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No dreams remembered

Couldn't recall anything again.

It was my birthday in the dream. I had just moved to a new home, so I couldn't invite any of my old friends over. Sean and yair were the only people here, so they invited a bunch of people the knew.

Luckily it was all chicks.

The party was pretty cool, I had a lot of good chats with my old friends and there was a lot of eye candy. At one point I left my place and started flying around on a small sled or surfboard magic carpet style, but I couldnt get higher than a meter. Some dude saw me do it and I spent a long while trying to show him how but the snow was too deep and it messed up my technique.

Bed @ 2320 /w wine and Sleepytime tea
Woke @ 0150, BTB @ 0200 /w body awareness
Woke @ 0400 /w full bladder

Around the house
I'm at "my house" with my three eldest kids; my wife and our younger ones aren't there. We're getting my second daughter ready for her horse riding lessons; her teacher is going to be here any time to pick her up. I pull aside a curtain in the room we're in and look down to the driveway and see a silver SUV just pulling in. I quickly turn to my daughter, who's running behind, and let her know that it's time to go. For a moment, she just stares at me dumbly as if she hadn't heard me. I repeat myself, and I'm a bit annoyed: she loves these lessons more than anything else, so her slow moving can only be a calculated form of disobedience. She finally gets up and I note with dissatisfaction that she's got large holes in the knees of both jeans; oh well, it's too late to change now. I note that she's wearing flip-flops, and though I think they're silly I don't see anything wrong with it (though I should have, since she's always supposed to wear her riding boots).

Now I'm walking down our stairs talking with my pastor. We're talking about the group of people I recently caught talking behind my back about my youngest child saying that he's "slow." I'm not worried about him - in fact, the claim is rather ludicrous, since he's learned to cause more trouble more quickly than any of my other children - but it's not nice to be the butt of gossip.

Now we're walking through the kitchen area. He's seen or smelled the dish I'm preparing for us and comments on the mirepoix I used. He says that he's always been a bit worried about trying to make them, and that someone in his family recently made a disastrous attempt at a poached mirepoix; but that mine looks and smells great. I thank him but tell him that I'm actually making it up as I go, since my recipe calls only for a few carrots. I tell him that I ended up using more carrots than it called for, a whole onion, and a bit of celery - but then I remember that I actually forgot to use celery this time. He looks shocked, saying he couldn't try to wing something like that, that he'd be afraid to ruin so many good ingredients.

BTB @ 0415 /w body awareness

Fell asleep at about 3 am. Meditated a bit until 1am sitting in bed. I woke up at 6:10 and just after the alarm sounded, so i had no time for a short moment of sloth after waking up. I dreamt:

- Similar place to second life, as I were somewhere in France (i don't know why France, i don't know France but Paris). It was a forest at night, on a road.
- I was in my old house located in street Baigorria. I was reflecting on a thought of a "dwelling place". I really was immerse in that thought and was interesting. I wasn't looking for a superficial dwelling place, but rather the body would be a dwelling place, but even that is coarse. I wanted to realize deeper (jhanas) but i knew i needed practice. There was an app, that was very complete in the sense one could practice and master jhanas with that app. Just like an app that one trains for chess but without playing chess, in a similar way it worked for meditation. I was happy with it because it provided for a good opportunity to master a valuable practice (meditation), but i also knew it was subject to change, to cessation, so it had the potential to be unsatisfying. Then i woke up... (so the app ended up being unsatisfying since i couldn't practice with it).

Interpretation:

- I remember a teaching that is "a man enter the restaurant and he is handed the menu. He thanks, he eats the menu, pays and goes home. That man didn't know the menus are not for eating but for ordering the food", in a similar way happened with the app in this dream. I had the information that the app did was well developed, but i didn't test it to try out if it really improved meditation. (Actually it would be like mental exercises, but to prepare for obstacles in meditation).
- The night before i listened to a talk of AN book of 6 about (annica, dukkha, annata, and letting go of dosa, lobha and moha; release and nibbana). Interesting talk, inspiring. Also i wanted to search for an app of Soundcloud, to store audio files.
- During the day, yesterday, i observed with attention what was seen and heard (mainly, also felt) and thought about second life, that had poor graphics but want to emulate the world.
- Dwelling place is a translation for Brahmaviharas. Developing the Brahmaviharas can result in Jhana, which is a temporary home for the mind (a home for the mind would be to dwell in Nibbana).

I haven't slept aftwerwards because i wanted to get up at dawn.

I'm in a long hallway with Gandalf from Lord of the Rings and someone else. The dark silhouette of Sauron is approaching in his fiery aura and he intends to hurt us or something- I ask Gandalf what he recommends we should do. Gandalf recommends to me that we should take a knee so as to not piss Sauron off any more than he already is (a bit ironic considering he criticized Saruman for saying pretty much the same thing xD). I'm stubborn so when Sauron is finally standing before us I try and attack him so that he is focused on me and not on the others. This doesn't go so well- I feel lots of imagined mental pain, and this is enough to wake me up.

24.10.2016

(DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in the middle of a dream when I felt SP. I didn't quite wake up but I was having HIs within the dream. I saw people posting on DV about me being able to identify others' dreams as dreams but not mine. I plugged my nose and became lucid in my dream. I was still just seeing images. I managed to give myself a body. I was now back where the dream left off. A DC's dog went into a bathroom and locked itself up. The DC asked me for help. I tried opening the door, but had a FA. I didn't realize it was a FA and drifted into a non-lucid dream.

I woke up at 10:15 (slept late at night). Im writing the dream a day later. I get a feeling of remembering the dream but... i don't.

I dream with German and subways.
My father says something, like claiming or complaining, and i know it's not.
I go in subways escaping exiled. I don't get recognized.
My physics-chemistry teacher of Highschool is on a trial on internet. (Like a new trial system)
I get down at Hogwarts, in summer.
I search for a girl from school that i haven't seen for a while Paula B. I don't know why. I see classmates from my first school: Triana and Mara. We were kids in the dream.

13:34

There was a porcupin and three restaurants in the countryside. He touches my leg and i feel it, but he didn't mean any harm. Anyways i stepped back. It was a vivid part of the dream that involved the sense of touch. If i had been more aware i would have been lucid. I was on a facility. There was a kitchen and a window where i could see a bread on the other side. There were 2 men working there. After i go to buy some fruits next door. I pick up some mandarins and 2 mangos. I was about to give $100 (local currency) but before i give i get $150 back. I said to the man "it makes no sense, im not supposed to be given this". He made the calculations again and was about to give something again, but i haven't give anything to him, and already taken some fruits! Besides he didn't owe me anything. Then the woman that usually is in the cashier comes and says to me "take it, it is yours, it corresponds to you" or something similar. Like i was being the one in fault. So i took it but i shouldn't have, because afterwards i thought it was stealing (anyways my thought was to later come back, when they were clearer with their minds and give back the money). Oh, also im given some gold ingot and a thin bar. It was for poker the man said (it was a combination of two staff members here on DVs). Also he invited me to his house someday, and he said he would cook spicy (probably because i don't eat with salt and he thought that it needs to be replaced by some other thing). Ok i say... not knowing when i was going to go. So he then invites about 4 or 5 more guys. Then i left. I enter a temple, shaolin and Fran E was there. There was a guy that was bullying him asking of what year was the coin he had. I grabbed this guy by the neck and later all his bullying stopped. I just grabbed him, didn't hit him. Then i enter the temple (the before thing was outside). And Fran was messing or playing with electricity. He also bothered me, like a fly would bother. I knew i didn't have to pay attention, nor think about it. But then i hear a song "Even Flow" in the dream and i wake up. It was not evident that the this song was being played, but i heard it afterwards. It was on the third floor.

Short LD Before 6.15
My phone is playing music that won't stop. It is very irritating. The location seems a bit like work. I need to log the tasks that I've been working on, and can only see one thing for the past few days, something that I'm sure is a tiny piece of work. Will my manager notice? Accuse me of slacking off?

Some other work colleagues enter and turn on a device that is playing music. JR is here. We chat for a bit, then it is almost time for work. I head up a flight of stairs an find some old work colleagues including CR upstairs. In another room I find a bed and lie down on my back. Immediately though, CR and an unknown DC enter. CR has dyed her hair dark brown, it is still very long and straight. They climb onto the bed, kneeling over me and start kissing each other...

Watching them gets me very aroused. They must know I am here...? They continue ignoring me though. A strong feeling of jealousy starts to build up inside me. They are so close. After just half a minute of this I'm losing my mind. I'm about to shut my eyes and try to block it out, when finally CR pulls away from the other person (male? female? Do not know or care, it's CR I want so badly). She leans down, hair brushing my face. I feel her lips on mine.* snip *

The dream shifts to a dusty wasteland. Old rusting husks of vehicles are sticking out of the sand. Though the floor seems like sand, the cars and junk are piled so high as to block the view, so I don't think it counts as a desert. Feral dogs are chasing and barking at each other. I am already lucid because there are white karaoke lyrics appearing at the bottom of my vision!

Everything is a bit blurry. Shadows of the crashed planes move around on the ground. A helicopter passes overhead, the noise deafening. I find it hard to walk and stumble forwards. Despite knowing this is a dream, my usual control is lacking. I struggle to stabilise the dream and then decide to teleport out, but wake instead.

Both non-lucid.
Apparently I'm having the fear to make other people upset...


- I'm at work. My manager tells me that I have to deliver immediately a version of the application. I do it but there is an error. The manager is angry on me. I deliver a new version but there is still another error. The manager is increasingly angry on me. I finally delivery a new version without mistakes but the manager doesn't check it and comes to me shouting and saying that I was slacking and that I have to work much harder, which was feeling very unfair to me because I was really working hard.

- This is very very long. I'm not sure about where this dream is placed, but for sure not in italy, and I might be wrong but it was also not looking like The Netherlands. It could be something Scandinavian. Maybe Norway, on summer. I'm in a theater, with my parents, to see a sort of musical with a religious background story. After the musical, I go back with them and they tell me that they changed the bathroom and they put a new shower (what a coincidence, this is something I'm planning to do for my house). Then I go around with the bike with my friends, off road. We even cross a river with the bike. Then I meet a group of girls and there is in particular one with whom I have a click. Later on I'm in a restaurant with my girlfriend, waiting for my friends to show up. Casually the girl of before was showing up, with a friend (a guy). I then let my girlfriend alone with the guy and started to flirt with the other girl. We danced together. We sat on a table the two of us and then at a certain point I realized "hey, this is wrong of me! I forgot my girlfriend at the other table!" and the girl "what??????" (she was thinking that my girlfriend was actually just a friend). I go to the other table and find my girlfriend incredibly bored and annoyed with me that I let her alone, she didn't like the company of the other guy at all. I say "let's go on the other table, my friends are not showing up" and when we come back to the table where the other girl was sitting, she was incredibly angry and frustrated and she started to shout at the other guy for a very trivial reason. My girlfriend sits very far away from me. I then wake up.

In the first dream I talked partially English and partially Dutch. In the second I spoke in Italian with my parents and friends, In Spanish with people around and with my girlfriend (that doesn't make any sense) and in English with the girl I was flirting with.

several scenes that started in my room/false awakenings. i found those interesting and like them
good recall with long detailed dreams.

i fly without a body over a beautiful scenery with hills and beautiful clouds and sunset. i get lucid by the fact that i am flying and manage to do a nosepinch. i ask the dream to fly me in the direction of the sun because it looks so beautiful. at first there is no reaction but then my inner self seem to relent and my direction changes. i fly over a hill and the sun goes down/disappears and a wave of darkness comes into being. i wonder why and whats up with my inner self and see a train moving over some rails into a mountain. i expect it to crash with the mountain and wait for the explosion but nothing happens. i feel that i have a body now and can direct the way i fly. i see a small and abandoned filling station and decide to land there. i accelerate strongly and smash into the ground terminator style but without damaging the ground. i start moving and see a snake and a basketball. i make them levitate but i want to mass TK so i see another basketball and some more snakes and in the end i make 6 items consisting of several basketballs and snakes are levitating in the air but pushed a little together so the snakes entangle around each other and the balls. i let them drop and keep moving.
i start running very fast and the stony ground changes into sandy ground. i find myself in a park and see some ducks. i want to make a fireball and remember obfusc8´s hint to feel the heat in my hands. i do so and throw the fireball at one duck and indeed a fireball is flowing over and lightening the duck. it starts flying hysterically and lands on a three. while flying the fire goes on and of two times. for some reason the surrounding gets a little hostile and i feel like leaving. i get followed by some birds? i reach the edge of the park and for what ever reason the ninja turtles approach me. i shortly think about to throw a fireball at them but decide that its better to have them as friends so i approach them and say hi. one of them see´s the birds and says something like "no wonder they act like this what would you/we say if someone would come into our territory" sounds reasonable. nevertheless i try another fireball but this time i have a basketball in my hands and try to make it inflame and throw it but there is no fire and just throw a stupid basketball... [dont ask me where als the basketballs are coming from]
and we turn around and walk away. they morphed into a group of friends of some kind and we walk down a street. i see one is wearing a watch and i pick up his arm looking at it several times and amuse myself about the fact that the time is always a different one. a car stops right in front of me on the pavement and i stop next to it. there is a woman and a man sitting inside. i start to knock hardly against the front window and try to smash it but it feels a little like plastic and it dont want to break. i dont accept that and so i squad down put my hands underneath the car and just turn it on the head. the passengers try to leave the car but i push it against the wall so the door they try to leave is blocked. good enough i think and keep on moving. my group is turning right and i am a little behind thinking about how to score some more points because i haven´t prepped any specific goals.
i think "ah i could phase thru something" and see a construction site with a lot of framework. and i just move right thru it. a SUV stops at the crossroad and i run there and jumpphase inside the car. i push the driver outside and he hangs outside but still holds the wheel so i push a little harder and kick the accelerator. i drive down the street that is one big construction side. the street is broken at some places and there are a lot of scaffolding. so far i always tried to drive a car the right way but this time i think why not phase with the car and just keep on driving straight thru several scaffolds past some shops. cool i think. and while driving
i think about whats next and remember my personal goal to change a banana into an apple [the wrong way btw]. i hit the handbrake, yank the wheel to the side and phase out of the car. the car turns to the side and starts to roll over several times and crashes into a shop with a moving staircase and moves down the stairs. i dont mind and think about a banana. i imagine how a banana looks and want to reach into my pocket but i get a little nervous and the dream starts to fade and instead of trying to stabilize or deild i just wake up...

I was waiting in line for some food. It was moving really slowly. The man in front of me had turned back and had been talking to me for quite a while. He looked to be an old fashioned fellow, with one of those monocle-type glasses, and a suit with a waistcoat. He stank.

"So what do you think of garlic?"

"I think you consume entirely too much of it."

"Yes, but in a philosophical sense...garlic feeds into the eternal well being of the ego, and our place in the macrocosm of the Universe! It is what killed the dinosaurs and gave birth to the glorious Order Mammalia! [can't recall the rest, but he was talking out of his arse.]

I rolled my eyes and just waited patiently. Eventually my turn came. As much I hated to admit it, the talk of garlic had actually set my appetite going, and I was starving.

"Chicken Kiev please"

"Right...That'll be £185 please."

I was shocked. Everyone was staring at me and I could only stutter. I didn't have that kind of money! I did a RC just to make sure this wasn't real and when it passed I became quite annoyed. I immediately kicked the garlic guy in the balls. He squealed and fell to the floor. Then I went to the side and tried to look for the £185 I needed. I was really hungry. Eventually I just stole the money from the other customers (especially Mr. Garlic) and ordered the chicken. The dream ended before I could eat it however.

D1 - Person meditating and everytime they stopped they would come out of blissful state and start being really sad so would desperately get back into trance lol.

D2 - Some kind of long escape dream. I am out in the wilds and being attacked by a savage wolf, I use my powers to project a laser beam from my finger tips through its head, just in time. It was right in my face literally. A load of survivors have some kind of explosion in there cabin but they are not hurt just woken up, even though it blew the roof off.

D3 - In Elizabethan in england I am being persecuted and there is some kind of trial with a lady in a powdered wig. I am being killed by being fed a biscuit with cheese that has poison on it. I manage to pretend to only eat some and escape. I am not happy and try to strangle poisoner there throat feels like a plastic tube, that i am about to break, so i don't.
On my computer I am trying to get rid of adware virus. I am then spyed again and chased. I run through a door onto a white staircase I jump and use anti-gravity powers to climb down the outside of the stairs. Its hard but I managed to get under a doorway and still on the ceiling I hide.
At this point I can feel it all getting very vivid, pressed against the ceiling I feel myself getting a semi lucid.

WBTB - I am annoyed at not getting lucid during competion

Fragment. I am half a sleep half awake, dreaming of kissing someone vividly

D4 - I am in a flea bitten room, an old house with lurid orange checked carpet and a white chair and wooden table and sofa and bookcase. Lucid I stare at the carpet, I remember that I only need to look and not think of changing it (as per hypnagogic experiences). The spot of carpet I concentrate on becomes a raised circle then a tube like toothpaste squeezed out. I am satisfied with this and then wildly think "I am lucid, quick what are the totm and competition goals". I can't remember new goals only last compettion one of bringing someone into your dream from other team.
I think of Elaineylane but can only picture her arty green avatar pic and not what she looks like. Then I remember what I think she looks like, its not right at all I realise afterwards.
She appears on the chair at the table. I rack my brains to think of other tasks then get sidetracked as a woman starts giving me a bj, its nice but I draw my thoughts away and stop. I need to remember more goals. Shit I come out of dream.

D5 - I go straight back into dream only this time carpet is blue checked. I lay near carpet and try to change it but as i'm forcing nothing happens (I don't realise till after).
I remember and rub my hands over surface of carpet and table top to stabilise, as I don't want to pop out of this dream to soon. There is someone else in the room in an arm chair but i am drawn to the large old tv by the window.
I grab the remote and after a few flicks, switch on the tv. There are very nice Oo woman in black lycra.
Making them appear out of tv doesn't work so I touch my hands to the screen and pull.
Unfortunately as I am forcing they get stretched out of shape and look just plain weird. They are quite deformed now poor things and not sexy at all with different shaped body parts, some huge some spindly.
I look to the window, it is white framed and double glazed. I pull it open and am transfixed for a while by the layer of this plastic that has been left on the window (from when it was bought)
It makes the glass have a very green irredesent tinge with an oily rainbow round the edges.
Clambering up onto the ledge, I see that outside the window is a floating stall. Up above the street below, we have loads of kitchen cabinets and things suspended by magic in the air for punters to look at.
I clamber up among these and look down at the bright sunny street below, full of lots of passers by.
A feeling from a previous dream that I will be grabbed before I can start flying fills me. I push off from next to a cabinet and sure enough someone grabs at my shoe. After a few seconds I free myself but am throw off course. I fly up above the street then land down on the pavement.
I summon someone and a russian lady in a white raincoat appears, she has black hair with a scarf.
We teleport to a shopping centre (how romantic) and I start to make out with her but very soon get bored with the sex feeling its a waste and wake up out of the dream.

I WILDED and pushed the blankets off my body. They were really heavy, and it was a struggle to get out of bed. The fact that I keep WILDING into my bedroom really bums me out. I stumbled around and as usual the dream was very unstable. It took a few seconds to gain some kind of resemblance to normality. It was very dark, but I felt like flying. I ran headfirst into the wall, hoping to phase through, but it didn't work and I fell back on my arse. The nice carpet on my bedroom had turned into a wooded floor and now my arse was killing me. My head was somehow alright. I got up gingerly and gave the wall a baleful stare. I didn't understand why I could phase through the wall sometimes but not others.

I decided to try again. I ran again and this time got through but found that the outside was not at all where I wanted to be. It was an old peoples home! I teleported out of there and ended up in my old house. It was empty. I decided to practice my fireballs, as I hadn't had any success last time. I saw a cool looking totem statue and decided to use it as my target. This time I pretended I could actually feel the heat in my hands and surprisingly when I looked there was fire! I had summoned an element!

I hurled it at the statue who was awash with flame. It stood there and...wasn't consumed to ash. I felt a bit dispirited to be honest, and just wandered around the rest of the house. If I couldn't even destroy a small statue, how would I be able to destroy that cretinous dream character from last time? Next time I think I will up the heat before firing it.

i seem to be in "my" room and do a nosepinch and can breath thru it. its one of those dreams where one for some reason just cant believe that one is dreaming. i stare multiple times at my hand to be sure. i leave the room and find myself in hallway i try to make a fireball with a bowling gesture but i am still not grounded enough to perform any dreamcontrol. i run down the stairs and start to jump floor by floor down without taking the stairs anymore. at one point i somehow jump/float down several floors without touching the ground, just the handrail. i arrive the maindoor and since its dark a little i try to use the lightswitch but nothing happens... like always, i grin and just continue because its not a problem after all. i leave the house thinking about where to go and suddenly see signs made out of light floating infront of me in thin air. i follow them and land infront of a gate where a party/gathering is on. with a strong high jump i jump over the fence and land between some guests. some say "wow" some just ignore me. i move around saying hi to some and just look at the people to see who is there. wake up

i dont remember much of it. i just know that i suddenly think "ah this is a dream again" and get lucid by it. i do a nosepinch and say something to a random DC waking up shortly after..