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seems to have been a full-fledged dream but i can't recall all of it. at the beginning of the dream i was watching a video. the video focused on a brown-haired teenage boy. he was quite thin, very pale and had reddish areas on his skin that resembled abrasions. i understood that he was very ill and close to death, although he was acting normally. he was lying on a bed under rainbow sheets in a blue-walled room. the lights were off but a window let rays of white light through. his shirt was off and i understood that this was a pornographic video, although i don't recall ever seeing anything that would indicate that. there is a strange atmosphere about this scene.

at some point the viewpoint switches: i am no longer watching the video but inside of it. the boy lives in a large house (warm hues, oranges and reds) with many other people - i recall a young blonde-haired woman. there was some controversy over the fact that the boy had been in a porn video. some people hinted that he had other videos in which he performed very perverse sex acts.

edit: i have another memory, but i'm not sure whether it's a dream or not! i was walking from my bedroom to the bathroom and i was bumping into everything. very clumsy. the setting was indistinguishable from real life but the extent of my clumsiness makes me think it may have been a dream... also the fact that i didn't see any bruises on myself on the morning... but i took benzos on an empty stomach before bed, so who knows.

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rather odd dream, made me a bit uncomfortable when i woke up. a quick analysis - the theme of this dream seems to have been derived from a) a uh, porn video that i watched recently that involved a man who resembled the one in the dream and b) a documentary about a hospital for disabled vietnamese orphans. i am not sure why my subconscious decided to combine them, but there you are.

the "strange atmosphere" i talk about was an odd sort of calmness... i would define it as acceptance of, and contentment with, one's impending death.

Last night I dreamed of being back in school with friends. I was sitting at a desk at an after school program where we play games. We were running around a gym. There was something about race involved in the game, like only people from one race would run at a time.

Then all of a sudden I see my friend Daichi, he's staying at my house. My parents go to walk our dog outside. I tell Daichi "I don't know what's real anymore", as I do a RC. I somehow didn't catch it was a dream though and thought it was real. I need to work on doing a better RC. Anyway Daichi and I were just moving his stuff around using a rolling platform when we saw spiders on it and they jumped on me. Scary stuff. Then me and Daichi were at one of those gaming restaurants like Dave and Busters, we were in a pit of change and we loaded it all into a box and struggled to get it out of the pit, when we did everyone cheered.

Then I woke up.

This dream is from last night, I forgot to do my DJ.

I was in a river of shit with Walt and Sky from breaking bad. Sky was behind a fence and Walt was throwing her some keys. Next thing I know I'm on a bridge above the river and a dragon hologram appears. A voice a says "If you accept it will change your life forever". I enter the dragon and a white light appears. I start floating around being shown different things. Then I'm in a french club wearing a horizontal striped black and white shirt, an air tube shoots me up to the second floor. I'm dancing like mad when I see girls there, and I can see sweat everywhere. The club ends and I go to a girl "You know where I want to end up", or something like that. We start going to her place, climbing over a sculpture. She says "France gets 2-6 week pay ahead of time". I slide down the sculpture, she sits back with me, then I see images of someone using human flesh for a pumpkin heater.

Weird.

i dreamt that i was in the bathroom at my old townhouse. i was sitting on the toilet drawing on my laptop while pouring a bath. suddenly i heard a loud beeping sound. i wasn't sure whether it was coming from outside or whether it was in my head. i plugged my ears to check. i could still hear it with my ears plugged. i became afraid that i was going crazy.

then i woke up... it was my alarm.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- 2 dose galantamine + choline
- 2400mg Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- this is about the worst sleep chart you'll ever see
- double dose of galantamine makes it very difficult to sleep after it's hit

I used to have casino dreams a lot. But after a while of not having casino dreams I had one tonight. In the dream I was looking for a machine to play on and someone who was male was with me. We talked and I'm not sure if he wanted me to win or not... We were outside and there seemed to be a lot of machines in a circle. But we were headed somewhere. Then I saw someone I kinda know hand a lighter to someone I didn't see who it was. I was in kinda a depressed mood or something when I got up.

Hmm, I could have swarn I wrote a dream down at night. memory fooling me! Either it told me "you already wrote that don, so don't bother" which is something my mind has done to me before! or wouldn't it be amusing if I had dreamed of writing in the dream journal, and assume I did.

I remember some combination of previous dreams: the number 3, the name fluffy, and perhaps a few others, and to my sleeping fuzzy brain they all made some sort of weird sense about dreams of course.

Dream recall from today's nap, including very confusing false awakening and failed DEILD attempt(but i was close i think).

Nap #1:
Dream 1(fragment):

I was visiting some kind of sky lands.
Then i woke up with eyes closed and decided to try to DEILD.
There was hypnagogic imagery(i think) of my room as it was daytime, and some objects were missing, i tried to 'grab' into it but it disappeared, then different version of it appeared instead and disappeared shortly as well.

Dream 2:
Then i suddenly lost awareness and fallen into non-lucid dream without noticing it, i was in some hill/forest area searching for something and then talking to some bald kid. Then there was cutscene in cave with asian dude in black clothes, he had two curved yellow energy blades and he was preparing for something. I was back at hill/forest area and i heard battle sounds coming from direction, i quickly went there and there was some kind of japanese temple with red roofs. The fight was going on between some dude who was in full metallic suit and group of people who were protecting temple. The metallic suit was black and somewhat resembled some kind of humanoid lizard, also he had two yellow energy wings. He quickly defeated opposing group and then started flying away. The bald kid that was with me quickly reacted and threw dagger into that dude. He managed to hit him exactly into base of the left wing, it transformed into yellow energy blade so it was obviously dude from cutscene earlier, but he was still able to fly after that, and he quickly flied out of my field of view. I ran to pick up the blade.
But then i woke up back at my room, items in the room were misplaced, there was weird anime doll on the ceiling and on monitor of my PC YouTube was playing last part of the let's play that i was watching before, i have absolutely no clue how, but that somehow convinced my dream self that i was sleepwalking(which i don't do IWL for sure) and thus i forgot to do reality check, i got up still looking around, i closed eyes and that automatically moved me into 'classic hands forward' sleepwalking position against my will, then i opened them and everything was fine. And then i was thinking 'Wait a second, why there's this weird doll on the ceiling', and then i woke up.

Long story short.

I was batman. Was about to arrest bane. This cat questions me. I end up doing street poetry in a bar. Alfred steals my cape and cowl and calls me a pussy while riding in my limo.

Before starting this dream I want to say that I am really in love with my wife, and she is the most beautiful woman I have ever met. This is actually relevant to my dream, so don't think I am being crazy sappy. I love her personality more than any other person I have met, so that is why this dream is soooo weird.

Day 1:
starting off, I am going on some sort of strange vacation. Don't know how long I will be gone, but I don't have any lodgings at first because the "credit company that is paying for this" hadn't given us a room yet. I am with a few other guys and one girl. We were in a huge mall and just kind of wondering around the first day. No where to stay because the "credit company" had kind of forgotten about us. They had a booth at the mall that I will return to later. The first day we all split up and tried to find a place to stay. Don't remember finding any though. I think I just stayed at the mall.

Day 2:
We met up and all walked around the mall together. The one girl in the group looks exactly like my wife and acts exactly like her as well. Very strange thing to meet. We talked for a long amount of time and I could tell she could like me (easy to tell since she acts just like my wife). She was interested a lot in the fact that she was exactly like my wife, and about my life. Talked with her pretty much all of the day. Went around to the credit place as well and went to a few places around town for lunch and dinner. Normal places to eat.

Day 3-6:
Pretty much like Day 2 :/ Not much difference except the getting to know the girl and talking with the other people more. Pretty much living at the huge mall there and actually having a great time even though we were homeless. Just paying for food isn't that bad.

Day 7:
Got a place to stay! The credit people finally found a place for all of us to stay. The only problem is (if you watch any anime or read manga you know where this is going ) there is only two rooms and she. 1 bed in one room, 2 in the other, 6 people, one girl. The other guys were a bit creepy, actually a few of them were people I used to know, and 2 of them are just creepy friends I know. haha. Anyways, you know what it is like when meeting someone that you just "click" with, hanging out, talking all the time, staying up late at night talking.

Day 8-12:
Hanging with the people for a long time, every day. Meeting new people at the mall and the "credit place" was taking care of all the meals while we were in town since we were basically on the street the first week. They had a bunch of weird games at the specific place that they let us play for free. Here is the best one:
Laser Tag Hunting
Hunting different animals in the mall with laser tag. There is parts that are like "the wild", but the best version is the one that you just go through the mall. Started noticing all the different fake animals flying around with targets on them. Don't know exactly how they got the birds to fly, but I played this game most days and multiple times a day.

The rest of them were a collection of games from carnivals and Zelda games (You know the ones!)


Some fun times! Pretty much each day was close to the same, so they blur together, and you probably know how hard it is to recall specific conversations from a dream.

Day 13:
Hanging out with some random guy that came to the mall. He was telling me about something at the mall he loved doing. He took me across the mall. We were running (normal for me to run from one place to another). I was on the second floor and watched as a lady that looked like Meredith from the office run as well. She must have hit a slick spot because she slid and landed flat on her face. I started laughing a ton.


We started going to the credit place. I told him that I had been there quite a few times and then we went to dinner with my group and told him our story.

Night of the 13th:
Gotta remember a few things here. Looks like my wife, acts like my wife, been sleeping in the same bed for a week, not been sleeping with my wife in two weeks.

After a long day of hanging at the most awesome mall in the world I get to my room. She is laying in the bed under the covers. I get in bed with the light still on and she starts talking to me.
"It is really weird that your wife looks exactly like me." She says.
"Yeah... Well accept she is pregnant with my daughter." I say.
"Then this makes me feel a little bad about this, but I can't really help it." She flips the covers off and everything goes black. The light illuminates her standing on the bed somehow. She is wearing a blue maid outfit.

^^That color blue. She is staring at me with those "Come hither" eyes. She is ridiculously beautiful and I am really worried that I can't stop myself. I am thinking of what to say and hope she doesn't jump me, because I can stop myself from attacking her. If she jumps on me... I know I can't stop her. As I am contemplating I notice that her face starts changing and getting more and more make up on until she doesn't look like my wife at all. Then I kind of blanked out. Nothing happened though. :/

Day 14
I woke up the next day and I took the train to the mall. I was running to get some breakfast with my friend K and then I saw the gal that looked like meredith run and fall on her face again. This time I couldn't help myself I fell on the ground laughing. I couldn't even breathe. I am sorry, watching people wipe out in person is just one of the best things to see. I went to the credit place to check out and head home. Wake up.

Notes about the dream:
Same mall as a couple other dreams have been in in my past. A few non lucids and 2 lucids. I have only been there at night before. All really memorable dreams. Crazy crazy dreams. There is a movie theater that only runs at night and there are about a million small businesses and a lot of them are crazy and the building would shift sideways and you would fall on the wall. You really can't go to the mall unless you are actually young and in good shape or you can get injured by the constant running and the weird stores. I plan on going there in some lucids. Being in there for 2 weeks was amazing.

03/18/13

Line of Eld
I am in front of a lot of people, but at least I am not alone there. There are other people there with me, and I recognize them right away, or I recognize most of them. MoSh, Roland, Jake, Eddie, Susanna… all the people from the Dark Tower group. I am not fully lucid, so I don't realize what is going on right away. Roland steps forward and introduces himself. Eddie goes next, stating he is from the line of Eld and the ka-tet of 19. I am not sure what it means, but it seems that is what everyone wants to hear. They want to hear that we are all from the line of Eld so they know we are all gunslingers. I wonder if I should say it, too, even though I don't believe I have any connection to the line of Eld… Susan introduces herself with a curtsy instead of a bow, but also states she is from the line of Eld. Roland indicates MoSh should go next, so MoSh follows suit with the others and follows the pattern by saying he is from the line of Eld. I wonder if he has reason to think he really is or if he is lying just as I am about to lie… Roland is talking to Jake, but he indicates I should go next, I am not sure entirely what to say… so keep it simple. I give my name and say I am from the line of Eld, I say that with a straight face and no one calls me out on it so I guess it doesn't sound as fake to them as it does to me… and with the ka-tet of 19, I drop a curtsy using my Assassin robes since I am not actually wearing a skirt. People are still responding positively, and my introduction goes off unquestioned. Jake introduces himself, then he puts Oy down… and the billy bumbler steps forward, gives a bow, introduces himself… "Oy… Eld… Thankee…" which everyone finds to be absolutely amazing. I think it is one of the cutest things I have seen Oy do, he returns to Jake seeming quite pleased with his performance of the trick. Now Roland says he isn't very good with speaking and says Eddie will take care of that. If looks could kill Roland would drop dead from the look Eddie gives him. Everyone is cheering and calling for Eddie to speak. Eddie finally starts talking, and he isn't doing too bad. Everyone in the crowd seems satisfied with it. I don't remember a lot of what Eddie says, though I think he says something about not facing the wolves on our own, they will have to fight for what they want to protect. That doesn't seem to deter anyone. After that there is a lot of interacting. People are wandering around, I see Eddie get annoyed at one particular man. Roland is talking to some guy with a long white beard. I'm not sure where Susan is, but MoSh seems to be talking to someone about music as he has a guitar out. I think I might be giving off signals that say I don't want to be talked to, as no one seems particularly interested in talking to me. Finally someone does speak to me, and he wants to know if I really think we can stop the wolves from taking their children. I have no doubt that we can send the wolves home yelping, but I know that is not meant to be conveyed yet… so I tell him I cannot answer that with certainty until we have seen more of the town and what we have to work with. He seems unsatisfied with the answer. He says he has two sets of twins and stands to lose four children, please save them… I hesitate, then I tell him not to quote me, but if I have to speculate, he will still have all of his children after this is over. He says he doesn't want to see them ruint. I wonder what it is the wolves do to the kids, and if there might be some way to heal the ruint ones… even partially heal them. I think I will determine that after I know more about what the wolves do. I move off to the side, I get offered food, and then I manage to step around a corner before I wake.

It's been a while since I could remember a dream, though luckily, I find myself taking in more than usual about the images I find during my slumber as of last night.

Part I: Career Day

I found myself at my High School. The hallways were all rather accurate to how they were realistically, if not slathered with posters, pictures and decorations of a lot of different things, most of them famous men, women and children who all specialized in specific positions.

I walked with two of my friends--one an Asian kid named Eric, always had this huge mole under his chin, and my friend Gabriel, a boy with fair, wavy hair and a cherub-like face. We walked in this hallway, somewhat crowded but not too packed at the same time. I assumed it was some sort of career day of sorts, and so I looked for something that piqued my interest.

Along the way, I saw a poster of lead guitarist and singer of the 90's band Nirvana, Kurt Cobain. The picture was of him, singing and playing guitar in black and white. I touched this poster, and then I looked to my left. Kurt Cobain was coming at me with a butcher's knife, something out of a campy horror movie. I didn't attempt to run, perhaps too perplexed by the fact that Kurt Cobain somehow rose from the dead. He pounced me onto the ground, grabbing the handle of his knife with both hands and raising it in the air. I kept shouting "No!" over and over again, but he then pushed his knife right into my chest. What's odd about this is that I did feel a bit of pain as the blade stuck into my chest.

Things went black, but as suddenly as that happened, I was back in the hallway. I was now with my brother, looking much like himself, strangely. People were leaving and we were getting our backpacks from a pile in the middle of the hallway. I didn't understand why, but my brother had apparently put some very important items for a project in my backpack, though I was unable to find my backpack.

They said it might be in another room, and if it wasn't, it was stolen. We checked that room -- no dice.

I was lead to believe that my backpack was stolen. That was when I woke up briefly.

Part II: The Chaser

Not long after, I fell asleep again, the dream following connecting itself to the last dream I had.

I was now hell-bent on finding my backpack, though I only acted on it when my mother was driving me home from school, parked at a gas station on an early summer morning. I then found myself becoming a badass biker dude going along a California coastline; palm trees and the blue skies and oceans passing by me like a big blur. There were a few cars and bikers that passed by me. Though I knew they were enemies, they didn't really do anything to actually threaten me, nor did I do them.

I followed these "enemies" until I reached a beach, where we stopped. I told their boss, a man dressed in a cliche leather jacket with a short-cut Elvis hairdo something rather intimidating; intimidating enough to make him give me my backpack back. My brother was suddenly with us, and there he retrieved a medium sphere that looked like the shape of a planet. He smiled and looked at me, making some cheesy joke about how I was lucky to have gotten this thing back, or else. Then we laughed and the dream ended.

Notes:

That pain that I felt when Kurt Cobain stabbed me was rather significant.
I've rarely gone that fast as I did on the motorcycle in a dream before.

Interpretation:

Gee, I really don't know what to think of a dream where I get killed by one of my favorite musicians and chase a man on a motorcycle to get my backpack back. Perhaps, leisure is killing me and I focus too hard on school.

I went to sleep for a nap around 4:30 I'm only 32 but I have a bad back so I take frequent naps during the day. I know it was after that when I finally got to sleep my guess would be 4:45-50 awoke 5:30


felt like astral travel but sometimes charactors were aware of my presents they didn't seem shocked that I was there. experianced time travel things rewinding around me. saw things that I know never happened in true life that makes me thing it wasn't a OBE. I've done obe before. Before this experiance I was trying to project and don't know if I succeeded or not but I had vibrations and was unable to go thru my floor which is usually no problem or my wall but it was easy to get thru my door (closed) but it felt like I got stuck half way thru. my body lay on my bed tho when I started to feel vibrations I could sence that I was by the door so that was the first place I tried to get out. I forced myself awake and tried again. I think I felt vibrations so instead I decided to teleport myself out so I did. It seemed like time was rewinding around me and I said stop and at that point I was with my girlfriend and a friend of mine. They were aware of me because I said something to them and they responded. I than said my girlfriends name and I wanted to go back to the present nothing happened. So I was just like whatever and I asked myself to take me back to world war 2 so I could watch it from a spectators point of view things were rewinding around me and when it stopped I was in a house. It was during the war times but it was america and not europe/asia/hawaii so I wondered around for a while to check stuff out and it was pretty cool. nobody seemed to be aware of me. This may have been an astral experiance. After a while living those days "I was born in the 80's" I decided I want to see myself as a baby so I told myself show me as a child so I was fast forwarded to me at I seemed like 3 years old. It looked just like me as a child from what pictures of me looked like. I watched my first Christmas after that than I went to view my highschool days. I relived alot of the moments that were special in my life as tho they were happening to me again. I wanted to wake up so I said awaken. and I couldn't wake up I tried closing my eyes and nothing. So I'm like what am I stuck here laughing. So I closed my eyes as tight as I could and forced myself awake. I was curious how long I had been asleep and I look at the clock because it seems like I was asleep for several hours (7-8 or even days) It was less than an hour later I know it was after 4:30 when I went to sleep and it was 5:30 when I looked at the clock. I was shocked I know time works differant in the Astral, but my experiance seemed more dreamy