where I felt my watch tap my wrist right at the beginning of a dream or something, but I didn't RC. It was almost like I was still half awake in my bed, adn so just blew the RC off. Not sure if I was awake or not when that happened. But I need to resolve to take the RC's seriously after a watch tap.