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This dream happened years ago. And when I say that I mean YEARS. I was probably 8-9 years old. All I know is that it is probably the most memorable, and vivid, dream I have ever had. An interesting thing about this dream was that this was before I knew what lucid dreaming was. You will understand why that is important later...
This dream probably spanned over the course of six months, but it skipped forward quite a bit. Just... you'll find out.


Just A Normal Day...
I awake in my bed with usual ease and quickly venture down the stairs. Nothing seems wrong, and why should it? I get myself some breakfast and get ready for school when my sister comes down and asks what I'm doing here. Of course, I question this as my father comes in and looks at me in sudden shock. It doesn't take long before he explains to me that I died in a car accident about 5 years ago with my mother. What? My mom isn't dead. I saw her last night before I went to bed.
I begin to explain this to them as they sit there and contemplate what is happening. They ask me how I got here. I explain to them I went to bed last night and now I'm here. Simple as that. My father figures it out. I am dreaming. I am dreaming in "their world". I really don't want to be here though. I want to be home with my real family, and to live my life normally. My father sends my sister off to school and tries to figure out how to wake me up.

The Solution... Sorta
After a few hours my dad finally thinks of something. I will live in this life for the time being while he works out a way to wake me up. This isn't the solution I was hoping for but I realized I could easily come to live in this world.
Here is the thing. This is the world I have always wanted. This is my version of a utopia where nothing is wrong. In this world my house was exactly the same (back when I was 8-9), but it was placed in a neighborhood instead of the country. I hate the country. Not that I despise it, but I don't want to live in it.
Can't say my idea on the country has changed since then...
I think a month or two skipped. I was still living in this world and I had grown to love it. I still wanted to return home though. This dream may seem boring to you but it was the life I have always wanted. I almost feel sadness thinking about returning though. I would return to this dream any day though, and I plan on returning to it once I get more control of my lucid abilities.
Well, anyway, there was this insane storm. It was crazy and the lights were flickering on and off, and I can tell you I was pretty terrified of it. My dad suddenly realized out computer wasn't turned off and if we kept it on then if the power went off it could kill it. We all run upstairs and shut it off as the power goes out. We made it just in time. Time then skips another month.

The First Attempt
There was one really strange thing about this dream. It was logical (for the most part). Nothing seemed off about it. Time was always how it should have been, and everything in my house was the exact same way in my real house.
I awoke at about 11 at night for some reason and was so excited because I thought I was finally awake. I also had a sudden wave of sadness as I walked down the stairs. I never even got to say goodbye. Things changed as I entered the kitchen. Our living room connects to the kitchen and I saw my dad watching TV in it. I looked into my kitchen and noticed that one of our tables was replaced with some strange blue laser machine. I asked my dad what it was and he told me it should shock me awake. I was pretty happy. And I also wasn't. I said my goodbye to him and told him to tell my sister goodbye as I walked into the laser.
Nothing.
I was still here and nothing had changed. He had a disappointed look because his contraption didn't work, but I knew he was happy I was still there. I could just feel it. I went on up to bed again and slept.

The Pickle Salesmen
My sister arrived home from school and told me that her class was selling pickles to win a trip of your choice. I thought going around the neighborhood would be a great idea, and she had no trouble agreeing. We set off from the house and sold those pickles like wildfire. That sounds... really, really weird.
We sold enough to win her the trip and we returned home. My dad then told me he might have a way to finally send me home. He was keeping it a surprise until the next day though. For some reason I was wishing that day would never come. This was my home now. I almost wanted it to be...

The Final Goodbye
I awoke, still in the dream, and did some normal things. It was around noon when I went outside and started to hang with some of my friends that I had made during my time in this dream. My father came up carrying a skateboard and told me that I could go home now. He put the skateboard down and told me to lie on my back on it, and then push. It would wake me up.
I knew this was the end. I was leaving for good. This was probably the most emotional goodbye that I have ever had to make in a dream. I hugged everyone around my block and got on the skateboard. Everyone was smiling. I really remember that. They were so happy for me. I just laid there while they waited for me to finally return from where I came.
I let out that final goodbye and pushed. I flew backwards. The skateboard went faster and faster, but I still saw their waves of goodbye in the midst of the blur. The neighborhood slowly turned into a speck as I flew further and further back into blackness. I suddenly awoke in my bed the next morning.
I was home...

I am going back. Nothing will stop me from returning there. I don't care if that was just a memory in my head being morphed into something bigger than it needed to be, but I will never forget this dream. I think about it all the time, and this proves there is nothing but joy in a dream if you really believe in it. I may have been lucid, but I didn't care. I just wanted to be there. If I had known what lucid dreaming was during that time I bet you I would have skipped this entire adventure by. In the midst of my mind there is one thing that will always stand out forever, and ever.
This one, single, dream.

i have been off and on with my dream journals for years
But im going to create a new one and stay with it!

i am off and on with journals because i begin to remember so many in detail it seems impossible to write


Dream one.
I was watching my self lay on rocks on the beach and i was in labour. i had to give birth 4 or 5 times and once i gave birth to each child that particular child would go reverse back into my well yeah.. you know.
this happened rapidly and during this the scene was flickering and there was a pinkish/ red tone on the scene.
after i gave birth to the kids i casually got up and walked over to the cliff, i looked down and it had been storming and the waves were crashing close to my feet. i turned around and a close friend was there and we were going fishing ? but he wanted to go down closer to the waves but i was to scared to go down so i just stayed up at the rocks.

Interpretation : the beach represents my thoughts on how my year 12 art major will be created as there will be an ocean.
Giving birth to children is actually from a comment on deviant art that someone had made awhile go about if you watch a birth backwards you see the mother being happy then the baby goes back into the womb and she starts to scream,
odd comment but still...
the rapid flashing represents a video that i watched in art representing multiculturalism and the artist used flashes and rapid images to engage the audience more.
i dreamt of fishing because my mum was talking about my brother fishing and the man that was there symbolises my brother.

ta da



( once i start a dream journal my dreams will multiply and multiply to the point that i have at least 4-12 dreams a night and they will be so epically long i will become lazy and begin to purposely forget to write them up haha )

So i saw a big black screen saying "You found an unusual commentary node" equipable by medic and " You found Starnge troublemakers tossle cap" with a picture of an oversized tefflin (stupid religion class) Then i was walking down some stone stairs like in oblivion aleyid ruins and there was a choice to go left and right on the left there is a storage closet and on the right is a room with the oversized tefflin in it so i opend it and found some sort of black or red garment probably the tossle cap itself.....
Teamfortress 2 might be my dream sign


This is the style of the stairs and rooms minus the skeleton ofc

I want to preface this with the fact that I learned how to teleport in a normal dream but I seem to have been using the skill ever since in other normal dreams and in lucid dreams.

I would say this is a semi-lucid because although there was a lot of realism and I didn't really think straight.

I'm walking down the street at night with J. There is a fence to the left of him and a sidewalk to the right of that and open pavement to the right of that. We are on the side walk. There is a low building with a parking lot in the distance which we are walking towards. I'm practicing short range teleportation having fun annoying J. I'm just teleporting on every side of him to annoy him and I found out I have trouble teleporting and changing my angle a lot. I can teleport easily to any location but it is more difficult for me to face the direction I want immediately upon teleportation. Then I decide I want it to be daytime so I rotate the sky. I start by raising both arms in the air and get to work. The first rotating attempt (it's hard work) made all the starts shimmer. The next time the stars rotated out of view on an axis perpendicular to the street (so I guess we were walking west or east) but it was still dark. The next ry blotches of dark red came into view as if for a sunrise. I start thinking about wanting to see a pretty sunset and the dream fades away.

Before all this I remember fragments of fighting against some kind of Voldemort hybrid and watching American Horror Story (not at the same time of course).

I am semi lucid but I can't remember much about the beginning of the dream. I was sort of Lord of the Rings themed with lots of sex. Someone betrayed us exactly like Saurumon. I was going over to have sex with huge hordes of enemies, for some odd reason that would help. I think I left the dream and then came back (in the dream).

After that I am fairly lucid and I fly out through my frond door and fly over the powerlines. My legs are dangling awkwardly. I remember it felt fucking incredible! Its a cloudy day. I fly down over the hill and a car comes by and I drop down because I remember I want to ride a motorcycle while signalling the car to stop. Great vividness and realism in that part!

These are from 10/28/11:

Fragment: I'm learning magic at school.

My mom finds my hentai, which for some reason I had set as my desktop background and open in all tabs in chrome. She is interested. D wants to see my new iPod and just grabs for it roughly. I respond with my Kung Fu reactions and trap his hand against the table and tell him its impolite to grab for things like that.

These are from 10/27/11:

There is a fancy party at my house. A lady with a shovel is trying to smash me and my car. I manage to peel out in the nick of time with someone else in the car with me. I'm in the firebird (yes that's my car). When I peel out I go out of the driveway and right down the street. The engine made its regular double rev and I was already rolling down the street when it started, as in I put it in drive before it started so I could get moving.

Ms. L is walking down a hallway. I tell her our group won't be able to have the picture she needs until next week. I tell her that D brought in a camera but then for some reason we never got the picture. She said OK and seemed cheerful as ever. (This is a real life school project)

So I'm fishing at the coast of this spring or beach with just a line. I feel something tug, and whatever it is....it's big as all get out. I maintain the line and when I feel a break in tension, I pull it in. While this is happening, people are yelling and panicking....telling me to let it go. The water is down right violent, and it looks like what ever I have is probably something that has the potential to eat me and everyone else. I steadily ignore everyone's pleading and continue pulling this unknown creature in.

Thoughts flash in my head, could be a shark, could be a great white, could be anything...hell a small whale. I was thinking "well if I can beach it, then I win". Suddenly the most curious thing in all of my dreams happens. I see this plume of blackness emerge through the water, and two long appendages on each side sprout from it. The they propel the creature upwards to my astonishment. The black object.....smooth wet hair....those appendages, arms. Suddenly I realize that this "monster" is actually a person.

I slack the line all the way up to where I started at, and watch her slowly rise to her feet. Wet brunette hair gets tossed to the back of shoulders like curtains. Wearing a black leather top and skirt I immediately recognize this woman to be Summer Glau. She stands around around 15 feet and has the most pissed off look on her face. The hook is still in her mouth.

Everyone who's on the beach is running around screaming for their lives, and leaving while I'm just staring at her, motionlessly. She pulls the hook out of her mouth, and holds it between her fingernails, and slashes at me. The first swipe wasn't intended to hit me. I think she just wanted to scare me, but it didn't work. I'm sitting on the beach with puppy dog eyes still enamored by whats going on. I slightly gather my senses, and she swings again. This time she's playing for keeps. I raise and cross my arms above my head, and bock her attack. I feel the hook tear a bit at my skin, but it's not much. During the actual attack I feel my feet slide across the sand as I'm pushed backwards by several meters. She attacks several more times, and I block the aggressive onslaught.

I feel like I deserve this in some sort of way, as some cruel punishment. Suddenly I stop blocking her attacks I don't want to fight her, and at this point, I feel like maybe I just deserve it. She raises an open hand above my head, and I know she's going to slap me like a rag doll, but I don't care. I don't blink, cringe or anything. She pauses, and looks directly into my eyes, and for a second we connect. She lowers her guard, and slowly bends over towards me. Her face gets so close to mine as she locks in, and suddenly, she kisses me.

I'll have to admit...that was one of the best feelings ever. she stands up right, and I try to talk to her, but she says nothing. She picks me up, hugs me, and places me on the back of her neck. I hold on, and she walks around town with me. I feel the unevenness of weight distribution as we head out on our journey to no where. The vibration of each foot step works it's way through my body, and I'm blown away by it all. There's a little girl who's also up there with me. We talk a bit, and I think I even played a game with her, and I bought my attention back to Summer. She spoke to me, but I don't remember what was said.

I remember after I woke up, I was replaying the dream in my head....almost like a DVR how everything flash in my face....I could have still been dreaming, I'm not sure.

Last Nights Dream
I am at a dog kennell and I am washing a lovely dog, maybe it was a husky but i'm not 100% sure he is grey in colour. As he is lying down on the floor he looks to the edge of the floor and says "vowell" I look and say "a what?" again he says "vowell" I look closer and there is a little animal that looks like a mole but is only as big as my little finger, i go to it and clasp it in my hands, I am walking across the room to put it safe in the corner out of the way. Soeone says "where are you putting it?" I say "in the corner where it will be safe" I return to the dog who is now standing, 2 people look at him and want him, I reluctantly let them have him . I am now with another dog, he is brown and i'm very unsure of him. ((dream skip)) I am in my house and I have the dog with me, my king-charles spaniel called cookie is in the main room so I go into the kitchen with this dog as I am worried it may harm cookie, I shut the kitchen door behind me. The dog jumps up me and I say "NO..DOWN", he jumps up me again so again I say "DOWN!", he jumps up again so this time I yell really loud at him "NO GET DOWN!!!!!!" but he doesn't listen and instead he gets nasty and bites down hard onto my right hand . I am really scared now and panick...I try to fight him off. The dog releases me and I turn round to see where he is and he has now turned into a psychopathic bitch!!, she has short dark hair and is scruffy and crazy looking, she is holding knives..both of her hands are full of knoves. I take a cloth and hold it in my hands and say "give me the knives" I say it in a calm voice and she begins to drop the knives slowly into the cloth..I then say "and that one" she then places the last one into the cloth. I wrap them up tight and walk into the front room, I am walking to the settee and I hide them there out of harms reach. My 2 daughters L and P walk in and leave the fromt door open, I panick incase cookie gets out and runs off. I shout to them "DOOR" they just look at me, I now scream to them "DOOR!", they don't respomd so I scream at the top of my lungs "SHUT THE DOOR!!" At this point I wake up and shout out "shut the door", it comes out a bit blabbery and I begin to giggle. My head is a little fuzzy and I go back to sleep but don't remember anymore dreams after this one )

Last nights dreams
Dream 1
Me and my hubby are standing in a street together, for some reason I walked away from my Hubby and went into a playground. I see a bench so I go over and lie down on it, I was trying to go to sleep when I hear a group of people laughing, I turn around and see them all. ((dream skip)) I am now standing on the path opposite the playground I see a man laughing, he is standing opposite me. I go over to this bloke and realise it's a friend of mines boyfriend ((not in RL)) He says something to me about my hubby disliking him, I talk to him about it and resolve things between them. My hubby comes over and they are ok with each other. Me and my hubby start to walk away when the bloke says to me "he'll just talk about me behind my back" my hubby walks straight up to him and says "fuckin talk about you!!!" my hubby was fuming and smacks him one right in the face and knocked the bloke off his feet, the bloke has a red mark on his face then I wake up.

Dream 2
I am in my old high school, I am in class and I don't know what to do. I want to get out of doing the work so I say to the female teacher "shall I go and get my bird and bring him here?" she says "yes ok". I go and get my bird and take him into the classroom, the teacher loves him but he is very noisy. I am now in the corridore and I can see the toilets. I feel like I need to hide because I don't want to go back to class, a male teacher see's me and stops, he looks at me and say's "are you ok...where are you going?" I say "yeah i'm ok...I'm not sure weather to go to the toilets in A block or C block" he thinks for a minute then says "come with me to the ones that are closer" I say "ok" then I think to myself "he's only taking me to these ones so he can keep an eye on me", I get to the toilets that he took me to. The toilets are clean and posh but I can see everyone on the toilets, I can see the male teacher in a cubicle opposite me, i see him get his penis out and then he sits on the toilet, I don't feel shocked about this...I feel like I expected it. There is a big T.V on the wall behind me, the teacher is watching it while he is on the toilet. None of the toilets have doors they are just all open cubicles and it's for males and females!!!! I think to myself "shit I can't wag it in here because he will know that i'm wagging it if I don't come out soon. I shut the door ((I suddenly now have a door lol)) I sit and just wait for a while, I look under the door and see that he has gone, I decide to stay in the toilets now because he won't know. ((dream skip)) I am back in the classroom, the kids are all working but I can't do the work again, I don't understand anything. I get up off my chair and go over to the bird cage, my cockateil is really excited to see me, he is up against the cage and want's me. I want my bird back, I really miss him and want to take him home. My bird is sqwawking very loudly, I say to the teacher "he's very noisy , maybe I should take him home", the teacher seems stressed and says "yes!, just take him!!". I pick the cage up and just walk out, I am also relieved that i've managed to get out of the work )

Last nights dreams
Dream 1
I am watching coronation street, Norris is in a car and he crashes it. I am suddenly there, in coronation street. I am standing next to the car and look inside it, I see norris in the car and he is split diagonally in half, a commentator then says "it was a drink related accident"

Dream 2
I am in my bedroom ((not my real life one)) and I am with my hubby. It's my hubby's Birthday and instead of buying him a present I get up, put on some music and start to tap-dance for him ((lmao)) My hubby is not impressed and he calls me everything. I'm totally gutted that he didn't like my dance as I prepared it especially for him. He tries to make it up to me but I can't do it...he say's "look, can't we just forget about it and start again?" I say "No..it's hormones and everything...I can't just go back to normal", my hubby then says "you were in the wrong aswell you know!" I say "you were horrible to me and really upset me, I was just trying to make you happy!" my hubby says "well I was a bit nasty wasn't I and said things I shouldn't have, let's just start over eh?" I get back into bed with my hubby but it just doesn't feel right so I get out and get dressed and say "We'll try again tomorrow...let's just leave it for now ok!" My hubby just lies in bed, shuts his eyes and goes to sleep then I wake up.

Last nights dreams
Deam 1 fragments
I had a dream where something was biting chunks out of someones arm, don't know what but the man showed me his arm, on one of the bites I could see throught to the bone!

Dream 2 fragments
Again a dream about someone being bitten by that thing and this time I also was being bitten but I couldn't see by what.

Dream 3
I am in a lighthouse and there are 3 men with me. I go upstairs and 1 of the men is lying down on the flat metal of the stairs. There is a leak or something and there is lots of water all over where he is lying. I am holding a white cloth and I am wiping up around the man, trying to mop all the water up. He keeps farting and they smell really, really bad, I say "for fuck sake..you fuckin stink" ((lol)) I see the main 1 of the 3 and I say "have you smelt that smelly fucker" he says "smell him!" then he speaks a load of jibberish...I say to the man that keeps farting "see, he can't even speak they smell that bad" I then notice that the leak is coming from the other side of the lighthouse, I go over to the other side and mop that up aswell. A bloke standing by the edge of the stair at the top nearly falls backward off them, I say "steady on there!", he then goes down the stairs and goes to sleep on an old settee. I go and get a big blue coat but this one has no sleeves to it and it's like a puffer jacket. I walk over to the man lying on the settee I say "are you ok on there?" He nods yes with his eyes closed. I gently put the puffer jacket over him to keep him warm and he turns into my husband, I lean over him and kiss him goodnight, I also say something to him I can't remember what though and then I wake up.

Dream 4
I am in a white van with my husband. I am driving and i'm looking for somewhere to park. My husband tells me where to park and directs me into a really big car park it was very confusing but we eventually found somewhere to park.Me and my hubby get out of the van and go somewhere. ((dream skip)) I am going back to the van and i'm on my own, I get to the van and there is a man and a woman there they are looking at my van, he had short blonde hair and was wearing a denim jacket. She had long black hair, a pale complection and was quite thin and tall. They were both being nice to me then all of a sudden the man jumped into my van, I am going mad then see him nod his head to the woman. I stand still and get ready for her to come round the van, she comes round from the back of the van and lunges at me, I punch her really hard and she lands on the floor then I kick the shit out of her. The bloke has the top half of his body sticking out of the sunroof on my van, I jump ontop of my van and angrily drag him out of the sunroof, I grab his neck and twist it untill i break it they are now both dead. I see some of their family members so quickly hide their bodies behind my van. I open the back doors to my van and quickly chuck the 2 dead bodies in but the womans body falls to the floor, I leave it there and her mom sees her and screams so I run! I find my hubby and tell him what happened and what i've done, he walks with me back to the van, we look for the van but we cant find it, I turn round and notice that I have 2 of my daughters with me S and J. We eventually find the van but it took us ages and it has now started to rain..I now wake up.

Dream 5
This dream starts with a faulse awakening but unfortunatley I don't realise
In my dream I have just woken up in bed, I turn round and see my hubby lying beside me I think "why's K here, he must have come home from work, maybe somethings happened like a planet is close or something!" I turn to him again after some thought and say "what you doing back home?" he looks at me and says "something has happened in space and a planet is due to hit us, other planets have been pushed closer to us aswell" I absolutley shit myself My hubby points up to the sky and says "look", our bed is now outside in the street! I look up and I can see a huge black and red planet to my right, it is spinning slowly and moving a little closer, I can also see 2 other little planets in the sky. The sky is dark and it was an amazing sight but the fear I had in me was undescribable. My hubby says "the Army are trying to send a missile up to it but they don't know if they will do it in time" I gasp and start to worry even more. I'm thinking about my kids and my hubby and how I don't want them to go through this and die and how I don't want to die either and be without them. My hubby says "we have to make the most of the time we have left", we didn't tell the youngest what was happening but my other daughter S was very inquisitive so I took her a little down the road where she could see properly. In the sky we see like a big dragon thing, its very long and has lots of legs, it's flying inbetween the buildings, this creature is from space and is here because all of space and the planets are being shoved into us. S says " I don't want to see, take me back!" She is scared ao we go back to our bed and sit down. I sat and admired the planets I was amazed that I could see it so close but at the same time i'm scared out of my witts!!!!!

Dream 6 fragment
Something about a baby, she only wanted me and no-one else, she was about a year old. I felt like she was my baby but she wasn't, she was a beautifull baby.

last nights dreams

Dream 1
I am at C's house, her me and a few more women are there. We all have kids but all the kids are babies, I can sence something evil in the room with us. The evil takes my 2 babies they are just gone, and takes another womans 2 babies aswell. I am crying hysterically i want my babies back so badly I'm so worried about them. My husband is asleep on the floor, I go over and look at him and he wakes up, he begins to cry because he wants his kids back. I see the other women going into a small tiny room like place, they are going to get their kids. I walk over and move the curtain the is hanging in the doorway and walk in, it's all black in here and there are white biys everywhere, I wait and my kids dont come back to me , I walk out and again i'm crying hysterically. My husband is now going mad...some woman who is with us says to my hubby "you BOTH want your kids back, she is the Mother you know, she's upset aswell" I am now sitting at a table with 5 other women and I am holding baby bottles. 2 of the women go and sit on 2 of the other womens laps, they then morph together, i'm watching and thinking "this is very odd" One of the women now come over to me and she tries to sit on my lap, there is no way i'm letting her morph with my body so I am pushing her away then I wake up.

Dream 2
I am again at C's house I really don't want to be here, I'm thinking "your such a selfish bitch" about her. She starts moaning because her house is dirty and she has to clean it. She starts cleaning up, her ex-boyfriend is there aswell and he is also helpong her to do it. My kids are all here with me and they start arguing with C's kids, C goes upstairs and I follow ((dream skip)) I am walking from my house and going down the road, I have 2 of my kids with me P and S. We see C's daughter L she is with another girl who I don't know. P suddenly shouts out "L, you tramp!", I cuss P and tell her to shut up!!! We have now reached C's house I am no longer with P but have my other daughter L here in her place. I poke my daughters L and S in the back hard and shove them towards C's front door, I say to them "go on then...you wanted to call for her so go on then". We are all standing at C's front door. My daughters L and S see some kids playing on the front lawn and go over to them, they decide to stay out and play with them. I push the green front door open, I walk in and see C in the kitchen with her sister A. C is cleaning the blind to her window I think to myself "that blind is a bit posh for her" I examine it and realise it's an expensive one. It is green and blue and has a nice floral pattern on it and green ruffling around the edges. I say to C "whats up...did it get mouldy and you've had to clean the mould off?" she says "no but i've got to go to college soon, i'm starting an art course so I need to clean up"..I think "her do an art course at college...no way, she's way too lazy" I then hear a loud bang on the front door, it startles me...I look round and my daughter L screams "MOM IT'S SOPHIE" I panick and quickly rush out...i'm thinking "ohh god please not the road...not the road" I see all the kids standing by a certain spot on the grass, I see the top of S's head and a little bit of her face, she is sinking in the mud...I hear gargling sounds coming from her and see a few bubbles coming from her mouth and then she dissapears under it. Me and my other daughter L are next to the spot where she sank and I am now in slow motion, L says calmly "you just have to pop your hand in and get her like this" and she rolls her sleeve up, I scream to her "move you silly fucker she's going to sink too far down and die!!!" I try to reach down into the boggy mud quickly but I can only move in slow motion. My daughter has sank and I wont give up. I battle to get my hand in and manage it, I feel about for her but I don't feel anything, I reach down further and feel her fingers, I grab them claspong hold of them tight I know that if I loose her she will sink too far down and I won't be able to get her back then. I pull hard and I feel her moving, I am pulling her up as hard and as fast as I can but then I wake up. (( this is the most disturbing dream I have ever had, never do I want to have a dream like this ever, ever again))

Tuesday 30th August

Last nights dreams

Dream 1
My youngest Dughter J is in the bath, I wash her hair and say "do you want to swill it yourself?" she says "no" I say "ok, ill so it then" I move to do it then wake up.

Dream 2
I am in a room, maybe a bedroom, yes I remember there is a bed in the room, the room is a bit tatty looking. There is a book on the floor it's a book about nature and there is a picture of trees on the front. I take a closer look and see 2 holes in the book, I lift the cover and see 2 deep holes all the way through the book, i see caterpillars in the holes they have eaten through the book i say "ohh my god" and 2 catterpillars jump out of the book and onto the bed, i am screaming and i can see them wiggling, I am wandering how to get them off the bed because i don't want to touch them. I look down at the book again and caterpillars start jumping out onto me, i scream and shut the book quickly and run out! ((dream skip)) I am in a room on a boat, i can see 3 other rooms and can see a child about 1 year old, it's a girl, she is also locked in 1 of the rooms. I am trying hard to open the doors to the other rooms but they are all locked. I manage to get the girl, she is chubby and quite heavy, i get out of the room and lock the door. I am now trying to escape, I see a large lady in 1 of the rooms and she is after us. I open another door and I am now in another room then I think "shit, she's coming" , we need to get out again so i run out and lock the door. I see the lady again and i want to get her and kill her, I look at the door and see a gap about 1 inch wide, i shove my hand through it and open the lock on the other side. I study the door for a moment and notice that the gap in the door isnt even wide enough for my hand, i think "how did i do that thats impossible" ((shame i didnt get lucid)) I study the door more then hear the lady getting closer and see her face up against the window eager to get at me, I think "who gives a fuck how i done it..this bitch needs killing. I am suddenly in the room with her, i again think "how did that happen" I hit her but i can only do it in slow motion but she is hitting me normally ((grrrr)) bIm thinking "bastard get fucked, you aint killing me" ((lmao excuse the language)) I see a small sharp ornament on the side i grab it and try to hit her with it but i'm still in slow motion so it just touches her head very gently. I am now very frustrated and i'm shouting "fuck you" I run and she follows me I jump on the bed and I throw the duvet over her and she just dissapeared. I am looking for her and thinking "where the fuck did she go" I look at the child and then I wake up.

Woah I have a lot of dreams to write down. I did a WBTB without an alarm, and I tried MILD. No lucid dreams, but very soon.

DE= Dream-established. It's something that you just automatically know in the dream, without something having to tell you.

I had apple cinnamon oatmeal before bed, and had very vivid dreams. I'm trying that again, to see if there is any correlation.

First, I was at the old house with Anthony and John, and we were smoking. I can't fully remember what happened at this part of the dream, but everything on TV was amazing to us. One thing I remember was seeing a pool table on TV that had a hidden tray to store things, and I made a pretty funny comment...but I don't remember it. Then Anthony started talking about something while Beyonce was on TV, and while he was talking, she morphed into three fat black chicks, and they were in the desert. I made a joke about this, first saying, "Look, Anthony! You've talked for so long, they all got fat!" But then I thought of a better one, and said, "Anthony, you've been talking for so long, that their skin has been burnt to a crisp!" We all knew they were already black, and they were in the desert, so it was funny. (I hope that doesn't sound racist.)

Then, because of the desert, I was suddenly in the military, and we were training. We were all crawling around the desert in the sand (although in plain sight, so I don't know how this was good training) and we had to act like we were picking up live grenades and throwing them away. Then the drill sergeant said we were dogs of war I think, because then we were all literally dogs. I remember making a joke about it, but it was in bad taste, or badly received, and everyone was staring at me. I remember looking back at them, and seeing a bunch of wolves, and their eyes were so clear and vivid. They were all yellow, and each one had a different-shaped pupil. Then the drill sergeant said that (since we were dogs) when we see the enemy, we aim for their balls. He was very enthusiastic about this, "YOU GOTTA GET THEIR BALLS! YOU GRAB HOLD OF THEM AND AAAARRGRGRHGFHBSDJFKVBDILURFJK!!!" It was pretty unsettling. As we ran back to the camp, we ran over a bunch of hills and the camp's "living room" was in plain sight, without any walls, so we just ran right in. Then I was human again, and Sean was there. It was DE that he was there with us the whole time. The room we were in was blandly colored, with a single couch in the middle, and a kitchen with a bar counter to the right, across from the couch. If you walked forward, then you get to this circular room that leads back outside. Then we all had to clean the camp. I wanted to listen to music while cleaning, so I turned on the radio, and Radiohead was on. The song sounded pretty good, so I held my ear up to the radio to get a better listen, but then the drill sergeant turned on a second radio in the circular room, and turned on Katy Perry. He turned it up really loudly as if challenging me. I changed my channel to his, and turned it up as well so I could suck up to the drill sergeant, and so we could have surround sound (since two radios were playing the same thing). To change the channel on the radio, there was just this dial on top, with ridges in it for grip, and there was an arrow on top of the dial, and there were preset, yellow sections that the dial clicked into. I remember it was DE that Sean had a bad attitude, and another reason I switched the station was to look better than my brother, who he is obviously going to compare me to. Suddenly, we were in this hallway that circled around this middle room, so that you could continuously walk around the room in the hallway. There were two places along the hallway in which you could turn and walk into the middle room. The middle room had some tables, and the walls were clear, so you could see into the hallway, but it was a pretty small room. The walls in the hallway were pretty similar to the walls in the ambulances in Killer7 when you fight Andrei Ulmeyda in that the walls were conjumbled with things, but it wasn't medical supplies. It was more like just a bunch of dark colors, but the hallway still had that look to it, and it was cut up into sections like the ambulances. At the same time, it had the feel to it like it was below deck on ta battleship. On one part of the hallway, there was a doorway that led into a room that had everyone's parents. That room was very clean-looking, and had white walls, a soft carpet, a white couch in the middle, a bunch of chairs all around, a TV, and a plastic plant or two. If you kept walking in the hallway to the right, the next wall had a "school lunch" look to it, probably because that's where everyone got there food. There was an Asian guy cleaning this very metal counter, and the janitor from Ned's Declassified behind the counter mopping up some stuff. Sean and I were standing at the doorway to the parents room, and we could see a bunch of parents sitting in all the chairs, and we saw our parents sitting on the couch. It was Mom and Brian, but Dad wasn't there. All the mothers were crying because their kids were in the military, and I noticed this, and realised that our mom was crying the most. There was an instructor in the room, or maybe it was the drill sergeant, and he was telling the parents about the place, just explaining the place like a talking brochure. After this, Mom and Brian came out of the room, and I remember begging my mom to let me come home, "You don't understand! I'm not this kind of person, I will be miserable here! This isn't for me!" It was DE that they sent Sean and I here, for discipline or something, and my mom ignored everything I just said. It was also DE that it was my birthday. For some reason, they went after Sean, as if he did something really bad. It was slightly DE that Sean sent me and him to the military, and it was against my will. So maybe that why they were going after him. Sean ran off to the right, and we all chased him. After one full walk around the complex, and we got back to the point we started, he kept walking, but this time, my mom went after him, and Brian went the other way to trap him. They didn't know about the middle room, but I did. It's always been known between Sean and I that I was pretty weak, and he was a lot stronger than me. So when I went into the middle room to stop him in case he went in the other way, and he walked in the other way and saw me, he thought, "Oh, it's just Chris, he's not going to do anything." He walked up to me prepared to hit me. All of a sudden, everything was in slow motion, and every kick, punch, or hit he threw at me, I just deflected. It was pretty cool. Then Mom started to come in because she saw that he had no where to go. As she got closer, Sean threw a punch at her, but I noticed this and went to push his arm away. I saw my chance to catch him off guard, and I palmed him in the face twice. He fell back and landed on one of the tables. I looked at him, and his face was completely messed up, and I immediately felt extremely bad. I looked out to the janitor, or had a small bucket-like wheelchair, and I said, "We need that wheelchair." He looked at me, as if horrified and started to back up and run back into the kitchen, which was on the other side of the counter that the Asian was cleaning. I ran out of the room screaming, "WE NEED THAT WHEELCHAIR!" Then I woke up.

I don't know why we were so violent in this dream. I assure you, we aren't like this in real life lol.

It was 4 AM, and I went back to sleep.

There was a small dream fragment that sort of connects these two dreams. There was a classroom in the military camp. The people in the were This kid Vinny, a girl version of him, and some other kid, who I felt a strong connection to. From that point on, the girl version of Vinny was no longer that, but was now some blonde chick. Anyway, the whole group turned out to be the unpopular kids, but they were really cool to hang out with. Suddenly I was in a car with them, and it was DE that we have been hanging out for quite some time now, and we were going to one of their houses. I found out that they were looking for a new best friend, and the top three candidates were me, Sean, and Ned Bigby from Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide. Suddenly, I was out on this street at night, and Sean and I were racing to get to their house first, because then we would be a better friend. Sean took off in a car, and I had to run. When we got there (somehow at the same time) We rang the door bell, and Ned Bigby answered. We were confused, but then we found out that they chose him, and we were disappointed.

There was also an even smaller dream fragment that took place at a football stadium or something. It was a game show, and on the field goal post, there were a bunch of pods with people in them on each side of the field goal post. The pods were attached to giant, stretchy bands, and the game had something to do with transferring something from pod to pod as they bounced around and got near each other. There was also a part of this dream that had something to do with some sort of danger, but I don't remember what it was. I wrote down "witnesses" in my dream journal to remind me. I don't remember.

The next dream I had, I was at lunch at school. The cafeteria was set up like Carson, but the rest of the school was set up like the high school, even the lunch lady was the high school one. I only remember one of the people I was sitting with, and it was Rebecca Torres from school. I had this bag with me, and it was made out glow sticks. I had a hard time tying the handles together to close the bag. It was multicolored and very vibrant. I put it under the table for safe keeping during the lunch period. I don't think there was anything in the bag. It was just a bag made out of glow sticks-nothing else. I got up to go get my lunch. For lunch they had school pizza, and Dominos pizza, although they looked the same except for their shape; one was square, but I don't remember which one. I had some sort of discount for some reason, and I could get one slice of Dominos pizza for free. I the next slice would cost the same amount as a normal lunch. So instead of getting one slice, I got two for the same price. After waiting in line for what seemed like forever, I got to the front, and tried to put in my pin number, which, in the dream, was 8693-7643. It didn't work, and I was like, "Are you sure? This has always been my pin number. Let me try again." It still didn't work. Annoyed, and without my lunch, I left the lunch room to get help from a teacher about it. On my way out, I saw some dude playing the piano. The piano had two sets of keys, and he started playing a Weezer song. It was a DE song. Then he started playing a song that started out with a repetition of a major first, and a minor fourth. This black chick wearing glasses standing next to me seemed to have the sheet music for this song. I asked her if she wrote this song, because it was really good. She said, "No, I wish. It's by one of my favorite bands, *DE name*." I said, "Oh, really? I love that band! They remind me a lot of Kunek [check 'em out, reader!], which is really the same band as Other Lives, if you've ever heard of them." She said she never has heard of them, but for some reason this establishes us as hitting it off. She writes down the name of the band (Kunek) on her paper, and she goes to class. I realise that we forgot to exchange numbers. For some reason, this weird, ugly chick from school, who NEVER showered, I swear (I think her name was Crystal) thought I was hitting on her rather than the black chick. So now she likes me. Fantastic. I ignore this for now, and head to the hallway, to get a teacher to help me about the pin number situation. I put a bunch of golf balls in my mouth because for some reason, when you go ask a teacher about anything, it is customary to have bunch of golf balls in our mouth. The golf balls started to get soggy, and they got chewy and tasteless like old bubble gum. I walked up to a teacher, and seeing my golf balls said, "Yes, we know about the pin numbers. No one's pin number is working because they were all reset, and the teachers are having a hard time too. Go back to class." I was annoyed by this because I realised I put golf balls in my mouth for nothing. When I head back to the lunch room, I see a different line in the back of the lunch room, opposite the normal lunch line. This new line is for people whose pin numbers aren't working. I go there, and wait in line. This annoying kid, Lawrence, who pretty much everyone at my school thought was annoying, was standing in line with me, mocking me the whole time because my pin number didn't work. When we got to the front of the line, Lawrence, who was in front of me, was denied his food because he had no money. Suddenly he became fickly apologetic, and said things like, "Yo, Chris, you gotta help me man, we're friends, right? We've always got along, I'll pay you back I swear." Even the teacher, who was taking everyone's orders like a waiter turned so that his back was to Lawrence. I ordered my pizza. As I was doing this, it was DE that the ugly chick was hitting on me again. Later, when I went back to class, I went up to the chick, and asked her what was up. She said, after giggling and blushing, "I think you're pretty." Now that I think about it, that's a weird thing to call a guy. To be polite, I said, "Look, I think you're pretty too, but I don't see you that way. There is nothing between us. I'm sorry." As I said this, I got a wave of embarrassment because everyone was watching, and I'm sure they thought that I actually thought she was pretty. I ignored this and continued as I walked out of the classroom, "So we're cool, right? No hard feelings?" As I said this, I did that weird gun finger thing, as if to say that we were still cool with each other. She hated me for the rest of the dream. After school, I walked to my car, which was really Mom's Hyundai, and I got in it to drive home. The parking lot was the parking lot to the middle school/intermediate school. When I was driving home, this DE Youtube song started. It was a comedy video. The words had something to do with an old man driving, and seeing a bunch of young kids playing on the sidewalk and everything, and this infuriated him. Anyway, this part of the dream looped. For about 3 or 4 times, I walked to my car and drove home to that song. On the third time or something, I accidentally got into the car next to mine, which is weird because my car is silver, and this one is yellow. This kid, Ryne, was sitting in the passenger seat, and he just stared at me, confused. Fortunately, I'm pretty cool with this kid, so I just casually got out, and got into my car. Then the ugly chick walks up, and gets into the yellow car. It is DE that she is dating Ryne. She looks at me and scowls at me. From inside my car, I look at Ryne and give this throw-hands-up-shrug-shoulders move to show him that I was just as confused as he was when I got into his car. We both laugh, and I drive home to the song again.

Then, suddenly I was surfing Youtube because of the song. Every page on Youtube had a psychedelic foreground that covered most of the page. There was a small hole in the foreground, and you could barely see what was going on. Suddenly, I was in this room with beige walls, a pale, leather couch, and a glass coffee table in front of the couch. There was a doorway that could be seen from the couch, and I think it led to a bathroom. The whole place was DE that it was a Google office. There was a hallway opposite the bathroom doorway that led to this reception desk. There was big window on this hallway that spanned the whole wall of the room I was in. Behind the couch, was this big piece of glass that I was under. I was transformed into a girl, and I was wearing only this really small tee-shirt that came down to the top of my thigh. These people who work there, came up to me while I was under the glass, and they helped me out. They let me spend the night on the couch, because they were going to interview me in the morning. I didn't have any covers, and it was pretty cold in the room. The Trix rabbit was sleeping on the glass behind me, and I think he had something to do with the fact that I was a girl. I remember thinking that it was pretty awesome that I had boobs. I was playing with them, and then I touched my new Va-jay-jay to see what it felt like. It felt very...uh...real. I fell asleep, and woke up on the same couch in the same room in the same clothes, but I was a boy again, and I didn't want the people who work there to know because then they would kick me out, and I would have no where to go. They would kick me out because I wasn't the same person.

AAAAARRRGHHH!!!! I just realised that I always do a reality check right when I wake up, but I didn't do one here.

Anyway, the Trix rabbit was gone, and now it was Bugs Bunny. He had a plan to get us out of there safely. He pulled one of his cross-dressing schemes, one of which is way too complicated to go into detail here. But the end result is that he ended up with a clone of himself, and they seeing each other. And his clone was him, but it was a girl. But they were both cross-dressing in such a way that they were both gay and straight at the same time. And at the end of this dream segment, They were trapped in a doorway with the people from Google coming after them, but since Bugs's plan worked, they had a fail-safe. The two Bugs Bunnies kissed, and then the original one looked at the "screen" of the dream. He had this shocked look on his face, and this whole scene was reminiscent of the famous scene at the end of 2001: A Space Oddyssey. From Bugs's eyes came this wave of green. If you have ever played Super Mario RPG on the SNES, then you have seen this. In the final battle, where you fight Smithy, one of his moves turns the screen green, and it looks very psychedelic. When Bugs looked at the "screen" of the dream, this flashed across the screen, but it "waved" across the screen from left to right. What this whole thing did was change the whole universe so that monsters and humans sort of coexist, but monsters are on top. Then, my dream went through this sort of "let's get you up to speed" kind of thing. I saw scenes from important parts of this new history that explained how we now live in this paranormal kind of society, with monsters and such running about. Things that were established were that humans lost this war to the monsters (of Hell maybe) and that there were these magic minerals that came off certain people, and these would have won the war, but we couldn't get enough of them in one place at one time. At one point there was only one in the world left, and Dib from Invader Zim found the last one in this alley way, but a monster took it and ate it. Then he made some comment about humans being made of cheese, and for some reason this upset the monster society, and now they hold a grudge against us.

Before the next logical part of the dream, there was this part where I was with people from Avatar: The Last Airbender. We were on this giant vehicle, which was like a train, but it was rickety and wooden, and had a lot of open spaces on it. We were in some sort of desert. I was talking to Sokka, who pretty much just called his sister easy, because he said, "Yeah, dude, you could totally have sex with her. She has a thing for people with powers." Suddenly, we were under attack from Haku from Naruto, who was attacking us from under the train. He was throwing a crap ton of needles that cut through the floor of the train and they were everywhere. You just had to constantly move and just hope that you didn't get hit. I think I was supposed to be Naruto, but only in name. But somehow, during the end of this dream, I wasn't him anymore as I started to enter the next part of the dream. I remember Kitara referring to Naruto as "Poji", pronounced Poh-jee. It was supposed to be his nickname or something. When she was calling his name, they were all in this purple carriage that was going through this very populated city with all of these monsters and such.

Anyway, the "camera" to the dream started panning out from this, and that's when she called Naruto Poji. As it panned out more, I found my self in first person walking through this massive crowd of demons and monsters and otherworldly beings. I was in a city that had a bunch of run down shops and such. I was with my mom, and two other men. There was this part where I was expected to perform, or sing, in with some people, like Sean did (DE), but I never did this. I don't remember what this had to do with anything. I think it was supposed to be the last time I ever performed as one person because of what happened next. The two other men we were with served a purpose. In the society we were now a part of, there were some people who had three heads, so they can be stronger. The one guy, who was pretty buff, dressed in all black and had red hair, was supposed to be the host. Me, and the other guy, who I didn't get a good look at, were supposed to be the other two heads. We reached this one row of carnival games and food stands. The host turned to me and said, "You get to pick. Left or right?" I was confused at this and asked what he meant. He clarified, saying, "Which side do you want to be on?" The other guy went along with all of this very easily, but I had my share of questions. I knew it wasn't going to hurt, but I also knew that I would never be able to turn back after I donated my head. I asked things like, "Will be all be treated equally? Or will you be the dominant head? How much freedom will I have to move around and stuff?" As I was asking this, the host bought food for only himself, and also bought two mini bowls of cream, to which my dismay, I could recognise as head cream. This meant that we WOULDN'T be treated equally, and this was a very selfish move on the host's part. The cream was just for the maintenance of my head, and the other guy's head. I decided I didn't want to do this anymore. Luckily, it was actually my choice, and I didn't have to go with it. I decided I wanted to get something to eat. For some reason, my mom was working at one of the food stands. They were very tall, and unrealistic. All there was to eat was monster food. But I looked harder and found some pizza. I wanted to by some, and Mom said, "That'll be 8 dollars." I said, "8 dollars for one slice of pizza?" She clarified, "No, it's 2 dollars for the other stuff [it was suddenly DE that I also bought a drink and a snack] and 5 dollars for the pizza." I know this doesn't add up to 8, but that's what she said. I refused to pay, and instead I bought a pack of skittles at this stand that had an impossible amount of skittles. Then these two guys came up to me and my mom, who was now with us again (not working), and they demanded that we give them our money. It was DE that we only needed to give some of our money. For some reason, I had thousands upon thousands of dollars in my pocket. Each bill had either a 2, 5, 10, 20, or 30 on them, and this indicated thousands, so 2 thousand, 5 thousand, etc. I gave him only a little bit of my money because Mom pulled a sneaky, clever move where I give him a few large bills, but then I fold my money over so that a small bill is showing (so it looks like I have little left) and I put that back in my pocket. I messed up and didn't fold the money over, so the robbers saw me put a 30 thousand dollar bill back in pocket. They said, "Hey, let me see that again, are you trying to pull something?" Luckily, I folded the money over in my pocket, and when I pulled it out they only saw 2 thousand, and we were free to go.

This was the longest, most chronologically sound, and vivid I've had in a very, very long time. Crazy stuff.