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#169 - 5:20AM - DILD/Fragments

I only recall a couple of fragments. I was very tired and didn't take the time to DJ until much later.

I am at work trying to find some documentation on a wire-harness. I look in several filing cabinets positioned in different awkward places throughout the plant. Finally, I find one but the assembly number ended in G04 and I was needing G05. I go back to look but the cabinet now has someones personal junk in it like a jacket and radio ect. I feel really confused and notice how dark the dream is getting but I don't catch on that I am dreaming just yet. I decide that I can make due without the documents and go back to my workstation.

When I sit down I notice that I am completely naked! I put the wire harness in my lap to cover myself and franticly look around to see if anyone is near me. I see a backpack next to me and start digging around for some clothes. I find a pair of yellow sweatpants and begin putting them on while trying to hid the lower half of my body under my desk. My boss, Carrie, walks near talking to someone. Her back is to me and the need to get dressed is even more urgent. I have a hard time getting the pants on. It's like I'm slightly damp and the pants are sticking to me. Finally after some struggle I get the pants up high enough to cover most of my nakedness. I notice how odd it feels to be going commando but I don't care. I dig some more for a shirt and find my wifes t-shirt then my son's shirt then something that looks like it belongs to one of my daughters. I say screw it and put on my wifes shirt. I look down again and notice I am now wearing jeans. I am confused how that could happen when I specifically remember the bright yellow sweatpants. Spencer walks up and says something to Carrie. When she turns around she looks right at me and I know that she knows. At that point I am so frantic for a way out that I finally realize its a dream. I tell her, "This is a dream anyway."

I immediately fall into darkness. I feel like I am wake but not sure. I try rubbing my hands but the feeling is faint. I think about going to my DJ but really want to DEILD. I relax a little too much and fall non lucid.

I am back at work walking through my work area to the break room. Jim, a quality engineer is being a prick again. He's giving some speech and sarcastically says, "If anyone doesn't understand...."
Being sarcastic back, I raise my hand and say, "Yeah, I don't." I continue walking to the break room. I hear Jim say something like, "He said he doesn't understand." He says it in such away that it was like I just cussed everyone out or something. When I get to the break room I begin to feel bad for it and realize how odd and dream like everything is. I say to myself, This is a dream.


Unfortunately I don't remember much after that. I feel like the dream morphed from wondering around at work to wondering around in a hospital but I just don't remember what happened exactly.

I recall another non-lucid where I am naked. What's up with the nakedness?

I was with my wife and son at some house and for some reason I was going to take a bath but she said why don't just bathe with Riley in the swimming pool. I stupidly agree. There are sliding glass doors in the bathroom. I go outside naked and hop over the wall of an above ground swimming pool. When I get in the water I notice I have an audience. To my horror I see all of my nieces and nephews standing by the ladder on the other side staring at me with shocked expression on their faces. They're all the young child versions of themselves and I feel extremely embarrassed. (BTW the oldest of them is 23 with 2 kids of her own irl. She was about 10 in this dream.) I try to hold Riley in front of me to hide myself but realize how stupid that was. I jump out of the water and run with Riley back inside. I can hear the oldest make some shocked muttered comment behind me.

Now, I am driving with my wife and I tell her what happened. I am upset that I never took a real bath but for some reason I feel clean enough. We go into a store for... Something. Can't remember.

Edit: I remember some detail now. We were leaving a store and there was this odd entry way like in a house with small glass side panels. The panels opened up to let me out but I didn't go that way. Someone remarked that must be how the thieves are getting in at night. I look down and see a strange tick on my leg. I brush it off and as I look at it on the carpet it swells up into a large spider. I step on it and walk away.

When we get back outside I realize we are driving her Sister's husband's truck. When we get in, there are bags of Quickrete in the cab. I say, "Oh Angel's actually planing on doing some work." One of the bags are in the floor and I move it to the back of the truck. I notice the truck is gray and not at all like his tan colored Toyota. I wonder why there is a clutch because I feel like it was supposed to be an automatic. I mention something to my wife about all of this but she conveniences me that all is normal. I look at the dash instruments and see only large letters: P R N D. I shrug and we drive off.

I try to WILD with the 30mins I have left before the alarm goes off but I was unsuccessful. I don't recall any additional dreams.

To bed at 11pm, woke up at 5am. 6 hours - not enough sleep

No dreams recalled, but woke up thinking about a fight my older son and my husband had on Saturday - maybe I dreamed of it.

i was on a walk with one of my sisters friends (perhaps a cross between margot and some other girl)

we were kissing a little bit and flirting. I was going to get it in, there was a lady on the trail who said so. he said oooo this one is freakey. he is down for it all. this type of guy is one who will never let go.

then the other part of the dream was super weird and i could go into great deal but ehh here we goo

i was in a parking garage and there was like one color vs another color, i tried to cross the batle ground with hands up, then shots were fired. i ahd to take cover back at one side and people kept drying.

then later this intriciate plan in a parking garage involving a large string and a hook allowed the team to catch the other bad guys

~50 mg 5-htp time release
You are travelling between dimensions with maybe 3 other people. Every world you come to seems to be in trouble, and when you reach it you are presented with a number of options for how to help out. Your vessel is like a futuristic u-haul that can fly and traverses dimensions when it reaches 88 mph (lol). It's piloted by some chubby middle aged dude you've never seen before. I don't remember most of the worlds, but on one the water supply is controlled by a large corporation (probably because you're reading dune). You have to go into some plant and shoot a bunch of people and flip switches to shut down the plant so people can have free water. You feel kind of bad about shooting the people in the plant, but they are in the way. As you are leaving this planet you see the corporation's building and it's this huge black eastern looking onion-domed type of thing. Kind of looks like the Taj Mahal, except bigger and more spread out. In another dimension there are these strange enormous sea creatures coming to take over the continents because they want to live on land. At some point you return to regular Earth and buy a box of blue cheerios. The lady at the store won't take cash so you have to use a credit card. They cost 242 forints. You're with S now, and it seems he's been travelling with you. You talk about how it's annoying that every planet you travel to seems to be in some kind of trouble, and you wish you could just find a nice place to relax. You go back to your apartment, and I believe you realize that it's not your Earth.
Flash - you and S are at a parking garage, the world is about to end and you're trying to think of a safe place to hide. You decide that you shouldn't be in the parking garage because it will probably fall down on top of you.
Flash - you're in your apartment and you're worried because someone has been shooting at you through the window. you go to sleep for a bit, and then you're less worried because you realize it was a couple of months ago that someone shot at you. The bullet hole is still in the window. You're still a bit paranoid that they might try to kill you again.

One fragment - and a false awakening, at that.

Dream (fragment): False awakening. I woke up, performed a failed reality check, then actually woke up.

took:
- no 5-HTP before going to sleep
- 0 dose galantamine + choline
- no Piracetam when I got up
lucid dreaming: 0 lucid experiences
note:
- all techniques for falling asleep failed last night, the key is consistently going to sleep at the same time

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was at home and i was trying to WILD, but family was distracting me in every way possible and later i went to check out some levels for Doom. There was one level that was actually fully 3D and featured platforming with exploding barrels. After that i went into editor and decided to build joke mod with some maze and overpowered enemies.
As i was waking up i experienced vivid HH image of different room for like five seconds, there was TV and there was some word on it, and i could manipulate them.

There was some kind of lavish theater in my neighbor's basement. I was performing. I wrote a really good hit song, and so did someone else (technically I wrote that one too). Boyd was playing bass. Some people were in vampire makeup. Strange. Why can't I remember the music when I wake up? Frustrating!

Somewhere with supermodels. A male supermodel told me to bend over and it seems he was painting a heart (using nail polish) on my lower back. When I turned to look - it was a broken heart. Not sure what that was about.

12-1 sleep
9 wake
All these children had become possessed or cursed or something. They were coming after us. Their touch evoked extreme fear - I was screaming at several points in the dream. Ran up stairs and barricaded the children outside. There were a lot of people in here. They didn't quite believe me, so wound up pilling the barrier (barricaded door) down and experiencing the fear themselves.

I'll record triggers for lucidity here:

- Being at home and realizing something is off, looks strange, something is happening that is unusual (And both times that this has happened in a dream, I've then smashed through a window in an attempt to make something happen or to change the scene).

I'm using this entry as a space to record themes and patterns that I notice in my dreams:

- going to the washroom in public, being exposed, people watching me
- trying to get home to Vancouver from my dad's in Edmonton, not being able to, being lost, not having enough money, having some obstacle preventing me from getting home
- lifelong dream: running around, going through people's houses, backyards, running away
- odd proportions

April 21, 2013

Review: A fun but strange dream in which I have to collect pieces of dragons for some magical task. Only problem is I have two employers both asking for the dragon pieces but I can only return to one. The dream starts with a curse by Poseidon.

Dragon Pieces: Two Paths
The land is frozen and a blizzard blows unceasingly. But its summer! I'm a fawn like creature with fae wings. I buzz over the snowy landscape but all I can find are monsters!

I don't see any people or the rest of my magical fawn creatures. I fly up a mountain side towards where the city should be. The monsters here were even taller. I desperately try to fly even higher to get over their heads.

But one monster was as tall as city skyscraper! I'm too slow and I can't fly over him. He's no monster, he's a god, Poseidon. Poseidon snatches me like a fly.

Inside Poseidon's dark castle I find another fawn creature. I remember admiring his fuzzy ears. My friend explains to me that its Poseidon who's cursed the land with winter. I remember seeing a text of some sort explaining to me which deity goes to which month - clearly Poseidon doesn't belong to this month.

The old god Poseidon has asked something of me, I don't remember what. But I remember bargaining with him. I wanted him to end winter so my fawn friends can play in summer again. The price for my request was to make love to him. Well it worked I guess.

Winter melts away and Poseidon and his monsters disappear.

I fly all over the human city but I don't see any of my fawn friends! I fly into an old castle atop the mountain. The castle is very steam-punk. There's a giant hanger and some sort of workshop with weird devices. It's not so much of a castle anymore than it is someone's private business place.

The old man running shop realizes I'm looking for something. I tell him about my problem, that I can't find any of the fawns. He tells me he can help me out, but requires making a magical device using pieces of dragons.

"Pieces of dragons?" sounds easy! I flew away and started my task. The human mountain city was huge. There was another, more fancier, castle on the other end of the mountain.

In my desperate search I fly into that castle looking for dragon pieces. The royalty there realize I'm looking for something. When I explain the situation they show me some sort of fancy telescope thing. But in order to operate their telescope to find my friends, I have to bring them dragon pieces.

I buzz all over the city and make my way towards the gates. There I find two dragon heads dismembered from their bodies. I pick up one of the dragon heads - it's still alive!

"You want my scales don't you?..Sigh..That's alright. Not much else I can do now."

"Thanks"

I nibble off his scales and carry them in my mouth like a chipmunk. But I didn't know who I would bring back the dragon pieces to! The steam-punk run down castle with the family run business, or the royalty run castle with a fancy telescope?

I'm lost in the city. I'm not even sure which way was back to either castle. I finally find a castle atop the mountain. I swoop in and spit out the dragon pieces in this weird device.

"She came back!" A male clerk operating a computer seemed really surprised. "We thought she had taken her business else where"

I just realize that I'm in the steampunk castle. Wait! I don't want this castle, I want the other one. I pick up the dragon pieces again and fly off. As soon as I leave the steampunk castle launches their weird machine. They promised to use it only when I had returned with the dragon pieces. For me it was like saying they didn't want my business anyways.

I'm heading towards the other castle with my dragon pieces. And thats when I wake up.

The most recent dream I had I was going to try to talk to a dream character. In the dream I was behind a person in a place I didn't recognize. The person was in a wheelchair and I noticed he was missing a foot. Now that I think of it this person could have been a friend of mine who is in a wheelchair sometimes but can walk a little and is afraid of loosing his foot eventually... I made it a goal to say "hello" to a dream character but I failed this time because I got to excited I was lucid. This happens quite a bit (me getting too excited then waking up...).

I am not sure if this was a real definate lucid dream or not, but this is one of the most recent dream I've had this week.

I suddenly found myself flying, and I started off as hovering outside of my house nearby this boy school. I realized I was hovering, and I said to myself, "Wow!" and I was really excited. I think at this point, I realized I was dreaming.
So I decided to take this oppertunity to go off somewhere and fly. But the thing was, I couldn't get myself to fly up into the air. Instead I was slowly floating down. I was at a street intersection and and I was very close to the ground. Then I was hit by a purple (dark blue?) car.
And thats where I woke up. It was a very short and sudden dream, but I remember it very clearly.

Sunday 4.21.13

Last night bed around 10pm - 7:30am

Today nap 10:30pm - 2pm

Got only indication that vibrations would start, but they didn't develop. Had a few non-lucids.

DR: I'm watching a bicyclist rushing down a steep, concrete slope to his buddy, who slid off the bike and kept sliding down. He landed on the bottom ledge, where ocean waves were breaking and making spray. I was surprised, because at first it looked like concrete banks of urban river, not ocean.

I'm walking through ruins of something, maybe factory. There is a small monster chasing us. It turns out to be a small dog with something on his face. We take him with us, give him a bath and he looks like a normal dog. As he is on a blanket next to us, I see an extra paw and I look closer and she is giving birth. Her former owner sais she lost the dog somehow and she wants it back. So there is a debate as to whom she belongs now.

I'm between tall houses, like projects in NY. There are kids playing outside without supervision. I'm really scared for them. As they are running around, some of them are pushing strollers. One has a newborn in it and the other one the puppy. I'm so scared for them.

A woman comes to me with big book. She opens it and tells me she had been gathering info about [girl's name]. I tell her I don't know her, thinking she wants to rant about my friends daughter. She says it doesn't matter and she reads me about her anyways.