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I remember being apart of maybe some sort of fighting UFC thing? Maybe a family member or something was UFC fighter? Can barely remember it.

WBTB: Failed


Non-Lucid Dreams
After my WBTB attempt, I accidentally fell asleep a bit too quick. I remember having a dream in the Walking Dead Universe, where I was part of Ricks group. We were held up in this school or gym or something, for sure. We were just doing some work, involving hoses or water or whatever, and I was helping out. When we were done and inside, someone knocked on the door. I grabbed two, ahem, "weapons", which were a nerf gun and I large thick stick lol. I threatened the dude who knocked to step back (he didnt have any weapons) and then Rick came over with his bigass revolver, you know the one, and asked him the questions he asks people in the show, if I remember correctly, "How many walkers have you killed", "How many people have you killed", "Why". The guy answered them (dont remember the answers) and told us how he had a school up and running, and asked me if I would like to join. In my mind, I thought it'd be kinda nice, but he was teaching really young kids and I don't think I would learn much. Rick said no, anyways. I forgot what happened to him, but the guy left. I then remember helping the group with some stuff some more, and then the dream was over.

I did have a dream I recalled which was non-lucid but I was bombarded with real life issues that made it impossible to deal with writing it down. I am excited to be sleeping in some this weekend for a change! The rain is putting a damper on my summer weekend swimming but I really need some good quality sleep to achieve a nice lucid. On the other hand, I have been busy with some research about some issues outside of lucid dreaming. I've been reading stories of people who have dreams that lead them down the past life experience rabbit hole. Very interesting. Also I read a lot of stories of lucid dreamers having astral projection experiences. Also very interesting. Reading stories like that tend to give me a lucid.


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non-lucids only

I used to work where my husband works which is called Eagle Picher. Same place I got disabled from an accident. Anyway today they fired 135 people. So basically a shit load of my friends got fired but my husband has a unique job so he was spared. I'm grateful for that but I've been crying all day long because of all of those people. People who have been there their entire lives & it's like a big dysfunctional family if you will. Anyway, my heart is just not in it today. Be back tomorrow.


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Fell asleep at 2am. But that's one hour less than yesterday's time so its all good. I ended up having a non lucid dream than another after waking up at 4 and going back to bed. Left the t.v. on at 4am though. I woke up at 7am than went back to sleep because I was still sleepy. Had another non lucid.

One of my non lucid dreams involved me mistaking a talking and walking 8 year old for a 2 year old and a angry teacher who was mad at her students.I was one of them during a moment in the dream. Than something about cops busting into a supermarket and me trying to playfully get a boy off my tail who said he wanted to spend time with me. I had a feeling he was trying to poison me though.

D:1 Non-Lucid: I was in a competition like on Big Brother or something but people died during the competitions. It was complicated so I can really put it into words.

I am hoping for a lucid tonight. I'm working on a scenario to try to have if I become lucid.


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Last night I went to sleep at 3am. I think the t.v. is bothering me a bit now so I will shut it off and just try to go to bed at 11pm.

My first dream was a non lucid dream but I can't recall what it was about.

My second dream started off as non lucid but than I became lucid. The first thing I can remember about it is being in a closed dark room made out of concrete and bricks. It was a small rectangular room and I was with my brother and a few other people. We were talking about something till I started thinking about dream related stuff. That's when Dawn came and brought me to another area. I noticed bathroom stalls nearby and wondered what was he going to do. I ended up getting jabbed in the stomach area. I asked myself why he did that than had a false awakening in a room upstairs of my house.

The room is rectangular and big enough to fit two beds with a total of three windows in it.My mom, brothers and someone else was present in the room. I sat up on the bed and than suddenly something jabbed at my stomach causing the dream pain again I realized it was a dream and decided to try ignoring. However, when i got off the bed and walked,at the corner of my eye I felt like something moved. I looked at the windows where I saw something and to my surprise there was a brown tree with what sort of looked like a big nose and closed eyes outside the window where the backyard is. I kept observing it until the tree moved and opened its mouth and eyes. The tree roared at me trying to scare me and looked as big as the deku tree from zelda. "Cool!The dhl mission would be so awesome if I had to go up against a tree like that"I thought.

But than something started pulling me into the air and flew me out the room to my living room and was taking me to the stairs that lead to the rooms and hall of the basement. There was also the top of a black umbrella annoying me. I pushed it out the way and pushed myself toward a phone I saw on the living room table. "I haven't called eye in a while through the phone" I thought than pressed any number while exiting my house.It wasn't ringing so I spelled out "EYE" as I pressed the number on the tan outdated looking phone.

Outside it was daylight but a little foggy.The neighborhood looked somewhat different too. I took note of that and than just as I was about to walk past a car on the sidewalk Eye answered me asking what was up. "Eye can you come? Dawn hurt me and something is annoying me. I need your help"I said wanting him to body guard me for a bit.He appeared out of thin air but to my surprise he was in a totally different form. He was wearing a yellow t shirt with a yellow/green jacket and yellow sweat pants. He even had light orange short curly hair. He smiled at me and I hugged him telling him how he looks and feels different. But when I let go of him he pushed me to the side than put one arm around me than looked into my eyes as if he came up with an idea and it was going to be crazy fun for him.

I was not looking forward to it though. He ended up carrying me back to the house where now his friends were present. He went up to a girl, kissed her and took one of the glass of milk she had. Not sure where this dream was going. I decided to ignore what was going on but as I was going to a room I was pulled by a dc and taken to what looked like a auditorium.There I saw a group of girls together telling me to stay away from Dawn because he is supposedly half willing to be my dream guide and only slightly cares but for his own gain. This reminded me of my old lucid dream I had where I was told to stay away from him but I just told the girls that what they said made no sense and that I wasn't going to listen to them. After that I began to be pulled into the air until I pushed myself back down to the ground.Woke up after that.

In my third dream it started off non lucid too. I was about to take the bus with my younger brother but after going inside and noticing that we were walking down the stairs of a school I became lucid."We've been walking for a while down the stairs. But we were in a bus before. You know if you were on a bus than suddenly walking down the stairs you must be dreaming"I said out loud. A dc looked back at me smiling than. I happily jumped up than ran off in another direction but my lucidity didn't last long. I ended up being in my house again and seeing my brother use a textbook for texture in his drawing of superwoman with long flowing hair.Woke up after that.

Dream notes:
Hmm...My dreams feel somewhat scattered.I think I will try to lucid dream about a specific place now. Maybe the beach since it seems like it would be a fun experience.

I had the most sporadic night of patchy non-lucid dreams. Meesha Cat kept sitting on my head & face. She kept purring & then jumping on my belly. Mike was getting ready for work & she just wouldn't leave me alone all night. I think it was the combo of the lightening, rain & Mike's early schedule. Anyway all of my dreams were partial snippets of dreams that were jerky. In the sense that they wouldn't make sense & jumped scene to scene almost like you hit the fast forward button on a movie & it took you too the commercial before returning to the movie. Except I kept getting woke up or getting a different snippet of another movie. So frustrating. Also I'm in a shit load of pain cuz I ran low on my pain meds but the doc fixed me up again today.

Went to sleep at 3am last night. Had to turn off the t.v. and something bothered me. Can't remember what though.

Notes on things that help me with lucidity

*Thinking of my dream guide before bed. I like to appear in the dream next to my guide.

*Reading or listening to others dreams and thinking of them before bed.

*I ask myself what I was doing or what I want to do sometimes during the day because i get distracted by some things. Other times I ask it intentionally because I know my father was trying to distract me.XD Other times people actually make me forget by changing the subject.This helps me because it gets me thinking in the dream if I ask it and helps with recalling a moment from the dream. Like how tasty the cooked marshmallow on a stick was in my non lucid dream last night and how I would want to taste it again in the future.However, there's a possibility it could keep you from getting lucid too because you will be sucked into the moment of wanting to do something in a non lucid. Which happened in my store non lucid dream where I asked myself what I wanted to do first in my retail job and than went to do it.
(I'm not that forgetful though. So its not really a negative trait about me.)

*Reminding my self to RC when I find myself on a bed.This works mostly during false awakenings where it feels like I'm awake but I'm not. After rc I like to observe the dream surrounding to see what is out of place and remind myself what the surrounding is supposed to be like in reality.

*My reality check involves me biting my finger. It turns out to be rubbery which tells me for sure I'm dreaming. However, when I wake up for real I don't have to bite my finger. The real world is more concrete than the dream world.In the dream world things can be out of place, I can hear strange voices or make them appear as well as illusions/characters/objects and can move freely while doing these things. Being unable to move is a sign for me that I'm still in dream mode. Its also important to be accepting of still being in the dream or waking up. I'm welcoming to false awakenings because they are like second chances for me when I'm afraid in a dream. They allow for me to recollect my thoughts so I can be calmer.
(Not that I want false awakenings but im accepting of them as a dream thing)

*Saying "I'm dreaming " in my mind a few times (3 or 2 times) with my eyes closed helps boost my confidence for a lucid but I don't rely on it as much. I think I prefer "Lucid dreaming is a natural and achievable state" because that's the kind of thinking that gave me my first lucid and it feels better and less mechanical.

All of these things connected help me with becoming lucid. Sorry if it sounds a little weird. There might be other things but I can't recall anything else now.

Non-lucid but very vivid in details. I was with other people & we were trying to hide from I don't know who but we ended up in this house which was supposed to be my house. We went down hallways & up stairs until we finally reached what I perceived as a dead end. We were in a room. Nothing extraordinary about it or anything, just a bedroom & I didn't feel in dire danger either. Suddenly as I'm realizing it's just me & a couple of people that I don't know. I'm telling them that we are out of options. A man looks at me and smiles a sly smile & opens a doorway out of thin air & we step through. In this room there is a tall room. Very modern & it has a wall of windows. I look out the windows & we are up as high as a skyscraper! He's laughing saying "they won't find us in here". I'm finding that this is in such great detail & incredible I know I must be dreaming but before a lucid adventure could begin, Meesha Cat woke me up.

I was pretty disappointed & tried to go back to sleep to do 2 task of the months but alas no dice.


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Dream 1 non-lucid: I found myself in a non-lucid dream in my hometown. They seemed to be under a form of martial law. I had to help deliver a baby which was odd. And the fact that a childhood friend I haven't talked to in quite some time was by my side all along the way. None of the places were actual places in my tiny small hometown, lol. The soldiers were invading an event at the high school & I was being ushered around like I had been beckoned to help everyone. Apparently I got there in time & we ran them off. There were celebrations at this point.

Dream 2-Non-lucid: Oh & this was the dream I couldn't remember yesterday but did recall today. Non-lucid but very bright & vivid. I was in this city with hotels, casinos, eccentric themed shows. Anyway, I was being approached by different kinds of people who wanted me to move there & work. It had a connection to a glamorous casino/hotel I dreamed about before. So I was walking & talking quite a bit in this dream, in restaurants & those other places I mentioned. I noticed a theme going though & didn't want to move there to work. There were many con artists in this dream who were working with other people to make me just another "mark" for these jobs. See, if you took the job you'd have to move there & it was just a vicious cycle of the landlords wanting people who lived basically hand to mouth in the end. You'd make just enough to pay for rent & do your job with a little extra after that but basically you could never move away & are surrounded by people you don't know & can't rely on.

That first dream I think came from listening to stuff about the elections. Someone had mentioned martial law being a possibility if the "elite powers that be" don't think Hillary will win they could invoke martial law after they create something that would allow them to do so.

The second was about my husbands job. They sent out legal documents to all employees by law because they are going to do a mass firing of at least 100 people starting very soon. Just FYI, I used to work there too so I know a lot about how government likes their private businesses run. They make the batteries that goes into the space shuttle, all kinds of weapons, including TOP SECRET ones. The list is extensive & the new buyout was unprecedented. Some one bought all of the plants, not just 1 which happens sometimes. They have already fired a crazy amount of ppl including very smart people. It's a scary scenario.



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I've been falling asleep at 10pm lately and I became lucid last night and yesterday. However, somehow my lucidity was lost after recalling the dhl mission. I was like "Ok. Im lucid. I have time to do the dhl mission. Snakes and bat." than just as im going somewhere the lucidity vanishes. Also, I had a deja vu moment today. When I fell asleep at night,just as I was about to wake up I had a false awakening where I woke up and someone had messaged me on youtube about a give away.Than I went back to sleep in the dream and saw myself sleeping and hearing a voice of someone breathing. I was drawing a picture using my imagination to keep calm. After waking up and a few hours passed I got on my youtube channel and saw the message was the same as the dream. My mind replicated the same message I didn't remember seeing in real life. Wow.

Had to get up extra early today to get my grandkids around & gather everything & feed everyone so I told my husband about my dream which was a non-lucid cuz he has a great memory instead of writing a few lines for me to help my recall but I'm exhausted & drawing a blank but I know it wasn't a lucid. Sigh. My own fault.

D1: non-lucid: A nightmare in the twilight zone is the best way to describe it. I was in this house & I heard someone. People were popping in & out of existence! They would appear & disappear & then other people who appear & disappear. Most were coming back repeatedly & it was really creepy.

D2: non-lucid: I chained right into this next dream. There were orbs flying around in the sky. A cluster of orbs. Me & other people were chasing them through peoples yards & suddenly government people appeared. They had set a table with all kinds of technological devices.

I was watching a show about UFO's before I went to sleep.


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Preface:
Bed at 10pm to catch up on sleep! Unfortunately, exercise had me worn out last night. No echinacea or vitamins before bed; I was too tired and I forgot.

DR 1
I am at a university or school event of some sort. I am with a friend, her boyfriend, and a child. Most times, this child appears to be a boy.
My friend and her boyfriend separate for some reason, and I am supposed to go with the boyfriend to get something or find something (papers from the school). I let him do his thing, because there is a small photography gallery showing that we (all of us, mainly the child) have been invited to. The child is very excited to see this, so we are rushing along to get to the room. When I get there, a man is handing out small booklets (prints of the show) for sale. The guy opens the book and its pictures of "cookies". All kinds of elaborately decorated Christmas gingerbread cookies. The one that I most remember is the one that appears to be strangled. Half of his head is coming off. Anyway, the child is so excited and wants to buy one of the books. He/she has given me his wallet, so its in my purse. I go into my purse to get the wallet and he tells me that the book is four dollars. I find four dollars in silver coins and I give it to him to pay for the book. The wallet is a long checkbook type wallet and has a rose pattern (black and pink). When I go to put the wallet back inside my purse. The child gets upset and says that its his/her wallet. At this time I cannot distinguish the sex of the child, because his/her face is so beautiful, dark brown curly hair (big ringlets), fair skin, rosy pursed lips and big brown eyes- a heart shaped face. He/she is so adorable. I say, "I have it right here! You gave it to me, remember? Do you want to hold it?" The child is okay with me holding it. We hang around a bit and then we leave.

As we are leaving, I meet up with my friend's boyfriend again. We receive news that half the world has fallen into the sea. This is huge news, and it seems that the world is going to be over.

Immediately, I become a third person, and I am looking down at the earth from the sky. In satellite view, I can see Spain and France flip over and fold into the water, as if someone has folded a piece of paper. The same happens to Africa. The rest of Europe, gets completely folded into Russia- and then everything goes under the water. I get freaked out and return to first person.

People are crying and there is a lot of commotion. We are oddly calm and begin to make our way out to find the car. We find my friend. She looks kind of upset. I can feel its because her boyfriend and I have been hanging out and we had a good time. She is not happy that she left her boyfriend with me (?). She's not even upset about the earth.
The university/school is huge! Its takes us awhile to get back to the car. I get into the driver's seat. Its a small sedan. The boyfriend gets into the front seat (?), and my friend and the child get into the back. Everything looks that dimly lit color again (golden brown sepia tones), only there are no torches or streetlights. I don't know where I am going but there is a lot of craziness about the earth on the radio. It seems that only the North American continent has survived.


Side notes:

Colors- Mostly the dimly lit orange/gold tones. This is a change from the normal white/grey color scheme.

Child- This child appeared so handsome and beautiful at the same time. This is new for me in a dream; I can usually tell the sex of people in dreams, if not by appearance then by feeling.

Coins- There were lots of quarters in my purse. In the dream, I had many of them in a plastic bag, which I took out to retrieve the coins. That is odd, but I do hate how change rumbles around and gets dirty in purses.

Cookies- These cookies looked alot like the gingerbread cookies that my small nieces and I made last Christmas. They kept putting too much icing and making them look so different, so I started naming them.

Earth-Probably the biggest calamity I have had in a dream lately. I didn't think I was capable of imagining that the world could just fold over into the sea. Interesting bit about Russia.

Non-Lucid but very vivid: I was living among a colony of people. We were gathering resources necessary for our survival. We were constantly moving from place to place, each one higher than the last. We are fleeing the water that in on the constant rise & the rain continues off & on so that there isn't much of a reprieve. I saw no sun or moon. It seemed very odd whether it was earth or not was not clear. I watched children with awe at children finding small things to play with. I was appointed somehow to document our travels & our existence. It did not feel like this was the earth I know.

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