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I was driving in this parking lot where this guy blocks me from reversing. It was the only way out as there was a building in front of me. So I look in my car view mirror and saw two guy's in hoodies with their hands in their pockets approaching my car. I immediately got out of my car and tell them what's the problem. I kept backing up and realize I am in a dream and was trying to change the dream scene by falling flat down to the ground.

However the scene would keep going back to the two men pointing guns at me. I laugh and told them you still have guns with you. I decided to try to wake myself up which resulted in a false awakening.

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31/1/2020
Around 9:30PM I consumed a marijuana edible. This was a rash decision and definitely did not help me lucid dream. I forgot to do my techniques before bed.
Fell asleep at 1:30AM.
Woke up at 6:30AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD
Woke up at 8AM, no recall, forgot to attempt FILD again
Woke up at 9:30AM, no recall. Then fell asleep and woke up again multiple times until 10:30ish
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Morning of January 31, 2020. Friday.

Dream #: 19,401-02. Reading time: 1 min 35 sec.



My dream self’s focus is on electrical wiring, which is typically co-occurrent with an increase in mental activity (neuronal energy) while sleeping (and sometimes, as here, eventually renders fire). (It is a common sleep-wake mediation process for me, but the rendering and narrative are always different, though in one dream it was more obvious than usual when I “removed my head,” which was a football helmet, and examined and moved the wiring inside it.)

The setting is unknown (though my dream implies it is our present home). Zsuzsanna is nearby (to my left, modeling our sleeping position). At about neck level, a cluster of gold wiring is hanging from an open part of the wall (so it is a type of wall mediation, that is, navigating emerging liminality, as well as associations with increasing mental activity). Although the wires are loose, I consider that the current is stable as long as they do not get moved either accidentally or with intent.

Zsuzsanna’s brother Simon approaches and comments on the wiring. I move the cluster slightly and consider the loose wiring (and certain wires touching each other) might cause a short.

As a result of moving the wires, my dream’s dynamics and narrative changes, with my liminal intent to continue sleeping. The incidental preconscious personification as Simon, who remains passive, also correlates with my sleep-wake mediation. (The preconscious simulacrum only dominates when waking is more of a priority, kind of a no-brainer.)

My dream changes into typical indoor-outdoor liminal ambiguity. The outcome of this wall mediation results in its virtual division expanding and becoming a beach that defines open liminal space yet is still impossibly implied to be inside our house. (However, potential water reinduction is not clearly defined, as the ocean seems distant.) I now see a very long electrical cord that seems to go all the way to the shore (while the beach sand it is in is still a part of the floor of our house), and minimal fire consumes part of its length as I walk along, mentally extinguishing it to sustain my dream. (Fire also sometimes correlates with the increase in body temperature when closer to waking.) There is no more fire, and I sleep for about another hour.

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Several of my recent dreams have had atypical variations of intentional water reinduction, all with unique results, for example, “Digging Up a Pool” from January 28.

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After not having it for a few weeks, that dream where I am in my granddads old reliant between my mom and sister and mom cannot get the car to start has started recurring again.

I spent last weekend with my mom and helped her with some things and have had the dream every night beginning on Monday (1/27).

As in the past, the dream always starts with me in the Reliant by myself buckled to the front middle seat. As I am checking my surroundings, my sister is coming out of the house and walking towards the car. She is still wearing the same pink shirt, red overalls, and tan sandals that she wore in earlier dreams. She opens the passenger side door, and sits down next to me in the passenger seat. She closes her door and buckles her seat belt.

All 3 nights as in the past, we spend a really long time in the car waiting for mom to come out and get in. I am not sure how long, but would have to guess at least 20-30 minutes each nigh if not longer. As in the past dreams, her breath reeks but now she is trying harder to get me to talk with her. She is invading my space and putting her face right in front of mine so it is harder to ignore her. When I don't respond to her, she keeps asking the same questions and I keep having to smell her breath. I eventually turn to the empty driver seat trying to ignore her. I am noticing she is sitting right next to me more than I did in the earlier dreams.

Eventually, I see the back door to the house open and then see mom locking it and then walking towards the Reliant where my sister and I are waiting for her. When she gets there, she pull the keys out of her purse and then unlocks the driver side door. She then sits down on the empty drivers side seat on my other side and puts the keys in the ignition. Once she has the mirrors adjusted, she tries to start the car, but it won't start-up. As in past dreams I focus on mom pumping the accelerator and turning the key as well as the red light on the dash and buzzing sound each time the engine fails to start.

Unlike in the earlier dreams, mom is spending more time out of the car while trying to get the car started. It can either be to get out and look under the hood or to go back into the house because she is afraid something like the coffee pot or TV has been left on. If I ask if I can get out, she tells us we need to stay in the car.