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I don't recall my dreams from last night, beyond that my mother was in them. At one point, I woke up because I felt cold. I know I had dreams... I just can't recall them. This has happened a few nights this week. It's weird for me, because my dream recall is usually pretty good.

Maybe as I go through the day, I'll remember and then edit this post.

Edit: I recalled the dream as I was eating dinner.

I dreamed I went to eat at an old buffet restaurant with my brother and mother. It was ugly, with lots of cheap wood paneling and muddy-looking murals of pine trees. The carpet was a sort of ugly beige pattern. The interesting thing about the chain was that it was a combo buffet/ "real" restaurant, so there was also a regular menu in addition to the buffet, but nobody ever really went there for anything but the buffet. So, they had regular servers, but very rarely did anybody order off of the dinner menu.

My mother was commenting on how they couldn't keep servers there because they only paid the server minimum wage (servers make an average of $3 per hour in many states in the US because it's expected that their tips will make up the rest) and most people didn't tip their servers at buffets/tip enough, because they didn't feel like their server "did enough".

I don't remember if the food was any good. If I don't remember... I guess not.

Honestly, I have no idea what it was. I think it was an unintentional WILD but for the most part the experience was identical to my previous DEILD experiences.

So, I was woken up by my mother at 5:30. She thought I had school today, but I didn't (I had forgotten to tell her that we didn't have school today) so she went to go do some things. I considered doing a more proper WBTB but I was tired so I didn't bother and I went back to sleep. I feel like at some point I had lost consciousness and went to sleep, but the next thing I knew, I was aware (with my eyes closed) and a green and blue spiral was in front of my eyes, identical to my previous two DEILD experiences. I heard a very heavy and turbulent wind blowing around me (think of a strong wind during a storm near the sea; that sort of whistly wind). I immediately noticed what was happening and that I could enter a lucid dream, so I tried to imagine a generic tropical island. For a brief moment, the green and blue swirl faded away and I felt (and "saw" through my eyelids but i'm nearly certain this was a hallucination) an intense, warm light on my face and the turbulent wind stopped, but after a couple moments the wind picked back up and the swirl came back. I tried imagining the tropical island again, and soon I entered a dream, barely lucid.

I was not in my body, yet I could still see. I had absolutely no control over myself at this point, but I was hovering around a tiny ice-covered island dotted with penguins, getting a view of the whole thing before I was taken close to my own body stumbling in some snow (sort of like my first DEILD, where I hovered around a zelda-style dungeon as my mind generated it and my consciousness zoomed back into my body at the entrance when it was done). I looked at myself from a short distance away, and I thought to myself that I had to keep my awareness up. I rubbed my hands together quickly and focused on the heat it generated (bizarrely enough it was fairly warm on the polar island). My consciousness zoomed back into my body. I began to explore the island on foot, but unfortunately my awareness and recall started tanking and I lost lucidity. I can't recall what happened, but I do remember the end of the dream; I was looking for food on some sort of a futuristic base in a jungled area whilst fighting off aliens or something.




What surprises me most is that this resembled my previous two DEILDs a lot, especially the first one. In the first one, I saw the blue-green spiral and heard a turbulent wind. This eventually died down, after which I heard a very friendly feminine voice close to my face saying "Wake up, [name]. Wake up. Can you hear me? Save me..." after which I "asked" to be taken to a dungeon to conquer. Then, as I explained above, I saw the dungeon being generated from a distance without my body or control of my body and my consciousness zoomed back into my body when it was finished. In the second one, I saw the blue-green spiral (so far it has been identical every time, the only time I had a different visual hallucination was in this one when I saw the bright light) and heard and felt the wind, though this time it sounded vaguely magical and it felt like it was spiraling as if it were a hurricane. I imagined a jungled island like I did now, and my (real) eyes opened and I saw my bedroom as if it had been jungleified. I tried to examine it more closely, but it became my real room and I was fully awake.

Very strange how the spiral and the wind crops up every time... I wonder if it could mean something. I'm not sure if this was DEILD or WILD but I don't really care much.

Woke up from a lucid dream and told myself that I will be lucid dreaming then I ended up in front of a computer typing up something but dream faded I am going to start working on dream stabilization techniques since I have become lucid like 4 times in the past week.

LUCID
*I remember telling him hey you should stay lucid in the dream always. He didn't want to because it was to intense he choose to be in a state of non lucidity. Then I started to fly showing him how this was. I flew with great precision and composer. I floated above him thinking I will always watch over him.

NON LUCID
*My brothers old girlfriend was so happy to see me that she gave me a hug and didn't let me go. I thought ok you can let go now kind of weird being that I am not attracted to my brothers girlfriend at all. She was with her friend who looked just like her and was kind of cute. Then I noticed Thrangu Rinpoche who is a great master. I sat next to him and bowed with out really knowing what to say.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer, where i was moving around some green floating platforms and moving crates to make bridges appear. One of bridges was glitchy and worked in reverse.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was talking to somebody and we had some disagreement, suddenly various enemies from serious sam series started appearing and it turned into video game and i've had to fight my way through some rooms using double shotgun. There was one room with kleer skeletons being stuck in decorations. Then suddenly as i enter one of rooms i am back at home, i notice that there"s someone glitch-stuck in the wall and i feel that i am dreaming, i try to stabilize but dream fades out.

Dream 3:

I was playing some shmup that looked like something of Exceed series, closer to Exceed 3rd. There was a boss fight and boss was moving around the screen releasing easily dodgeable circular spread of red projectiles. Then boss suddenly releases dense circle f white projectiles, which i have to bomb, then i defeat the phase and boss moves to next one. Next one goes very similar to one Exceed 3rd extra boss pattern with 3 projectiles creating spinning waves of smaller projectiles. Then next pattern boss starts releasing alot of red projectiles by sides, walling down, and then semi-aimed walls of triangle projectiles. it gets ridiculous but i manage to dodge. Then last pattern goes off with circular projectile spam. I defeat the boss and message box with dragon talking appears and says that i should try higher difficulty level or something like that.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was looking out of window and noticed a brown dragon behind a tree.

Last night in dreaming I visited the dream school I used to attend. Things were somewhat in disrepair. There were new people that I didn't know, and a dark being that didn't belong there. A dreamfriend of mine took care of the dark one. New construction was going on, which I believe will bring wondrous new experiences. I am entereing this new phase by meditation on the sound current.

I've spent the last two years successfully manifesting what my previous dreaming brought me. Now it's time to return to dreaming for what is to come next.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was going through some dungeon.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was at some school place and there was something about magic, and then library.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was observing story in a world, which while being based on minecraft was not blocky. There was some kind of catastrophe and a pair of people were hiding in a semi-destroyed house trying to survive, then they rebuild it and notice lava under house. Then in some different place on the cliffside, griefers become invisible and punch someone passing by off the cliff.

Dream 4(fragments):

I was playing some fps game and there was a mission in the city. There was some enemies and i fought them using some weapons, mostly usual guns, then i was low on ammo and two enemy planes appeared. I waited out and they had bad AI, they ended up flying into each other. Ground enemies still kept coming though.

I just had to laugh - in my workbook I had been announcing to have had noted down a first dream - and I did - but I managed to write with pencil over a page, where there was already text in pencil..

This might take some deciphering - or not be possible, because it was some hardly readable criggle as well.
I have to say - it was more so the night before last night - so I didn´t wite on DV at all then - the topics and interactions with my DC´s are getting more complex and more down to the core of my person, it seems.
Very personal things.

What I could do is keep the general outline and describe some stories within the stories, which I deem relatively "harmless" for public consumption.

I´ll do that with the second dream.

I also came across a thread of BrandonBoss, who provided the following mask - I will use it better adapted for tonight´s dreams - for now:

Date: 05.11.13
Total sleep: 9.5 h (3 am - 12:30 am)
Daytime Techniques: taking oddities but also random times, when something ever reminded me to ponder, how I and reality were influencing each other - how I was really there and then and thinking 10 min. back about the same.
Lucid Techniques: no - didn´t "want" to (??)
Recall Techniques: criggling notes in between dreams, posting snippet, workbook and in here
Fell Asleep: before the second dream started - maybe at 10 am
Dream Title: first one - lost - second one: Buying a Flat in Munich
Dream:
I was living in Berlin, but visiting Munich to go ahead and buy a flat together with a guy I did not know, but he was there to meet me later, and a friend from school had arranged the contact. No idea, why and how I thought, I had the money - I was still a student in my understanding and apparent age - there even was a short episode of me pondering this - there was a slight insecurity, if I really could do it - but everybody else seemed to think so..
A beautiful art nouveau house - not in good care though.
And opposite the "Hofbräuhaus" - hilarious - that´s the most famous beer-brewery + pub in Munich - neither it nor the area looked like it is in reality - but not far away either.
That made me think - great - if somebody visits me from out of Bavaria - they are going to find it for sure..
I arrived early - and found that a friend of mine from Latvia was squatting there by coincidence.
He´s been doing this in Berlin in the past, when this was a common phenomenon in Berlin after the wall fell, and lots buildings were derelict..

Later the school-friend and the guy arrived - and two more people - very much later an ex of mine as well.
I will leave out the personal interactions, but we had actual conversations and interactions, that did make - at least partly - quite a lot of sense and were almost pure positive - that´s rare, as far as I remember..

The interaction with the people was besides the scenery - why I liked the dream so much.

Hole in the story - but not my memory..

Yeah - not much more on offer - only - the flat was having 6 rooms - one was a normal room with a bathtub in the floor etc. - and it was still having stuff from the owners before (probably died - it was stuff you imagine old people have still from around the time of WWI - beautiful chests and jewellery and books..
In between I got a little lost in some gathering-together what I like - but I got off it..
Yeh - and more and more exits and surroundings were accessible - like a meadow and a shore to the river or a rocky path leading into further meadows and woods from a small window, a cafe, which could be reached over a gallery around the front of the house..

Awake: twice in between dream two with maybe max. 10 min. and twice non-lucid re-entry into dream 2 - and finally got up 12:30
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 11
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) hm - non-lucid - otherwise I would say - really quite aware and stuff very logical, actually; not acquainted to think along this 1-10 of awareness there - maybe a 7?
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) It felt like a day from a bit before noon to maybe 9 pm
Emotions: a bit of worrying and a bit of being unsure how to react to offers/statements I received - but mainly happy, looking forward, feeling sympathy and a bit more, wondering and liking what I saw
Dream Signs: Only planned in this case but - removals - but first time about actually buying something to live in and no problems - well - almost none with getting stuff sorted
Friends from school involved shortly
An ex-boyfriend arriving late at the scene
A city I used to live in
A flat and the surrounding country/city not following logics a lot

Someone "mugged" me, and told me to give him things of value from my house. I gave him some coffee filters, but it wasn't enough for him so he started hassling me. I attacked him, but it dawned on me that he probably had a knife. He dislocated his shoulder trying to slash me with the knife, so that was problem resolved for me. I went about my business as usual.

In my dream I signed up for a class that was training for a triathlon, organized by our church. I thought it would be too tough for me, but signed up anyway.

The first part involved jogging. The second part involved an obstacle course with tall obsticles. The third part involved sex.

I dreamed about abandoned, crumbling, overgrown overpasses and train tracks through the wilderness. I clung to the bottom of one, like monkey bars. Some friends and I went into the wilderness to explore, but we were afraid of getting lost. We ran across another group of people. In our explorations, we cut through a lot of grass and underbrush, and I was worried about the impact we were having on the landscape.

I then dreamed that I got a job at a shop in a historic section of a city. It was a job at a candy shop, and it was partly commission-based. My mother didn't want me to take it. She said the area was "too dangerous".
I was at the outside cafe section of a nearby restaurant when I went lucid. The restaurant was inside of a converted Victorian style house. When I realized I was dreaming, I immediately went inside to look for a specific DC I really wanted to see. I didn't see him. Instead, there was a waiter who was in his late 30s but mostly bald. I covered my eyes and tried to imagine that he was the DC. When I uncovered them, he had changed a little bit; his face had morphed, and was a little blurry, and tufts of hair were coming out of the side of his head, and he looked a little... melted. I got very frustrated.
I recall that my surroundings were hazy. I recall the restaurant having a lot of dark wood in its decor, and being a fine dining/upscale sort of place.

Review:
I think I went lucid because I realized the area I was in was unfamiliar and I did not recall how I got there, and this was a cue that I was dreaming. I have also just randomly gone lucid a lot out of "habit" - I am used to habitually questioning reality, now, so I also do it while I am dreaming as well, which I suppose is the whole point of ADA. This has led to a gradual but measurable increase in lucid dreams. Three years of practice are finally paying off.

For anybody who is just getting started, remember this: it took a year and a half of trying before I had my first lucid dream.

I need to work on remembering to stabilize and observe before trying to do anything. I've been frustrated at the haziness of my lucids lately, but I also have not been observing and stabilizing as I ought to. I need to work on vividness and stabilization. I miss the beautiful landscapes of my first few lucids... I've stopped observing and gotten too impatient, and it's backfiring.

I try too often to exert direct control. I think my attempt to change the waiter may have been a tad too direct. I still wouldn't call it a complete failure - I did succeed at partially changing his features.

Things I could have done:
- Asked the waiter to seat me, sat down at the table, and waited for the DC I was trying to find to show up at the time we'd agreed on.
- Continued to look for the DC in the crowd.
- Looked for the table that I knew the DC was waiting at.
- Used the restaurant doorway to go somewhere that I knew the DC was at (scene change).
- Reached behind myself and felt for the DC's hand.

So, tonight will be another night - and hopefully, another lucid. I need to remember to use my environment to my advantage.

[LUCID]
[NON-LUCID]

Got thrown out and back to the body several times ... cannot stay still in one scene

First and 2nd and 3rd scene happened in a room - not my room - no idea where it was .. but it was kind of old and had marks on the wall ...

4th scene decided to see something else outside no more in a room - so I saw myself on the sand near the beach . me alone . clear sky but looked like almost rain .... didn't know what to do so decided to "fly" up into the sky again but made me wake up ....

Felt sweat over body 'cause of too many attempts to AP/LD so decided not to do any more

~> drag back to some dream , with my mother in the dream but forgot the details through out the day ...

My dream started with me waking in my home. It was one of those dreams that feel so real, you don't question things. I walk into the kitchen and start trying to lift things with my mind. I would extend my hand, then exert some force, and I could get some objects to shake. I played around a bit,, excited about my new found powers.

There were 3-4 other people in the room, friends of mine. I put my hands on one of their shoulders, and made my body fly up so I was hand-standing there. Eventually I figured out how to keep gravity the direction I wanted it, at least for a bit, and spent time lying on the ceiling. It took some effort to stay up though.

I then learned of a school rumored to help people like me learn to use their powers. I was suspicious, but decided to go to it. Some of my friends tried to dissuade me, but I went.

I met someone from the school out front of it. It was in the middle of a field of tall grasses, golden yellow in the November sun. He brought me passed a gate, small wooden one connected to a low fence like you would see around a garden. I probably could have stepped over it (I"m 6'4") or flew, but it felt impassible and I felt trapped. I was taken into a prison like school. We stayed in cells most of the day, had a 2 meals a day and a recreation time. That's it. And we couldn't leave.

I made friends with the cook, a big African man who prepared lunch. I overheard him talking to himself in Japanese, and when I went to get my food, asked for it in the same language. He was surprised and we bonded over our shared language. (The cafeteria only offered sushi, which was the only bright spot about being there.)

After a short time (Though I felt days had passed) I went out into the yard alone, and something strange was happening. There was a strange purple light, and the plants were growing bigger in a twisted kind of way. I debated just leaving and hoping it would give me an opportunity to escape, but the plants felt ominous, and I decide I couldn't leave them.

I focused and somehow was able to cut off the source of the strange light, and turn things back to normal. (Whenever I used any of my powers, it felt like I had a muscle I never new I had somewhere in me that I was using, or possibly a part of my brain.)
I ran inside and told them I was leaving. I talked to the cook, and he decided to come with me. We went into the tall gold field, and up to the fence. We then opened a large gate I had never seen before and left.


Thats the end of what I remember, but I found it very interesting that I was using abilities that I had wanted to learn to use in my Lucid dreams. Lifting things, changing gravity (Flying is natural for me, but I've never sat on the ceiling before) ect. I just Kind of wish I had become lucid, but if I had, I would have gotten less practice, and my dreams don't last as long when I'm Lucid. Yet.

The last few days I haven't been able to remember many dreams. Two nights in a row were just empty, and then one morning I woke up remembering 5+ dreams, and the next night after that came out empty again.
But this morning a few minutes after I awoke, I recalled my digital watch in a dream (very white simple watch. Very easy to remember and I thought it would be great to use for dreams.) In the dream I checked the time, and then re-checked it, and I realized the time had changed!

Woop!

Instead of doing something smart like checking out where I was or doing cool stuff, I kept checking my watch. I made up numbers in my head and made them appear on my watch, again and again. I thought it was so cool. I'm dreaming!! Yay!

I've done this TWICE now, just checking out my number-changing watch. The first time (a couple of weeks ago or something) I think I was too excited and simply disappeared from the lucid dream into another dream. In the second, last night, I was definitely conscious a lot longer.

Next, I'll try to turn my head! I sometimes think I might just be too dumb when I'm dreaming :p

I was a character designer working in a room with a long table with other people involved in the process. We are pitching ideas, though at this point we don't have an idea what the project is. I start doodling on a sketch, and it was to be a generic male lead of an adventure story to start. That's when the producer(?) says something like "no no... we need to go back to classic Alan Grant."

So now, my brain retcons things, and our project is designing Jurassic Park 4, and I'm supposed to decide the look Sam Neil's character is going to be. I free hand Alan Grant with a pen (Dream me is ridonkulously good at drawing, it looks like): He's flying side ways shooting a pair of pistols like he's in Hot Fuzz, and he's wearing his original outfit from the first Jurassic Park movie, only with bandoleers across his chest and holsters. His head is also over-sized, so it resembles one of those mall caricature kiosk drawings. The producer loves it (because he's a goddamned frat boy idiot, I guess). This dream fades.

Dream two had me in a government/military/agency building as some sort of mid-ranked officer(?), and I am feeling detached/disillusioned (at the time of this dream, I felt really disillusioned about my job as well). I'm in a classroom, and there are some college age students/cadets in there just hanging out.

My friend R, who is an actual teacher in Spain right now, comes in. He gives me a big bear hug (totally his M.O.) and kisses me on both cheeks, European style (this part I'm guessing he picked up from Spain). I ask him, "shouldn't you be in Spain?" and he says he's just visiting. I'm assuming this is my brain covering my tracks, and with more practice, I can pick up on these things more quickly. He sits in a desk near the corner of the room, on the opposite end of the wall sharing the door, and I sit next to him on the floor and lean against the wall.

We chat a bit, and the instructor appears. The room is suddenly filled with students. My friend T's younger sister, G, appears, and gives me a report -- apparently, there is a situation with whatever group it is that I am working for. But she also just settles down with R and me (so much for the situation) while the instructor lectures the class.

At one point, the instructor stops his lecture so he can call out Fat Neil (from Community). He seems agitated that Fat Neil is eating a tub of Tang! powder straight, and they have a brief exchange that's something like this:

"Do you know what that stuff is?!"

"Yes sir, it's just sugar and orange flavoring."

"Right. And it's not good for you. There's no vitamins."

At this point, the instructor confiscates the Tang! powder, and gives Fat Neil a tub of what I think it Protein Powder. Fat Neil resumes eating powder.

Suddenly, I realize that the walls are filled with gadgets and blinking likes, kind of like a supercomputer from out of a 60's Bond movie. The the dream got fuzzy before it fades.

(I really debated whether or not to record part three here; but it's so fucked up, I decided, eh, what the hell?)

Dream three is weird. I'm in a room, and I'm sitting in a chair. Sitting in a similar chair with me is someone that resembles my friend J, but it feels like it's a clone of her. We are just hanging out like we usually do, when suddenly she reaches into her purse and pulls out a device. She goes "check this out!" and puts said device to use. We continue chatting like normal, as if nothing happened, before I woke up.

For the people who are able to read between the lines, no, it was not one of those dreams; but I do find it uproariously funny because we have an ongoing "let's see who can gross out/make each other uncomfortable more" contest in real life, and a) this may be my trump card, and b) she has told me so many similar stories along those lines that after I woke up, my reaction was "Hmm. Yeah, that seems like something she'd do."

Also, nothing recorded for Nov. 5, and for Nov. 6, I can only vaguely recall that I was in the city, and I really wanted to help or save someone.