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My friend Erin and I get out of the car it's probably 2 or 3 am..
We park unusually close to a warehouse club we frequent every saturday night. There is usually a crowd of 25-50 outside, hipster kids.
I only spot a few strays and it's silent, already I know something's up.
I'm noticing it's dirty and the floor plan is odd. Then I'm being, in some way, aggresively handled or grabbed by 2+ males,one definitely had a handlebar mustache. Then I begin spinning as if I'm seated on chair. It became faster and more violent, I become completely aware that I am asleep on the couch bracing my self with both arms. This is something new for me, to be almost simultaneously experiencing a percieved obe without fully "leaving" my dream experience. Finally I wake up on the couch trying to calm my breathing, feeling very relieved. Then I touch my eyes because they feel strange and tight. I see blood on my fingers and begin to panic. I run down the hall to the bathroom, I remember to pay close attention to the lightswitch as it brings no results. I feel relieved, briefly. I wake up on the couch again, this time a strange terrifying being is right beside me on the floor. I make a run for it, it's very aggressive and won't allow it. I start to feel exhausted. I wake myself up again, on the couch, I decide to go to my brother's room for some comfort/sanity. However when I arrive my voice is gone this time I become violent and frustrated (so I belive is why) scaryblurry guy comes back. I wake myself up again, couch, I wait......I hear the washing machine. Normal...until it becomes a loud ear piercing terrifying noise. This false awakening continues twice more before I truly wake up with other household appliances.

27.09.2010

Lucid #2 (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I saw a normal dream, that i cannot recall.
I woke up in my bed (first false awakening), stood up and looked at a wall in my room. I suddenly realized i was dreaming. Everything became super clear. I can easily say it was the most realistic dream, i 've ever seen. I had a strange feeling in my hands. I started rubbing them. The dream started fading. I closed my eyes and thought "spin spin spin", but my hands were busy rubbing each other, so for some reason i started spinning just my eyes, which of course didn't work. I woke up, completely frustrated and pissed off... :S

My latest lucid dream was at night. I found it quite interesting because it was the first dream I can ever recall that was in a night time setting. I remember there were street lights that were cylinder shape and they almost seemed detached from the poles. I remember being fascinated by how beautiful they were. The way I confirmed that I was in a dream was by counting my fingers. I counted 8 fingers on my right hand and then started counting my left hand as if that was normal but I stopped myself and thought wait a minute 8 fingers, I'm dreaming. When I first heard this technique I was worried about using it because I thought it would kind of freak me out but I actually found quite humorous. Of course the first thing I did was start flying but this part seems cloudy and I seem to remember that I could leave the area I was in for some strange reason.

I also saw a small truck driving and I flag it down because I wanted to talk to the driver but when he rolled down his window to ask me what I wanted I kind of freak out and got scared so I told I thought he was someone else. After that I thought to myself that I need to be careful or I'll turn my dream characters against me. I obviously got this from watching Inception.

I felt myself starting to wake up which had been my biggest problem in Lucid dreams in the past, I would get excited and feel like I was literally sucked up into the sky and out of the dream. This time I use the spin technique to stay in the dream and it work really well. The spin itself wasn't at all what I thought it would be though. I thought it would be like spinning in circles on the ground like you do in waking life but instead when I closed my eyes and started to spin it was one of the most amazing moments I have ever experienced. The spinning motion was more like spinning in water but a much more free feeling, almost like being in outer space and there was these amazing colors like a laser show dancing all around me. During the spin I kept reminding myself that I was dreaming because I read you can come out lucidity from doing this. What's funny is when I did stop I was mad because I thought I had woke up. I was in the exact same surroundings but still thought I had woke up. So I again counted my finger and there were 6 fingers on my right hand this time. Unfortunately I did wake up after this. But even though it was short it was the most control I have had in a lucid dream so far and it was the longest I have been able to stay lucid in so far. Progress is a good thing.

Type: Lucid, fragmented, experimental.
Lucidity: [3/10]
Vividness: [2/10]



Well first of all let me say that having another lucid dream is a very reassuring thing to me, and also motivating - shows that my efforts, readings from all of you in the forums and books, are all having some sort of productive, positive effect! I tried for a year before I had my first LD, and was worried it was just random/by chance, but that occured on the 20th of September, so this was only a little more than two weeks apart. My LD goal was to have two lucid dreams by October 31st, and I've already accomplished that so early int he month. Woot.

Anyways, the dreams-

First dream of the night I'm at a house party with people my age or just a little bit younger. Lots of fun, I'm drinking vodka but I really do not like vodka much , so I ask somebody if I can trade for their whiskey but am rejected so I go mix it with something and drink it anways [should've been a DS since I stopped drinking]. Lots of girls , really good time, pretty average sized house a little big, white walls and completely dark outside windows. Suddenly we learn that the cops are coming, and there are underage people there so we clean up remarkably fast and efficiently and there is only food and soda out. The cops pull up and are standing outside the door but don't knock for some reason, so I open the door and ask "How may I help you, officer?" and he responds by asking me why I just opened the door [which was pretty funny]. I"m worried since I don't want to be arresting purchasing for minors but they wind up arresting two other guys for completely unrelated reasons to the party and leave without trouble. I remember one of the guys having a bright orange bandana, plain, that just struck me as odd, possibly another DS.

I have another dream after that with the same cast of DC riding bikes or hanging otu near a lake outside, talking to girls, very summer ish, everything green nice big sky . [it's autumn now, no green to be seen]

So I don't recall precisly how I became lucid or the dream leading up to it but this is what I remember of the first one

I'm walking along a cobblestone path, woods on either side of me, and I decide to RC for a reason I cannot recall. I do the looking at hands technique, and then the pinch-ing nose technique and it passes and I verify that I am dreaming. Last time I got over excited and frantically repeated to myself "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming!" and lost control after about 15 seconds, so this time I was determined to remain calm and gently remind myself, which worked perfectly. I look at the ground, trying to focus my vision and repeat "stabilize" four times, without much effect, at least compared to the effect I expected it to have. Perhaps I just didn't repeat it emphatically enough, will try again in future. I felt a huge sensation of energy and heat flow through my body when I became lucid, and it was very pleasurable. The next part is a bit hazy, I'm kind of jumping around a house, through corridors, checking out rooms, wondering if I'm actually dreaming and keep RCing, worried that I'll hurt myself by flying or something. Almost walk in on my mom in the bathroom but she yells at me [weird but silly], I can't really think of what I want to do, not incredible lucidity or vividness, so I think "oh what the hell, I'll have sex" [since men can always think of that in any situation], so I enter a bathroom, big and plain with shower and big jacuzzi bathtub, ready for sex, and a gay guy is standing in there, and when I walk in he pulls down his pants and bends over, but thankfully his body is kind of plasticy and not incredibly realistic. At first I'm like "meh, it's just a dream, just want to test realness" but don't because.. well.. I'd rather have sex with a gorgeous woman! So I tell him that I want to have sex with the most beautiful woman, somebody I don't know, and he says fine and leaves the room, so I imagine the sexiest woman I can think of and she walks in the room. I must've put too much attention on the woman because when she came in I was viewing it in 3rd person, lucidity wavering but I've never experienced that so I didn't think to stabilize. So she kind of turned plastic-ish and kind of became a doll and the dream faded away

So I woke up from the dream, was about to record it in my DJ but first did a RC just for the hell of itand the nose pinch RC did to for me AGAIN! Awesome, glad I've been practicing that one in RL. False awaking FTW. So I'm lucid in my room, and decide to leave, walk out and I'm in a house different from where my room is, long hallway with windows, so I open the window and think about summoning a bow or sword to act out some Zelda situations [since my alarm is Zelda game boy tunes], but decide I don't really want to do that and fly out of the window to the ground, woods on both sides, dark sky like just after sunset, and a lake infront of me. As I was flying I tried to change the dream scene so I started to spin with my arms out and thought about going to a strip club to try the sex thing again, and closed my eyes, but amazing enough even though my eyes were closed, I guess my "dream eye"[?] wasn't closed with enough resolution and I could still see the scene around me, and the technique failed. So I'm on the ground and remember my intention/ goal to morph into an aquatic creature. So first I attempt running on water, and go across a small section of the lake, and it works, though I'm submerged up past my knees rather than on top, and my legs are burning from running/pedalling so fast. But still cool. So I'm on the other side, and a car drives into the water from around the bend, like on a highway completely natural, and I see the huge headlights under the water, and decide to dive in to get in the car and see what that's like, then try to morph, but at this time my ALARM goes off and I wake up

So yeah, those are my lucids! Not incredibly vivid, but I'm very excited about them anyways. The first one probably lasted five to ten minutes, and the second one only about three minutes due to the alarm.

Notes- In the lucid, my dream body felt SOOO natural it was great! I felt light, and fully in control, I had to keep questioning whether flying was safe since it felt so very real. "can I really do this, will I hurt myself?" The spinning dream scene change technique didn't work, but I can understand how it would, and will try again will definite success the next lucid dream I have. Also, I remember at some point during the first LD a fragment I forgot, I was going to have an orgasm but stopped the sex/activity or whatever was happening, since I remember that most people wake up and I wanted to test other things first. I will remember to try the whole way through[lol] another time to see what the circumstances are for myself, since LaBerge claims it doesn't happen with all people and I don't think it will for me since the lucidity at that point remained very vivid.

I found it difficult to create a new dream scene, and kept getting distracted by thinking "what do I want to do?" I opted against earth bending and sex for the majority of the lucid time because I didn't want to begin a fight unintentionally and turn it into a nightmare, didn't want sex because I didn't want to wake myself up, and didn't try to sit and close my eyes to dream- meditate for the same reason.

I think this was a result of a compulsion/urgency to control the LD because of a fear/ desire not to lose it and forget it, even though in the LD I experienced no loss of control, completely vividness, aside from when I was trying to control it and change things! Though I probably didn't lose my lucidity because I was so single minded on not losing it, but that was also most likely the cause of the bland lack of occurances in the dream. I probably blocked off other potential story lines and experiences because of it, resulting in lots of open spaces and corridors and a lack of other DC's, mostly dark and greyish lighting and color tones.

I need to
A Catagorize more Dream Signs and re evaluate my dream goals, based off of interactions with dream characters for more variety, and also hold off on the sexual and potentially violent/advanced stuff until I'm more comfortable, lots of stuff left to test.

B Read about dream scene changing tactics and focus on visualizing myself stabilizing the dream via techniques like focusing on each individual sense, etc. Will try the "stabilize" thing more since it doesn't take much effort, didn't really lose anything by doing it.

Anyway, thanks for reading, I would really appreciate any advice. What you focus on for incredibly basic aspects of LD DC interaction goals, and simple environment testing things? Trying to control flight more carefully? Trying to start conversation with DC as a way to get a dream cookie? Experiment with time? Change the color of my shirt?

Thanks a ton in advance!

I had just got done hitting a guy in the face when I walk through a metal door into what seemed to be a warehouse with a lot of semi truck docks. I was standing beside a guy who I dont know who he was. Then for some reason I realize Im dreaming. It hit me so suddenly I said Oh my god im dreaming! to the guy, and began running past all of the docks. I passed a worker and put my hands up and yelled IM DREAMING to the guy as I ran by. I then began to feel myself start to wake up so I first remember to concentrate on my hands I put my hands up and when I look at them I see them start to crack and split open like they were burning away and started to feel the effects of waking up more so I think fast and remember spinning, I spin around one time and I am back into my dream. I stand there and realize that I can feel my real body the one laying in bed and I can feel my position Im laying in, yet I know im standing in my dreamworld. I then run over to a door and open it to a nice outdoor landscape and there is a cement ramp with stairs and a rail. Well I think to myself I have ALWAYS wanted to fly in my dreams and never had the chance. So I think to myself I can fly and jump over the railing and begin to fly to a hill I see. I remember trying to go higher in the sky but I couldnt control myself. Then I crash into the hill softly. I am on my knees and I touch the grass with my hands and feel how real it seems and say Oh my god it looks so real! It was so vivid and realistic and I knew I was in a dream yet amazed by the detail. I then thought okay I want to close my eyes and when I open them be in a city. Well I close my dream eyes and when I open them I open my real eyes, and wake up. I was so happy to have my first lucid. Yet as I sat there I thought to myself am I still dreaming? But unfortunately I wasnt still dreaming.

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I awake on the same couch I fell asleep on and lay in silence as my roommate moves about. Someone whispers something into my ear, "You are dreaming." Naturally, I decide to plug my nose and perform a reality check. The voice wasn't lying, I am indeed dreaming! I stand up and make an attempt at spinning to solidify my presence. I stumble and wake up.

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Morning of October 19, 1989. Thursday.



In this dream, I become lucid, though my awareness shifts at times, though I remain in my dream without RAS modulation kicking in. It is near a wharf (the usual water induction factor), likely near the Black River in La Crosse. I am developing an attempt to meet and be romantic and sensual with my “mystery girl” (the long-term precognitive rendering of Zsuzsanna years before we met) who is in a lighter-colored ballroom gown (though she vanishes during the spinning fiasco).

I lucidly focus on the idea of “spinning”, which is something I read about at least once during this time period and I simply take it to mean to move about (or whirl about) on one’s (vertical) axis. Even so, when I am on the wharf, I start to will myself to spin around like a whirlwind. Over time, this does make me a little more aware (mostly due to vestibular system dynamics), but not by much. I begin to see patterns that resemble comic-book-like lines that usually represent tornadoes and whirlwinds. After a time, I see objects moving around me as if I were an anthropomorphic miniature tornado with random objects orbiting me as with a planet. I even notice an upright piano moving in a circle around me - though it begins to look like a cartoon - even with animated music notes also being “trapped” in my whirlwind and tumbling about.

After several minutes, mostly only the head of the Disney character Pete (also called Peg-Leg Pete and Big Bad Pete among other names) appears. I do not really feel threatened. In fact, I start to contemplate a possible conversation with him (almost forgetting that I am dreaming), but Mickey Mouse and Goofy eventually appear in this faux tornado (only the three characters in total - I am not aware of any others - and Pete is actually the most distant from the other two) while more distortion ensues until I wake with abstract thoughts. That was the last time I attempted the so-called spinning technique. It is probably from seeing numerous animations of cartoon characters fighting (including cartoon cats), where “tornadoes” result and with fists and heads and such emerging at times at random angles.

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