Recent DJ Posts

1. I had just closed my eyes to do WBTB, and seconds after doing so, a dream formed. I focused on the dream and seconds later I was fully immersed within it and was fully lucid. I was standing on the roof of a super tall building that was made of all concrete. More specifically, I was standing on the edge on the corner of this roof. Beyond me as far as I could see was an ocean. The sun was setting and the sky was filled with smooth clouds that were a mixture of blue purple and pink in color. The entire sky was like this. Because the clouds were this color, the majority of the ocean in front of me was the same color as well. "Wow" I remember saying out loud. The scene was amazing.
I looked behind me and saw tons of futuristic buildings, and some of them looked slightly similar to the one I was standing on. This city or whatever it was, looked like it was asleep. There was no movement down below and I saw no people. As a slightly strong wind blew over me, I thought of what I should do. "It's been a while since I've flown" I thought to myself. With that, I jumped off the roof with the intention to fly, but I had no idea how well I was going to do. Immediately I started plummeting towards the ground far below me, but within seconds I gained control and started flying. However, control might not be the right word because I ended up not being able to control where I was going. I instantly started ascending higher and higher into the sky at an extremely rapid pace, and the feeling of adrenaline that came with this was a little overwhelming.
Within the next 30 or so seconds I found myself leaving the Earth's atmosphere. A wave of fear rushed through me, but quickly dissipated as I reminded myself "This is a dream." Soon I was floating out in space, just looking at the Earth from this point of view. Surrounding the Earth's atmosphere I could see many large space stations and space ships. At this point I realized how far out in space I was, and I also became aware of how cold it was. The coldness was not unbearable at all though, and it actually felt quite good. Suddenly my vision starts fading and I hear some futuristic female voice with a british accent saying "dream destabilizing" accompanied by a constant beeping noise. In the moment, I wasn't sure how to respond to this because I rarely have dreams in space, and my only way of stabilizing was by keeping my awareness up which was hard to do given the unexpectedness of the situation. Seconds later I awoke.

2. I was riding an electric scooter up and down my friend Pat's street, and a lot of people and friends were outside along with me. It seemed like it was the afternoon considering the sun was setting and it just merely felt like it. I don't think any of my really close friends were outside with me(the squad and bros), but they were still friends nonetheless. I remember that all of these friends that were outside with me were mad at me, but I wasn't sure why. I got the notion that they thought I was evil or something because of their actions towards me. My friend Grant was in a four-seater go-cart along with 3 other friends and as I was riding this electric scooter south down Pat's street, Grant was charging at me at full speed with his go-cart.
This was the exact point where I realized that they all truly thought I was evil. Since I was riding my scooter close to the curb, I had no way of escaping Grant's full force go-cart. I had only seconds left to decide what I was going to do in order to evade and potentially harmful situation. Right as Grant's go-cart was within 3 feet of me I yelled, "Roll up" and suddenly my scooter jumped about 5 or 6 feet into the air and over Grant. I landed safely and rode the scooter for a few more seconds until I stopped and got off. As I turned back around I saw Grant and some other friends walking towards me laughing. "Dude how the fuck did you do that?" Grant asked. "I'm not evil guys" I replied.
With that they all walked back and went inside Pat's house. I could hear music coming from inside so I assumed that he was throwing a party again. As they walked inside I looked and saw that all of the lights were off, but there were some flickering club-type dance lights blinking on and off. At the moment I am still a few houses to the left of Pat's house. Suddenly I notice A walking on the sidewalk. I start walking to Pat's house, with the intention that I'm most likely not going to talk to her. However, that immediately changes as I walk up to her and we are now walking side by side. The neighborhood was now quiet and a soft breeze blew against us. A was wearing a cyan fleece hoodie and blue skinny jeans.
"I haven't seen you in a while" I said nonchalantly. "I know, I have to tell you something really important" A says with a serious but calm voice. "How? You seem like you're drunk right now haha" I told her. "No trust me I'm fine" she replies. A then proceeded to tell me a few major things that have been on her mind about the idea of "Us". I don't remember 2 of the things she told me, but the one that stuck with me was when she said "I've known you and missed you since I was a little kid. And I don't even know how that makes any sense because we didn't even meet each other for the first time until 7th grade. This entire time I've been missing you and just waiting for you to come back. I've missed you for years Cory" she told me as her eyes filled up with tears.
Right as she said this I went into deep thought about everything and the past of her and I. It really struck my heart to say the least. After some seconds had passed she said "I have to go inside now. I'll talk to you again later." I remember that she was sniffling as she walked into Pat's house. I remained standing in Pat's driveway where we had stopped walking and contemplated over the conversation I just had with A. In no time at all a tear streamed down my face and the words "Someone by your side" echoed in my mind.

I thought with only 3 hours of sleep last night that I would try for an hour nap. No success for sleep but one HH after another. I was only in bed for 45 minutes total.

1. Saw a wall with screens on it that were each showing images scrolling up on each one and there were at least 30. As I tried to pick out any image that looked familiar they started going really fast. I chuckled (my mind is teasing me, nanny nanny boo boo you can't see me) my heart was beating faster as the images were going so fast, I thought to myself "slow down damn it" then they started to slow down to one big white screen and my heart rate was back to normal.

2. I saw an image as if I was sitting on a red bike and looking down at the front wheel, again I laughed, the wheel wasn't even inside the fork it was to the left. I have a black Trek this was a red Scott, My dreams are usually much more real and not as blatant craziness.

3. Again images scrolling this time in a single line and moving to the left, and not fast...none of them were anything I ever saw before...people and places like photographs..heart rate went up again, and photos sped up and then again it fizzled out.

4. Then I see a wheel like on the price is right and it has movies playing on each screen of the wheel. This was a bit more strange. I willed it to spin so I could see all of the movies. These were of familiar dream scenes. The wheel stopped on a very good looking DC I met at a baseball game about a month ago. He is about 35-40 with light brown hair and beautiful blue eyes. All of these were silent but he was smiling at me and looking right at me. Prior Dream: I was at a baseball game and I was upset about something so I was crying. I could feel the heartbreak but I don't know what it was for, when I sat down next to a guy (same as above) I looked over at him and he looked right into my eyes as if we had known each other forever, and he reached over and wiped my tears from my eyes. I could feel the energy and emotion was extremely powerful. We spent the night walking around the town and I was trying really hard to see how far I could get it go. He kissed me on the lips and flew into the air....hmmm he can LD also....cool.. I chased him but he was much faster than I was and was and he was showing off. I never found him...darn it! I felt like we shared a really good moment.

23.10.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was boarding a pirate-like ship in Miami. Daniela had picked me up at the airport and we hooked up on the way to the port. I was Captain of the ship. The tripulation included Tyrion and Jaime Lanister, and my miami friends too. There was a curse though, I had to keep my hands covered at all times or the demon would wake up and come for us. The demon was kinda like Samara from the Ring, although it occasionally changed into a monster. It was sleeping in one of the cabins, and we tried to stay away from it. At one point someone gave me a towel, but it was too small, and the demon woke up and started walking towards us, Samara style.





Eventually the curse broke and the girl stood up, she was a shy, pretty girl. We are arrived at a port and I told Alejandro I wanted to sleep with Dani. I then realized Dani's sister had heard me. At that point, my gf shows up and I then realized I couldn't sleep with Dani, it would be wrong. I helped my gf get off the boat.

This was a longer dream but I didn't write about it upon waking up. Although it sounds like a bit of a nightmare, I wasn't really too scared at any point. I love sea and pirate-related things, so just the fact that I was captain of a pirate ship I think made up for the whole being haunted by a demon thing.
In dreams I often have partial waking-memory, in this case I had totally forgotten I had a gf until she showed up. I used to feel guilty about this upon waking up, but then, there are dreams in which I don't even remember who I am IWL, so I think it is understandable.

I went to sleep at about 4am. Emi came to sleep home with Eri and they talked to about that hour. Im writing a day later, so... i don't remember very well the dreams. I will highlight what i remember well. The other things are things i wrote in my DJ.

- I dream being in a forest or somewhere spatious (meaning no buildings. Also could have been a town). I was with my father and (my deceased (2 years)) dog in a car. My father went there to leave the dog free. He said to me that that was the idea. [Interpretation: why to let him free? He was bothersome, but we wouldn't let him free for that, never. Once my father let go a dog because it had bited my sister when she was little. But even then he regreted it. However the reason why we let him go (i didn't know until the last moment) was because an animal should be free. Yesterday when i was walking i saw some caged birds and thought about this. I remember that i had a bird, and my sister one day dropped the cage and he was free. I was upset because it was given to me as a gift, but at the same time i was happy because he was free. That kind of thought i had when my father said to me in this dream he wanted to set free the dog. Also he not only gives freedom to the dog, but also to himself. (The main drawback would be where he would get food from... but i thought he would learn, and he would feel good not to feel imprisioned. Probably not at first, but after some time yes.)] My father was wearing the same tshirt i was wearing that day. I didn't interpret that as dream sign, so it remained as non-lucid.

I got up went to bathroom, and went back to bed. Then woke up at 12:

I was on a building and went outside to the streets. There was like a revolution going on. I was walking and my younger sister walked besides me. Then i saw Mike, the librarian, he wanted to vaccinate me. He was acting like ... if he was vaccinated and goodbye mike and welcome alien or something like that (like one would see in a movie). So he was about to stitch me with the syringe but i said not a chance in earth. I grabbed his arm and hand and pointed the syringe to his other hand. Then it made contact with his skin and i pressed down. I didn't feel good doing that, or having that reaction (it's like killing someone for defending oneself. One could react like that, but it probably won't feel emotionally good afterwards. The same with this case). But even though i did that i knew i wasn't going to escape because there were so many people already vaccinated, and they would try to vaccinate others, and these others were few (the only chance would be to escape, flying or something like that, or...). I saw my grandmother right next to mike, and while i was doing that she stitched me with a syringe and said to Mike "it's done". (Why people do that? I thought. They think they do something good while they are not.) Anyways i wasn't vaxxinated, just a stitch with the syringe, which even that would do. So i kept walking with them, and i explained my sister that i didn't want to because the vaccines have blood, poison and things like that. Then i focused on myself, that i would have to be aware of the whole process, since i could transform or whatever but still be in charge. However i didn't feel any changes, and i thought that there was a probability for me to be immune.

I was in bed sleeping with my eyes closed when I started hearing some voices. I tried to get up and found it was difficult to move. Still not seeing anything, I felt my best bet of getting out of bed was to sink. After a few seconds of trying, I was able to sink through my bed. I was now in a void. I saw a wall with some hieroglyphics on it then my vision went out again. I could hear the clanking of some sort of chain lift. My vision came back and I saw I was in a narrow hallway of a rundown industrial looking building. I saw a door and slowly phased though it. I was now in a small restroom. I looked in a mirror and saw myself. I was more short and stocky, had oversized eyes and a brown afro. I went back into the hallway and tried to summon a dolphin before I woke up.

Medium LD 5.30-7.50am
I am in bed with AB. There is some snuggling and cuddling. Then I get up and try to use a computer. That doesn't work very well. I move the screen around to see it better. There are plants next to the bed and loose earth. I try to stamp some of the earth into place. Outside in the hallway are voices - AB talking to father.

Then playing chase with an unknown person. We reach the back door. This house has the layout of my parent's home. It is dark outside. They run out into the darkness. I do not want to stumble around in the darkness trying to find them and instead go back upstairs. Upon reaching the attic room - my childhood bedroom - I become lucid. RC by looking at left hand. First finger lopped off halfway up. Cool.

I phase through window. It is light outside, daytime. The village is made up of a few sparse detached houses. I do some flying and then perch on a fence. Groups of people wandering around the village. Large group heading off down road. See them transform into two huge dire wolves.

Decide to haunt a suitable looking gothic looking house. I go inside and become mostly invisible and ethereal looking. I change my appearance to be scary - dead rotting face and sunken dark eyes. Then I lure the people outside into the house.

I wait until they are in the first room then laugh evilly to freak then out. They see me, scream and run outside. I leave the house chuckling wondering what to do next and then wake.

Morning of October 23, 2016. Sunday.



In my dream, I am only about twelve years old. I had missed my school bus and I decide that I will walk to school (regardless of the fact that it would take far too long in reality). There is no memory of my current conscious self identity.

On my way, I go through what I consider to be a part of the supposed normal school bus route but in actuality it is through a few unfamiliar areas. In one area, there are about four features (not close together) that look like oversized birdhouses that seem to be for some sort of ritualistic purpose or perhaps are implied to be small wayside shrines. There is a sense of nonthreatening eeriness to the region. The birdhouses’ entrances look like tree silhouettes, which adds to the eeriness. I remain uncertain of whether or not I have to acknowledge these seemingly important artifacts before moving on, but I decide to keep walking.

The last part of my journey involves walking through a field of grass that is up to my knees. However, off to my left, is a long perimeter of higher grass (about six feet high) and weeds and thin shrubs. An unrealistic number of insects (not venomous) continue to swarm out over me and the rest of the area, making a buzzing sound. Although this is a somewhat difficult situation in that so many flying insects are slowing my progress towards an area where other students are standing around near the school, I am not annoyed. In fact, I am focused on the extreme vividness and seeming beauty of the area as I walk along, becoming lucid in the final moments, though letting my dream fade.

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The main reason for this dream was from looking at a number of school bus dreams from the 1970s yesterday, so much of my residual thoughts were focused on that and were eventually rendered into the typical autosymbolic journey that leads back into consciousness, waking life, and the conscious self identity. The birdhouse-like structures represent the usual flight symbol factor from autosymbolism relating to vestibular system dynamics that occurs in over twenty percent of my dreams (averaging out to about two dreams per normal sleeping period), and subliminal associations with our own bedroom and being home (rather than being out walking around as my illusory dream implies). The eerie tree silhouettes in place of the birdhouse doors is a subliminal association with my physical body not moving in sleep, with the whole birdhouse-like feature with a vague subliminal anticipation of the common hypnopompic kick or waking start. I also tend to dream about long grass when I am subliminally aware of the bed sheet pulling on my legs more than usual. The buzzing insects at the end were autosymbolic for the subliminal perception of increased neural activity, which also triggers certain types of lucidity as here. This dream is similar to a number of other dreams since childhood, including “Wayside Shrine” from January 1, 2002.

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Bed @ 2125
Woke @ 0155

On an alien spaceship
I'm watching a movie in which a general is addressing his men. The general and his men are all aliens which just look like men who have been painted with a mix of silver and gold metallic paint. I recognize that the general is a famous actor, but I can't remember who he is or what else he's been in. For a famous actor, I'm surprised at how "ordinary" he looks - he's got a rather blocky face and some pretty bad buck teeth. In a way, I'm kind of glad - Hollywood tends to put forward people who are "too perfect." The general is telling his troops that he's been working on making a movie, and that it's almost done, but that higher-ups in his command have demanded that he add a new character, "Hiss," before the film ships. He lets people know that they're going to have a rare chance to watch filming happen and possibly even be involved in the process.

Now I'm looking at a screen of some sort. The general starts distinguishing between groups of reptilian soldiers based on whether or not they're married and whether or not they've helped a female bear eggs. The screen is split into columns, and a pattern of tiny lizard footprints appears in the relevant column as he speaks of each group and their eggs. * Now I'm walking through the spaceship. I pause and look into an open doorway on my right and see a small, poorly lit room. Now I have the feeling that the general has his eye on me and is toying with me. I'm walking down a very bare hallway, and I feel that something is wrong. I turn around and find a closed door right behind me where a moment ago there was only empty hallway. I turn back around to find that the end of the hallway is now just a few feet away. I look at the wall to my right and find that, while it was bare a moment ago, it now has an unmarked door. I decide to try using diffuse vision (from the dream yoga class) to watch both ends of the hallway at the same time. I look straight at the wall and let my vision unfocus slightly, and I find I'm able to watch the wall, the door, and the end of the hallway. After a few moments, I can see the hallway actually redrawing itself. When it's done, the single door has been replaced by a pair of doors for men's and women's bathrooms. I briefly consider going into the women's but decide to go into the men's instead.

Now I'm in the men's bathroom. A white tiled hallway extends away in front of me, eventually opening out into the bathroom proper. Halfway down the hallway I see a very petite woman standing across from a large wall-mounted mirror. She greets me and lets me know that, by entering this room, I've lost. She asks me to look at the floor, at the pattern of white and grey tiles, and notes that every single white tile is a bad end. I realize that I'm dreaming. I say something about her dog, and it lies down and rolls onto its side. I don't like her, so I tell her to turn around and put her hands on the wall. To my surprise, she immediately complies.* Now I'm talking to the guy who's responsible for building traps on the ship.


Fragment: I've got an overhead view of small pools of water connected by narrow streams of water, laid out in a kind of grid.


BTB @ 0215
Woke @ 0700 /w no recall

Nap: 1445-1615

Playing on a trampoline
I'm on a large rectangular-ish trampoline with my eldest son and eldest daughter. At first, I jump near them; but when my daughter tries to hold me down, I scold her, saying it's dangerous to do that, then start jumping away from them, trying to keep them from getting me. There's enough space on this trampoline that I bet I can do it indefinitely, so I'll need to be careful to give them enough success that they don't get frustrated.


Japanese infiltration
I'm in Japan, getting ready to board a bus. It's large and black, and it has white writing on the side. The driver is standing to the left of the steps, greeting passengers as they get on. I have an armful of stuff, and I've got some kind of identity/payment card in my right hand. As it comes to my turn to board, I remember my card and free my hand a bit from my bundle, kind of waving the card at the driver; then I realize it might not actually be what I need, so I try to ask him how I'm supposed to pay for the trip. He doesn't understand my question and answers something completely different. I try asking my question another way, and he says that the steps will turn into a slippery ramp if someone tries to board who shouldn't be there. I'm starting to get a bit flustered, and I ask him how the bus knows if someone belongs or not. At this point, a woman who's standing nearby starts laughing and tells the driver I must be a tourist who doesn't know that this is a reserved bus. I'm annoyed and embarrassed, but I go over to talk to her since she seems to know knows what's going on and is fluent in English.

Now I've been talking with her for a while, but we're now standing on some kind of steps in the corner of a huge room. I thank her for her help and her advice and apologize for having to excuse myself. I'm doing some kind of infiltration, and she's gotten me inside, but there s more to do. Now I'm flying out of a huge indoor tunnel, and pursuit is close behind. Now I'm struggling along a walkway running on the outside of a large missile that's in flight.


Fragments:
I'm in a cozy room filled with small rectangular tables. Something about Emily and her family.

I'm outside on a grassy field - something is worrying me.

Took a big swig of Valerian at bed time. Super tired over a week of little sleep. Didn't recall much throughout the night, until the final dreams of the morning before the (fairly early) alarm hit: a loooooooong epic that just kept going. Fewer points but I like the continuity!

+ dancing competition in class, I do ice skating

+ epic [long, vivid] "The Titanic Crashes in Point, Nevada"
I'm driving a car on the freeway in Nevada with my wife. I point out to here, "see, the hills start here, it looks totally like the moon!" Like I always say with this view:


I come upon a light turning red as I pass through, my wife says "careful!" (we don't want to get a ticket). While driving I switch to an overhead map view, and I get a call from my parents. They say that they have reserved a place for us in Point. I google for it on the map and all I see is a small place marked "Pt." on the map, I think this is a common search term. My mom tells me that it is about the same distance from us that Santa Barbara is from San Diego. I think, wait, that's really far, I don't want to go that far. Then I see an overheat of Point, with a large resort called "Point". It's like I'm now looking at a scale model, and something slips out of place and an old guy puts it back.

Then I'm inside the resort in the dining room. There are people about and we're trying to find the best food. There are pastries on tables. Moving about from room to room, something about a crash?

In airplane-style seating. I have my seat at the right edge of the row against the wall. It's very important to have a seat (or you won't be saved?). I'm thinking a lot about my seat and the # and my ticket. G28? I have a nametag on my shirt with my seat number. A small black boy comes by, he says he's the ticket guy, I'm dubious, I won't want to hand him my ticket because I don't want to lose my seat. I want to just show him a piece of paper from the seat. But then it turns out that I'm in the wrong seat, that I need to switch with some guy a few aisles down, I see that his seat is worse than mine, in the middle of a row. He's happy to improve his seat. In the end he sits back down and there is a liquid chugging sound and it turns out he's on drugs which are hooked up to tube delivery system on the back of his chair, now facing its back to me.

Some people had rushed me earlier, and I think they may have switched my seat number tag. I look down at it and it now says "D30".

Now two pretty girls approach us and want to sit with us even though they don't have tickets for our row. They sit very close, basically on my lap

Spoiler for sexual encounter:

One of them has her hand on my erection through the outside of my pants, she keeps it there for a while. The two girls start making out passionately right in front of me, just inches away, I see them "chewing face" quite clearly, it's very erotic. Then I start moving my hand along one girl's stomach up under her shirt towards her boobs, but I stop myself and think "No, I don't want to be 'that guy', that takes advantage of a girl in need"

Then I'm moving through the ship, we're trying to get out (it has crashed?) the rooms are all at a funny angle, I move past the bridge and the captain's chair out a door to the outside. A senior crew member says something.

Then I'm standing on a hilltop in a desolate area outside, in the distance to the right there is a very high hill, I ask an old guy who's standing there, if it gets snow in the winter, he indicates yes, several feet, and it's good for skiing. Then I see a mountain in front of me to the left of the hill, it's close, huge, craggy, with a tall overhang near the top, and the entire left side is like a vertical jagged razor-sharp edge. I say/think "hah I bet it's impossible to climb that thing!" and then I look and see a trail of climbers on the mountain. They're connected using a buckle to a wire-line placed on the mountain. I/the guy says something about not trusting your life to a buckle.

Standing out in the desolate area, the guy is giving advice about how to survive the cold: you have to just go and find somebody to hook up with and huddle together for warmth. I think I'd much rather find a girl to huddle with but I may need to find a guy.

Then there's an alien sort of bounty/prize hunter there with a Krull-like-glaive "starfish" blade living familiar-thing that he throws at some victim guy.

The victim guy catches it and throws it back at the hunter. The living glaive stops in mid-air, reverses direction back towards the initial victim, and is exposing its teeth how and hits the victim.

Up for about 3 hours.

Nap, "Empty mind" meditation, fall asleep

+ [semi-lucid feeling] strange house. I'm observing a house with strange things in it. I'm simultaneously outside and inside the house, I see that bags/(sheep?) have been piled up against the windows. I'm trying to identify all the weird stuff inside. I eventually go inside an distinctly notice an "animal" smell like this is a room where a pet has stayed for many years. There are DCs here and I'm feeling frisky so I whip it out and wonder which one to approach for some attention, dream fades.

+ son S2 burns the burgers and slops soy sauce all over the floor in a large puddle. I do a double take on the large puddle in the middle of the room. Then I notice the lower oven storage shelf is pulled out and there are 3-4 burnt-looking burgers sizzling there in a sauce that is overflowing the aluminum foil and that's what's causing the puddle on the floor. I say something to son S2 about this mess and he quips a response.

+ [semi-lucid feeling] flying around my CH trying to avoid being seen by a visitor who's just behind me I wonder if I should take off flying, if I can get up over the roof of the house and the tall bushes before he comes around the corner, I decide to do it and I notice that on the street a large truck has parked on our property, completely parked on top of the juniper bushes off of the road, that's quite rude I think, I settle down on my back in the bushes as the guy following me heads for his truck then I think it's not his truck, then he's shining a light down on to me and I think he's found me. Then we're at the neighbor's house right there inspecting some new construction, it's a little work shed, I see inside there is a table with some tools on it, and I see the door which is slightly ajar has a fancy motion detector on it. I'm working with a big glass window to the little work room, there is an odd ball-and-socket connector that I just can't get to snap, the socket keeps pushing away when I press the ball connector into it, and I think that despite having a lot of experience [FALSE] with this connector, it's funny that I can't get it to snap in place. I look to my left and I see the neighbor friend of mine and some unknown girl in between us, dark hair, I look away from her. I hear the voices of the neighbor family talking, I'm thinking that the now-grown children may have moved back home to take care of their mother.

A woman made a deal with one of my kind, a short man in a black suit who irritates me, and so he's placed his mark on her wrist, a symbol in the shape of a sword, representing "Iudex," the judge. This will allow him to possess her, though she was unaware of this. I'm furious. He's well within his rights, but I deeply dislike him and his people who bear that symbol; I'm going to destroy his mark. It's not difficult, any changes to the lines in her skin will do the job. I ask her to choose the method (a knife) and if she wants me to do it for her or if she'd rather do it herself (she asks me to do it), three horizontal cuts distort the symbol sufficiently, and then I set out a bandage for her.

The frustrating thing about not sleeping is I am not having good dream recall. The strangest part about it is I rarely get more than 4-5 hours of sleep (even though I am in bed 7 hours) and I wake up feeling fine and still run, walk and ride bikes with plenty of energy. I feel as though I rarely really sleep even when I do sleep because I feel I am aware of everything going on around my physical body in bed and in my sleep. I feel I rarely get to a deep sleep. I try to think positive and feel that if I am in a relaxed state laying in bed it is good enough and I will be ok. I have been doing this for so long I guess it is normal for me. You just always hear that you need 7-10 hours of sleep and that just hasn't happened but I am hopeful that day will come. Ahhhhh I can only imagine my wonderful dreams then :-).

I am really ad at getting LD's how hard I try, but this time....

I did have a lucid dream this time! And luckily a little longer then 10 secondsxD It could be 2 minutes, haha.
I have gone to sleep at 22:00 and woke up at 4 AM. I did WBTB, and stayed up till 5:00.
Then I did a WILD attempt. I did get hypnagogic senastions, etc. But there happened nothing like dreams or anything, I guess I fell asleep at some time? But what was weird was, I suddenly walked in a total different bedroom. It was day, and I walked to my bed. The floor was light brown, the wall was white. And next to my bed were windows. I layed my hand on the blanket of the bed, and suddenly I knew I was dreaming. I did a RC, and it worked! I was really dreaming. (Omg I was so happy, finally my 2nd LDxD)

I also rubbed my hands together to really feel it, and get it more (vivid I guess??) Now, I walked to the door that was across of my bed, and stood still before the door. I thought, I will summon my favorite anime character! So I said to myself. When I open this door, I see my favorite character (Yato from noragami) before me. I take a deep breath, and open the door...... nothing... (Damn, I was so excited to see himxD but there is something that I didn't do right I guess...)

Oh well.. I'll continue! I walked through the door, and saw a staircase that goes down. I think before walking off it. (Hey!!! I can try flying!) So I did. Again, I take deep breath, and say to myself, I can fly... I fly off this staircase downwards!! (I don't know if this was super bad grammar, I am sorry..) I take a big jump, and.... I didn't fly... But I did had a big float like jump down the stairs. (damn, I wanted to fly, but I jumped like a ninja from Naruto)
When I was downstairs. In the hall, with a stone floor in the color that was like my floor in the bedroom.
I also saw the main door, across the stair. I walked towards it, and stood still before the door, and turned from it. I then saw the stairs, and further a open door where the living room was. I then tried to attempt flying again. I looked at the ceiling, and said to myself again, (I can fly, I fly! I believe it) I made a little jump, and it was again, a ninja jump... why... I then forgot what I did afterxD I guess I lost my lucidity, haha.

It was really fun, I hope to LD again, haha^^
See you at the next DJ entry!
Yukita.
(Sorry for bad grammar, you can tell me the mistakes, I can remove themxD)

Last night bed 8pm - 3:20am

DR at 2:32am

We are looking out of the windows of a 2-3 story at some single story buildings and a wall behind them. Two tornados are getting closer. We rush outside and start herding kids from a school yard away from it. Someobody runs on the ground, I'm running on tops of the buidlings. I think the tornados are gone, but as I looke behind me, they are still coming. They are rather light in color, only a few feet wide and not connected to the skies.

We stop at the end of this row of buildings, out of direct danger. As I stand in the alley between the buildings and another wall, I feel strong winds and heavy objects flying by my head. I realize I should not be standing in narrow, opened passage where there is nothing to duck behind. I realize it's a lesson and I'm about to pull out my notebook from back pocket and write down this lesson #1. I walk behind the corner of this building I was standing next to and now I'm out of the direct path of the wind.

No feeling of danger at all.

After an hour of meditation, I hit my WILD. I am in the void, but I am really close to a place behind me. I can feel my hands rubbing together. I walk next to a fountain. I turn it to ice. I jump on it and it breaks. I fall through and am flying above where I was just at, just like I was in my visualizations. I fly down to the fountain again and pull out my sword. It isn't my sword. I toss it on the ground. I put my hands together and magic circles appear, as I pull my white katana out. Been wanting to try that. I put the tip on my hand and slide it back in, it disappears into its magic sheath in the suspended dimension on my hand. I do this five times just to get the feel and get the idea saved in my head. Then I put it away and want Jason, he should be able to help me. I feel him behind me. I turn around and he isn't looking at me.
"Take me there"
He seems mad, maybe Zödra has gotten worse because of me or he thinks I have grown weak. Better show him I am not weak. I pause time as he walks away and grab his head. Then I slam it into the doorway and it bounces off. I reverse time and do it again. This time I pause and build up power. I release and throw him into the doorway again. It breaks and his head pauses there due to time still not being on. I turn it on and he jumps out of it and stares at me. He smiles and says
"This way." He steps into the house.
"It is in this big estate?" I ask him, walking into an Elizabethan styled mansion.
"It is anywhere we are." He opens the door and it is the same room we were just in. Except there are a couple of differences, sofa is a bit newer, recliner replaced with a computer chair. I realize that it is like the shadow walk to Amber, all we have to do it going in one direction, entering the same room over and over and it will keep changing until it is the room I want to use my key in. After 5 times of walking into the same room and changing small things, a computer and all sorts of levers were on the wall, making it close to the control panel I need.

Legend: non-lucid lucid lucid false awakening

I am looking at my classes schedule. I see there are a lot of cancelled classes although I have only one this month. I realize I am dreaming. But, in this dream, my consciousness is present, but my body is not. This is the first time I have ever had a dream like this. I don't know how to proceed, so I wake up