non-lucid

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6-20-2011

Type: Regular Dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Another marathon dream. No I have never run a marathon or even jogged. Not sure what the subconscious is trying to say yet.

I was outside on a road with car speeding by, the road was just were it was going to start being a bridge of a good size going over a wide turbulent river. There were a group of people hanging around looking cold in the winter wind. I wasn't cold at all but was wondering why these people were standing around if it was so cold.

A woman about 43 years old looking like the typical housewife, white, brown hair above the shoulder, overly caffeinated. Then out of the blue she yelled,
"HI EVERYONE! I'm glad your all here! OK lets get our marathon on!"

I knew I could run across a medium length bridge it might take me 10 or 15 minutes, no big deal.

Then the pack of people I was in started running up stares up on to the arch of the bridge that the cables hang off of! There was a platform we all gathered on before we ran across the arch single file. We ran to one side and came back but I was not hardly lucid at all and is quite fuzzy but when I came back I longed for the platform so much I started to get some of my lucidity back.

I lunged for the handrail on the platform, it was so high up are these people crazy!? And there was no safety harness! I saw some old timer running and he looked unconcerned so I let the concern go.

We then were back at a work room where we were making some kind of arts and decorations for our parade. I gethered some arts stuff randomly and stood there, with a small pile of arts and craft stuff, thinking how I had absolutely no idea what I was doing.

I woke and grumbled "marathon dream."
What are you trying to tell me subconscious?


Why calmly climb a bridge when you can run haphazardly over it?

Dream 1: (Dreamtime: 1 hour)
I am in a smallish outdoor shoping center. The walls are covered with ivy, as well as the ceiling. A group of children in yellow camp shirts walk single file into a store. I ask where they're going, and they say their going to the zoo. They proceed out the back door and walk away. I go talk with my friends for a while and then I realize that I have to be at the zoo. I run to see if the line of kids have left yet. They have. I run to the shopkeeper and ask for directions to the zoo. He tells me to head out the back door and take a right, then follow the map. Then he gives the map and I see that the zoo is 10 miles away! I run as fast as I can, and along the way, I steal a helicopter that belongs to my dream dad. I haphazardly pilot the vehicle (I've never flown in a helicopter) over a ridge of red rock mountains. Below the city sparkles in the sunlight and the ocean adjacent to it is the bluest I've ever seen (except for Hawaii). I think, "Can't this go any faster?" as I approach the zoo from above. There is a military installation as well as an airport, and I know that if I fly directly over either one of them, I will be blown to bits with AA guns. I look for an open place to land, and decide on the small area next to the seawall. I try to bring the heli down, but I drop too quickly, and recover just in time from hitting the water. Nevertheless, the bottom of the heli dips under the waves for an instant. I can't land for some reason, so I pilot the heli about 15 feet above the ground. Then I lock the controls so that it hovers in place and climb out of the cockpit. I wrap a rope around the heli and jump to the ground. I tow it like a balloon and tie the end of the rope around a pillar. I then ask the security guard who has been watching me do this if I can go into the zoo, and he says yes. I then find my dad and tell him what happened.

Dream 2:
I am being chased by eight or so thugs for some reason. I run into a passenger airplane and run into the cockpit. I put a few tiny pieces of C4 next to the door. The thugs enter the plane and search each individual seat. Two of them run up towards where I am hidden. I chuck a bag of the mini C4s and they scatter all over the plane. The 2 thugs shout and I brace myself against the seat and detonate the explosives. I am thrown against the cockpit windshield and pass out as a fireball engulfs me.

Had a nap after not much sleep last night.

I was with some friends near this pool of water. It was really blue and looked very inviting. We were talking about how it is inviting and refreshing in the beginning but then turns red and burns you. As one of them said this I experienced being in the red water for a moment. The next thing I remember is that the Earth starts to turn on its side. Oh no, the world is ending. It was like the planet was flat and turning on its side, because I was struggling not to fall. I start to float and eventually start to fly but there was nothing unusual about this and I didn't become lucid. There were tall trees upside down and I was floating between the earth and them, looking up at the tree tops and the sky below them. I start to fly higher and now couldn't actually see anything, I just knew I was moving. I was going to go up through the atmosphere into space to look at the earth and see what was wrong, but the thought became kindof scary and I stopped.

1. All I remember in this fragment of a dream is some sort of.. giant gash. I don't remember who had it or how it happened. I just remember someone having this giant gash on their leg with a lot of blood.

2. This one is fuzzy also: I just remember riding my horse, Tess.

3. For some reason.. I remember being at my school at night and we were having some sort of yard sale or something.. and I remember my grandmother being there.

I forget the larger dream that surrounded, but a DC started to have a dream and me and the other DCs where able to view it.
We were kind of off to the side, still able to see, and somehow in the scene although we stayed still as it moved, but unable to interact and mess with it

It was all in black and white and the DC approached shore in some sort of huge un-described vessle. A giant sea lion dashed by in front of her and she was shocked. He was terrified of seal lions. She was coming to the shore of San Francisco. A couple large vehicles come around the corner each carrying a statue of liberty. There ended up being about five in all. The sea lion again passes only on land.

Sad that I will remember my DCs dream but not mine

I am running somewhere outside, I think it's night again. There are fences around and as if some river. There is my friend Jaque and she has her exam marked already. She is not happy with it as she did get very good grade. The I realize that I can have mine too. So I get it. It's social psychology exam. It was actually marked by my other teacher Anna Saunders from previous Uni. I look at the exam and I got only 44%. I am very unhappy. I flip through the pages and there are no marks or corrections. I am very unsatisfied and want to talk with Anna about it. She only says that I used Twitter as en example. I flip through the pages and actually can read the writing. (don't remember what was said there, just the twitter bits). I am very disappointed as I expected much better mark.

1. I am standing in a bathtub/shower, but not bathing. It's night, and the lights are out, and it would be pitch-black except for a little nightlight plugged into the wall. I am taking a sort of emotional bath- there's no water involved, but I am being washed with a feeling instead. I can physically feel the feeling: it feels kind of like sand, but more fluid. It's very comfortable and mildly warm (definitely not hot, but better than lukewarm). I am looking at the wall opposite the bathtub, where I know the door is, but I can't see anything. Suddenly, a soft white light turns on behind the door. It must have been really bright, because I can see it right through the door, as if the door was translucent. However, the light that gets through isn't very bright and is kind of in a blob-shape, resembling a shape that spilled water would make. When I see the light, I quickly step behind the bath curtain, which is pulled all the way to one side, but I can still see the light through the curtain. After about half a second, another light comes on, in the middle of the old one. Light #2 is much brighter and rounder, like a flashlight's light. I am starting to become very nervous. After another half-second interval, a third light comes on. It is laser-green, and it forms a ring with a dot in the middle, like a cross-hair, but without a cross. It is very bright, so bright that in real life it would probably damage your eyes to look at it for too long. As soon as I see it I drop to the floor of the bathtub, trying to get all of myself under the rim. While I am still falling, the final half-second interval passes and the last light comes on. It is an intense flash, like the flash of a camera, but so bright that your vision becomes completely white for a second, even if you're looking in the opposite direction. It was a scanner that the badguys were using to see if I was in the bathroom. Apparently we were being raided in the middle of the night. I don't know who 'we' were exactly, all I knew was that I was in some sort of base with my allies, and this raid was from an opposing faction. They were coming specifically to kill me, and they didn't really want to get in a fight or cause a commotion because there weren't enough of them- only three or four. So they were trying to scan all the rooms to find me before just barging in. While I was hiding, I was trying to figure out why they wanted me specifically. I thought that maybe it was because I knew some of their secrets, or maybe it was because my side would crumble without me to hold it together. I wasn't really sure. Anyway, since the light had flashed while I was still dropping, I was worried that they had seen me, but apparently they hadn't. They kept warming up and flashing the light every ten seconds or so, and I was trying to stay below the rim of the bathtub, but it was really hard and I kept slipping, so that my toe or something would be sticking out. However, somehow I was managing to keep out of the light. They started asking me questions, trying to trick me into giving myself away. I was answering the questions, but I don't remember what I said.


2. I was in a star wars jedi battle. I was on the good side, and all of us were running to meet the badguys. We finally came up to them, and all of us started lightsaber-battling the jedi who was in front of us. I noticed that all the goodguys had blue lightsabers, and all the bad jedi had red lightsabers, so I said, "hey, this is like color stereotyping!" I was fighting Anakin Skywalker, and he was already evil. He chopped off my hands, and I fell down. He grabbed me and dragged me through the battle and into this tunnel. Obi-wan Kenobi was following us, and he was really upset that I was dying. Anakin threw me into a spaceship at the other end of the tunnel. I sat up as it was taking off, and looked up, and there was a princess girl with hair in the shape of a giant fan and white face paint (can't remember if there was anyone like that in star wars), only her face and mannerisms looked like Lucy (a girl at my school). There were four of her (because she had four lives) sitting in a row. The spaceship was really small and rectangle-shaped, and they were against one of the smaller walls, so the four of them took up the whole wall. In the back-right corner was a bed. When they saw me and how I was dying, they all expressed shock: first the left-most one, then the next, then the next, then the right-hand one. Then, the left one's hair turned to grey, and then the next one, all the way down the line again, then once they all had grey hair, the left one said, "I'm dead!" (because apparently she had died from shock/grief at seeing me), then the second one said it, then the third one, and I was thinking, "oh no, the princess is about to lose all her lives here and now", except the last one didn't die but said something about how she would have a hard time coping with her grief. It was as if their shock took away like 90% of their collective lives, so the clone for 1-25% died, then the clone for 26-50% died, then the clone for 51-75% died, but the clone for 76-100% didn't die, just got really injured. I don't know if that makes any sense. Once I saw that the princess was not going to die, I struggled my way to the bed and flopped down.

AWAKE
DREAMING

I am in the garden with Liam (my brother) by the avary, there is someone inside the avary holding a small guinea pig, there are more guinea pigs running around the avary. Me and Liam are talking and I suddenly notice a MASSIVE spider in the corner, about 2 or 3 times the size of a tarantula (really should have noticed I was dreaming here o.O). Liam says 'look it's that spider from the bedroom' and I say 'really? it seems too big!' and I'm awake

AWAKE
DREAMING

I had been to a party the previous night and a girl called Sophie who I liked was there.

I am in my living room and there is a knock at the door, I go and answer it and Sophie is standing in my porch. I say 'hello' and she begins talking about how she doesnt want anything to ruin our friendship but that basically, she likes me. I am excited and start rambling about how I've wanted to ask her out for a while and stuff, but I got really excited and everything just sort of faded.
I'm awake, and fucking depressed that it was a dream.

I was in a mansion, sitting by my sister in a room near an exit. The room had a couch and a hallway leading outside. The room also had a back where I knew a kitchen was. I went outside for a littlewhile and came back in. I wallked in and saw two zombies in the place of my mother and sister. I freaked out and rand down the hall leading out. It was nightfall now. I had the odd feeling that if I didnt move out to a mor eopen space that zombies would over power me. All of a sudden I was on a train getting away from the zombie infested lands. It seemed as if a virus was running rampant and I was one of the few who was to strong to turn into a zombie. The train crashed not to far away from the mansion. Comeing out of the train was an old man and two girls probobly mom an dsister. The dream wasnt making much sense. I was an old man and on the train yet me in the dream wasnt there and still outside somewhere, as if my conciousness shifted to another persons reality. Zombie animals and people where in the woods, we knew we had to get back into the mansion to not be over powered. We where back in the mansion held up in a room. The old man who I was at the time got on a computer and visualized himself as a video game charracter running around with a pipe beating up the zombies. The old man who I was at the time found himself over the bodies of several beaten to death zombies. The two girls stood shoked at how he had defied his age. Suddenly I was one of the girls trying to make it over to the other girl. I dont know weather i was the sister or the mom. I saw the otehr girl and a girl who wasnt in the dream before fall off a platform several stories in the air and somehow get up uningered I was afraid to try. I suddenly saw a ladder and used it to get down. I was somehow myself again. I was viewing the future like a book. I saw that I was in chaper three of the 6 chapter book that was the zombie infestation. It had a picture of a giant cat on it. The 5th chapter said the importants of familly, it had a picture of several zombie boars killing me and ripping me to pieces and eating me. I then entered chapter 5. I was on the ground being attacked by a cat bigger than any horse or any lion I have ever seen. The cat was tearing at my arms and face, tearing off bloody scraps of fleash. Oddly I felt nothing, only the burning urge to escape. I crawled over to a door in a narrow hallway braced myself against the wall and tried to push ta door closed to keep the cat from getting to me. The beast was strong and was slowly over powering me, makeing blood curddling noises that I have yet to hear in real life. Then I found myself with mom, dad and my sister. I knew now that I was in chapter six, where I knew I would meet my horrible death. Mom and dad where cooking, unaware of the zombies all over the place. They sent me out for cooking equipment all the way across the mansion. I want to the middle yard of the mansion and jumped all the way across to the spot with the stuff. I knew that at any moment I could meet my end. I grabed the stuff and jumped back over hopeing I could get inside before my death. I gave the stuff to my mom and dad. THey where about to send me out for more stuff even further in the mansion. I was then talking to Tetra the pirate and her crew from the legend of Zelda. I was begging her to sail me and my familly away so that we could live. She refused and sailed away leaving us to die. ////This was a side chapter in the story. The dream ended.

Woot I didnt die!!

Me and my dad are standing in what appears to be a bunkbed but with four posts sticking out upwards from the four corners and one in the middle of the bed. A little, black, slimy, octopus looking thing is sitting on the post in the middle (the octopus type thing is about the size of a fist). Me and my dad start trying to hit the octopus for some reason. Once it has been hit, it waits for about 2 seconds and then jumps to another post. This keeps happening over and over until the octopus is on a post in the corner, I hit it again but it just stays there, it doesn't jump away. I immediately think this is bad and dive to the side so that I am lying in the bed. Now, my dad approaches me and starts making fun of me for being scared. I get angry at him, then Jack from eastenders (WTF?? lol) turns up and gets rid of the octopus. I notice a magazine under a pillow and say 'European porn, European porn is better than American porn'. Jack replies 'really?' and I say 'hell yes!'.
I wake up now... THAT WAS A FUCKED UP DREAM

So.. I was really unsure about posting this just because it's sort of.. intense. But I decided that it's just a dream and I've posted so many other not-so-pleasant dreams on here so I guess I'll post this one.

Rape
This is my third(I think) dream about a rapist but the first one that involves.. me.

I was in my house when some guy around my age barged in and started chasing after me. I tried to find a place to hide but he chaded me down and found me right away.

Spoiler for a bit graphic:

He dragged me into a room and I laid down on the bed and he got on top of me. I didn't put up much of a fight because I didn't want him to hurt me any more than he already was. I don't remember this part very much, but I know he did the deed and then got off me. He did this twice during the dream.

Afterwards, he acted like nothing had happened and so did I because I wanted him to trust that I wouldn't tell anyone so that he would leave. Unfortunately, he was too smart to leave right away. I tried to get away again but he would chase me down right away. So I just tried to be calm and casual and then he saw the hot tub in my backyard. I asked him if he wanted to go in it and he said yes. I told him I didn't feel like going in and that I would just stay in the house. I promised him that I wouldn't call or say anything to anyone or try to get away, and he actually believed it. He thought we were 'pals' then. So he went out to the hot tub and I quickly locked all the doors so he couldn't get back in. I ran to a room to find somewhere to hide but decided I was safe enough to stay where I was and call for help. I called 911 and told them everything. Then someone else was there with me, maybe a neighbor or something, and the guy was trying to get back in the door as the neighbor or someone blocked it. I was terrified that he would get back in so I held the door shut until one of my parents, my dad I think, came home. I told him what happened and we got in his car and sat there until the cops showed up. It seemed to take forever for them to arrive, but when they did come there was around six of them. I finally felt safe again..

Shopping
I had another dream about shopping for a birthday gift for my friend and I went to mayfair mall with one of my other friends to shop. I had a gift card to Victoria's Secret, which happened to be just a small makeup stand in a Khols, instead of a whole store. I had no idea what to get and my friend was helping me pick stuff out but I didn't really want to buy any of it. Then she just sort of ignored me and walked off to shop for some clothes and I followed her. I went to try something on so I sat in a waiting area with some other people from my school. They were laughing a little at me, I think because I was dressed in a hoodie and jeans while everyone else was dressed all fancy and 'cool'. I laughed to myself then and thought, "Yea well atleast I don't have to go shopping all the time and spend 1,000$ a month on clothes." I was happy the way I was.

Morning of Sun 06/19/2011

200mcg huperzine-a
4mg nicotine
1mg melatonin

Wake @ 2:30 am
Bed @ 4:00 am (so annoying that it takes me so long to get back to sleep)

Dream 1: I was talking to a baby with a really round head, blonde hair and startling blue eyes. At first I was going to pass it by, but I turned back and asked the baby to tell me something about myself. It said, "You are inquisitive and (something about awareness)."

Dream 2: I was moving into a new apartment, in a special complex. My mother was asking about the phone installation (IWL she use to be a telephone cable repair tech.) and I asked her why she wanted to know, because she's retired. She told me she gets called in for special contracts because she is the only one who can do certain types of work...I didn't want to tell her where my new place is, I didn't want her to mess with my phone and there was something with an image of Taylor in my mind when I was talking to her. I was evasive and annoyed because it felt like she was being smothering or invasive.
(***note - later in the day, I felt emotionally vulnerable. I saw some dragonflies over the fence, and my sister remarked that my grandmother had loved them. I didn't know that, and several thoughts of how dragonflies are a meaningful symbol to me and a particular experience with one just before I left the state all converged and I felt my grandmother's caring, guiding presence and burst into tears...my sister was really surprised by my display of emotion. Also, later, my mother came to me in the kitchen and said, "Thank you for being my daughter." which is really different from her usual "thank you for putting up with me."...and we hugged and kissed and I felt very tender toward her (VERY unusual, my mother and I have never been close)..and I spontaneously said to her, "Thank you for being my mother, nobody else could have done it like you." Which seems related to the "special contract" part of the dream. I'm quite pleased with the integration and processing work that seems to be happening!!***)

Snippet: I remember doing an RC by pinching my nose shut and realizing I could breathe but apparently I either don't remember what happened or the lucidity was very brief.

(I know there was something before this but have no recall of it)
I am sitting on the side of a pier by the sea, with my friend kasper and two other boys I have never seen before. We are all in school uniform (DS). We are just talking about nothing much and then two girls approach us and just stand there looking at us, they are also in school uniform (DS). Suddenly I start headbanging for no apparent reason.

6-19-11
Bear's halloween costme is a dog and owner. Large elaborate dog costume mostly gray and black body paint and a dog collar. People wonder if there some kind of psycho-sexual compnant to it. I have the song 'city of new orleans' stuck in my head.

6-20-11
Lost Oakleys
Riding in the 4runner with R. He is driving. My wife is riding in the back seat. He puts an expensive pair of sun glasses back there and later can't find them. Later, he calls her to tell her that he has to help him pay thousands of dollars for new sunglasses. After he gets off the phone with her. I find the sunglasses on the floor of his truck. He takes them and puts them on without saying a word. It pisses me off that he won't say sorry or thank you or that he even tried to get her to pay for them in the first place but I just seethe.

New House
Driving through a neighborhood for the possibility of a new house to buy. The one we look at is very cheap but a hole as been blown entirely through one side. The hole looks like a wrecking ball has come through. It's white on the outside and the inside has an unpainted light brown/gray look to it. The house was formally owned by a former friend who abandoned his wife after she got pregnant with her first kid. Though you can see sunlight coming in through holes in the ceiling, the house is fully furnished with stuff that looks like it came from other old houses. There is a poppazon chair and a matching set of old green love seats. Also in the living room is an empty Entertainment console with a few wires that connect to nothing.
I walk into a second room and there are several bookshelves, half full. On the shelves are several novelizations of comic books and a few special edition comic books, including a signed edition of the death of superman from 1997 and full bound set of X-Men novels that don't exist, including the first 2 movies and then Wolverine the movie, and the sequel, Wolverine Unbound. I start putting a few of the books in my bag.