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I was walking down a street thinking about what i was going to do that day. I see a red truck with no top it looks similar to a smart car. I remember my friend michelle talking about getting a vehicle. She is being hastled with the driver behind her because she is a "new Driver". She pulls over close to me and says "are you coming? well Hop in ". As i get in she guns it with me standing it felt like there was no back and we're going to tip. We don't Fall and i sit where she tells me to. Michelle tells me to hold onto the bar. The dashboard looked like a seat at a theme park which has a bar to hold onto in the front. I go to hang on but grab the wrong one and switched gears. She fixes what i did quite easily as I grab hold. It seems were going to pick people up now.

After, all of a sudden i was with an asian girl or my dream girl friend. When i was with her i had a feeling it was my Ex girlfriend. We were walking together holding eachother when we come across Harland & Murtaza (some old friends from School) they are walking along a hill of a main road in Calgary called 16th ave. We stop to say Hey, They tell me its been too long since we've seen eachother. I told them about some party i was having later and they should come they tell me they'll be there. Me and my Girl say goodbye and start walking away from my old friends.

Next thing i remember is, I found myself in my brothers Silver Dakota sitting in the back seat my arms around my dream girlfriend and the feeling is wonderful everytime i tighten my grip i can feel she does the same. I seen my friends johnny and michelle in the truck with us as well as my brother driving. All of a sudden I'm in the passenger seat beside my brother and everyone is gone but him and I. He was talking to me but i gave him no attention i cant recall what he said. Instead i was looking out the window at this red shirt man staring at me from the car next to us. In my mind he looked like a physical being of Chef from South Park. I look foward and notice the lights changing red my brother says something then Guns it through and turns the corner. All i could think was WTF is he doing ?!

The next thing I can remember is walking down an ally with my friends hehind me, there was a plastic santa decoration in the middle of the way so i picked it up and threw it in the air. I hear My brother Steven laughing saying "did you see what he did". I ignore him and continue we soon came to this house with a weird hill connected to the bedroom windows. It seems like we're going to try and get up there. I tried to get a running start but fail. It seems really hard to run up an incline. I tell myself I cannot run up this hill. I soon find myself in my Kitchen looking out at my brothers truck in the ally. i walked to the living room where im on the phone with James telling me he'll pick me a 10 dollar ticket up. He tells me to come meet him and mike but i asked him about a party which i was having at my house. I see an old friend named Ali get out of a car infront of my house and i start to yell on the phone "ALI IS HERE". He brought a friend which looks familiar and they come to my front door.

All of a sudden i was with James and Justin walking when we came across this little shack in the middle of no where. Inside was two big comfy chairs and a miniture grand piano. I sit at the piano and start playing, i wondered why i sucked
I look down and notice the foot pedals and james is hitting it with his foot. It sounds like an Organ i said. I turn and ask if this was their place and they both denied. I then am laying in my bed thinking what just happend? did i have a party , I hope no one stole anything, then I awoke.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm on Teraluna with Yuya and Liv.
Liv is here for the first time.
The gates would usually prevent any demons from getting into the city, but they let her through because
she has no dark thoughts.

Even though everyone is super nice to her she's still extremely shy and clearly feels out of place.
But she's happy to be here.
We're sitting at the table in front of Yuya's place talking about all kinds of things.
There's a bowl with sweets on the table, and I keep sneaking stuff from it because everything is so delicious.
Lemon marzipan surrounded by black chocolate, yum!

During the conversation I notice that something is on Liv's mind.
There's something bothering her, she wants to ask something, but she's too shy.
I offer her a cookie from the bowl.
Yuya realizes that there's quite a bit of stuff missing from it.

"Hyu...?"
"Yeeeees?"

I chuckle as she throws something at me. (I think it was a hairpin)
Liv realizes what's going on and laughs out loud.
There we go, loose some of that shyness.

"So Liv, what is it you want to ask?"

She turns red.
It takes some time to actually convince her to tell me.
She finally ends up explaining that she is going to a ball.
She has to for some reason, and her sisters will be there.
But she's very uncomfortable going there, because it is common for succubi to seduce someone
rich or powerful to go with them. She doesn't want to do that though.
She's known for being shy, which is a bit ridiculous since she's a succubus, and she'll be laughed at if she comes without a 'date'.

"I don't really see where the problem is."
"But... I don't..."
"You could just ask someone to go with you, you know."
"Nobody would go with me..."

She's not biting, but I can clearly see it in her face.
She wants to ask me to go with her.

"You could ask me for example."
"But..."
"..."
"Would you.... go with me? ..."
"Yes, absolutely."

Yuya says: "See, that wasn't so hard, was it?"

"So, where is this ball anyways?"
"..."
"... it's in hell."

Wait, what?
I look at Yuya. She doesn't seem concerned, so it probably isn't as dangerous as it sounds.
Whatever, it'll be an adventure, it's probably going to be awesome...


... Liv and I are standing in line... to get into hell I suppose?
I'm wearing a red and white kimono, as is tradition for dragons according to Yuya.
Liv's dress reminds me a bit of a prom dress, it's cute, it looks nice on her.
We're at the entrance... it says "Club Hades".
I ask Liv:

"Seriously? Hades?"
"You know him?"
"No... he... what?"
"The club is named after it's owner, he's called Hades."

I find it funny, but Liv obviously doesn't know about Greek mythology.

The inside of the club is actually quite awesome. It's in a huge cave, and the place is lit up by pools and fountains of lava.
I hide my energy at first, because there's a lot of demons here, but that quickly attracts the attention of some predators.
Some bird-like creature looks at me with an appetite.
I quickly change my aura and emit some energy to show that I'm a dragon.
The creature quickly looks away.
I decide to act confident, as if I have nothing to fear here.

There are all sorts of creatures here, most of them look humanoid.
Not all of them appear to be demons though, some clearly aren't and some may very well be human.
During a conversation Liv explains that this club is some sort of a neutral zone.
Hades is insanely powerful, nobody would dare to cause any kind of trouble here.

At some point she introduces my to her sisters.
There's 3 of them, they're all older than Liv, and clearly not as nice as she is.
They seduced some men to come with them. The men aren't even aware where they are, they're under complete mind control.
Her sisters are extremely surprised that she's with a dragon.
The oldest of them asks how she managed to seduce a dragon.
I say in a serious and dark voice:

"She didn't have to."

That's gonna leave an impression.

...I'm a bit surprised that nobody's causing trouble, some creatures look quite aggressive.
I suppose this place is quite safe indeed.
Liv is still very shy, but she doesn't show it to the other guests.
I ask her for a dance. She's quite happy and we go to the dance floor...

I have bought 3 bags of candy and a 1,5L coca-cola. Im in front of our music classroom and J's friend comes to me and asks me to give him some coke. Hes a big guy and hes like threatening me, but I say no and I start to beat him up. Then YV comes and starts to settle the fight, but suprisingly he doesnt give any detention.


Then Im at home coming down the stairs. N is sitting on the bench there and asking me to give him some candy. I say "Well ok" and I take my shoes off because the candy is there. He takes some candy from my sweaty shoes and I say something "Well If you like candys that have been in my shoes, then ok..."


Im collecting some garbage in some hall with JR.


Im playing a videogame with N,J and some other guy. We are at the 'computerclass'. In the game we are jumping over fences and running, possibly away from something.


Then Im in the field behind the ice rink with S. We are either standing or sitting. I watch some leaves drop from the trees and suddenly I start to think how Im lying down in my bed and this is a dream, but I dont do any RC's and I dont become lucid. I was just thinking about myself sleeping in my bed.

That was pretty weird...

I saw Symphony standing in front of me. I blinked, and then there were two. I blinked again, and then there were endless clones of Symphony as far as I could see in the incomparably large room. My heart started racing. I blinked again, and it was just one Symphony again. I started to calm down.

“Complete me,” she said in her flat, high-pitched voice.

“I will as soon as I can,” I answered. She reached forward. I blinked, and she was in front of me, gripping my shirt.

“I am already complete,” she responded. I didn’t understand. “I have waited forever, and I will wait forever. Time is not a hindrance.”

“What do you mean, you’ve waited forever?”

“Forever.” She stepped forward, fusing with my body. I felt a rush of energy, and then it all vanished. I looked behind me, but Symphony wasn’t there. Chunks of metal started falling from the impossibly high ceiling above me.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Didn't recall much when I woke up, but after a bit of probing and thinking of random names and songs that were stuck in my head during the morning, I actually managed to recall four fragments.

21.30: Sleep

05.20: Fragments
*I'm standing on a street in the middle of the rain. I've got my hoodie up and people walk by without taking any notice of me. I enter the building to my new apartment right next to where I work. There's a cupboard right next to my door, and my computer's in there. I do some stuff on the computer and lock it all up. My sister asks me where I've moved to. I tell her where and she gives me a jealous look.

*I'm watching a plastic tub full of small fish. I try to find some silvery fishes to use as bait. I grab the smallest of them all and hook it. It wriggles as I pierce the fish over and over, the damn hook won't stick. The small fish dies and I throw it into the water, and starts floating. A few ducks nearby attacks the fish and I have to pull it in. One duck has brown teeth and refuses to let go until it's right by me.

*I arrive at a villa. Two fires are roaring and my sister and brother greets me. "Oh hi" they say, a bit uncertain, like they're hiding something. I look at the fires and realise they're way too big for just a regular dinner. "You're going to have a party right?" I ask them. They blush and tell me I'm right. "I'm sorry, but there's no room for you" my sister tells me. I can tell she really is. A friend of my brother shows up with a chocolate drink. He slaps me on the back, clearly drunk already.

*My friend Jonas has changed his appearance. He doesn't look anything like he did before. I know it's him, but a girl doesn't believe him. "It is me, I even removed my annoying habit of blinking too much" he tells her. I can tell he doesn't blink as often as he used to.

05.20: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Supplements: Nothing

That's it! I'm thinking I'm gonna try to let the next lucid dream just go on as if it's another reality. KingYoshi is doing exactly that, and since you have to turn your focus away from your real body to stay in a dream longer, it's quite logical that just accepting a dream as another reality will prolong it. Instead of activating your senses actively (reminding yourself you're in your bed, dreaming), you do it more out of habit. Sure the complete control might not be there, but I'm ready to try something new!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

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non dream - lucid - non lucid

I play starcraft2. I'm quite a bit better at it than most of my friends, but I'm nowhere near as good as to play in a tournament.
I do watch some casts though, follow some of the tournaments, so I guess that I have some idea of how these things work...
After waking up I noticed that this dream lasted for a really long time and there were a ton of false memories.
The gameplay mechanics were also spot on as far as I can recall, although the maps were quite weird.


False memories:
After getting my masters degree I moved to California, LA to follow my career as a game designer.
I suddenly had a lot of free time on my hands, so I started to play sc2 quite intensely.
I got to know a few people, and after some time I ended up in the pro-gaming team "ROOT". (Probably because I watch Destiny's stream who's in root?)
Some worldwide tournament is happening in LA, the biggest one in the history of gaming, with an insane prize pool.
I not only managed to qualify, but I actually got into the semi-finals.


I'm sitting in a glass cabin, in front of thousands of people. I'm wearing sound canceling headphones, I can't really hear anything besides
the sounds of the game and my own breathing.
I played really well in this tournament so far, I'm quite proud of myself.
I somehow managed to stay quite calm, even though I'm playing in front of a crowd, but things have taken a different turn now.

I have to play one of my teammates. It's currently 3-3 ZvZ, the next game will decide who's going to the finals.
I want to win, but I don't want to knock my teammate out.
Without my team I'd still be a random master league player, but thanks to them I'm playing here, in this huge tournament.
They taught me to play this game at a competitive level, I'm this good only thanks to them.

We're 20 minutes into the game. We're both maxed on roach infestor.
The map is quite open and huge. This game will probably be decided within a split second.
If anyone is caught out of position he'll probably loose right away.

I can't take it... the pressure is just too much. My heart is pounding, sweat is dribbling onto my keyboard.
My hands are shivering... I'm loosing it. I have to get my hands under control or I won't be able to micro properly.
My emotions are burning me on the inside.
I don't want to knock him out. I don't want to give him an easy win either, or we'll all feel bad.
I take a glimpse past my monitor. I can't see well due to the spotlights, but there's so many people cheering.
I don't want to disappoint them either.

I see his army approaching. I have to pull myself together, now!
I take my hands off the keyboard and close my eyes, just for one second, in the hopes that it'll calm me down.
And for some reason it does.
We're fighting. Any mistake can cost the game now.
None of us makes one, we trade army's pretty evenly, but then I can see it.
His reinforcements are running into the fight, but they somehow balled up.
I barely manage to catch them with a fungal growth.
He fucked up, I push forward, hard and relentless.
A few seconds later he gg's out. I won.
I can feel the pressure suddenly disappearing. I take a few deep breaths. I'm in the finals...


... I'm at the hotel. The finals are tomorrow.
My whole team is staying on the same floor. Everyone is offering me practice matches.
But I don't want to play, I want to chill so I'll have a clear head tomorrow...

It's the next day.
My finals are against a Terran player... It's my worst matchup.
He's very popular, I doubt I'll be able to win against him.
But knowing that I made it into the finals in my first big tournament makes me stay calm.
Even if I get steamrolled in the finals... I still accomplished a lot.

... He's leading 3-2. I have to win 2 games in a row to take it. I doubt I'll be able to.
But somehow in the 6th game, I manage to pull off some insane nydus play and barely manage to win the game.
3-3 again, well fuck me...
Suddenly I feel a chance of winning again, and the pressure is back.
I'm so nervous, my hands are shivering again and the final match hasn't even started yet.
Then I see the map he's chosen. I'm fucked.
The map is extremely terran favored in TvZ. Unless he makes a massive mistake there is no way to win this, and he won't
make any stupid mistakes...

I can't take it, I have to leave my box to catch some fresh air.
The organization decides that there is a 20 minute break before the final match due to some technical issues.
Well lucky me, 20 minutes to calm down... I feel like throwing up.
The crowd is cheering... I wonder how they would react if I threw up on stage.
I see my team mates waving me over. I walk to them, I can really use some encouraging words.
I notice my girlfriend is with them... huh? did I have a girlfriend?
Of course I do... silly me. (No, you don't...)

She immediately says "come with me!"
My team mates are a bit confused as she drags me away to the restrooms.
She's probably gonna give me a pep talk. The crowd is too loud, we can't have a conversation in the main room.
But she has something different in mind...
She explains that she knows the best way to calm down. I only know what she's on about once she starts undressing.
Right... this couldn't end up badly at all.
But I am way too nervous about my next match to think about this.

We have sex... in the restrooms, just minutes before my final match.
I can't believe I'm doing this. But it really does make me forget about the match for a bit...

... It's time... I'm coming out of the restrooms. The crowd is cheering.
I walk onto the main stage facing my opponent.
I'm calm... perfectly calm. I'm ready!
I shake my opponents hand "Good luck!"
I say this with absolute confidence.
He knows the map is strongly in his favor, he knows that he's the better player, me being so confident is probably fucking with his mind.
He doesn't know what to say and goes into his box.

I sit down in mine and stretch. I'm so ready, I got this.
I look at the map, and suddenly, I know exactly what I'm going to do.
There is one completely insane tactic I came up with recently, which may actually work on this map.
He's probably never seen it before, and I just broke his calm.

I smile... I got this!

I am in a house, no lights are on. I am with some friends and I have digital
files for the PS2 game, Armored Core. I go downstairs and some friend, my
brother and I are all playing Armored Core 4.The friend had deletes my data
or mods or whatever I have to sabotage me but I had them on a flash drive so
I still have them. My dad then walks in and says something I don't remember.
We then start watching a movie. After a while, the dream changes to more of
a half-lit rec-room scene. There are three people now, the friend, my brother
and someone else. They are wearing black suits with leis. I am looking at the
friend and it is almost like a character select in a game. His head, hands, and
feet have PlayStation buttons superimposed over them like I am selecting
button assignments. A short while later, the dream ends.

I am in a dark cave-like building with my brother. I am fighting him with
weapons from the PSX game, Ape Escape. We each have something like
five lives and I beat him the first time with the stun club but he gets me
down to one life. I then kill him again after he respawns so he now has
four. After he respawns I think, "damn, I should have used the time net,
he's going to kill me now." Sure enough, he kills me with his stun club.
Later, I am looking at a vending machine trying to figure out what to get.
The dream ends.

I am at a sort of indoor pool area with a bunch of people from my high school.
It is dark. I am walking around talking to a few friends and a few other people
are swimming in the pool. My crush is there as well and I say hi. She replies with
a half-hearted smile and walks over to a group of her friends. I talk with a few
of my friends for a while longer. I don't remember who. I then see her sitting on
some steps outside with two of her friends. I go over and talk to her. She sort of
blows me off and I go back inside. I see one of my other friends but I forget what
she was doing. The dream ends.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

Still kinda stressed with school, my dream recall is pretty bad, but I still remember occasional lucids.
Dreams are usually either short or not very vivid though.

… I’m sitting at a table with 3 girls. They’re all wearing fancy dresses.
We’re finishing our beers and waiting for a specific event so we can leave.
We are going to drive somewhere, I know where. I notice the girl on the other side of the table is insanely beautiful.
She has immensely detailed and bright green eyes, I can’t keep my eyes of them.
She obviously notices me staring at her, but she seems to like it.
She makes it very clear that she’s interested in me with very subtle signs.
I contemplate asking her to go for a walk until we’re ready to leave.

Then I finally realize what’s happening. She’s “perfect”.
And perfection exists in only one place: the dream world.
But this perfection intrigues me...
What is perfect? Why does she appear perfect? I want to find out and look at her very carefully.
The truth is, apart from maybe her eyes, she looks kinda normal.
I can’t find anything specific that gives me this feeling of perfection.
Maybe it is the way she smiles? This pure and innocent smile, something you’d never see in waking life?
I finish my beer, stand up and hold my hand out to her. “Let’s go.”
There is no need to bother with an explanation for the other 2 girls, I’m lucid, I’m in control,
I don’t want them to ask questions, so they won’t.
She gets up and we leave the room…

3/15/2011 - 3/16/2011: 1 fragment

I dreamed that there were little plastic animals on a shelf in a store. I was thinking of turning myself into one of those animals. [fragment end]

Dream notes: This dream was good news, because I was dreaming about a lucid activity. Hopefully this means I am getting closer to possible lucidity.

WILD notes: I drank two glasses of water before I went to bed @ 10:30 last night and I woke up with a full bladder around 3:00am. Unfortunately, I let my grogginess overcome my desire to try to WILD. I'm kicking myself for it because it was probably a prime opportunity to get some good results.

This was at one point probably the most vivid dream I have ever had. ok so I started in my 70 year old woman p.e. teachers house and she was very nice (this part of the dream is a little hazy) and I went her her room and I laid on her bed trying to fix something for her but I can't remember what it was. I left her house after a bit and it was afternoon and I seemed to be near a beach town with all the small kinds of building and houses of a beach and the beach off to the left (it just gets more vivid from here) so I walked out and my best friends dad was there with my best friend in my moms car so I got in. We drove along a beach road past houses and palm trees and he stopped and I got out. The beach was on the right so I started walking there but there was a huge strip of land made of sand and had a little grass and some palm trees I walked to the end where I found a fence with a small opening and I walked in and there were security guards with big machine guns looked like m4a1 and he said I had to leave immediately but I ignored and walked towards where some workers were pushing giant rolling cages down ramps into the water and there aS a dock and a huge walled water facility (no roof) out in the ocean and I looked far out to other end and I saw a whale being lifted over a wall by crane and I walked to the dock and started yelling at the owners (I'm a bit of an animal rights activist and veg) and the owners were all very fat and I said you fat f*ks (sorry for launguage) and I was just ranting for a bit and they had one guard that was 8-9 ft and about 600 lbs of muscle he wore a blue button up shirt and black dress pants and I called him a fat retard and i started walking back to land and there was a hotel on regular land with a over hang entrance and I walked through the door and some of my friends were there so I said hi and I turned around and the huge security guard was there and he started crying lol so I gave him a hug but I felt kinda crushed from his hug and I said sorry he left and then I gave this girl sofie I know a hug and 3 buttons from a button Ik shirt I was wearing undid themselves so I put them back and that was the end.

My dream recall would have been pretty good last night. Except I only wrote them down in a FA dream journal and not in real life.

Balls.

I was pregnant when the dream started, no explanation, and was making many trips to the abortion clinic.
They were telling me all sorts of things I wasn't listening to. I wanted to be sure of what I was going to do before I did it. I decided that this was my choice to make and no one would sway me in my pursuit of finding what was best for me.

I didn't want to just abort the baby with out the consideration of outside adoption and those sorts of things, but I also did not want to add another baby to a foster home or something. And I would not be able to take care of it while going to college.

So I kept it for awhile.

I did normal things, like watching netflix with my friends (the house looked like one from a friend in CO) but I was unable to focus, I all could think about was what I wanted to do with it.

I made more trips to the clinic. I went into a room with a large group of people sitting most of them watching a TV suspended from the ceiling. It looked like a large scale doctors waiting room. I looked a the TV to see some sort of cheerleading routine. I watched for awhile and thought that it would be a much harder decision if i was pursuing some sort of physical career or engaged in some sort of sport. I felt my stomach and realized that I could feel the child inside me.

My dad took me to the next appointment. (I do not have a good relationship with him irl). As we were walking to the door, I felt the baby inside me and officially decided to abort it. I realized that I did not have time to be the mother I would want to be to it, and that there is a lot more I wanted to do first.

Suddenly the baby's arms and legs started ferociously kicking and shoving the inside of my stomach, all four limbs thrashing. I could suddenly hear him screaming and gasping. He began kicking my pelvis and then turned around to scratch my organs, still screaming somehow. Finally he pushed his whole form against my stomach until almost his entire form could be seen, him still inside me. He was having a meltdown, freaking out that I had decided to kill him. My dad stops walking but does nothing. He continues to scream.

I touch were the side of his head was and told him to calm down, I wouldn't do it. He continued thrashing, screaming and gasping. I began crying and pleaded with him to stop, it hurt. I told him sorry and begged him to calm down. Slowly but surely his breathing returned to normal and he returned to where he had been.

I grabbed my stomach freaking out, and woke up.

Had a phantom baby for awhile. So strange.