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Hello DV! Finally broke my dryspell, which lasted 29 days. My last lucid dream was on March 25, so it's been awhile, but I finally broke it last night. Sadly, most of the dream is lost in my subconscious now, but I can recall a few things at least, both lucid and non-lucid.

I recall being in some sort of store of something with my friends and classmates. I also recall driving out of a gas station parking lot, and two guys cut me off in their car, but then allowed me to drive out into the interesection(sorry lol the parts I remember weren't too interesting).

Lucidly I recall the time shortly after becoming lucid. I fell backwards once to make the clarity of the dream better, and it worked quite well. Not too long after that the dream almost felt like real waking life. My ADA was kicking in to the maximum, so the details in the environment around me were staggeringly realistic. Not only was the area detailed down to each speck of dust, but my body also felt very lively and at work like it would feel in real life. I've noticed that normally the body just feels empty in dreams to me, and this is probably the same for other people too. Bottom line, I'm very happy with the results of the ADA method.

Now onto a few updates:
I'm finishing up this year of school, and so the end of the year stress is starting kick in. I have to constantly worry about my grades, and the mounds of work my teachers are giving me. This has been affecting my dream recall quite horribly, because I've been quite stressed out. I noticed that once this school settled in my LD count from the summer went out the window, and I've been having dryspells for the whole school year. I've been practicing All Day Awareness(ADA) since June, and it's continuing to prove useful in capturing the detail of my dreams, but it's harder to practice in the day time when it's never the first thing on my mind, especially in school.

Recently, just this week in fact, I've been thinking about returning to the DEILD method, considering I tend to wake up unintentionally at least once a night, sometimes twice, or even three times. It's a very hard method to get started with, because it requires you to not move or open your eyes when you awake, so it's been difficult to have my mind immediately have a twitch reaction to not do so when I awake. I almost had it last night though, so I could've had two lucids! So hopefully I can pull that together soon, and hopefully when summer returns I can get back to having weekly to biweekly lucids again.

Dream
Lucidity
Notes

I was playing Dishonored and saw an ultra hard difficulty setting so I started playing on that. It was arena type mode with challenges every stage. I was actually in the game fighting and had access to the power selection wheel. The first challenge was to get people to kill each other without me killing them. I went through many challenges and a lot of fighting but as I was running from 2 women and a lot of monsters, I entered a room and said "Alright I'm done" because I was so tired. I got congratulated for making it so far by the girls chasing me and had a man on a computer take pictures of me and them. I saw a digital picture frame with other people who I knew got top scores and among them were some of my family members. The girls told me they were going back home and I was teleported onto the ocean where I was swimming.
There were a lot of sea creatures and I was swimming along side some whales, who reminded me of one of the girls. The dream reminded me of the dream I had on 4/21/2014, where I was sailing the ocean with my family on a car. I saw plenty of cars but this time they were headed towards me. I said "Here I come!" and saw a boat speeding towards me. Suddenly a helicopter comes and its rotors cause me to get blown away. I pretend I'm taking apart an easter egg and suddenly become lucid.
I'm floating on the water and at the tip of my fingers, an easter egg that looks like a yellow bunny. I remember the water being deep. I opened the easter in half. The bottom portion had a green toy or figurine. The top portion had a yellow and tan toy/figurine. I took them both out and bit into each. It hurt my tooth because they were a hard plastic. I looked at them and read their information on the back of the toys. It said where they were made, by what company, copyrights, etc. I came to shore onto a facility and thought I'd prank a dream character. I said "I want a person to be here" and as I walked, I saw my cat Lucy. I added, "a person that's not Lucy!" I stepped up to the facility doors and a man asked me to identify. I know I've been there before and knew what to do and say. I said my name and that I was wearing black. I took off my duty belt which didn't have anything on it and stepped through. I saw a janitor, who was old and fat and told him to follow me outside. My plan was to make him go outside and have to get access to the facility again. He was suspicious of me and said "If you're trying to make me come out, I have a badge to get in" he then proceeded to tell me how the badge was not his and he actually stole it. I yelled at him to give me the badge but he ran away, outside of the facility and into some sort of cave. I lost lucidity and started yelling at nothing for a badge then slowly started to wake up.

Before bed, I stayed up a long time repeating to myself "I open easter eggs" and imagining me opening easter eggs. While I was walking out, the janitor asked me for the time and I looked at my watch and told him some weird time. My lucidity was low during this dream.

So last night I went to sleep at around 11pm and set my alarm for 4:30am. I woke up, got a snack and reset my alarm to 6am and went back to bed. I had attempted to keep my mind active and let my body sleep with hopes of going into paralysis but something strange happened. My mind went to sleep and I drempt that I never did. In my dream I was lying on my bed with my computer on my chest turned onto Omegle.com. ( It's a peer to peer website that matches your webcam up with another randomly and you chat) Just as I drempt of entering paralysis my best friend came up on the screen with her friend and didn't notice it was me she was looking at. Her appearance was slightly different with a blue streak in her hair and I thought it was a little strange but I went with it. I tried breaking out and saying "Hi" but I couldn't talk and she skipped me.

So, I am new here and I have decided to just post last nights dream here.
(It has been a good 5ish days since I had a solid clear dream)

I had drempt that my Grandpa Joe had asked to me get him something while I was out, I don't think I actually did get it but he accepted it and my dad came over asking me to get him a poster while I was out. He told me he wanted it because it had his name on it as the title. I don't believe I looked for it but was already at it the next moment in my dream and I could tell something was strange with it. The poster was a greenish gray blur on the wall surrounded by others the same and where the name should have been it was an ever changing rotation of blurry numbers and symbols. In my dream I didn't question this as I should have but I new it wasn't right. I looked at the poster for a while and decided instead of taking it off the wall I screenshotted it. Not a camera, I just pressed start and pressed the screenshot button -_- Around this time is when my alarm went off waking me up.

I have been trying to go lucid about a month now and this may be my closest so far, thanks for reading.

00:00 Tuesday 2014-04-22

00:20

Took bodybuilding amino acid blend at bedtime as reported here: http://www.dreamviews.com/lucid-aids...ml#post2097555

It delivered wild and wacky and vivid late morning dreams and lucidity. Epic recall (yay, it's been a while). Long dream(s).

00:45 bedtime

06:00 woke with no recall, unusual, disappointed, thought the AA blend resulted in the first zero recall night in months.... Fall back asleep.

07:40 alarm

+ In parent's house (primary dream sign, missed it), I'm in my old room, I see TZ as a small girl carrying one of my sons's trophies about to throw it, I say "don't throw that!" she throws it anyway, I enter hallway and parent's bedroom following her, I kneel down and set her on my knee and take the trophy into my hand and explain to her that this is very valuable, I try to look at the bottom of the trophy to see which son it belongs to but there's no writing there, the trophy is like a strange piece of coral with many many spikey turrets on it and is white. I walk back through hallway and see MD standing there, I say "hi, how's it going" and walk on. Downstairs I hear my wife singing in my parent's living room with a crowd of people, I'm wearing just a bathrobe and it doesn't fit I'm trying to pull the opening together at my chest level, I walk through the back porch to avoid being seen by the new people there, I'm also wearing funny slippers, I encounter PZ at the door to the kitchen and say "hi" to her.

09:30

+ Observing some sort of auction, they're buying all of our stuff ("look, there goes the dresser!" "There goes our fancy display case!"). After it's over the managers of the auction are playing our piano, they've transformed it into a grand piano and I hear it is slightly out of tune, they're adjusting it. I'm in a room with my wife who says we should have sold all of our stuff directly instead of using a go-between, I tell her no the advertising and the shipping costs would have eaten away all the profits. We got 18% of the proceeds and I think this is a good deal considering all the expenses.

+ driving on a road trying to find a place to pull over it's in traffic not easy to do. Driving in to a public park there's a rec center there, go inside see what I think are handball courts, I imagine the game and go to watch it, the courts are full of swarthy little men they say no it's not handball it's <something>. Very strange/bizarre/frenzied action they're moving super fast manipulating little strange objects very quickly like a living pinball game sort of, I climb over the middle of a large game wheel that is outside of the handball courts in between their uses of it.

+ In a large room I'm trying to pick up some things that keep falling away from me, I think it's really frustrating and funny how they keep falling, eventually they fall into a small pile of sand and I see the things skink in to the sand out of my control/reach, I say "you've got to be kidding me!" I see the things sink slowly into the sand I can't stop them, I'm frustrated. I'm concerned about large plastic garbage bags filled with egg yolks suffocating me. I leave this area and meet with with some girl friends they're chastising me I say what can I do there was quicksand and suffocating bags of eggs!

Re-enter the large room and there's a maniac in there who has harnessed the power of the eggs and is terrorizing large groups of people. He's standing in the middle of the room on some sort of large contraption spewing out egg yolks and he's wielding its power. He summons and shoots a basketball-sized orange at me at high speed I manage to dodge it. He telepathically pins a group of people to the wall on the right with their arms up over their heads. He summons dozens of kitchen knives pointed at them and shoots them quickly aimed at their hands. I can't tell if the knives hit their hands or he just teases them by just barely missing their hands.

I go out the front door with 2 guys we plan to take him down, we're going to sneak up on him from the rear and hit him on the head. We're in the back area and sneak up on him and we see Harry Potter's wand on the ground, we grab it and regroup in the back room, we think after all that planning it was easy to grab the wand. It's a slightly bend small colorful tube (green?) wrapped in colorful electrical tape.

+ On a bus with people, we enter a mall. There's a large white building (parking garage?) overflowing with blackened tormented scary beings many of them holding swords at each level of the structure. Many of them are on the ground along the road as well (apparently in Hell?). I say out lould "Oh man I always hate coming here!" People on the bus agree.

Further along we approach a building and a couple of attractive but strange looking large birds (turkey sized) are jumping at the windows of the bus on the left side, we're amused by this, I say to the guy in the seat behind me "it's trying to kiss you!" the bus drives by.

We arrive at the rear exit to the museum a small glass-walled room with an automatic sliding glass door, I sneak quickly inside when someone exits. I'm thinking we can all enter this way. I try to prop the door open but a museum worker helps by jamming a stick into the mechanism, people from the bus enter the little room.

Water is falling down on us a woman says we should leave this area because it's raining, I say no, I see up above there is water falling through a grate I know this is a groundskeeper watering the plants on the level above us there is a stairway to go up to that level.

+ I see myself falling asleep (dream within dream) and seeing dream-dream imagery through my dream eyelids, I try to open my dream-dream eyes into the dream-dream but the images vanish and I'm "awake" back in the dream.

+ I'm walking through rooms, dropping coins, wife says not to do that, I tell her it doesn't matter because I'm dreaming, I open a door but first thing, "What's behind this door? A PARTY!" and open the door, look around, it's an almost empty white walled room I see behind the door (my wife?) is sitting on the ground against the wall (with a laptop?), the light is low but not really very dark, it's like a pleasant light from a single warm bulb on the ground. I'm laughing / happy, this is a GREAT game! I'm running I go to the other side of the room and ask her "What do you think is behind this door? A PARTY!" I open the door and there is indeed a party in there. Middle-aged women are around the room, well-dressed, in makeup, I'm looking for an attractive woman, I see some sitting on a couch, one has nice cleavage, I approach them and have two of them stand up next to me like I'm arranging some party activity, and bring the two together and I go to kiss the one on the left and wake up.

Lucidity low and basically no memory, not TOTM-worthy, but still quite fun. I think I was into and out of lucidity throughout much of the scenes above but don't really remember exactly when except right at the end there. There were earlier scenes, too, before the beignning of the recalled dreams.

Ok, I think I need to put a few things in writing to help me better focus on dream goals, ld induction, etc.

I. Dream scene change

- try at least 5 different scene change techs and improve on their efficiency

II. Dream place tourism

- visit interesting places (may include some of last year's toty locations)

III. Visualization

- visualize core set of objects and montly objects and perfect summoning in dreams

IV. Scene selection WILD/from scratch DILD

- enter dream with predetermined scene elements /location

V. Element manipulation

- improve element manipulation skills

VI. Thought/Self control

- practice mindfulness in dreams and manipulate self

VII. Complementary induction

A. Listen to personalized audio 300 times and comment on usefulness

B. Other induction techs (to be updated later)

Edit: corrected IV.

00:00 Monday 2014-04-21

in my lucid hideout. Glorious black of no city lights, utter silence around. Heaven. Just a bit chilly though.

00:43 bedtime

got lazy. Had a number of fun & wacky dreams and just kept building up their memories in my head from waking to waking instead of recording. I successfully kept them all until the last waking of the day when they almost all promptly vanished except the last one. Grrr!

09:59

+ interrupted a couple making out/doing it. Stuck my body into the action, directed the girl down to my (ahem) and she performed some brief oral.

(barely remembered the above...just had a strange nagging feeling: "Wait a minute, didn't I get a blowjob last night?")

+ sliding down the hills to the city below

+ swimming?

+ food / pizza?

+ I'm an assistant teacher to a class of kids. I'm goofing off all the time with other assistants. There's a girl with a ton of tattoos, and some other guys with me, we're singing and joking and ignoring the class. The principal (short man) and asst. principal (short woman) enter the class and chastise us. "Have you been teaching classical mechanics?" he asks? I avoid the question because the answer is obviously, "no." We get in trouble. I'm anguished about this because I think I've wasted a great opportunity, now how will I ever get another recommendation? I'm so concerned, I'm fiddling nervously with a telescoping antennae like from a walkie-talkie, extending it and collapsing it over and over again.

Then one of the assistants comes in saying "the <something> guy [a DC from earlier in the dream] is starting a band!" We whoop in excitement, I run giddily down a hallway, including sliding down a steep ramp, into the audition area where that guy is. I say I play the <my instrument> and can play chords and do some fingerpicking on guitar." I want to say I can play trumpet too (I can't ), just not very well. We're on a small stage getting ready for the audition. I can't find a music stand that works, I'm trying to pull one up but the stands are all on the floor. I look over the shoulder of the band-starting-guy at some sheet music propped up on a piano. I sing an ascending scale saying something funny "la-la-la-la-la-LA-LA COCOA PUFFS!" everyone cracks up. I'm cracking up too, except I find suddenly my mouth is full of food, I'm trying to tell people not to make me laugh so much because I may choke.

We're sudden in custody in a large building in some company, we're still in trouble from the school. There are a lot of people there. I say "friends don't turn friends over to custody at Cocoa-Puffs" [meaning the company that makes Cocoa-Puffs].

00:00 Sunday 2014-04-20

04:45 bedtime

I'm amazed I remembered anything, to bed about 6 hours late and slept for only for about 5 hours, had a few shots of scotch near bedtime.

+ Disc Jockey contest, the new guy vs. me, he has a new-DJ handicap where he can score points much more easily.

+ Throwing thermal detonators in a "jedi knight, dark forces II" themed battle in hallways & around corners, and detonating mines in a dream-incubated battle scene, wow that didn't take long [just started playing it 2 days ago to add some imagination, mix things up a bit, incubate light saber use in dreams].

+ battle swimming through water with another team, I pass them but they attack

+ at the milk products counter I hand in my yogurt and they pull a lid for it that fits out from under something in the display case, I was concerned they wouldn't accept it at first (wtf?)

+ a guy/kid jumps off a rock from a high place landing below and people run to see if he's hurt (dirt bike canyon diving incubation probably).

+ entering a grocery store turnstile

I just want to note that this has been the most amount of LD back to back for me in a week. I nearly had one LD a day, except for yesterday and today. I also had the worst dream recall for yesterday and today. And I am having hard time stabilizing but in time it will be ok.

For me in the future if I struggle to have a LD and for others that might want to try it.

To put it simple I get a LD passively. During the day while I think about LD and at night, I tell myself I might have a LD today, or I might not, but I want to remember my dream. I see LD as a gift from my subconscious mind, so when I have one it is special to me.

During the day as I walk in school, I try to do All day Awarness. Link: http://www.dreamviews.com/induction-...kingyoshi.html
I also act very curious. If I think something is strange I do a RC and I investigate. I would mess with objects as if it was a dream expecting it to do crazy things. After doing that I tell myself "next time I am dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming"

I do WBTB and I stay up for 1hr -2hr. I also noticed that I had LD around 5am, if I go to sleep at 8 and WBTB at 2 or 3, then I go back to sleep around 3-4.

I meditate before going back to sleep, some 10 min meditation on breath. I listen to my favorite music. Then I tell myself "the next thing I see is a dream" I say this until I go to sleep. I keep in mind that I may not have a LD but that I definatly want to remember my dream I also put myself in a slightly awkward position. First while listening to music I would be in the most position like on my belly with my hands at my side. Then I move my hands up in a nice comfortable position that could make it easier to fall asleep faster. This helps in making the last thought about dream.


-Re (4/26/14): I always think I got my mind figured but once I think I do, I realize I don't. Ld went down this week(4/20-4/26). There is just so much thing that can effect LD.

23:00 bedtime

00:00 Saturday 2014-04-19

05:07

+ LD #31 I find myself suddenly standing within a huge empty stone rectangular empty quarry like a huge pool, I knew this location was not possible to be in, and that just before I was somewhere else, and I could not be here now so I must be dreaming. No memory after that point, probably woke up. Didn't record at first, probably from earlier waking, remembered this at this (05:07) waking.

+ with wife in a rich neighbourhood talking about all the rich ladies, and how they played tennis so I told her she'd have to play tennis now, too. I make a comment with some numerical statistics (rate of higher education degrees of the lades in the neighborhood?) and a group of neighborhood rich women are walking by, my wife immediately goes up to one and says "my husband says <some numerical statistic> about you" I feel really embarrassed, but the woman thoughtfully stops and says something like "yes that's about right."

+ on a grassy hillside in the sunshine with rich people they're parting and drinking. There are picnic blankets spread out here and there. Suddenly it's like a movie fade/transition to the same scene some time later, my vision is all blurry and I think this is because I'm seeing the scene being drunk after having drunk for a while. Someone makes a comment about people's dirty butt cheeks wiping on the picnic blankets that explains why the blankets have become all crusty.

+ Introduction of a sidekick for a famous TV talk show host. He shows up and he's auditioning. He's standing right in front of me (inside a room in front of a window?), I see his face clearly and his hair he's kind of funny looking. He starts talking immediately and makes an improvised funny statement about some (rock band?) and some guy, I'm impressed by his cleverness. This is what he does on the show, me makes clever off-hand improvised remarks before the cut to commercial.

Then I see the "show" live. It's outside on a city street. A film crew is on my side of the street the "show" is on the other side, the sidekick guy is in his "place," which is standing out the ledge outside a first story window (his feet are about 5-6 feet above street level) with his back against the two-pane (upper/lower) window. I think that's a pretty uncomfortable spot to have to stand for the whole show and think it's pretty funny. He's been the good friend and partner of the talk show host ever since, for a long time.

The sidekick's name is something like "Ralph Michaels."

Looking through another window where the "show" sidekick is standing, I see people inside working like at a software company, a woman is standing and (facing the window and thus me) writing something on a transparent "white board," I see the marks she's making and I hear the sqeauk squeak squeak of the marker on the board. The a big fat guy come forward and starts talking and it's like a commercial for the company,

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Was very awake at this point. Was awake in bed for a while, decided might as well WBTB properly. Got up for water/bathroom, sat on the edge of the bed for a while, thinking about the dreams, deciding I should go back to bed and resolve to recognize my dreams. Ended up thinking for a while about some of the correspondence chess games I'm playing. Bad idea, kept me awake. Decided to completely let go and aim for sleep, as I only had about 1.5 hours left in the night before the alarms would be going off.

08:37

+ at work, I had a huge desk (2 meters wide by 1 meter deep at least), I had two desk phones on the left side of the desk otherwise it was mostly empty on top. I could see beneath the top covering of the desk some pattern like computer printed circuit cards. I receive a call on my phone I see the name on the caller ID I don't answer it but realize it was a guy I wanted to talk to. I make a call? I receive another call which I answer and there is a deep male voice there asking who it was just called him, I'm a bit confused I say it might have been me but it must have been a wrong number, sorry. I stand up and recognize a (real memory) former colleague walking by me, he does a slow big walking circle (counter clockwise) around my desk without stopping. I say "wow this company must be really big because I haven't run in to you for a long time. What are you working on these days?" His answer, something like "the graph system is close to working."

I enter the area behind my desk (to my back when I'm facing my desk) it is unlit and dark but it's not too hard to see. The area is filled with many rows of desks with computers and lots and lots of people, mostly kids and families, at the computers, they're all full, I'm frustrated because I need to use one of those computer systems the laptop on my desk isn't powerful enough for what I need to do, I say to my manager who's standing right there "with all the kids around I can't use any system."

There's a group standing there, I notice one older woman looks topless, she's stretching her arms up over her head and I notice an odd large nipple, it's not a pretty sight. I keep looking and she seems to be dressed the more I look.

There are girls around I notice, I grab one from behind with both my arms around her I think she's slightly trying to pull away at first. I turn her around hoping to see a pretty face and when she's facing me and I see her eyes I kiss her, I feel the familiar "zing" (adrenaline?) and fade quickly to awake.

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Lying in bed dozing after the alarms have gone off (I went back to sleep I realized while my wife went in to the shower), I felt very relaxed and saw jumbles of dark color blobs flashing before my eyes, which usually only happens when extremely fatigued and at bed time not waking time. I saw lots of HI / forming dreams. And one of them fully formed:

+ (lucid #32) I realize I'm in a formed dream. It looks like a hospital/medical room. I say "If this is a hospital then a cute nurse will come through that door right now". Right on cue, the door opens and a female nurse comes throutgh the door, and turns to the right and moves on. I get excited from my "wish" coming true and I wake up.

this is my first entry
Apr 18, I can't remember anything from last night. I tried some kind of Mantra and RC, I fell asleep quickly, when I woke up I immediately asked myself "What did I dream?", but there was no memory
I didn't expect much, as this is my first try after 2 and a half years.

now I will write down previous memories that might be important (2011)
Noteworthy recurring details:
big rooms and halls
locations I know with a little change (eg: there's a river instead of a street, clover instead of grass, etc)
open terrain (streets, fields, nature, outside), rarely rooms (if so, normally big rooms)
perspective: It's like I don't have a body, only flying eyes. Pretty passive, normally only observing things. The only dreams in which I had a body were pretty intense/vivid (almost lucid), I normally don't smell/feel/taste, only in intense dreams

I just read my old DJ from 2011 and 2012 and noticed I dreamed less often than I thought.
My quantity record on a day was 4 dreams. My quantity record in a week was about somewhere between 5 and 10 dreams, even though I never dreamed more than 4 days a week and never more than 3 days in a row
it took me pretty long to get a better recall, which is a bit demotivating, but I might learn quicker this time, because I was already able to remember my dreams fairly good (for my standards, I guess I was never good)

> Trying to follow a ship by holding a mouse cursor over it as it went in directions that a normal ship just wouldn't go (It moved as if it was a kite) I eventually tried to make the ice chest containers I was navigating lighter by emptying some of the fluids from the ice packs and water from the chests that came in; The tops were open.

Later I was in front of a Walmart and someone passed by and asked me what I had in the ice pack. I just said "Stuff" And he crushed my salad, Then tried to walk away and I said "Oh no, We're going to the security office" or something and grabbed his clothes and brought him in with me and I got another salad pack.

> The Background Pony from MLP: FIM called "Cherry Berry", While in my kitchen, Was trying to talk to someone over the phone about something she ate that the other person was not understanding. She also said she ate a miniature sun and I can imagine it was about the size of a cherry.

BTW, Off-topic but why are some cherries green?

(Why did I tag this as "Following my life"?)

4.16.14

Last night bed around 8:20 - 1:50 am

Came home from work at 7am, talked a bit on skype, then took a nap 11:25am-3:48pm

Had a very long and detailes dream with OpheliaBlue.

I'm kinda getting used to this 3am work thing. I have one more day of this, then 3 days of 6am. Don't know my next week schedule yet.

Disappointed with GM though. Took 2x4mgs + 2x300mgs of choline. Not a thing. My head feels normal, no bubbing sensation or headrush or anything. My gm could be getting old.

Night of 4/15/14

Dream 1:
(I've been watching 30 rock)

fragments:
there was a meeting with liz
miss mahoney was wearing a bra that shot out sparks (not electrical, like fireworks)

Dream 2:

In a cafeteria
My lunch is ruined- i left it on a table and someone sabotaged it
a friendly lunch man makes me more lunch and makes sure it is very satisfactory

I see a girl im into
close friend decides to go for her instead

Dream 3:

bible school (childhood trauma, what?)
really boring

*****

went into some sort of FPS mode
everybody was shooting at each other
I was shootin up fools
water surrounding a tower inside, it was dark
Went outside, FPS mode gone


*****
Went into different inside area, can't remember how I got there


*Usually when I go lucid i say out loud that it is a dream*
*In this case I just felt kinda lucid*
*Felt strange transitioning into lucidity, like there was little change*

*****

was in a building with church people
I wanted to sex up a girl
People would always invade space.
There was very little control
I tried to build a wall and door with a closed door
failed

They said if I wanted to have sex it would need to be with a family member
I loose control over the dream, (who wouldn't in that scenario?)

*****

23:30 bedtime

00:00 Wednesday 2014-04-16

I tried RILD (rhythmic WILD) with swimming motion a few times through the night but either I'm not tired enough or don't do it long enough, or too many distractions so it doesn't seem to work. Set alarms for every hour starting from 04:00, I notice two of them, turn them off entirely at 06:00 since I'm feeling really tired and not well rested. Alarm includes a buzz which with the phone under my pillow is quite jarring. I don't like alarms! Have to get intention to wake up working again.

Very low awareness with the exception of the mask/mirror/kitchen scene where I feel like "me" but with no memory at all.

06:01

(dreamtime around 01:30)

+ in hotel/motel with wife, she says let's go home for two days, I wonder about keeping our reservation while we're away. Pulling out onto the road in the car (I'm driving), there's a sign across the street about it being disallowed to pick the flowers.

(dreamtime not sure? 03:00 - 04:00?)

+ break up a fight between kids, outdoors suburban environment lots of trees around. One kid is sitting down with his back against (a tree/wall). It is the young face of a boy scout from my old troop. I study his face, I see it entirely very very clearly. He is wrinkling his face up a bit then stops. Thinking about (someone says?) how faces change during adolescence, he has that funny "adolescent" nose, somewhat out of scale with his face. I focus closely on his face skin, it becomes textured and crusty like tree bark, I see the crust fairly closely, including the edge of the crust, like it's a layer on top of his normal face.

Inside the house there are groups of kids we're detaining for some reason.

I get into a shower with one athletic shoe on (right foot) to wash it. I have clothes on, I notice my t-shirt The shoe is very uncomfortable once it's wet, I'm looking at that wet shoe on my foot and flexing my foot/toes within the wet shoe.

Outside in the garden we're talking about the car -- should it go for maintenance service to the shop or should we try to fix it ourselves?

+ playing basketball with black kids on a professional / college court in a stadium

+ Outdoors/daytime/tree-lined city streets. I have my dog (as a puppy) in my hands and I put him in a basket in my "car" (which is like a child's wagon or toy pedal car) to take him home. Across the street to the left I see a small young girl alone/crying walking on the sidewalk like she's lost. I get out of the car and go to her, I pick her up and walk back along the sidewalk, find her mother, give the child to her, the child is like a doll, and seems to be made from two slices of steak.

I return to my car, and my dog is gone. I look through the basket I put him in several times and confirm he's gone. I walk through the neighborhood looking for him I see lots of other dogs. Look for dog in apartment complex on hill, find girl in apartment with her dog, girl and I connect? I get the idea she will not commit.

+ I'm holding a large complex tall rubber mask. There are fitted eye slits in the mask, I pull off the covers of the eye slits they're covered by a thin filmy squishy sort of wet gel, I put down the wrinkled gel covers on the counter and look at them for a while. I put the mask on my face and look in the mirror. I adjust the mask so my eyes show out through the eye slits, it looks fairly creepy with my "staring" eyes looking out of the mask. There is a tall green rubber part of the mask that must be put on over your head. My dad didn't want to put on the mask.

I'm standing behind parent's stove (not possible as in WL it's against the wall), my mom wants me to cook the french fries I'm very confused about what she wants me to do, I see little bins of spices and ingredients right under my face next to me on the back of the stove, I see strange shaped and sized cooking pans and a container of about 20 french fries, doesn't seem like there's much to cook.

+ in car with folks in downtown B near U I drive off the curve onto the street but the car does not bounce too strongly, I miss the last right turn and the remaining streets are all left one way only so I'm going to have to go way around the blocks to the left to get where we need to go

+ fight against transformers (low quality cartoon visual of opponent robots), my team wants to run when they see them, I am confident and run into battle, I jab a power staff into the ground strongly and this blasts all the enemies. I enter a room right there through a glass wall, I know the pillow cat we're looking for is there, I ignore it, the people are abstract and made out of inflatable pillow/cushions on a bed, I grab a "girl" being, turn her over, and run my tongue in a circle around where it's "mouth" should be, and around its "girl parts."