All DJ Entries

Family Musical

I'm sitting with my family in a shopping center, looking around at nothing in particular, when I hear a strange sort of music from the group behind me. Turning around, I see that my family is using coins and glass cups to make ringing noises with a definite rhythm and melody. Delighted, I pull a coin from my pocket and join in. It takes me a few tries to figure out how to hit it to get a clear bell tone, but once I figure it out, it's really fun!

At another point I decide to try out my tap dancing skills. Although I'm wearing tennis shoes and I've never practiced this before, it goes pretty well. Except then one of my relatives notices my efforts, smirks lightheartedly, and shows me how it's done. Her shoes are much better than mine for the purpose, and I recognize that I've been put in my place.

Another cousin, a boy of about eleven years, goes over to the nearby piano to play something. But by now, the passersby in the mall have noticed our little show, and they all flock around the piano, expecting great entertainment. To give him a little breathing room, some of us come over to the piano and shoo the other people a bit farther back. His dad sits down with him and they start playing a piece together. Mostly it's just the little boy, but the dad sometimes has to play chords in the high register because the boy's arms aren't long enough to reach that far. In the middle of the performance, a stranger who knows the piece comes up and starts pointing out mistakes in the boy's version, interrupting the father. How annoying.

Grandparents' House

I'm hanging out in my grandparents' house when Mom tells me to go fetch Grandma. I do, and when I come back I find out that Mom is going soon, leaving me to stay here for the night. Just me in the house with my grandparents? I'm uncomfortable with this prospect.

Dramatic Entrance

I'm at a ballroom dance behind a glass wall from the main dance floor. I decide to mischievously break the glass, but I'm not sure exactly the best way to do it. I try it multiple ways, rewinding the scene every time to play it over again.

I remember a fragment in which I was interested in a particular (person who strips in front of a cam). I even tried subscribing, without realizing my parents would be able to see I did so, but I couldn't find the button to do so even though I imagine it shouldn't be hard to find.

I also remember a fragment in which there were visitors, and I got called by one of them while I was trying to find out how to subscribe. My mom called me as well if I heard him and I tell them I did.

Also a little fragment on seeing 4 black plastics with long PCB's in them, where my dream-self was convinced they were PS3 consoles. I put one apart to use for playing later.

All of these fragments were connected somehow, but I couldn't recall how exactly, or in what order they happened.

Sunday, 2/24/13

It's 12:44am, just woke up after 2 1/2 hrs of sleep. Went to bed at 10pm, being wiped out after 2 long days of work.

DR 1 - 12:30am
I'm at home with somone. That someone is getting his coat on and leaving. I ask him :Are you leaving, Mr.???

I'm home alone, and it's at night. I see some lights in the skies and something like a spaceship. Then it disappears. I go from window to window, pushing my face against the window screen so I can see more out, then stopping, when imagining, what if alien face was just outside the screen.

I see an image of an astronaut in full white space suit running in the skies, slowly, as if having problem because of the suit. Then I see, he is just a reflection of a guy running on the ground. Little further up he comes up on a berm with other guys in russian uniforms and I realize, they were there excercising. (military, not fitness). (I saw pic of astronaut in andrej's post)

There are another lights, this time on the sidewalk. There is also a woman standing. Dressed in bluish robes. I'm scared of her.

From another window I see small light high up in the skies, then next, then next, turning on one by one. I'm thinking I'm seeing my first real UFO.

DR 2
I'm cleaning the kitchen. There is a small piece of baked salmon leftover, so I eat it. I see another one underneath, I hesitate, but take a small bite. Doesn't taste bad, but I realize this second piece is a leftover from before and I'm pissed that I didn't notice. I look closely and there is small white mold on it.

DR 3
I have a small, humanoid shaped robot of blue color. He is shiny, like from plastic. He is inteligent, I can talk to him. So we talk. I ask him what's his name. Don't remember what he told me, so I call him Justin or Jason. I call him and then look if he came, don't see him. Then I look down and he is right next to me.

WBTB of about 1-1/2 wake up in morning 9am

DR
I standing in front of the door with 2 kids. I'm attaching flashlights to their belts. We are going in a maze. Not haunted, but not kosher either. Behind the door is a snack bar, I'm thinking we should get some water. But the lady there is nasty and for some reason I can't buy water.

We enter the maze. It's kind of an amuzement park. It's all inside of a building, rooms are different sizes. I decide to take the right path. I'm thinking if this was a good choice. If there are any statistics, that builders of the maze knew, as to which path majority of people take, left or right, and if it had any impact on what types of attractions were placed on each path.

But to the left, the path is narrow, some kind of a small room that bends to the right. On the left path, the room is big, well lit, like a library. As we walk, I see on the right side some kind of rails on the ground. As small train like ride comes and stoppes there. Then another one and another one. Then they all go accross our path to the other side at great speed. I see this as a obstacle course. if we don't time it right, they will collide into us. I want to stand there and observe the pattern, but the little boy with me says let's go and he starts going. I grab girl's hand and we dart accross. We make it ok.

I turn back and I see a tall monkey, like a skinny godzilla. (worked on godzilla movie IWL). He is about to throw a biggish purple bouncy ball at us. I pick up the girl and she kicks it back to him. By now it's not a gorilla, but 12 foot tall A. Lincoln. (i don't like the commercials for his movie).

Next room is small. There is a something looking like a large sleeping bag on the ground. One side is opened and it has couple rows of large teeth. It looks like entrance to shark's mouth. It's an exhibit. Girl puts her foot inside and the things pulls her in. I walk on the outside to the end of the "sleeping bag" and I see her squirming there. There is another something inside. I shake the thing and she comes out naked. The thing inside took her clothes.

As we keep walking, they start to shut the lights off. it's ok, because we have flashlights. Every time we came to brightly lit area, we turned our flashlights off, to conserve the batteries.
--------------------------

*It's noon and I'm sipping mint tea from 3 bags of tea. Took 50 mgs of B-complex at 11:45am. Planning on taking a nap.

02/23/13

Note: Someone named Lara has been visiting us for the past few days with the goal of helping break some psychological blocks I am having problems with. After she was here it was discovered she had been working for some Templars in her home world, but she has agreed to help with the blocks in exchange for a cure for her son, Anthony, who has an inoperable cancer. Of course it's not inoperable for someone like Q or Washu… The area she works in looks for time fluctuations which can be used to see through time, know the outcome of certain operations before doing them… know what Assassins are going to do before the Assassins even know… She said they found a timeline where an Altaïr was about to die in the natural course of the timeline. They managed to grab him, Lara said the point was to use energy healing so Altaïr could learn how to feel love… but the truth no doubt has more to do with mind control. Lara truly believes people like Altaïr (Assassins) don't have the capacity to care about anyone due to how they grew up so they need to have their hearts healed… the final point being my goal, to go into the facility where they are holding Altaïr and get him out of there… In order to make sure as few people as possible get hurt Lara says she can get me in by telling them I am a soul healer (not a lie) and I can have the effect they are looking for on Altaïr.

Moon Assassin
I am on a beach taking a walk on a very peaceful day. I remember my goal, and first I have to go meet up with Lara so she can sneak Sailor Moon into the Templar facility. Before I can even open a portal, however, Q appears with a woman I don't recognize, who turns out to be Lara. I have never actually met Lara face to face… Q says he will take us to the correct world, then snaps his fingers to transport us. When we appear, we are in a house. In a bedroom. Lara leaves the room and heads downstairs. An older woman eyes Q and me suspiciously as we follow Lara. Q says he will take care of Anthony's treatment, it is almost done, then it is not only guaranteed that Anthony's current cancer will be gone, but he will be immune to any cancer in the future. I notice that Q looks like a doctor. The older woman looks similar to an older version of Lara, and I realize she is primarily looking at me. She says she doesn't want any of "them" around Anthony… then asks what I am doing here. She says she knows the doctor has to see Anthony, and has even accepted the demons Lara has to deal with in order to get Anthony cured, but no one else is to have access to Anthony. Lara starts to tell the woman my name… then hesitates… I say my name is Serena… Serena Usagi, using the name off of Sailor Moon… and I am a healer, so who is this "them" she thinks I am? She scoffs and says I already know… and if I am a healer she is the queen of England… then tells Lara to get me out of her house. I am about to question why the woman doubts my being a healer, Lara points at a mirror… I am dressed like an Assassin from Assassin's Creed… oops… that's not how Serena dresses… so I use the crescent moon wand to transform into Sailor Moon.

The older woman, who I determine is Lara's mother and Anthony's grandmother, does a double take. Lara hurries me from the room and outside. She eyes my Sailor Moon form for a bit. She says she has no idea who Sailor Moon is, but that means the others probably don't, either. I ride in a normal car with Lara for a while into the mountains, then up to a gate that is mostly hidden. It reminds me of the entrance to some secret military installation that's not supposed to exist. The guarded entrance leads to a tunnel that leads deep within the mountain.

Lara pulls up beside a guard gate and says she has to speak to the captain… whoever that might be. The guard asks who I am. She just says the captain will want to talk to me, she was looking through a time flux and might have found the answer. He wants to know what answer she has found. She says she might have the cure, and the captain will know what that means. He asks again who I am. She gives him the name Serena Usagi, known in my home world as Sailor Moon, the moon healer. He talks on the communicator inside the guard station for a bit and then finally comes back. He opens the gate and tells Lara to follow the vehicle in front of us, and do not leave the path at all, he says we have only limited access here. With a relieved sigh she agrees and drives on after what looks like a jeep of some kind. Lara drives through what seems like a maze of passages. There are numerous large doors along the passages. Now and then one of them will open and the jeep will lead us through it, then it will close behind us. After getting completely disoriented we finally come to a stop. There are several guards around us when they lead us into an office room. There is a man there, and he looks me over closely. He asks who I am. I tell him I am Serena Usagi, Sailor Moon, a soul healer. Lara says she has seen me heal the hearts of those who have never learned to love. He turns on a monitor. He indicates I should look at it. There is a white room with only a bed and bathroom facilities. There is a man in the room. It looks like Altaïr, though he isn't dressed as an Assassin, he is just in plain white clothes. He is sitting on the bed doing nothing. The captain tells me to do what I have to do. I ask if he really thinks I can heal someone over a television link. I have to be in there with him. He looks at me suspiciously. He says if I am in there he can't guarantee my safety. I tell him I have healed people as powerful as Vegeta when he is attacking me… He says he has no idea who Vegeta is. I tell him I have to be in there with Alt… the person he wants me to heal. Did I just screw up? Maybe not… he says I will be taken to the holding cell, but I will be on my own, even if the prisoner attacks me. I say that's ok. I am led through some halls and to an airlock. What do they think Altaïr is, an alien? Maybe just to make sure he doesn't get out? I remember Lara saying he got out once and killed a bunch of Templars, almost getting out of the facility before getting trapped again. I guess they don't want a repeat occurrence. I go into the middle area of the airlock, the door behind me closes, the one in front of me opens. I go into the small room. Altaïr is looking at me now… hatefully glaring at me, though I notice a slightly puzzled look when he gets a better look at my Sailor Moon form. The door immediately closes and locks behind me. No matter. I'll open a portal. I focus on opening a portal. Nothing happens. A dampening field? A voice from nowhere asks if I really thought they would let a stranger walk right into a secure facility and then walk out with their most valuable prisoner. I decide to stay with the Sailor Moon theme. Open the door or in the name of the moon they'll be punished. The voice says he knows perfectly well I am not Sailor Moon, she is a dumb cartoon, I am an Assassin, so now they have two. I do a Cosmic Moon Power blast on the airlock door, it looks like a Final Flash from Vegeta…

and it blasts the door off of its hinges, practically melting through it. Altaïr is doing a serious double take… another Cosmic Moon Power blast takes out the outer door. Alarms start going off everywhere. I tell Altaïr it's time to blow this pop stand… up… I wonder how far I have to go to pass the dampening field. There are guards outside the second melted door, it looks like they're not sure what to do. Some of them shoot at Altaïr and me, others turn and run. The ones who are firing change their minds after "Cosmic… Moon…" before the blast goes off. They run down the hall and around the corner. I try a portal… nothing. Altaïr and I head farther down the hall. Someone tries to ambush us from around a corner. I hear the popping noise when Altaïr breaks his neck. I try a portal. It opens! I tell Altaïr that is our exit, I figure the dampening field was probably just around the holding cell. I lead Altaïr through the portal and into the control room on the moon before I wake.
 
Secret Escape
Note: This is a case where I think I was having two variant dreams at the same time. In one of them I went to meet with Lara so she could sneak me into the compound where Templars are keeping Altaïr, but in the other one I used Avalon to get in on my own. The previous one is journaled above, this is the second version.

I am on the beach as in the first dream. But this time Q doesn't show up. I wander down the beach for a while longer before deciding I need to go find the Altaïr who is being held by a bunch of Templars. I focus on opening a portal to find him. I focus on finding the one that Lara has told me about. After a brief hesitation, during which I wonder if it is going to work, a portal finally opens. I go through the portal into a long hallway that is large enough to handle vehicles.

It looks like some kind of underground military facility. I wonder if this is where Altaïr is being held. I wonder how I can find him. I need to get access to their computers. I can locate him through that. I go through a door and into an office. The people in the room seem to know who I am, and a man asks why I'm not dressed. He throws some lab clothes at me, so I put them on. He then hands me a syringe. He says that's the drug, the strongest version yet. He says Altaïr will either be very receptive to the programming, he will be dead, or go stark raving mad. I look at the syringe... there's no way I'm giving that shit to Altaïr… The man, apparently sensing I am hesitant, says this is my project… he's not going in there. I look and see I have a keycard. I use it to open the door the man is looking at. It leads to what looks like an airlock, and then into a white room. I see Altaïr is in the room, he is chained to the far wall. I am being watched. So I try to act like they expect. I go over to Altaïr… who looks like he is unconscious. A voice comes from the speakers, telling me to administer the drug. I have to get Altaïr loose… then open a portal. The needle on the syringe… I can pick the lock with that! So I reach for one of the chains and I realize it isn't really attached to anything. It looks like the locks have already been picked? The next thing I know the syringe has been taken from me and is stuck in my neck, Altaïr is loose, he says we are leaving here now unless I want a dose of my own medicine… An alarm is going off, I tell Altaïr to cut it out, we're on the same fucking side. He takes my key card and injects the drug into me, pushing me aside and going for the door. Great… I'm wasted on drugs… I toss the syringe aside and try to clear my head. Everything sounds echoed and far away. I hear a commotion outside, someone has come into the room with me and is saying something about an antidote. I focus my energy on clearing out the drug and my head clears. I push the two men away from me and head in the direction I think Altaïr went. People behind me are asking me what I'm doing… I need a doctor if I hope to survive that drug… I ignore them. In the next room there are two dead people. One of them has his head at a really awkward angle, the other has an unidentified object sticking out of his neck… ok… on the right path. I follow the commotion down the hall.

A couple guards shoot at me before realizing who I am. I send a wall of telekinetic energy down the corridor that stops the bullets and pushes the guards back against the wall. I see Altaïr around a corner, he is looking right at me now. I'm not sure how to convince him I am actually there to get him out… Altaïr disappears down the hallway. I follow him. When I come around the corner someone shoots at me. Altaïr is shooting at me? Apparently he grabbed one of the guards' guns. I see someone behind Altaïr, aiming at him. I use telekinetic energy to knock that person back against the wall. Altaïr disappears down a side passage. Shit… this is ridiculous. Maybe my disguise is too good… so I switch to my usual Assassin robes before following Altaïr again. I hear more gunshots. I am on the right path when I find a dead guard. Altaïr aims a gun at me, but then stops when he sees I now look like an Assassin. He points the gun at someone behind me and fires… but gets only a click, he's out of ammo. I look behind me and see a couple guards there aiming guns. More guards on the other side of Altaïr. I get over closer to Altaïr and tell him it's time to get out of here before opening a portal. Someone is yelling to shoot them both, so I just shove Altaïr through the portal before following him through and waking up.

All I remember was hiding out in a bathroom with v.l., we were being chased by zombies? We made these makeshift flamethrowers... from hairspray, rubbing alcohol, and lighters. We rubbed rubbing alcohol on the top and bottom of the hairspray bottles. We would light up the lighter and spray on top of the lighter to get flame. Yuppp, that's it. I think we were in a mansion and running room to room.

I woke up trying to remember anything at all. It hit me that I had lucids, but I wasn't really sure about them. I became lucid by performing RCs. I tried to make p.w. appear by waving my arm in front of me starting from left to right. She did appear, and I kissed her. This lucid was much more stable and lasted a bit longer than previous ones. I slipped back in to the dream, then lucid, then slip back, for at least 3 times. I remember trying to fly once, but I ended up just floating after jumping. After remembering the lucids, I wasn't really sure if I dreamed of being lucid or if I was actually lucid cause I was really surprised of what I did. I didn't think I would "want" to see her after not dreaming of her for so long and that's why I think I was dreaming of being lucid...

February 23, 2013 - 6 hours in - 3 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD, FA, RC

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length, doing the cycles the same every 1.5 hours after that. Afterward I fell asleep to a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit. The mantra only was done on other natural awakenings.

I wake up in bed. I plug my nose to see if I can breathe, but at first I can't tell. I try a little more and it seems like some air is getting through, so I try harder and I can definitely breathe. This is in fact a dream, only problem, there is no vision. I don't open my eyes right away so I don't open my real eyes and wake up. Somehow I eventually see, perhaps by opening my eyes slowly, and it is rather light in my bedroom. (This time, in reality, it is actually pretty dark.) I can feel the sheet on my body. I reach for my cellphone, to do some experiments which I had been hoping to try. The phone is pushed up against the headboard by a pillow, and grab it carefully so it doesn't fall down behind the bed. I pinch its (hard in reality) plastic skin somehow and hold the phone in my hand while I periodically rub my left hand on my wrist to stabilize.

I turn it on and the background looks normal, but the two rows of apps are made of random colorful icons and names I have never seen. I look for one called "Gallery" and tap it. Like reality, there are three categories of pictures, but they have the names "MILK," "GREEN ONIONS," and something else along those lines. One of them shows a picture of a cartoon milk carton. I think I tap on one but forget what is in it.

Then I go back to the home screen and look for an app called "Maps." I tap it, but it displays something like a game intro screen with a cartoon guy in a green shirt in a cartoon city. There is a message that pops up that I think had to do with setting it up. I give up on this and go back to the home screen, and I want to activate the Siri-like voice assistant, but before I can do that, the phone displays an error message with technical jargon and turns off.

I think at this point lucidity also disappeared. Then I think outside the window some people I know are wanting me to come outside, so I tell them I'll be out soon. I wake up shortly after this.

February 22, 2013 - 8.5 hours in - 30 seconds - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length, doing the cycles the same every 1.5 hours after that. Afterward I fell asleep to a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit. The mantra only was done on other natural awakenings.

Me and a friend are driving at night down a street with a traffic light ahead and I see a kid in a white jacket with hood who looks like he is running away from home. I suggest letting someone know about this, but then I notice 3 or 4 duplicates of this kid walking at regular intervals down the road away from us. I get out and see the kid is actually looking backward somehow, with a blank, lifeless expression.

I find this creepy, but also then realize that this is all a dream. I plug my nose and breathe, then I run up to the next kid, who has the same expression. This creeps me out again, ending this dream scene and putting me in my dark bedroom in a false awakening.

I plug my nose and know it is still a dream. I can see the low light from the window. I don't like how it is still dark, so I shout "Light!" but it does nothing. I try to reach over for my phone to try stuff on it, but the dream ends and I feel my right hand making a plugging motion, not on my nose, but on a pillow. I open my eyes and see that it is dark only because my head is under the blanket. I have woken up for real.

February 22, 2013 - 5.5 hours in - 30 seconds - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length, doing the cycles the same every 1.5 hours after that. Afterward I fell asleep to a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit. The mantra only was done on other natural awakenings.

I am standing there with someone in a hotel when a thought about lucid dreaming runs across my mind. I suddenly realize that I am in fact in a lucid dream and I rub my hands together and plug my nose and breathe. The decor is very red - the carpet is red, but not a solid red, but based around that color. The walls are paneled with a red wood.

The impulse comes over me to run and explore and I do so. I want to run down a hallway ahead and to the left, but before that is a row of pillars parallel to the wall, and each pillar is made of the same wood as the wall, in a similar shape to a two-by-four. I think I will have to run straight through this and then left, but then I see there is nothing in between the pillars and I cut the corner.

Running down this hallway, I run right into a large room. There is a large green leafy potted bush that is too big to jump over in reality, and I decide to try it in the dream. I do it, so then I jump with the expectation of flying through the air (like a long jump, but unrealistically long). I fly past a chandelier but then the sensation of motion ends and it blacks out. I spin around which I feel but then the sensation of laying in bed returns to my body, but from the legs up, not all at once.

I did not record the dream until later however, so this was either a false awakening or I went back to sleep to wait until the next WBTB alarm.

February 13, 2013 - 5.5 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, SSILD

5 hours in I wake up and do 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length.

I am riding in a car at night with houses being passed. I could tell the dream was ending, evidently spontaneously realizing it is in fact a dream. I felt I could tell from the feeling in my stomach, and I complained about this out loud to the others, but I don't know what if anything was their reaction. (It's also possible the feeling was just the hunger I felt before going back to bed.) I try to increase lucidity by performing simple addition. Despite rubbing my hands together, the visuals fade to black from the outside in.

I spin around, which I feel (despite the fact I was sitting down moments earlier) and the scene comes back. I look at my hands, but through my left eye some fingers on the left hand are invisible, and through my right eye the right hand is totally invisible. The car comes out of a tunnel into daylight, and this seems to correspond with the car and tactile senses disappearing. What remains is the visuals of following a narrow ledge curving right - too narrow for a car - on a sandstone cliff with the sound of a car driving over a bumpy road. I look right and my view is flying through the air (with no feeling of flying) while curving left. I see irregular sandstone cliffs, much like you would see in the Southwest. They are all the same color, but the cracks and irregularities are detailed and I marvel at the scenery. I do however note a street sign on a post standing at the top of the cliff. As the view is flying along, it blacks out and I feel myself laying in bed.

February 11, 2013 - 9 hours in - 5 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, FA

I wake up after 5 hours via alarm and do the full set of SSILD cycles, then I wake up earlier than the alarm, every 20 to 90 minutes, doing a few cycles each time as I fall asleep.

I am in a preexisting dream that I find extremely undesirable, although I don't remember being scared per se.

I realize on some level that it is not real, possibly because of the emotional reaction involved. I blink rapidly and shout, "Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!"

I am laying in bed in my dark bedroom. (In reality at this time it should be rather bright.) I plug my nose and amazingly, I can breathe. Somehow this false awakening ends into another, with the same action performed by me. I get up out of bed quickly and try to feel the wall, and I feel my closet door and then the wall, and then I feel the light switch. It is already up, and I flip it down and there is still no light. I open the door and run down to another part of the house.

J. is here and in front of her I plug my nose and breathe deeply. I say that is physically impossible and ask her how I did that. She says something like, "It only sounds like you did that." Then I look at my hand and start counting fingers out loud - "one, two, three" - but then I realize my hand actually looks normal. So I give up on showing her my hand and leave.

Now it is light everywhere, sort of blue-ish. I explore the house at this point. Unlike the last lucid dream, this time I realize a lot of it looks different from reality, but I don't recall most specifics. I am able to run from place to place, which I do a lot since it is tireless and fast. I go in the basement and am surprised the door is open. Downstairs the walls and ceiling are finished, with them and the floor all having paint like the upstairs walls. The ceiling is mostly flat but slopes downward slightly near the long sides. The overall shape of the basement looks like reality. On the floor I see a black dead centipede broken in a few pieces that is about twice the size of reality. This make me apprehensive of what I might find down there, like spiders, but it looks clear and I proceed with the stairway to my left. On the right wall, some dirty insulation is strewn on the floor, with dirty water on the floor there. I look at my hands (this time there are extra fingers) and shout "Clarity now!" but this only seems to make everything blur temporarily, each time I tried it.

Back upstairs, I see a white bookshelf with some of my books on it. I take one and start reading randomly. It talks about vaccines (which this particular book very well may have), in detailed technical jargon that I try to comprehend without focusing too much, but cannot. I glance at the rest of the pages open and various medical treatments are mentioned, with each one named in small caps. The book, font, and paper are very realistic.

Next, my idea is to get my car keys and drive away.

It seems at this point my bedroom and the dining room are arranged in the manner of the old house, but I don't notice this in the dream. In the dining room, I see the loop the keys are on hanging on a horizontal door handle. They look fake to me, but I figure they'll work anyway, so I try to take them. However, the door handle is attached on both ends, so it is impossible to get the keys off. I give up on these and head towards my closet in the other room (which is like the closet of the new house but in the position in the room of the old). I evidently feel the dream fading, as I plug my nose and breathe to try to keep it going, as I head towards the right door. Before I can, however, I wake up.

January 31, 2013 - 8.5 hours in - 5 minutes - WBTB, SSILD

Every 90 minutes or less I awoke, and did a couple SSILD cycles as I fell back asleep.

I am playing around with a cellphone, but it isn't working quite right.

I then suspect that I am dreaming. I look outside. I can see the leaves on the trees clearly, although my focus fluctuates, even though I know somehow that I have no contacts in or glasses on. (Although I never remember that it is really winter anyway!) I know for sure that this is a dream.

I forget this part somewhat, I believe I just walked around the house, happy to finally be lucid for a decent period of time, and not doing anything to upset it, just rubbing my hands together a lot. I don't remember thinking anything in the house looked odd, but it probably did look different, I just didn't notice.

I look at the details in some objects. In the bathroom, the brown tissue holder looks real, I can even see the dust on it, which was a lot. I sit and close my eyes for some reason. I realize my mistake and visualize the bathroom being there when I open them, which it is, but the counter is a totally different shape and color.

I look at a book on the bookshelf. The text is in a similar pattern, but the chapter titles don't make coherent sense. In another book, the pages are stuck together a lot, and I turn first to the index, then back to the main text. Some numbers in a list are out of order or repeated.

After this I think to myself I have run out of ideas, probably due to poor memory and imagination even in a lucid state, and because it has lasted several minutes already, longer than any since the 1st lucid dream. I take an object from a shelf above the desk. Some little pieces break off and I try to put it back together for some reason (even though it doesn't exist). This distraction causes the dream to go black and I feel myself laying in bed.

January 29, 2013 - 8.5 hours in - 30 seconds - WBTB, SSILD

Every 90 minutes starting 2 hours in I set an alarm and did a few SSILD cycles as I fell back asleep.

Pre-lucidity, I am at a nice tropical beach supposedly in Costa Rica. I think how much nicer the weather is here and try to remember what it was like when I left, but I can't remember.

I converse with my friend A. and he asks me if I got a permit for the clams I was gathering pre-lucidity. This memory prompt triggers lucidity - I say, "Oh no, this is a dream!" (I had wished it to be reality!) I look at my hand and it is distorted - this time, some fingers are short but alternate between being short and their normal length. I show A. and say, 'See? This is a dream.' He says, "Wow," in a realistic manner, as though he believed me.

The scene turns blurry and I rub my hands together, and it restabilizes. I see the surface of a trash can and it is a pattern of little white pebbles, like a real trash can you might see in a park. I look up and see the sunlight coming through the tall trees. I feel it fade and shout "Clarity! Clarity! Stability!" but the scene fades into my bedroom.

This later turned out to be a false awakening however.

January 23, 2013 - 5.5 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, MILD, RC

Did about an hour long WBTB and then used the mantra, "Look at your hands, you're dreaming."

I am laying on a brown-patterned carpeted floor near a wall, when I think to look at my hand. It actually looks quite normal. Then I plug my nose and can breathe - this is a dream.

I turn around and I am in a hotel room laid out like a corridor, with spaces set off to the left and the right midway down. The walls are painted dark brown. The ceiling is black. I go into one of these spaces and feel a wall corner (one not on the corridor) - it feels realistic, even with both hands and the side of my arm. The room is dark towards the door, so I turn a couple lights, which work realistically.

I go out the door and go right in the hallway. The color scheme is much the same and ahead the hallway goes diagonally left while another goes straight right, then goes straight again while another goes straight left. Straight ahead are high windows looking in to the indoor waterpark. On the wall corner is a sign in red letters directing towards a restaurant to the right. I forget the first word, but the second word was Sadler's, which changed to 5tadler's when looking away and back, which then changed to Bailey's (and all in black letters) when looking away and back again.

At several points throughout I look at my hands again; each time they look real, except for one finger being shorter than normal.

Inside the waterpark the water starts shallow, and nearby is a short construction with two green bodyslides, one which curves towards me. I think I may have to climb the slide but then I see stairs going up. On top two friends are there; I consider telling them this is a dream, but it is too loud from the water up here so I decide not to. I then go down the other slide and close my eyes at the bottom by habit - oops! I realize I may open my real eyes if I do this wrong. I open slowly and still see the waterpark. I then try to breathe underwater and it works. I again close my eyes accidentally, again being able to open them similarly. I look at my hand again, but this seems to trigger motion in reality and the dream vanishes.

January 15, 2013 - Less than 6.5 hours in - 20 seconds - WBTB, MILD, FA, RC

Used MILD mantra, "Look at your hands, you are dreaming" every alarm awakening every 90 minutes or so.

I 'wake up' in my dark bedroom in my bed and decide to look at my hands. In fact, they are distorted and I realize I am in a dream. I plug my nose and I can still breathe. However, I feel extremely sleepy and struggle to keep my 'eyes' open. Since I feel it may fade out soon, I decide to cut right to the goal of summoning B. I look into the darkness (which is sort of purple - like the patterns seen when you close your eyes) and try to visualize them there. It is difficult to remember them and I give up. I look again at my hand in front of the meager window light and it is still distorted. Despite feeling extremely lethargic, I try to get out of bed and head towards the light switch, since I don't like it being dark, although I know the switch may not work. With this effort, I wake up for real.