dream fragment

21 July 2010
It was a highly unclear dream. Nobody in the dream was happy. Bon Jovi's 'Living on a prayer' was playing. The dream seemed very long and confusing, it had a negative atmosphere. I fell asleep at 10:00 and woke at 11:00 remembering this dream vaguely. Then i woke at 01:00. No recall. Then i woke at 04:00. Again no recall. Lost a lot of sleep and had a very bad day. I'm hoping for better luck tonight =)

22.07.2010

Dream group (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A somehow crazy night, I did not sleep very well. I think I went very tired to bed because I felt tired the times I woke up to write the dreams down. I also used for the first time a flashlight instead of going to my regular table, but it does not help, it vanished half of a dream so I will keep traveling to my kitchen to write the dreams down (no table in the bedroom, only my journal next to me) I recalled eight dreams, but mostly fragments. 5th day without lucids. Tonight it will be a MUST lucid night

Third:

- I was reunited with some DCs.
- I was talking about dreams.
- Apu (The Simpson's) wanted to apply to a group of something and asked me if perfect English was required.
- We were outdoors.
- It was very sunny.
- I felt good.

Missed dream signs:
- Apu (from The Simpson's).

What I would have done if lucid:
- Explore this odd toon world.

22.07.2010

Hair (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A somehow crazy night, I did not sleep very well. I think I went very tired to bed because I felt tired the times I woke up to write the dreams down. I also used for the first time a flashlight instead of going to my regular table, but it does not help, it vanished half of a dream so I will keep traveling to my kitchen to write the dreams down (no table in the bedroom, only my journal next to me) I recalled eight dreams, but mostly fragments. 5th day without lucids. Tonight it will be a MUST lucid night

Second:

- A male DC
- Indoors.
- Something about hair.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

Last night I tried using binaural beats, at least for half of the night.
When I woke up I couldn't remember my dream at all and I was pretty upset. I didn't want to leave any holes in my dream diary.
But as I was getting ready for work it suddenly all flashed back to me and I remembered and more importantly I KNEW I remembered.

I dreamt, last night, that my co worker and I (Mike, second time I've dreamed of him AND of work) were at work alone. We were handling the store.
It must have been night time because it was dark out. For some reason I decide I have to leave. So I walk out of the store and take a walk down the street. In my dream the layout
of the area outside of the place I work in real life is completely different. But I walk down a sidewalk and around a building that sort of looks like my old post office when I lived with my family in Mt. Morris (second mention of that town, as well).
I walk past that and up to this place that looks like a plain brick building. I go up and inside and I'm in a dentists office. Once inside I sit down to have my check up, for some reason. And I learn that I need to have my wisdom teeth taken out as well as some other work (which I need to do in real life). So I tell the dentist
to get on with it and do it but I ask him if I can go right back to work when he's done. He says no. So I ask him to wait a minute and get up and leave. I go outside and call my sister to ask her to watch the store for me. She says she will (I somehow forget Mike was at the store). And then I go back into the dentist office. And now when I walk in
there is this little dog on a chair by the door. It does something and we all laugh at it. Anyways I go to sit down in the chair and then suddenly freak out: I left the store un attended (though I really didn't) and I go sprinting out again. I call my sister and she says she never went to watch the store. So I run all the way back to the store
and run inside, afraid that things will be stolen, just to realize that Mike is still there watching the place. Relieved I decide to call the general manager of the company and ask him to send someone down to watch the store. After this it gets sorta hazy. I explain that I need to go to the dentist and then, after that, I really can't remember anything.

Trippy. I woke up completely blank and then suddenly remembered it all.

22.07.2010

Driving (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A somehow crazy night, I did not sleep very well. I think I went very tired to bed because I felt tired the times I woke up to write the dreams down. I also used for the first time a flashlight instead of going to my regular table, but it does not help, it vanished half of a dream so I will keep traveling to my kitchen to write the dreams down (no table in the bedroom, only my journal next to me) I recalled eight dreams, but mostly fragments. 5th day without lucids. Tonight it will be a MUST lucid night

First:

- Driving down somewhere.
- I was driving other three people somewhere.
- It was day.
- Something else besides driving.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

*Lucid Dream and Dream Fragment*

I found myself in a purple midst. I couldn't really tell where I was. When I found out I was in a dream, I decided to find my DG. I yelled out, "Do I have a Dream Guide?!" Someone behind me replied, "Yes, yes you do." I turned around to see a blurry vision of a girl. Then, I woke up.

*This LD was kind of special*

lucid dreams: 7-22-10

I have been having trouble remembering my dreams lately, so I can only recall fragments.


Short Lucid Fragment

In one dream, I was talking to someone who I think was important. Actually, they were talking to me. I was lucid the whole time, but just sat there and listened. The background was a blue sky, and we were up in the clouds. I wish I could remember what was being said.


Mr. Echo

I think this dream might have been a lucid one since I wanted to wake up from it..

I fell back asleep using the FILD method, which actually works really well. But when the dream opened, Mr. Echo from the television show Lost showed up. For some reason, I was really scared of him and didn't want to see him or talk to him so I tried to wake myself up again. He said something like "no.. wait!" but it was too late.I was drifting in and out of the dream. Finally I decided to return to the dream but I just couldn't get back to it.

Dream Fragments, some Lucid, some not

Several times I would realize these weren't real, but I decided to not mess with it because it was entertaining.

Small Animal

I was some sort of small animal, but could still talk. There was something about a lake at night, and then I was in a room with bright lights.
I was putting on boots slowly
I was in some animal court, sentenced to death for stealing, but apparently, the method was a roller coaster (kind of).
At the roller coaster, you ride on a skateboard with very strange wheels. There was a metal plate on each side, and on one side the plate had 3 holes, and on the other they had 4 Apparently they can come off easily, because they did and I spent some time putting it back together.
Once the ride begun, it was like a normal roller coaster, and I didn't die.
Afterward, the other animals were all dumbfounded, and let me go.
I was driving a car (still a weird small animal) and a bear began chasing me. However, when he caught up, every time he tried to scare me, I would show it some crazy picture of what it was trying to do on my cell phone, and it would burst into laughing.

New School?

I was in some sort of secret underground rebel base (anti government?) and I was there to transfer my driver's licenses. My dad gave me these things that I had to sign, but he taped them to my hand. This made it rather difficult, but then I realized "Hey, I'm left handed" (I'm not actually). So then I signed them. Then somehow I got to a school, that was a mix of my old school and my new school. The people were the same, but the building was different. There were weird orange plastic mesh barricades set up in the hallways for some reason, and then I realized I had no idea where I was going. So then I decided to go to the office. There I found my old middle school secretary lady working there, and I asked for a schedule. The things I signed earlier had now turned into a full hand cast on both hands. Then my friend Mark said "What did you do to your hands this time?". I told him that sometimes things happen. There was also some weird teacher lady I had never seen before.

Most of last night is a blur, though I vaguely remember elements of several dreams.

The most recent dream I can remember involves me and two other people. It was me, another guy that I don't recognize, and another girl that I sort of recognize. We were by my old middle school in the wintertime, and for whatever reason the girl had a box of metal forks on her back. It was as though she took the silverware holder from a dishwasher, made it bigger, and put backpack straps on it. Either way, it was full of dirty forks that we had worked hard to collect. We had originally planned on completing whatever plan we had for the forks back at the high school (which I don't remember the purpose of), but a snowstorm came in and for whatever reason the girl wanted to go pick up my brothers and sisters from the middle school and the elementary. The problem was that there were so many cars there with parents to pick up their children that it was impossible. Me and the other guy kept insisting to the girl that we just forget about it so we could wash the forks and get on with our plan, but she wouldn't listen. At one point some administrators passed (including the principal of the middle school, one of the counselors, and the former superintendent of the school district), and we looked uneasily at them for fear of getting caught before we could execute our plan (whatever it was). They smiled and waved and we did so back as we dipped the forks into the snow to try and see if that would wash them. They made the snow sizzle as they entered it, and that's about all I remember of that.

At some point before dream that I think I was attacking my sister. She'd done something that really made me mad so I started punching her, but my mother intervened because she wanted to play Wii in peace (which she never plays, haha).

There was another dream early on where I was walking on the side of the road with some people, except I feel like I was wheeling myself along the ground in some sort of cart-like apparatus. Eventually I abandoned that once we started moving uphill and just started running, but I still don't remember who I was with. I want to say Will Ferrell for some stupid reason, but I never got a good look at his face. I don't even know what we were doing or where we were going.

Really REALLY early on in my dreaming there was a swarm of bees, and I remember telling myself I was gonna remember that dream, but I don't anymore.

Last night was sort of a bad night for dreams, I guess. The other problem is that I don't know what happened to my REM alarm. It must have gone off, but now I just can't find my phone, which is what I set as the alarm. Must've fallen off my bedpost. Oh well. I also need to get better at identifying dreamsigns while I'm actually IN the dream.

Something about...

1. A woman using a spell that petrifies people and binds their spirit guides.

2. A sheet music book with a lot of unusual selections (like "The Hounds" by The Protomen)

3. Working out on some really weird weight equipment, and then being unable to choose a drink afterward.

4. A room full of pinball tables that functioned a bit more like skeeball machines with ball bearings. A stuck-up lady was protesting a table that depicted some sort of mountain because said mountain got covered in trash.

5. Looking for interesting things at a thrift store. There was a neat black hair-bow with a cute-ified skull bead on it that I liked, but it was attached to a not-so-neat baseball cap.

6. Being stuck outside in a tornado and trying to get to the shelter, which was a combination of a hospital and a huge preschool. And then it turns out that anyone who seeks shelter there has to stay until they graduate, sometimes even after.

I keep getting glimpses of something to do with shopping or being at a mall, but I can't remember any details past that.

~*~

R & I were putting on our shoes getting ready to leave. Not sure where we were. I got the feeling of a basement suite or something (we live in a condo IRL). Suddenly a guy enters who we know (not IRL, no clue who he was). He's very tall and looks like he's in a lot of pain. We ask what happened and he tells us that he and some others had entered a field to cross it, not realizing that it had been marked off for a game and that opposing teams were throwing things at each other. He'd gotten hit in the groin with an apple. The others had managed to duck and avoid being hit.

~*~

I'm walking down the street in the old part of town with AG. There's some kind of festival going on and lots of people around and tents with sellers. It doesn't look like the festival we have every year IRL, but close. We pause at the large window of a store that IRL is a bookstore. In the dream it was some kind of antique or junk store. A was fascinated by one of the displays in the window. All I can remember seeing there were some big plastic watches. One of them was off the display slightly, having fallen.

We notice that a large part of the glass is gone (the window itself is from about a foot off the ground to maybe 5 or 6 feet high). A decides to help out by reaching in and putting the fallen watch back on the display. He does so, but we hear a grumpy voice from the back of the shop yelling at him to get out because they're closed.

A brief pause passes and then I'm with W now, not AG. We're still at the same shop. For some reason we are now carefully entering the store through the open window. We kind of half-climb, half-fly in. We just want to look around and for some reason it seems fine to do this. We stay close to the front window, looking at some more junky things that are on display. Suddenly the grumpy voice comes again, angrier now, telling us to get out of his store. I am closer to the window and I immediately fly out. In order to do this without breaking anything, I have to grab a blue glass vase that's in my way. Panicked, I'm still holding onto it as I fly about a block and a half away and hover there, looking for W.

W is larger and clumsier than I am. He has a harder time just jumping out the window into flight. As he struggles to escape the store owner is getting closer and ranting on. I'm frustrated at him because we weren't doing anything harmful to the store owner. Angry, I throw the vase down on the ground to shatter it. W is upset at me for that one because now he thinks the shop owner is going to try to blame him for that and charge him for theft/vandalism.

Things fade slightly at that point, then I wake up with a bad cough.

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It's too bad that flying rarely works as a trigger to let me know that I'm dreaming. It used to, when I was younger. Now it's just such a "normal" thing for me in the dream world, my subconscious isn't too surprised by it. Rarely it still works as a reminder that I'm dreaming, but often I "know" I'm dreaming and still just go along with it without any thought of going lucid, despite how I try to train myself to do that. Ah well. I guess I need a different dream trigger. lol! And reality checks don't really work well for me. I can barely remember to do them while awake, let alone while sleeping. I don't have a good memory for things like that.

Awake Dream

So me and my friends have been doing our usual things in the holidays... Texting, emailing, partying... pretty much staying up until the early hours of the morning.

Well, it's all fun, except it's taking its toll on my dream journaling. When I'm really tired, I can't quite be bothered to switch on the lamp and jot down all the details of my dreams. Which means my dream recall and dream vividness is decreasing... So from now on, imma go to bed at a decent(ish ... c'mon i'm a teenager) time and actually write down my dreams.

So my dreams aren't as detailed as they usually are... but yeah

For some reason, i'm with some of the girls from my classes. I don't actually like these girls very much, but we get along ok. I'm with my dad also, for some reason. Can't remember the beginning of the dream so I'll just have to write down the bits that I remember...

We've been given tests to do, in order to get out of an arena thingy we're in. The tests aren't scary, they're more like puzzles. After each (rather large) puzzle, there are rewards we gain at the end of it.


A puzzle I remember: Out of all the girls with me, I am the only one with the ability to fly. I can't fly very well, but enough to help with the puzzles.

We're outside, in a large field. The sun is beating down on us, and there is a large, faded red barn ahead. I feel as though I'm in America. The top half of the barn looks more like a flap hanging over it, and there is a handle. The girls (and my dad) all stand under it and think about how they're going to grab the handle. I roll my eyes.

I jog a few steps back, then run towards the barn. I jump, and concentrate on maintaining flight. I open my arms and fly to the handle. The other girls have a mixture of jealousy and admiration in their eyes. I wink at the girls, clinging onto the handle. Gritting my teeth, I use all my strength and pull the flap upwards. There's another one underneath. I push it down.

There's a ledge. On top of the ledge is sweet smelling shampoo, shower gel, hand cream... stuff we've been denied for a long time. I suddenly feel very dirty.

"Who wants hand cream!?" I shout down. They chatter excitedly amongst themselves as I throw bottle after bottle towards them.

Afterwards, we sit inside what looks like an equestrian exercising area. We're quite tired after working on the puzzles. I jump up, tossing my apple to the ground.

"What are you doing?" asks Alex. Leaning forward slightly.

"Flying" I mutter. I run forwards and take off, spinning in the air and flipping around. I turn a tight corner and feel excitement course through me. When I land, I am at home.

I walk into my room, it's larger. My dad and some workmen are in there too. They're installing gym equipment. I walk over to a large treadmill, confused. "Daaaaad... I don't need any of this stuff. I go running outside.

He doesn't reply, Scott approuches me, eatin yoghurt. I slaps me on the back and begins to talk in the annoying tone that he knows annoys me. Instead of feeling annoyed, I feel sad.

"You've only just got back and this is the way you're treating me? I really missed you and wanted to see you but, I'm not so sure anymore..."

He grins and tells me he's only joking. "Come here little sister." He smiles, pulling me in for a bearhug which almost breaks my back

Yeah, it wasn't a very clear dream, apart from the end of it and the flying. It was nice to see Scott again! I haven't seen him in 2 weeks, I hope he's nice to me when I go visit him in the Marine camp... He'll probably be too tired out to annoy me

i only remember this tiny fragment. i didn't realize that i dreamed it until i went downstairs this morning. i remember looking at my pantry floor and seeing ants everywhere. i think to myself, "man, J needs to put that ant trap thing on the floor, thats where they all are....". this morning i remembered that we don't have ants on the floor, triggering the fragment!

this one is almost a fragment, i remember more of this one than i do normal fragments. im inside some sort of cabin, im with some people, except one girl is like my guardian or body guard or something. i remember she was really pretty, and blonde. i think for some reason that everyone else gets killed except me and her, or maybe they leave idk. i then remember wanting to leave, so she came with me. i then vaguely remember walking in the woods, the moon was out.

Awake
Dreaming

So, I attempted another WILD last night, again at 4:00 A.M. I was a little unsure when I woke up and felt pretty wide awake, which usually seems to occur when I'm waking after an REM phase, not before or during. I decided to try anyways, and laid there for a good while, but eventually lost motivation and decided to just get some sleep. I do remember a couple of dreams, though: one fragment I think happened just before I awoke at 4:00, and one more full dream sometime between 4:00 and 6:00. First, the fragment:

I'm trying to hide something, I'm not exactly sure what, behind my dresser, after I wake up and see it sitting in plain sight. I guess you could call this a false awakening, but it really didn't have that feel - I never really thought about the fact that I had just been asleep, and the dream was pretty short with a small focus. Anyways, I take this object, and start to try and hide it, nervous that someone will come into my room and see me with it. However, I realize that behind my dresser doesn't seem to be the best idea, because there's shampoo, lotion, make-up, soap, basically extra supplies for the bathroom already there!

The second dream was quite a bit longer, but not really much more interesting. My mind was kind of being boring last night. Here goes, though:

I am inside a mall with several of my relatives from my dad's side: my grandparents, aunt and uncle, and most of my cousins. When I first become aware, we are in line to eat at one of those oriental style places- the types where you choose one or two meats and rice or lo mein, and they dish it all out on a plate. I remember getting chicken teriaki, which happens to be one of my favorites. After I got my food, most of the rest of my family was still in line, so I decided to explore some. Walking up the mall, I don't really recgonize it, but it seems to be a compilation of a lot of malls I've been to, but smaller. There is a food court, there is at least one department store, there are several other stores that I didn't notice, but all of these seem to be within a hundred or so feet of each other. As I walk past an empty store, I remark that someone should go ahead and start a hat store there. A little after this, right after I enter a department store, one of my cousins runs up, saying that they've all been looking for me because they want to stick together while they walk around. As I walk back, I notice that my grandfather is seeming older than normal, having difficulty walking and going up stairs. When we arrive with the main group, everybody begins to mill around and look at various items, while staying pretty close together. Besides us and the shopkeepers, the mall is empty.

Somehow, I'm at the mall again the next day. A hat shop has sprung up where I said it would be a good idea, but there's no one actually there selling anything. There are a bunch of different types of hats: baseball caps, dress hats, derby hats, etc. A store clerk holds up one fancy hat and says, "I'm not sure where the shopkeeper here went. He was really good, he sold a couple of the most expensive hats here!" Somehow, I know that I'm supposed to be selling hats there, even though I don't want to, because it was my idea to open the shop in the first place. I inconspicuously walk away, which is when I wake up.

Tonight I think I'm going to try to wake myself up closer to 3:30, see if I can hit my REM period a little better.