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1) I go in the bathroom to change (at grandma’s house?), but Rane is in there changing too. When I put on the clothes, something isn’t right. They’re choking me but I can’t get them off. Rane starts helping me but is taking too long and I’m starting to panic, I start getting lightheaded and reach back to pull some Velcro apart, and the clothes fall off.

We get in a bit of a fight, something about not trusting. I say something sarcastically to her. ‘So I should just…and trust…”

2) We’re preparing to move. There’s a truck outside. Dad is cooking something. I step down on a step where food is (spaghetti sauce?), but no one says anything about me getting the food dirty.

I ask mom if I can get my jacket, but she says I won’t need it?, but I want it.

Inside, the cats were put into rooms to keep them out of the way. Jazzy loves all over me when I go in. One cat gets out at one point and I put them back in a room. I feel sorry for them.

I remember one door was open a crack, I figure two cats must be sharing a room then if no one is using one - hopefully it’s Smoke and Jazzy since they might get along better than Spice and Jazzy.

I also remember trying to turn the lights on but they wouldn’t come on, the rooms were dark. I figured mom must have turned the breaker off. I wonder if the cats are scared of the darkness.

3) We’re heading somewhere in a vehicle but I’m not happy and want to go back. I say something about how I will, and mom makes fun of me. ‘Oh, you will?’. There’s a white screen projecting in the back, and symbols pop up telling where we need to go. One is a Y symbol.

4) Like 5 people getting into a pose for something.

Possible inspiration: A lot of these dreams had shades of dissatisfaction in them! Maybe that’s why I was in such a bad mood today. :/ And they were connected. I wonder if I've been falling back asleep and waking back up with this gathering of fragments. 2#: Had spaghetti the other day. Think one of the piece of clothes in #1 was a skirt I was thinking about wearing yesterday.

9:45 A.M.

I’m on the school bus sitting on the left side (as I did IWL).

Two kids in the front seat pass me a petition with a small list of names written on it. When I look at the top section, I see it’s actually a will for one of the kid’s (can’t tell if they were a girl or boy) mother who drowned herself. Her last name was the same as mine. I wrote my name down as the fifth signature. I think the will was something about taking care of the kid.

Later, a little boy is cheering about his signatures and how he’s close to be getting something. Apparently there’s a program where he gets new things the more signatures he receives, and he was close to getting some new toys/candy.

I had passed the petition over to the two kids in the seat next to mine, but when they were done with it, they passed it back to the original kids. I hear one say “only a few”.

There’s an old guy sitting in the seat the original kids had occupied. He’s telling a story or something. I’m wondering why an old guy was there and concluded that he must be a helper.

I’m in a school classroom, looking at a frame at the front of the room. There’s a shipping fanart drawing from The Hobbit, but there’s something off about it, something missing, and there is a scribbled comment nearby. Perhaps something that makes me think someone is against the ship. I get worked up and say, “I hate this place.” As I look more around the school. There are more fandom drawings, and I saw a few things that made me think ‘it looks the same as it used to in some ways’, like a blue piece of something sticking out from behind a frame that had apparently been there in the past as well.

-Helping a disapproving guy out with something in some kind of basement room(?).

Possible inspiration: For the signature part, I was looking at a competition thread on DV IWL that day where you had to sign up, and once there were enough people it would begin. For school, I had just been thinking earlier in the afternoon about old classmates. For drowning, the only thing I can think of is that on Wednesday, the newest episode of Free! revealed (though I had already known) that Rin’s dad died in a drowning accident. As for the old guy, one of my old bus drivers was one named Earl, and his son later took over.

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Notes:

I just realized two of my biggest dream signs (vehicles and children) both appeared in one dream. orz I’ve been thinking of them lately, so I can watch out for them IWL to remind myself to be aware of them in dreams.

Also, I want to make sure I note any emotions I feel in my dreams, since I don’t normally feel them unless it’s a bad dream (such as fighting with my mom). In the school dream, I was getting pretty irritated! But the feeling only lasted for a minute.

Decided to split longer dreams up between posts.

#1: Helping mom load some meat into a big black bag on the back of a truck. I find a bag of roast she missed and hand it to her and she put it in as well.

Possible inspiration: We bought a lot of meat to eat recently and we use black bags for trash. I was thinking about my vehicular dream sign before bed so maybe that’s where the truck came from (we don't own one).

#2: Grandma’s house. Don’t remember much, but I think I flew (grr I missed out on it). And something about hiding from grandpa?

Notes: Woke three times in all. Had a bit of trouble getting to sleep (thank you cat, but I’m not a big fluffy pillow), and was too tired to check the time and such. Really need to get to bed sooner, apparently 9+ hours ain’t enough. Also need to get more sleeping pills. Using the laptop is working out really great though. With my notebook, I couldn't understand my handwriting, but even if I mistype on the laptop, I can still read it. So used to deciphering typos by now. =P

Yesterday:

Hunting some kind of creatures. There was a woman who had to be separated from her daughter after giving birth to a baby. Apparently she was French, and there was this custom where the baby had to be taken care of by the other daughter?? So I went and got the baby.

Frag: Putting the ‘meat’ up on top of the van, me worrying about it attracting monsters

Notes: Think I woke up once before earlier but didn't recall anything. I'm using mom’s laptop to type up dreams throughout the night and later sending dreams through email to be put on my computer/DV. Was too tired to get too excited about it (no more hand cramps and hard to read hand-writing! saving time!), hoping to get better sleep and utilize it well.

Possible inspirations:
Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan). I also had a dream the other day about a dystopia where monsters roamed the broken down town I was in.

There was something going on, I don’t remember what, and I heard a girl nearby say how her mother had passed away. I imagined that was me in that situation and got really upset. I went to the bathroom and huddled down near a sink, crying into my arms. There were a few girls in there as well.

I leave the building, wondering if mom won’t think to see what’s wrong with me. I get in a van that we had a long time go. After a while, I realize it’s driving! The van is on auto-pilot and has been following a set path. I think to press the button on the dash, which reverses the direction. It takes a few minutes to find a driveway to turn around in, and then it’s heading back the way it came. I wonder if mom will have noticed I'm gone.

I get deja vu when I think about auto-piloted vehicles.

The half-asleep mind is seriously a strange thing. It had me convinced that I didn't have many dreams, or that I hadn't written them down much, so I didn't type them up. I turn off my computer for the night and go to check out my DJ, and find five dreams written down, and I remember the majority of them!

I'm over halfway down the very last page, so I've decided to end it there - my dreams for tonight probably won't fit in the space left. So I have a shiny new journal that I've been holding onto to use now. I had the first one for...two years and five months, wow...and nine lucid dreams in that time. I hope I have more in my new journal!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.26.2010

Kicked Out (Non-lucid)

We (me, mom and dad) arrive at a big storage unit in the van. They open it and look inside, but it's empty. They call to find out why.

I'm in the van sitting up front. There are two iPods mounted up on both sides, mom's and dad's. I turn them on but only frequency sounds comes through - fuzzy, beeps. I think they even had dials.

~ Somehow there's a couple game show type thing or something going on, and the man and women don't win together though I think they got along well. Later, they chat online publicly, a second chance to meet or something. They hit a snag when the man disagrees with something she says and they can't get along after that. She logs off. (I was actually able to see the text, but I don't remember it all.)

I pulled the van out of the driveway until it's turned around. A truck across from me pulls out and drives away.

My parents come back. I think I say sorry and explain that I didn't know how to turn back around. We pull in somewhere else and they get out and start talking to someone. I hear something about 'September'. 'Have until September'. I feel that something is wrong and I get teary.

I open my door/it's already open, and then person looks in and makes some joke about how it's 'the director's fault', and looking at me as if that's me. I'm not amused. I go to stand by my parents, and mom tries to look comforting.

- I think it was either about the storage or our house. We're going to have to leave it (the house) or we have to pay it (storage). I think I wonder what happened to our stuff. In real life, it's already past September though. I think I realized that in the dream.

Your Beauty Mark (Non-lucid)

Beauty mark - one to age, one to de-age. They're a sign of crushes.

Learning Japanese (Non-lucid)

There was a facility to learn Japanese. There was more to this dream, but I don't remember it.

Oriental (Non-lucid)

I was in this place that had a bunch of Oriental things in it. I wandered around looking at everything. There was boxes with old designs on them - women in Asian garb, etc. There were rocks with gems in them. Jewelry. I handled everything very carefully. It was all expensive, and I think I wondered what I should buy, because it was kind of rude to handle everything without buying something in the end.

- I'm looking at some pajamas hanging on a rack. They've got designs from Supernatural on them. Me and a guy pick out a top and bottom pair and go try them on, but mine don't quite fit - too big.

- Something about a potato chip that served as a key...

Abandoned (Non-lucid)

I(?) was driving through a flooded forest area. A little girl (looking pretty dirty) was sitting abandoned on a rock. I get out to get her.

Changed my colors. Also, only one page left in my dream journal! Then I move onto a new one. This one is starting to look beat up anyway, from being in my bed. Plus the cats trampling all over it. I've had it since June 2008. I hope that the next one will go faster - because it has longer entries in it, not just a bunch of fragments!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

10.25.2010

Darkness (Non-lucid)

I think it was completely dark. A creature made of dark substance was attacking me over and over again, and it couldn't be killed.

Bugs? (Non-lucid)

Star Trek like world. A guy wearing a Trek uniform took out something from it that was covered with black dots. He looked to the doorway were a woman was standing, giving her a questioning look as he held it up.

A Book Lover's Habit (Non-lucid)

We either went to a bookshop or walked through one. As we were leaving, I got distracted by looking at book titles and then the two people in the room. I said something to them and started to leave, and again, and the last time I started to leave I really got distracted. I think we talked about a previous transaction I had with them, and then we talked about these two forms, green and red, and something about one or both of them being my consultant.

I started to fill out the green form hurriedly, and my writing was messy. I accidentally signed my name (looking really bold, like I'd embellished it) in Japanese, as ケイトリン, and the woman pointed it out to me. I said it was an accident and wrote my real first name under it.

She said it was okay, and then started talking in Spanish about how someone she knew said some phrase sometimes. She repeated the phrase twice, and it was short. Might have had 'que' in it.

I knew mom was going to be mad, because she was outside in the car waiting. I took the red form with me to fill out later.

I got in the car and yep, mom was mad. I'm pretty sure there was someone else in there too. I was apologizing, and as I gestured, a half-eaten green sucker I had in my hand flew off the stick and landed somewhere in her direction. That actually eased the tension and we laughed a bit.

- Earlier: 'Bike', paint, my sister

- Might have taken place in this dream: masturbation in my mom's bathroom.

Fragments (Non-lucid)

~ My sister told me that she liked 'BL/yaoi'. She explained that gay relationships were more complex and interesting than the relationships you normally see in shows (which is actually my reason). I believe this took place in her living room, and her boyfriend was in the room.

- Mom, mad, my friend, pix?

~ I believe I(?) was in this room full of people. There was this game where you have to kiss someone or you're killed. Me and a boy shared a (bad) kiss. Then we had sex. Most explicit sex dream I've had in a while, and I think most detailed.

Bladder Desperation (Non-lucid)

Deja vu dream, as if I'd gone through the ordeals in it before.

Takes place in a school-like place.

I have to use the bathroom, but every one I come to has too many people around, and it's mixed. At one point I start to go in one but a guy comes in!

I pass a food court and a girl calls out to me, saying something like 'you're sitting with us, right?'. I look and the people at the table don't particularly seem familiar. I get the feeling she doesn't want someone else to take the seat. I pass on.

I see a girl, possibly with short dirty-blonde hair (I think she works there) and ask her if she knows of a private bathroom I could use. She takes me with her and we go to the staff area, where the counter is. We squeeze past them (I think the manager guy is there) as the girl explains that I really have to go. The guy and a few others tease me, saying something about bladder desperation and how it can be hot.

- Somewhere around here, I look at my finger and it has salt on it. I lick it off, and the guy says I should eat it with ice cream (I think this was inspired by me wanting to try french fries with ice cream in real life).

He (and a few others?) end up coming along with us, leading me through some very weird obstacles, one being having to wait for just the right moment for these yellow bed foam pads to swing away before you dived onto this other slippery, squeezing material and dug your way through. It was extremely hard and I didn't think I was ever going to claw my way out.

When we finally get there, it's a small space with netted areas off to the side. People are sitting at a table on one side, and on the other there's a guy playing with a kid on some more foam I believe.

I'm pretty worried, because the whole reason I couldn't go before is because I have a shy bladder, but there's people here too, and in a closed space.

I think they realize I can't go there when they see the people. One guy suggests that there's a place outside I could go - think he had before. I think I considered that I'd need toilet paper then.

- Earlier?: I'm singing on a show (with Lizzie McGuire?). We're sitting in a classroom.
- There was a girl sitting beside me and I mistook her for someone I knew who looked just like her, only she had one eye (I watched a Futurama episode night about Leela). I believe it's the two-eyed girl who tells me I sing well, even though I thought I wasn't singing my best because we weren't actual recording. We sung more than once.

Note: The whole reason for this dream was because I went to bed having to go, and every time I woke up after that I ignored it. Just before this dream my bladder was definitely started to get annoyed with me, but once more I ignored it. It was actually really interesting to see the dream that resulted from it.

My sleep schedule has done a complete turn in the last few days - I've been going to bed at the same time as my friend, and my recall is already improving. But man, being tired a lot is no fun. *yawn* Hopefully that'll improve soon.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

07.09.2010

School Life (Non-lucid)

Axis Powers Hetalia dream. School AU, Spain x Romano. The two were talking, especially Romano about his life, and he brought up Rome. Spain got a little sad, because Rome had been his teacher and he was dead now. Italy was also mentioned.

~Spain unbuttoned Romano's shirt to see his chest, which had writing on it.

~Romano took a shower?

~Fragments: Class, kids - 1, doesn't know answer

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APH Fragment (Non-lucid)

All I know was that it was Axis Powers Hetalia again and that it was about a couple. :/ I fell asleep before I could write it down.

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Crash Landing (Non-lucid)

Horrible vehicle accident dream. Took place at Renee Lane. I was driving in a truck(?) all over the yard, and apparently I flipped a switch that made me go really fast and I couldn't stop. I go flying over a hill but when I crash, I am no longer in the truck, but watching from the yard. I run over the hill panicking because mom and dad are in it, and how could anybody survive a crash like that?

When I get there, both of them are getting out looking banged up. I think I ask how dad is.

~Something about an injection in the neck. The tip was green.

~Something about me breaking a couple of fingers or maybe toes.

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Musical (Non-lucid)

There was a musical with four girls on stage. In the beginning I am one of the girls, and we're doing this part where we're sitting down and crossing our legs back and forth. It didn't really matter how we did it as long as we did it fast, but you had to start over again if you flubbed one a certain way.

Then I'm in the audience with my old school friend L. She tells me a story about how her 4 year old brother was killed by her other brother so that L, who was 2-3, could have his marrow to save her life. I think he got off because he was 'trying to save his sister'.

Someone in the audience asks the girls on stage what the 'funniest line' was. The middle girl thinks about it, says the line and explains why it's funny.

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H2 (Non-lucid)

Masturbation dream in the bathroom (not the one in RL). At one point Riley was in there, and jumped out. I thought to myself that that must be how she got on the something or other in the hall.

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Signing In (Non-lucid)

Mom needed help figuring out how to sign into a wallpaper site because she accidentally logged out. We couldn't find it anywhere though. She decided to call the site's tech support.

- On the left-hand side of the page in big letters was the word FUCK. I think I figured it was her username.
- When I woke up I got that deja vu feeling that the site was familiar.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

06.07.2010

SpSi (Non-lucid)

Spamano (from Axis Powers Hetalia) stuff that I unfortunately can't remember

Fighters (Non-lucid)

Like an anime or game...there was a team of fighters. Two were siblings (not sure about genders). One was 'light' and the other 'dark', each dressed in outfits kinda like Celty's from Durarara!! [full pic]. White and black in color of course. There were about six of them in this room...and I get the feeling there was other people, but.

At one point the two leaned on the front of a vehicle. Someone else (me?) was observing them off to the side, thinking that it was sad that it was hard for them to be together - 'dark' couldn't stay out in the light for too long because his powers/being came from the dark. But 'he' still went out to hang with 'light'. I'm pretty sure the vehicle was out in the dessert, too. o_o

Horror 2 (Non-lucid)

Horror. A woman was hanging from something I believe. Her hair was all clumpy and bloody. She cut her hair off until only a little was left on her head. She pretended to be dead as a guy came in/back. He caught her.

Note: Second horror dream... I think it's reflecting my stressful thoughts in real life. :/