First true LD in over two months. No techniques used, no intention set, completely random. In an ordinary non-lucid dream I somehow gained some awareness of my dream state but couldn't hold onto it. I faded in and out of lucidity and dreaming several times until I laid down and kinda WILDed in the dream - this has worked for me before. A brief falling sensation and I 'awoke' on the sofa in my parents' living-room. Instead of doing a physical reality check I reminded myself that I wasn't sleeping in this place. It was pitch black and the dream rather unstable so I kneed down and touched my surroundings. As always, everything felt hyper-realistic but I still couldn't see a thing, so I crawled across the room towards the door. Suddenly my parents' cat appeared in the dark (well, for her it wasn't dark...) and attacked my bare arms. I set the rebellious cat aside and finally left through the front door. Outside, it wasn't any brighter, so I went on feeling my way forward. As I reached the street suddenly my vision got unlocked and I was standing in bright daylight with detailed surroundings. I wondered what I should do with my lucidity now...and longed for something intense. Flying? Nope, not stable enough. Then I knew...I had to kill my self here (*). At the end of the road a woman started her car on the driveway and to the right there was a strange kind of agricultural vehicle with lots of sharp blades. I walked towards the car, staring fearlessly at the woman, wondering if she would fulfil my unspoken wish. She looked confused and increasingly insecure, and I understood that I had to take things in my own hands. Without hestitating I ran the last meters and jumped straight into the machine's razor-sharp front. No pain but a rush of adrenaline through my body... and I was awake. (*) Note for anyone reading: This should be taken metaphorically; I'm not suicidal. Currently going through a major transformation process due to some other experiences so I'm getting quite a few metaphors about dying at the moment.
I'm at a café with Albin. I ask him if it's a dream and he is confused. I tell him that it's nothing and that it's just a RC. I look into my plastic cup and see a straw. I take it up and wonder if I should unwrap it. I think about how it is bad for the environment if I trash it without using it. I unwrap it anyways and suck in air with it. I walk to the counter and watch the trash can and wonder if I should throw the straw. I walk out to the street with Albin and find myself in Centrum by the big hill outside Partaj. Notes: I woke up early and didn't remember much from my dreams. I did have a strong impression that I was lucid or something like it. I remembered this dream 30 minutes after I woke up. I haven't seen Albin in a long time.
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