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#239 - SSILD/DEILD

I am walking outside with someone. This is something about my shoes and some concern or worry. I realise I was doing SSILD cycles and decide this is a dream but at that moment the scene collapses and I have a false awakening.

I am uncovered and cold and I try to make myself move but I feel really weak and tired. I grab for my DJ but I can't summon the energy to type. My wife wakes up and tells me not to worry and she will do it for me. She takes my device and gets ready. She waits for me to tell her but I can't seem to understand why she doesn't just know. It's all me after all. I become lucid again but fell like I am waking up for real this time.

I lay still and wait for some visuals to come but realize my body feels really odd. My DEILDs and WILDs usually go one of two ways. Visual or physical. This time is seems all physical. Small vibrations start and I focus in on it. This time the vibrations went to a whole new level. Instead of buzzing and tingling it really felt like a powerful wind blowing at me from my right side. I tried moving but really couldn't yet. I noted the sensation was only on my face and upper body and I felt like I could move my feet but I wasn't sure if it was real or dream. The sound and feel of the wind was completely realistic and a little frightening. I wondered if some entity was beside doing something crazy. I forced myself to stay calm and relaxed as possible but my body felt like it was going to roll over on my wife. After a moment I let it happen. I felt my face rest on her bosom and as much as I enjoyed that I decided that's not what this dream was going to be about. I push up with my arms and feel myself standing up.

I am standing in my living room and bright daylight. I am pleased there is no darkness this time but I feel a little unstable. I rub my hands and stoop to feel the hardwood every few steps on my way outside. Once I reach the front porch the dream is stable and mostly vivid. I remember my goal to somehow board the USS Enterprise and take command as Captain.

I look around and see that my house is nestled in the middle of a cluster of beautiful pines trees. I enjoy the view of it for a second but it's ruined when I realize there's other houses and buildings nearby. Time to move on. I tap my communicator badge on my shirt and it lets out the correct corresponding chime. I say, "Kirk here..." I pause because my voice is not my own. It sounds really artificial and funny; close to Shatner but in a goofy sort of way. I speak again tapping my badge, "My voice if funny... Kirk here." I try several times but never get any response. I think, "OK secondary goal" and begin walking down a street.

I reach at my waist to pull out a light saber. The feel and sound of oblige my intention by there is nothing in my hand. I try again really expecting to see a long blade of light but the effect is the same. I look around thinking maybe I could find one. I see a metal trash can next to a tree with a toy lightsaber in it. I start to reach for it but on closer inspection it looks fat and clunky. I suppose in hindsight it would have worked but at the moment I think its all wrong. I think maybe if I could find a rock that is close to the shape of the hilt I could transform it. I quickly pick something up. The shape and wieght of it feels about right. I begin to think about transforming this but something makes want to me turn around.

I realize I am standing in the street and a large bus is speeding toward me. Feeling invincible, I center myself in the street and stand facing it defiantly with both hands on my hips. After a moment I realize the bus isn't going to stop or even slow down. I laugh a little to myself wondering if I will phase through or if I will get stuck on the front like a bug. I feel a hard but painless impact. When I noticed my face stuck the grill I decided I was the bug. I roll over to see the traffic in front of me but the dream is starting to collapse. I focus to visualize and dimly see a traffic like and a few vehicles in front of me but it doesn't want to hold together. I decide to bail. When my feet hit the ground I realize that I the buss was moving pretty fast and my inertia causes me to fall. I roll over on my back and feel the gross but painless feeling of road rash. I let myself flip over a few times and as I am rolling I see a dark blue sky with white steaks almost like some sort of warp speed.

After a moment I gather my senses and stand up. I see that I am on some side street with several cars parallel parked next to me. There are tall buildings and parking meters. The scene reminds me of downtown Kansas City. Then I see the bus at the end the street slowly passing by. I feel pissed at when had happened and want to stop that bus somehow. I see brown truck parked next to me. It's small like a S10 or Ranger. I grab it at the tail gate, lift it over my head and hurl it toward the bus. The distance must have be 50 yards and I thought it was going to miss. Luckily it smacks the rear end of the bus and the driver freaks out. Somehow he swerves back my direction but manages to roll the buss before he reaches me. I see a break in the metal and actually see people inside. There is a man suspended upside down in his seat by a seatbelt. It must have been the driver but I wasn't sure. He looked panicky and in a lot of pain but I could only see minor scraps and bruises. I walk up to him and say, "Don't be such a pussy." I reach forward and push the button to release his seat belt. The dream goes black at that point and I wake up.

I have several other dreams where I became lucid but I woke up right away. One of those dreams I was able to DEILD again. I atempted another physical transtion and began spinning with my arms out. The feeling was exhilarating but lasted only a few seconds.I became distracted by a distorted sound and focus in on it until the sound became clear and less distorted. It took several seconds before I realise its my box fan. I am wide awke.

110313*+ 11 ~4? time chg SSILD WILD patience. "The next time I see , I am dreaming!" (and I mean really see not just images flashing by). Fragment remembered when getting up to go to the bathroom involved a group and making sure that everyone is showing that they are thankful. I walk around a little bit go back to bed and think about new goals since I hit one of my biggest short term ones but I didn't make any of the goals real concrete so need to work on that. Anyway I was patiently laying in bed not the least bit worried getting to sleep- maybe a few times and put it out of my head. After a while I feel like I am about to enter the dream state and I get what I assume now were just convincing HH's of my wife getting out of bed probably to go to the bathroom I assume. Since I feel like I'm almost there I try to will myself out of bed and it seems like I can't move out I do get the sense that can rotate parallel to the bed in my sideways position laying
on my side and I began to rotate and it feels like fun and then I think this feels like a rollercoaster and I imagined I really long dive on a coaster and before I knew it I am flying along holding on to the rails of a rollercoaster kind of like my hands became rollers on the track I am enjoying going up and down the roller coaster. Is one of those coasters where you're hanging below the track. Is daytime and it is just incredible when I reach the bottom and the track is getting ready to go back up I release and start flying over a beautiful cream landscape feels like suburban area there's a lot of green rolling hills but there is also plenty of activities cars driving on their way to wherever. This was one of my new goals I thought about when I'm back to bed I wanted to see crowds of DCs is it seems like they're usually just small groups of people in my lucid dreams. I'm focusing on one particular truck like a big cargo truck just too see what the DC
is doing and the truck has an accident and flips over upside down and I think no not interested in seeing what an accident victim looks like in a dream and I continue flying.But then I hear sound from my bathroom that I thought was waking life...I feel some vibrations...and I even thought I sensed the light was on in the bathroom but it seems like so long ago that my wife seemingly got up but it was just a false awakening. FA continued: When she came back towards the bed I asked her where she was for so long and she said that she had to go to the store to buy some medicine and I looked at the clock and it was something like 130 in the morning (in the dream, it was really much closer to 530 or 630 IWL according to the time I actually woke up later). I ask why would you go at this time of the night? And then I started looking for my dream journal to record the incredible lucid experience I just had and it was missing. Ask my wife did you do something
with my papers over there. Where is it? My wife threw it away. Where is it...is it actually gone? And I start imagining all of the journal entries that may be forever lost. I feel heartbroken. She asked me does it give you release before your games? I said yes okay so do you still have it? Then Girl Friday appears to my right completely naked mostly with her back to me (I included her in my new goals also) . Her body looks so beautiful. I realize it's a dream! I start to hold her and we both move towards the bed but now the room seems different . We're kissing and touching each other enjoying each others naked skin and at some point I'm looking at her face and I realize how incredibly vivid and beautiful her face is and then she starts acting strange as if she doesn't know what is happening. We have our tongues in each others mouths and she pushes mine back out with her tongue and I think that is strange, look on her face is strange and I wake up. When
thinking about what just happened I was obviously exhilarated I also wonder what happened at the end there and with my mind running wild it made me question if only for half a second whether or not we were both and some shared dream experience and she realized hell real or weird it was and have that reaction. One of the other goals is to continue the second part of traveling above the earth and continue on to the moon for some fun. I also thought it would be cool to fly around over to Paris or some other places around the world. I also remembered what I wanted to be able to freeze group of DC's in time while I continue to be able to walk around like in the old Twilight Zone episode.

I am walking up to this door on the other side of this beach house sort of mansion or resort and I open this door and this girl hands me some clippers to shave which then I turn around and theres a mirror and I didnt look burry or anything so I started shaving. When like 3 white england looking guys are asking me something or telling me something like there was something coming so they leave and I stay in the resort with these other chicks. When I go back to the room I remember seeing this girl that looked like someone from my high school but didnt really have much association with but was telling me to get ready so we can get me a girl and I started getting ready immediately so then once I got ready I remember I used the bathroom took a leak and bounce. I regain recall when I am by this giant complex made out of wood like a tree house but very well organized and saw some colombia people screaming at each other but I think it was over a year surely and then then started getting real macho getting in each others face. Then this fat looking guy comes from the side to try to separate them and gets slapped in the face hard and I remember he had pink eyes like if he was smoking and a green little squares shirt. Once they start getting face to face to fight theres a huge crowd that forms and someone threatens to call the cops or the authorities as I remember and everyone started walking away quickly just incase and then some lady says in the background that they were kidding or that the first announcement is always a joke then everyone was like yea we dont mess around with that shit just incase someone gets thrown in jail. I then went walking down the wooden complex which had sandy views from both sides seeing people walking around and woke up.

Batman wrestler is on some spinning machine and his other wrestling buddies are spinning his around with pens (don't ask). looks like one of those things you see on a kids playground. He screams he has had enough but they keep spinning him. These wrestlers are reckless and are comedic. I did not have a dream body once again.

With mom, sister and brother in car. Sister asks mom for gas money since she is "paying for the trip". says it is $172. Mom gives her money but says that she doesn't see why she should since Hector is fine (the person who we visited). We drive. We see Jamal outside. He asks mom if he can work out his chest and shoulders today. Mom says no. Mom almost runs over my cousin Jamal. I give a "WTF" shocked face. Sister is talking crap to my brother. Brother is restraining himself. I give a one arm trapezius massage to my brother to calm him down.

Third person. Two guys sitting at a table with a crapload of weed, edibles included.

guy 1: NICE! -reaches for weed-

guy 2: NO! Boss said we have to sell our share before we even take any!

they end up smoking it.

i feel intoxicated in my third person view. Walls start to shift and i see faces in the wall. Although i already feel intoxicated without a body, i refuse to take the marijuana for unknown reasons.

i believe my body spawns here, and the guys disappear. I hear a voice with a strong presence talking to me about my decision and my life. He says something along the lines of "weed gives you good ideas, but you need to DO." i get this sudden urge of motivation and start doing a combination of front flips and cartwheels as he says, "GO FOR IT". I get so in the moment that i feel that i am about to tear from the adrenaline. I walk back to the house.

Recall was a bit iffy today. I think it was because I was too lazy to write down my dreams as soon as I woke up...

0100 - Something about fish?
0240 - There's a forum type website where they implemented a feature about sleep or dreaming. Some of the members commented on it and tested it and they added some of their suggestions to the features as well.

After waking up the second time, I tried to WILD but couldn't relax enough. Then I tried to just go to sleep, but I couldn't. :/ I stayed like this until I finally managed to WILD for a few minutes. It felt like my body was either floating up or sinking down.

0443 - As always, started in my bedroom. The bed was bigger than usual, and the room seemed emptier. My brother E was there, saying something or smirking (or both). I was lucid from the start, so I told my brother to get out of my room. I then turned to my balcony doors. I could see that the side railings were there, but not the balcony itself. That convinced me that I was dreaming (you can never be too sure). I'm unsure how I stabilized, but it was probably by saying "stability now" and "clarity now" like last time. This dream was definitely more vivid and real than the last two.

I leapt out of the balcony opening and tried to fly. It was wobbly and hard to control at first, but I managed. I flew for a while and the ground underneath me turned into a green landscape with trees and lakes and grass. I flew over a big lake and over/through some trees, and I saw them vividly. I then landed and tried to create fire, but nothing happened (I tried imagining the crackling of the fire and it winding around my arm, but nothing worked). I also talked to a random guy who was sitting on the grass. At some point during the dream I felt like I needed to go to the bathroom but since I was actually in bed, I didn't risk it. I eventually lost control and the dream turned into something parodying the opening of "the Suite Life of Zack and Cody" where I was the character the camera was following. As I approached another DC, however, I suddenly became aware of my body back in bed, and I woke up.

Tried WILD from 0633; eventually just slept from 9 to 11 (yikes!)

LUCID
NON-DREAM

Woke up in the morning , want to have a lucid/AP so I lied down and close the eyes . This time Sleep Paralysis happened just so fast right away after I closed my eyes . Call upon the protection of Archangels and my Spirit Guides , I saw bubble white light , and I projected me out of my body , up to the ceiling as usual .

At first the scene before my eye was my room , not very bright . It was my room in my 2nd house in Vietnam (my family had changed house so no longer lived there) .... It was not bright and I thought of a way to "escape" the room . Suddenly I thought of "destroying" the whole room . And I thought that I should go ahead and "create" a rocket out of my mind , and I could improve my visualization skill as well too !

A great idea - I thought . So I went ahead , used my hand to create a layout , but nothing came out first , I wouldn't be discouraged , and kept trying , eventually some light-green formed , following a rocket's shape .. Then finally a whole rocket had formed (but I didn't know why it was in green) ... And I fixed the rocket so it looked alike a real rocket .. While I formed the rocket , the room became a lot brighter (maybe because I was happy) ... But then , the scene became blurry and I was throw back into my body , although I didn't want to wake up this soon ... I want to destroy the roommmmmm ...

Woke up , want to lucid again , so i closed my eyes . I felt itchy in my ear . But it already went into the sleep paralysis state ... I wanted to take my hands up and scartch my ear .... Yes I did it but with my ..... non-physical arm , and it was still itchy T_T ... So I wanted to wake up , I breathe faster and after a while I woke up .... LOL

For some reason, I woke up without wanting to write down my dreams. Maybe it's a Sunday thing hahaha

So instead of writing down every little detail, I'll just write a small description.

First dream: I was on this little boat thing. Wind hit us and I fell on the water (not into the water, on it... I'm Jesus or something) and then there was a waterfall. It was dark and windy, but I managed to have fun.

Second dream: I was a vampire. Elijah, one of the Originals from The Vampire Diaries, could see me even though I was moving as fast as possible, so I threw a bomb at his car just to show him I could still surprise him. Again, it was fun.

Third dream: I was going to meet with a friend from high school. Then, I noticed I was wearing clothes I wear at home and felt weird.

Morning of November 3, 2013. Sunday.



This was another funny connection and recurring dream-oriented pattern. It also relates to my most recent dream. What I saw was a large staff with a golden snowflake design on the top. Inside the snowflake area (the center) was the Blue Pearl floating within an implied globe setup (but the mechanism not visible), but this time I saw it to be planet Earth, shining and glowing, and blue rays emerging at times. It felt very meaningful and timeless and really “shined”. I saw it turn slightly and felt as if it was very deep within my consciousness. A feeling of bliss.

“Suzy Snowflake” was a song I came to really enjoy when young as well. I took another song “Susie Q” (also spelled as “Suzi Q” - my wife usually uses the Suzi spelling for the anglicized form of her first name now), as turning out to be two things, Q for Queensland, and, on a more humorous and lesser note, the omnipotent being from the “Star Trek” series.

The image is another scan of an old handmade pamphlet (made many years ago) which became a sort of personal running gag for my wife and me. One of the first things I had heard about her from a relative the first time we were communicating via postal mail was that she was “fragile”…The play on “I am avalanche” was another thing that caused people to believe the Yin-Yang pairing would bring destruction, but I think it is a reference to enlightenment, or the existence of Universal Mind. I think the comic strip clip is from B.C., the one with the cavemen. The snowflake is usually connected to the six-pointed Star of David (known in Hebrew as the Shield of David or Magen David), though, although it seems eight-pointed in the first panel of the strip.

We saw some undeads rise from a lake, don't know where and told me if i didn't participate in this game then i would be stuck there or something like that.
So i participated in the game and, I changed into another person and had to reach the end of the game before this guy catches me and kills me.
I failed a couple of times but finally got to the end, the ending was that all the undeads turned into Indians and thanked me for turning them back into human.
After that i woke up

I remember that I would open the garage every single time to take out the garbage
Because it would be faster that way.
I threw out the garbage, turned around and saw a women get into one of them desert car, I didn't even know that we had one, and tried to run off with it.
I became lucid for a little bit and jumped behind the car and grabbed the car so that it wouldn't be able to escape and to my surprise, I was able to stop the car from not driving off when I expected to get dragged everywhere.
My brother was able to go into the house and quickly grab 2 shotguns for us.
Grabbed a gun and scared the women out of the car.
I lost my lucidity and don't know why but we shot her and took her into the house for some reason.
And I don't remember what happened after.

I Don't remember much about this one but I remember that we were watching this one movie
and it would turn you into a zombie then they'll go around and start killing people.
The moment the zombie bit you, you would turn into one right away.
It was kind of in a movie perspective where I'm just observing them getting turned.
it was weird but awesome at the same time because they wouldn't go for me

I was at a campground and decided to go for a walk. I walked until I came to a beach but knew there shouldn't be a beach where I was camping. I became lucid, I looked at my hands and gathered my volition. I immediately asked for my Spirit Guide to please come to me. I saw a woman walking down the shoreline towards me. She began waving and I really hoped she was waving at me. As we got closer she said to me "Say hello to Linda D'Tre for me". I began thinking who she was talking about and lost my lucidity.

I was playing golf with my dead father-in-law when I realized I was dreaming. I walked up to the clubhouse and decided to walk through the wall of the building. I got about halfway through but couldn't go any further. I pulled myself out and was surprised and somewhat disappointed. I walked over to a glass door and easily walked through the glass.